Kat66 Posted July 8, 2022 Share Posted July 8, 2022 Is anyone else just not able to cope with being around people? A lot of it for me is that everyone/everything has the potential to trigger anger so the only way to stay quiet and calm is to be alone an awful lot. I find I am so disconnected from myself and others I just can't function that well around people anyway. 1 History of depression and anxiety. Symptoms of PTSD. 1998-1999 Venlafaxine 2006-2007 Prozac.2013-15 Sertraline 50mg. 2015 cross-tapered to citalopram 20mg. 2015-2021 Citalopram 20mg (brief increase to 30mg for 2/3 months in 2019. 01/2021 Dropped from 20mg to 10mg, back up to 20mg til June. 25/6/21 stopped CT. Started 50mg 5htp after a week without citalopram in the hope this would balance out my serotonin levels. After 3 days increased to 100mg 5htp. 11/7/21 Stopped 5htp with the intention of reinstating citalopram at 1mg. 16/7/21 Reinstated cit at 1mg. 2/8/21 Increased dose to 2mg. 28/11/21 10% reduction to 1.8mg. 8/12/21 2mg 6/1/22 1.8mg 10/2/22 1.6mg 13/5/22 1.5mg 4/6/22 1.55mg 4/7/22 1.4mg 4/8/22 1.25mg 1/11/22 1.1mg 3/3/23 1mg 18/4/23 0.9mg 2/6/23 0.8mg 4/10/23 0.7mg 11/11/23 jumped off @0.7mg started on 5htp 200mg -400mg, L-Theanine, and L-tyrosine 200mg. 25/11/23 came off 5-htp, l-tyrosine and l-Theanine. 24/12/23 went on 7.5mg mirtazapine. 27/12/23 stopped mirtazapine & reinstated citalopram @.35mg. 1/1/24 increased to 0.5mg. PTSD diagnosis October 2023. 11/11/23 started EMDR therapy for PTSD. Multiple unsuccessful attempts to taper off citalopram. Vegan, otherwise healthy lifestyle. Other medications; tapering off combined HRT. Other supplements; magnesium glycinate, vegan omega3. Completely OFF caffeine (since July 21). Finding it difficult to completely give up alcohol but haven’t had any since 25/12/23. Main symptoms; crushing depression, anhedonia/emotional anesthesia, irritability, rage, anxiety/fear, intrusive thoughts, cognitive fog, inability to focus, restlessness and some insomnia Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mdawg Posted July 8, 2022 Share Posted July 8, 2022 It’s normal to require isolation in withdrawal, especially since most people will not believe or don’t understand exactly what you’re going through. I find that there is a gap now that I have become awakened, with relating to people who have not, no matter how long I have previously “ known “ those people, I find that they don’t know me at all, because they thought the drugged version me was the real me, when actually that was a different person altogether who no longer exists. HOWEVER, it’s important to try and bridge the gap by being honest and open about your reality and truth. Also, most people mean well, and some people are very open minded and empathetic. I think it also has to do with DP/DR; if you have lost your sense of self it is sometimes detrimental to be in close proximity with others because you will only further lose sight of yourself. Just be discerning with the energy of the people you choose to be around. 2 2007-Prozac then off replaced with Zoloft 2008- Off Zoloft replaced with Fluvoxamine 2008-2009 50mg Fluvoxamine 2009-2020 150mg Fluvoxamine 2013-14 addition of Lexapro and Zyprexa 2015 back to only Fluvoxamine 2019-2021 additional 150mg Wellbutrin 2020-present taper off Fluvoxamine and Wellbutrin 2022 - mid-February - last dose 25 mg Wellbutrin July 2021 25 (12.5 twice a day) mg Fluvoxamine hold switch to compounded XR 12.5 mg Fluvoxamine capsules twice a day mid July 2022 Magnesium, Fish Oil, microdose CBD Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kat66 Posted July 9, 2022 Author Share Posted July 9, 2022 On 7/8/2022 at 5:48 PM, Mdawg said: It’s normal to require isolation in withdrawal, especially since most people will not believe or don’t understand exactly what you’re going through. I find that there is a gap now that I have become awakened, with relating to people who have not, no matter how long I have previously “ known “ those people, I find that they don’t know me at all, because they thought the drugged version me was the real me, when actually that was a different person altogether who no longer exists. HOWEVER, it’s important to try and bridge the gap by being honest and open about your reality and truth. Also, most people mean well, and some people are very open minded and empathetic. I think it also has to do with DP/DR; if you have lost your sense of self it is sometimes detrimental to be in close proximity with others because you will only further lose sight of yourself. Just be discerning with the energy of the people you choose to be around. Yes I can definitely relate to the DP/DR aspect of this. When I'm talking to people I know, it's like I'm not really 'there' and not the person I was, which creates a disconnect within the conversation. Because this experience is so unpleasant and unsettling, I'd just rather be alone. History of depression and anxiety. Symptoms of PTSD. 1998-1999 Venlafaxine 2006-2007 Prozac.2013-15 Sertraline 50mg. 2015 cross-tapered to citalopram 20mg. 2015-2021 Citalopram 20mg (brief increase to 30mg for 2/3 months in 2019. 01/2021 Dropped from 20mg to 10mg, back up to 20mg til June. 25/6/21 stopped CT. Started 50mg 5htp after a week without citalopram in the hope this would balance out my serotonin levels. After 3 days increased to 100mg 5htp. 11/7/21 Stopped 5htp with the intention of reinstating citalopram at 1mg. 16/7/21 Reinstated cit at 1mg. 2/8/21 Increased dose to 2mg. 28/11/21 10% reduction to 1.8mg. 8/12/21 2mg 6/1/22 1.8mg 10/2/22 1.6mg 13/5/22 1.5mg 4/6/22 1.55mg 4/7/22 1.4mg 4/8/22 1.25mg 1/11/22 1.1mg 3/3/23 1mg 18/4/23 0.9mg 2/6/23 0.8mg 4/10/23 0.7mg 11/11/23 jumped off @0.7mg started on 5htp 200mg -400mg, L-Theanine, and L-tyrosine 200mg. 25/11/23 came off 5-htp, l-tyrosine and l-Theanine. 24/12/23 went on 7.5mg mirtazapine. 27/12/23 stopped mirtazapine & reinstated citalopram @.35mg. 1/1/24 increased to 0.5mg. PTSD diagnosis October 2023. 11/11/23 started EMDR therapy for PTSD. Multiple unsuccessful attempts to taper off citalopram. Vegan, otherwise healthy lifestyle. Other medications; tapering off combined HRT. Other supplements; magnesium glycinate, vegan omega3. Completely OFF caffeine (since July 21). Finding it difficult to completely give up alcohol but haven’t had any since 25/12/23. Main symptoms; crushing depression, anhedonia/emotional anesthesia, irritability, rage, anxiety/fear, intrusive thoughts, cognitive fog, inability to focus, restlessness and some insomnia Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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