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@Farout so sorry to tag you I just feel extremely scared. 

 

My brain feels disconnected, gripping sensations, burning, empty, flat, numb, just makes me feel not right in the head. 

 

Did you experience any of this?

 

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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Sorry just another thought is this DP? Because it is strange this has come at the same time as DR?

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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Would like opinions please

 

I started to suffer with DR not being able to see things right. And recently have the feeling as if my brain is not connected to my body

 

Is this DP?

 

Edited by ChessieCat
added topic title before merging with intro topic

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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@Lilmizz21

This is crazy isn't it🥴

I've been getting crazy ocd compulsions. Are you compulsions to help stop the what ever you are upset/worried about then the obsessing starts and you want to find a way to ease the worry that feels so real in your mind  the famous "What if" takes over.

 

I had a hard day yesterday with my brain squeezing hard, burning, tingling, numb spots  Crushing in on top, I find that this makes it really hard to concentrate, focus, think fluently. The ocd obsession, the crazy unrealistic thoughts to bombard me.

 

Do you think when the brain feels the way it does intense  for you and I and is in already in a fight or flight mode from the loss of connection from the chemical changes it is looking for something to be causing the fight or flight mode and it comes up with anything it can falsely create to make sense to why it is in fear.  Then you react to it and it says okay that's what I am suppose to be afraid of, the cycle begins, when you get the thought under some commons sense it goes to find another reason to come up usually somehow in the same realm of thought that it got it's first reaction from, maybe just from a different angle.

 

I can say that the brain is a little less intense  in my little windows (the squeezing, burning, crushing extra).  And the obsessive and intrusive thoughts become more manageable because you start to  them as less real and scary.  They may seem real in the most intense moments but your brain learns to let it go faster the less of a reaction and attention you give it.  It may not always go away totally, but less intense.  It may go away for awhile only to reappear later in the day or maybe not for a few days.

 

Hang in there girl.  All you have to do is make it through today❤️

Draw strength and encouragement from those who have gone through the same crazy things and have come out on the other side SANE.🌞

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/

1995? Prozac,  tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz

 Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015  Kindled   Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify  Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016  ended back on   Prozac and Lamictal 200mg

5/2020  thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg  Prozac  down to 3mg.  Crashed  12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct  1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct  2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg.  Became hypo manic 2/1  6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25  25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg.  2/24  100mg   4/9  75mg   4/21 37.5 

2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr  3/3 100mg  3/17  150mg  side effects ct   4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg  4/14  7.5mg  4/30 10mg  5/10  7.5mg 

2021/ 5/16  5mg Lexapro   37.5 Lamictal   25mg trazadone,   xanax  .0625mg  3x a day   

Lexapro  Taper> Sept/01/2021  4.90mg>  Sept/25  4.75mg>   Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg    Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid  4.2mg  (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg>  2/24  3.8mg  slow taper to  Aug/12/2022 2.04mg  2023> 2mg,  1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg

Lamictal  taper  4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22-   0

 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg  July 2023   0

Xanax  0.0625 3 x a day,  2023>  0.042 3x a day

Supplements  Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC 

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You can have both D/P D/R 

Depersonalization can consist of a detachment within the self, regarding one's mind or body, or being a detached observer of oneself. Subjects feel they have changed and that the world has become vague, dreamlike, less real, lacking in significance or being outside reality while looking in.

 

Derealization is a mental state where you feel detached from your surroundings. People and objects around you may seem unreal. Even so, you're aware that this altered state isn't normal. More than half of all people may have this disconnection from reality once in their lifetime.

 

 

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/

1995? Prozac,  tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz

 Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015  Kindled   Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify  Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016  ended back on   Prozac and Lamictal 200mg

5/2020  thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg  Prozac  down to 3mg.  Crashed  12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct  1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct  2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg.  Became hypo manic 2/1  6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25  25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg.  2/24  100mg   4/9  75mg   4/21 37.5 

2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr  3/3 100mg  3/17  150mg  side effects ct   4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg  4/14  7.5mg  4/30 10mg  5/10  7.5mg 

2021/ 5/16  5mg Lexapro   37.5 Lamictal   25mg trazadone,   xanax  .0625mg  3x a day   

Lexapro  Taper> Sept/01/2021  4.90mg>  Sept/25  4.75mg>   Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg    Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid  4.2mg  (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg>  2/24  3.8mg  slow taper to  Aug/12/2022 2.04mg  2023> 2mg,  1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg

Lamictal  taper  4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22-   0

 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg  July 2023   0

Xanax  0.0625 3 x a day,  2023>  0.042 3x a day

Supplements  Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC 

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Guys,

 

I'm getting that same feeling I got when I had the adverse reaction. It's the akathasia, mental torture. The crushing of my skull, brain sensations, that feeling of terror coming up, the maniac thoughts, the severe complusion to not to be here

 

This is so scary. Is this never gonna leave??

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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11 hours ago, Lilmizz21 said:

Would like opinions please

 

I started to suffer with DR not being able to see things right. And recently have the feeling as if my brain is not connected to my body

 

Is this DP?

 

 

Here is SA's topic:

 

derealization-or-depersonalization-dr-and-dp

 

* NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA *

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

Post 0 updates start here    My tapering program     My Intro (goes to tapering graph)

 VIDEO:   Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management

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@manymoretodays I hope you dont mind me asking as I know you are a veteran when it comes to this stuff. 

 

Did you experience brain crushing, tension, different sensations? As the pain is so intense it feels my brain is inflamed then sometimes numb..and I just fear if this doesnt go I am just permanently disabled like this, it makes me feel that way :(

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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Hi there,

And yes, I did.  Is there anything going on around you that you might be able to put on the back burner for awhile?

 

And many of us have experienced the symptoms you describe.

Migraine, headache, neck ache, /pain and head pressure

 

Do your best right now, to turn your thoughts towards pleasant things.  If at all possible avoid stressful situations.  And I always found that things that had not been or that I did not feel to be stressful, prior to WD, once in my own WD they became very, very stressful.  Hope that makes sense.

Look at now, as your time to heal.  And perhaps just that.

Look for the blue sky, the nice scent, the soft fabric, or the pleasant smiles from others.

 

Any positives to report Lilmizz21?  Or any coping skills that helped you?

 

Hoping that there is something.  Some little thing that comes to your mind.

 

L, P, H, and G,

mmt

Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks.

Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988.  In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm.

Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time).

5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014)

12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs.  My last psycho med ever!  Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to

2016 Dec 16 medication free!!

Longer signature post here, with current supplements.

Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016.  And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed.  Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022.  Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜

None of my posts are intended as medical advice.  Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider.  My success story:  Blue skies ahead, clear sailing

 

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@manymoretodays 

 

Thanks so much for responding and reassuring me.

 

My safe place is defiatelty with my electric blanket on, it comforts me the heat. 

 

It terms of postives, I am still feeling brain damaged today but I've had less "severely strange thoughts" and havent had any SI today which is strange cause I get this extremely intensly everyday. 

 

I still have the other symptoms going on but I suppose today I feel 30% myself. Is this a window, healing? 

 

I still cant concentrate with the brain sensations and cognitively struggling along with my other 70 symptoms but I dunno I felt a little more myself today. Not wanting to scream for help. I could just "be" If this makes sense lol

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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1 hour ago, Lilmizz21 said:

Is this a window, healing? 

 

Yes.  You can do a little window dance today. 

Acknowledging comfort, less severity to symptoms........that is a WINDOW.  Even if it is sometimes just a short period during a day.......it counts.  It will grow.

 

Alien monster doing a window dance-👾👾

I cannot find the one I like with a Spanish dancer.  😞

Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks.

Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988.  In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm.

Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time).

5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014)

12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs.  My last psycho med ever!  Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to

2016 Dec 16 medication free!!

Longer signature post here, with current supplements.

Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016.  And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed.  Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022.  Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜

None of my posts are intended as medical advice.  Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider.  My success story:  Blue skies ahead, clear sailing

 

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Straight back into it. 

 

My level of fear today has been 100. Woke up with severe SI complusions, brain squeezing in. Panic mode all day with maniac thoughts. 

 

 

Now back to hardly any vision, tinnitus, severe depression, sweating, head pressures, pains. 

 

How has all this happened from one pill and a few weeks of another. 🥺🥺 I really feel like this is just it for me. My life permanently 

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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Is head sensations aka? Like the crushing brain so intensly?

 

Just wondering is the crushing brain so intensly, akathasia?

 

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added topic title before merging with intro topic

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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No.  It is not akathisia.

 

From Wikipedia

 

Quote

Akathisia is a movement disorder characterized by a subjective feeling of inner restlessness accompanied by mental distress and an inability to sit still.

 

 

From drug signature:

 

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

 

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

 

 

Taking an antibiotic can worsen withdrawal symptoms.

 

cipro-levaquin-azithromycin-z-pack-and-other-antibiotics

 

 

 

* NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA *

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

Post 0 updates start here    My tapering program     My Intro (goes to tapering graph)

 VIDEO:   Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management

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@ChessieCat thank you so much. 

 

It's so bizarre when I had the adverse reaction, like you it was like serotin syndrome.. it was like my brain was burning and it just tensed in and it's almost like I'm coming up on a bad "acid" trip and that's when I actually feel complused to do something silly, almost like somethings taken over my mind when it happens. It actually takes my breath away

 

I had this on the tryclic as well and it's happening in withdrawl.

 

Is this just the brain fixing something?

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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Guys the pain in my head brain is so so severe.

 

I cant explain it it literally pulls so tight it feels like its gonna explode. The pain is absoutley unbearable, the intensity.

 

Could this be something else?

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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@JesusSavemefromWD did you get the intense head sensations like your brain was going to explode? Like severely painful x

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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2 hours ago, Lilmizz21 said:

@JesusSavemefromWD did you get the intense head sensations like your brain was going to explode? Like severely painful x

Yes, I felt constantly like my brain would explode and like it was pushing to get out of my skull ( particularly the right side of my brain felt swollen) but it wasn’t painful. I don’t have this “explosion head” sensation anymore. Hang in there, I know the symptoms are awful 

Aug. 16-17, 2020, cipralex: went CRAZY! Recovered in 24hrs

Aug.28,2020; 3.5 weeks 25mg sertraline/4.5 weeks taper

Oct. 25: Last dose (4mg)

Symptoms while on zoloft

DPDR/out of my body/soul despair/feeling dead; tinnitus/no appetite; fear, anxiety/panics

4 months OFF: soul despair, anxiety/fear, brain disconnection/ DPDR, brain feels swollen-numb/crazy/bedridden barely functioning, tinnitus, eye lid twitches; face spasms. Feeling slightly better after 10pm.

- sleep & appetite are fine

9 months OFF: hell, no windows, same symptoms as above  (only eye and face twitches have stopped) plus intense arm/shoulder pain and visual issues. Tinnitus replaced by head buzzing. 

10 months-1 year: all above plus Insomnia (out of nowhere), depression, no peace of mind (mental Akathisia); 2.5mg melatonin

14months off: sleep resumed. All rest symptoms remain. Bedridden vegetable all day. DP is relentless. 

1.5 years off: still severely disabled, not much changed except some improvement in vision.

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I have merged your new topic with an existing topic:

 

do-ssris-cause-brain-injury

 

Also see:

 

what-is-happening-in-your-brain

 

* NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA *

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

Post 0 updates start here    My tapering program     My Intro (goes to tapering graph)

 VIDEO:   Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management

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Hi guys, @Kiasofia @Farout @Greatful

 

I'm dropping in with my current symptoms. I suppose for reassurance. Really struggling with alot at once :(

 

Is this all normal 10 weeks in?

 

Current symptoms 

- brain crushing, brain feels damaged, sick, full of something, burning
- halliocations when I close my eyes at night
- sometimes a lag between my brain and what I'm doing
- jerking when I sleep
- tingling in all different nerves in my brain
- severe SI

- SI impulses
- concentration problems
- maniac thoughts
- racing thoughts
- burning feelings in different places
- constant crying
- derealization 
- tinnitus 
- blurred vision
- floaties in the eye
- joint pain (some muscles wont move) 
- inner vibrations
- feel almost high all the time (not in the right head space)
- perception issues
- severe depression
- blackouts (vision gos black)

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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@Alenah above is a list of my current symptoms :) may help bring you some comfort. X

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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It is not uncommon for an adverse reaction to last a few months.

 

Adverse reactions to an antidepressant within a few doses -- how long for recovery?

 

Just like with withdrawal

 

Are We There Yet? How Long is Withdrawal Going to Take?

 

Have you tried magnesium?

Magnesium, nature's calcium channel blocker

 

Are there moments where you feel less horrible?

These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I have learned, not medical advice.

 

Drug history

2002-2019 Citalopram/Escitalopram, Lamictal
2019 April Escitalopram, quit at 10mg (withdrawal), Oct Escitalopram 10mg reinstated, quit after a few days (adverse reaction)

2019 Oct Lamictal cut from 200mg to 100mg
2019 Dec Lithium 83x2 mg

2020 Aug-Nov Lamictal tapered to 50 mg

2020 Nov 24 Lithium taper started, 30 Jan off Lithium

2021 15. March-31. May Lamictal tapered to 32.5 mg (holding)

2022 10. Jan started taking 25mg+5mg+2mg+0.5 liquid, 22. Jan went back to taking 25mg+5mg+half 5mg

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On 11/13/2021 at 12:26 AM, Altostrata said:

If you felt the amitriptyline calmed you down, how about taking a smaller amount, such as 1mg or 2.5mg? If you have withdrawal from amitriptyline, that probably would reduce it.

Have you considered this?

These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I have learned, not medical advice.

 

Drug history

2002-2019 Citalopram/Escitalopram, Lamictal
2019 April Escitalopram, quit at 10mg (withdrawal), Oct Escitalopram 10mg reinstated, quit after a few days (adverse reaction)

2019 Oct Lamictal cut from 200mg to 100mg
2019 Dec Lithium 83x2 mg

2020 Aug-Nov Lamictal tapered to 50 mg

2020 Nov 24 Lithium taper started, 30 Jan off Lithium

2021 15. March-31. May Lamictal tapered to 32.5 mg (holding)

2022 10. Jan started taking 25mg+5mg+2mg+0.5 liquid, 22. Jan went back to taking 25mg+5mg+half 5mg

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@Kiasofia yeah I think I had drug induced akathasia from my adverse reaction and I was still really bad on the amtriyline.

 

Part of me thinks keep fighting, part of me thinks this is just too many symptoms. And its permenant :(

 

I had some of these symptoms on the amtriyline.

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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16 minutes ago, Lilmizz21 said:

And its permenant

That it is not❤️ Please hang on. One day at a time.

 

35 minutes ago, Kiasofia said:

Have you tried magnesium?

Magnesium, nature's calcium channel blocker

 

Are there moments where you feel less horrible?

 

These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I have learned, not medical advice.

 

Drug history

2002-2019 Citalopram/Escitalopram, Lamictal
2019 April Escitalopram, quit at 10mg (withdrawal), Oct Escitalopram 10mg reinstated, quit after a few days (adverse reaction)

2019 Oct Lamictal cut from 200mg to 100mg
2019 Dec Lithium 83x2 mg

2020 Aug-Nov Lamictal tapered to 50 mg

2020 Nov 24 Lithium taper started, 30 Jan off Lithium

2021 15. March-31. May Lamictal tapered to 32.5 mg (holding)

2022 10. Jan started taking 25mg+5mg+2mg+0.5 liquid, 22. Jan went back to taking 25mg+5mg+half 5mg

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@Lilmizz21Hi Lil  How are you doing ?

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/

1995? Prozac,  tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz

 Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015  Kindled   Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify  Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016  ended back on   Prozac and Lamictal 200mg

5/2020  thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg  Prozac  down to 3mg.  Crashed  12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct  1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct  2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg.  Became hypo manic 2/1  6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25  25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg.  2/24  100mg   4/9  75mg   4/21 37.5 

2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr  3/3 100mg  3/17  150mg  side effects ct   4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg  4/14  7.5mg  4/30 10mg  5/10  7.5mg 

2021/ 5/16  5mg Lexapro   37.5 Lamictal   25mg trazadone,   xanax  .0625mg  3x a day   

Lexapro  Taper> Sept/01/2021  4.90mg>  Sept/25  4.75mg>   Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg    Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid  4.2mg  (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg>  2/24  3.8mg  slow taper to  Aug/12/2022 2.04mg  2023> 2mg,  1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg

Lamictal  taper  4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22-   0

 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg  July 2023   0

Xanax  0.0625 3 x a day,  2023>  0.042 3x a day

Supplements  Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC 

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@Greatful been very eventful. Nearly got took away to a psych ward. 

 

I keep getting this feeling like my tummy is gonna explode out of my stomach. It makes me so uncomfortable like a form of torture.

 

Is this withdrawl? How are you lovely?

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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@Lilmizz21

I was worried about you. 

I really feel for you.  We seem to be having the same brain issues.

I am wondering if mine just won't quick is because I am still taking the rotten drug Lexapro.  

I get that my brain is high on drugs too.  The droopy feeling and the floppy, spacy brain on top off the crushing, buzzing and burning

About the stomach, l get burning, tense and a sick feeling in my stomach.  

Does your stomach hurt?

 

 

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/

1995? Prozac,  tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz

 Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015  Kindled   Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify  Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016  ended back on   Prozac and Lamictal 200mg

5/2020  thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg  Prozac  down to 3mg.  Crashed  12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct  1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct  2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg.  Became hypo manic 2/1  6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25  25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg.  2/24  100mg   4/9  75mg   4/21 37.5 

2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr  3/3 100mg  3/17  150mg  side effects ct   4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg  4/14  7.5mg  4/30 10mg  5/10  7.5mg 

2021/ 5/16  5mg Lexapro   37.5 Lamictal   25mg trazadone,   xanax  .0625mg  3x a day   

Lexapro  Taper> Sept/01/2021  4.90mg>  Sept/25  4.75mg>   Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg    Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid  4.2mg  (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg>  2/24  3.8mg  slow taper to  Aug/12/2022 2.04mg  2023> 2mg,  1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg

Lamictal  taper  4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22-   0

 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg  July 2023   0

Xanax  0.0625 3 x a day,  2023>  0.042 3x a day

Supplements  Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC 

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@Greatful I dont have any issues in my tummy I think it's more a Complusive, forced thought. I also get thoughts to smack my head on the wall, it's horrible. 

 

Have you heard of anyone where they brain sensations pass??

 

 

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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@manymoretodays @Kiasofia @Farout

 

Hi guys, hope you dont mind me tagging as havent updated in a while. 

 

I am in such a bad way. If anything getting worse. It feels like my brain is just not my own. It is swelling, gripping, static in my temples, so painful, crushing. My brain and head is in such distressing pain.

 

In the past couple weeks I ended up in hospital where they wanted to take me in a psych ward. 

 

I have now actually left my country. I am in such distress 24.7

 

The thoughts are so forced, so chemical not like normal ruminating thoughts. And they are very dangerous thoughts constant loop. When I go to sleep at night I actually feel my brain swelling into my skull and see pictures of things and sometimes scenarios pop up and play out like on a projector with like the voice of a family member. 

 

I was a normal person before this adverse reaction. But I am struggling to bad to keep going. Losing my vision everything. 

 

I suppose I'm looking for reassurance that this is all withdrawl and if i hold on it will pass?

 

I cant believe one pill done this to me. I've lost everything.

 

Honestly it is so severe, so intense what I'm going through. And I dont have the option to reinstate as these drugs did some of this to me on them.

 

Am I lose a cause? I literally have to hold on minute by minute 

 

Sorry, suppose looking for reassurance or if any of yous have had similar issues that went away. 

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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Hi Lilmizz21,

What did you go to the hospital for?

Are there medical issues going on?

 

Are you with anyone now? 

I know it's been really hard, and do want you to maintain safety.

I think if you could be with safe people at least that would be good.

Are you on a planned trip out of the country Lilmizz21?  Like for holiday?

 

You know I don't think you are a lost cause Lilmizz........of course you aren't. 

Any recreational drug use or alcohol lately?  Or even too much caffiene?

Go without any potentially psychoactive substance right now.  None of those will help things.

 

I'm your reassurance pal Lilmizz21.

I think you'll recover from your adverse reaction and any WD that might have occurred too.  It can take time, and limiting stress.  Travel can be stressful, as can this season be, for some.

 

Tomorrow the days start to get longer, or more daylight......so that's good.  Or maybe that's today, Winter Solstice.  I always say when the light starts to chase the dark.

 

Keep us updated.

Thanks.

L, P, H, and G,

mmt

 

 

Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks.

Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988.  In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm.

Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time).

5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014)

12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs.  My last psycho med ever!  Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to

2016 Dec 16 medication free!!

Longer signature post here, with current supplements.

Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016.  And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed.  Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022.  Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜

None of my posts are intended as medical advice.  Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider.  My success story:  Blue skies ahead, clear sailing

 

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@manymoretodays @Altostrata 

 

Sorry, I am tagging altostrata and you many more today's as yous have so much knowledge of this.

 

I had severe severe adverse reaction to lexapro. My brain burned, I felt manic, I was convulsing shaking all over my body, I felt like I was coming up on drug, with a severe need to take my life and had to keep walking.

 

This feeling returned about a week later. (I didnt know anything then) so took a tryclic. I was a little better on the tryclic but still had severe issues such as intrustive thoughts, brain burning, brain swelling, sick feeling in pit of stomach, SI at times, hallucinating when I close my eyes. (Not sure if some of this was the fallout from the adverse reaction)

 

But I am living in a whole new hell now with about 70 symptoms since coming off the tryclic and I have definitely got akathasia where I am being tortured in my mind and body severely with a need to not be here anymore. 

 

I am 3 months in. What do yous think on reinstating the tryclic? Or will this cause more harm than good in my circumstances? 

 

I cant survive like this and no one wants to know anymore, I will be homeless soon.

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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Oh Lilmizz21,

Can you get yourself into a stable, safe housing situation?  I mean I would imagine that would help a lot.  I'm not well versed in services in England to help you with this.  I'm wondering if you have any resource people or help to call now.

 

As far as a reinstatement now, I honestly don't know if that would help take the edge off the symptoms you are describing.  And then I wonder too, if you have what you need to do any reinstatement now, if you are in another country and with minimal belongings or resources. 

 

You might be able to connect with someone, who knows your area, where you are now here:

"Check in" topics: Surviving Antidepressants.org members near you

 

Also:  Recommended doctors, therapists, and clinics

 

There might be something here that helps:

For those who are feeling desperate or suicidal

 

As, I imagine your symptoms would be worse if you wind up homeless and possibly out on the street.

 

Best I can do right now is link you on back to where we discussed reinstatement with you back in November.  And if you do have the resources to do a itty bitty reinstate with amitriptyiline,  I would advise only 1 mg for your dose.

I'll start here:

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/25937-lilmizz21-introduction-advice-needed/?do=findComment&comment=560972

 

and then further links are in this post:

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/25937-lilmizz21-introduction-advice-needed/?do=findComment&comment=560896

 

And don't forget to try some non-drug coping, you were doing good with that before.

Any form of weighted blanket or bundling might help with the severe restlessness.

Weighted blankets and bed tents for restlessness, akathisia, insomnia, and anxiety

 

Notes might help even now.

How is the vaping going?  Have you been able to go with a bare minimum on that?

How are you eating?

Sleeping?

 

Oh Lilmizz21, and gentle hugs,

L, P, H, and G,

mmt

 

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another link

Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks.

Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988.  In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm.

Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time).

5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014)

12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs.  My last psycho med ever!  Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to

2016 Dec 16 medication free!!

Longer signature post here, with current supplements.

Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016.  And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed.  Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022.  Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜

None of my posts are intended as medical advice.  Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider.  My success story:  Blue skies ahead, clear sailing

 

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How have your symptoms changed in the last month?

 

What happened in the hospital, when was that?

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@Altostrata I took lexapro 31st august. Immediately started throwing up, convulsing shaking, brain burning, had to keep walking and a severe want to take my life (was a working normal counsellor before this)

 

Then a week later that feeling came back. Took tryclic and it seemed to calm me but still had brain swelling, SI, feeling off being out of it, hallicating in sleep, brain burning. 

 

But now I'm in a whole new level of hell. I went hospital trying to see neurologist because it feels like I have severe brain inflammation but they wanted me to put me on more psych drugs. Have been off everything 3 months.

 

Do you think this is all fallout of adverse reaction?

 

I was prescribed the tryclic in the past for nerve pain. Took one pill of it one time years ago never had a problem and just didnt take it again, never had a problem. So I dont think it's the tryclic. I think the fallout of the adverse reaction was always there. 

 

Would love your opinion 💞 

Lexapro 10mg - 30th august 2021 - Adverse reaction

Amitriptyline - 10mg - 7th September - 30th sep 4 weeks

Amitriptyline 5mg -28th sep - 5th oct 

0mg ever since the 5th oct

12th oct - 1 amoxcillin and 2

metronidazole

Makes it 5 weeks 0mg so far

 

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Yes, we know that from your first post.

 

How have your symptoms changed in the last month?

This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

"It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein

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