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Hey everyone,

I said that once I was healed and felt back to normal again I would write a success story and I do believe that today is finally the day for it! It was a very long journey for me personally, but I know that others have been going through it for even longer. So for those of you that are still in the thick of it, I will tell you this! Keep on going and going and going!! Never ever give up! I truly do believe that everyone heals no matter how long it takes!! For some it is shorter than others, but it's coming for all of us!

 

You can read my intro topic and see that I really didn't find this site until I was almost 8 months in deep. I was one of those who CT quit everything because nothing was working for me and I got tired of trying different things to feel better. I was extremely fortunate to meet a wonderful lady who had survived the process and she reached out to me. She was able to encourage me daily to keep going and helped me to get through the very worst of days! I was so lucky because most people do not have that support system, but it was a life saver. 

 

Some things that I learned while going through this process:

1. Stay as positive as you possibly can! I know it's hard, believe me. There were so many days I just wanted to get in a funk and stay there, but I knew how dangerous that was. If you let yourself always see the bad in things, then eventually that is all you will see! Take what is happening to you and turn it around. Find something positive in your day. When I was having the worst of symptoms, instead of feeling bad about it and moping about it, I would turn it around and tell myself that I was having a good strong day of healing! The harder the symptoms, the more healing that was taking place. I made it a positive thing!!

 

2. Acceptance!!! I know this one is hard!! It was for me and took me a very very long time to learn it, but once I did it made a world of difference for me. The symptoms no longer had the power over me that they once had. Yeah they were still there, but I would just acknowledge them and then move on. There was nothing I could do about them, so I just let them happen. Besides it just meant that I was doing some more healing. The sooner you can learn how to accept the process the easier the process becomes.

 

3. Time!!! Unfortunately in my experience I found that there are no shortcuts in this process. There is no magic pill or drug that I could take that was gonna heal me any faster. I had to be patient and wait for my brain and CNS to heal! There was no way to speed up the process or make it any easier. I just had to get through it! That was it. Time time and more time!! Each day you go through is one day closer to your ultimate healing so don't give up!! 

 

4. Distract!!! Find something anything that you can use to distract yourself and make the time go by. For me it was long walks, paint by numbers, etchings, diamond dots, models, board games with my children!! Just anything to pass the time! The more I was able to distract myself, the more healing that was taking place without me worrying about it! When you sit around all day and don't engage your mind, it has nothing to do but ruminate on what you are thinking or experiencing. Distract!! 

 

5. Keep track of the good days! I experienced the normal waves and windows pattern that is normal for a lot of people. I would keep a journal daily where I would write down what I was thinking, how things were going. And for me most importantly, when I was feeling good in a window, I would write about it in the journal. I would write notes to myself reminding myself that I could feel good again and that I would feel good again. That way on the hard days I could go back and see what I had written to myself to know that I was gonna be ok.

 

And that's honestly about it! That's what worked for me! Just remember that what you are going through is temporary!! This is not the rest of your life. One day you will be healed and able to move forward with life and enjoy the days. This whole process has made me such a strong and more resilient person. Little things in life no longer really bother me and I have found I have so much more patience and understanding than I ever did before. As much as this whole thing sucked, it has made me a better person!! 

 

Just remember to keep going and going for as long as this takes!! You've got this and you know it! I will be sticking around the forums to help others. I always told myself once I made it through this I was gonna pay it forward and help others as well. Don't hesitate to reach out if needed!

 

Ken

2010-2011 - Tramadol - Can't remember dosage

2011 - CT Quit Tramadol

2011-2019 - St Johns Wart - Started out at 3 Pills a day (300 MG) and increased to 6 per day over the years

August 2019 - CT Quit St Johns (Told by Hospital Dr to Stop Taking due to increased BP)

September 2019 - Citalopram 10mg - Approx 2 weeks - CT Quit

September 2019 - October 2019 - Clonazepam .5mg - Approx 3 weeks - CT Quit

Drug Free Since October 5th 2019

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Wow @KenA, what a great success! Congratulations! 

 

I am really touched and impressed with your positive way of dealing with withdrawal. I guess we can all learn from that!

 

Acceptance, changing thoughts, distracting, etc. are all such good things to support our healing. I really hope the we will help others here. You would be a great help with your attitude!

 

And I can say from experience that helping others here can be a beautiful to do!

 

I put her a link to your introductions thread and will close that one.

 

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/22768-☼-kena-8-months-in-withdrawal-after-ct/

 

 

1993    Anafranil (Clomipramine) for a few months. Later in 1993 Paxil for a few months 1993- 2006      No medication

2006   Effexor, Cymbalta, some Benzo’s. All for short periods. Later in 2006 Lexapro (escitalopram) 10 mg and shortly after Wellbutrin XR 150mg, against side effects Lexapro 

Since 2006 until end of 2015: Several times on and off Lexapro and Wellbutrin and several slight dosage changes. Mostly taken dosages: 5mg Lexapro and 150mg Wellbutrin

2016  Dosage change Lexapro from 5mg to 2,5 mg. Wellbutrin stayed om 150mg

November 2016 – April 2017 Down from 2,5mg to 0,6mg Lexapro (in steps) without much problems. Wellbutrin down from 150mg to 66mg. Also without much problems.

April 2017 – March 2019       Lexapro 0,6 mg        April 2017 - August 2018       Wellbutrin in small steps down from 66mg in to 37,5 mg . Quite heavy WD after each step.

March 2019 – May 2019 Lexapro down from 0,6 to 0,3mg then Prozac to 0,6 mg switch because severe discontinuation effects (may also have been from Wellbutrin..)    

Wellbutrin down from 37,5mg to 35,3mg 

October 2019        Seroquel 12,5 mg for 4 weeks because of extreme sleeping problems, then weaning off in 2 weeks       Prozac up dosage to 1,2 mg

March 2020     Wellbutrin in 2 steps down from 35,3mg to 33,3mg   Extreme withdrawal affects during 8 months. Stopped tapering Wellbutrin  until total off Prozac. February 2020 – November 2020   Prozac down in steps from 1,2mg to 0,57mg. 

Jan 2021 Prozac down to:  0,55> 0,53>0,51mg,   Feb 0,47mg ,  Mar 0,42mg,   Apr 0,37, longer hold because of WD symptoms July 0,36 and hold again

 

Supplements: Fish Oil (3000mg), Magnesium 100 mg, 2 drops of Lavender Oil when feeling anxiety. 50mg of L-Theanine when severe discontinuation effects caused by Wellbutrin

 

Please note this is NOT a medical advice. Discuss all your medical issues with a doctor who understands psychical drugs and really knows how to withdraw from them. I wish that you will find one.

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Phoenixmama

@KenA thank you 🙏🏼 🥳🥳🥳🥳 

 

 

started celexa 10mg feb 2nd 

feb 25th took my last 10g

feb 26th took 5mg

feb 27th took 5mg 

feb 28th cold turkey 

currently taking mag

 

 

 

 

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@KenAWhat a wonderful success story, I’m so happy for you!! 🎉

Been on medication since 1999. Previous medications include Remeron, Zoloft, Celexa, Lexapro, Xanax, Ativan, Valium.

 

Since 3/20 CT’ed MMJ, fast tapered 10mg Lexapro and 2mg Abilify (was on each for about a month) and tapered off 50 mg Amitriptyline. 

 

Klonopin: doses varied since 2001; currently on .5 mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium citrate: 250 mg; Fish oil: 1200 mg

 

“We can not solve our problems with the same level of thinking that created them.”  - Albert Einstein 

 

 

 

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Ken..heart warming,hopeful and very appreciated.

Thanks for your success story and taking the time to fill us in.

  •  1995 -1998 prozac 20 mg; unsuccessful C.T.
  • 1998-2004 paxil 10 mg ; unsuccessful C.T. 
  •  2004-current  lexapro 10 mg
  •  2009 added drug Wellbutrin 150mg, 2016  bupropian300 mg XL
  • 2019  start taper June-;alternated between 300 mg and 150 mg XL (as per PCP guidelines) until  reached daily bupropian 150 mg XL in December 2019
  • 2020 January-March skipping 1 -4 days in between 150 mg XL then crashed mid month March
  • 2020 March-April resumed skipping every 3 days
  • 2020 April 28 began splitting bupropion 75 mg HCL and taking 37.5 mg am &  pm
  • 2020 April discovered SA and the brassmonkey slide taper; making own pills now
  • 2020 June 10-71.3 mg bupropion HCL (2 pills daily -divided);July 10 -67.7 mg;August 9 -64.3;August 31-61.1;September 21-58.0; October 12-55.1; November 2-52.4 mg bupropion HCL;December 3-8 -49.8; reinstated December 9 -52.4mg,ALL ARE GENERIC
  • 2021 January 7 liquid taper of Wellbutrin done by compound pharmacist .
  • Same amount as before. Staying at 52.4 mg. HOLD.
  • 2021 January 29 liquid lexapro done by compound pharmacist.
  • 2021 February 4 began  taper at 10% 9.0mg. Held for a while.
  • 2021 June 14 resumed taper, 2.5% reduction, 8.8 mg.
  • 2021 June 28 2.5% reduction 8.6mg.
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Greatful

@KenA Congratulations ken, you are an inspiration to us all.  

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/

1995? Prozac,  tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz

 Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015  Kindled   Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify  Pristiq, Wellbutrin 2016  ended back on 2016  Prozac and Lamictal 200mg

5/2020  through 12/2020 taper from 20mg  Prozac  down to 3mg.  Crashed  12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct  1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct  Trazadone 50mg 4/25  25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg.  2/24  100mg   4/9  75mg   4/21 37.5  2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg.  Became hypo manic 2/16 ct

2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr  3/3 100mg  3/17  150mg  side effects ct   4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg  4/14  7.5mg  4/30 10mg  5/10  7.5mg   5/16  5mg

 5mg Lexapro   37.5 Lamictal   25mg trazadone,   xanax  .0625mg  3x a day   Magnesium glycinate 200mg. Omega 3 , Melatonin L Theanine 

Lexapro 2021/01/09 4.90mg  05/09  4.75mg

 

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Rejoicing with you!  You are such an inspiration!  Thank you for caring about others and wanting to help!

.025 Xanax 3 x daily  Start date 10-13-2013 through 8-13-2014.  Started tapering 6-2014 to 8-2014.  Some small discomfort. 25 mg Zoloft - Start date 5-1-2014.  50mg. 6-2014.  through 7-14-2014 .  Started tapering  7-14-2014, stopped tapering 10-2014.  I did 1/4 of the dose a month.  small discomfort.  These next 3 were prescribed when I made some seriously bad choices with my thyroid medication.  Was in ER twice for possible heart attack.  INTENSE anxiety, panic, fear.   Lost 30 pounds in 2 weeks.  Thyroid levels bounced to extremes for 8 months. Dr. prescribed Zoloft 50mg  9-2105.  After 2 doses had a bad reaction passed out in my bedroom. Also prescribed Xanax .025  at the same time. 3 times daily, 4 if needed.  Was only on it about 2 weeks.  Was not working.  Trip ER they gave me an Ativan IV and it worked and lasted.  switched to Ativan. 9-24-2016. 1.5 mg Ativan - .5 mg  three x daily -start date 9/24/16.  Attempted taper start 12-16-2016. Was shaving Pills and alternating tapering AM, PM and midday dose weekly.  Buspar .5mg  -2.5mg. am and 2. 5mg. pm start date 9-26-2016 .  Lexapro .10mg  start date  - 10-26-2016. Found SA and began 10/14/2017 tapering .001 gm every 4 days Held longer if there were was WD.    Was very sensitive to Ativan. 3-15-2018 Off midday dose - 7-16-2018 Off PM dose - OFF ATIVAN! 11-17-2018 10 mg. Lexapro. PM - 5 mg start date 10/11/2016 increased to 10 mg 2/2/17. 1-1-2019 Began tapering Lexapro.  .001 gm every 4 days.  Held longer if there was WD.  Last doses some I held a month.  OFF LEXAPRO! 2-21 2021 5 mg. Buspar  divided into two, 2.5 mg doses AM and PM- Start date 9/26/2016 Cold turkey on Dr. direction, PM does.  Reinstated PM dose 9-22 N.P. Desiccated Thyroid.  12-22-17 reduced  from  75 mg. to 67.5 daily,  dose now 60 mg a day. Bioidentical hormones. Bi-est/Prog cream, 1/4 tsp.  1 time daily

My intro: Moonpie:. Need help and supporting tapering off of Ativan

My benzo thread: Moonpie: Need help Ativan weight tapering

 

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@KenA Congratulations! What a wonderful success story. I'm really happy for you. Hope that you will stick around

2010/2011-?: Citaloprapm 40mg, 30 and 20 mg

For the last couple of years: Citalopram 10 mg

Beginning may 2021: After advice from GP skipped doses (10 mg)

Mid may 2021: Went to 10 mg on one day and 5 the other day due to withdrawal

End may 2021: ~7,5 mg (Started cutting 10 mg in quarters to keep track of when to take what)

Beginning of june 2021: 7,5 mg (started on homemade liquid)

2021: Jul 7,5 mg, Aug 7,5

 

Suppl AM: Fish oil, NAC, Vit B Complex, multivitamin, vit D, ashwagandha

Suppl PM: Magnesium 200 mg, L-theanine 400 mg

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24975-jutland86-advice-for-a-guy-from-denmark-wanting-to-taper/

 

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Hi @KenA,

 

Congrats! Did you have cognitive issues and how did the improvement go? 

Citalopram augustus 2020 - 20 mg untill 14 february 2021 quit cold turkey. No alcohol use or other medicine. No surgery.  Only adviced supplements and little bit of vitamine D because of defficieny. 

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woody1981

Congrats Ken,

So happy you are recovered and enjoying life again. Thanks also for the support mate, your a bloody legend. 🤙🏼

2009 - commenced Paxil 20mg for GAD, OCD. 2010 - switched to lexapro 10mg. 

2017 - straight swap to Prozac, day 4 developed tinnitus, insomnia, OCD, GAD symptoms, Reinstated 10mg lexapro, symptoms improve. 
Jan 2019 - Attempted “slower” taper for 3 months,  med free for 11 weeks and felt ok.

June 2019 - WD symptoms struck. 
July 2019-July 2020 multiple meds from psychiatrist inc:

lexapro up to 40mg for 12 weeks (tinnitus starts) 

Effexor up to 150mg for 7-8 weeks

Zoloft up to 100mg for 12 weeks 

Remeron 6 weeks 

Paxil to 20mg for 12 weeks 

Quick taper CT Paxil in 4 weeks and drug free since July 19, 2020. 

 

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Congratulations, Ken, and thank you very much for sharing your success story. It is such an inspirational one! I am so happy for you, you must be very proud of your achievement. I have taken notes of your advice so that I can read them whenever I need it -most of the time now as I am so scary and just starting this long way home-.

You are so generous wanting to help and offering to be there for other people like you, like us who are struggling or, in my case, who is lost and on my very first steps, trying to learn it all, reading, looking for information, browsing through the topics, getting used to the site, devoting all the time (the few moments) I get left to this urgent, most important task.

If only I could follow your path and example! Every word that speaks of hope and encouragement comes as a blessing, I find myself craving for them as nobody round me believes in my recovery. They take me for a lost case as I have been suffering for so long (since I was twelve, 55 now!!!).

Without the support you and others provide I think I would not even try. Convincing myself of the possibility of change, of getting better after all these years of suffering and medication is not that easy when everything and everyone seem to be playing against you!

 

I will read your introduction and follow your posts as long as you continue writing. Thank you again, thank you so much, your generosity speak wonders of you, I am sure life will reward you for it and your effort. My best wishes and congratulations again!😇😘

1979- ?: Tricyclic antidepressants and diazepam (can't remember which, quantity and the years  I was on them. Too young). Major - severe- "endogenous" depression.

1995-2021: Fluoxetine (80 mg first after many years experiencing bulimia  following anorexia nervosa; 60 mg daily now when the first subsided -since 2000-). Added venlaxafine and took it along with the fluoxetine for many years, too.  Sorry I can't be more precise. During a shorter period of time added also trazodone.

1995-2021: On and off various other drugs: Hypnotics (Rohipnol) and benzos: triazolam, diazepam, lorazepam,  bromazepam, clonazepam, alprazolam.

2010-2021: Alprazolam (starting off with 0.25 mg daily; now 3 mg daily). The most effective one.

2017-2021: Added Clonazepam (now 6 mg daily).

July 2021: Added Mirtazapine ( now 15 mg daily).

 

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JohnKross

Wow amazing Post !! Thanks for sharing Ken. All the best for you

2015-2017 Zoloft (gradually increased the dosage, don't remember the dosage though)

2017-2019 Effexor+Wellbutrin (125 mg Effexore + 150 mg Wellbutrin)

2019 Stopped all the medications and had PSSD (everything else is fine)

Currently taking only Fish Oil

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@KenA Congratulations and thanks for sharing your success story it was great to read. 

Prozac: 20-40mg from 2006-2019. Zoloft: 2003-2005 off and on. Adderall XR: 20-50mg (abused so took more than prescribed often) 2006-2016. Amphetamine Salts 2006-2016 10-20mg (abused). Ativan: 2009-2010 1mg. Suboxone 16mg sublingual strips 2013-2016. Vyvanse: mg? (abused) 2014-2015. Alprazolam: December 2018- June 2019 1-2mg (abused). Diazepam: June 2019-November 2019 mg? (used to taper me off of Xanax). Lexapro: 2018-2020 10-20mg. Mitrazapine 30mg: Nov 2019-May 2020 (tapered off over 3 months) Trintillex: May 2019-December 2019 (mg?). Hormonal birth control 2003-2019.

 

supplements (current):

Morning: 400mg L-Theanine, 375mg magnesium.

Night:  450mg Valerian Root, 2.5mg Melatonin 

 

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On 8/27/2021 at 4:24 AM, Fromthenetherlands said:

Hi @KenA,

 

Congrats! Did you have cognitive issues and how did the improvement go? 

I did have some cognitive issues early on, but they had pretty much all resolved by the 1 year mark. It just took time for them to all resolve, but I'm happy to say they are all gone at this point :)

2010-2011 - Tramadol - Can't remember dosage

2011 - CT Quit Tramadol

2011-2019 - St Johns Wart - Started out at 3 Pills a day (300 MG) and increased to 6 per day over the years

August 2019 - CT Quit St Johns (Told by Hospital Dr to Stop Taking due to increased BP)

September 2019 - Citalopram 10mg - Approx 2 weeks - CT Quit

September 2019 - October 2019 - Clonazepam .5mg - Approx 3 weeks - CT Quit

Drug Free Since October 5th 2019

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On 8/29/2021 at 1:40 AM, Hernamoeg said:

 

Congratulations, Ken, and thank you very much for sharing your success story. It is such an inspirational one! I am so happy for you, you must be very proud of your achievement. I have taken notes of your advice so that I can read them whenever I need it -most of the time now as I am so scary and just starting this long way home-.

You are so generous wanting to help and offering to be there for other people like you, like us who are struggling or, in my case, who is lost and on my very first steps, trying to learn it all, reading, looking for information, browsing through the topics, getting used to the site, devoting all the time (the few moments) I get left to this urgent, most important task.

If only I could follow your path and example! Every word that speaks of hope and encouragement comes as a blessing, I find myself craving for them as nobody round me believes in my recovery. They take me for a lost case as I have been suffering for so long (since I was twelve, 55 now!!!).

Without the support you and others provide I think I would not even try. Convincing myself of the possibility of change, of getting better after all these years of suffering and medication is not that easy when everything and everyone seem to be playing against you!

 

I will read your introduction and follow your posts as long as you continue writing. Thank you again, thank you so much, your generosity speak wonders of you, I am sure life will reward you for it and your effort. My best wishes and congratulations again!😇😘

@Hernamoeg Thank you much! It was quite the long journey but it was well worth it!! I know that you are just getting started in your journey, but it's never too late. My best advice to you is to take it slow and be gentle with yourself. This is a very trying process, but I truly do believe that everyone is capable of doing this and making it through!! 55 is never to late! Just try to stay as positive as you possibly can. I promise it helps! Try and keep living your life as best you can! I know it can be hard, but I personally kept working and doing things with my family no matter what. I refused to give up living. I did have to take it a bit easier, but that was ok. I don't know alot about tapering as I CT quit everything, but if you need any general advise or encouragement don't hesitate to reach out!

 

Ken

2010-2011 - Tramadol - Can't remember dosage

2011 - CT Quit Tramadol

2011-2019 - St Johns Wart - Started out at 3 Pills a day (300 MG) and increased to 6 per day over the years

August 2019 - CT Quit St Johns (Told by Hospital Dr to Stop Taking due to increased BP)

September 2019 - Citalopram 10mg - Approx 2 weeks - CT Quit

September 2019 - October 2019 - Clonazepam .5mg - Approx 3 weeks - CT Quit

Drug Free Since October 5th 2019

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Hey @KenA your story really inspires me. I constantly read it when I’m in a wave. Thank you for sharing it and wishing you the best. Just a quick question. I saw that you mentioned that all your mental symptoms eventually completely went, did you have withdrawal OCD? I started to develop this around month 4 when the dark intrusive thoughts started popped in and I’m just worried about it, I’m OCD about every thought I have now and my thoughts don’t seem like my own at all they can be very distressing. 

October 26th Escitalopram/lexapro 10mg (2 days)

October 28th Escitalopram/lexapro 5mg 

December 4th Escitalopram/lexapro 2.5mg 

December 21st Escitalopram/lexapro 0mg 

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@Nugget97 Glad to hear that my story is helping to keep you inspired and going on :) As for your question, I had a bit of what you might call OCD, but it really wasn't that major for me. Mostly just worrying about a symptom here or there until I learned acceptance. I def can relate to those dark intrusive thoughts. I remember how horrible they were, but you have to remember that they are just thoughts. You do not have to act on them at all. If you just let them come and go, then they will lose the power over you that they have. They truly can be frightening when you have them, but just reassure yourself that they are not thoughts you would have if you were healthy, so chalk them up to just another wd symptom and know that they will all go away one day! This all is just temporary my friend and we just have to keep on going until the day we are healed!! You are doing amazing, so keep it up!! You are going to be ok!! Just keep going and going until you are healed!! You can do this and you know it! 

 

Ken

2010-2011 - Tramadol - Can't remember dosage

2011 - CT Quit Tramadol

2011-2019 - St Johns Wart - Started out at 3 Pills a day (300 MG) and increased to 6 per day over the years

August 2019 - CT Quit St Johns (Told by Hospital Dr to Stop Taking due to increased BP)

September 2019 - Citalopram 10mg - Approx 2 weeks - CT Quit

September 2019 - October 2019 - Clonazepam .5mg - Approx 3 weeks - CT Quit

Drug Free Since October 5th 2019

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On 8/31/2021 at 10:34 PM, KenA said:

@Nugget97 Glad to hear that my story is helping to keep you inspired and going on :) As for your question, I had a bit of what you might call OCD, but it really wasn't that major for me. Mostly just worrying about a symptom here or there until I learned acceptance. I def can relate to those dark intrusive thoughts. I remember how horrible they were, but you have to remember that they are just thoughts. You do not have to act on them at all. If you just let them come and go, then they will lose the power over you that they have. They truly can be frightening when you have them, but just reassure yourself that they are not thoughts you would have if you were healthy, so chalk them up to just another wd symptom and know that they will all go away one day! This all is just temporary my friend and we just have to keep on going until the day we are healed!! You are doing amazing, so keep it up!! You are going to be ok!! Just keep going and going until you are healed!! You can do this and you know it! 

 

Ken

Hi @KenA thank you so much for your reply and your reassurance. I really appreciate it. The thoughts and the OCD surrounding these thoughts is hard to deal with but I’m surviving. Did yours pop up from the beginning or did you develop them a couple of months into withdrawal? I never had mine from the beginning it was around month 5 just as I was getting better and seeing the light at the end of the tunnel that they started to creep in slowly. Now it’s like they have nearly taken over me. If I didn’t have them I know I’d be 90% healed because the thoughts cause me to have physical anxiety and crying spells which is the worst. It’s all just mental for me now. 

October 26th Escitalopram/lexapro 10mg (2 days)

October 28th Escitalopram/lexapro 5mg 

December 4th Escitalopram/lexapro 2.5mg 

December 21st Escitalopram/lexapro 0mg 

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@Nugget97Of course my friend! I know how hard those runaway mental thoughts can be. They can get to be overwhelming at times for sure. For me, they really didn't develop until later on. The first 6 months or so were mostly a lot of physical problems with just it being hard to concentrate and some memory issues. The emotional and other mental stuff didn't start for me till probably around 6-7 months. That's when the really hard stuff started. The anxiety and depression and the dark thoughts really hit me hard at that time and lasted a good 6-7 more months before those really started to fade away. Just remember this is all temporary my friend. It will come and go, but eventually it will go away for good. Till then just take it one day at a time and remember that you are healing!! These symptoms are a side effect of our healing brains! You've got this!

 

2010-2011 - Tramadol - Can't remember dosage

2011 - CT Quit Tramadol

2011-2019 - St Johns Wart - Started out at 3 Pills a day (300 MG) and increased to 6 per day over the years

August 2019 - CT Quit St Johns (Told by Hospital Dr to Stop Taking due to increased BP)

September 2019 - Citalopram 10mg - Approx 2 weeks - CT Quit

September 2019 - October 2019 - Clonazepam .5mg - Approx 3 weeks - CT Quit

Drug Free Since October 5th 2019

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2 hours ago, KenA said:

@Nugget97Of course my friend! I know how hard those runaway mental thoughts can be. They can get to be overwhelming at times for sure. For me, they really didn't develop until later on. The first 6 months or so were mostly a lot of physical problems with just it being hard to concentrate and some memory issues. The emotional and other mental stuff didn't start for me till probably around 6-7 months. That's when the really hard stuff started. The anxiety and depression and the dark thoughts really hit me hard at that time and lasted a good 6-7 more months before those really started to fade away. Just remember this is all temporary my friend. It will come and go, but eventually it will go away for good. Till then just take it one day at a time and remember that you are healing!! These symptoms are a side effect of our healing brains! You've got this!

 

You have no idea how reassuring this is to hear!! I was always an overthinker so I’m constantly like maybe my overthinking has just developed into this and this is just me, not withdrawal. It is sometimes so hard to not think about the fact that this is just me now but you have given me so much hope! And of course it is withdrawal I was never even remotely like this before! I even find myself avoiding certain movies or things to avoid being triggered and my mind to start going crazy! Like you it was mostly physical stuff at the beginning as well as crying spells. But since month 6/7 the mental symptoms have completely taken over. It’s now been 2 and a half months of this. Your success story is one of my favourites and I keep reading it over and over again. I can’t wait to get back to my old self. Thank you so much again! 

October 26th Escitalopram/lexapro 10mg (2 days)

October 28th Escitalopram/lexapro 5mg 

December 4th Escitalopram/lexapro 2.5mg 

December 21st Escitalopram/lexapro 0mg 

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Congrats!!! and Thank you. My prayer is soon to be added my success story.💙

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2010-2011 - Tramadol - Can't remember dosage

2011 - CT Quit Tramadol

2011-2019 - St Johns Wart - Started out at 3 Pills a day (300 MG) and increased to 6 per day over the years

August 2019 - CT Quit St Johns (Told by Hospital Dr to Stop Taking due to increased BP)

September 2019 - Citalopram 10mg - Approx 2 weeks - CT Quit

September 2019 - October 2019 - Clonazepam .5mg - Approx 3 weeks - CT Quit

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Love it!!

.025 Xanax 3 x daily  Start date 10-13-2013 through 8-13-2014.  Started tapering 6-2014 to 8-2014.  Some small discomfort. 25 mg Zoloft - Start date 5-1-2014.  50mg. 6-2014.  through 7-14-2014 .  Started tapering  7-14-2014, stopped tapering 10-2014.  I did 1/4 of the dose a month.  small discomfort.  These next 3 were prescribed when I made some seriously bad choices with my thyroid medication.  Was in ER twice for possible heart attack.  INTENSE anxiety, panic, fear.   Lost 30 pounds in 2 weeks.  Thyroid levels bounced to extremes for 8 months. Dr. prescribed Zoloft 50mg  9-2105.  After 2 doses had a bad reaction passed out in my bedroom. Also prescribed Xanax .025  at the same time. 3 times daily, 4 if needed.  Was only on it about 2 weeks.  Was not working.  Trip ER they gave me an Ativan IV and it worked and lasted.  switched to Ativan. 9-24-2016. 1.5 mg Ativan - .5 mg  three x daily -start date 9/24/16.  Attempted taper start 12-16-2016. Was shaving Pills and alternating tapering AM, PM and midday dose weekly.  Buspar .5mg  -2.5mg. am and 2. 5mg. pm start date 9-26-2016 .  Lexapro .10mg  start date  - 10-26-2016. Found SA and began 10/14/2017 tapering .001 gm every 4 days Held longer if there were was WD.    Was very sensitive to Ativan. 3-15-2018 Off midday dose - 7-16-2018 Off PM dose - OFF ATIVAN! 11-17-2018 10 mg. Lexapro. PM - 5 mg start date 10/11/2016 increased to 10 mg 2/2/17. 1-1-2019 Began tapering Lexapro.  .001 gm every 4 days.  Held longer if there was WD.  Last doses some I held a month.  OFF LEXAPRO! 2-21 2021 5 mg. Buspar  divided into two, 2.5 mg doses AM and PM- Start date 9/26/2016 Cold turkey on Dr. direction, PM does.  Reinstated PM dose 9-22 N.P. Desiccated Thyroid.  12-22-17 reduced  from  75 mg. to 67.5 daily,  dose now 60 mg a day. Bioidentical hormones. Bi-est/Prog cream, 1/4 tsp.  1 time daily

My intro: Moonpie:. Need help and supporting tapering off of Ativan

My benzo thread: Moonpie: Need help Ativan weight tapering

 

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2010-2011 - Tramadol - Can't remember dosage

2011 - CT Quit Tramadol

2011-2019 - St Johns Wart - Started out at 3 Pills a day (300 MG) and increased to 6 per day over the years

August 2019 - CT Quit St Johns (Told by Hospital Dr to Stop Taking due to increased BP)

September 2019 - Citalopram 10mg - Approx 2 weeks - CT Quit

September 2019 - October 2019 - Clonazepam .5mg - Approx 3 weeks - CT Quit

Drug Free Since October 5th 2019

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Lol so true!

.025 Xanax 3 x daily  Start date 10-13-2013 through 8-13-2014.  Started tapering 6-2014 to 8-2014.  Some small discomfort. 25 mg Zoloft - Start date 5-1-2014.  50mg. 6-2014.  through 7-14-2014 .  Started tapering  7-14-2014, stopped tapering 10-2014.  I did 1/4 of the dose a month.  small discomfort.  These next 3 were prescribed when I made some seriously bad choices with my thyroid medication.  Was in ER twice for possible heart attack.  INTENSE anxiety, panic, fear.   Lost 30 pounds in 2 weeks.  Thyroid levels bounced to extremes for 8 months. Dr. prescribed Zoloft 50mg  9-2105.  After 2 doses had a bad reaction passed out in my bedroom. Also prescribed Xanax .025  at the same time. 3 times daily, 4 if needed.  Was only on it about 2 weeks.  Was not working.  Trip ER they gave me an Ativan IV and it worked and lasted.  switched to Ativan. 9-24-2016. 1.5 mg Ativan - .5 mg  three x daily -start date 9/24/16.  Attempted taper start 12-16-2016. Was shaving Pills and alternating tapering AM, PM and midday dose weekly.  Buspar .5mg  -2.5mg. am and 2. 5mg. pm start date 9-26-2016 .  Lexapro .10mg  start date  - 10-26-2016. Found SA and began 10/14/2017 tapering .001 gm every 4 days Held longer if there were was WD.    Was very sensitive to Ativan. 3-15-2018 Off midday dose - 7-16-2018 Off PM dose - OFF ATIVAN! 11-17-2018 10 mg. Lexapro. PM - 5 mg start date 10/11/2016 increased to 10 mg 2/2/17. 1-1-2019 Began tapering Lexapro.  .001 gm every 4 days.  Held longer if there was WD.  Last doses some I held a month.  OFF LEXAPRO! 2-21 2021 5 mg. Buspar  divided into two, 2.5 mg doses AM and PM- Start date 9/26/2016 Cold turkey on Dr. direction, PM does.  Reinstated PM dose 9-22 N.P. Desiccated Thyroid.  12-22-17 reduced  from  75 mg. to 67.5 daily,  dose now 60 mg a day. Bioidentical hormones. Bi-est/Prog cream, 1/4 tsp.  1 time daily

My intro: Moonpie:. Need help and supporting tapering off of Ativan

My benzo thread: Moonpie: Need help Ativan weight tapering

 

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