Mirtazapine20mg Posted June 12, 2022 Share Posted June 12, 2022 49 minutes ago, StarShopping87 said: Also, I’ve noticed this adr has made me relive traumatic experiences. Even like trauma from my childhood that never in a million years I would have thought about. So weird! I also have this a lot. So good to hear that I am not alone. 2004: (apr): Citalopram 20 mg, June 60 mg., dec 20 mg 2004 (dec): Mirtazapine 15 mg. 2014 (Jun): Citalopram stop cold turkey. Began 10 mg Vortioxetine 2017: (dec): Mirtazapine 15 mg ->30 mg (after three day stint on psych ward) 2020: (aug): Vortioxetine 10 mg stopped cold turkey. 2020 (dec): Mirtazapine 30 mg -> 15 mg (GPs instructions) 2021 (feb): Mirtazapine reinstatement 26,25 mg 2022 (Jan): Mirtazapine (5% taper): 14. Jan 24,9 mg, 6. feb 23,7 mg, 1. marts 22,5 mg, 15. marts 21,3 mg, 2. april 20 mg, 26. april 19. mg, 25. may 18.1 mg, 26 jun 17 mg. Have always taken fish oil capsules. Do not drink alcohol when tapering. 1 multivitamin pill a day. Try to eat healthy, but impossible on mirtazapine. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted June 14, 2022 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 14, 2022 I moved your tagging post to Phoenixmama's intro topic. * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted June 23, 2022 Author Share Posted June 23, 2022 I read that lexapro is the most potent of all ssri. When it comes to adverse reactions, does it matter if it was lexapro or zoloft or Prozac? Like because lexapro is most potent will it take longer to heal from vs someone who reacted after a few low doses of zoloft or Prozac? Or is all healing the same regardless of whatever you take and reacted from? @Altostrata Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted June 23, 2022 Administrator Share Posted June 23, 2022 10 hours ago, StarShopping87 said: When it comes to adverse reactions, does it matter if it was lexapro or zoloft or Prozac? No This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted June 23, 2022 Author Share Posted June 23, 2022 9 minutes ago, Altostrata said: No Ok thank you! After hearing that, it’s been weighing heavily on my mind. Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted June 24, 2022 Mentor Share Posted June 24, 2022 @StarShopping87 Stopping by to see how you are doing?❤️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted June 24, 2022 Author Share Posted June 24, 2022 3 minutes ago, Greatful said: @StarShopping87 Stopping by to see how you are doing?❤️ Not good 😔 these brain sensations are horrid, my anxiety and fear are really bad as well. I’ve been in a wave for 4 days and im terrified. I’ve been crying for 2 days, and I’m scared this is never going to end. The brain stuff feels like it’s getting worse. Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted June 25, 2022 Mentor Share Posted June 25, 2022 @StarShopping87 Boy oh Boy can I relate to brain sensations. The waves can seem relentless and go on forever, but it will pass. Things will intensify and go and new symptoms will come and go and come back again. Is there something you can do to distract yourself? I know how hard it is to do when your brain is hurting, you feel awful, maybe weak, fatigue and brain disconnected but find anything. My therapist told me to stop asking myself why this or that and ask myself what I can do today. It kind of helps to think of little things like, water the garden, shower, make lunch. It will pass the time and maybe you can feel a little bit accomplishment. If you look back you will see no matter how hard the days can, we somehow get through it and make it to your pillow every night. We survive the day and we can survive more days. Somehow I have to stop the spiral of being stuck like this, try not fight the thought, distract, watch or read things that, show us adverse effects, withdrawal, protracted withdrawal, is real and is happening to us and 100- 1 000's of people. We are not alone and it helps to get that validation. I wish I could say or do something that would help ease your pain, All I can do is validate and listen. Maybe find something to help encourage you from time to time. Big hug🤗 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted June 28, 2022 Author Share Posted June 28, 2022 Really struggling bad with this wave. So many of my old symptoms have returned for the worst. I can’t tell if I have just severe inner anxiety or if it’s akathesia so it’s freaking me out. I feel this inner restlessness and adrenaline in my chest. I don’t feel the need to pace or move but it’s a hard symptom to deal with. My brain can’t catch a break, it’s all over the place. I’ve cried for like 5 days straight. Im trying to accept and float but I feel like I’m going crazy. Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
Ariel Posted June 28, 2022 Share Posted June 28, 2022 Sorry to hear you're having such a hard time right now @StarShopping87 Remember this is temporary and it will pass. You are very brave, you're working hard and doing a good job getting through this. Hang in there, Star. It gets better <3 1996-2018 - misc. polypharmacy, incl. SSRIs, SNRIs, neuroleptics, lithium, benzos, stimulants, antihistamines, etc. (approx. 30+ drugs) 2012-2018 - 10mg lexapro/escitalopram (20mg?) Jan. 2018 - 10mg -> 5mg, then from 5mg -> 2.5mg, then 0mg --> July 2018 - 0mg 2017(?)-2020 - vyvanse/lisdexamfetamine 60-70mg 2020-2021 - 70mg down to 0mg --> July 2021 - 0mg March-April 2021 - vortioxetine 5-10mg (approx. 7 weeks total; CT) --> April 28th, 2021 - 0mg supplements: magnesium powder (dissolved in water) as needed throughout the day; 1 tsp fish oil w/ morning meal; 2mg melatonin August 1, 2022 - 1 mg melatonin Courage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karle Wilson Baker love and justice are not two. without inner change, there can be no outer change; without collective change, no change matters. - Rev. angel Kyodo williams Holding multiple truths. Knowing that everyone has their own accurate view of the way things are. - text on homemade banner at Afiya house I am not a medical professional; this is not medical advice. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted June 28, 2022 Mentor Share Posted June 28, 2022 @StarShopping87 I feel and validate your pain. Please remind yourself that you are experiencing something that should not be. All you can do is make it through today be kind to yourself and tomorrow will take care of itself.♥️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted June 28, 2022 Author Share Posted June 28, 2022 This is pure psychological torture Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
Ariel Posted June 28, 2022 Share Posted June 28, 2022 Hi @StarShopping87 Have you ever tried cold showers or a cold plunge into very cold lake/sea? Or even just preparing a big mixing bowl full of ice water and sticking your face in? It can really bring relief from the worst of it when things get very challenging. I also really recommend this post, What is happening in your brain? It describes some of the stuff going on in your body while you're healing and can help us understand why we get such bizarre uncomfortable symptoms. I recommend reading the whole essay, and I'll also include an excerpt below that pertains to your current situation: * NERVE REGENERATION CAN CAUSE UNPLEASANT SENSATIONS. As counterintuitive as it is, HEALING CAN FEEL LIKE HURT. But it's NOT further hurt or damage. It's the REVERSAL of damage. Um - yeah - okay. Great - but what do I DO about it.[...] much the things that I have discovered that help through this healing are to "CONFUSE" the nerves as much as possible, IF possible. What? Confuse the nerves?You know how you get a cut or an insect bite and you immediately press on it to make it feel less painful? What you are doing when you press or squeeze the area is "desensitizing' the entire skin region of the cut by applying pressure to ALL the nerves in the area. That way, the ONE sensation of pain from the cut isn't the only thing your brain is feeling. The pressure from pushing down on ALL the nerves in the area helps to send multiple sensation to the brain to "counteract" the pain sensation. And it works.Similarly, other things can help "confuse" nerves:-Heat-Cold-[...] Pressure- Massage-creams like "Icy Hot" with mentholAll of these things have helped me cope in recovery.Let me take it one by one:Heat: I took and [...] take hot baths almost every day. In the peak of akathisia, I lived in the tub. As hot as I could stand it really helped me. All the heat was "overregistering" in my brain and I was unable to feel the akathisia as much when in the tub. It was confusing the nerve signal and it was temporary relief. I hated those days. But I got through them. Likewise, a heating pad for pain was my friend a lot of the time. -Cold - I used a cold washcloth on burning skin - and on my face and hands - and kept dipping it in ice water and applying it. This is an easy one, but it helped. I had a wave with 3 days of "fireface" last month and all I could do was apply the washcloth, lay there and think about how "this is healing" and keep going. But the wave passed.[...] Pressure I use a 15 pound weighted blanket to sleep. I have for YEARS. I ordered it online. It has many pockets with little plastic balls equally distributed to create a very heavy blanket that creates "[...] pressure". This kind of pressure is calming for anyone's nervous system. Occupational Therapists use it for children with autism, but people with anxiety can benefit from sleeping with one. And in recovery, I was glad to have it. I used it often together with a heating pad. It took the edge off just long enough. Massage This one CAN be helpful - but sometimes not. I used to ask my husband just to "press down" on my head or my legs. Just press there. Don't rub. My skin hurt too much to rub, but the [...] pressure from pressing was helpful. Other times, the actual massage was a help for sore muscles. I was too agoraphobic to schedule a REAL massage. LOL. But just this help from my family was nice to have.Creams You're going to laugh, but there was a day that I put Vick's VapoRub on my face because my face was so HOT! I figured if this is safe for my baby's skin, it's probably okay to try it on my face. It worked! Oh man - my face felt SO good all day. I used that for a few days until the wave passed. I have also tried "Icy Hot" on my back when it was sore. Things like this work on the same principal to "confuse the nerves". If your nerves are too busy feeling the heat/cool of menthol, they cannot simultaneously feel "pain". So for a short time, the pain is not "felt" even though the "soreness" is technically [...] there. * 1996-2018 - misc. polypharmacy, incl. SSRIs, SNRIs, neuroleptics, lithium, benzos, stimulants, antihistamines, etc. (approx. 30+ drugs) 2012-2018 - 10mg lexapro/escitalopram (20mg?) Jan. 2018 - 10mg -> 5mg, then from 5mg -> 2.5mg, then 0mg --> July 2018 - 0mg 2017(?)-2020 - vyvanse/lisdexamfetamine 60-70mg 2020-2021 - 70mg down to 0mg --> July 2021 - 0mg March-April 2021 - vortioxetine 5-10mg (approx. 7 weeks total; CT) --> April 28th, 2021 - 0mg supplements: magnesium powder (dissolved in water) as needed throughout the day; 1 tsp fish oil w/ morning meal; 2mg melatonin August 1, 2022 - 1 mg melatonin Courage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karle Wilson Baker love and justice are not two. without inner change, there can be no outer change; without collective change, no change matters. - Rev. angel Kyodo williams Holding multiple truths. Knowing that everyone has their own accurate view of the way things are. - text on homemade banner at Afiya house I am not a medical professional; this is not medical advice. Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted June 29, 2022 Author Share Posted June 29, 2022 On 6/28/2022 at 2:43 PM, Ariel said: Hi @StarShopping87 Have you ever tried cold showers or a cold plunge into very cold lake/sea? Or even just preparing a big mixing bowl full of ice water and sticking your face in? It can really bring relief from the worst of it when things get very challenging. I also really recommend this post, What is happening in your brain? It describes some of the stuff going on in your body while you're healing and can help us understand why we get such bizarre uncomfortable symptoms. I recommend reading the whole essay, and I'll also include an excerpt below that pertains to your current situation: * NERVE REGENERATION CAN CAUSE UNPLEASANT SENSATIONS. As counterintuitive as it is, HEALING CAN FEEL LIKE HURT. But it's NOT further hurt or damage. It's the REVERSAL of damage. Um - yeah - okay. Great - but what do I DO about it.[...] much the things that I have discovered that help through this healing are to "CONFUSE" the nerves as much as possible, IF possible. What? Confuse the nerves?You know how you get a cut or an insect bite and you immediately press on it to make it feel less painful? What you are doing when you press or squeeze the area is "desensitizing' the entire skin region of the cut by applying pressure to ALL the nerves in the area. That way, the ONE sensation of pain from the cut isn't the only thing your brain is feeling. The pressure from pushing down on ALL the nerves in the area helps to send multiple sensation to the brain to "counteract" the pain sensation. And it works.Similarly, other things can help "confuse" nerves:-Heat-Cold-[...] Pressure- Massage-creams like "Icy Hot" with mentholAll of these things have helped me cope in recovery.Let me take it one by one:Heat: I took and [...] take hot baths almost every day. In the peak of akathisia, I lived in the tub. As hot as I could stand it really helped me. All the heat was "overregistering" in my brain and I was unable to feel the akathisia as much when in the tub. It was confusing the nerve signal and it was temporary relief. I hated those days. But I got through them. Likewise, a heating pad for pain was my friend a lot of the time. -Cold - I used a cold washcloth on burning skin - and on my face and hands - and kept dipping it in ice water and applying it. This is an easy one, but it helped. I had a wave with 3 days of "fireface" last month and all I could do was apply the washcloth, lay there and think about how "this is healing" and keep going. But the wave passed.[...] Pressure I use a 15 pound weighted blanket to sleep. I have for YEARS. I ordered it online. It has many pockets with little plastic balls equally distributed to create a very heavy blanket that creates "[...] pressure". This kind of pressure is calming for anyone's nervous system. Occupational Therapists use it for children with autism, but people with anxiety can benefit from sleeping with one. And in recovery, I was glad to have it. I used it often together with a heating pad. It took the edge off just long enough. Massage This one CAN be helpful - but sometimes not. I used to ask my husband just to "press down" on my head or my legs. Just press there. Don't rub. My skin hurt too much to rub, but the [...] pressure from pressing was helpful. Other times, the actual massage was a help for sore muscles. I was too agoraphobic to schedule a REAL massage. LOL. But just this help from my family was nice to have.Creams You're going to laugh, but there was a day that I put Vick's VapoRub on my face because my face was so HOT! I figured if this is safe for my baby's skin, it's probably okay to try it on my face. It worked! Oh man - my face felt SO good all day. I used that for a few days until the wave passed. I have also tried "Icy Hot" on my back when it was sore. Things like this work on the same principal to "confuse the nerves". If your nerves are too busy feeling the heat/cool of menthol, they cannot simultaneously feel "pain". So for a short time, the pain is not "felt" even though the "soreness" is technically [...] there. * Thank you for this, the brain stuff is so weird and scary feeling. I don’t think what I have is aka, but severe surges of anxiety (mixed with cortisol- maybe?) that lasts for a while, it comes and goes throughout the day. Today it has happened 2-3 times but I usually get some relief the past couple nights. I feel manic today, emotional, terrible fear, guilt. The fear of never healing is severe so every time I think about it I cry. I cry all the time now. Whether it’s thoughts, stress, fear, looking at the wall. Everything triggers me. I do sleep (if I can sleep which is not much) with a 15lbs weight blanket but dang it is soo hot!! It does help a little with the anxiety, I just wish it were heavier. it’s very frustrating because that drugged feeling I had bad in the first 2 months has come back and tomorrow marks my 5th month. I was hoping to see some, even if it’s just a little bit, of progress. This wave is totally kicking my butt! I never know how tomorrow is going to be. I feel the need to constantly look for assurance which is extremely annoying. I keep coming up with every reason as to why I will not heal from this and it’s terrifying. And then the horror stories I’ve read on fb about adverse reactions keep replaying in my mind. It’s all just awful and terrifying. 1 Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted June 29, 2022 Mentor Share Posted June 29, 2022 @StarShopping87 Hang in there. This wave has to lose some of it energy soon. Oh boy stay off facebook or anything that is going to come across as hopeless. We need to find things that will encourage us not take us down. Our brains do enough of that all by itself. In our delicate state we tend to lock on the worst stories or information, even if there was positive stories. It could be 10 good to 1 bad and guess what the bad is going to take hold. You have a weighted blanket too. I have 2 in the winter I drag one around with me but sleep with both. 😁 It must come to 35 to 40 pounds together 🤣Now i leave the smaller one on the couch. So far the bed one is still there. Sometimes I put the air on super cool at night ☺️😊 We also have a ceiling fan over the bed. It does get warm sometimes😒 That's okay to keep asking for reassurance. That's one of the many reasons we are here, to support, encourage and yep to give reassurance ♥️ So Starshopping you can heal from this.🤗 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Ariel Posted June 30, 2022 Share Posted June 30, 2022 @StarShopping87 Sending you a hug <3 1996-2018 - misc. polypharmacy, incl. SSRIs, SNRIs, neuroleptics, lithium, benzos, stimulants, antihistamines, etc. (approx. 30+ drugs) 2012-2018 - 10mg lexapro/escitalopram (20mg?) Jan. 2018 - 10mg -> 5mg, then from 5mg -> 2.5mg, then 0mg --> July 2018 - 0mg 2017(?)-2020 - vyvanse/lisdexamfetamine 60-70mg 2020-2021 - 70mg down to 0mg --> July 2021 - 0mg March-April 2021 - vortioxetine 5-10mg (approx. 7 weeks total; CT) --> April 28th, 2021 - 0mg supplements: magnesium powder (dissolved in water) as needed throughout the day; 1 tsp fish oil w/ morning meal; 2mg melatonin August 1, 2022 - 1 mg melatonin Courage is fear that has said its prayers. - Karle Wilson Baker love and justice are not two. without inner change, there can be no outer change; without collective change, no change matters. - Rev. angel Kyodo williams Holding multiple truths. Knowing that everyone has their own accurate view of the way things are. - text on homemade banner at Afiya house I am not a medical professional; this is not medical advice. Link to comment
Phoenixmama Posted July 1, 2022 Share Posted July 1, 2022 @StarShopping87 💜 2021: started celexa 10mg feb 2nd feb 25th took my last 10g; feb 26th 5mg; feb 27th 5mg; feb 28th 2021 cold turkey currently taking mag Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted July 6, 2022 Author Share Posted July 6, 2022 Would it be ok to try melatonin again if I had issues with it during month 1 and 2? I took it when insomnia was at its worst, and had the opposite effect (pacing, restlessness, severe anxiety, unable to relax) . I’ve heard people can tolerate stuff they weren’t able to in the beginning, however I don’t want to make things worse than they are now. I’ve come a long way since then. Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted July 7, 2022 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 7, 2022 Melatonin This topic explains about taking very small doses of melatonin. If you do try anything new only try one thing at a time, or make one change at a time, and try a very small amount. On 4/7/2011 at 11:26 AM, Altostrata said: Studies show you don't need much melatonin to get sleep started, just 0.33mg. Often you can't get melatonin in smaller than 1mg tablets; half a tablet, 0.50mg may be close enough. These are physiological doses, the level that your body ordinarily maintains, rather than medical doses. If you get no effect with 0.3-0.5mg, try a little more. (Personally, under my doctor's supervision, I worked up to 2mg melatonin at night. I've been taking it regularly every night for 3 years. I do not believe I've developed a dependency on it; I get sleepy when it gets dark anyway. Additional melatonin gives my brain a gentle reminder it's time to sleep.) Large doses of melatonin do NOT aid sleep -- they might cause your oversensitive brain to wake up, instead. I found when I took more than 2mg of melatonin, I was weepy in the morning. If you get this or a paradoxical reaction (waking) or are dopey in the morning, it's a sign you're taking too much. * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted July 7, 2022 Author Share Posted July 7, 2022 @ChessieCat do you think it would be a bad idea to try it again though since it was too activating the first time ? I think I only took .25 of a dropper.. I just don’t want to make things worse and go backwards Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted July 7, 2022 Mentor Share Posted July 7, 2022 @StarShopping87 I know how scary it is to make any changes, but this is something that only you can decided. Take the bull by the horns and do it. Then you will know. and the what should I do debate that is swirling around and around your brain will stop. Just to find a new one right🙄 Do you panic about, can I eat this or that. This whole experience has robbed us from the ability to function as able minded adults. Hang in there Starshopping ♥️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted July 7, 2022 Author Share Posted July 7, 2022 @Greatful yes you are right. Unfortunately I will have to decide for myself. Just scared to put anything in my body. Yes, I get scared about food as well. Although, I did pig out on the 4th and all was well, no sweets though. After this last horrid wave I have felt a great change. Maybe some real windows? Idk but things just feel more different now in a positive way. As far as my sleep goes, I am sleeping whether it be 4 or 6 hrs (thanks cortisol!), I’m just having a really hard time falling asleep. I lie awake for what seems like hours. Would love a full nights rest right about now lol Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
Phoenixmama Posted July 8, 2022 Share Posted July 8, 2022 @StarShopping87 💜🌞 2021: started celexa 10mg feb 2nd feb 25th took my last 10g; feb 26th 5mg; feb 27th 5mg; feb 28th 2021 cold turkey currently taking mag Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 9, 2022 Administrator Share Posted July 9, 2022 On 7/7/2022 at 4:03 PM, StarShopping87 said: @ChessieCat do you think it would be a bad idea to try it again though since it was too activating the first time ? I think I only took .25 of a dropper.. I just don’t want to make things worse and go backwards How many milligrams melatonin is 1/4 of a dropper? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted July 9, 2022 Author Share Posted July 9, 2022 @Altostrata it’s zarbees kids, so the dosages are .25, .50, .75 and 1ml Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 9, 2022 Administrator Share Posted July 9, 2022 A dosage of 1/4 of a dropper doesn't mean anything. You have to figure out how many milligrams of melatonin is in a milliliter, and how many milliliters in a dropper. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted July 15, 2022 Mentor Share Posted July 15, 2022 @StarShopping87How are you doing?🌞 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 0 Xanax 0.0625 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042 3x a day Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted July 16, 2022 Author Share Posted July 16, 2022 @Greatful hey! I’m doing ok, just following the usual pattern.. it’s still pretty unpredictable right now. After the last horrid wave i was in I hit a 8 day window despite some insomnia and anxiety, and some sensations. I felt amazing though! We had family fly in on vaca last weekend and that’s when the insomnia hit hard. I think it was from being over stimulated and the stress of having company… trying to clean and all the noise and commotion. However I handled it quiet well. No crying or anything. My husband said you never would’ve known! So naturally after they left, I fell into a wave but not severe like the last one.. enough to make me miserable though. Back to crying and fear, weird brain stuff and some other usual symptoms. I finally crashed the day before yesterday and got like 9 hrs of sleep, and I slept pretty good last night, another (maybe) 8 hrs. I’ll be approaching 6 months in 2 weeks so I’m praying sleep will start to improve or atleast be more consistent. I definitely feel improvements until the waves hit 😖thanks for checking in! I hope all is well your way 🥰 1 Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
Davidander Posted August 5, 2022 Share Posted August 5, 2022 @StarShopping87 Hey, how are you doing? Hopefully better! June 2021-August 2021: Nortryptaline 25mg. Early November 2021 (6 days): Effexor 37.5. Early January 2022 (14 days): Prozac 10-20mg. Felt worse immediately on the Prozac but the psychiatrist’s instructions were to updose from 10-20mg if I didn’t feel better, so I did that after a few days. After confirming with my psychiatrist that it wouldn’t be an issue, 2/3 of the way through this prozac period I tried a CBD gummy (non-THC) to try to sleep better and it led to immediate hyper stimulation, flashing lights, increased tinnitus, head burning feeling, difficulty walking, for approximately 6 hours. March 15, 2022-July 4, 2022: Restasis for dry eyes; various supplements I did not take previously- b-12 or b-complex, D, C, turmeric, ginger. Current: Nothing- tried half dose vitamins recently and they may have aggravated my system; tried half bottle of turmeric drink, increased dizziness. Tried half dose magnesium glycinate 3 nights and it either made things worse or did not help. Fish oil at least hasn’t seemed to cause an issue but I probably will not take it for a while. Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted January 17, 2023 Author Share Posted January 17, 2023 I’m almost 12 months out and recently had Covid over Christmas break. It has set me back severely. Insane gut wrenching terror I’ve never felt before, terrible surges, insomnia and inner agitation. I’m terrified I’m never going to heal and it’s taking every bone in my body to get through the day. My rumination is out of control and I feel like I’m spiraling back into hell. I was starting to feel so much better with decent windows and my waves were not the best but somewhat manageable compared to how I feel now. Is this normal to have such a severe setback? Do I have to restart acute all over again? I just need some guidance. I’ve been in this massive wave over a month now with no end in sight. Just feels like I’m getting worse and worse. My brain feels horrifying. Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted January 17, 2023 Author Share Posted January 17, 2023 Has anyone experienced a setback from Covid?? Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
Walleebug Posted January 17, 2023 Share Posted January 17, 2023 Hello. I'm not sure if I have covid but a virus has hit my home and now I feel terrible. Almost as bad as the beginning of my withdrawl. I would not be surprised at all if its covid. Have your symptoms gotten any better at all? How long has it been that you've been feeling bad? 2003- started 2.5 mgs Celexa Over the years upped to 10mgs. 2003 - .5mgs xanax as needed. Took about 2mgs a day for 15 years. Weaned off over 4 years. Last xanax June 4th 2022. July 20 2022- Started weaning Celexa August 29th 2022 -Stopped 2.5 mg Celexa Fine for 4-5 weeks and started having panic attacks. Sept 26 2022-Reinstated 5mgs celexa and started HORRIBLE side effects immediately. Stayed on for almost 5 weeks and stopped. October 31 2022- Off Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted January 17, 2023 Author Share Posted January 17, 2023 Since the day after Christmas things went downhill. Just keeps getting worse and worse. I started getting sick around Dec 13th but then I tested positive the day after Christmas and that’s when fever hit and all the symptoms got extremely ramped up. I was maybe sick a week or so. Only ran fever for 24hrs and that was it. Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted January 17, 2023 Author Share Posted January 17, 2023 It was my 2nd round of Covid Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
Walleebug Posted January 17, 2023 Share Posted January 17, 2023 It sounds like we are going through the same thing. If we have covid this will be my second time as well. The anxiety is terrible. My heart is driving me crazy. It beats so fast. Even my husband who's never had any anxiety said his heart is beating strangely. 2003- started 2.5 mgs Celexa Over the years upped to 10mgs. 2003 - .5mgs xanax as needed. Took about 2mgs a day for 15 years. Weaned off over 4 years. Last xanax June 4th 2022. July 20 2022- Started weaning Celexa August 29th 2022 -Stopped 2.5 mg Celexa Fine for 4-5 weeks and started having panic attacks. Sept 26 2022-Reinstated 5mgs celexa and started HORRIBLE side effects immediately. Stayed on for almost 5 weeks and stopped. October 31 2022- Off Link to comment
StarShopping87 Posted January 17, 2023 Author Share Posted January 17, 2023 Do you have insomnia and fear/terror or surges? Have you tested for Covid? You can pm me if you want to chat! Immediate adverse reaction lexapro 5mg 3x 1/27/22, 1/28/22, 1/30/22 Buspirone 7mg 1x 1/27/22 last dose 1/30/2022 Link to comment
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