Feeling of smallness, being unsafe in the world

[Escitalopram21]

I am a few weeks after reinstating a small dose of Escitalopram and most days I am feeling ok. 
 

One of my most disturbing symptoms right now is feeling small, like a little girl. I feel like the world is a dangerous place. It starts with thoughts about a situation (can’t revan which one, its more like a myriad of events) when I felt unsafe and escalates when i start questioning myself like:

 

-would i be able to go grocery shopping with this feeling

-would i be able to .... 
 

i did not experience this while on my drugs so its very unplesant and disturbing in everyday life. 
 

Anyone can relate?

[dA2021]

Sounds like anxiety i can relate.

 

[Escitalopram21]

@dA2021 hmm. I think you are right. I havent thought of anxiety in that way. Men haven been thinking of anxiety mostly as a physical feeling. 
 

The worst about this is that it holds me back from just relaxing at home since it keeps nagging me until i get up and go and do something to prove to myself that i am able to do normal, everyday things. 
 

do you have a good way to manage this?

[Darren]

When I was a teenager with anxiety, the feeling is totally different than now. Venlafaxine and withdrawal got me into mind thinking and over analysis. I spent my years from 2009 living alone, with the venlafaxine and withdrawal, it's like now I'm trying to get back to the teenager thinking. Does anyone know if living on own with the bad years gets u upto where u seek to get back to the family years a teenager. I'm 38 now, and I can't live on my own. My ocd is bad in my space. I developed the germ contamination while on venlafaxine

[dA2021]

I am not sure what has helped with anxiety - propanadol  does.....

 

writing down positives around me

 

my job

 

 

speaking to colleagues around negative thoughts

 

 

Admitting when struggling

 

 

Being creative

 

 

Venlafaxine and Stertaline have both been very difficult medications to tolerate. I notice I am more anxious or get stimulus overwhelm if I have more than 2 meetings in one day. I do a lot of my job on a laptop and plan things so I do find it difficult cognitively to function without needing to sleep or rest my mind.

 

I have now started planning some support groups on Zoom I feel that passionate about how its affected me. Peer support has helped me to keep pushing through and conitue withdrawal, I started my reduction to 95ml each day now. Its took a good year to get down from 150mg just about functioning.

 

I keep going for my son and husband and parents

 

 

[arielS]

Yes I feel so much like you... Like I need emotions and someone be beside me but even if someone did that.. I cannot feel anything yes.. I know this fear and this feeling

[ThatOneGirlStitch]

@arielS

 

Same here. Emotions would definitely help. I had someone by me and it did not make me feel emotionally better. They could have wrapped me up in a blanket and held me, surrounded by calming music and stuffed animals and I would have felt no different. Maybe I felt logically better. I thought, if I had emotions I would be able to calm myself or find comfort. The fear is lessened now that I can go to other rooms of my house, but still scared of outside. I am told this feeling definitely gets better.

 

 

[arielS]

Yes of course... How are you now and for how long are you off?