WithdrawalWarrior: Lexapro CT - 8 1/2 months in

[WithdrawalWarrior]

First off I just want to say I don’t recommend to anyone to quit CT from any psychiatric medications. I did so out of sheer ignorance regarding these medications and to the amount of pain and suffering that it would cause by abruptly quitting them. Knowing what I have learned now I definitely would have tapered, and unfortunately for me being 8 1/2 months removed I don’t think reinstatement for a slow taper is a good idea. 
 

I quit lexapro CT about 8 1/2 months ago after being on it over a year and 3 months. (20 mg). I started on lexapro at 24 years old after suffering from consecutive panic attacks after coming back from a music festival where I took a very high dose of molly. At first it really helped with the anxiety and worked well for about 4 months but I eventually began feeling very numb and apathetic to everything, until eventually feeling like an absolute mindless zombie while taking it. I couldn’t critically think about anything anymore and could barely feel any emotions other than a deep smoldering anger that was welling up inside and causing a lot of problems with friends and family. I lost the ability to feel really connected with myself or with anyone around me anymore and I didn’t even know what was causing it until I stumbled upon this site searching for answers. I have had bouts with depression before taking lexapro but was always known to be very passionate, driven, and loved doing things with friends and other people so I felt like lexapro had to be what was causing me to feel so dead inside. My irrational logic was that I’d rather quit CT and feel anxious but still have my emotions and feel like me rather than go any longer feeling lifeless. 
 

The first 5-6 months of withdrawal were pure physical and psychological torture. I was bedridden with Akithisia; ruminating thoughts; pure dread and horror about everything; rage; restlessness; irritability; anhedonia; THICK brain fog/cognitive problems; fear of people; intense feelings of shame, guilt and worthlessness; depersonalization; derealization; tinnitus; vision problems; paranoia; heart palpitations; ice pick headaches; muscle fatigue; delusions; joint pain; brain zaps; insomnia; suicidal ideation; mental exhaustion; intense fear of dying; etc. The last 2 months are where things have very slowly been improving to a waves and windows pattern of recovery. I still have most of the symptoms I listed and it’s mostly waves right now that are bad but nowhere near as bad as what they were in the beginning thank god. The windows are not great, I’d say they are just a period where the symptoms aren’t as bad rather than feeling good. The things that are the most devastating to me right now is the massive brain fog, anhedonia, anger and irritability, insomnia, fear of people, and the guilt, shame and worthlessness that’s comes with being in this situation but they are all improving very slowly.  I have had moments where I’ve laughed, felt emotional and cried, slightly motivated, and had good talks on the phone with friends and family, and other signs of improvement that were nowhere to be found early on but it’s so easy to get swept up in the waves of despair making me feel like I’ll never be okay again or ever feel like myself again. I wish I could go back and never have taken any psychiatric drugs but here we are. 

 

Just looking for people out there who understand what this feels like or want to share their experiences and how they are doing as well. I want to encourage others to keep going and hopefully find some encouragement in return. These last 8 months have been a terribly lonesome and brutal ride that I’m sure only you guys can understand. Also any guidance or encouraging words would be greatly appreciated. ✌🏻❤️

[WithdrawalWarrior]

WithdrawalWarrior: 8 1/2 months off Lexapro

 

Hey guys, I’m a 25 year old male that has been lurking in the background on this site for the past 8 months that I’ve been in lexapro withdrawal. I quit CT due to the ignorance of these medications and what results could come from stopping them abruptly, and I figured I would rather deal with anxiety than live a life feeling numb and emotionless the way being on Lexapro for 1 year and 3 months made me feel. 

 

These past 8 months have been one hell of a ride, but in my deepest and darkest moments I continue to look on here for encouragement and support. I couldn’t have made it this far without it. I have been suffering from massive brain fog; confusion; restlessness; irritability; rage; akithisia; memory problems; ruminating thoughts; suicidal ideation; anhedonia; extreme shame and guilt; depersonalization; derealization; insomnia; delusions; heart palpitations; ice pick headaches; muscle pain and fatigue; panic; fear of dying; joint pain, etc (all of which I’ve never experienced before taking or being on escitalopram.) I must say things have gotten a lot better compared to where I was at during the first 6 months of withdrawal, but it’s still devastating at times since I haven’t worked in 6 months and my friends and most of my family don’t understand what I’m going through and have been pretty judgmental. Thankfully my mom has been my rock through this, although even she can’t understand at times. Hell, even I don’t understand it. 
 

Anyways, it’s been brutal and lonely going through this so I need all the support and encouragement I can get and I’d love to support and encourage anyone out there going through it as well. ✌️❤️

 

 

Edited December 8, 2021 by ChessieCat
added Intro topic title before merging with intro topic

[Kiasofia]

Welcome @WithdrawalWarrior

I am sorry you are going through this and are suffering, but relieved you have found us. I too did a CT off Lexapro and can relate. Also am on Lamictal. How did you feel reducing Lamictal from 100mg to 50mg? I would recommend holding the Lamictal taper until WD from Lexapro has subsided. Lamictal withdrawal can be brutal too. How did you react to the Ketamine?

 

It's good to hear you are experiencing windows❤️

 

I found this post helpful to understand how these drugs actually work, why a slow taper is important and why healing can take time:

How Psychiatric Drugs Remodel Your Brain

 

Aside from a high quality fish oil and magnesium, be careful with supplements. Your central nervous system (CNS) has become sensitized from psychiatric drug use and can react unpredictably. Alcohol, caffeine, nicotine and other mind altering substances can make the condition worse.

Important topics about tests, supplements, treatments, diet

 

Here is our symptoms and self care section, you may find some useful ideas to help manage symptoms as you recover. 

Symptoms and self care topics

 

This is your Introductory topic, where you can ask questions and connect with other members.  If you need any advice specific to you and your situation, please ask it here. Otherwise, feel free to join discussions on other threads. To make sure I or someone sees your question, tag them by writing @ and then start typing their username. A drop down menu will appear. Click on their username and it will turn blue.

 

I’m glad you found us, we’re here to support you!

Edited December 9, 2021 by Kiasofia

[WithdrawalWarrior]

@Kiasofia thank you so much for reaching out! I wanted to do the Ketamine treatment after trying to rough out the first 3 1/2 months of withdrawal so I guess you could say I was pretty desperate for any type of relief. After trying buspar and Wellbutrin, my psychiatrist tried to get me on an antipsychotic but thank god I found this website first. Honestly I was so out of it with brain fog, depersonalization, and derealization among all the other symptoms that the treatment just seems like a blur. It’s a miracle I even got there in the first place. But the ketamine did lift me out of the pure hell I was in. Not saying I’m in a good place whatsoever but much better than I was before the treatment. I’d say it helped with the absolute despair and doom I felt those first few months. As far as the Lamotrigine I tapered straight from 100mg to 50mg after the ketamine treatment because 100mg was making my head feel extremely weird and anxious. And yes I agree with you completely when it comes to holding on the Lamotrigine until I heal from Lexapro withdrawal. One hell hole at a time lol
 

Lately my main symptoms are headaches, muscle weakness, thick brain fog, anxiety here and there, derealization whenever I first wake up, fear of people, irritability, depression,  and social and emotional anhedonia. I think the anhedonia is the worst symptom to cope with. Whenever the waves hit I just feel like I’m in such a dark and empty place, void of all connection with myself or other people. That combined with the brain fog makes it so hard to be a human being right now. I feel my best when I’m able to just finally let it out and cry, which I wasn’t able to do on the lexapro and early withdrawal so hopefully that means my emotions will come back one day. I think the real me underneath all of these symptoms is just scared and crushed from going through this. Running has helped with the brain fog a bit but it is still really bad. 
 

You said you also CT from Lexapro and are on Lamictal, did you ever deal with these symptoms? And how are you feeling today? Hope you are healing well, and thank you again so much for the response! ❤️

[Kiasofia]

Yes, the symptoms are spot on. Horrible. My (long) intro is here. My absolute worst symptoms were when I did a high dose reinstatement fall of 2019. By December I was doing better, but still felt very "off" and quiet traumatized by the whole experience. Got waves of de realization into spring of 2020. Since then I've been pretty ok. Just the trauma of it all that lingers, more than actual symptoms.

 

At least that was the case until May 2021, when I added withdrawal symptoms from lamictal tapering to it all. In retrospect I should have just held at 50mg for a year at least, after all I'd been through. Definitely don't recommend adding lamictal withdrawal to your current situation.

 

When the day comes to taper lamictal:

Why taper by 10% of my dosage?

Preparing to taper

Tips for tapering off lamotrigine (Lamictal)

 

Thank you for your kind and supportive posts to others on the forum. I hope being a part of our community can give you the knowledge, strength and support to pull through this hard time.❤️

[WithdrawalWarrior]

On 12/10/2021 at 6:40 AM, Kiasofia said:

Since then I've been pretty ok. Just the trauma of it all that lingers, more than actual symptoms.

I’m glad to hear things are getting better for you though! Are you still experiencing brain fog and anhedonia?
And I feel you on the trauma part. Sometimes I feel like I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to go back to feeling normal after enduring something like this. Part of me is scared of that but the other part of me is trying to reassure myself that I will and will be much more appreciative of the little things that this withdrawal experience has taken away from me. 

[WithdrawalWarrior]

On 12/10/2021 at 6:40 AM, Kiasofia said:

Thank you for your kind and supportive posts to others on the forum. I hope being a part of our community can give you the knowledge, strength and support to pull through this hard time.❤️

 This has just been a soul crushing thing to go through, especially alone. You guys have been a huge lifeline and a source of comfort for me so thank you! 

[Kiasofia]

5 hours ago, WithdrawalWarrior said:

Are you still experiencing brain fog and anhedonia?

No, not since 2019. I get waves of withdrwal symptoms from the lamictal taper. But they hardly warrant mentioning, compared to what you and others here are currently going through.

 

5 hours ago, WithdrawalWarrior said:

Sometimes I feel like I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to go back to feeling normal after enduring something like this. Part of me is scared of that but the other part of me is trying to reassure myself that I will and will be much more appreciative of the little things that this withdrawal experience has taken away from me. 

I can relate. I think a "new normal" is what can be hoped for. I can't erase what happened to me, but volunteering on this forum is a way to make use of it, rather than suppress it, and that helps in moving forward.

 

5 hours ago, WithdrawalWarrior said:

This has just been a soul crushing thing to go through, especially alone. You guys have been a huge lifeline and a source of comfort for me so thank you! 

Same for me!

 

I recommend reading  Anatomy of an Epidemic by Robert Whitaker as well as A straight talking introduction to psychiatric drugs by Joanna Moncrieff to better understand these drugs and their effects. The Council for Evidence based Psychiatry also has a lot of good information.

[manymoretodays]

Hi there WW.  Just about signing off now, but wanted to post my encouragement to you.  To keep going.  Keep learning. 

And now I can follow you as well.

 

Best for your holidays.  Oh, and if you are near the beach.  Please give it a hug for me.

Any weather to report in your area?

The weather, including winds, has been wicked in some areas of the States of late.

 

Okay.....here's to healing!  Complete and utter!

 

L, P, H, and G,

mmt

[WithdrawalWarrior]

@Kiasofia thanks I’ll check them out for sure. It’s crazy seeing more and more people coming on here and starting their introduction topics. This whole experience has been traumatizing in itself and I find it hard not to repress my feelings and emotions cause half the time all I feel is either nothing or anger. I feel my best when I can just cry everything out 🥲

[WithdrawalWarrior]

@manymoretodays hi MMT! Thank you for your encouragement! The holidays were pretty rough not gonna lie. I was pretty much forced to be around a bunch of family and act like I’m not going through some insane existential withdrawal crisis lol which was pretty much impossible. My family knew something was going on with me but they just think I’m going through some depression. I guess I didn’t feel comfortable opening up to them and being vulnerable about it cause I don’t think they’d understand, and plus I didn’t want to bring everyone else down during Christmas. But I made it through (which if I’m being honest a few months ago I wouldn’t have been able to do) and now I’m back near the beach and the past week has been getting better! I’ll make sure to give it a hug for you next time I find myself out there lol the weather here has mostly been nice! 60 degrees and sunny for the most part, which is a blessing. The past couple days it’s been rainy but nothing too bad like other states thankfully. Where do you call home? Thanks again for reaching out. I’m trying to be less and less isolated and fearful so the love and encouragement means a lot!

[Kiasofia]

15 hours ago, WithdrawalWarrior said:

It’s crazy seeing more and more people coming on here and starting their introduction topics.

Yes, there will be no end to it as long as the current prescription practice and ignorance continues. Considering the books I recommended came out a decade ago and the chemical imbalance myth was debunked in the 80s I find it hard to be hopeful that this will come to an end soon. But I must keep hoping. Maybe in another decade...?

 

I'm sorry the holidays were rough, but glad you made it through. And the beach and sun....Sounds so nice!

[WithdrawalWarrior]

It’s just crazy. You literally have no idea how much these drugs cause people to suffer until you end up being the one dealing with it. 😕 @KiasofiaThank you for being kind. Honestly the world has been a terrifying place these past 9 months and today has been a really hard day… Sometimes I feel certain ways about people and situations that I’ve never felt before in my life. I’m so scared to go outside or be around others because of how incompetent I feel at times and being scared of them being mean to me…. I feel like I’m grieving the loss of who I was before all of this and wondering if I’ll ever be whole again. It’s inhumane how much these drugs can really damage you, and my heart breaks for anyone else in the same situation. When did you really start noticing a difference or a shift in your symptoms or when things started to really get better for you? I’m just looking for some hope. I know 9 months isn’t a very long time from a CT but this has felt like the longest year of my life 😞.  Anyways, hope you are doing good and have many windows ahead ❤️ -WW

[Kiasofia]

Yes, I don't think it's possible to understand unless one has been through it. It took me about a year to feel normal again after the CT. I also grieve the loss of who I was before all this. Have you read this thread? Might be relevant to how you are feeling.

Neuro-emotion

 

 

[manymoretodays]

Hi guys, 

It does get better though, or has for me. 

It is part of it though, to go through the anger, and wondering of what if's, etc.

And I know WW, I found myself not even knowing who I was anymore.  Tres' bizarre.

Found myself again, somewhere along the way though.

 

You're going to get there, and sending hopes that the there will be everything you imagined it to be.

 

Oh, best.

L, P, H, and G,

mmt

[WithdrawalWarrior]

On 1/5/2022 at 12:41 PM, Kiasofia said:

Yes, I don't think it's possible to understand unless one has been through it. It took me about a year to feel normal again after the CT. I also grieve the loss of who I was before all this. Have you read this thread? Might be relevant to how you are feeling.

Neuro-emotion

 

 

I’ve been thinking about that a lot. Before I was ever on lexapro I may have been a little depressed or anxious at times but I still knew who I was and had some sort of foundation at least. Now I have no idea what to make of things other than to just keep going 🤷🏻‍♂️ The neuro-emotions page helped a lot thank you. Did you ever have anger and random rage? And if so did it ever fade away? 

[WithdrawalWarrior]

On 1/7/2022 at 5:23 PM, manymoretodays said:

Hi guys, 

It does get better though, or has for me. 

It is part of it though, to go through the anger, and wondering of what if's, etc.

And I know WW, I found myself not even knowing who I was anymore.  Tres' bizarre.

Found myself again, somewhere along the way though.

 

You're going to get there, and sending hopes that the there will be everything you imagined it to be.

 

Oh, best.

L, P, H, and G,

mmt

Thank you for your encouragement and kind words MMT it means a lot. ❤️ When you found yourself, did you find someone new or did you regain your old self? I find it hard to believe I can ever be the same after going through this, but maybe that could be a good thing? I’m so happy that you made it through on the other side though. Like I want more than anything to be there, but just knowing someone else that’s been through something like this isn’t suffering anymore makes it a little easier to go through.
 

All the best,

WW 

[Kiasofia]

12 hours ago, WithdrawalWarrior said:

Did you ever have anger and random rage?

I get it from lowering my lamictal dose. it's very out of character for me to get so angry. I was struggling this summer, but much better now. It still takes very little for me to fall apart though. I think it's both withdrawal and also having spent my entire adult life (near 20 years) on an emotion-numbing substance. I found the neuro-emotion thread really enlightening. I'm glad you found it helpful too!

[manymoretodays]

15 hours ago, WithdrawalWarrior said:

Thank you for your encouragement and kind words MMT it means a lot. ❤️ When you found yourself, did you find someone new or did you regain your old self? I find it hard to believe I can ever be the same after going through this, but maybe that could be a good thing? I’m so happy that you made it through on the other side though. Like I want more than anything to be there, but just knowing someone else that’s been through something like this isn’t suffering anymore makes it a little easier to go through.

 

Lol, I have to chuckle as I reply.  I think I am a hybrid.....meaning a little bit of both......my old self and someone new all blended together.

It's the hybrid part I chuckle at, or just that word or something........

 

You'll get there, and you will begin to find the nice balance of dark and light along the way too.  Windows and waves my friend.  And then you become an excellent surfer too.  The calm water starts to feel unsettling sometimes.......I will say that about my situation now.  As odd as that might sound.

[Foxclover6]

On 1/8/2022 at 10:38 PM, WithdrawalWarrior said:

I’ve been thinking about that a lot. Before I was ever on lexapro I may have been a little depressed or anxious at times but I still knew who I was and had some sort of foundation at least. Now I have no idea what to make of things other than to just keep going 🤷🏻‍♂️ The neuro-emotions page helped a lot thank you. Did you ever have anger and random rage? And if so did it ever fade away? 

This is how I feel

[WithdrawalWarrior]

On 1/9/2022 at 10:33 AM, Kiasofia said:

I get it from lowering my lamictal dose. it's very out of character for me to get so angry. I was struggling this summer, but much better now. It still takes very little for me to fall apart though. I think it's both withdrawal and also having spent my entire adult life (near 20 years) on an emotion-numbing substance. I found the neuro-emotion thread really enlightening. I'm glad you found it helpful too!

Hope you are doing well! I’m not going to touch my lamictal dosage until I know for sure I’m done withdrawing from Lexapro. 

[WithdrawalWarrior]

On 1/9/2022 at 1:22 PM, manymoretodays said:

 

Lol, I have to chuckle as I reply.  I think I am a hybrid.....meaning a little bit of both......my old self and someone new all blended together.

It's the hybrid part I chuckle at, or just that word or something........

 

You'll get there, and you will begin to find the nice balance of dark and light along the way too.  Windows and waves my friend.  And then you become an excellent surfer too.  The calm water starts to feel unsettling sometimes.......I will say that about my situation now.  As odd as that might sound.

Thanks for your support MMT. Hope you are continuing to feel well these days! 

[WithdrawalWarrior]

On 1/15/2022 at 11:45 AM, Foxclover6 said:

This is how I feel

Hope you are feeling better. Did you also do a CT withdrawal?

[WithdrawalWarrior]

11 month Report:  

 

Things are drastically better than they were during months 1-8 so I know healing is taking place although it is a dreadfully slow process. Brain fog has improved a tiny bit, but still a LONG way to go. Also have been able to feel emotions here and there but not strongly or for very long but its something. For the most part I’m still terrified to go outside or be around people and sometimes I feel like ripping my hair out of my head out of anger and irritation though. Even though I’m still suffering and far from fully healed, I have to acknowledge that compared to where I was at in months 1-3 is a huge difference. I am even beginning to just now enjoy some tv shows which is crazy cause I couldn’t enjoy anything due to how much suffering the CT caused for 9 months.  Going through this much pain and trauma of withdrawal, it’s hard to look at the good in literally anything anymore but writing this helps me understand how much I have healed and that there IS hope. I’m scared to say that or even feel that because for the past 11 months of my life I have felt like I have been in pure hell with no light, love, or any hope.  So feeling any of that is different and scary in a really weird way. Lol but I hope and pray it continues to get better.  Current Symptoms:  Brain Fog (improving)

Anhedonia (slight improvement) 

Anger/Irritability 

Eyes sensitive to light

Ruminating thoughts (improving)

Fear of people (slow improvement)

[Foxclover6]

On 2/27/2022 at 3:29 AM, WithdrawalWarrior said:

Hope you are feeling better. Did you also do a CT withdrawal?

Yes I did =/

[NoMoreLexapro]

Great to see you are improving!  I, too had a hellish reaction to lexapro.  Had to go to the ER 16x, almost died, had over 70 side effects, barely functional, couldn't prepare meals for over a year, couldn't drive, couldn't walk more than 5 minutes.  I was able to heal and recover due to retrainingthebrain.com - had I not done that I probably would have gone into protracted WD.  So happy to see that you are climbing out.  Sending a lot of love and prayers...

[WithdrawalWarrior]

On 2/28/2022 at 8:48 PM, Foxclover6 said:

Yes I did =/

How are you holding up? And when did you get off Lexapro?

[WithdrawalWarrior]

On 2/28/2022 at 11:26 PM, NoMoreLexapro said:

Great to see you are improving!  I, too had a hellish reaction to lexapro.  Had to go to the ER 16x, almost died, had over 70 side effects, barely functional, couldn't prepare meals for over a year, couldn't drive, couldn't walk more than 5 minutes.  I was able to heal and recover due to retrainingthebrain.com - had I not done that I probably would have gone into protracted WD.  So happy to see that you are climbing out.  Sending a lot of love and prayers...

Wow that sounds awful I’m sorry to hear you went through that but relieved to hear you made it through! What were your symptoms if you don’t mind me asking? We’re brain fog and anhedonia and irritability real bad for you? Thanks for the love and prayers 🙏🏻 

[NoMoreLexapro]

LOL it would take me a very long time to type out the 70+ side effects I had...they were absolutely unreal.  Basically, if it was possible, I had it.  The only thing I didn't have was akathisia. 

 

I had horrendous brain fog and anhedonia.  Not really irritability, but for a very long time my stress tolerance was very low.  I couldn't watch TV, videos, read graphic text, etc...it was too much for me.

[Foxclover6]

On 3/3/2022 at 6:29 AM, WithdrawalWarrior said:

How are you holding up? And when did you get off Lexapro?

Been off since June ish, I'm sick of withdrawls and weird mind stuff. 😐 

[WithdrawalWarrior]

4 hours ago, Foxclover6 said:

Been off since June ish, I'm sick of withdrawls and weird mind stuff. 😐 

Yeah me too… has it been getting better for you at least? Like how you are in your current month compared to month 1-3? 

[WithdrawalWarrior]

On 3/3/2022 at 11:16 AM, NoMoreLexapro said:

LOL it would take me a very long time to type out the 70+ side effects I had...they were absolutely unreal.  Basically, if it was possible, I had it.  The only thing I didn't have was akathisia. 

 

I had horrendous brain fog and anhedonia.  Not really irritability, but for a very long time my stress tolerance was very low.  I couldn't watch TV, videos, read graphic text, etc...it was too much for me.

That’s incredible that you were able to recover! How long did it take before you realized you were turning a corner? And also do you feel like you are a new person after healing or did you go back to who you were before the lexapro? Just curious

[NoMoreLexapro]

3 minutes ago, WithdrawalWarrior said:

That’s incredible that you were able to recover! How long did it take before you realized you were turning a corner? And also do you feel like you are a new person after healing or did you go back to who you were before the lexapro? Just curious

 

Things were really bad and I had only very minor improvement until I started retrainingthebrain.com in late December, 2020.  Once I started that hardcore things started getting better.  6 mths into doing retrainingthebrain.com I had improved markedly.  There are a few things that are a little less than I was before the lexapro but on the whole I think I'm actually better than before- I have a lot of self-care habits now that keep me much more grounded and, as you would expect, after almost dying I have a much greater appreciation for life and don't let little things get to me nearly as much.  I much more grateful, patient, and forgiving, both to others and to myself. 

[jonah2001]

Hey, nice to hear that you feel a little bit better at the 11 month mark now! That's awesome! 

I am now 8 month off. I took Duloxetin for 4 month and tapered it over 3,5 month.  

The last 8 month where absolut hell and it feels like it took for ever. My symptoms changed completely over the time. 

 

But to be honest. It's so incredible heart breaking to be in this hell!

 

I really hope that it will get better in your case and the hard times are getting less! 

 

 

[WithdrawalWarrior]

On 3/4/2022 at 9:04 PM, NoMoreLexapro said:

 

Things were really bad and I had only very minor improvement until I started retrainingthebrain.com in late December, 2020.  Once I started that hardcore things started getting better.  6 mths into doing retrainingthebrain.com I had improved markedly.  There are a few things that are a little less than I was before the lexapro but on the whole I think I'm actually better than before- I have a lot of self-care habits now that keep me much more grounded and, as you would expect, after almost dying I have a much greater appreciation for life and don't let little things get to me nearly as much.  I much more grateful, patient, and forgiving, both to others and to myself. 

Thank you man that’s really encouraging to hear. I’d say for 6-7 months I had no hope of this getting any better. Still feeling a lot of symptoms but there are times where there’s some hope and I believe I’ll make it out of this. I feel like I’m grieving the loss of who I used to be before medication along with all the other symptoms. This sucks 😕

[WithdrawalWarrior]

On 3/5/2022 at 1:34 PM, jonah2001 said:

Hey, nice to hear that you feel a little bit better at the 11 month mark now! That's awesome! 

I am now 8 month off. I took Duloxetin for 4 month and tapered it over 3,5 month.  

The last 8 month where absolut hell and it feels like it took for ever. My symptoms changed completely over the time. 

 

But to be honest. It's so incredible heart breaking to be in this hell!

 

I really hope that it will get better in your case and the hard times are getting less! 

 

 

How did your symptoms change? And I’m sorry you are going through this too man. This has to be one of the worst ways a human being can ever suffer due to how misunderstood and lonely it can be and just how excruciating symptoms can be as well. Keep going brother no giving up!