Morphologie Posted November 27, 2014 Author Share Posted November 27, 2014 I think I made a mistake. One of the things I did to self medicate myself after going off the risperdal was to start smoking again. It gave me a little something and made me feel better in a way, because when I first went off the risperdal I couldn't feel any pleasure or enjoyment whatsoever and it gave me a little lift..but as time went on and I become more and more sensitive to just about everything, the cigarettes started to make me sick. I would feel ill every time after having one. So after I quit the gabapentin, which contributed to my craving nicotine, four days later I quit cigarettes because it was either time to buy more or let go and since I can't afford them anyway, I decided to let go. Well two weeks later a suicidal depression has taken hold of me. I really don't want to go back to smoking, especially because they were making me sick every day, I was actually scared I had cancer or something because I'd get pressure in my head...but I don't want to go through the rest of this dark holiday season feeling this way. I've even felt tempted to go back to the hospital, which I seriously do NOT want to do. So maybe I should just go buy some, I don't know...I don't know what to do. 05/11 Gabapentin 1800mg, nardil 60mg, 05/12 Rapid taper & d/c both12/12 ER: Risperidone .5 mg 2x day 1 wk/then .5 mg 1x day, 02/13 Risperidone d/c03/13 ER: Seroquel 150 mg, Celexa 20 mg (d/c after 1 week)04/13 E&T: 10mg zyprexa, 20mg Celexa, 150mg trazodone, 2mg Clonazepam (Zyprexa and Celexa d/c after 1 week) 05/13 Rapid taper & d/c Trazadone, clonazepam reduced from 2 mg - .5 mg, Gabapentin 300 mg 3x day06/13 Clonaz .5 mg - .125 mg 12/13 Clonaz 1/8 mg, gabapentin 240 mg 3x day 03/14 Clonaz 1/8 mg, gabapentin 100 mg 3x day 09/14 Clonaz 1/8 mg, gabapentin 33 mg 3x day 11/14 Clonazepam 1/7 mg 04/15 Clonazepam 1/11 mg 08/15 finished taper Link to comment
simon Posted November 27, 2014 Share Posted November 27, 2014 Have you tried E cigarettes? I have them at the moment and of course they don't have all the nasties of tobacco and other chemicals in them. Just nicotine. it might be that you can cope with them without getting sick. I notice that they give you a little hit, but you never get that sort of dizziness and nausea that real cigs can give. Addiction to nicotine I don't think is more serious than to caffeine, so no worries about cancer. Also I notice that when circumstances change I can take them or leave them . Just a thought! Simon . Been on some kind of meds since 1982,mainly on and off things like imipramine.,2000 on75mg venlafaxine til it bottomed out, then 150, also no good. about 7 years. Almost ct from it and put on cocktail of Cit, Mirt and Lithium. Remained there for 7 years. Tapered Citalopram in June2014 and was off in 6 weeks. Mood slumped about 6 weeks later. Found this site sept 5th and got some idea why this happens.18th Sept stopped lorezepam and due to misunderstanding with GP was without it for 36 hours which caused a crisis. from 19thsept 18mg diazepam to replace lorezepam(possible addiction) 24th sept 12 mg diaz per day. 29th sept 10mg diaz per day and tapering at 1-2mg per week. At 5mg will slow down taper. At same time increase of mirtazapine to 45mg per day. Taking fish oil and magnesium as suggested on this site. Also have menieres syndrome, a cause of vertigo, vomiting and partial loss of hearing, also very occasional drop attacks. As of 8th October on; Mirtazapine 45mg, Citalopram 20mg Lithium 500mg Diazepam 6mg (tapering by 2mg per week) Fish oil and magnesium As of 25th October Mirt 45mg, Citalopram20mg Lithium 700mg Diazepam12mg As of 12th November Mirt 37.5 Cit.20mg Lithium 700mg Diazepam 8mg (to taper after 14 days by 10%) As of 17th November Mirt 35mg Cit 18mg Lithium 600mg Diazepam 8mg (to taper after 14 days by 10%) As of 25th November MIrt 35mg Cit 18mg Lithium 600mg Diazepam 7mg As of 1st December MIrt 35 Cit 18mg Lithium 600mg Diazepam 6mg (been stable for the last 2 weeks) GP intervention 19 December now on 150 Ven, 37.5 Mirt, 600 Lithium Diazepam 7mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted November 28, 2014 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted November 28, 2014 I'm sorry that you are feeling sick Morph, it sounds like you are still suffering some withdrawal and are in a wave right now. This will pass, just hang on in there, take each day as it comes and it will pass. A lot of us find things that help then after a while they stop helping and make us sick, the nervous system is fragile and may respond to things differently as time goes on. If you can get by I would leave the cigarettes as they were making things worse. Take good care of yourself, gentle exercise and sleep, this will pass Morph, just hold on. Let those thoughts wash over you and pass on, they are not you they are withdrawal. I hope this wave lets up soon for you. Are you still tapering the clonazepam? **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment
Morphologie Posted November 28, 2014 Author Share Posted November 28, 2014 HI, Simon and, mammaP. Thank you for your replies. I may try an e-cig if I can't find another way, Simon, thanks for the idea. MammaP, I walk at least two miles every day now, which was a big improvement over bed all day. Thanks for the encouragement. I'm hanging in there. I am not currently tapering the clonzepam. I'm not touching that for a long time! I don't even want to! *hugs* 05/11 Gabapentin 1800mg, nardil 60mg, 05/12 Rapid taper & d/c both12/12 ER: Risperidone .5 mg 2x day 1 wk/then .5 mg 1x day, 02/13 Risperidone d/c03/13 ER: Seroquel 150 mg, Celexa 20 mg (d/c after 1 week)04/13 E&T: 10mg zyprexa, 20mg Celexa, 150mg trazodone, 2mg Clonazepam (Zyprexa and Celexa d/c after 1 week) 05/13 Rapid taper & d/c Trazadone, clonazepam reduced from 2 mg - .5 mg, Gabapentin 300 mg 3x day06/13 Clonaz .5 mg - .125 mg 12/13 Clonaz 1/8 mg, gabapentin 240 mg 3x day 03/14 Clonaz 1/8 mg, gabapentin 100 mg 3x day 09/14 Clonaz 1/8 mg, gabapentin 33 mg 3x day 11/14 Clonazepam 1/7 mg 04/15 Clonazepam 1/11 mg 08/15 finished taper Link to comment
Morphologie Posted November 21, 2015 Author Share Posted November 21, 2015 I just wanted to come and share that I've been off everything since August. I'm still having problems but I'm doing all right. I am hypersensitive to supplements now and react to just about everything. I'm currently taking 1 TB of cod liver oil, vitamin d and vitamin e but I have some thyroid herbs coming next week and plan to try them when they get here. I just get so desperate for an answer, I keep spending my money on health crap. I keep trying to 'fix' myself with different herbs, vitamins and supplements, but have had too many side effects to keep on anything for very long. I keep trying though. I take magnesium sometimes, which also makes me feel 'off' and a lot of stuff I take causes me to get very pale suddenly, minerals especially. Don't know what's up with that. But at least I am off the crap and working on myself, working on healing, working with my emotions more, not trying to escape everything. I guess through this journey you really do find out 'what you're made of' huh? 05/11 Gabapentin 1800mg, nardil 60mg, 05/12 Rapid taper & d/c both12/12 ER: Risperidone .5 mg 2x day 1 wk/then .5 mg 1x day, 02/13 Risperidone d/c03/13 ER: Seroquel 150 mg, Celexa 20 mg (d/c after 1 week)04/13 E&T: 10mg zyprexa, 20mg Celexa, 150mg trazodone, 2mg Clonazepam (Zyprexa and Celexa d/c after 1 week) 05/13 Rapid taper & d/c Trazadone, clonazepam reduced from 2 mg - .5 mg, Gabapentin 300 mg 3x day06/13 Clonaz .5 mg - .125 mg 12/13 Clonaz 1/8 mg, gabapentin 240 mg 3x day 03/14 Clonaz 1/8 mg, gabapentin 100 mg 3x day 09/14 Clonaz 1/8 mg, gabapentin 33 mg 3x day 11/14 Clonazepam 1/7 mg 04/15 Clonazepam 1/11 mg 08/15 finished taper Link to comment
Rosetta Posted May 16, 2019 Share Posted May 16, 2019 How are you? It will have been 4 years in August that you have been off all meds. Are you doing all right? - Rosetta https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Morphologie Posted May 16, 2019 Author Share Posted May 16, 2019 Hi, Rosetta. Not great. I feel like my life was ruined from the drugs. My struggle is still the same as above. I wish I'd had a lawyer. 05/11 Gabapentin 1800mg, nardil 60mg, 05/12 Rapid taper & d/c both12/12 ER: Risperidone .5 mg 2x day 1 wk/then .5 mg 1x day, 02/13 Risperidone d/c03/13 ER: Seroquel 150 mg, Celexa 20 mg (d/c after 1 week)04/13 E&T: 10mg zyprexa, 20mg Celexa, 150mg trazodone, 2mg Clonazepam (Zyprexa and Celexa d/c after 1 week) 05/13 Rapid taper & d/c Trazadone, clonazepam reduced from 2 mg - .5 mg, Gabapentin 300 mg 3x day06/13 Clonaz .5 mg - .125 mg 12/13 Clonaz 1/8 mg, gabapentin 240 mg 3x day 03/14 Clonaz 1/8 mg, gabapentin 100 mg 3x day 09/14 Clonaz 1/8 mg, gabapentin 33 mg 3x day 11/14 Clonazepam 1/7 mg 04/15 Clonazepam 1/11 mg 08/15 finished taper Link to comment
Rosetta Posted May 16, 2019 Share Posted May 16, 2019 I'm so sorry for what the doctors did, Morphologie. I know that's not worth much, but . . . . https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Lauren90 Posted December 1, 2022 Share Posted December 1, 2022 How are you doing? Did your akathisia ever come back after you tapered the benzo? 2000-2018 150-200mg Sertraline and Vyvanse 2018- vyvanse 60mg to 0 over 6mo. 200mg Sertraline to 150mg. 2019- 150mg Sertraline to 100mg. Early 2021- 100mg to 87.5, two weeks later 87.5 to 75mg, 1.25-4mg bromazepam PRN. Mid 2021 - Feb 2022 taper 2.5%-5% 75mg to 50mg. March 2022 bromazepam for 3 weeks. May 9th 2022 started Propranolol, 10mg in the morning and 10mg in the evening. July 2022- off propranolol Oct 2022- off birth control. Dec 2022- updose sertraline 100mg, benztropine 1mg and Ativan 1mg. March 2023- stop benztropine. May 2023 - ativan taper finished. May 2023 - updose Sertraline to 125mg added propranolol 40mg added Ativan 1mg. July 5- sertraline 112.5mg propranolol 60mg, quick 2 week Ativan taper. Current meds: propranolol 60mg, sertraline 106.25mg, Ativan .025mg, B6, CoQ10, Magnesium Glycinate Link to comment
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