dekiru Posted April 7, 2013 Share Posted April 7, 2013 Meds: to help with feeling ill Simply take a pill Will take the depression/panic away And make you feel ok some of the day But user beware: Body not want pill So will make you more ill So unwell Will be like a living hell Panic attacks day and night, Will be quite a fright. With time Body will be fine Body will need pill Or you will be ill (again) Emotions numbed Body has succumbed Can live (of a fashion), But without any passion I don’t want to just survive I want to thrive I don’t want to supress any more Taking meds is becoming a chore There’s someone I can talk to at last, I can now finally talk about the past After waiting so long An amazing person came along We have good rapport And I gain lots of support My dream came true I’m stopping meds now – wouldn’t you? Three months in My head is all a spin, I’ve lost loads of weight Because I won’t fill my plate I can’t eat any carbohydrate Or else my stomach painful and inflate Body still wants pill So it still makes me very ill (again) Meds don’t take pain away Simply store it up for another day. Emotions huge Like a deluge So much pain Want to sleep again and again Panicky day and night Again giving me a fright All voices seem so loud Is like I’m in the middle of a crowd. All smells seem so strong I can’t cope for long Or my head hurts so bad Wish the strength could decrease a tad. A year off meds has passed How long can withdrawal last? Joints burning Stomach churning Feel sick I often cuddle Chick(ee)* Feel faint I need patience of a saint Day after day I lay in bed Sometimes I wish I was dead Pain in chest Isn’t the best With time I will reach my prime Will become healthy Maybe wealthy Will be human being Body is clever, So will listen to it forever Heart is guide, Best not denied. Life has good and bad Can feel happy or sad If can experience things in the Now Is better somehow… Emma Jenner * Chickee is a cuddly toy chick I have. 01/2006 Put on Prozac for anxiety and panic attacks 08/2008 Came off Zoloft after tapering don't remember taper, lost weight, felt like had cold constantly, very panicky, pain everywhere (misdiagnosed fibromyalgia), head funny.05/2010 put back on Zoloft03/2012 came completely off Zoloft followed Dr standard taper- no appetite, lost weight (0.5 stone), flu-like feelings constantly, pain everywhere, head funny, nausea, very panicky, very strong emotions etc Lost 1 stone.04/2013 improving. actually put on some weight and hungry most of the time. Still burning pain joints, stomach upset, headache/feel faint and emotions very strong. Chest very painful too.01/2014 improving still. Gained weight!! Still hungry. Still headache/feel faint and strong emotions and chest/shoulder muscles painful. Periods irregular and very painful. Very tired. Joints burn only if eat refined sugars. Started eating fruits again.03/2014 2 years off. Now intolerances developed to nuts and soya. Permanently hungry, Emotions strong but started healing psychological reasons I was put on antidepressants with therapist. Shoulder pain bad, heady often, very tired.06/2014 flu-like symptoms returned, many intolerances, stomach painful, skin crawling feeling, muscles painful, very emotional. :-(( 09/2016 over 4.5 years off, no real changes in symptoms, still much pain, headiness, heart weird, digestion bad, hormones unbalanced, nausea yet very hungry, tired, flu like symptoms etc etc. <p>taking - vit C, probiotics and digestive enzymesI have Aspergers Syndrome. Link to comment
Meimeiquest Posted April 7, 2013 Share Posted April 7, 2013 Fabulous...and heartbreaking 1st round Prozac 1989/90, clear depression symptoms. 2nd round Prozac started 1999 when admitted to dr. I was tired. Prozac pooped out, switch to Cymbalta 3/2006. Diagnosed with bipolar disorder due to mania 6/2006--then I was taken abruptly off Cymbalta and didn't know I had SSRI withdrawal. Lots of meds for my intractable "bipolar" symptoms. Zyprexa started about 9/06, mostly 5mg. Tapered 4/12 through12/29/12 Wellbutrin. XL 300 mg started 1/07, tapered 1/18/13 through 7/8/13 Oxazepam mostly continuously since 6/06, 30mg since 12/12, tapered 1.17.14 through 8.26.15 11/06 Lithium 600mg twice daily, 2.2.14 400mg TID DIY liquid, 2.12.14 1150mg, 3.2.14 1100mg, 3.18.14 1075mg, 4/14 updose to 1100mg, 6.1.14 900 mg capsules 7.8.14 810mg, 8.17.14 725mg, 8.24.24 700mg...10.22.14 487.5mg, 3.9.15 475mg, 4.1.15 462.5mg 4.21.15 450mg 8.11.15 375mg, 11.28.15 362.5mg, back to 375mg four days later, 3.4.16 updose to 475 (too much going on to risk trouble) 9/4/13 Toprol-XL 25mg daily for sudden hypertension, tapered 11.12.13 through 5.3.14, last 10 days or so switched to atenolol 7.4.14 Started Walsh Protocol 56 years old Link to comment
Nikki Posted April 10, 2013 Share Posted April 10, 2013 Bless your heart....you really summed it all up, very poetically Intro: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1902-nikki-hi-my-rundown-with-ads/ Paxil 1997-2004 Crossed over to Lexapro Paxil not available at Pharmacies GSK halted deliveries Lexapro 40mgs Lexapro taper (2years) Imipramine Imipramine and Celexa Now Nefazadone/Imipramine 50mgs. each 45mgs. Serzone 50mgs. Imipramine Link to comment
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