Mentor Greatful Posted June 23, 2022 Mentor Share Posted June 23, 2022 @Escitalopram21 Is your liquid premixed from the pharmacy? My liquid comes mix, my bottle says 5ml/5mg so I take 2.7ml = 2.7mg. in other words 1 to 1 ratio. So the 1ml syringe from the pharmacy works out okay because split the dose to 1.35ml/mg 2 times a day. https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted June 24, 2022 Author Share Posted June 24, 2022 Its a ready mix yes but not from the pharmacy. it says 20mg/ml so taking my 2,85 with a 1 ml syringe means taking 1,45 ish which means that i need to do some eyemeasuring. Its really hard and i am afraid that i might take slightly more and less by mistake every now and then. Because a 0,1 drop means 0,2 mg so every minimal chansen on the syringe means a big change in dose. @Greatful I did check with my pharmacy but there is no one in my country making any other solutions. 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted June 24, 2022 Moderator Share Posted June 24, 2022 I think the section "Working With Liquid Tapers" might be helpful Brassmonkey's Tips and Tricks for Tapering - Tapering - Surviving Antidepressants 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted June 27, 2022 Author Share Posted June 27, 2022 So as many when doing tapers i felt things were going smoothly. I did two small drops in 3 weeks and felt okay. A few rough days day 3 and 4 but then returned to my baseline. Tried another really small reduction today and hours fter i got a lot of symptoms i didnt experience with the other two reduktions. now i Guess the accumulated effects got a hold on me. I have a buzzing Chest and body, pins and needles in my head, sleepless and dizzy. My measuring is hard with 20mg/mL and a 1 mL syringe so i purchased insulinsyringes online since my pharmacy dont sell them and wont get them home until a few days. Should i go straight to my higher dose since its only been a day or try to wait it out? It is soon morning here and i havent Slept a bit. @brassmonkey@Altostrata 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted June 27, 2022 Moderator Share Posted June 27, 2022 Try to wait it out. With small reductions like this it can take a week or so for things to stabilize. That is why we have the two week hold at the end of each Brassmonkey Slide Cycle to let things catch up and resolve. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted June 27, 2022 Mentor Share Posted June 27, 2022 @Escitalopram21 You've got this🌞 You sound like you are ready for this. If the road gets a little bumpy hold on tight and lean on us🤗 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted June 28, 2022 Author Share Posted June 28, 2022 Thank you @Greatful I am more ready than i have been but o should have been more cautious with doses and researcher and planned more. Now i have so much anxiety every time i am about to take my meds and then keep feeling How i am feeling and my thoughts race like: was it really the right dose? What if it wasnt? I am sure things will go south and oooon an oooon and on. Now AFTER taking my meds i feel really lousy, i feel much better before and in the morning which worries me.. thanks for checking in on me 🤗 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted June 28, 2022 Author Share Posted June 28, 2022 Could anyone confirm me on this? i have a solution for 20mg/mL so if i am about to take 2,85 ml i can disolve 1,5 ml solution with 1,5 ml of water and draw 2,85 from there? i have read the brassmonkey slide at least 15 times but my brain just doesn’t work. 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted June 28, 2022 Moderator Share Posted June 28, 2022 If you are currently taking 2.85mL straight out of the bottle, then NO. If you dilute the original liquid half and half with water, you will need to take a dose that is twice a big to get an equivalent amount of active ingredient. In this case you would need 3mL liquid solution and 3mL water, then draw out a dose of 5.7mL. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted June 28, 2022 Author Share Posted June 28, 2022 @brassmonkey i am curently drawing 1,42ml ish from the bottle. 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted June 28, 2022 Moderator Share Posted June 28, 2022 Okay, then your original question is correct. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted June 28, 2022 Author Share Posted June 28, 2022 Thank you! 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted June 29, 2022 Author Share Posted June 29, 2022 I felt really bad yesterday after taking my meds and today i measured how much really stays in the tip of my syringe. 0,7 ml!!! So today i worked out all solution from my syringe, dried it and then measured water and worked it out. Then drew 2,85 mg from that. So now i really Hope to feel a little bit better today. 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted June 29, 2022 Mentor Share Posted June 29, 2022 (edited) @Escitalopram21 I am so proud of you. I know how scary this is. To make any change and then wait, wait, wait for the fallout. Keep your focus on the end game..... Somehow I got my drug pusher to do my meds. LOL I use to do the cutting and weighting....somehow my hubby took over. It was so discouraging at times to see all the drugs..😒 Since I went to liquid I bet I have drawn up the dose a handful of times. Now I look for my drug pusher LOL I feel for you, the liquid can be hard to line up with the rubber and lines on the syringe. Then if your anything like me you worry about being off a hair........ Smooth sailing ♥️. Edited June 29, 2022 by Greatful https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted June 30, 2022 Author Share Posted June 30, 2022 Thank you dear @Greatful Oh yes i am a lot like you in that sense (and propably many more). Wishing you smooth sailing ⛵️ 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted June 30, 2022 Author Share Posted June 30, 2022 Two hours after taking my meds i feel tightening in my throat, severe fatigue and some more symptoms. I had these symptoms when updosing per my doctors advice Shortly after my CT and after reinstating. I can’t get out of my head that i might have done something wrong going from taking it straight from the bottle and now diluting it. Are these normal wd symptoms or symptoms indicating i have messed up my doses? This REALLY freaks me out, sorry to keep asking for assurance. @Altostrata@brassmonkey 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted June 30, 2022 Moderator Share Posted June 30, 2022 Making a change from straight liquid to diluted liquid may cause your body to react a little differently to the medication. It should calm down in a couple of days, as your body adjusts. 1 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted June 30, 2022 Administrator Share Posted June 30, 2022 7 hours ago, Escitalopram21 said: Two hours after taking my meds i feel tightening in my throat, severe fatigue and some more symptoms. When did you first have these symptoms while using the liquid? How long do they last? One episode of symptoms does not reveal anything. How often does this same pattern occur? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted July 3, 2022 Author Share Posted July 3, 2022 @Altostrata It wouldnt say its a pattern. Its been a week now that i feel these symptoms after taking my meds. They last from 1-6 hours. 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted July 3, 2022 Author Share Posted July 3, 2022 So i broke up with my therapist since 12 years back. She didnt believe in withdrawal so it was inevitable because she wanted to threat my symptoms as if they would come from my psyche only, which i felt was wrong. And yes some of my symptoms during the most acute withdrawal phase mimics the symptoms i had as a Young girl when i first started seeing her but they faded away. I Will have to pause my taper for a while until my psyche doesn’t feel so lost and lonely anymore. My mind is racing and i am trying to keep feeling like my 32 y old self and not the little girl who is afraid what is going to happen to her now that she stood up for what she believes was right. Its not smooth nor nice. 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted July 3, 2022 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 3, 2022 1 hour ago, Escitalopram21 said: So i broke up with my therapist since 12 years back. She didnt believe in withdrawal so it was inevitable because she wanted to threat my symptoms as if they would come from my psyche only, which i felt was wrong. And yes some of my symptoms during the most acute withdrawal phase mimics the symptoms i had as a Young girl when i first started seeing her but they faded away. I Will have to pause my taper for a while until my psyche doesn’t feel so lost and lonely anymore. My mind is racing and i am trying to keep feeling like my 32 y old self and not the little girl who is afraid what is going to happen to her now that she stood up for what she believes was right. Its not smooth nor nice. It’s good to sometimes have a little break from tapering when you feel you need to Escitalopram21, I’ve done that a number of times myself. I’ve also had to have really long holds before I stabilised again. We need to listen to our bodies and do what’s best for them. Good for you for no longer going to a therapist who wasn’t willing to really listen, it’s hard to explain to someone who hasn’t gone through withdrawals what we are actually going through and if they think the symptoms are all due to something other than the meds it can be quite frustrating. You end up feeling more stressed leaving there than before you got there. I’m not seeing a therapist, but I have a really good integrative doctor now who really listens. She even apologised for what the doctors have put me through with these meds. It’s good to actually be heard. I’m sure she doesn’t understand the magnitude of withdrawals but she believes that my symptoms are from the meds. Sending hugs your way🤗 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 3, 2022 Administrator Share Posted July 3, 2022 On 6/30/2022 at 8:20 AM, Escitalopram21 said: Two hours after taking my meds i feel tightening in my throat, severe fatigue and some more symptoms. Does this happen every day? I am sorry you found your therapist was unhelpful. You did the right thing. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted July 4, 2022 Author Share Posted July 4, 2022 @Altostratamost of the days. I have been experiencing severe anxiety the last days which i thought was the ending of a terapeutical relationship but now i start to wonder. Me and my husband celebrated our anniverseruy and i had non-alcoholic beer which turned out to be 0,5% alcohol, could this be the cause? 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 5, 2022 Administrator Share Posted July 5, 2022 7 hours ago, Escitalopram21 said: i had non-alcoholic beer which turned out to be 0,5% alcohol, could this be the cause? Maybe, or something else. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Ariel Posted July 5, 2022 Share Posted July 5, 2022 @Escitalopram21 Hi, I'm sorry you're having difficulty with increased symptoms lately. I can only imagine how unpleasant that must be. On 7/3/2022 at 10:33 AM, Escitalopram21 said: So i broke up with my therapist since 12 years back. She didnt believe in withdrawal so it was inevitable because she wanted to threat my symptoms as if they would come from my psyche only, which i felt was wrong. And yes some of my symptoms during the most acute withdrawal phase mimics the symptoms i had as a Young girl when i first started seeing her but they faded away. I Will have to pause my taper for a while until my psyche doesn’t feel so lost and lonely anymore. My mind is racing and i am trying to keep feeling like my 32 y old self and not the little girl who is afraid what is going to happen to her now that she stood up for what she believes was right. Its not smooth nor nice. This is really impressive, Escitalopram21. I'm very proud of you for standing up for yourself! It is not an easy thing to do under any circumstances, and you have successfully advocated for yourself and under adverse conditions. This is a testament to your courage and strength. It's a sign of resilience and healing. Give yourself lots of credit! You listened to yourself and trusted your inner wisdom, and you took action to follow through. This is such a profound signal to yourself that you are an empowered adult in charge of your own life. Consciously or subconsciously this is also a powerful message to send to your inner child, letting her know she is protected and safe because you have her best interests at heart, and you are calling the shots now. You are not going to let anyone treat your adult or child self with anything less than the respect and love you both deserve. Congratulations! I realize that things might feel scary right now, between the break-up and the WD symptoms. You had an extended period of stability as a result of holding, and maybe now it feels like the ground is quaking beneath you. I don't know what you're going through and I hold space for your experience. Just know that I believe in you and I have complete confidence you're going to get through this. You have already worked so hard and come so far. What you experienced during your stable period is true and it's waiting for you on the other side of this wobble. Remember the reality of your windows. Waves are temporary, they will pass. Healing is happening all the time, even when we don't consciously feel it. You are very brave. I am in awe of your efforts and your fierce commitment to choosing life, love, and meaning, even when that choice might not feel easy or straightforward. Hooray for you! In solidarity and support, A. 1996-2018 - misc. polypharmacy, incl. SSRIs, SNRIs, neuroleptics, lithium, benzos, stimulants, antihistamines, etc. (approx. 30+ drugs) 2012-2018 - 10mg lexapro/escitalopram (20mg?) Jan. 2018 - 10mg -> 5mg, then from 5mg -> 2.5mg, then 0mg --> July 2018 - 0mg 2017(?)-2020 - vyvanse/lisdexamfetamine 60-70mg 2020-2021 - 70mg down to 0mg --> July 2021 - 0mg March-April 2021 - vortioxetine 5-10mg (approx. 7 weeks total; CT) --> April 28th, 2021 - 0mg supplements: magnesium powder (dissolved in water) as needed throughout the day; 1 tsp fish oil w/ morning meal; 2mg melatonin August 1, 2022 - 1 mg melatonin Courage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karle Wilson Baker love and justice are not two. without inner change, there can be no outer change; without collective change, no change matters. - Rev. angel Kyodo williams Holding multiple truths. Knowing that everyone has their own accurate view of the way things are. - text on homemade banner at Afiya house I am not a medical professional; this is not medical advice. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted July 11, 2022 Mentor Share Posted July 11, 2022 @Escitalopram21How is the tapering going♥️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted July 29, 2022 Mentor Share Posted July 29, 2022 @Escitalopram21 Your pretty quite. Are you doing okay. ♥️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted July 30, 2022 Author Share Posted July 30, 2022 Hi dear @Grateful I am okay or at least hanging in here. in a wave Will right more later ❤️ 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted July 30, 2022 Author Share Posted July 30, 2022 @Ariel Your kind, encouraging words have been an anchor these last weeks ❤️ In a wave Will write more later, just wanted tou to know how much it meant. 1 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted August 12, 2022 Mentor Share Posted August 12, 2022 (edited) @Escitalopram21 Stopping by to see how you are doing? Sending encouraging hugs🤗 Edited August 12, 2022 by Greatful https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted August 13, 2022 Author Share Posted August 13, 2022 Hello dear @Grateful@Arieland all other encouraging souls on the site! Thank you once again for checking on me. Life is not easy on me right now. I had one of the worst waves after ending with my therapsit and started a new job two weeks ago which also sent me into a wave that lasted for almost 2 weeks. So working a new job, trying to balance the responsibility with realizing my boss holds some grudges against me since she is hiring people without the right education and hiring me for only a short period of time even though i have the right education. Living in a small town so if i go to the union for support i Will be called out by all my Bosses as beeing ”hard”. And also have been battling insomnia, anxiety, a lot of tension, repetitive thoughts and panic even after the wave passed. Havent decreased my dose since forever it feels like which is around a month, two? So discouraging when i was almost free of symptoms for months before decreasing. I am still doing SE therapy and my therapist is really good, seeing her with my husband every now and then too since We both have attachment trauma. havent been Visiting the site in forever going to head over to your threads to see how you are doing ❤️❤️ 1 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted August 13, 2022 Mentor Share Posted August 13, 2022 @Escitalopram21 I am sorry things have be hard for you the last few weeks. Hang in there, lean on your husband and whatever else you find your support from. We are here for you also. When you say SE is that a type of trauma therapy? Is it like IFS Internal Family Systems Therapy? I have been reading about different types of therapy from trauma in the book The Body Keeps the Score. Truly fascinating the different techniques. Bessel also talks about PBSP psychomotor therapy, EDMR, neurofeedback, are a few he talks about. I was quite moved by the way PBSP was talked about in the book. You are such an inspiration to me. ♥️ You keep moving forward one step at a time and one day you will be through the trauma and withdrawal. I hope to be as strong and determined as you. I am glad you and your husband are on this journey together.🌞 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted August 13, 2022 Author Share Posted August 13, 2022 @Greatful SE therapy is a form of trauma therapy. SE stands for somatic experiencing which Peter Levine created. I started this therapy in january and so far i have been seeing more improvements with this form of therapy than with cbt therapy for many years. And also she is really good at reading my body language which feels safe now in wd because she sees when something is too much for me. I am so happy for everyone here ❤️ I didnt think i was experiencing wd anymore but as soon as i get my ass over here i realize that it sure is Wd and not my original condition. And wow, i can say the same about you. I Hope to be as wise and kind as you one day. You are an inspiration to me ❤️ 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Ariel Posted August 16, 2022 Share Posted August 16, 2022 @Escitalopram21 Hello braveheart, So nice to receive your message in my thread, thank you for stopping by. You are a circus artist balancing a new job and SE therapy and WD waves and family life! I admire your skill and stamina. Hope the summer weather is being gentle with you. Sending good thoughts and healing vibes <3 1996-2018 - misc. polypharmacy, incl. SSRIs, SNRIs, neuroleptics, lithium, benzos, stimulants, antihistamines, etc. (approx. 30+ drugs) 2012-2018 - 10mg lexapro/escitalopram (20mg?) Jan. 2018 - 10mg -> 5mg, then from 5mg -> 2.5mg, then 0mg --> July 2018 - 0mg 2017(?)-2020 - vyvanse/lisdexamfetamine 60-70mg 2020-2021 - 70mg down to 0mg --> July 2021 - 0mg March-April 2021 - vortioxetine 5-10mg (approx. 7 weeks total; CT) --> April 28th, 2021 - 0mg supplements: magnesium powder (dissolved in water) as needed throughout the day; 1 tsp fish oil w/ morning meal; 2mg melatonin August 1, 2022 - 1 mg melatonin Courage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karle Wilson Baker love and justice are not two. without inner change, there can be no outer change; without collective change, no change matters. - Rev. angel Kyodo williams Holding multiple truths. Knowing that everyone has their own accurate view of the way things are. - text on homemade banner at Afiya house I am not a medical professional; this is not medical advice. Link to comment
Escitalopram21 Posted August 21, 2022 Author Share Posted August 21, 2022 The waves. Oh the waves. My brain keeps Thelling me this is not waves and that i can’t have waves anymore, i only did 2 small cuts and everything was fine for weeks. And now almost two months after i experience so much symptoms. Anxiety, rumination, new symtoms with fear of driving places i used to be totally okay to drive. And now i just want to end my life if i can’t take my kids to the beach by car anymore. I feel like the worst mom ever and hate my life. i search the internet all the time to find something to help me and i just find myself being broken. 2009 Escitalopram 10mg April 2013 got off August 2013 reinstated July 2015 Ketipinor 50mg (Quetiapin) April 2021 got off Quetiapin 4w taper May 2021 tapered off Escitalopram 9 August 2021 back on Escitalopram 2,5mg. Down to 2 mg. Updosed to 2,2mg August 24 Down to 2mg September 2 Updosed to 3mg Sept 28 December Still holding ❤️ June 9 2022 2,9 mg June 19 2022 2,85 mg December 2022 switched syringes and realized i am actually taking 3,4 mg Supplements vitamin E 400 magnesium malate a fraction of 400, Rosita Cod liver oil Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted August 23, 2022 Mentor Share Posted August 23, 2022 @Escitalopram21 Please be kind to yourself. It's these drugs. I go through different times where I feel more sensitized to my crazy fears. Your brain is not firing right now and it's getting things mixed up. I think our amygdala, fight or flight center is on high alert. I am going to send you a couple of short clips on withdrawal Healing from antidepressants:Patterns of recovery/Antydepresanty https://youtu.be/KQtO6HXJfjw Healing from antidepressants: The power of neuroplasticity/Antydepresanty https://youtu.be/mea-NdKBpUQ Try to find only positive things to read/listen too or watch. Read success stories on SA. Reach out to us we are here for you.♥️ Sending you a big hug and encouragement🤗 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
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