ExtraSpearmint Posted April 6, 2022 Share Posted April 6, 2022 Lord Jesus, I pray for your comfort and peace to cover Chlo right now and through the night. I pray for your presence to be so real to her that she knows beyond a doubt that you are with her. In Jesus name, Amen 1 Link to comment
Chlo Posted April 6, 2022 Share Posted April 6, 2022 34 minutes ago, Pollyjay said: Oh, honey, I've been thinking about you all day! I haven't been on here for a few days due to a lot going on and I was actually feeling better. But today something happened which I won't go into on your thread here. Just know that I'm keeping you in my prayers. I know where you are and it's absolutely horrible. Hugs and more hugs! Polly Thank you, I'm praying for you too🤍 1 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
Chlo Posted April 6, 2022 Share Posted April 6, 2022 1 minute ago, ExtraSpearmint said: Lord Jesus, I pray for your comfort and peace to cover Chlo right now and through the night. I pray for your presence to be so real to her that she knows beyond a doubt that you are with her. In Jesus name, Amen Thank you so much🤍 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
Chlo Posted April 6, 2022 Share Posted April 6, 2022 7 hours ago, OldDodgy said: @Chlo Will keep prayers going. Hope your anxiety settles. OD Thank you🤍 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
MadelynA Posted April 6, 2022 Share Posted April 6, 2022 I am not ok. Somehow my life has been reduced to searching for help from internet strangers (though I am so thankful you are here). My heart is broken. My husband is very unsupportive and my marriage is very emotionally unhealthy. I am completely trapped. I think these feelings are normal grief, but it is difficult to tell. I am absolutely overwhelmed with sadness and profound loneliness. I feel so hopelessly lost. 2014-severe postpartum depression, placed on 50mg Zoloft 2015-increase to 75mg Zoloft 2018-attempted to taper off Zoloft with MD guidance, large reductions (25-50%) leading to severe withdrawal 2019- remain on 75mg 10/19-taper to 50mg, somewhat tolerated Beginning of 2020-taper to 3/4 of pill (had no scale) approx. 37.5 mg End of 2020-taper to 25 mg Zoloft (0.07 g pill weight) found SA: 5/20/21- taper to 0.065 g pill weight, no adverse effects 6/20/21-taper to 0.06 g pill weight 7/20/21- taper to 0.055g PW, switch to liquid. 8/21 0.05 g PW 9/21 0.048 PW 10/21 0.045 PW 11/21 0.043 then 0.04 PW 11/21 0.38 PW then O. 032 PW 12/21 0.025 PW 1/22 0.02 PW toggled with 0.025 2/22 0.02 toggled with 0.01 PW 3/22 forgot dose several days in a row, off. Some tearfulness but decided not to updose currently off all meds but supplementing with Mg complex Link to comment
Mentor mstimc Posted April 6, 2022 Mentor Share Posted April 6, 2022 @MadelynA, I am praying for you, for more understanding from your husband, and for healing. I, too, felt very alone during WD and recovery, but you'll be able to rebuild your relationships and self-confidence as you recover. Blessings! Tim C Started Paxil for GAD in 1999 Unsuccessful taper attempt in 2006 Paxilprogress helped with a successful taper completed in 2009 Using therapy and CBT to manage my anxiety Link to comment
Chlo Posted April 6, 2022 Share Posted April 6, 2022 Praying for you ❤ @MadelynA you have come so far. May God's peace shine upon you. Hugs! Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
Kronicles900 Posted April 7, 2022 Share Posted April 7, 2022 Amen! We all got this! God put tough times in our lives to give us the time and space to be humbled and loved. For what it's worth I see all of your struggles and I pray for each and every one of them. I pray that you find the space to forgive yourself and love yourselves (myself included ha). Much love, God Bless and keep up the great work everyone! Link to comment
LizzieTish Posted April 15, 2022 Share Posted April 15, 2022 Praying for everyone on this Good Friday. Happy Easter. 🤗 Psalm 31:24 -- Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord. 2 Lexapro: 2002-2006 (dose unknown) Sertraline: 2006-April 2021 (50 mg/day) with exception of 2 failed discontinuation attempts in previous 5 years. April - Aug 2021 (25 mg/day [half tablet]). Experienced flu-like symptoms in April. Also experienced insomnia and rage/irritability, which eventually subsided. Sept 2021 - Jan 2022 (12.5 mg/day [quarter tablet]). Feb 1-12, 2022 (~10 mg/day). Experienced depression and new onset acute anxiety. Discovered SA.org and realized I was tapering too fast. Feb 13, 2022, dose increased back to 12.5 mg/day to mitigate symptoms. April 2022 (~10 mg/day; switched to liquid formulation). May 2022 (~9 mg/day). Jun-Jul 2022 (~8 mg/day). Aug 2022 (~7 mg/day). Oct 2022 (~6.5 mg/day). Nov 2022 (~6 mg/day). Dec 2022 (~5 mg/day). Holding dose for at least 2-3 months due to crying spells and poor appetite/weight loss. Began taking Mg and fish oil supplements. March 17, 2023 - increased dose to 6 mg/day. Feeling better. May 17, 2023 - decreased dose to 5.5 mg/day. July 22, 2023 - still haven't stabilized. Experiencing excruciating and unrelenting suffering. July 28, 2023 - increased dose to 6/6.5 mg/day August 2, 2023 - increased dose to 7 mg/day due to persistent dread and panic attacks. October 2023 - increased dose to 10 mg/day. January 2024 - Still feel bad despite 10 mg/day dose. Link to comment
Pollyjay Posted April 15, 2022 Share Posted April 15, 2022 2 hours ago, LizzieTish said: Praying for everyone on this Good Friday. Happy Easter. 🤗 Psalm 31:24 -- Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord. Thank you Lizzie! Happy Easter. I'm praying for us all too! 1 65 y/o Female Current meds: Started:26 February, Propranolol 5 mg 8am and 8 pm Started: 11 March 2022, Ativan : 0 .25mg 1pm and 9pm Off Seroquel since early October 2022 Off Lunesta since early September 2022 Other meds: Levothyroxine 50mcg with extra 25mcg Mon. Wed. Fri. Link to comment
Chlo Posted April 15, 2022 Share Posted April 15, 2022 As believers we are going to hear a lot about hope in the next few days. Easter is full of hope. But sometimes it's not that easy. When you feel alone, hope feels far away. When you look around, hope feels like it's for everyone but you. When you face a mountain, hope feels impossible. But God is hope, and He promises to fill us up with the hope we long for through the power of the Holy Spirit living in us. We don't need to find hope on our own. He gives it freely. May your Easter be full of the gift of hope God has for you! Love, prayers, and hugs ✝️ 1 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
Hartattack Posted April 19, 2022 Share Posted April 19, 2022 I have found this page to be particularly helpful. Please everyone, please pray for me. My name is Jake. I severely need help getting through this. I have been off antidepressants for over a year now and somehow managed to get engaged to an incredible woman who is very devout and understands the meaning of suffering and is willing to be with me during this time. But I don't want to make her wait forever to get married, and I really don't want to be depressed and completely out of it on the day of my wedding. Please, please pray for me. For healing and to know God's love and peace. Thank you all so much, I will pray for you all too. Zoloft: 2013- 2015, 50mg; 2016- 2016, 100mg; 2017- 2017, 250mg Prozac: 2018- 2019, 40mg; 2019- Christmas 2020, 80mg tapered down to 0mg over the course of 6 months. Link to comment
Chlo Posted April 19, 2022 Share Posted April 19, 2022 Hello Jake! You are very lucky to have a fiance that understands and loves you enough to stay with you. She understands that these withdrawals are not the real you. The Lord has you both in the palm of his hands and he will see you through this. May the holy spirit guide you into your decision to go through with the wedding. I'm praying for you both right now 🤍 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
FeralCatman Posted April 20, 2022 Share Posted April 20, 2022 I keep a list on my refrigerator that I call the 'Kitty Prayer List'. Surviving Antidepressants is on the list. Kitty prayers to all of you. 😉😻😻😻😻 Current Psychiatric Medications Paxil 10mg daily (a.m.) 2017 - Present Carbamazepine IR 190 mg twice daily (380mg Daily) 2011 - Present (Currently Tapering) Past Psychiatric Medications From 1994 to August 2021 Seroquel (in Recovery since August 2021 final dose 6.25mg), Depakote, Lithium, Risperidone, Xanax, Lamotrigene, Olanzapine, Lorazepam, Welbutrin, Trazodone, Oxazepam, Gabapentin, Abilify, Topiramate, Prazosin, Ambien (See Attached Spreadsheet And Seroquel Tapering And WIthdrawal Summary) Current Non Psychiatric Medications - Levothyroxine 88mcg (a.m.)-Vitamin D3 1000 IU (p.m.)-Fexofenadine 180 mg twice daily -Clonidine 0.1 mg (p.m.)-Azelastine Nasal Spray Other - Fish Oil Twice Daily-Multi-Vitamin (a.m.)-Vitamin C 1000mg Daily (a.m.)-Saline Nasal Spray-Salsalate 750mg twice daily PRN, Diclofenac Gel on affected joint PRN-Magnesium Citrate 250mg twice daily, Betaine HCL & Digestine Enzymes With Meals Quitting Seroquel_A Vacation In Hell_Redacted.pdf Other Documents https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/26099-feralcatman-recovering-from-seroquel/?do=findComment&comment=633907 Link to comment
Mark840 Posted May 11, 2022 Share Posted May 11, 2022 Need prayer going through anxiety (withdrawal symptom). And also to cope with work issues with this condition. 1 Sep-Dec '12: Cymbalta (60mg), Zyprexa (1.25 mg), Lexappo (5 mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg); Dec '12-Apr '13: Lithium Carbonate Tab (150mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg), Rivotril (1mg); May '13-Feb '15: no record; Mar '15-Aug '21: Cymbalta (60mg), Seroquel XR (50mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg); Jul-Sep '21: switched from private to government psychiatrist who changed my drugs to Cymbalta (60mg), Quentiapine (50mg)(IR); however, Quentiapine (50mg)(IR) led me to poor sleep; Oct '21: Due to poor sleep, I requested Cymbalta (60mg), Olanzapine (2.5mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg, when needed) Critial Stage: Nov '21-Jan '22: ceased drugs voluntarily in Nov '21. No major issue an offensive remark triggered my anger. Anger was intense and lasted unusually long. End of Jan-Feb '22: Doctor reinstated me with Cymbalta (30mg) only on 29 Jan '22. However; without Olanzapine (2.5mg), it caused poor sleep; End of Feb-Jun '22: after too much poor sleep, doctor replaced Cymbalta (30 mg) with Remeron (15 mg); Jul '22: attempted to tapper off slowly by 10% of last dose. It resulted in weird dreams and poor sleep; Aug-17 Nov '22: Resumed exactly 15 mg. My sleep restorerd and no more weird dreams; 17 Nov-11 Dec '22: Started to wake up after 2-4 hours of sleep for unknown reason; 12 Dec '22-May 23: 3-6 hous of sleep, partly due to work stress; Jun-Aug '23: 3.5 to 4.5 hours hours of sleep; Sep '23-present: take mirtazapine in morning and it resolves my insomnia. Link to comment
Chlo Posted May 11, 2022 Share Posted May 11, 2022 17 minutes ago, Mark840 said: Need prayer going through anxiety (withdrawal symptom). And also to cope with work issues with this condition. I am praying for you @Mark840 May God give you the strength and peace you need for today and the days to come. Psalm 23:4 Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me. 2 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
LizzieTish Posted May 11, 2022 Share Posted May 11, 2022 @Mark840, Greetings from New Hampshire, USA. You're in my thoughts and prayers. I hope your anxiety resolves quickly. 🙏🤗💗 1 Lexapro: 2002-2006 (dose unknown) Sertraline: 2006-April 2021 (50 mg/day) with exception of 2 failed discontinuation attempts in previous 5 years. April - Aug 2021 (25 mg/day [half tablet]). Experienced flu-like symptoms in April. Also experienced insomnia and rage/irritability, which eventually subsided. Sept 2021 - Jan 2022 (12.5 mg/day [quarter tablet]). Feb 1-12, 2022 (~10 mg/day). Experienced depression and new onset acute anxiety. Discovered SA.org and realized I was tapering too fast. Feb 13, 2022, dose increased back to 12.5 mg/day to mitigate symptoms. April 2022 (~10 mg/day; switched to liquid formulation). May 2022 (~9 mg/day). Jun-Jul 2022 (~8 mg/day). Aug 2022 (~7 mg/day). Oct 2022 (~6.5 mg/day). Nov 2022 (~6 mg/day). Dec 2022 (~5 mg/day). Holding dose for at least 2-3 months due to crying spells and poor appetite/weight loss. Began taking Mg and fish oil supplements. March 17, 2023 - increased dose to 6 mg/day. Feeling better. May 17, 2023 - decreased dose to 5.5 mg/day. July 22, 2023 - still haven't stabilized. Experiencing excruciating and unrelenting suffering. July 28, 2023 - increased dose to 6/6.5 mg/day August 2, 2023 - increased dose to 7 mg/day due to persistent dread and panic attacks. October 2023 - increased dose to 10 mg/day. January 2024 - Still feel bad despite 10 mg/day dose. Link to comment
Valerio Posted May 11, 2022 Share Posted May 11, 2022 I'm praying for us every single day. 🙏❤️ 2 Past meds: 2013-2019 = 100mg Quetiapine mar20 - aug20 = 50mg Quetiapine aug20 - jun21 = 25mg Quetiapine + 5mg melatonin jun21 - aug21 = 12,5mg Quetiapine + 5mg melatonin aug21 = 6,25mg Quetiapine + 5mg melatonin sep21 - oct21 = 5mg melatonin oct21 - dec21 = 0,5mg Clonazepam + 5mg melatonin 25th dec 21 - 5th jan 22 = 5mg melatonin 5th jan 22 - 17th jan 22 = 0,3mg Clonazepam + 5mg melatonin + 12mg CBD full spectrum 17th jan 22 - 19th fev 22 = 0,2mg Clonazepam + 5mg melatonin 19th fev 22 - 25th fev 22 = 12,5mg Quetiapine Current meds: 01st mar 22 = 50mg Pregablin (Lyrica) 50mg Pregablin = 30 mg 10:30 PM + 12,5mg 10:30 AM + 7,5 mg 5:00 AM 23 mar = 6,25mg Quetiapine / 31 mar = 5,0 mg / 11 apr - until now = 4,0 mg at 04:30AM (Between 15 may - 20 may) 0,5 mg Quetiapine 03:30 AM Link to comment
Mark840 Posted May 11, 2022 Share Posted May 11, 2022 Thanks guys. Sometimes I wish there was an easier way out, like God taking me to heaven unexpectedly, instead of being with me in difficult times. 1 Sep-Dec '12: Cymbalta (60mg), Zyprexa (1.25 mg), Lexappo (5 mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg); Dec '12-Apr '13: Lithium Carbonate Tab (150mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg), Rivotril (1mg); May '13-Feb '15: no record; Mar '15-Aug '21: Cymbalta (60mg), Seroquel XR (50mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg); Jul-Sep '21: switched from private to government psychiatrist who changed my drugs to Cymbalta (60mg), Quentiapine (50mg)(IR); however, Quentiapine (50mg)(IR) led me to poor sleep; Oct '21: Due to poor sleep, I requested Cymbalta (60mg), Olanzapine (2.5mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg, when needed) Critial Stage: Nov '21-Jan '22: ceased drugs voluntarily in Nov '21. No major issue an offensive remark triggered my anger. Anger was intense and lasted unusually long. End of Jan-Feb '22: Doctor reinstated me with Cymbalta (30mg) only on 29 Jan '22. However; without Olanzapine (2.5mg), it caused poor sleep; End of Feb-Jun '22: after too much poor sleep, doctor replaced Cymbalta (30 mg) with Remeron (15 mg); Jul '22: attempted to tapper off slowly by 10% of last dose. It resulted in weird dreams and poor sleep; Aug-17 Nov '22: Resumed exactly 15 mg. My sleep restorerd and no more weird dreams; 17 Nov-11 Dec '22: Started to wake up after 2-4 hours of sleep for unknown reason; 12 Dec '22-May 23: 3-6 hous of sleep, partly due to work stress; Jun-Aug '23: 3.5 to 4.5 hours hours of sleep; Sep '23-present: take mirtazapine in morning and it resolves my insomnia. Link to comment
Chlo Posted May 11, 2022 Share Posted May 11, 2022 3 minutes ago, Mark840 said: Thanks guys. Sometimes I wish there was an easier way out, like God taking me to heaven unexpectedly, instead of being with me in difficult times. I'm pretty sure we have all felt that way, but it's not God's plan for us. He suffered as well. I pray you stay focused on him. He is our peace and our strength 🤍 2 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
Valerio Posted May 11, 2022 Share Posted May 11, 2022 11 minutes ago, Mark840 said: Thanks guys. Sometimes I wish there was an easier way out, like God taking me to heaven unexpectedly, instead of being with me in difficult times. I've been thinking the same 😞. And also praying a lot for a miracle. 2 Past meds: 2013-2019 = 100mg Quetiapine mar20 - aug20 = 50mg Quetiapine aug20 - jun21 = 25mg Quetiapine + 5mg melatonin jun21 - aug21 = 12,5mg Quetiapine + 5mg melatonin aug21 = 6,25mg Quetiapine + 5mg melatonin sep21 - oct21 = 5mg melatonin oct21 - dec21 = 0,5mg Clonazepam + 5mg melatonin 25th dec 21 - 5th jan 22 = 5mg melatonin 5th jan 22 - 17th jan 22 = 0,3mg Clonazepam + 5mg melatonin + 12mg CBD full spectrum 17th jan 22 - 19th fev 22 = 0,2mg Clonazepam + 5mg melatonin 19th fev 22 - 25th fev 22 = 12,5mg Quetiapine Current meds: 01st mar 22 = 50mg Pregablin (Lyrica) 50mg Pregablin = 30 mg 10:30 PM + 12,5mg 10:30 AM + 7,5 mg 5:00 AM 23 mar = 6,25mg Quetiapine / 31 mar = 5,0 mg / 11 apr - until now = 4,0 mg at 04:30AM (Between 15 may - 20 may) 0,5 mg Quetiapine 03:30 AM Link to comment
Kronicles900 Posted May 11, 2022 Share Posted May 11, 2022 @Mark840 You're in my thoughts and prayers! May you find any peace you can! When you get in a depressed thought pattern try your best to find 3 things your grateful for. It won't fix the bad but it will help refocus the mind! God bless you brother! Link to comment
Mentor mstimc Posted May 11, 2022 Mentor Share Posted May 11, 2022 2 hours ago, Mark840 said: Thanks guys. Sometimes I wish there was an easier way out, like God taking me to heaven unexpectedly, instead of being with me in difficult times. Mark, its been my experience that the Good Lord sends us what we need exactly when we need it; not a moment before or a moment after. Most of the time, we don't see the truth in that until its behind us. Positive thoughts and prayers to you! 1 Tim C Started Paxil for GAD in 1999 Unsuccessful taper attempt in 2006 Paxilprogress helped with a successful taper completed in 2009 Using therapy and CBT to manage my anxiety Link to comment
SelmaLady Posted May 11, 2022 Share Posted May 11, 2022 Please pray for me to endure. I am beyond any strength that I have. I can't live in this much agony. I know that Jesus suffered this badly in His death and I know that He can carry me. But the pain of what I am going through is truly more than humanly possible to endure. I need hope that He will bring me through. 1971-81 Valium 5mg c/t PAWS 1992- through now Zoloft 25mg 2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off 2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS 2013 O/D Val 230mg 2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zoloft 25mg 3/15/16 Doxepin 49mg Micro Tapering Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper 3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 - Decreasing incrementally. DISCONTINUED 10/9/16 Doxepin 48.9 Zoloft 24.3 Clonidine 01.10 Continuing micro taper on Doxepin. 11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg Zoloft 24.3mg Clonidine 1.30mg 5/4/17 Doxepin 45mg Zoloft 24mg Clonidine 1.20mg Micro taper of Doxepin , Clonidine 01/13/19 Doxepin 45mg Zoloft 21mg Will start Micro taper of Doxepin 2/19 12/21/21 Doxepin 20 mg ? Reducing using water micro taper--Pulling 24ml from 75ml 12/2121 Zoloft .060 grams by weight--HOLDING (info from post added by CC: On 12/21/21 my dosage was .060grams by weight or 20mg. ) 26 Apr 2022 - Zoloft at -0- Link to comment
LizzieTish Posted May 11, 2022 Share Posted May 11, 2022 @selmaLady, Sending you a virtual hug from New Hampshire. You're in my thoughts and prayers. I wish we could all be near each other for support. Stay focused on Jesus and know that your pain will subside. 🤗🙏💗 2 Lexapro: 2002-2006 (dose unknown) Sertraline: 2006-April 2021 (50 mg/day) with exception of 2 failed discontinuation attempts in previous 5 years. April - Aug 2021 (25 mg/day [half tablet]). Experienced flu-like symptoms in April. Also experienced insomnia and rage/irritability, which eventually subsided. Sept 2021 - Jan 2022 (12.5 mg/day [quarter tablet]). Feb 1-12, 2022 (~10 mg/day). Experienced depression and new onset acute anxiety. Discovered SA.org and realized I was tapering too fast. Feb 13, 2022, dose increased back to 12.5 mg/day to mitigate symptoms. April 2022 (~10 mg/day; switched to liquid formulation). May 2022 (~9 mg/day). Jun-Jul 2022 (~8 mg/day). Aug 2022 (~7 mg/day). Oct 2022 (~6.5 mg/day). Nov 2022 (~6 mg/day). Dec 2022 (~5 mg/day). Holding dose for at least 2-3 months due to crying spells and poor appetite/weight loss. Began taking Mg and fish oil supplements. March 17, 2023 - increased dose to 6 mg/day. Feeling better. May 17, 2023 - decreased dose to 5.5 mg/day. July 22, 2023 - still haven't stabilized. Experiencing excruciating and unrelenting suffering. July 28, 2023 - increased dose to 6/6.5 mg/day August 2, 2023 - increased dose to 7 mg/day due to persistent dread and panic attacks. October 2023 - increased dose to 10 mg/day. January 2024 - Still feel bad despite 10 mg/day dose. Link to comment
Chlo Posted May 11, 2022 Share Posted May 11, 2022 15 minutes ago, SelmaLady said: Please pray for me to endure. I am beyond any strength that I have. I can't live in this much agony. I know that Jesus suffered this badly in His death and I know that He can carry me. But the pain of what I am going through is truly more than humanly possible to endure. I need hope that He will bring me through. My sisters in christ @Pollyjay @Moonpie Please help me lift up our SA friends in prayer. @Mark840 @Valerio @SelmaLady Dear God, please give us strength when we are weak, love when we feel forsaken, courage when we are afraid, wisdom when we feel foolish, comfort when we are alone, hope when we feel rejected, and peace when we are in turmoil. In Jesus name we pray, Amen. I know there's gonna be some brighter days, I know his love will find you in your pain.. Cry out to him, declare victory over the enemy. Love & Hugs! 2 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
Mark840 Posted May 16, 2022 Share Posted May 16, 2022 How do you guys find strength to pray for others? It's so hard with my abnormal anxiety to do so. The anxiety is difficult and disturbing. Will it ever go away for a long time? I wish I can resign from my job and stay at home from life problems. Sep-Dec '12: Cymbalta (60mg), Zyprexa (1.25 mg), Lexappo (5 mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg); Dec '12-Apr '13: Lithium Carbonate Tab (150mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg), Rivotril (1mg); May '13-Feb '15: no record; Mar '15-Aug '21: Cymbalta (60mg), Seroquel XR (50mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg); Jul-Sep '21: switched from private to government psychiatrist who changed my drugs to Cymbalta (60mg), Quentiapine (50mg)(IR); however, Quentiapine (50mg)(IR) led me to poor sleep; Oct '21: Due to poor sleep, I requested Cymbalta (60mg), Olanzapine (2.5mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg, when needed) Critial Stage: Nov '21-Jan '22: ceased drugs voluntarily in Nov '21. No major issue an offensive remark triggered my anger. Anger was intense and lasted unusually long. End of Jan-Feb '22: Doctor reinstated me with Cymbalta (30mg) only on 29 Jan '22. However; without Olanzapine (2.5mg), it caused poor sleep; End of Feb-Jun '22: after too much poor sleep, doctor replaced Cymbalta (30 mg) with Remeron (15 mg); Jul '22: attempted to tapper off slowly by 10% of last dose. It resulted in weird dreams and poor sleep; Aug-17 Nov '22: Resumed exactly 15 mg. My sleep restorerd and no more weird dreams; 17 Nov-11 Dec '22: Started to wake up after 2-4 hours of sleep for unknown reason; 12 Dec '22-May 23: 3-6 hous of sleep, partly due to work stress; Jun-Aug '23: 3.5 to 4.5 hours hours of sleep; Sep '23-present: take mirtazapine in morning and it resolves my insomnia. Link to comment
OldDodgy Posted May 16, 2022 Share Posted May 16, 2022 @Mark840 Hi. when I just feel too weary or am struggling to pray urgently or intelligently for someone, I know God understands and I leave my desire to do so with Him Sorry if it’s not the brightest of replies, but just that I to have this issue also. OD My Intro topic. Was Dickie in FB gabapentinoids 2020 January Stopped Quetiapine 150 at night in a fairly chaotic fashion with holds, jumping at 6mg 2020 June Stopped Pregabalin 150 at night using Ashton Method Some holds. 2021 December Stopped Mirtazipine 15 using Ashton Method. (Slower at end). Nov 21 - Given Quetiapine 12.5 for sleep. Reduced mid March 2022 to 6mg - Off 30/5/22 Feb 2022 Ongoing Diazepam 17.5, Blip at Christmas when took 22.5mg for a few days, now 24 FEB Stable 17.5 as advised. Had long covid. Now going to 16.25 from 8/7/22. 7% drop Oxazepam 10mg.STOPPED 10th FEB 2022 “Rescue dose x 2 in 2 months. Buccastem 3mg less than 1 a month for nausea. Past meds since 1969 -Approx dates only available. Tranxene 15, Clomipramine 150 for about 25 years. 1993 Paroxetine 20 AD change. Diazepam 20mg swap from Tranxene. Oxazepam 10mg Prn since 1990's 1995 Trial of MAOIS. 2000 Escitaopram 10mg. 2015 trial of Trazadone. 2004 Pregabalin 150 at night. 2015 Started on Quetiapine 150 note, Mirtazipine 15 note. Diazepam increased to 30mg split dosing. Link to comment
Mark840 Posted May 16, 2022 Share Posted May 16, 2022 That reminds me of the verse that the Holy Spirit prays for us when we do not know what to do. Thanks @OldDodgy I appreciate it. 1 Sep-Dec '12: Cymbalta (60mg), Zyprexa (1.25 mg), Lexappo (5 mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg); Dec '12-Apr '13: Lithium Carbonate Tab (150mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg), Rivotril (1mg); May '13-Feb '15: no record; Mar '15-Aug '21: Cymbalta (60mg), Seroquel XR (50mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg); Jul-Sep '21: switched from private to government psychiatrist who changed my drugs to Cymbalta (60mg), Quentiapine (50mg)(IR); however, Quentiapine (50mg)(IR) led me to poor sleep; Oct '21: Due to poor sleep, I requested Cymbalta (60mg), Olanzapine (2.5mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg, when needed) Critial Stage: Nov '21-Jan '22: ceased drugs voluntarily in Nov '21. No major issue an offensive remark triggered my anger. Anger was intense and lasted unusually long. End of Jan-Feb '22: Doctor reinstated me with Cymbalta (30mg) only on 29 Jan '22. However; without Olanzapine (2.5mg), it caused poor sleep; End of Feb-Jun '22: after too much poor sleep, doctor replaced Cymbalta (30 mg) with Remeron (15 mg); Jul '22: attempted to tapper off slowly by 10% of last dose. It resulted in weird dreams and poor sleep; Aug-17 Nov '22: Resumed exactly 15 mg. My sleep restorerd and no more weird dreams; 17 Nov-11 Dec '22: Started to wake up after 2-4 hours of sleep for unknown reason; 12 Dec '22-May 23: 3-6 hous of sleep, partly due to work stress; Jun-Aug '23: 3.5 to 4.5 hours hours of sleep; Sep '23-present: take mirtazapine in morning and it resolves my insomnia. Link to comment
SelmaLady Posted May 16, 2022 Share Posted May 16, 2022 1 hour ago, Mark840 said: That reminds me of the verse that the Holy Spirit prays for us when we do not know what to do. Thanks @OldDodgy I appreciate it. Yes. I often ask the Holy Spirit to pray for me. I am in such a tormented place and when I pray, most of my prayers are just "please God". 3 1971-81 Valium 5mg c/t PAWS 1992- through now Zoloft 25mg 2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off 2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS 2013 O/D Val 230mg 2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zoloft 25mg 3/15/16 Doxepin 49mg Micro Tapering Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper 3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 - Decreasing incrementally. DISCONTINUED 10/9/16 Doxepin 48.9 Zoloft 24.3 Clonidine 01.10 Continuing micro taper on Doxepin. 11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg Zoloft 24.3mg Clonidine 1.30mg 5/4/17 Doxepin 45mg Zoloft 24mg Clonidine 1.20mg Micro taper of Doxepin , Clonidine 01/13/19 Doxepin 45mg Zoloft 21mg Will start Micro taper of Doxepin 2/19 12/21/21 Doxepin 20 mg ? Reducing using water micro taper--Pulling 24ml from 75ml 12/2121 Zoloft .060 grams by weight--HOLDING (info from post added by CC: On 12/21/21 my dosage was .060grams by weight or 20mg. ) 26 Apr 2022 - Zoloft at -0- Link to comment
Pollyjay Posted May 16, 2022 Share Posted May 16, 2022 On 4/18/2022 at 9:04 PM, Hartattack said: I have found this page to be particularly helpful. Please everyone, please pray for me. My name is Jake. I severely need help getting through this. I have been off antidepressants for over a year now and somehow managed to get engaged to an incredible woman who is very devout and understands the meaning of suffering and is willing to be with me during this time. But I don't want to make her wait forever to get married, and I really don't want to be depressed and completely out of it on the day of my wedding. Please, please pray for me. For healing and to know God's love and peace. Thank you all so much, I will pray for you all too. I'm praying for you and your wonderful lady, Jake. I pray that you will be relieved of your suffering and that you'll both have a long and happy life together filled with a mutual love, care and understanding. Hugs to you both, Pollyjay 65 y/o Female Current meds: Started:26 February, Propranolol 5 mg 8am and 8 pm Started: 11 March 2022, Ativan : 0 .25mg 1pm and 9pm Off Seroquel since early October 2022 Off Lunesta since early September 2022 Other meds: Levothyroxine 50mcg with extra 25mcg Mon. Wed. Fri. Link to comment
Chlo Posted May 16, 2022 Share Posted May 16, 2022 9 hours ago, Mark840 said: How do you guys find strength to pray for others? It's so hard with my abnormal anxiety to do so. The anxiety is difficult and disturbing. Will it ever go away for a long time? I wish I can resign from my job and stay at home from life problems. I find that the Lord give US strength by praying for others. Some how it takes the focus off of ourselves for a little while. Quoting scripture as well. Praying for you🤍 2 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
Pollyjay Posted May 17, 2022 Share Posted May 17, 2022 On 5/11/2022 at 3:00 PM, Chlo said: My sisters in christ @Pollyjay @Moonpie Please help me lift up our SA friends in prayer. @Mark840 @Valerio @SelmaLady Dear God, please give us strength when we are weak, love when we feel forsaken, courage when we are afraid, wisdom when we feel foolish, comfort when we are alone, hope when we feel rejected, and peace when we are in turmoil. In Jesus name we pray, Amen. I know there's gonna be some brighter days, I know his love will find you in your pain.. Cry out to him, declare victory over the enemy. Love & Hugs! I'm sorry I didn't see this sooner! @Mark840 @Valerio and @SelmaLady You are all in my prayers!! Just a few months ago I was praying that the Lord would just take me. I didn't think I could make it through one more day, but slowly, very slowly I started to have a good few minutes here and a better couple of hours there. I pray that each of you will begin to feel some relief from the suffering. If you write a journal, record every little improvement and every small accomplishment. Draw a star or other symbol next to each entry. You will be able to look back and see your progress. I draw a star next to "I vacuumed the living room" or "I washed the dishes" It may not seem like much but it's so easy to forget our little baby steps! For a while, washing the dishes was a major accomplishment. Thank God for every little step forward! I will be keeping each of you in my thoughts and prayers. My husband's mother keeps telling me "Prayer changes things" . It does! God is watching over us and bringing us slowly through this dark tunnel, you're not alone, we will get through this together supporting and praying for each other along the way. Hugs to you all. Pollyjay 1 65 y/o Female Current meds: Started:26 February, Propranolol 5 mg 8am and 8 pm Started: 11 March 2022, Ativan : 0 .25mg 1pm and 9pm Off Seroquel since early October 2022 Off Lunesta since early September 2022 Other meds: Levothyroxine 50mcg with extra 25mcg Mon. Wed. Fri. Link to comment
Chlo Posted May 17, 2022 Share Posted May 17, 2022 19 minutes ago, Pollyjay said: I'm sorry I didn't see this sooner! @Mark840 @Valerio and @SelmaLady You are all in my prayers!! Just a few months ago I was praying that the Lord would just take me. I didn't think I could make it through one more day, but slowly, very slowly I started to have a good few minutes here and a better couple of hours there. I pray that each of you will begin to feel some relief from the suffering. If you write a journal, record every little improvement and every small accomplishment. Draw a star or other symbol next to each entry. You will be able to look back and see your progress. I draw a star next to "I vacuumed the living room" or "I washed the dishes" It may not seem like much but it's so easy to forget our little baby steps! For a while, washing the dishes was a major accomplishment. Thank God for every little step forward! I will be keeping each of you in my thoughts and prayers. My husband's mother keeps telling me "Prayer changes things" . It does! God is watching over us and bringing us slowly through this dark tunnel, you're not alone, we will get through this together supporting and praying for each other along the way. Hugs to you all. Pollyjay I love you! @Pollyjay You are so right, the Lord will see to it that we will get through this with our faith in him and the support of our SA friends. Take heart and know that our God is with us❤ BIG HUGS TO YOU ALL~ 1 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
Pollyjay Posted May 17, 2022 Share Posted May 17, 2022 Now it's my turn to need prayers. I just can't stop crying. I'm exhausted from it. Our son isn't feeling well - very down and depressed due to his epilepsy issues. I'm so worried that he'll end up on these medications. I'm just scared to death for him. I feel like my nerves will never recover. Then today, I had to deal with some paperwork regarding my Dad's will and the probate/estate settlement back home in England. It's such a long process and every time I have to think about it I break down and get so anxious. I don't know when I'll ever get strong enough to handle it all without falling apart. I miss my parents so much! Chlo, are you doing better with the crying. I just can't seem to get a grip at all. Please pray that God will give me more strength to get through all this worry and grief. Thank you. 65 y/o Female Current meds: Started:26 February, Propranolol 5 mg 8am and 8 pm Started: 11 March 2022, Ativan : 0 .25mg 1pm and 9pm Off Seroquel since early October 2022 Off Lunesta since early September 2022 Other meds: Levothyroxine 50mcg with extra 25mcg Mon. Wed. Fri. Link to comment
Mentor Moonpie Posted May 17, 2022 Mentor Share Posted May 17, 2022 @PollyjayPraying for you right now!!! 1 .025 Xanax 3 x daily Start date 10-13-2013 through 8-13-2014. Started tapering 6-2014 to 8-2014. Some small discomfort. 25 mg Zoloft - Start date 5-1-2014. 50mg. 6-2014. through 7-14-2014 . Started tapering 7-14-2014, stopped tapering 10-2014. I did 1/4 of the dose a month. small discomfort. These next 3 were prescribed when I made some seriously bad choices with my thyroid medication. Was in ER twice for possible heart attack. INTENSE anxiety, panic, fear. Lost 30 pounds in 2 weeks. Thyroid levels bounced to extremes for 8 months. Dr. prescribed Zoloft 50mg 9-2105. After 2 doses had a bad reaction passed out in my bedroom. Also prescribed Xanax .025 at the same time. 3 times daily, 4 if needed. Was only on it about 2 weeks. Was not working. Trip ER they gave me an Ativan IV and it worked and lasted. switched to Ativan. 9-24-2016. 1.5 mg Ativan - .5 mg three x daily -start date 9/24/16. Attempted taper start 12-16-2016. Was shaving Pills and alternating tapering AM, PM and midday dose weekly. Buspar .5mg -2.5mg. am and 2. 5mg. pm start date 9-26-2016 . Lexapro .10mg start date - 10-26-2016. Found SA and began 10/14/2017 tapering .001 by weight of pill every 4 days Held longer if there were was WD. Was very sensitive to Ativan. 3-15-2018 Off midday dose - 7-16-2018 Off PM dose - OFF ATIVAN! 11-17-2018 10 mg. Lexapro. PM - 5 mg start date 10/11/2016 increased to 10 mg 2/2/17. 1-1-2019 Began tapering Lexapro. .001 gm every 4 days. Held longer if there was WD. Last doses some I held a month. OFF LEXAPRO! 2-21 2021 5 mg. Buspar divided into two, 2.5 mg doses AM and PM- Start date 9/26/2016 Cold turkey on Dr. direction, AM and Pm doses. Reinstated 9-22-16. Began Buspar taper 1-29-23, .001 mg by weight of pills. N.P. Desiccated Thyroid. 1-2023 Labs okay but not where I feel best. 60 mg. daily now but adding 15 mg. more twice weekly for a few months then check. Bioidentical hormones. Bi-est/Prog cream, 1/4 tsp. 1 time daily My intro: Moonpie:. Need help and supporting tapering off of Ativan My benzo thread: Moonpie: Need help Ativan weight tapering Link to comment
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