Cheeky Posted October 25, 2021 Share Posted October 25, 2021 Hi lovely, hows your morning going ? 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted October 25, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted October 25, 2021 @Cheeky My mornings are generally rough. The last two evenings I a have some sense of calm. I get this panic in my body and brain that makes me want to smack my head. Then the noise sensitivity morphs on days and I want to rip my ears off. I can feel like I am drowning and I can't breathe. I don't feel like I am not getting enough air, so I am not afraid of suffocation. 🤥 Maybe it like being on the verge of a panic attack. If you read the story " What is happening in your brain" a lot of my brain is off, the filter is not working right. The noises make me panicky my brain doesn't know what to do with it, it thinks I should be scared of something. The crazy thing is, the more I cut the Lex a little more common sense returns. It is crazy though, one minute I will think with common sense and then it will change to panic, distorted thoughts, and some D/R.🥴 I have no motivation to do much of anything.😞 How are you doing?🌞❤️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Cheeky Posted October 26, 2021 Share Posted October 26, 2021 13 hours ago, Greatful said: @Cheeky My mornings are generally rough. The last two evenings I a have some sense of calm. I get this panic in my body and brain that makes me want to smack my head. Then the noise sensitivity morphs on days and I want to rip my ears off. I can feel like I am drowning and I can't breathe. I don't feel like I am not getting enough air, so I am not afraid of suffocation. 🤥 Maybe it like being on the verge of a panic attack. If you read the story " What is happening in your brain" a lot of my brain is off, the filter is not working right. The noises make me panicky my brain doesn't know what to do with it, it thinks I should be scared of something. The crazy thing is, the more I cut the Lex a little more common sense returns. It is crazy though, one minute I will think with common sense and then it will change to panic, distorted thoughts, and some D/R.🥴 I have no motivation to do much of anything.😞 How are you doing?🌞❤️ All your feeling are normal and sound sensitivity is so common. This is hard everyday is different. We have to stay strong and continue to look after ourselves. Im having a sh*tty day again after such a good day yesterday. I don’t know how to help except say I’m with you in this . 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
Kat66 Posted October 26, 2021 Share Posted October 26, 2021 Hi @Greatful how are you doing? X History of depression and anxiety. Symptoms of PTSD. 1998-1999 Venlafaxine 2006-2007 Prozac.2013-15 Sertraline 50mg. 2015 cross-tapered to citalopram 20mg. 2015-2021 Citalopram 20mg (brief increase to 30mg for 2/3 months in 2019. 01/2021 Dropped from 20mg to 10mg, back up to 20mg til June. 25/6/21 stopped CT. Started 50mg 5htp after a week without citalopram in the hope this would balance out my serotonin levels. After 3 days increased to 100mg 5htp. 11/7/21 Stopped 5htp with the intention of reinstating citalopram at 1mg. 16/7/21 Reinstated cit at 1mg. 2/8/21 Increased dose to 2mg. 28/11/21 10% reduction to 1.8mg. 8/12/21 2mg 6/1/22 1.8mg 10/2/22 1.6mg 13/5/22 1.5mg 4/6/22 1.55mg 4/7/22 1.4mg 4/8/22 1.25mg 1/11/22 1.1mg 3/3/23 1mg 18/4/23 0.9mg 2/6/23 0.8mg 4/10/23 0.7mg 11/11/23 jumped off @0.7mg started on 5htp 200mg -400mg, L-Theanine, and L-tyrosine 200mg. 25/11/23 came off 5-htp, l-tyrosine and l-Theanine. 24/12/23 went on 7.5mg mirtazapine. 27/12/23 stopped mirtazapine & reinstated citalopram @.35mg. 1/1/24 increased to 0.5mg. PTSD diagnosis October 2023. 11/11/23 started EMDR therapy for PTSD. Multiple unsuccessful attempts to taper off citalopram. Vegan, otherwise healthy lifestyle. Other medications; tapering off combined HRT. Other supplements; magnesium glycinate, vegan omega3. Completely OFF caffeine (since July 21). Finding it difficult to completely give up alcohol but haven’t had any since 25/12/23. Main symptoms; crushing depression, anhedonia/emotional anesthesia, irritability, rage, anxiety/fear, intrusive thoughts, cognitive fog, inability to focus, restlessness and some insomnia Link to comment
AndyPants Posted October 27, 2021 Share Posted October 27, 2021 On 10/25/2021 at 7:48 AM, Greatful said: The crazy thing is, the more I cut the Lex a little more common sense returns. It is crazy though, one minute I will think with common sense and then it will change to panic, distorted thoughts, and some D/R.🥴 I have no motivation to do much of anything.😞 Yeah this is the worst. I hate the back and forth thing where one moment you're thinking "yeah life is alright, I've got this" and the next it's like "everything is bad." You are not alone in this! Lexapro/Escitalopram history: 2012 to 2020 20 mg July 2020 10 mg November 2020 5 mg 2/15/21 1/2 a 5mg pill ~2.5 mg 2/25/21 3/4 a 5mg pill ~3.75 mg 3/25/21 1/2 a 5mg pill ~2.5 mg 4/20/21 switched to liquid 2.8 mg, made a couple more increases over a week and a half to 3.5mg 5/14/21 increased further up to 3.8 mg, held there until Oct 2021 Decreasing steadily since 10/1/21 Latest change 3/15/24 .14mg Current supplements: Once per morning: men's multivitamin, vitamin c, selenium, zinc, magnesium chelate (100mg per pill), fish oil (1000 mg per pill) Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted October 27, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted October 27, 2021 (edited) @Kat66 Same old, same old. The story is the same. I had a few rough days, I seem to be working on peeking over the rim of my hole🕳️👀. Feeling blah and restless at the same time. One day at a time, dreaming of laughter, smiles, and being happy.🌞 I feel pressure to get better faster than I am. I have a little over 2 months until I have to go back to work. At the speed I am healing it doesn't look good. Oh well what good does it do to fret over something that is in the future. We must stay in the moment right😁 They would take one look at me and wonder what kind of drugs I am on. Ha Ha. What me drunk, high, no, just out to lunch with WD. WD, what's that they say. It is what happens when the doctors give you the special candy and then the special candy makes your brain turn into mush when you try to stop eating the special candy.🥴 See the candy made my brain turn sassy and maybe just a little bit frustrated😆 I know how to explain how my brain feels. It feels like it has been at the dentist and had Novocain and it is starting to wear off. The tingling and pain that come when this happens.🙄 Edited October 27, 2021 by Greatful https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted October 27, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted October 27, 2021 @AndyPants Hey there, thanks for stopping by and helping me feel that I just might be sane after all. It really is comforting to know that what you are going through is also felt by thousands of others. Isn't that sad to actually say. So many affected by these drugs.😥 How are you doing ? https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
AndyPants Posted October 28, 2021 Share Posted October 28, 2021 @Grateful I'm hanging in there. It's a lot of up and down, going from feeling alright to feeling hopeless. But overall I think I'm feeling okay enough that I'm going to try another decrease tomorrow. Lexapro/Escitalopram history: 2012 to 2020 20 mg July 2020 10 mg November 2020 5 mg 2/15/21 1/2 a 5mg pill ~2.5 mg 2/25/21 3/4 a 5mg pill ~3.75 mg 3/25/21 1/2 a 5mg pill ~2.5 mg 4/20/21 switched to liquid 2.8 mg, made a couple more increases over a week and a half to 3.5mg 5/14/21 increased further up to 3.8 mg, held there until Oct 2021 Decreasing steadily since 10/1/21 Latest change 3/15/24 .14mg Current supplements: Once per morning: men's multivitamin, vitamin c, selenium, zinc, magnesium chelate (100mg per pill), fish oil (1000 mg per pill) Link to comment
KittenLePurr Posted October 28, 2021 Share Posted October 28, 2021 Hey @Greatful, thinking about you and wondering how you're doing ❤️ 1990s Zoloft, Prozac, and a litany of other drugs including mood stabilizers 1998 Effexor 140mg and Remeron 40mg (I think) - quit cold turkey 2006 and NO W/D! Oh, to be young again... 2004 Lorazepam 0.5mg; switched to Klonipin 2010 2010 Klonipin 1-2mg/day - decreased gradually down to 0.35mg 2016-2017 & held, then tapered off April-July 2020 2012 Lexapro and Seraquil/Remeron - quit CT 2012 after 1 month of use 2013 Methadone 80mg (for heroin addiction;) decreased to 30mg 2016-2021 2014 Effexor 75mg - tapered off over 1.5 weeks by doc 2017 2017 Citalopram 20mg - started tapering Dec. 2019-March 2020; got down to 14.35 mg then paused to taper off Klonipin 2021 - Citalopram down to 12.8mg in April; July 11.52mg, August 10mg, Oct 9mg, Nov 8.1mg, Dec 7.8mg 2022 - Citalopram 7.4mg 2023 - September - off methadone! FINALLY OPIOID-FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Supplements: Tryptophan, 5-HTP, Tyrosine, vitamin D, topical magnesium, ashwagandha, phenibut, lion's mane, CBD, GABA Link to comment
Kat66 Posted October 29, 2021 Share Posted October 29, 2021 On 10/27/2021 at 7:37 PM, Greatful said: @Kat66 Same old, same old. The story is the same. I had a few rough days, I seem to be working on peeking over the rim of my hole🕳️👀. Feeling blah and restless at the same time. One day at a time, dreaming of laughter, smiles, and being happy.🌞 I feel pressure to get better faster than I am. I have a little over 2 months until I have to go back to work. At the speed I am healing it doesn't look good. Oh well what good does it do to fret over something that is in the future. We must stay in the moment right😁 They would take one look at me and wonder what kind of drugs I am on. Ha Ha. What me drunk, high, no, just out to lunch with WD. WD, what's that they say. It is what happens when the doctors give you the special candy and then the special candy makes your brain turn into mush when you try to stop eating the special candy.🥴 See the candy made my brain turn sassy and maybe just a little bit frustrated😆 I know how to explain how my brain feels. It feels like it has been at the dentist and had Novocain and it is starting to wear off. The tingling and pain that come when this happens.🙄 Sounds like you’re really going through it @Greatful you describe the experience of WD very eloquently. I’ve crashed back into a wave. Let’s be super kind to ourselves. Hugs to you, hang in there xxx History of depression and anxiety. Symptoms of PTSD. 1998-1999 Venlafaxine 2006-2007 Prozac.2013-15 Sertraline 50mg. 2015 cross-tapered to citalopram 20mg. 2015-2021 Citalopram 20mg (brief increase to 30mg for 2/3 months in 2019. 01/2021 Dropped from 20mg to 10mg, back up to 20mg til June. 25/6/21 stopped CT. Started 50mg 5htp after a week without citalopram in the hope this would balance out my serotonin levels. After 3 days increased to 100mg 5htp. 11/7/21 Stopped 5htp with the intention of reinstating citalopram at 1mg. 16/7/21 Reinstated cit at 1mg. 2/8/21 Increased dose to 2mg. 28/11/21 10% reduction to 1.8mg. 8/12/21 2mg 6/1/22 1.8mg 10/2/22 1.6mg 13/5/22 1.5mg 4/6/22 1.55mg 4/7/22 1.4mg 4/8/22 1.25mg 1/11/22 1.1mg 3/3/23 1mg 18/4/23 0.9mg 2/6/23 0.8mg 4/10/23 0.7mg 11/11/23 jumped off @0.7mg started on 5htp 200mg -400mg, L-Theanine, and L-tyrosine 200mg. 25/11/23 came off 5-htp, l-tyrosine and l-Theanine. 24/12/23 went on 7.5mg mirtazapine. 27/12/23 stopped mirtazapine & reinstated citalopram @.35mg. 1/1/24 increased to 0.5mg. PTSD diagnosis October 2023. 11/11/23 started EMDR therapy for PTSD. Multiple unsuccessful attempts to taper off citalopram. Vegan, otherwise healthy lifestyle. Other medications; tapering off combined HRT. Other supplements; magnesium glycinate, vegan omega3. Completely OFF caffeine (since July 21). Finding it difficult to completely give up alcohol but haven’t had any since 25/12/23. Main symptoms; crushing depression, anhedonia/emotional anesthesia, irritability, rage, anxiety/fear, intrusive thoughts, cognitive fog, inability to focus, restlessness and some insomnia Link to comment
Knosretep Posted November 1, 2021 Share Posted November 1, 2021 Hey @Greatful Hope your weekend went well! Just stopping by to read your story and to offer encouragement. You've come a long way from where you were when you first posted! Hang in there! 2013 - Jan 4, 2021 - Sertraline 50mg Jan 2021 - Venlafaxine 75mg (1/4) Feb 2021 : Mar 2021 - Venlafaxine 75mg April 2021 - Venlafaxine 75mg, Amitriptyline 2mg (4/20), Clonazepam 2mg May 2021 - Venlafaxine 75mg (5/16 - 0mg), Amitriptyline (5/1 - 1mg, 5/16 - 0mg), Clonazepam 2mg Aug 2021 - Sertraline 25mg (re 8/20), Clonazepam 2mg Sep 2021 - Sertraline 50mg (up 9/3), Clonazepam (9/29 - 1mg), Diazepam (9/29 - 2.5mg) Oct 2021 - Sertraline 50mg, Clonazepam (10/14 - 0.9mg, 10/24 - 1mg), Diazepam (10/6 - 1.25mg, 10/14 - 0mg), Trazodone (10/03 - 50mg, 10/17 - 25mg, 10/21 - 12.5mg), Mirtazapine (10/17 - 15mg) Nov 2021 : Current - Sertraline 50mg, Clonazepam (4/22 - 0.975mg, 5/22 - 0.9125mg, co 6/22 - 0.25mg, co 8/22 - 0.5mg, co 1/23 - 0.25mg), Diazepam (co 6/22 - 12mg, 7/22 - 11mg, co 8/22 - 5mg, 9/22 - 4mg, 10/22 - 3mg, 11/22 - 2mg, 12/22 - 1mg, co 1/23 - 5mg, 2/23 - 4.5mg, 3/23 - 3.5mg, 4/23 - 3mg), Trazodone 12.5mg, Mirtazapine 15mg Supplements: 1/2 Multivitamin, Fish Oil 2000mg, Probiotic, Magnesium Chelate 280mg, Vit C 500mg, . Melatonin 5mg/3mgXR Link to comment
Rosetta Posted November 2, 2021 Share Posted November 2, 2021 Hi, Greatful. Everything you write makes so much sense. It’s quite the ride, isn’t it? I liked your comment about staying in the moment. That is key. However, other people don’t notice as much as we think they do. So, that’s nice. Hang in there! -Rosetta https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted November 3, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted November 3, 2021 @Knosretep Thank you so much for stopping by and the encouragement. I guess I need to read my thread to see that maybe I have healed some. Somedays it feel like will this never end and then somedays I notice that there has been some growth. Way to slowwwww in my book though. You are from Minnesota too. I grew up in Plymouth. How do you like Thailand? Do you ever plan on moving back? How are you doing? The last I read on your thread things were settling out a little bit. Welcome to the fun house. https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted November 3, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted November 3, 2021 @Rosetta Thanks for stopping by and the encouragement. When I am in the thick of things I have to say how incredibly strong you are by moving forward one day at a time. 😊 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted November 3, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted November 3, 2021 A quick update. I think we figured out how to weigh out the Lex . We are putting a quarter and the tray on the scale and zeroing it out, this has brought scale in the middle of it's range The weights are coming out more consistent. The weekend was horrendous, Sunday it was all I could do not to think about throwing in the towel. I have been struggling with noise sensitivity, over stimulation, my brain is in a meat grinder, really bad headaches, it burns, tingles and squeezes to the point of crushing, weakness in arms and legs, ice in the veins, nausea obsessing, low mood, body and brain panic numbness on the face. It's like a yoyo, roller-coaster, merry-go-round all rolled up in one. I don't I am sure there are more. Then yesterday from about 7am to 3pm the sun came out were I felt about 50% normal.🌞 Then the restlessness and the overall sensitivity slowlyyyy came in and the morning brought back the same old garbage.😥 If there is a silver lining in this at all, my brain is clearer but my brain is going to explode🧠🥴 Trying to stay focused on staying in the day and moment with out jumping out of my skin and brain. How in the world do people survive this🙄 Tomorrow will b better right.😁 Survey say........ how many of you want to smack your support person when you hear, this will pass, or that's just for today, tomorrow will be better, or the mood will change soon Blah, Blah, Blah Inside you want to think yea, I have been hearing that for how long? Sometimes you say it, but most of the time you know they are just trying to help... Or you start to name off a few of your Symptoms and they give a half heart reply back, it makes you wonder if they have heard this before. https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Kat66 Posted November 4, 2021 Share Posted November 4, 2021 17 hours ago, Greatful said: Survey say........ how many of you want to smack your support person when you hear, this will pass, or that's just for today, tomorrow will be better, or the mood will change soon Blah, Blah, Blah Inside you want to think yea, I have been hearing that for how long? Sometimes you say it, but most of the time you know they are just trying to help... Or you start to name off a few of your Symptoms and they give a half heart reply back, it makes you wonder if they have heard this before. The phrase 'Groundhog Day' is very apt when it comes to this sh*tshow. I am very jaded and cynical with it all. Sounds like you're on a real rollercoaster at the moment. Me, I just want to shout at and punch everybody. Fun times. History of depression and anxiety. Symptoms of PTSD. 1998-1999 Venlafaxine 2006-2007 Prozac.2013-15 Sertraline 50mg. 2015 cross-tapered to citalopram 20mg. 2015-2021 Citalopram 20mg (brief increase to 30mg for 2/3 months in 2019. 01/2021 Dropped from 20mg to 10mg, back up to 20mg til June. 25/6/21 stopped CT. Started 50mg 5htp after a week without citalopram in the hope this would balance out my serotonin levels. After 3 days increased to 100mg 5htp. 11/7/21 Stopped 5htp with the intention of reinstating citalopram at 1mg. 16/7/21 Reinstated cit at 1mg. 2/8/21 Increased dose to 2mg. 28/11/21 10% reduction to 1.8mg. 8/12/21 2mg 6/1/22 1.8mg 10/2/22 1.6mg 13/5/22 1.5mg 4/6/22 1.55mg 4/7/22 1.4mg 4/8/22 1.25mg 1/11/22 1.1mg 3/3/23 1mg 18/4/23 0.9mg 2/6/23 0.8mg 4/10/23 0.7mg 11/11/23 jumped off @0.7mg started on 5htp 200mg -400mg, L-Theanine, and L-tyrosine 200mg. 25/11/23 came off 5-htp, l-tyrosine and l-Theanine. 24/12/23 went on 7.5mg mirtazapine. 27/12/23 stopped mirtazapine & reinstated citalopram @.35mg. 1/1/24 increased to 0.5mg. PTSD diagnosis October 2023. 11/11/23 started EMDR therapy for PTSD. Multiple unsuccessful attempts to taper off citalopram. Vegan, otherwise healthy lifestyle. Other medications; tapering off combined HRT. Other supplements; magnesium glycinate, vegan omega3. Completely OFF caffeine (since July 21). Finding it difficult to completely give up alcohol but haven’t had any since 25/12/23. Main symptoms; crushing depression, anhedonia/emotional anesthesia, irritability, rage, anxiety/fear, intrusive thoughts, cognitive fog, inability to focus, restlessness and some insomnia Link to comment
Rosetta Posted November 4, 2021 Share Posted November 4, 2021 Yes, I used to wonder how people could be so, I don’t know, lacking in empathy, at times, but after all these years, sometimes I look at a person going through the 50th wave, and I feel numb. Then, I wonder am I having anhedonia, or am I burned out while trying to help others stay positive during what I know, from experience, is a Sisyphus moment. Once every so often, I marvel at the fact I survived. It will absolutely be worth it, Greatful. You will not regret holding on — once you are out of Hades. Even when you are in the boat on the way back across the river and the darn thing might turn around, you will be glad for that window. You have to keep thinking of the next hour, not the next few days or weeks. Just keep thinking of how to survive the next hour until you get a break, however slight. Distract from your pain any way you can. 1 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Knosretep Posted November 5, 2021 Share Posted November 5, 2021 On 11/4/2021 at 4:01 AM, Greatful said: @Knosretep Thank you so much for stopping by and the encouragement. I guess I need to read my thread to see that maybe I have healed some. Somedays it feel like will this never end and then somedays I notice that there has been some growth. Way to slowwwww in my book though. Maybe you don't always feel great because you're cutting medication, but there's at least that you're using less now than before. On 11/4/2021 at 4:01 AM, Greatful said: You are from Minnesota too. I grew up in Plymouth. How do you like Thailand? Do you ever plan on moving back? Thailand has its good and bad parts. One of the bad parts is that I'm so far from family, and that would be really beneficial to have around me in this difficult time. I have no idea what the future holds...I'm just trying to make it through each day right now. On 11/4/2021 at 4:01 AM, Greatful said: How are you doing? The last I read on your thread things were settling out a little bit. Welcome to the fun house. I was settling out a bit, but then I missed 1 dose of Clonazepam...definitely not fun house fun. Thankfully I'm settling back down, I think. 2013 - Jan 4, 2021 - Sertraline 50mg Jan 2021 - Venlafaxine 75mg (1/4) Feb 2021 : Mar 2021 - Venlafaxine 75mg April 2021 - Venlafaxine 75mg, Amitriptyline 2mg (4/20), Clonazepam 2mg May 2021 - Venlafaxine 75mg (5/16 - 0mg), Amitriptyline (5/1 - 1mg, 5/16 - 0mg), Clonazepam 2mg Aug 2021 - Sertraline 25mg (re 8/20), Clonazepam 2mg Sep 2021 - Sertraline 50mg (up 9/3), Clonazepam (9/29 - 1mg), Diazepam (9/29 - 2.5mg) Oct 2021 - Sertraline 50mg, Clonazepam (10/14 - 0.9mg, 10/24 - 1mg), Diazepam (10/6 - 1.25mg, 10/14 - 0mg), Trazodone (10/03 - 50mg, 10/17 - 25mg, 10/21 - 12.5mg), Mirtazapine (10/17 - 15mg) Nov 2021 : Current - Sertraline 50mg, Clonazepam (4/22 - 0.975mg, 5/22 - 0.9125mg, co 6/22 - 0.25mg, co 8/22 - 0.5mg, co 1/23 - 0.25mg), Diazepam (co 6/22 - 12mg, 7/22 - 11mg, co 8/22 - 5mg, 9/22 - 4mg, 10/22 - 3mg, 11/22 - 2mg, 12/22 - 1mg, co 1/23 - 5mg, 2/23 - 4.5mg, 3/23 - 3.5mg, 4/23 - 3mg), Trazodone 12.5mg, Mirtazapine 15mg Supplements: 1/2 Multivitamin, Fish Oil 2000mg, Probiotic, Magnesium Chelate 280mg, Vit C 500mg, . Melatonin 5mg/3mgXR Link to comment
Paquita Posted November 8, 2021 Share Posted November 8, 2021 On 11/3/2021 at 10:36 PM, Greatful said: The weekend was horrendous, Sunday it was all I could do not to think about throwing in the towel. I have been struggling with noise sensitivity, over stimulation, my brain is in a meat grinder So sorry for you. I have those same feelings of sensitivity, so much though that I even find it hard to read sometimes and I just sit on the couch with my eyes closed. Light, sounds everything. Hope you will get a bit of a window soon! 1996 - Paroxetine 20 mg 2019 - Start taper Paroxetine 2021 June - tapered till 5 mg Severe withdrawal symptoms 2021 July - added Fluoxetine 10 mg Lorazepam 0.5 mg when needed 2021 Aug - Further tapering Paroxetine Fast taper 5mg-0mg in 6 weeks plan 2021 Aug 6 - Fluoxetine increase to 15 mg 2021 Aug 14 - down to Paroxetine 3 mg / [taper in 0.1 steps] to Sep 1 - Paroxetine 1 mg / Sep 16 Paroxetine 0mg [2 weeks taper in 0.1 mg steps] Supplements: Multivitamine 1 daily, Omega 3-6-9 one every other day, Vit. D every day (had deficiency) Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted November 8, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted November 8, 2021 @Paquita 1 hour ago, Paquita said: I have those same feelings of sensitivity, so much though that I even find it hard to read sometimes and I just sit on the couch with my eyes closed. Light, sounds everything. Oh Thank You for letting me know that I am not alone with the awful WD symptom.😖 Sometimes the voice of my husband will irritate me. Some much for watching TV or using a guided meditation when it is really intense. Even being on SA and trying to read the post can be over stimulating. Car rides bug me sometimes to. What can we do to pass the time. Lay on the couch and ruminate UGH🥴 I can be on my tablet and play games. Do your ears feel like they are filling up with pressure and sometimes they vibrate/hurt with the noise. I often tell my husband I want to rip my ears off. I guess we should be grateful that it hasn't gotten to tinnitus like some get. Hang in there and enjoy and amount of a window.❤️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Bea81 Posted November 10, 2021 Share Posted November 10, 2021 @Greatful,are you feeling any better? ❤️ Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted November 10, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted November 10, 2021 @Bea81 It's good to hear from you. I was getting worried about you, you've have been so quite. I will drop over to you thread. Me I am really having a hard time with major headaches and some internal akathisia. Trying to get by one day at a time like the rest of us struggling on this wild journey.❤️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Bea81 Posted November 10, 2021 Share Posted November 10, 2021 3 minutes ago, Greatful said: @Bea81 It's good to hear from you. I was getting worried about you, you've have been so quite. I will drop over to you thread. Me I am really having a hard time with major headaches and some internal akathisia. Trying to get by one day at a time like the rest of us struggling on this wild journey.❤️ @Greatful, Im so sorry to hear this. Akathisia is horrendous. It will go away but it is so so painful when its there. Do you have any windows during the day? ❤️ Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Cheeky Posted November 11, 2021 Share Posted November 11, 2021 Hey lovely, I hate knowing your. struggling. I know this too well. Be kind to yourself and keep reading those success stories. I read them all the time to cling to some hope in my dark days . I’m thinking of you . Cheeky❤️ 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
Overwhelmedlady Posted November 11, 2021 Share Posted November 11, 2021 Hi @GreatfulI have been reading your posts and I just wanted to ask something .You wrote about experiencing internal akathisia How can you tell the difference between internal akathisia and crippling anxiety / restlessness/ panic? I don't seem to grasp the difference. I did experience some sort of akathisia some months ago when I kept moving my leg while sitting down.Just sitting down reading,legs crossed and moving my leg since I felt such restlessness.It doesn't happen anymore fortunately.Now defining internal akathisia seems to me a much more difficult symptom to identify. Sending you my best wishes from here though I read you had some tough days. Hi.sorry but my computer is too old.not working properly.I can only write from my phone.nevertheless i do not have drugs to list.only paroxetine.20 mg from 2009 to 2019.10 mg during 2019.sleeping pills for over 20 years.stopped everything december 2019.no drugs since then.forced cold turkey from december 2019. Link to comment
Marta Posted November 12, 2021 Share Posted November 12, 2021 @Grateful i am so sorry for the restlessness and the headaches. Maybe the loud sounds contribute in trigger them too. (I also hate loud sounds). Please try to remind yourself good times ❤️ they will return, even if they are again temporary they will surely return. 06/2012 - 02/2015 CIPRALEX 10 mg (for somatic abdominal pain + reflux) - prior to this NOT any significant episode of anxiety/depression on medication: emotional-sexual numbness, total inability to cry, +8 kg, fatigue -> abdominal pain gone 02/2015 - 1/04/2015 tapering from 10 mg to 0 mg doctor advised 05/05/2015 huge anxiety, burning skin sensation, panic, fear, not able to cry again, never-had-before insomnia, totally lost appetite, little loss of vision in one eye, sweating, chest pain, short breath, restlessness, accelerated heartbeat, mild akathisia legs-feet 30/05/2015 reinstated 8mg (I was suggested 5 mg here) middle 07/2015 general improving 10/2015 start disastrous too long taper 7mg 11/2015 6mg 12/2015 5mg 1/2016 4mg 2/2016 4mg 3/2016 3mg ->FAIL back to 4mg .... 8/2016 3mg 8/2017 2mg (short wave in summer '17) 8/2018 2mg stable 8/2019 1mg 1/2020 0.6 mg 1/APRIL/2020 0mg FREE! 7/2020 - 10/2020 MILD WAVE(mostly anxiety, poor sleep) 6/2021 - 9/2021 WAVE (anxiety, severe insomnia, total loss of appetite, deep depression, internal restlessness, anhedonia) 0.125g triazolam 2 times 18/03/2022 WAVE (anxiety, severe insomnia, total loss of appetite, PAIN in muscles and nerves, arms and right leg,cannot exercise,hard to walk) 0.125g triazolam 3 times 7/5 rein 0.1mg Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted November 12, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted November 12, 2021 @Overwhelmedlady I was reading The Antidepressant Solution By Joseph Glenmullen M.D. Have you read this one? This is a is how he explains it. He does talk more about it but this is in the book. Akathesia has 2 sides or faces, outer “adjective restlessness” and inner, “subjective agitation” The outer visible restlessness is caused by akathisia particularly and affects the legs and can be mild, moderate or severe. In mild cases , patients find it difficult to sit or stand comfortably. They may adjust their posture frequently, shift their weight from one foot to the other while standing, or crossing and uncrossing their leg while sitting. In moderate cases patients are more visibly jittery and fidgety, Tapping their feet on the floor or pacing. In severe cases, patients are visibly agitated, find it difficult to sit still, and are driven to pace back and forth. The inner “subjective agitation” of akathisia is, in fact ,it’s more dangerous side . This drug induced state can include anxiety, tension, irritability, hostility, paranoia, rage reactions and violence. “Akathisia has been described in medical journals as causing “object terror” in patients. Akathisia is unlike anything the patient has ever experienced before. Patients report: “ I feel like I am going to explode, like the molecules inside my body are all sped up, bursting against my skin” “ I feel like my bones are like tuning forks rattling in my body.” I feel like I am living twenty four hours a day with the sensations of nails scratching up and down a black-board.” “ I feel like I have caffeine running in my veins.” “ I feel like jumping out of my skin.” Writing in medical journals, experts describe akathisia as “more difficult to endure than any of the symptoms for which they (patients) had been originally treated.” The abnormal body sensation and anxiety make it difficult for patients to think clearly, leaving them feelings of confusion and unreality. Indeed, as part of akathisia patients may experience depersonalization, an” out- of -body- experience” in which they feel outside themselves, observing themselves, horrified by their suicidal or violent behavior, but unable to stop themselves. Experts refer to the effects of akathisia as a form of “behavior toxicity” of antidepressants. I know I have some anxiety anyway, but when you want to run and bolt from the intensity, and your head is in a panic and you want to rip it off, this is more then anxiety I would think. " I can relate to the fork tuning in the body." It feels like I have electricity/tingling running through my vein. When I think back, I think I had a under current of this most of the time I was on ssri's. I kept thinking it was anxiety. I was restless all the time to. Sometimes I was so full of it I would be supper tense and restless. We started to think I was bi-polar. How are you doing?❤️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted November 12, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted November 12, 2021 @Marta Thank you Marta, I know you are struggling too and you taking the time to stop by is a huge appreciation for me. I want to ask both you and @siderale or anyone else that have opinions on this, I know both of you talked about not eating much and siderdale you mention having no energy. I have lost about 30 pounds (give or take a few) and still for the most part have very little appetite. I am feeling more and more fatigued(not were I want to sleep, just no energy) To think about getting up to clean, cook, even shower, no interest or energy. I have muscle weakness, and sometimes icy cold muscles too. I worry it is depression and it will just keep getting worse. I also know that the season changing and the weather getting colder(it snowed here last night, not much but it snowed) can play apart in all this too. I asked the physic Doc about a special light for SAD's, she seemed dumb founded with this? She said they act as a drug, and can cause increase in energy, like hypo. I guess I will not be trying that, with the mild akathisia/anxiety/panic I already have. Is what I am experiencing close to what you girls go/gone through? Should I worry about foods and there affect on me or just eat anything that I can just to get food in me? It's a battle to worry and deal with heightened WD symptoms or fatigue from not eating. I think my butt is getting flat from sitting on the recliner so much 😆🤣. I try to walk on the treadmill everyday, somedays it takes a lot of energy and somedays it makes me over sensitized, and anxious. What to do🥴🙄 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted November 12, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted November 12, 2021 (edited) @Cheeky Yes, it has been another down time for me. Sorry it's taking me a little time to get back to you, I think you know how hard it is to find the energy to be on SA sometimes when you feel so empty, feel like hibernating and you have nothing to give. But make sure not beat yourself up for feelin tired of it all😖 As you can relate to and have said "What choice do we have ?" Look for the small mile stones, take it one day at a time, and lean on the support from all you here on SA and your home support from people that love and care about you.❤️ And most of all be be kind, compassionate and loving to yourself❤️ Edited November 12, 2021 by Greatful https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Believer Posted November 12, 2021 Share Posted November 12, 2021 Hi Greatful, I too have little appetite, and low energy, that is normal for me when feeling stressed. I make myself eat though. I definitely could do better at what I’m eating though. I think the weather has an impact too. It’s rainy here in the PNW. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. Do what you can to shift your focus from how you feel. I’ve recently taken up water painting. While I can still feel my symptoms, I find I can get a bit distracted for a time. Do you have a hobby you’d like to learn or one that distracts you? 1998-2015 Zoloft. 100mg 2015 Straight switch to Wellbutrin by GP who claimed Zoloft stopped working; I was experiencing occasional brain zaps. 3 months later Wellbutrin XR. Highly activating. Lost ability to sleep. Seroquel x3 nights. Horrible reaction. Straight switch back to Zoloft, began taper. Found SA after tapering 25 mgs a week to 25mgs and began experiencing W/D. 6/21/19 5.05 mg; 9/6/19 4.8 mg; 4/24/20 4.57 mg; 8/27/21 4.43 mg 9/20-9/25/21 xover to new RX from expired meds 10/22/21 4.13 mg; 11/26/21 3.93 mg; 4/15/22 3.74 mg; 6/3/22 3.54 mg; 8/5/22 3.38; 9/30/22 3.19; 11/18/22 3.03; 12/30/22 2.88; 2/17/23 2.74; 3/24/23 2.60; 5/12/23 2.47; 6/23/23 2.35; 8/11/23 2.24; 9/15/23 2.13; 10/20/23 2.02; 11/24/23 1.92; 1/12/24 1.83; 2/17/24 1.72; 3/23/24 1.64 Supplements: Natural Calm magnesium, Vitamin C Vitamin D during winter. Link to comment
Kat66 Posted November 12, 2021 Share Posted November 12, 2021 2 hours ago, Greatful said: @Cheeky Yes, it has been another down time for me. Sorry it's taking me a little time to get back to you, I think you know how hard it is to find the energy to be on SA sometimes when you feel so empty, feel like hibernating and you have nothing to give. But make sure not beat yourself up for feelin tired of it all😖 As you can relate to and have said "What choice do we have ?" Look for the small mile stones, take it one day at a time, and lean on the support from all you here on SA and your home support from people that love and care about you.❤️ And most of all be be kind, compassionate and loving to yourself❤️ So sorry you're feeling so rough @Greatful I wish I knew what to say. All we can do is put one foot in front of the other and keep going. Do what we can....when we can. Wishing you a peaceful restful weekend xxx History of depression and anxiety. Symptoms of PTSD. 1998-1999 Venlafaxine 2006-2007 Prozac.2013-15 Sertraline 50mg. 2015 cross-tapered to citalopram 20mg. 2015-2021 Citalopram 20mg (brief increase to 30mg for 2/3 months in 2019. 01/2021 Dropped from 20mg to 10mg, back up to 20mg til June. 25/6/21 stopped CT. Started 50mg 5htp after a week without citalopram in the hope this would balance out my serotonin levels. After 3 days increased to 100mg 5htp. 11/7/21 Stopped 5htp with the intention of reinstating citalopram at 1mg. 16/7/21 Reinstated cit at 1mg. 2/8/21 Increased dose to 2mg. 28/11/21 10% reduction to 1.8mg. 8/12/21 2mg 6/1/22 1.8mg 10/2/22 1.6mg 13/5/22 1.5mg 4/6/22 1.55mg 4/7/22 1.4mg 4/8/22 1.25mg 1/11/22 1.1mg 3/3/23 1mg 18/4/23 0.9mg 2/6/23 0.8mg 4/10/23 0.7mg 11/11/23 jumped off @0.7mg started on 5htp 200mg -400mg, L-Theanine, and L-tyrosine 200mg. 25/11/23 came off 5-htp, l-tyrosine and l-Theanine. 24/12/23 went on 7.5mg mirtazapine. 27/12/23 stopped mirtazapine & reinstated citalopram @.35mg. 1/1/24 increased to 0.5mg. PTSD diagnosis October 2023. 11/11/23 started EMDR therapy for PTSD. Multiple unsuccessful attempts to taper off citalopram. Vegan, otherwise healthy lifestyle. Other medications; tapering off combined HRT. Other supplements; magnesium glycinate, vegan omega3. Completely OFF caffeine (since July 21). Finding it difficult to completely give up alcohol but haven’t had any since 25/12/23. Main symptoms; crushing depression, anhedonia/emotional anesthesia, irritability, rage, anxiety/fear, intrusive thoughts, cognitive fog, inability to focus, restlessness and some insomnia Link to comment
Overwhelmedlady Posted November 12, 2021 Share Posted November 12, 2021 Hi @GreatfulThanks for the explanation.I see that the main difference has to do with body sensations. Also it includes irritability and /or rage reactions. I am sorry that you are experiencing this.On the brighter side,I read that you are having Windows and that in itself is surely a relief. In my case,it's definitely unbearable anxiety not quite panic attacks according to the description I have read. It's clearly worse the first part of the day and it increases each time I need to go out,this includes dry mouth,tachycardia ,slight dizziness and muscle weakness.Also the other persistent symptom is extreme fatigue.I am not hungry either due to the constant «fight or flight» sensation. In my case it's not just random anxiety out of nowhere since I do have real external stressors that are constantly present like a big dark cloud or a ticking bomb.( economic and financial severe issues).I also identify the impossibility to deal with stress which is a huge problem since the constant worries do not allow any prolonged relief beyond a couple of hours. Stress knocks me down completely as if my mind shuts off because of the inability to cope with it.Well,not really good news😢.Sending you my best wishes and hope that we can at least try to relax a bit during....the weekend? Hi.sorry but my computer is too old.not working properly.I can only write from my phone.nevertheless i do not have drugs to list.only paroxetine.20 mg from 2009 to 2019.10 mg during 2019.sleeping pills for over 20 years.stopped everything december 2019.no drugs since then.forced cold turkey from december 2019. Link to comment
Cheeky Posted November 14, 2021 Share Posted November 14, 2021 Thinking of you @GreatfulI hope your okay ❤️ 1995 started Paxil 20mg slowly increasing to 50mg 2014 I decided to tapper myself not knowing how too and crashed , DR added 50mg of Seroquel Through the years made many mistakes tapering Started Tapering Both drugs at the same time 7.5% per month Paxil 9% Seroquel doing daily micro-taper Guided by Mark Horowitz 31/3/24 Paxil 10.31mg 31/3/24 Seroquel 9.9mg Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted November 17, 2021 Author Mentor Share Posted November 17, 2021 (edited) A little up date: This is day 4 of my 10% cut from my Lexapro. We my husband and I decided to try a bigger cut this time. 1- we wanted to see how I could tolerate it 2- I had a gene site test done and I am a fast metabolizer of the lex and also have a geno type that make me have a increase risk of adverse affect from some ssris. I have had really bad brain sensations since I have started the Lex, in April of 2020, major brain disconnect, buzzing, crushing in on the top, vice grips, sore spots that move around my brain, tingling, numb feeling, burning spots, I also had other side affects that were trouble some, nausea, increase in anxiety, increase in OCD, insomnia, I know there are more. I know some of these can be typical of WD so we just kept holding and waiting. 3- I did do 2 other small decrease and noticed that the brain felt better but I was still having awful WD 4- that all being said this is a test run to see how things go. I am almost afraid to say since this is just day 4 I feel the brain is clearer, my ocd is a little easier to control, the anxiety is down a little, my common sense thinking is a little better, the panic is more tolerable. I still have burning, and head sore spots, head pressure, mild headache but more tolerable so far. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE let this be a sign that my brain and body has been fighting the Lex the whole time. Sadly I have to be prepared that I am wishful thinking and everything I have been going through (many more WD symptom then just the few I mentioned) is just from the trauma my brain went through in the last year, mainly last winter and spring. I am also working on blocking as much stress from my life as I can. This is going to be I will put me first. I am going to try and put 0 expectations on myself, that means depending how I feel, will determine if I socialize, be with people, how much I do around the house. The only goals for any given, day are going to be walk on the treadmill, meditate, make sure I eat, go to church on Sunday's, be kind to myself, do not beat myself up over any limitations WD puts on me. I will try and encourage my self to do things, but my health will come first. Really what I think I am trying to say is to stop putting pressure on myself to be more then I am/or can be at this time/day/month. This just makes me feel like I am failing when I can't fulfill the self expectations. I hope this doesn't sound cold or unfeeling. A friend I met on SA and has been there for me in everyway , trying to help me survive this. Told me I could celebrate the holiday's in anyway I wanted, if that meant on the couch in my PJ's that was okay. This is called self love....❤️ I do have to say I am lucky all our children are adults, 5 are married and 1 is in collage, so I do not have to try and performs for them. I do hope all of you that have a young family's, to take care of yourself, please do the least amount, do not put pressure on yourself and do more than you can.❤️ We are are remarkable and will see brighter days ahead Happy Holiday to all❤️ Edited November 17, 2021 by Greatful 1 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Kat66 Posted November 17, 2021 Share Posted November 17, 2021 Well said @Greatful.....it's starting to dawn on me too that SELF LOVE and care are absolutely paramount in beating this. No amount of supplementation or self medicating will beat a gentle attitude of 'me first'....I particularly like the attitude your friend suggested of taking the holidays anyway you wanted. There is so much pressure at this time of year to 'be a certain way' or 'do a certain amount of stuff' - I say *^£*%^$ to it all. After all it's all over on Dec 26, or Jan 1st anyway so who cares? History of depression and anxiety. Symptoms of PTSD. 1998-1999 Venlafaxine 2006-2007 Prozac.2013-15 Sertraline 50mg. 2015 cross-tapered to citalopram 20mg. 2015-2021 Citalopram 20mg (brief increase to 30mg for 2/3 months in 2019. 01/2021 Dropped from 20mg to 10mg, back up to 20mg til June. 25/6/21 stopped CT. Started 50mg 5htp after a week without citalopram in the hope this would balance out my serotonin levels. After 3 days increased to 100mg 5htp. 11/7/21 Stopped 5htp with the intention of reinstating citalopram at 1mg. 16/7/21 Reinstated cit at 1mg. 2/8/21 Increased dose to 2mg. 28/11/21 10% reduction to 1.8mg. 8/12/21 2mg 6/1/22 1.8mg 10/2/22 1.6mg 13/5/22 1.5mg 4/6/22 1.55mg 4/7/22 1.4mg 4/8/22 1.25mg 1/11/22 1.1mg 3/3/23 1mg 18/4/23 0.9mg 2/6/23 0.8mg 4/10/23 0.7mg 11/11/23 jumped off @0.7mg started on 5htp 200mg -400mg, L-Theanine, and L-tyrosine 200mg. 25/11/23 came off 5-htp, l-tyrosine and l-Theanine. 24/12/23 went on 7.5mg mirtazapine. 27/12/23 stopped mirtazapine & reinstated citalopram @.35mg. 1/1/24 increased to 0.5mg. PTSD diagnosis October 2023. 11/11/23 started EMDR therapy for PTSD. Multiple unsuccessful attempts to taper off citalopram. Vegan, otherwise healthy lifestyle. Other medications; tapering off combined HRT. Other supplements; magnesium glycinate, vegan omega3. Completely OFF caffeine (since July 21). Finding it difficult to completely give up alcohol but haven’t had any since 25/12/23. Main symptoms; crushing depression, anhedonia/emotional anesthesia, irritability, rage, anxiety/fear, intrusive thoughts, cognitive fog, inability to focus, restlessness and some insomnia Link to comment
Mia1 Posted November 17, 2021 Share Posted November 17, 2021 2 hours ago, Greatful said: Really what I think I am trying to say is to stop putting pressure on myself to be more then I am/or can be at this time/day/month. This just makes me feel like I am failing when I can't fulfill the self expectations. I hope this doesn't sound cold or unfeeling. You’re doing such an amazing job @Grateful!! Ultimately I have also found that this has very much been a journey towards self love. I’m proud to call you a friend and am happy we’re on this journey together ❤️ Completely drug free 11/26/22 🎉 Supplements: Magnesium citrate: 250 mg; Fish oil: 1200 mg “When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.” - Victor Frankl Link to comment
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