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Hello Jose

 

How are you doing?

 

I feel really happy that my reading passion has come back a bit now, before i took medicine i read every book i could find lol then i lost that during medication and only now 9 months after last pill ive got these huge taste for books again, feels SO GOOD! =D

 

Hello Bella

Really glad you got a passion back. Enjoy every bit of it.

I'm doing ok, ups and downs but cruising through. Already past two months and counting.

My reading ability is slightly impaired now so I'm looking forward to the gradual recovery like bubble mentions.

I'll be around...Best to you all

 

Mm it feels wonderful =) Ive been reading soo many the last days haha and been out cycling alot which is also wonderful, all these months of withdrawal left me in a stage with like no muscle left in body hah and really weak so im trying to get them back now by exercising and it goes really well.. I also notice that during the time im on the bike on the road in the forest with the all the smells, sounds from birds and everything i feel SO PEACEFUL its crazy and a huge freedom in soul! its adoarble. life is so adorable.. these things i rearly felt while i was on medication i also get so much memories (good onces) from my childhood that i had forgot, like when i smell a smell my brain connect to a memory haha sounds weird but its so nice, like yesterday i felt like i were traveling back like 10 years and to a specifik moment just bc i smelled something that remind me and it felt sooo good..

 

You are strong Jose and I so wish you will recover more and more, life beyond these WD is truly amazing!


2007 - 2013: was on citalopram (tried to quit a few times, never worked, always went back on. max dose 40mg)

2012-2013: was tapering my citalopram all down to 2,5 mg then quit.
2013/aug: Took  my last pill 

W/D hit me bad after a few weeks off my medicine.

2014/August: 12 months off (much improved)

2015/April: 20months off. ( much improved, still some symtoms comes in waves, but not so intense.)

2015/june: 22months off. FELT different than before, all shakings suddenly stopped, feel much better. a fantastic feeling!

2016/Feb : 2 years and 6 months off, END of my suffering. I feel perfectly fine and back to normal. 
2018/Oct: Iam still feeling great. It is hard to believe my own story when I read back, what I went through!

 

 

 

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Bellisimo

Hello, Bella,

 

Just taking a moment to introduce myself and say that I wish you well on your recovery journey. You are a brave, brave person!

 

Nearly every intro thread I read has so many experiences in common with what I have been going through, if I were to comment on them all, I would be online 24/7.

 

I will chime in a bit on reading. WhenI was going through my "breakdown,"  during the acute anorexic/agoraphobic insomnia stage, about the only thing I could manage to do was watch (wait for it) Marie Osmond's talk show and read her books. I was an Osmond fan a million years ago when I was a teen, but even I didn't get the connection at first. Something in her spirit just comforted me. I know she has been through a lot of personal turmoil herself, and I just happen to think she's genuine (in her own Las Vegas way) - but that's my opinion, of course. I didn't realize it at the time, but I think I was also looking for a mother figure - being in the midst of losing my own (false image of) mother in a very dramatic, traumatic way - and Marie fit the bill. I still get emotional thinking about how she helped keep me going through months of absolute Hell. OK, I meant this to be a light-hearted addition to the topic of reading and depression/anxiety, and somehow ended up "sharing" something a little deeper than that. I'll post anyway, because I feel among friends who understand here. So, thank you.

 

I am here for you, too. In thoughts and prayers.

Hello! Thank you so much for sharing,make me very happy knowing i have people around me who think im strong, i need to hear that bc most of the time ive been going thru this hell alone and im finally now really well in life and i thank this forum and all my new friends and supporters who helped me alot, without all of you im not sure if i would make it.

I appreciate you open up for me and told me about the feelings for this woman , itotally understand you! Im happy you found someone who you felt helped you in your wd hell. how are you feeling now?


2007 - 2013: was on citalopram (tried to quit a few times, never worked, always went back on. max dose 40mg)

2012-2013: was tapering my citalopram all down to 2,5 mg then quit.
2013/aug: Took  my last pill 

W/D hit me bad after a few weeks off my medicine.

2014/August: 12 months off (much improved)

2015/April: 20months off. ( much improved, still some symtoms comes in waves, but not so intense.)

2015/june: 22months off. FELT different than before, all shakings suddenly stopped, feel much better. a fantastic feeling!

2016/Feb : 2 years and 6 months off, END of my suffering. I feel perfectly fine and back to normal. 
2018/Oct: Iam still feeling great. It is hard to believe my own story when I read back, what I went through!

 

 

 

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Thank you for your kind words, Bellisimo. I'm doing ok, considering everything... so glad to have found this very, very supportive community. I'm only beginning my journey off these meds, but I haven't been on them too terribly long, so hoping things will go (as) smoothly (as possible) for me.

 

ENJOY your newly rediscovered love of life! I remember how that felt (though seems long ago now).  I will look to your story for inspiration - and hope to get to know you better.

 

I can almost feel your joy and serenity from here. ^_^ Have fun! 


04/2013 diagnoses: severe insomnia, major depressive disorder, anxiety disorder, agoraphobia. PTSD (my diagnosis)

Original scripts: 30 mg mirtazapine (Remeron) (1x day), 75 mg Bupropion HCL (Wellbutrin) (2x day), and 0.5 lorazepam (1x day or as needed)

05/05/14: Onset of acute Wellbutrin withdrawal symptoms after haphazard "taper" of 6-8 wks.

05/10/14: Joined this site.

05/11/14: Reinstated approx. 25 mg Wellbutrin (1x day)

05/14/14: Switched to 12.5 mg Wellbutrin (2x day)

06/28/14: Changed lorazepam dosing to .25 mg 2x a day - seems to be reducing anxiety flare-ups

07/28/14: Dosing Wellbutrin in a (home made) solution form 12.5 mg (2x day) 08/15/14: Remeron 28 25.2 22.7 20.5 18.5 16.7 15.1 13.6 mg (home made) solution

05/16/15: Have been dosing lorazepam at .5 mg in the morning, .25 mg in the afternoon, and .25 mg at bedtime. Anxiety has increased somewhat, possibly due to tolerance.

 

 

 

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Iam also soo happy you have found this forum, its godsent really lol. I hope your journey will be as good as possible, and remember we all will be here for you and travel together with you in this journey. Im too scared to write my success story yet because i want to be free from all symtoms for a long time , to make sure its not a window and i want to feel 100% back to normal", but i can truly say that im close, what it feels like.. i dont have many symtoms left and it also seems like FINALLY the flu-. like symtoms have left after have it for around 5 months lol..


2007 - 2013: was on citalopram (tried to quit a few times, never worked, always went back on. max dose 40mg)

2012-2013: was tapering my citalopram all down to 2,5 mg then quit.
2013/aug: Took  my last pill 

W/D hit me bad after a few weeks off my medicine.

2014/August: 12 months off (much improved)

2015/April: 20months off. ( much improved, still some symtoms comes in waves, but not so intense.)

2015/june: 22months off. FELT different than before, all shakings suddenly stopped, feel much better. a fantastic feeling!

2016/Feb : 2 years and 6 months off, END of my suffering. I feel perfectly fine and back to normal. 
2018/Oct: Iam still feeling great. It is hard to believe my own story when I read back, what I went through!

 

 

 

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Bellisimo

An update:

 

I just want to give you all a little bit of an update about my journey. 11months has passed , im soon at 12 months off SSRI.

I felt that after month 8 something changed inside me, I cant really explain the feeling but i felt it had become so much better and ever since i have felt only better and better.
All my abstiense i had before is gone, all that is left is some shakings, small tremors inside my body. Still cant explain those , guess its abstinense BUT it doesnt bother me anymore bc im so used to them and they are much less then before, i no longer get these big muscle cramps/tremors. I will just let this pass aswell..

 

I can live my life just as i want today, i can go were ever i want , im not scared of get very sick, im not scared of meeting people, i can tolerate very much stress at work, all my brain sensations has stopped, its now very quiet in my brain and no more swooshes (THANK GOD) i can eat whatever i want, i can drink as much coffee/alcohol i want.. sugar etc.. u name it.
 

i can think and act fast, my mind is back on track =)

 

I can just go on of everything that i can do nowdays.. I had a very weird feeling inside my body for 8 months, a feeling like "something is wrong, but i cant tell what" that feeling changed dramatic after 8 months.. I now reqonize myself, i know who iam , what i want etc etc. no more insecure feeling.

 

To all people who fight out there.. i can just say one thing, when i read back in my diary i NEVER EVER thought i could and would feel this good again.. never.. Im just so happy and thankful that i made it this far and i am in this wonderful shape today.

 

I will give u an update when i pass 12 months, a 1 year update yey!


2007 - 2013: was on citalopram (tried to quit a few times, never worked, always went back on. max dose 40mg)

2012-2013: was tapering my citalopram all down to 2,5 mg then quit.
2013/aug: Took  my last pill 

W/D hit me bad after a few weeks off my medicine.

2014/August: 12 months off (much improved)

2015/April: 20months off. ( much improved, still some symtoms comes in waves, but not so intense.)

2015/june: 22months off. FELT different than before, all shakings suddenly stopped, feel much better. a fantastic feeling!

2016/Feb : 2 years and 6 months off, END of my suffering. I feel perfectly fine and back to normal. 
2018/Oct: Iam still feeling great. It is hard to believe my own story when I read back, what I went through!

 

 

 

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Awesome! So happy for you:)


Started Esctialopram (Lexapro) 10mg june 2012. 20mg august 2012.15mg february 2013 - 10mg april 2013 - 5mg may 2013 0mg - 26.june 2013 Crashed mid. august 2013. Reinstated 2mg Escitalopram 22.september 2013 2.5mg 29 september 2013, 3mg 15 november 2013.

First taper from 3mg to 2.7mg 10 may 2014

Micro cuts since then.

Current dose september 2017 1.7mg

Current supplements: Nothing. (GI issues)

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Amazing!!!


The only way out is through.

 

Aug 2013 - Augmentin leading to akathisia

Sept-Nov 2013 - Citalopram 20mg, severe reaction, off at 5mg. Valium 4mg, prn

Oct 2013 - 5 zopiclone tablets, 7.5mg

End Nov 2013-end Feb 2014, Seroquel, top dose 150mg, off at 25mg

End Nov 2013-early march 2014, Zoloft 100mg top dose, off at 25mg

End Dec-2013-early April 2014, lorazepam 1mg prn

April 3rd 2014 zoloft 5mg for a few days. 18/4/14 - zoloft, 1mg. Came off at 0.35 mg,14th June 2014

29 June 2014 - 1mg lorazepam, last ever

29 June 2014 - med free

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Petunia

What a wonderful update Bellisimo :)

 

thank you for letting us know, and do come back and write a success story when you feel ready.


I'm not a doctor.  My comments are not medical advise. These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I've learned. Please discuss your situation with a medical practitioner who has knowledge of tapering and withdrawal...if you are lucky enough to find one.

My Introduction Thread

Full Drug and Withdrawal History

Brief Summary

Several SSRIs for 13 years starting 1997 (for mild to moderate partly situational anxiety) Xanax PRN ~ Various other drugs over the years for side effects

2 month 'taper' off Lexapro 2010

Short acute withdrawal, followed by 2 -3 months of improvement then delayed protracted withdrawal

DX ADHD followed by several years of stimulants and other drugs trying to manage increasing symptoms

Failed reinstatement of Lexapro and trial of Prozac (became suicidal)

May 2013 Found SA, learned about withdrawal, stopped taking drugs...healing begins.

Protracted withdrawal, with a very sensitized nervous system, slowly recovering as time passes

Supplements which have helped: Vitamin C, Magnesium, Taurine

Bad reactions: Many supplements but mostly fish oil and Vitamin D

June 2016 - Started daily juicing, mostly vegetables and lots of greens.

Aug 2016 - Oct 2016 Best window ever, felt almost completely recovered

Oct 2016 -Symptoms returned - bad days and less bad days.

April 2018 - No windows, but significant improvement, it feels like permanent full recovery is close.

VIDEO: Where did the chemical imbalance theory come from?



VIDEO: How are psychiatric diagnoses made?



VIDEO: Why do psychiatric drugs have withdrawal syndromes?



VIDEO: Can psychiatric drugs cause long-lasting negative effects?

VIDEO: Dr. Claire Weekes

 

 

 

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Bella,

Thanks for sharing your journey and the good news.

In a few months I want to be where you are, I'm so glad for you.

Keep rocking!


1999-2004 citalopram 10 to 20mg with 2-3 withdrawal attempts.
2004 fluvoxamine for 4-5 months aprox. Changed to venlafaxine because of the headaches and dizziness.
2005-March 2014 venlafaxine usually starting on 150mg and coming down to 75 or 37.5. Several withdrawal attempts.
In March 2014 I stopped taking 37.5mg of venlafaxine without tapering.

Went through 5 months of confusion, anxiety, insomnia and desperation. From then I am very slowly recovering, on windows and waves.

Symptoms: muscle stiffness and aches, shortness of breath, abdominal pain, memory loss, inability to concentrate or think straight, difficulty to speak, difficulty to read (improving).

Taking omega3, magnesium, calcium, vitamin E and probiotics.

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we need such news from the other side to help us keep going so thank you very much for not forgetting us ;)


Current: Xanax 0.26 (down from 2 mg in 2013), Lexapro 2.85 mg (down from 5 mg 2013)

Amitriptyline (tricyclic AD) and clonazepam for 3 months to treat headache in 1996 
1999. - present Xanax prn up to 3 mg.
2000-2005 Prozac CT twice, 2005-2010 Zoloft CT 3 times, 2010-2013 Escitalopram 10 mg
went from 2.5 to zero on 7 Aug 2013, bad crash 40 days after
reinstated to 5 mg Escitalopram 4Oct 2013 and holding liquid Xanax every 5 hours
28 Jan 2014 Xanax 1.9, 18 Apr  2015 1 mg,  25 June 2015 Lex 4.8, 6 Aug Lexapro 4.6, 1 Jan 2016 0.64  Xanax     9 month hold

24 Sept 2016 4.5 Lex, 17 Oct 4.4 Lex (Nov 0.63 Xanax, Dec 0.625 Xanax), 1 Jan 2017 4.3 Lex, 24 Jan 4.2, 5 Feb 4.1, 24 Mar 4 mg, 10 Apr 3.9 mg, May 3.85, June 3.8, July 3.75, 22 July 3.7, 15 Aug 3.65, 17 Sept 3.6, 1 Jan 2018 3.55, 19 Jan 3.5, 16 Mar 3.4, 14 Apr 3.3, 23 May 3.2, 16 June 3.15, 15 Jul 3.1, 31 Jul 3, 21 Aug 2.9 26 Sept 2.85, 14 Nov Xan 0.61, 1 Dec 0.59, 19 Dec 0.58, 4 Jan 0.565, 6 Feb 0.55, 20 Feb 0.535, 1 Mar 0.505, 10 Mar 0.475, 14 Mar 0.45, 4 Apr 0.415, 13 Apr 0.37, 21 Apr 0.33, 29 Apr 0.29, 10 May 0.27, 17 May 0.25, 28 May 0.22, 19 June 0.22, 21 Jun updose to 0.24, 24 Jun updose to 0.26

Supplements: Omega 3 + Vit E, Vit C, D, magnesium, Taurine, probiotic 

I'm not a medical professional. Any advice I give is based on my own experience and reading. 

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Altostrata

Very good to hear, Bellisimo. Please do come back and visit us.


This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

"It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein

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Altostrata

Bellisimo, how are you doing now?


This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

"It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein

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Bellisimo

An update to you all.

 

I havent been here for quite a while now, i got email from a member here , remembering me of this beautiful site <3

Well imma be honest to you all and myself. I thought i was fully cured, i was good for A LONG Time, but then it started again, i went into a black hole again..

but i can say this time when i fall down, i can handle it really good.. im def. not scared and i know its getting better and better..

 

The symtoms are not intense either, they r fading away.. the symtoms that keep coming back and go is specially the tremors / musclespams / migraine too.

these are the main symtoms.. i havent had panicattacs for moooooonths, insomnia is not a problem longer either, i sleep good, memory is back to 100 % i can concentrate real good and all..

 

I think much more clear now i can sort out symtoms, periods, getting better etc.. When i look back the past year i understand how much i have grown, how much i have learnt about myself and become much stronger..   months ago  iwas like a lill child, crying for mom... cud not be alone, so scared.. i didnt really understand what was happening to me, i just went into hossy screaming for help and asked em what is wrong with me?? no one cud answer me..

 

Im alive, i went thru hell, basically hell! Im trying to support others to survive this hell because grass is totally greener on the other side! I promise.

Today and a few months back i am 100% sure that i will never ever go back to medicine again.. the months before that i was confused what to do..

 

I once read a story and a man said, " even if you are thinking you are in a real bad shape, you have to compare to the time when you were in a really bad shape to know you are getting better" that is so true. I read my diary and convos here and also looking back on the last year, i KNOW im so much better , even tho i get periods im thinking this is bad it cant be compared to how bad i was 8months ago.. and so on.

 

Ive notice also how mind change, i have changed my view of life and people etc more than i have notice myself, its my friends and family etc who telling me and when im thinking of it, i know its true.

 

So, i had a wave again ( its ok and i accept it) .. im just getting up from it now.. tremors are smaller / not so often, vibration is almost gone again, headpressure is fading, spasms etc fading..

 

I also learnt that during this healing i need to stay in focus and stay as neutral as i can be.. to much sorrow and too much happiness cause me tremors. When i get frustrated , if i get real frustrated i get much tremors .. if i get real happy i start to shake looots LOL its weird but i guess its just still too much stimuli for my brain to handle ;p

 

So peps.. im keep going strong, i feel damn strong. and even tho in a wave i can work, go out with friends .. it feels hard sometimes but i can do it, before i couldnt because it was too bad. Im getting there, going for 2 years ssri now =)

 

keep the good work up!

 

NO MORE DRUGS INSIDE MY BODY thats for sure, i have learnt my lesson a million times over and over!

 

I wanna copy a text in here, if its not ok for admin you can take it away, but i think its so exact to these symtoms from ssri that its scary.. I know many withdrawals from benzos are alike ssris, here is the text.
 the text is just about musclessymtoms. I think one of my main problems have been muscle symtoms


BENZODIAZEPINE WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS:

INDIVIDUAL SYMPTOMS, THEIR CAUSES AND HOW TO DEAL WITH THEM

Muscle symptoms. “Benzodiazepines are efficient muscle relaxants and are used clinically for spastic conditions. It is therefore not surprising that their discontinuation after long – term use is associated with a rebound increase in muscle tension. This rebound accounts for many of the symptoms observed in benzodiazepine withdrawal. Muscle stiffness affecting the limbs, back, neck and jaw are commonly reported, and the constant muscle tension probably accounts for the muscle pains with have a similar distribution. Headaches are usually of the “tension headache” type, due to contraction of muscles at the back of the neck, scalp and forehead – often described as a “tight band around the head”. 

“At the same time, the nerves to the muscles are hyper- excitable, leading to tremor, tics, jerks, spasm and twitching, and jumping at the smallest stimulus. All this constant activity contributes to a feeling of fatigue and weakness (“jelly- legs”). 

“None of these symptoms is harmful, and they need not be a cause of worry once they are understood.”

“There are many measures that will alleviate these symptoms, such as muscle stretching exercises as taught in most gyms, moderate exercise, hot baths, massage and general relaxation exercises. Such measures may give only temporary relief at first, but if practiced regularly can speed the recovery of normal muscle tone – which will eventually occur spontaneously.”

These are all well documented symptoms.

 


2007 - 2013: was on citalopram (tried to quit a few times, never worked, always went back on. max dose 40mg)

2012-2013: was tapering my citalopram all down to 2,5 mg then quit.
2013/aug: Took  my last pill 

W/D hit me bad after a few weeks off my medicine.

2014/August: 12 months off (much improved)

2015/April: 20months off. ( much improved, still some symtoms comes in waves, but not so intense.)

2015/june: 22months off. FELT different than before, all shakings suddenly stopped, feel much better. a fantastic feeling!

2016/Feb : 2 years and 6 months off, END of my suffering. I feel perfectly fine and back to normal. 
2018/Oct: Iam still feeling great. It is hard to believe my own story when I read back, what I went through!

 

 

 

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Hi Bella!

 

I'm so sorry to hear about your recent setback but so thrilled to hear that you are so so much better. It's great that your wave was so much milder too.

 

I know how much you suffered and how many times you tried to get off that dreadful drug. You were on the same stupid drug that I reacted to.

 

It's uncanny that you posted the benzo muscle info above because I was reading that very passage elsewhere just before I came here and saw your post! There must be a message in there for me somewhere ...

 

You've always been a massive inspiration to me. So glad you're getting your life back x


The only way out is through.

 

Aug 2013 - Augmentin leading to akathisia

Sept-Nov 2013 - Citalopram 20mg, severe reaction, off at 5mg. Valium 4mg, prn

Oct 2013 - 5 zopiclone tablets, 7.5mg

End Nov 2013-end Feb 2014, Seroquel, top dose 150mg, off at 25mg

End Nov 2013-early march 2014, Zoloft 100mg top dose, off at 25mg

End Dec-2013-early April 2014, lorazepam 1mg prn

April 3rd 2014 zoloft 5mg for a few days. 18/4/14 - zoloft, 1mg. Came off at 0.35 mg,14th June 2014

29 June 2014 - 1mg lorazepam, last ever

29 June 2014 - med free

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Good to hear from you Bella! And I'm glad to hear you're doing great. Even with having another wave, you're doing great. Because having waves is normal, what is important is to have the attitude to ride them out and let the healing continue. And you say that even in a wave you can still work and go out and have your life--that's wonderful, a year ago you would not have been able to do that.

 

You are winning! 

 

Please don't forget us. Come back when you feel ready and write a success story, or write one now. So many people are looking for hope and would be encouraged by your story.

 

Again, I am so pleased to hear how well you're doing.


Started on Prozac and Xanax in 1992 for PTSD after an assault. One drug led to more, the usual story. Got sicker and sicker, but believed I needed the drugs for my "underlying disease". Long story...lost everything. Life savings, home, physical and mental health, relationships, friendships, ability to work, everything. Amitryptiline, Prozac, bupropion, buspirone, flurazepam, diazepam, alprazolam, Paxil, citalopram, lamotrigine, gabapentin...probably more I've forgotten. 

Started multidrug taper in Feb 2010.  Doing a very slow microtaper, down to low doses now and feeling SO much better, getting my old personality and my brain back! Able to work full time, have a full social life, and cope with stress better than ever. Not perfect, but much better. After 23 lost years. Big Pharma has a lot to answer for. And "medicine for profit" is just not a great idea.

 

Feb 15 2010:  300 mg Neurontin  200 Lamictal   10 Celexa      0.65 Xanax   and 5 mg Ambien 

Feb 10 2014:   62 Lamictal    1.1 Celexa         0.135 Xanax    1.8 Valium

Feb 10 2015:   50 Lamictal      0.875 Celexa    0.11 Xanax      1.5 Valium

Feb 15 2016:   47.5 Lamictal   0.75 Celexa      0.0875 Xanax    1.42 Valium    

2/12/20             12                       0.045               0.007                   1 

 

I'm not a doctor. Any advice I give is just my civilian opinion.

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Bellisimo

Hey Rhi

 

yes i will come back and write my successful story when i feel its right time, I promise to do it because i know how important it is, it may save someones life and give them hope.. Hope is what i believe the strongest feeling in this.

I know ive gone thru the worst part.. Even if this adventure changed me , i also feeling myself coming back, the person i was before the drugs.. It feels so clear.. So its more like the medicine changed me, when i was on it i was a total different person what i was before and now. It feels weird but GOOD because i now reconize my feelings.. And even if i have accepted what happened to me, that i actually got real bad from stop this medicine and i do accept the waves that comes, but im finding really hard time accepting all the docs that didnt believe  me, listened to me, and even if they took samples etc i could see it in their eyes, they didnt believe me.. I bascially thought i was going insane, dying, everything same time.. I cant understand how our society can be so unware of this .. how they cannot listen or care.. when i needed em most, they left me alone in my pain.. and my only hope was guys like you.. who knows what would happen to me if i havent found people who gone thru same things. I get scared when i think of it.

 

Soon I will celebrate 16 months off, it feels unbelievble. I never thought i would feel this good today and i didnt think i could survive this long. It felt so slow when i was in the most bad shape, but then when windows comes it goes better and times move on fast.. 16 months,. iam SO proud over myself and just knowing i did it make me wanna cry of happiness. I didnt think i could be so strong that i actually was and are. I think people are much stronger that they think.

 

I hope everyone is ok out there.. just wanted to come in and share my feelings for tonight.

 

Iam a living proof like many others that the symtoms will leave you... in time. You just have to stick to it and go thru it , there are sadly no other ways.


2007 - 2013: was on citalopram (tried to quit a few times, never worked, always went back on. max dose 40mg)

2012-2013: was tapering my citalopram all down to 2,5 mg then quit.
2013/aug: Took  my last pill 

W/D hit me bad after a few weeks off my medicine.

2014/August: 12 months off (much improved)

2015/April: 20months off. ( much improved, still some symtoms comes in waves, but not so intense.)

2015/june: 22months off. FELT different than before, all shakings suddenly stopped, feel much better. a fantastic feeling!

2016/Feb : 2 years and 6 months off, END of my suffering. I feel perfectly fine and back to normal. 
2018/Oct: Iam still feeling great. It is hard to believe my own story when I read back, what I went through!

 

 

 

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Hi Bell

Great to read your news (and your thread which I have not read before, im quite new here)

I, too have to eventually taper off Citalopram. My doctor suggested 5-6 weeks and of course it failed. Then I found this site and realized why!

All the best with your continued healing

 

Simon


. Been on some kind of meds since 1982,mainly on and off things like imipramine.,2000 on75mg venlafaxine til it bottomed out, then 150, also no good. about 7 years. Almost ct from it and put on cocktail of  Cit, Mirt and Lithium. Remained there for 7 years.

Tapered Citalopram in June2014 and was off in 6 weeks. Mood slumped about 6 weeks later. Found this site sept 5th and got some idea why this happens.18th Sept stopped lorezepam and due to misunderstanding with GP was without it for 36 hours which caused a crisis.

from 19thsept 18mg diazepam to replace lorezepam(possible addiction) 24th sept 12 mg diaz per day. 29th sept 10mg diaz per day and tapering at 1-2mg per week. At 5mg will slow down taper. At same time increase of mirtazapine to 45mg per day.

Taking fish oil and magnesium as suggested on this site.

Also have menieres syndrome, a cause of vertigo, vomiting and partial loss of hearing, also very occasional drop attacks.

As of 8th October on; Mirtazapine 45mg, Citalopram 20mg Lithium 500mg Diazepam 6mg (tapering by 2mg per week) Fish oil and magnesium

As of 25th October Mirt 45mg, Citalopram20mg Lithium 700mg Diazepam12mg

As of 12th November Mirt 37.5 Cit.20mg Lithium 700mg Diazepam 8mg (to taper after 14 days by 10%)

As of 17th November Mirt 35mg Cit 18mg Lithium 600mg Diazepam 8mg (to taper after 14 days by 10%)

As of 25th November MIrt 35mg Cit 18mg Lithium 600mg Diazepam 7mg

As of 1st December MIrt 35 Cit 18mg Lithium 600mg         Diazepam 6mg  (been stable for the last 2 weeks)

GP intervention 19 December now on 150 Ven, 37.5 Mirt, 600 Lithium  Diazepam 7mg

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Bellisimo

Thanks alot Simon :) and goodluck to yourself :)


2007 - 2013: was on citalopram (tried to quit a few times, never worked, always went back on. max dose 40mg)

2012-2013: was tapering my citalopram all down to 2,5 mg then quit.
2013/aug: Took  my last pill 

W/D hit me bad after a few weeks off my medicine.

2014/August: 12 months off (much improved)

2015/April: 20months off. ( much improved, still some symtoms comes in waves, but not so intense.)

2015/june: 22months off. FELT different than before, all shakings suddenly stopped, feel much better. a fantastic feeling!

2016/Feb : 2 years and 6 months off, END of my suffering. I feel perfectly fine and back to normal. 
2018/Oct: Iam still feeling great. It is hard to believe my own story when I read back, what I went through!

 

 

 

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Very happy to hear you're doing well. Thank you for your success story Some progress for Bellisimo

 

As is our custom, I will lock this topic -- let your story continue to unfold in our Recovery Success Stories forum.

 

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