Mark840 Posted October 28, 2022 Share Posted October 28, 2022 Pray for rest in the weekend. I am tired and feaful of work issues. I try praying to Father but I feel I am talking to myself. Why can't God speak audibly like in the Old Testament? 1 Sep-Dec '12: Cymbalta (60mg), Zyprexa (1.25 mg), Lexappo (5 mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg); Dec '12-Apr '13: Lithium Carbonate Tab (150mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg), Rivotril (1mg); May '13-Feb '15: no record; Mar '15-Aug '21: Cymbalta (60mg), Seroquel XR (50mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg); Jul-Sep '21: switched from private to government psychiatrist who changed my drugs to Cymbalta (60mg), Quentiapine (50mg)(IR); however, Quentiapine (50mg)(IR) led me to poor sleep; Oct '21: Due to poor sleep, I requested Cymbalta (60mg), Olanzapine (2.5mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg, when needed) Critial Stage: Nov '21-Jan '22: ceased drugs voluntarily in Nov '21. No major issue an offensive remark triggered my anger. Anger was intense and lasted unusually long. End of Jan-Feb '22: Doctor reinstated me with Cymbalta (30mg) only on 29 Jan '22. However; without Olanzapine (2.5mg), it caused poor sleep; End of Feb-Jun '22: after too much poor sleep, doctor replaced Cymbalta (30 mg) with Remeron (15 mg); Jul '22: attempted to tapper off slowly by 10% of last dose. It resulted in weird dreams and poor sleep; Aug-17 Nov '22: Resumed exactly 15 mg. My sleep restorerd and no more weird dreams; 17 Nov-11 Dec '22: Started to wake up after 2-4 hours of sleep for unknown reason; 12 Dec '22-May 23: 3-6 hous of sleep, partly due to work stress; Jun-Aug '23: 3.5 to 4.5 hours of sleep; Sep '23-present: take mirtazapine in morning and it resolves my insomnia. Link to comment
Chlo Posted October 28, 2022 Share Posted October 28, 2022 1 hour ago, Mark840 said: Pray for rest in the weekend. I am tired and feaful of work issues. I try praying to Father but I feel I am talking to myself. Why can't God speak audibly like in the Old Testament? He hears your prayers, you just have to believe and keep the faith. FAITH the size of a mustard seed will carry you through. 🙏 3 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
Mentor mstimc Posted October 28, 2022 Mentor Share Posted October 28, 2022 1 hour ago, Mark840 said: Pray for rest in the weekend. I am tired and feaful of work issues. I try praying to Father but I feel I am talking to myself. Why can't God speak audibly like in the Old Testament? God speaks to us in ways we don't always recognize at first. Even in the Old Testament, He came in thunder and lightning, and then in a whisper. I think one of the Psalms says "He parted the Red Sea but left no footprints in the sand." When is was going through WD and recovery, I prayed every morning and night, and often doubted my prayers were heard. Looking back, I realize now it was He who got me up every day and kept me going--for just one more day--and gave me the strength to get through it. Prayers to you! 2 Tim C Started Paxil for GAD in 1999 Unsuccessful taper attempt in 2006 Paxilprogress helped with a successful taper completed in 2009 Using therapy and CBT to manage my anxiety Link to comment
OldDodgy Posted October 28, 2022 Share Posted October 28, 2022 @Mark840 Feel His peace my friend— He is close at hand. OD 2 My Intro topic. Was Dickie in FB gabapentinoids 2020 January Stopped Quetiapine 150 at night in a fairly chaotic fashion with holds, jumping at 6mg 2020 June Stopped Pregabalin 150 at night using Ashton Method Some holds. 2021 December Stopped Mirtazipine 15 using Ashton Method. (Slower at end). Nov 21 - Given Quetiapine 12.5 for sleep. Reduced mid March 2022 to 6mg - Off 30/5/22 Feb 2022 Ongoing Diazepam 17.5, Blip at Christmas when took 22.5mg for a few days, now 24 FEB Stable 17.5 as advised. Had long covid. Now going to 16.25 from 8/7/22. 7% drop Oxazepam 10mg.STOPPED 10th FEB 2022 “Rescue dose x 2 in 2 months. Buccastem 3mg less than 1 a month for nausea. Past meds since 1969 -Approx dates only available. Tranxene 15, Clomipramine 150 for about 25 years. 1993 Paroxetine 20 AD change. Diazepam 20mg swap from Tranxene. Oxazepam 10mg Prn since 1990's 1995 Trial of MAOIS. 2000 Escitaopram 10mg. 2015 trial of Trazadone. 2004 Pregabalin 150 at night. 2015 Started on Quetiapine 150 note, Mirtazipine 15 note. Diazepam increased to 30mg split dosing. Link to comment
Mentor FindRest Posted October 28, 2022 Mentor Share Posted October 28, 2022 (edited) Asking for prayers. My little brother died a few weeks ago. I was very close to him. We talked on the phone, usually daily, sometimes multiple times a day especially towards the end of his life. Am struggling with guilt, loss, grief, along with my own chronic pain. It’s all too much. Am also struggling with God. My brother recently became on fire for the Lord. We prayed together hours before his death. I don’t understand where God was or why He allowed this to happen. Maybe it’s easier to blame God rather than beat myself up for not seeing the clues. So, please pray for peace and for physical healing of my chronic jaw/face pain. Dealing with all of this is overwhelming. I’ve been through a lot in my life, but this seems almost more than I can bear. Thank you. Edited October 29, 2022 by ChessieCat edited content 1988-1996 Various AD’s, all classifications. 1996-2019 Effexor XR 37.5mg to 150mg. Jan 2017 onward, 37.5 mg. 2019 Apr 11 - July 24: Trials of Latuda then Rexulti. CT'd off per dr. Jul 24: CT Effexor (per dr) Sep 9-19: Viibryd, CT (per dr). Sep 23-27: Trintellix. CT (per dr). Sep 28 - Oct 24: Prozac 10mg. Oct 24: Stop Prozac, began Pristiq 25mg->50->25mg. 2020 Feb 1: CT Pristiq. Feb 1: Reinstated Effexor XR (10 large beads) gradually increasing to 22 beads (15L+7M) or 9.072mgai on Mar, 2020. 2021 Started Jan w 21 beads (13L+8M) or 8.47mgai ended Dec: 17 beads (7L+9M+1S) or 6.19mgai. Severe COVID + TIA. 2022 Ended yr w 14 beads (3L+5M+5S+1XS) or 4.5mgai. Major jaw injury during year + family tragedy. 2023 Jan: 13 beads (2L+5M+5S+1XS) or 4.2mgai; Feb: 12 beads (2L+4M+5S+1XS) or 3.9mgai; Mar: 11 beads (2L+4M+4S+1XS) or 3.6mgai, Apr: 10 beads (2L+3M+4S+1XS) or 3.3mgai; Jun: 9 beads (2L+3M+3S+1XS) or 3mgai, Current: July, 2023: Effexor XR - 9 beads (2L+3M+3S+1XS) or 2.7 mgai Other current meds: Ambien 10mg 3.935mg , clonazepam .125mg .107mg, omeprazole, Synthroid, Premarin. Supplements: D3, C, probiotic, K2-MK7, Mg Glycinate Link to comment
gigi63 Posted October 29, 2022 Share Posted October 29, 2022 Our Lord has promised to bear us up. He has promised. I am so sorry for your huge loss. My heart breaks. Even when we cannot make sense of any of this….let our Lord Jesus hold you close. Relinquish all and cast yourself on Him. He alone is truth and faithful. He will never let you go. Link to comment
PortugueseSea Posted October 30, 2022 Share Posted October 30, 2022 I pray your brother has found the peace he missed in life in Our Lord's embrace. Let His love soothe you in this difficult time. He is here for you and always will be. December 2021 - Metoclopramide started. Akathisia symptoms start; Metoclopramide gets changed to PRN. March 2022 - Akathisia diagnosed; Metoclopramide stopped; Propranolol 10mg x twice a day. Biperiden PRN (0.5mg to 1mg). April 2022 - Tandospirone 30mg (10mg 3x day), Quetiapine 25mg (only taken once, immediate adr). Mirtazapine 7.5mg. . Discontinued Propranolol. May 2022 - Mirtazapine upped to 15mg. Tandospirone cut to 2x 10mg. Low dose Depakote for the month; 100 to 200 to 100 to 0. Mirtazapine cut back to 11.75mg (3/4 of a 15mg pill).June 2022 - Mirtazapine updose to 15mg. Tandospirone, Biperiden discontinued. Klonopin started PRN (0.5mg). September 2022 - Akathisia slowly starts improving, WD/ADR normal sets in in mid September. Hold for 4 months.March 2023 - Off mirtazapine; no Klonopin for 5 months either! Started quercetin (250mg x 2) to soften the histamine rebound. May 2023 - Stopped quercetin and changed from magnesium carbonate to oxide - reacted badly. Reverted back to carbonate. June 2023 - Added fish oil.Current regimen: CALM Magnesium (Carbonate into Citrate) 175mg x2; Vitamin E 268mg x2; Fish oil (100mg Omega3; EPA 30mg; DHA 37mg)x2 Intro thread: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/27095-portuguesesea-metoclopramide-akathisia-and-mirtazapine/ Link to comment
tiredtess Posted November 3, 2022 Share Posted November 3, 2022 really think i am deaf to the words of God if and when he speaks to me. I want to hear and i want to listen. I belive i had a calling in my younger years but life and my mental health got in the way. Now I feel on the outside of God's circle. I have so much fear and anxiety eating away at me inside and am sure God is there to help and comfort me but I am deaf and can't see it. It all makes me feel very lonely and sad. Love n hugs to all ADs for over 50 yrs most of that time on Parstelin an MAOI. Also ECT and anti psychotic drugs in the 1970s. In recent years have taken Citalopram for a short time then Venlafaxine + ER 75mg then 37.5. + Mirtazapine. Tapered down from that over many months. Suggested by another group to bridge to Fluoxetine as supposedly withdrawal affects less than with Venlafaxine. 26/06/23. Off Venlafaxine but still on 20mg Fluoxetine. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted November 3, 2022 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted November 3, 2022 58 minutes ago, tiredtess said: really think i am deaf to the words of God if and when he speaks to me. I want to hear and i want to listen. I suggest you read your Bible without any expectations, just read it with curiosity. If you cannot read then there are plenty of audio Bibles available. When I was struggling with my faith I found it helpful to listen to this type of thing. I found learning about Biblical geography made the Bible come alive and I would suggest that you watch the first one before doing the Unlocking the OT and NT. The second one is a university course but is very interesting and the lecturers are very good: Satellite Bible Atlas Regional Geography PLAYLIST Drs. Perry and Elaine Phillips, Historical Geography of Israel PLAYLIST https://www.davidpawson.org/resources/category/unlocking-the-bible/unlocking-the-old-testament/ https://www.davidpawson.org/resources/category/unlocking-the-bible/unlocking-the-new-testament/ These are excellent. Bruce Gore is a history teacher in a Christian school and author and he has recorded his lecturer for senior students. Click on the Topics and select from the drop down list: https://www.brucegore.com 1 * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Mark840 Posted November 30, 2022 Share Posted November 30, 2022 Hi everyone, For unknown reason, I have trouble maintaining sleep. I wake up after 3 hours about 2 a.m. at night. It has been like this since 17 November. I cannot identify the problem. Please pray I will get my sleep back and able to manage day to day work. Sep-Dec '12: Cymbalta (60mg), Zyprexa (1.25 mg), Lexappo (5 mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg); Dec '12-Apr '13: Lithium Carbonate Tab (150mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg), Rivotril (1mg); May '13-Feb '15: no record; Mar '15-Aug '21: Cymbalta (60mg), Seroquel XR (50mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg); Jul-Sep '21: switched from private to government psychiatrist who changed my drugs to Cymbalta (60mg), Quentiapine (50mg)(IR); however, Quentiapine (50mg)(IR) led me to poor sleep; Oct '21: Due to poor sleep, I requested Cymbalta (60mg), Olanzapine (2.5mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg, when needed) Critial Stage: Nov '21-Jan '22: ceased drugs voluntarily in Nov '21. No major issue an offensive remark triggered my anger. Anger was intense and lasted unusually long. End of Jan-Feb '22: Doctor reinstated me with Cymbalta (30mg) only on 29 Jan '22. However; without Olanzapine (2.5mg), it caused poor sleep; End of Feb-Jun '22: after too much poor sleep, doctor replaced Cymbalta (30 mg) with Remeron (15 mg); Jul '22: attempted to tapper off slowly by 10% of last dose. It resulted in weird dreams and poor sleep; Aug-17 Nov '22: Resumed exactly 15 mg. My sleep restorerd and no more weird dreams; 17 Nov-11 Dec '22: Started to wake up after 2-4 hours of sleep for unknown reason; 12 Dec '22-May 23: 3-6 hous of sleep, partly due to work stress; Jun-Aug '23: 3.5 to 4.5 hours of sleep; Sep '23-present: take mirtazapine in morning and it resolves my insomnia. Link to comment
OldDodgy Posted November 30, 2022 Share Posted November 30, 2022 Ditto. Up since 2 am. will pray you cope today and sleep tonight D 1 My Intro topic. Was Dickie in FB gabapentinoids 2020 January Stopped Quetiapine 150 at night in a fairly chaotic fashion with holds, jumping at 6mg 2020 June Stopped Pregabalin 150 at night using Ashton Method Some holds. 2021 December Stopped Mirtazipine 15 using Ashton Method. (Slower at end). Nov 21 - Given Quetiapine 12.5 for sleep. Reduced mid March 2022 to 6mg - Off 30/5/22 Feb 2022 Ongoing Diazepam 17.5, Blip at Christmas when took 22.5mg for a few days, now 24 FEB Stable 17.5 as advised. Had long covid. Now going to 16.25 from 8/7/22. 7% drop Oxazepam 10mg.STOPPED 10th FEB 2022 “Rescue dose x 2 in 2 months. Buccastem 3mg less than 1 a month for nausea. Past meds since 1969 -Approx dates only available. Tranxene 15, Clomipramine 150 for about 25 years. 1993 Paroxetine 20 AD change. Diazepam 20mg swap from Tranxene. Oxazepam 10mg Prn since 1990's 1995 Trial of MAOIS. 2000 Escitaopram 10mg. 2015 trial of Trazadone. 2004 Pregabalin 150 at night. 2015 Started on Quetiapine 150 note, Mirtazipine 15 note. Diazepam increased to 30mg split dosing. Link to comment
Mentor mstimc Posted November 30, 2022 Mentor Share Posted November 30, 2022 Prayers for peaceful sleep, @Mark840 and @OldDodgy! 1 Tim C Started Paxil for GAD in 1999 Unsuccessful taper attempt in 2006 Paxilprogress helped with a successful taper completed in 2009 Using therapy and CBT to manage my anxiety Link to comment
Mentor Heath Posted November 30, 2022 Mentor Share Posted November 30, 2022 Prayers for peace ! It will come ! 1 2000-2013 Paxil - 1 year fast taper 2013-2018 merry go round zoloft, cymbalta, lamictal, Prozac. Nov. 2018 lexapro 15 mgs, Dec. 2019 to Mar. 2020 taper to 10mg. Jul 2020 to October 2020 taper to 8.5 ml. Oct 2020 reinstated to 9 ml. Apr 2021 to Jul taper to 7ml. Oct 2021 to Jan 2022 taper to 5.9ml, Mar 5 2022 5.8 ml, Mar 12 5.7ml, Mar 20 5.6ml, Mar 27 5.5ml, April 23 5.4ml, April 30 5.3ml, May 7 5.2ml, Jul 9 2022 5.4ml, Klonopin prn, Allegra 180 for 3 seasons, aspirin 81 mg, plavix , nitroglycerin 0.4 mg prn, 2k mg turmeric Qunol, 4- Trader Joe’s omega 3 -2400 mg, Pepcid 20mg, Prilosec 40 mg, Tylenol arthritis 4 tablets daily, 350mg calm magnesium citrate, melatonin 2.5- 5mg as needed to sleep. Saline spray as needed. Link to comment
Chlo Posted November 30, 2022 Share Posted November 30, 2022 Father God we come to you with heavy hearts and sleepless nights, we are asking you to bring peace and calmness to out minds and eyes. Give us your spirit of peace, in Jesus name. Who is in control? Did you know that WHO you believe is in control in your life has everything to do with getting a good night’s sleep? Here’s a curious thought: you never worry about the things that you believe are in your control. Think about it: you don’t worry about getting dressed in the morning or brushing your teeth. Not at all. You only worry about things that are not in your control, especially people and circumstances. Lack of control is the source of all our anxiety because our mind often expects the worst, fueled by our spiritual enemy who is always suggesting things that could go wrong. But those who understand that God is in control, that He loves them perfectly and that He perfectly orchestrates all things to work together for good in the lives of His children – they need not worry. Let this thought gently drift across your mind: My Heavenly Father has complete control over the details of my life. There is not the smallest detail that He is not aware of or does not have control over. I know He loves me beyond anything I can imagine because as the Bible says, "He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all - how will he not also, along with him, freely give us all things?" So how could it be that He would withhold anything that He knows I really need? My life is truly in His hands and I will rest in that security. Say these words over and over to yourself: I won’t let what my mind imagines about tomorrow rob me of peaceful sleep tonight. My Heavenly Father who loves me is already in tomorrow and is Lord of it. So tonight, I will let go and rest securely in my Heavenly Father’s care.@Mark840 @OldDodgy Overcoming Insomnia https://www.bible.com/en/reading-plans/13610 3 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
Pollyjay Posted November 30, 2022 Share Posted November 30, 2022 12 hours ago, Mark840 said: Hi everyone, For unknown reason, I have trouble maintaining sleep. I wake up after 3 hours about 2 a.m. at night. It has been like this since 17 November. I cannot identify the problem. Please pray I will get my sleep back and able to manage day to day work. Praying for you, Mark840. I've been there. 2 65 y/o Female Current meds: Started:26 February, Propranolol 5 mg 8am and 8 pm Started: 11 March 2022, Ativan : 0 .25mg 1pm and 9pm Off Seroquel since early October 2022 Off Lunesta since early September 2022 Other meds: Levothyroxine 50mcg with extra 25mcg Mon. Wed. Fri. Link to comment
LizzieTish Posted November 30, 2022 Share Posted November 30, 2022 I'm praying for you, Mark, and everyone suffering from AD withdrawal🙏💗🤗. This too shall pass! Elizabeth 1 Lexapro: 2002-2006 (dose unknown) Sertraline: 2006-April 2021 (50 mg/day) with exception of 2 failed discontinuation attempts in previous 5 years. April - Aug 2021 (25 mg/day [half tablet]). Experienced flu-like symptoms in April. Also experienced insomnia and rage/irritability, which eventually subsided. Sept 2021 - Jan 2022 (12.5 mg/day [quarter tablet]). Feb 1-12, 2022 (~10 mg/day). Experienced depression and new onset acute anxiety. Discovered SA.org and realized I was tapering too fast. Feb 13, 2022, dose increased back to 12.5 mg/day to mitigate symptoms. April 2022 (~10 mg/day; switched to liquid formulation). May 2022 (~9 mg/day). Jun-Jul 2022 (~8 mg/day). Aug 2022 (~7 mg/day). Oct 2022 (~6.5 mg/day). Nov 2022 (~6 mg/day). Dec 2022 (~5 mg/day). Holding dose for at least 2-3 months due to crying spells and poor appetite/weight loss. Began taking Mg and fish oil supplements. March 17, 2023 - increased dose to 6 mg/day. Feeling better. May 17, 2023 - decreased dose to 5.5 mg/day. July 22, 2023 - still haven't stabilized. Experiencing excruciating and unrelenting suffering. July 28, 2023 - increased dose to 6/6.5 mg/day August 2, 2023 - increased dose to 7 mg/day due to persistent dread and panic attacks. October 2023 - increased dose to 10 mg/day. January 2024 - Still feel bad despite 10 mg/day dose. Link to comment
Mark840 Posted December 1, 2022 Share Posted December 1, 2022 Thank you everyone. I woke up about 2 a.m. yesterday, then fell asleep but poor sleep with weird dreams and waking up in between. More like a mini series of disturbed sleep. Waking up feeling sleep deprieved (headache, tired...), getting ready for work. Sep-Dec '12: Cymbalta (60mg), Zyprexa (1.25 mg), Lexappo (5 mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg); Dec '12-Apr '13: Lithium Carbonate Tab (150mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg), Rivotril (1mg); May '13-Feb '15: no record; Mar '15-Aug '21: Cymbalta (60mg), Seroquel XR (50mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg); Jul-Sep '21: switched from private to government psychiatrist who changed my drugs to Cymbalta (60mg), Quentiapine (50mg)(IR); however, Quentiapine (50mg)(IR) led me to poor sleep; Oct '21: Due to poor sleep, I requested Cymbalta (60mg), Olanzapine (2.5mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg, when needed) Critial Stage: Nov '21-Jan '22: ceased drugs voluntarily in Nov '21. No major issue an offensive remark triggered my anger. Anger was intense and lasted unusually long. End of Jan-Feb '22: Doctor reinstated me with Cymbalta (30mg) only on 29 Jan '22. However; without Olanzapine (2.5mg), it caused poor sleep; End of Feb-Jun '22: after too much poor sleep, doctor replaced Cymbalta (30 mg) with Remeron (15 mg); Jul '22: attempted to tapper off slowly by 10% of last dose. It resulted in weird dreams and poor sleep; Aug-17 Nov '22: Resumed exactly 15 mg. My sleep restorerd and no more weird dreams; 17 Nov-11 Dec '22: Started to wake up after 2-4 hours of sleep for unknown reason; 12 Dec '22-May 23: 3-6 hous of sleep, partly due to work stress; Jun-Aug '23: 3.5 to 4.5 hours of sleep; Sep '23-present: take mirtazapine in morning and it resolves my insomnia. Link to comment
Dragoon909 Posted December 2, 2022 Share Posted December 2, 2022 Hi there guys, I'm new here and recently had a setback into derealization and depersonalization, and it's very scary to me. I wake up in the morning in this foggy place, and I really need prayers. I pray all the time for this toxic cloud to be removed from my consciousness and mind. If you've ever experienced these terrible symptoms, you know what I'm going through: it's distressing day in and out for a month so far. I know they are mechanisms of our God given brain to protect us...but it drags us down with it. Please pray for me; pray the derealization goes away. ❤️ 🙏 I have faith God will pull me through. Thank you all, and it would be much appreciated. 👼 Dragoon. Was on Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien, Klonopin and Depakote for several years. Came off Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien and Depakote c/t in 2009. Came off Klonopin in 2012. I forget the dosage other than 4mg of Klonopin. Link to comment
Chlo Posted December 2, 2022 Share Posted December 2, 2022 36 minutes ago, Dragoon909 said: Hi there guys, I'm new here and recently had a setback into derealization and depersonalization, and it's very scary to me. I wake up in the morning in this foggy place, and I really need prayers. I pray all the time for this toxic cloud to be removed from my consciousness and mind. If you've ever experienced these terrible symptoms, you know what I'm going through: it's distressing day in and out for a month so far. I know they are mechanisms of our God given brain to protect us...but it drags us down with it. Please pray for me; pray the derealization goes away. ❤️ 🙏 I have faith God will pull me through. Thank you all, and it would be much appreciated. 👼 Dragoon. I am praying for you right now, sweetheart! He hears our prayers 💜 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
rmce72a Posted December 2, 2022 Share Posted December 2, 2022 Bless you, dear Chlo. Am praying for relief for you. Prozac 10mg 1990-1999 -1999-2018 Effexor XR 75 mg capsules -2018 Dr direct switched me from Effexor 75XR to Cymbalta 20mg XR and 20 mg Metoprolol following irregular heartbeat incident -Late 2019 began worsening anxiety/ depression symptoms -2020 Dr direct switched back to 75 mg Effex XR Symptoms worsened -2021 Changed Dr and began therapy for GAD and worsening physical symptoms -2022 Found this forum and began slow taper by removing beads - 6/7 - 6/10 Effexor 73.2mg 6/11-6/14 Effexor 72.9mg nightmares, tinnitus, anxiety; 6/15- Effexor XR 72.6mg 6/16 - 6/20 Effexor XR 72.8 nausea, heart palpitations, anxiety, tinnitus 6/22-7/4 hold Effexor XR 72.9-73.1 7/5-7/11 Effexor XR 72.62 7/12 - 7/15 Effexor 72.6 bad symptoms 7/16-7/17 Effexor XR upped to 72.9 7/18 Effexor XR 72.9 most symptoms gone hold at 72.9 - 73.0 8/26 - 9/6 Trying to keep dosage under 73. Holding around 72.9 sometime 72.86 due to bead count Having symptoms most days. 9/6-9/23 Holding at about 72.9-73. Still very ill. No improvement. 9/23 - 11/23 Still keeping dose around 72.9-73 11-23-Jan 14 Held until one week ago. Dropped to 72.75-72.81 terrible WD 1/14- present Worse WD symptoms. Back to 73.10. Cannot seem to stabilize. 2/2 - present Holding at about 73 hoping to stabilize 3/19 - present Dropped to aprox 92.9-92.88. (vary from day to day.) Holding Take only Clarinex 5mg for allergies and the Effexor 73 XR. I cannot take any supplements. No caffeine, sugar, soy, gluten, dairy. Link to comment
Dragoon909 Posted December 2, 2022 Share Posted December 2, 2022 1 hour ago, Chlo said: I am praying for you right now, sweetheart! He hears our prayers 💜 Thank you, I really need them. God bless. Was on Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien, Klonopin and Depakote for several years. Came off Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien and Depakote c/t in 2009. Came off Klonopin in 2012. I forget the dosage other than 4mg of Klonopin. Link to comment
Mark840 Posted December 2, 2022 Share Posted December 2, 2022 I thank God it's the end of Friday. No major work issues. Yesterday didn't sleep so well but somewhat better. I pray I get to enjoy the weekend at least. I wonder when I can get my sleep again. 1 Sep-Dec '12: Cymbalta (60mg), Zyprexa (1.25 mg), Lexappo (5 mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg); Dec '12-Apr '13: Lithium Carbonate Tab (150mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg), Rivotril (1mg); May '13-Feb '15: no record; Mar '15-Aug '21: Cymbalta (60mg), Seroquel XR (50mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg); Jul-Sep '21: switched from private to government psychiatrist who changed my drugs to Cymbalta (60mg), Quentiapine (50mg)(IR); however, Quentiapine (50mg)(IR) led me to poor sleep; Oct '21: Due to poor sleep, I requested Cymbalta (60mg), Olanzapine (2.5mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg, when needed) Critial Stage: Nov '21-Jan '22: ceased drugs voluntarily in Nov '21. No major issue an offensive remark triggered my anger. Anger was intense and lasted unusually long. End of Jan-Feb '22: Doctor reinstated me with Cymbalta (30mg) only on 29 Jan '22. However; without Olanzapine (2.5mg), it caused poor sleep; End of Feb-Jun '22: after too much poor sleep, doctor replaced Cymbalta (30 mg) with Remeron (15 mg); Jul '22: attempted to tapper off slowly by 10% of last dose. It resulted in weird dreams and poor sleep; Aug-17 Nov '22: Resumed exactly 15 mg. My sleep restorerd and no more weird dreams; 17 Nov-11 Dec '22: Started to wake up after 2-4 hours of sleep for unknown reason; 12 Dec '22-May 23: 3-6 hous of sleep, partly due to work stress; Jun-Aug '23: 3.5 to 4.5 hours of sleep; Sep '23-present: take mirtazapine in morning and it resolves my insomnia. Link to comment
Dragoon909 Posted December 2, 2022 Share Posted December 2, 2022 On 10/28/2022 at 10:48 AM, mstimc said: God speaks to us in ways we don't always recognize at first. Even in the Old Testament, He came in thunder and lightning, and then in a whisper. I think one of the Psalms says "He parted the Red Sea but left no footprints in the sand." When is was going through WD and recovery, I prayed every morning and night, and often doubted my prayers were heard. Looking back, I realize now it was He who got me up every day and kept me going--for just one more day--and gave me the strength to get through it. Prayers to you! Oh yes, it's always hindsight that let's us see exactly what happened. There's been many times.. many, many, many... I doubted God and my faith was below zero. In retrospect, He showed me how overdramatic I was. The connection between humans and God is indeed not understood, but only keeping faith can be done. I believe in God, but he's indeed a very remote God. 1 Was on Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien, Klonopin and Depakote for several years. Came off Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien and Depakote c/t in 2009. Came off Klonopin in 2012. I forget the dosage other than 4mg of Klonopin. Link to comment
LizzieTish Posted December 2, 2022 Share Posted December 2, 2022 When I had insomnia a few months ago, I used it as an opportunity to pray more. I believe God hears and answers our prayers. 🙏💗 1 Lexapro: 2002-2006 (dose unknown) Sertraline: 2006-April 2021 (50 mg/day) with exception of 2 failed discontinuation attempts in previous 5 years. April - Aug 2021 (25 mg/day [half tablet]). Experienced flu-like symptoms in April. Also experienced insomnia and rage/irritability, which eventually subsided. Sept 2021 - Jan 2022 (12.5 mg/day [quarter tablet]). Feb 1-12, 2022 (~10 mg/day). Experienced depression and new onset acute anxiety. Discovered SA.org and realized I was tapering too fast. Feb 13, 2022, dose increased back to 12.5 mg/day to mitigate symptoms. April 2022 (~10 mg/day; switched to liquid formulation). May 2022 (~9 mg/day). Jun-Jul 2022 (~8 mg/day). Aug 2022 (~7 mg/day). Oct 2022 (~6.5 mg/day). Nov 2022 (~6 mg/day). Dec 2022 (~5 mg/day). Holding dose for at least 2-3 months due to crying spells and poor appetite/weight loss. Began taking Mg and fish oil supplements. March 17, 2023 - increased dose to 6 mg/day. Feeling better. May 17, 2023 - decreased dose to 5.5 mg/day. July 22, 2023 - still haven't stabilized. Experiencing excruciating and unrelenting suffering. July 28, 2023 - increased dose to 6/6.5 mg/day August 2, 2023 - increased dose to 7 mg/day due to persistent dread and panic attacks. October 2023 - increased dose to 10 mg/day. January 2024 - Still feel bad despite 10 mg/day dose. Link to comment
Hartattack Posted December 4, 2022 Share Posted December 4, 2022 Hey guys, do we have any healing stories in this thread? Perhaps an amazing story about how God healed someone, all of a sudden or slowly over time? I can really use some encouragement. Praying for all you guys. God Bless. Zoloft: 2013- 2015, 50mg; 2016- 2016, 100mg; 2017- 2017, 250mg Prozac: 2018- 2019, 40mg; 2019- Christmas 2020, 80mg tapered down to 0mg over the course of 6 months. Link to comment
SouthernFreeze Posted December 4, 2022 Share Posted December 4, 2022 59 minutes ago, Hartattack said: Hey guys, do we have any healing stories in this thread? Perhaps an amazing story about how God healed someone, all of a sudden or slowly over time? I can really use some encouragement. Praying for all you guys. God Bless. I'm not necessarily a christian (though I am half way through the bible at the moment) I'd just like to say I have been using fluroxetine dispersible for the last 5 years after bridging from effexor. I have been putting the mix in a 5ml syringe and have been dropping a ml over the period of about 4 years. I took my last drop 3 weeks ago and have had only minor withdrawals, the last one wasn't nowhere near as bad as usual either. I've been battling these drugs for over a decade now and I think I am finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. The fact that I can make it out of bed and live a normal life on my second to last drop is a miracle.......well to me anyway. 2 10 years on various anti-depressants 5 years Effexor xr tappered of 150mg in 6 months nothing for two weeks Reinstated 15 beads for 50 days Tappered off then clean 2-3months gradually went back up to 13 mg 3 years bridged fluoxetine 10mg 2 week tapper 1 year clean reinstated 5ml dispersed fluroxatine for 6months Link to comment
Dragoon909 Posted December 4, 2022 Share Posted December 4, 2022 No, you will get better... I was on medicines for years, and been off all for a good 10 years. The reason I'm on the forum is because I played it stupid and took a supplement a few times which set me back some (ie derealization). You will heal. My goodness, I detoxed 4mg of klonopin and recovered for years completely 100%. It's just I took that supplement. Do not take foreign supplements from Amazon or wherever. God wants you to feel better, and he's with you until you do. He's the lamp inside our temples that keep us going and shining--even though we feel like crap and steadfast throughout the hell these vile medicines cause. Whether you believe or not, God is good enough to keep you strong enough to endure whatever it is you are facing day by day by day. Not only are there earthly blessings and in the flesh, but spiritual blessings and rewards. I'm not honestly what you call religious, but spiritual. I like to think if myself "spiritually " in tune with God and Christ. He's there! Or she... really God is both, because we all come from the source...male and female. Be blessed, because God is there with you throughout the process of healing...and whatever else you will face in life. ❤️ 2 Was on Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien, Klonopin and Depakote for several years. Came off Lithium, Tegretol, Ambien and Depakote c/t in 2009. Came off Klonopin in 2012. I forget the dosage other than 4mg of Klonopin. Link to comment
Mark840 Posted December 5, 2022 Share Posted December 5, 2022 Quote Hi everyone, For unknown reason, I have trouble maintaining sleep. I wake up after 3 hours about 2 a.m. at night. It has been like this since 17 November. I cannot identify the problem. Please pray I will get my sleep back and able to manage day to day work. I got 4 hours of sleep on the weekend. After 4 hours, I could resume a somewhat deeper sleep. Is it finally improving? I pray God will grant me perhaps 5 hours deep sleep at least tonight. 1 Sep-Dec '12: Cymbalta (60mg), Zyprexa (1.25 mg), Lexappo (5 mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg); Dec '12-Apr '13: Lithium Carbonate Tab (150mg), Wellbutrin SR (150mg), Rivotril (1mg); May '13-Feb '15: no record; Mar '15-Aug '21: Cymbalta (60mg), Seroquel XR (50mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg); Jul-Sep '21: switched from private to government psychiatrist who changed my drugs to Cymbalta (60mg), Quentiapine (50mg)(IR); however, Quentiapine (50mg)(IR) led me to poor sleep; Oct '21: Due to poor sleep, I requested Cymbalta (60mg), Olanzapine (2.5mg), Rivotril Tab (0.5mg, when needed) Critial Stage: Nov '21-Jan '22: ceased drugs voluntarily in Nov '21. No major issue an offensive remark triggered my anger. Anger was intense and lasted unusually long. End of Jan-Feb '22: Doctor reinstated me with Cymbalta (30mg) only on 29 Jan '22. However; without Olanzapine (2.5mg), it caused poor sleep; End of Feb-Jun '22: after too much poor sleep, doctor replaced Cymbalta (30 mg) with Remeron (15 mg); Jul '22: attempted to tapper off slowly by 10% of last dose. It resulted in weird dreams and poor sleep; Aug-17 Nov '22: Resumed exactly 15 mg. My sleep restorerd and no more weird dreams; 17 Nov-11 Dec '22: Started to wake up after 2-4 hours of sleep for unknown reason; 12 Dec '22-May 23: 3-6 hous of sleep, partly due to work stress; Jun-Aug '23: 3.5 to 4.5 hours of sleep; Sep '23-present: take mirtazapine in morning and it resolves my insomnia. Link to comment
Chlo Posted February 3, 2023 Share Posted February 3, 2023 There really are no words but there are a lot of practical things we can try to do that will help renew our minds and hearts in God’s goodness and faithfulness. I do believe that Holy Spirit guides us to what we need. One step at a time in this journey and sometimes it’s hard to see because we are in the midst of it all. I get frustrated sometimes. I know that deep ache to want to just feel God’s presence and just not being able to because my flight/fight/freeze response and so ramped up creating all the unpleasant stuff. In those moments, I am now well aware that it is just this current condition of my system. When it calms down a little I start to be able to see, feel, and connect better. It’s upsetting but it will pass. When it comes to reconciling why God hasn’t just given a miracle of healing, well though He does at times, God does advise that all people will experience suffering , our time is not His time, we struggle to see goodness when we look through our pain but it’s still there and we will see it again, miracles are still happening around us, there is joy in every day, God is very open in His word that He promises to sustain us, His grace is sufficient, His power is perfected in weakness, His ways are higher than our ways, He will never leave us nor forsake, He makes all things beautiful in His time, He gives beauty for ashes, we are the clay and He is the potter, He refines our faith in the fire. So when I am hearing that wd voice that wants to doubt and pick things apart, when my soul cries enough, when I come to the end of myself, I have a choice to make, I choose to say “Your will God, I trust that you see me, I trust and remember Your faithfulness in my past, I trust and believe that Your Word is true and if this is what You will then You have good reason and I submit to You just please help me each and every moment of the day. “ You God are the anchor in my soul. You alone are my hope.” When my brain makes things cloudy, gloomy and foggy thoughts, I turn to things that remind me of God’s character. For me, it’s devotionals, watching The Chosen (such a beautiful show of the life of Jesus and the disciples, favorite worship songs, or teachings. This is no easy task, but we are healing. We will be better than we were before this because that’s just how God is. He doesn’t create suffering but He uses it to bring us closer to Him and to restore us. One of the big lessons God has shown me is there is no quick fix, there is no easy way out. Our culture markets it everywhere but God wants us to experience wholeness, abundance and transformed lives and that doesn’t come without going through the entire process. Things I wish I understood sooner. Sigh I believe that He is healing us and guiding us and making a way for us that we will look back and see He was there all along. Footprints in the sand. 👣 There’s only one set because He’s carrying us. 1 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
Hartattack Posted February 3, 2023 Share Posted February 3, 2023 Wow, that could be the most beautiful comment from anyone I’ve ever heard of in withdrawal. And the best part is, it’s nothing but truth! I love the scene in the chosen with little James, and how Jesus turns to him after their incredible conversation and says, “and James, you will be healed, it’s just a matter of time.” It’s so unfortunate that we can’t “feel” more connected, but then again the spiritual life isn’t about feeling things, it’s about the objective truth of God, that he is within us and sustaining us and communing with us in every moment, using EVERYTHING to draw us closer to him, even all of the horrors of life, of which wd is no small one. Thank you Chlo, this is a great reminder. God bless you and pray for me! J Zoloft: 2013- 2015, 50mg; 2016- 2016, 100mg; 2017- 2017, 250mg Prozac: 2018- 2019, 40mg; 2019- Christmas 2020, 80mg tapered down to 0mg over the course of 6 months. Link to comment
Chlo Posted February 3, 2023 Share Posted February 3, 2023 2 hours ago, Hartattack said: Wow, that could be the most beautiful comment from anyone I’ve ever heard of in withdrawal. And the best part is, it’s nothing but truth! I love the scene in the chosen with little James, and how Jesus turns to him after their incredible conversation and says, “and James, you will be healed, it’s just a matter of time.” It’s so unfortunate that we can’t “feel” more connected, but then again the spiritual life isn’t about feeling things, it’s about the objective truth of God, that he is within us and sustaining us and communing with us in every moment, using EVERYTHING to draw us closer to him, even all of the horrors of life, of which wd is no small one. Thank you Chlo, this is a great reminder. God bless you and pray for me! J Yes! I ugly cried during that scene. We just have to hold on to his promise that he will heal us on his time. He wastes nothing from our pain and is using it for our good. And just wow! What a day it will be when we these chains of wd are broken. How important his word is every minute of the day and night. We must speak the word. The enemy can only go on what is spoken. He doesn't have thr Holy Ghost, so he can't discern. So he only knows what to attack if you say it. That's why the Bible tells us to confess. I am healed I am the head and not the tail I'm above and not beneath Greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world. Even if you don't fully believe it, just spek it! It confuses the enemy. Even if tears are coming down your face, speak the word! Even whmhen it hurts, speak the word! When it makes no sense, speak the word! Always, SPEAK THE WORD!! Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
gigi63 Posted February 3, 2023 Share Posted February 3, 2023 Chloe, beautifully articulated!!!! Truth, absolute truth!!!! Link to comment
SolarPlexus Posted February 11, 2023 Share Posted February 11, 2023 On 2/3/2023 at 3:24 AM, Chlo said: There really are no words but there are a lot of practical things we can try to do that will help renew our minds and hearts in God’s goodness and faithfulness. I do believe that Holy Spirit guides us to what we need. One step at a time in this journey and sometimes it’s hard to see because we are in the midst of it all. I get frustrated sometimes. I know that deep ache to want to just feel God’s presence and just not being able to because my flight/fight/freeze response and so ramped up creating all the unpleasant stuff. In those moments, I am now well aware that it is just this current condition of my system. When it calms down a little I start to be able to see, feel, and connect better. It’s upsetting but it will pass. When it comes to reconciling why God hasn’t just given a miracle of healing, well though He does at times, God does advise that all people will experience suffering , our time is not His time, we struggle to see goodness when we look through our pain but it’s still there and we will see it again, miracles are still happening around us, there is joy in every day, God is very open in His word that He promises to sustain us, His grace is sufficient, His power is perfected in weakness, His ways are higher than our ways, He will never leave us nor forsake, He makes all things beautiful in His time, He gives beauty for ashes, we are the clay and He is the potter, He refines our faith in the fire. So when I am hearing that wd voice that wants to doubt and pick things apart, when my soul cries enough, when I come to the end of myself, I have a choice to make, I choose to say “Your will God, I trust that you see me, I trust and remember Your faithfulness in my past, I trust and believe that Your Word is true and if this is what You will then You have good reason and I submit to You just please help me each and every moment of the day. “ You God are the anchor in my soul. You alone are my hope.” When my brain makes things cloudy, gloomy and foggy thoughts, I turn to things that remind me of God’s character. For me, it’s devotionals, watching The Chosen (such a beautiful show of the life of Jesus and the disciples, favorite worship songs, or teachings. This is no easy task, but we are healing. We will be better than we were before this because that’s just how God is. He doesn’t create suffering but He uses it to bring us closer to Him and to restore us. One of the big lessons God has shown me is there is no quick fix, there is no easy way out. Our culture markets it everywhere but God wants us to experience wholeness, abundance and transformed lives and that doesn’t come without going through the entire process. Things I wish I understood sooner. Sigh I believe that He is healing us and guiding us and making a way for us that we will look back and see He was there all along. Footprints in the sand. 👣 There’s only one set because He’s carrying us. How are you feeling now Chlo? Was reading one of your comments elsewhere (on the let’s pray for each other thread) and now this comment and wanted to ask how you are. I hope you are better 🙏🏻 Summer 2016 - summer 2018: put on Lexapro, going from 5 mg up to 20 mg over the span of the 2 years (had visited shrink for help with obsessive thinking, was not diagnosed with anything in particular, just prescribed Lexapro 15 mins into first session) Summer 2018: tapered down by 2.5 mg every few weeks Protracted withdrawal ever since. 0-14 months began with a massive panic attack that landed me in ER, followed by prolonged anxiety, mental fog and a skin rash on my back. Was regularly consuming alcohol as did not know I was in WD. From then onwards, hit with worse myriad symptoms. Currently at 22 months and have electromagnetic sensitivity, brain zaps, brain fog, memory problems (especially name recall), twitch in right eyebrow, daily waking up at 3 or 4 a.m. with fast heartbeats and "sticky" negative memories, suicidal thoughts, rage episodes, temperature dysregulation, physical numbness & weakness, libido loss. Link to comment
Chlo Posted March 12, 2023 Share Posted March 12, 2023 1 Chlo❤ •Celexa 40mg 1999-2021•COVID August 2021•Celexa stopped working•Zoloft 100mg Sept21'-Oct21'•Zoloft did not work •Lexapro 10mg Oct21'-Nov21' •Lexapro did not work •Lexapro 5mg Nov21'-1/17/22 switched to Lexapro liquid form 5mg 1/18/22•4.75mg 1/19•4.5mg 1/25•4.25mg 2/1•4.0mg 2/8 •3.75mg 3/28•3.5mg 5/23 •3.25mg 5/30•3.0mg 6/19 •2.75mg 6/26•2.50mg 7/10•2.45mg 7/18•2.40mg 7/25•2.35mg 8/1•2.33mg 8/26•2.27mg 9/15•2.21mg 9/23•2.16mg 9/30•2.10mg 10/14•2.04mg 10/24•1.99mg 11/18•1.95mg 1/02/23•1.90mg 1/09•1.80mg 1/27•1.75mg 2/21•1.70mg 3/6•1.65mg3/14•1.60mg 4/07•1.52mg 4/30•1.48mg 5/07•1.40mg 6/08•1.36mg 6/17•1.32mg 6/27•1.28mg 7/17•1.20mg 8/18•1.15mg 9/13•1.12mg 10/15•1.06mg 1/20/24•1.02mg 2/16•1mg 2/27•.98mg 3/02•.96mg3/20•D3•C• •Magnesium Glycinate Zinc•Omega3•Probiotic •Mirtazapine 15mg I don't know much, but 3 things I do. There is a God. His word is true. Stay close to Him and He will bring you through. Amen🙏 Link to comment
jeffelmexicano Posted March 13, 2023 Share Posted March 13, 2023 I need a miracle 2021 - Seroquel 250mg and lorazepam 4,75 mg i was tapering 12,5 mg every 3 weeks and I was fine start tapering 2022 November or December I can remember now im on 187,5 mg Seroquel on hold on January on 187,5mg of Seroquel I skipped a dose of lorazepam of my 3 intakes and enter into wd. im on hold of both meds my dose of lorazepam is still on 4,75mg 03.7.23 Holding both doses May 25, 2023 - lorazepam reduced from 1,34 MG to 1,20 MG at night (total lorazepam: 1.25 morning, 1.25 afternoon, 1.20 mg evening = 3.7 mg), Seroquel still at 187.5 mg June 23 2023 down seroquel to 151 ,8 MG July 7 136 mg seroquel -july28 123 MG seroquel Hold on all meds Down from 1,25 MG to 1,20 MG lorazepam 8 am dose _8.22.23 _ Hold both meds very unstable currently 1,20 MG am 1,25 MG 2 PM 1,20 MG 8 PM 123 MG seroquel 10 pm_ total lorazepam 3,65 MG Link to comment
gigi63 Posted March 13, 2023 Share Posted March 13, 2023 Jeff, you need to stop tapering. Very very important to HOLD. You are going to destabilize your CNS if you continue to taper. HOLD until you stabilize out. That can take quite a bit of time. Stay put! That is my best advice but prayer will follow! Link to comment
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