alexjuice Posted October 14, 2012 Share Posted October 14, 2012 For a long time, I've struggled to write coherently. It's gotten much worse when I discontinued medication. At first, I'd spend significant time on posts. I'd clean them up for style and length or at least pluck the mistakes, even if I left 'em as ramblers. Then, to save time, I started posting without the edits and often my posts now are missing words or have awkward structure or whatever. In order to rebuild my ability to write, I plan to think about postings more thoroughly. I intend to compose each sentence with my total concentration and with an awareness of the larger point and post I am crafting. I need to practice writing well without so many escape hatches. I'll write once, read not and post while trying to minimize the errors. My abilities may improve with practice. "Well my ship's been split to splinters and it's sinking fast I'm drowning in the poison, got no future, got no past But my heart is not weary, it's light and it's free I've got nothing but affection for all those who sailed with me. Everybody's moving, if they ain't already there Everybody's got to move somewhere Stick with me baby, stick with me anyhow Things should start to get interesting right about now." - Zimmerman Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
alexjuice Posted October 14, 2012 Author Share Posted October 14, 2012 I see mistakes and things I don't like in the post above. While writing I could not see them. I can live with errors as I relearn to express myself. "Well my ship's been split to splinters and it's sinking fast I'm drowning in the poison, got no future, got no past But my heart is not weary, it's light and it's free I've got nothing but affection for all those who sailed with me. Everybody's moving, if they ain't already there Everybody's got to move somewhere Stick with me baby, stick with me anyhow Things should start to get interesting right about now." - Zimmerman Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shanti Posted October 14, 2012 Share Posted October 14, 2012 I'm making weird mistakes with writing all the time. I always have a lot to correct. I especially write words that I'm not thinking. Such as writing "as" instead of "and". I'm glad I'm not doing it with my speech though! Taper from Cymbalta, Paxil, Prozac & Antipsychotics finished June 2012. Xanax 5% Taper - (8/12 - .5 mg) - (9/12 - .45) - (10/12 - .43) - (11/12 - .41) - (12/12 - .38) My Paxil Website My Intro Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
compsports Posted October 14, 2012 Share Posted October 14, 2012 I'm making weird mistakes with writing all the time. I always have a lot to correct. I especially write words that I'm not thinking. Such as writing "as" instead of "and". I'm glad I'm not doing it with my speech though! In an email to someone, I meant to say "such as" and ended up saying "just as". I am have also made similar type mistakes like what you have mentioned. This started when I was on meds and has not let up. I think the sleep apnea has caused it worsen. Comsports Drug cocktail 1995 - 2010 Started taper of Adderall, Wellbutrin XL, Remeron, and Doxepin in 2006 Finished taper on June 10, 2010 Temazepam on a PRN basis approximately twice a month - 2014 to 2016 Beginning in 2017 - Consumption increased to about two times per week April 2017 - Increased to taking it full time for insomnia Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
alexjuice Posted October 14, 2012 Author Share Posted October 14, 2012 I'm making weird mistakes with writing all the time. I always have a lot to correct. I especially write words that I'm not thinking. Such as writing "as" instead of "and". I'm glad I'm not doing it with my speech though! Yea, me too. I do the same thing. I write the wrong word! I may be thinking "before the sun sets" and I go back and my fingers typed "under the sun sets"! Also, I leave out words that I thought I typed. "Well my ship's been split to splinters and it's sinking fast I'm drowning in the poison, got no future, got no past But my heart is not weary, it's light and it's free I've got nothing but affection for all those who sailed with me. Everybody's moving, if they ain't already there Everybody's got to move somewhere Stick with me baby, stick with me anyhow Things should start to get interesting right about now." - Zimmerman Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shebop Posted October 14, 2012 Share Posted October 14, 2012 For a long time, I've struggled to write coherently. It's gotten much worse when I discontinued medication. At first, I'd spend significant time on posts. I'd clean them up for style and length or at least pluck the mistakes, even if I left 'em as ramblers. Then, to save time, I started posting without the edits and often my posts now are missing words or have awkward structure or whatever. I've had the same issue! That's why I don't post on this site more often. The difficulty organizing my thoughts into writing causes me to dread emails and other written contact with others. I find myself obsessing over how what I write will be understood and it takes me an extremely long time to complete an email. I often confuse words too. I also struggle with this in speech at times, to the point where I've re-recorded voicemails 2 or 3 times. The voicemail stuff started while I was on Effexor and seemed to go away for most of the time that I was on the mood stabilizers (at least my memory of it or my anxiety about it did diminish). I suppose it started up again while tapering off and it has definitely worsened in the throes of withdrawal. I almost feel as though it's a symptom of a larger problem that I've been having with organizing my thoughts, prioritizing, and breaking things into tasks. It's very maddening, to say the least, and really eats into my confidence. 1997- Started on SSRIs, many different kinds. Was tapered on and off of them due to lack of effectiveness and/or side effects until 2000ish. 2001 to 2006- Effexor, which despite tapering down lead to a terrible withdrawal and major depressive episode. Prozac early in this period and increased during withdrawal. Other meds were tried. 2006 to 2008-Lithium, Propanolol (to counteract side effects), on and off Prozac and benzos at varying doses. Tapered due to disturbing side effects. 2008 to present- Lamictal- for past year and a half have been titrating off of original dose of 200mg Lamictal, at 25 mg right now. Klonopin 1- 2mg at bedtime to sleep. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Administrator Karma Posted October 15, 2012 Administrator Share Posted October 15, 2012 This happens to me, too ... it happens at work all the time and I've decided that it is very difficult to proof your own work because right after you have written something you see what you intended in the writing, not what is actually written there. The only way I've found to proof my own work is to put it down, go do something else and then come back and review it with fresh eyes. Karma 2007 @ 375 mg Effexor - 11/29/2011 - 43.75 mg Effexor (regular) & .625 mg Xanax 200 mg Gabapentin 2/27/21 - 194.5 mg, 5/28/21 - 183 mg, 8/2/21 - 170 mg, 11/28/21 - 150 mg, 4/19/22 - 122 mg; 8//7/22 - 100 mg; 12/17 - 75mg; 8/17 - 45 mg; 10/16 40 mg Xanax taper: 3/11/12 - 0.9375 mg, 3/25/12 - 0.875 mg, 4/6/12 - 0.8125 mg, 4/18/12 - 0.75 ; 10/16 40mg; 1/16 0.6875 mg; at some point 0.625 mg Effexor taper: 1/29/12 - 40.625 mg, 4/29/12 - 39.875 mg, 5/11/12 - Switched to liquid Effexor, 5/25/12 - 38 mg, 7/6/12 - 35 mg, 8/17/12 - 32 mg, 9/14/12 - 30 mg, 10/19/12 - 28 mg, 11/9/12 - 26 mg, 11/30/12 - 24 mg, 01/14/13 - 22 mg. 02/25/13 - 20.8 mg, 03/18/13 - 19.2 mg, 4/15/13 - 17.6 mg, 8/10/13 - 16.4 mg, 9/7/13 - 15.2 mg, 10/19/13 - 14 mg, 1/15/14 - 13.2 mg, 3/1/2014 - 12.6 mg, 5/4/14 - 12 mg, 8/1/14 - 11.4 mg, 8/29/14 - 10.8 mg; 10/14/14 - 10.2 mg; 12/15/14 - 10 mg, 1/11/15 - 9.5 mg, 2/8/15 - 9 mg, 3/21/15 - 8.5 mg, 5/1/15 - 8 mg, 6/9/15 - 7.5 mg, 7/8/15 - 7 mg, 8/22/15 - 6.5 mg, 10/4/15 - 6 mg; 1/1/16 - 5.6 mg; 2/6/16 - 5.2 mg; 4/9 - 4.8 mg; 7/7 4.5 mg; 10/7 4.25 mg; 11/4 4.0 mg; 11/25 3.8 mg; 4/24 3.6 mg; 5/27 3.4 mg; 7/8 3.2 mg ... 10/18 2.8 mg; 1/18 2.6 mg; 4/7 2.4 mg; 5/26 2.15mg; 8/18 1.85 mg; 10/7 1.7 mg; 12/1 1.45 mg; 3/2 1.2 mg; 5/4 0.90 mg; 6/1 0.80 mg; 6/22 0.65 mg; 08/03 0.50 mg, 08/10 0.45 mg, 10/05 0.325 mg, 11/23 0.2 mg, 12/14 0.15 mg, 12/21 0.125 mg, 02/28 0.03125 mg, 2/15 0.015625 mg, 2/29/20 0.00 mg - OFF Effexor I am not a medical professional - this is not medical advice. My suggestions are based on personal experience, reading, observation and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
moonbow0202 Posted October 15, 2012 Share Posted October 15, 2012 I also have a lot of writing problems. This had gotten worse over the years of being on antidepressants and dose increases. Writing problems were a big part of why I was academically dismissed from a BSN program with 1 class left to graduate.Since then, I have to admit to being anxious at the mere thought of writing. After reading these posts,I clicked on reply and immediately burst into tears. I walked away and called a friend. The crying only lasted a couple of minutes. It's a relief to hear that I am not alone in this. However, it's very sad that the very ability that allows us to seek support has been so negatively impacted. 15+ years on various ADs and combos. Spent 3 yrs tapering (off & on ) off 225mg Effexor venlafaxine) XR & Remeron (mirtazapine). Finished tapering Oct 2014. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shanti Posted October 17, 2012 Share Posted October 17, 2012 Well it seems to be a w/d issue. The problem is like what Karma said. I will proof what I write in this box now, but won't catch it until later. Sometimes I catch it right away, but not always. Thank God for the 15 minutes we have to edit our posts lol. But even then, much gets by me and I just accept it. I know you are all forgiving. So don't worry about when you post here that it has to be perfect, Shebop. We all understand. Taper from Cymbalta, Paxil, Prozac & Antipsychotics finished June 2012. Xanax 5% Taper - (8/12 - .5 mg) - (9/12 - .45) - (10/12 - .43) - (11/12 - .41) - (12/12 - .38) My Paxil Website My Intro Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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