Nikki Posted November 5, 2013 Share Posted November 5, 2013 AS I have shared I am in Al-Anon and have been for 16 years. There is another 12 Step Support group for Adult children of Alcoholics and/or Dysfunctional Families Alot of people in AA and Al-Anon attend these meetings. I did not grow up in an alcohol8c Home but I did have a very dysfunctional family of origin, particularly my mother. Being that she is old and I am the only child here I have daily contact with her, mostly the phone. Before she had a home health aide it was person-to-person. As a result all of my childhood stuff has and keeps cropping up. I felt like I was going to lose my mind. It was painful an haunting. So in a hurry on Sunday morning I ran to this meeting. I made tremendous similarities and that it is possible to heal. This crossover is difficult because I think I tapered to fast from Celexa so am having tremendous emotional issue and neuro-emotions I purchased the literature, and have been reading and journaling, etc. there is a 12 step workbook. This stuff has neenbothering me for my whole life. Sometimes I find acceptance, forgiveness and just keep moving on, and now I can't. I am hoping this may put alot of pain to rest and see how it is affecting me now. Lat night I was reading and started to see that my issues with anxiety or the probable root/cause to it started when I was very little. Maybe this will heal. Iam not comfortable with my mother and never have been, she is like a loose cannon, has no discretion and I have lived in a state of hypervigilence around her which is anxiety. I need to stick with it to recover. I a also trying to switch over to another medication and leave celexa and imipramine in the dust in an attempt to control AM anxiety. I made the usual mistake of being in a hurry and dropped alot of Celexa too fast. Not feeling well. If you are interested you can google the site. All of these support Al0Anon ACOA NA SA Co-dependents Annonyous, are all offshoots of AA and use the 12 steps, meetings, sponsors, etc. For me Al-Anon was a life saver and I am hoping I an finally have the courage to get to my Core Issues with ACOA. Hugs Intro: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1902-nikki-hi-my-rundown-with-ads/ Paxil 1997-2004 Crossed over to Lexapro Paxil not available at Pharmacies GSK halted deliveries Lexapro 40mgs Lexapro taper (2years) Imipramine Imipramine and Celexa Now Nefazadone/Imipramine 50mgs. each 45mgs. Serzone 50mgs. Imipramine Link to comment
Nikki Posted November 5, 2013 Author Share Posted November 5, 2013 I had lunch with two good friends today and their suggestion which I am going to take is to stabilize on the meds first and then go digging into the past. The past can be pretty painful and maybe now is not the time. I thought about it alot this afternoon and have decided to put a hold on the meetings for now...try to stay in the present and imagine a better tomorrow. I had alot of awareness's in the three week I have attended. My problems with anxiety started a long, long time ago. I really like support groups. Where would we be without them? Intro: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1902-nikki-hi-my-rundown-with-ads/ Paxil 1997-2004 Crossed over to Lexapro Paxil not available at Pharmacies GSK halted deliveries Lexapro 40mgs Lexapro taper (2years) Imipramine Imipramine and Celexa Now Nefazadone/Imipramine 50mgs. each 45mgs. Serzone 50mgs. Imipramine Link to comment
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