Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted August 15, 2014 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 15, 2014 Usually we find that it is a sign that your body is not happy with the dose and a reduction is needed. Maybe reduce by half if that is possible? **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment
Jose Posted August 15, 2014 Share Posted August 15, 2014 Hello AAO. Sorry to read about your suffering, and so glad you found this place of comfort. There are many loving and caring people here with great experience with the suffering of withdrawal, and the consideration to share it. They have helped me lots, too. I'm going through withdrawal and the hints I can share so far are: - Keep it as simple and relaxing as possible. Above all you need rest, so go for the simplest ways to relax: soft exercise, relaxing music (like the one you mentioned, or the nature sounds that btdt says), be close to nature, plants...avoid stimulation. - Meditation helps. It is helping me immensely. Many types of meditation can make you restless, agitated and anxious, so keeping it as simple as possible is also the key. What works for me is the breathing meditation: just paying attention to in breath and out breath, the sound of your breath or the mantras that Petu or mlrp mention, thinking of breathing in patience or tranquility and breathing out the opposite. Try until you find one that doesn't make you anxious, and keep trying. Meditation improves your attention and makes your system more stable. Try it regularly. Persistence is the only way. I have only started noticing the effects after a few weeks. - Be patient. The only way is patience, time. This truly is one thing I have learnt from the lovely people in this forum. And the one thing that those who love me keep telling me. Give it time, and keep going. 1999-2004 citalopram 10 to 20mg with 2-3 withdrawal attempts.2004 fluvoxamine for 4-5 months aprox. Changed to venlafaxine because of the headaches and dizziness.2005-March 2014 venlafaxine usually starting on 150mg and coming down to 75 or 37.5. Several withdrawal attempts.In March 2014 I stopped taking 37.5mg of venlafaxine without tapering. Went through 5 months of confusion, anxiety, insomnia and desperation. From then I am very slowly recovering, on windows and waves. Symptoms: muscle stiffness and aches, shortness of breath, abdominal pain, memory loss, inability to concentrate or think straight, difficulty to speak, difficulty to read (improving). Taking omega3, magnesium, calcium, vitamin E and probiotics. Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted August 15, 2014 Author Share Posted August 15, 2014 Usually we find that it is a sign that your body is not happy with the dose and a reduction is needed. Maybe reduce by half if that is possible? I'll wait a day or two if it does not get better ill cut the 5 mg to Half Not sure that the 2.5 mg will be super accurate but it's better than the liquid version that seems complicated If that does not work there is no choice but to try the liquid version Thank you so much! 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted August 15, 2014 Author Share Posted August 15, 2014 Hello AAO. Sorry to read about your suffering, and so glad you found this place of comfort. There are many loving and caring people here with great experience with the suffering of withdrawal, and the consideration to share it. They have helped me lots, too. I'm going through withdrawal and the hints I can share so far are: - Keep it as simple and relaxing as possible. Above all you need rest, so go for the simplest ways to relax: soft exercise, relaxing music (like the one you mentioned, or the nature sounds that btdt says), be close to nature, plants...avoid stimulation. - Meditation helps. It is helping me immensely. Many types of meditation can make you restless, agitated and anxious, so keeping it as simple as possible is also the key. What works for me is the breathing meditation: just paying attention to in breath and out breath, the sound of your breath or the mantras that Petu or mlrp mention, thinking of breathing in patience or tranquility and breathing out the opposite. Try until you find one that doesn't make you anxious, and keep trying. Meditation improves your attention and makes your system more stable. Try it regularly. Persistence is the only way. I have only started noticing the effects after a few weeks. - Be patient. The only way is patience, time. This truly is one thing I have learnt from the lovely people in this forum. And the one thing that those who love me keep telling me. Give it time, and keep going. Thanks so much for your response and tips I try a bit of everything when I can Very hard to do something relaxing with constantly obsessive thoughts and feeling of hysteria Unfortunately I'm sure there are many people here who understand me And this forum .. definitely a life saver, I have seen other forums but this forum has a big heart, support, excellent tips & lovely people Anyway I will try to find relaxation in all this chaos, I do not think There is another way 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
mlrp Posted August 16, 2014 Share Posted August 16, 2014 Hello, AAO, I know everything seems overwhelming right now. You're doing a good job of hanging in there. Breathe in, breathe out, you'll make it. Maybe this is for later, when you're not so stressed, but don't give up on the idea of making a liquid version. I put it off for a long time, thinking it was complicated, and it really isn't. You will need to measure exact amounts with syringes, but these can be purchased from a pharmacy or a veterinarian. (I used left over syringes from when I had to give medicine to my rabbits.) But there's nothing tricky about making the solution. You just drop the tablet or capsule into a specific, measured amount of water, wait about 30-60 minutes and it's dissolved. Then you syringe up the dose you need and put that in a little bottle for when you need it later. Anyway, mostly wanted to say Courage! You will find your right dosage and then you will stabilize and begin your journey of recovery. 04/2013 diagnoses: severe insomnia, major depressive disorder, anxiety disorder, agoraphobia. PTSD (my diagnosis) Original scripts: 30 mg mirtazapine (Remeron) (1x day), 75 mg Bupropion HCL (Wellbutrin) (2x day), and 0.5 lorazepam (1x day or as needed) 05/05/14: Onset of acute Wellbutrin withdrawal symptoms after haphazard "taper" of 6-8 wks. 05/10/14: Joined this site. 05/11/14: Reinstated approx. 25 mg Wellbutrin (1x day) 05/14/14: Switched to 12.5 mg Wellbutrin (2x day) 06/28/14: Changed lorazepam dosing to .25 mg 2x a day - seems to be reducing anxiety flare-ups 07/28/14: Dosing Wellbutrin in a (home made) solution form 12.5 mg (2x day) 08/15/14: Remeron 28 25.2 22.7 20.5 18.5 16.7 15.1 13.6 mg (home made) solution 05/16/15: Have been dosing lorazepam at .5 mg in the morning, .25 mg in the afternoon, and .25 mg at bedtime. Anxiety has increased somewhat, possibly due to tolerance. Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted August 16, 2014 Author Share Posted August 16, 2014 // 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted August 16, 2014 Author Share Posted August 16, 2014 Hello, AAO, I know everything seems overwhelming right now. You're doing a good job of hanging in there. Breathe in, breathe out, you'll make it. Maybe this is for later, when you're not so stressed, but don't give up on the idea of making a liquid version. I put it off for a long time, thinking it was complicated, and it really isn't. You will need to measure exact amounts with syringes, but these can be purchased from a pharmacy or a veterinarian. (I used left over syringes from when I had to give medicine to my rabbits.) But there's nothing tricky about making the solution. You just drop the tablet or capsule into a specific, measured amount of water, wait about 30-60 minutes and it's dissolved. Then you syringe up the dose you need and put that in a little bottle for when you need it later. Anyway, mostly wanted to say Courage! You will find your right dosage and then you will stabilize and begin your journey of recovery. "You will find your right dosage and then you will stabilize and begin your journey of recovery" Amen to this! I definitely need to find a balance to start working on the real problems Meanwhile I fight Windmills .. Regarding dosage, I'll try to cross to 2.5 mg if side effects continue at 5 mg if that does not work I guess I would have to go to liquid Thank you!! 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Rhiannon Posted August 16, 2014 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 16, 2014 I know it feels like a lot of trouble to get the liquid, but it is definitely worth the trouble. If you cut pills you get too much variation in dosage from one day to the next and that can make the withdrawal symptoms worse. You will need the liquid eventually anyway in order to taper down. I know it is very challenging to tackle new things when you're feeling so ill. Started on Prozac and Xanax in 1992 for PTSD after an assault. One drug led to more, the usual story. Got sicker and sicker, but believed I needed the drugs for my "underlying disease". Long story...lost everything. Life savings, home, physical and mental health, relationships, friendships, ability to work, everything. Amitryptiline, Prozac, bupropion, buspirone, flurazepam, diazepam, alprazolam, Paxil, citalopram, lamotrigine, gabapentin...probably more I've forgotten. Started multidrug taper in Feb 2010. Doing a very slow microtaper, down to low doses now and feeling SO much better, getting my old personality and my brain back! Able to work full time, have a full social life, and cope with stress better than ever. Not perfect, but much better. After 23 lost years. Big Pharma has a lot to answer for. And "medicine for profit" is just not a great idea. Feb 15 2010: 300 mg Neurontin 200 Lamictal 10 Celexa 0.65 Xanax and 5 mg Ambien Feb 10 2014: 62 Lamictal 1.1 Celexa 0.135 Xanax 1.8 Valium Feb 10 2015: 50 Lamictal 0.875 Celexa 0.11 Xanax 1.5 Valium Feb 15 2016: 47.5 Lamictal 0.75 Celexa 0.0875 Xanax 1.42 Valium 2/12/20 12 0.045 0.007 1 May 2021 7 0.01 0.0037 1 Feb 2022 6 0!!! 0.00167 0.98 2.5 mg Ambien Oct 2022 4.5 mg Lamictal (off Celexa, off Xanax) 0.95 Valium Ambien, 1/4 to 1/2 of a 5 mg tablet I'm not a doctor. Any advice I give is just my civilian opinion. Link to comment
btdt Posted August 16, 2014 Share Posted August 16, 2014 Making a liquid would most likely be easier than going to the liquor store and maybe cheaper WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG Had a car accident in 85 Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89 Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above. One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking. As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/ There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted August 16, 2014 Author Share Posted August 16, 2014 I know it feels like a lot of trouble to get the liquid, but it is definitely worth the trouble. If you cut pills you get too much variation in dosage from one day to the next and that can make the withdrawal symptoms worse. You will need the liquid eventually anyway in order to taper down. I know it is very challenging to tackle new things when you're feeling so ill. I looked at the link of the liquid version But I did not realize how much water is equivalent to 5 mg of Seroxat Sorry everything's so complicated now, English is not easy for me as well especially now that the concentration is zero If you can explain to me (in plain English), I would appreciate it 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted August 16, 2014 Author Share Posted August 16, 2014 Impossible situation, please someone wake me from this nightmare I'm two days with 5 mg Seroxat I really do not know if the 5 mg make me feel's so bad, I felt bad before, I had two days of good sleep (relatively) but this night was troubled, and when I got up OMG all the horrors that can be woken up before I opened my eyes I'm afraid to go to sleep because I know how ill wake up My heart rate's so high that I feel like my heart is going to jump off the chest I run to the bathroom more than usual my brain is projecting horror stories So fast that There is not enough time for positive thinking to sign in, all day I'm afraid to leave the house for fear of people I feel physically deformed The future looked black, My past more, present intolerable, I do not know what to do Can not listen to relaxing music (it pisses me off more) or anything that requires concentration I want my normal life back Anyway Im Down to 2.5 mg today and probably will move the liquid version if ill not settle down, but I wonder if 2.5 mg of Seroxat can balance me? This minor dose .. 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
Jose Posted August 17, 2014 Share Posted August 17, 2014 AAO, Please persevere. Remind yourself that YOU are not your messy combination of feelings and thoughts right now. You are beyond that, and the agitation will pass, because it is transitory. You don't have to look for calmness, calmness is within you, it cannot be taken away. What you have to do is relax and let the agitation go away and disperse, and calmness will appear from underneath. If you cannot listen to music, don't do it. Find other ways to relax. Go to the basics, the basic breathing, exhale much slower than you inhale. And focus on how the air comes in and out. And keep doing it. And tell yourself you're going to be ok and this will pass. Believe me I have gone through panic, and panic tells you there is no way out, but there is, because panic always goes, you have to be patient. Little exercise also helps, it doesn't matter how much. Perseverance is the only key. 1999-2004 citalopram 10 to 20mg with 2-3 withdrawal attempts.2004 fluvoxamine for 4-5 months aprox. Changed to venlafaxine because of the headaches and dizziness.2005-March 2014 venlafaxine usually starting on 150mg and coming down to 75 or 37.5. Several withdrawal attempts.In March 2014 I stopped taking 37.5mg of venlafaxine without tapering. Went through 5 months of confusion, anxiety, insomnia and desperation. From then I am very slowly recovering, on windows and waves. Symptoms: muscle stiffness and aches, shortness of breath, abdominal pain, memory loss, inability to concentrate or think straight, difficulty to speak, difficulty to read (improving). Taking omega3, magnesium, calcium, vitamin E and probiotics. Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted August 17, 2014 Author Share Posted August 17, 2014 AAO, Please persevere. Remind yourself that YOU are not your messy combination of feelings and thoughts right now. You are beyond that, and the agitation will pass, because it is transitory. You don't have to look for calmness, calmness is within you, it cannot be taken away. What you have to do is relax and let the agitation go away and disperse, and calmness will appear from underneath. If you cannot listen to music, don't do it. Find other ways to relax. Go to the basics, the basic breathing, exhale much slower than you inhale. And focus on how the air comes in and out. And keep doing it. And tell yourself you're going to be ok and this will pass. Believe me I have gone through panic, and panic tells you there is no way out, but there is, because panic always goes, you have to be patient. Little exercise also helps, it doesn't matter how much. Perseverance is the only key. Thank you I understand what you're saying But when there is panic attack sometimes for three weeks without a break Then a day or two break (and when I say break I mean anxiety but not panic) with intrusive thoughts For six months, It's just really impossible Nothing I do is relaxing, nothing Body and mind are working on speed So I started again 5 mg of Seroxat, was too strong, downloaded to 2.5 mg I asked here if this dose is effective, but I feel (three days after dropping the dose) there is some benefit Still not quite work on the brain, I doubt it will work because it is a minor dose & zero time but In general a little relaxing (and a little is a lot in this situation) The disadvantages are: feel tired all day, my body hurts, dizziness, discharge from the eyes And my sleep shorter but Better then a panic that lasts weeks Hope it will get better because this is a frightening and dangerous experience And I do not want to experience anything like that again It's like a very, very bad trip LCD lasting months (Never did a trip but I think that now I have some idea) I'm going to wait after I find a balance and then take off the medicine wisely First of all, some oxygen, I really need it Hope everyone who is suffering find relief soon 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Petunia Posted August 18, 2014 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 18, 2014 Hi AAO, I'm glad to hear you are feeling better now you have dropped to 2.5mg, this is good. Please stay in touch and let us know how you are. If anything changes, or you start to feel worse again, let us know. I hope you continue to improve on this dose and can stabilize. When you feel up to it, please would you add this reinstatement and the date to your signature. Petu. I'm not a doctor. My comments are not medical advise. These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I've learned. Please discuss your situation with a medical practitioner who has knowledge of tapering and withdrawal...if you are lucky enough to find one. My Introduction Thread Full Drug and Withdrawal History Brief Summary Several SSRIs for 13 years starting 1997 (for mild to moderate partly situational anxiety) Xanax PRN ~ Various other drugs over the years for side effects 2 month 'taper' off Lexapro 2010 Short acute withdrawal, followed by 2 -3 months of improvement then delayed protracted withdrawal DX ADHD followed by several years of stimulants and other drugs trying to manage increasing symptoms Failed reinstatement of Lexapro and trial of Prozac (became suicidal) May 2013 Found SA, learned about withdrawal, stopped taking drugs...healing begins. Protracted withdrawal, with a very sensitized nervous system, slowly recovering as time passes Supplements which have helped: Vitamin C, Magnesium, Taurine Bad reactions: Many supplements but mostly fish oil and Vitamin D June 2016 - Started daily juicing, mostly vegetables and lots of greens. Aug 2016 - Oct 2016 Best window ever, felt almost completely recovered Oct 2016 -Symptoms returned - bad days and less bad days. April 2018 - No windows, but significant improvement, it feels like permanent full recovery is close. VIDEO: Where did the chemical imbalance theory come from? VIDEO: How are psychiatric diagnoses made? VIDEO: Why do psychiatric drugs have withdrawal syndromes? VIDEO: Can psychiatric drugs cause long-lasting negative effects? VIDEO: Dr. Claire Weekes Link to comment
Nikki Posted August 18, 2014 Share Posted August 18, 2014 "I agree with you, the will to escape anxiety by endless pursuits sometimes creates more anxiet, hard to be alone, hard to be out .no matter what angle.I feel trapped" Hello I understand the obsessive thoughts very well. You have been thru alot. The anxiety/obsessive thoughts are hard on us during WD. It is a chemical reaction. I have been spending alot of time each night working in techniques to remedy anxiety. It did help and when I am not in a 'bad space' I can catch myself having an adrenalin or panic reaction and ask myself "what was the thought that brought on that bodily reaction.?" And then talk myself thru it. I had to learn how to do this. There are times, mostly each morning when I am unable to do that. You are not alone that is for sure. Intro: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1902-nikki-hi-my-rundown-with-ads/ Paxil 1997-2004 Crossed over to Lexapro Paxil not available at Pharmacies GSK halted deliveries Lexapro 40mgs Lexapro taper (2years) Imipramine Imipramine and Celexa Now Nefazadone/Imipramine 50mgs. each 45mgs. Serzone 50mgs. Imipramine Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted August 18, 2014 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 18, 2014 "I agree with you, the will to escape anxiety by endless pursuits sometimes creates more anxiet, hard to be alone, hard to be out .no matter what angle.I feel trapped" Hello I understand the obsessive thoughts very well. You have been thru alot. The anxiety/obsessive thoughts are hard on us during WD. It is a chemical reaction. Chemical reaction is the myth that big pharma puts out to sell their drug, withdrawal is quite different and a result of removing a drug or part of a drug. The nervous system is unstable and causes many symptoms. I think Nikki may have meant hormones, **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted August 18, 2014 Author Share Posted August 18, 2014 You are not alone that is for sure. Unfortunately!! I am helpless against the horrible thoughts that run around my mind I have tried every way possible to communicate with them, does not work Impossible to ignore either 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted August 18, 2014 Author Share Posted August 18, 2014 Hi AAO, I'm glad to hear you are feeling better now you have dropped to 2.5mg, this is good. Please stay in touch and let us know how you are. If anything changes, or you start to feel worse again, let us know. I hope you continue to improve on this dose and can stabilize. When you feel up to it, please would you add this reinstatement and the date to your signature. Petu. hi petu I updated the signature Well, I spoke too soon, the first half day panic the rest of the day anxiety (OCD all day) I guess it's too early to see a change I'm not sure Seroxat made it worse (also in the 5 mg dose) I felt awful before but please as i ask before, 2.5 mg this is not a minor dose feel the difference, It can take weeks / months?? Thank you 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Petunia Posted August 19, 2014 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 19, 2014 Thank you for updating your signature. 2.5mg is not a low dose. Yes, it can take between 1 - 12 weeks, sometimes longer to become stable after a reinstatement. Sometimes it doesn't work. If your symptoms are decreasing or you are the same, then perhaps give it some more time. You should start to feel better in a windows and waves kind of pattern. You may feel better for a while, and then feel bad again. The better times should increase and the bad times should decrease. If you are obviously getting worse, then you should stop taking it or drop the dose lower. Keep notes on paper of your symptoms so you can easily see if they are improving. Do what you can to rest and stay calm. Petu. I'm not a doctor. My comments are not medical advise. These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I've learned. Please discuss your situation with a medical practitioner who has knowledge of tapering and withdrawal...if you are lucky enough to find one. My Introduction Thread Full Drug and Withdrawal History Brief Summary Several SSRIs for 13 years starting 1997 (for mild to moderate partly situational anxiety) Xanax PRN ~ Various other drugs over the years for side effects 2 month 'taper' off Lexapro 2010 Short acute withdrawal, followed by 2 -3 months of improvement then delayed protracted withdrawal DX ADHD followed by several years of stimulants and other drugs trying to manage increasing symptoms Failed reinstatement of Lexapro and trial of Prozac (became suicidal) May 2013 Found SA, learned about withdrawal, stopped taking drugs...healing begins. Protracted withdrawal, with a very sensitized nervous system, slowly recovering as time passes Supplements which have helped: Vitamin C, Magnesium, Taurine Bad reactions: Many supplements but mostly fish oil and Vitamin D June 2016 - Started daily juicing, mostly vegetables and lots of greens. Aug 2016 - Oct 2016 Best window ever, felt almost completely recovered Oct 2016 -Symptoms returned - bad days and less bad days. April 2018 - No windows, but significant improvement, it feels like permanent full recovery is close. VIDEO: Where did the chemical imbalance theory come from? VIDEO: How are psychiatric diagnoses made? VIDEO: Why do psychiatric drugs have withdrawal syndromes? VIDEO: Can psychiatric drugs cause long-lasting negative effects? VIDEO: Dr. Claire Weekes Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted August 19, 2014 Author Share Posted August 19, 2014 Thank you for updating your signature. 2.5mg is not a low dose. Yes, it can take between 1 - 12 weeks, sometimes longer to become stable after a reinstatement. Sometimes it doesn't work. If your symptoms are decreasing or you are the same, then perhaps give it some more time. You should start to feel better in a windows and waves kind of pattern. You may feel better for a while, and then feel bad again. The better times should increase and the bad times should decrease. If you are obviously getting worse, then you should stop taking it or drop the dose lower. Keep notes on paper of your symptoms so you can easily see if they are improving. Do what you can to rest and stay calm. Petu. Since I started the Seroxat without the help of a psychiatrist or a family doctor the tips here are important to me Without a doubt I can trust you when it comes to drugs than rely on doctors.. I write everything in great detail (which is not done in the past) to have a clear indication ill See how the days go by and I'll update Thank you (And all the others who responded) for your guidance and support much appreciate! 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
mlrp Posted August 19, 2014 Share Posted August 19, 2014 Keep going, AAO. You are working hard at doing all the right things, even in the midst of the greatest challenges. You are strong! 04/2013 diagnoses: severe insomnia, major depressive disorder, anxiety disorder, agoraphobia. PTSD (my diagnosis) Original scripts: 30 mg mirtazapine (Remeron) (1x day), 75 mg Bupropion HCL (Wellbutrin) (2x day), and 0.5 lorazepam (1x day or as needed) 05/05/14: Onset of acute Wellbutrin withdrawal symptoms after haphazard "taper" of 6-8 wks. 05/10/14: Joined this site. 05/11/14: Reinstated approx. 25 mg Wellbutrin (1x day) 05/14/14: Switched to 12.5 mg Wellbutrin (2x day) 06/28/14: Changed lorazepam dosing to .25 mg 2x a day - seems to be reducing anxiety flare-ups 07/28/14: Dosing Wellbutrin in a (home made) solution form 12.5 mg (2x day) 08/15/14: Remeron 28 25.2 22.7 20.5 18.5 16.7 15.1 13.6 mg (home made) solution 05/16/15: Have been dosing lorazepam at .5 mg in the morning, .25 mg in the afternoon, and .25 mg at bedtime. Anxiety has increased somewhat, possibly due to tolerance. Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted August 19, 2014 Author Share Posted August 19, 2014 Keep going, AAO. You are working hard at doing all the right things, even in the midst of the greatest challenges. You are strong! There is a tendency to forget that in hard times so thank you for reminding me for sure anyone who manages to survive this hell is strong as steel 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
MissMellie Posted August 20, 2014 Share Posted August 20, 2014 I have been in the same spot as you againstallodds. I had terribly disgusting and violent thoughts that I thought I would never get rid off. Please know that they are not you and that they do disappear. I am currently 28months out and thoughts have disappeared now. I get an occasional one, but I can dismiss it very quickly and I know its not me. I can honestly say that at the 2 year mark, there were huge improvements with this. I basically did a cold turkey withdrawal so I believe my symptoms were quite severe and I definelty would not recommend it, but this was truly one of my worst symptoms and it has gone. You will get there, I promise! 2006 - 2011 20mg Lexapro ( Diagnosed with Generalised Anxiety Disorder/Postnatal depression after childbirth. Symptoms only emerged after having Implanon hormonal implant put in). 2011 - CT off Lexapro (Did not know about withdrawal and developed crippling anxiety/panic attacks plus a host of other symptoms) Oct 2011 - March 2012 - Diagnosed with panic disorder and was reinstated back onto 20mg Lexapro and .5mg Xanax. Took Xanax several times over a 2 week period and stopped. Feb 2012 - April 2012 - Weekly drops of Lexapro and CT. Protacted Withdrawal ever since. 0-18 months "severe" psychological hell. Currently at 26months and have left sided paresthesia. Numbness/tightness/burning left side of face. Pins and needles left shoulder blade. Hot patches/electric zaps on lower legs, Eye twitch. Nerve pain in back and crawling feeling on left forearm. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted August 21, 2014 Administrator Share Posted August 21, 2014 MissMellie, thank you so much for posting that for AAO. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted August 21, 2014 Author Share Posted August 21, 2014 I have been in the same spot as you againstallodds. I had terribly disgusting and violent thoughts that I thought I would never get rid off. Please know that they are not you and that they do disappear. I am currently 28months out and thoughts have disappeared now. I get an occasional one, but I can dismiss it very quickly and I know its not me. I can honestly say that at the 2 year mark, there were huge improvements with this. I basically did a cold turkey withdrawal so I believe my symptoms were quite severe and I definelty would not recommend it, but this was truly one of my worst symptoms and it has gone. You will get there, I promise! Many thanks for the encouragement You're so strong you survived this hell, well done! I hope I can reach a point were I can be free of the drugs This is the 3-4 (I do not really remember) I'm trying to get off but it's much too strong for me I didnt know then what I know now, listened to too many psychiatrists thet told me to go down too fast That's why I started Seroxat alone, I have no more faith in doctors Once I find a balance I could go down the right way To some extent disappointed in myself that I could not stay clean I am far from feeling ok and I hope I did the right thing by returning to take Seroxat .. I guess time will tell Until then, I'm taking it day by day, dont see any alternative.. 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Petunia Posted August 23, 2014 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 23, 2014 "I hope I can reach a point were I can be free of the drugs" You will get free, it may take some time, but you will get there "This is the 3-4 (I do not really remember) I'm trying to get off but it's much too strong for me" The withdrawal symptoms are strong, but you are stronger, with each day you get through, you are one day stronger. "I didnt know then what I know now, listened to too many psychiatrists thet told me to go down too fast That's why I started Seroxat alone, I have no more faith in doctorsOnce I find a balance I could go down the right way" Yes, you will stabilize, it may take a few weeks, maybe a few months, but with patience, it will happen and then you will be ready to begin a safe, careful taper towards drug freedom. "To some extent disappointed in myself that I could not stay clean" Well I admire you for being willing to learn about how to taper properly and then do what you needed to do to take care of yourself and your health. That to me is real strength, when someone can admit mistakes and learn from them. "I am far from feeling ok and I hope I did the right thing by returning to take Seroxat ..I guess time will tell" If you are feeling a little better or at least not worse, then I think it was a good decision "Until then, I'm taking it day by day, dont see any alternative.. " This is how I've managed to get through my own withdrawal experience, by taking each day as it comes. It will get better, you will get off the drugs and recover, in time, and we are here to help. I'm not a doctor. My comments are not medical advise. These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I've learned. Please discuss your situation with a medical practitioner who has knowledge of tapering and withdrawal...if you are lucky enough to find one. My Introduction Thread Full Drug and Withdrawal History Brief Summary Several SSRIs for 13 years starting 1997 (for mild to moderate partly situational anxiety) Xanax PRN ~ Various other drugs over the years for side effects 2 month 'taper' off Lexapro 2010 Short acute withdrawal, followed by 2 -3 months of improvement then delayed protracted withdrawal DX ADHD followed by several years of stimulants and other drugs trying to manage increasing symptoms Failed reinstatement of Lexapro and trial of Prozac (became suicidal) May 2013 Found SA, learned about withdrawal, stopped taking drugs...healing begins. Protracted withdrawal, with a very sensitized nervous system, slowly recovering as time passes Supplements which have helped: Vitamin C, Magnesium, Taurine Bad reactions: Many supplements but mostly fish oil and Vitamin D June 2016 - Started daily juicing, mostly vegetables and lots of greens. Aug 2016 - Oct 2016 Best window ever, felt almost completely recovered Oct 2016 -Symptoms returned - bad days and less bad days. April 2018 - No windows, but significant improvement, it feels like permanent full recovery is close. VIDEO: Where did the chemical imbalance theory come from? VIDEO: How are psychiatric diagnoses made? VIDEO: Why do psychiatric drugs have withdrawal syndromes? VIDEO: Can psychiatric drugs cause long-lasting negative effects? VIDEO: Dr. Claire Weekes Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted August 23, 2014 Author Share Posted August 23, 2014 "I hope I can reach a point were I can be free of the drugs" You will get free, it may take some time, but you will get there "This is the 3-4 (I do not really remember) I'm trying to get off but it's much too strong for me" The withdrawal symptoms are strong, but you are stronger, with each day you get through, you are one day stronger. "I didnt know then what I know now, listened to too many psychiatrists thet told me to go down too fast That's why I started Seroxat alone, I have no more faith in doctors Once I find a balance I could go down the right way" Yes, you will stabilize, it may take a few weeks, maybe a few months, but with patience, it will happen and then you will be ready to begin a safe, careful taper towards drug freedom. "To some extent disappointed in myself that I could not stay clean" Well I admire you for being willing to learn about how to taper properly and then do what you needed to do to take care of yourself and your health. That to me is real strength, when someone can admit mistakes and learn from them. "I am far from feeling ok and I hope I did the right thing by returning to take Seroxat .. I guess time will tell" If you are feeling a little better or at least not worse, then I think it was a good decision "Until then, I'm taking it day by day, dont see any alternative.. " This is how I've managed to get through my own withdrawal experience, by taking each day as it comes. It will get better, you will get off the drugs and recover, in time, and we are here to help. thanks pute, appreciate your detailed answer, support here is amazing I dont know how I feel I'm certainly not balanced yet every moment feels different, very confused, hard to explain (especially to myself) I find it hard to speak even the simplest conversations, I feel like everyone judge me even people who are very close right now its very difficult for me to express myself properly here for the same unclear reason even though I know you're here to help everything revolves fear On the other hand there seems to be a benefit (tiny) in sleep quality and fear does not come crazy crazy Peakes Still very difficult for me to get out, strong and irrational fears So, again I'm trapped to feel satisfaction, happiness, confidence I need to keep moving from the horror I stuck most of the time alone I have no desire to see hardly anyone even the people I love and respect scare me It's just insanity So if there is relief It is so so tiny, almost invisible I hope it will get better and the non-stop terrible thoughts will calm down a bit and give me some space 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
Jose Posted September 24, 2014 Share Posted September 24, 2014 Hello AAO, just wanted to check how you are doing, hope you are improving. Best, Jose 1999-2004 citalopram 10 to 20mg with 2-3 withdrawal attempts.2004 fluvoxamine for 4-5 months aprox. Changed to venlafaxine because of the headaches and dizziness.2005-March 2014 venlafaxine usually starting on 150mg and coming down to 75 or 37.5. Several withdrawal attempts.In March 2014 I stopped taking 37.5mg of venlafaxine without tapering. Went through 5 months of confusion, anxiety, insomnia and desperation. From then I am very slowly recovering, on windows and waves. Symptoms: muscle stiffness and aches, shortness of breath, abdominal pain, memory loss, inability to concentrate or think straight, difficulty to speak, difficulty to read (improving). Taking omega3, magnesium, calcium, vitamin E and probiotics. Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted September 24, 2014 Author Share Posted September 24, 2014 Hello AAO, just wanted to check how you are doing, hope you are improving. Best, Jose overall Im better still have a lot of work to do on myself, well part of being human I guess but now there is more energy to do so I'm learning to take things into perspective, fall, get up and move on, not rushing taking day by day Thank you very much for your interest hope you are good Take care 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
Jose Posted September 25, 2014 Share Posted September 25, 2014 That's wonderful to hear, AAO. Keep going! 1999-2004 citalopram 10 to 20mg with 2-3 withdrawal attempts.2004 fluvoxamine for 4-5 months aprox. Changed to venlafaxine because of the headaches and dizziness.2005-March 2014 venlafaxine usually starting on 150mg and coming down to 75 or 37.5. Several withdrawal attempts.In March 2014 I stopped taking 37.5mg of venlafaxine without tapering. Went through 5 months of confusion, anxiety, insomnia and desperation. From then I am very slowly recovering, on windows and waves. Symptoms: muscle stiffness and aches, shortness of breath, abdominal pain, memory loss, inability to concentrate or think straight, difficulty to speak, difficulty to read (improving). Taking omega3, magnesium, calcium, vitamin E and probiotics. Link to comment
mlrp Posted September 25, 2014 Share Posted September 25, 2014 I, too, am glad to hear you have gotten some level of relief, AAO. Your last post reminded me of the Japanese saying, "Fall down seven times, get up eight." Keep up the good work... slow and steady... 04/2013 diagnoses: severe insomnia, major depressive disorder, anxiety disorder, agoraphobia. PTSD (my diagnosis) Original scripts: 30 mg mirtazapine (Remeron) (1x day), 75 mg Bupropion HCL (Wellbutrin) (2x day), and 0.5 lorazepam (1x day or as needed) 05/05/14: Onset of acute Wellbutrin withdrawal symptoms after haphazard "taper" of 6-8 wks. 05/10/14: Joined this site. 05/11/14: Reinstated approx. 25 mg Wellbutrin (1x day) 05/14/14: Switched to 12.5 mg Wellbutrin (2x day) 06/28/14: Changed lorazepam dosing to .25 mg 2x a day - seems to be reducing anxiety flare-ups 07/28/14: Dosing Wellbutrin in a (home made) solution form 12.5 mg (2x day) 08/15/14: Remeron 28 25.2 22.7 20.5 18.5 16.7 15.1 13.6 mg (home made) solution 05/16/15: Have been dosing lorazepam at .5 mg in the morning, .25 mg in the afternoon, and .25 mg at bedtime. Anxiety has increased somewhat, possibly due to tolerance. Link to comment
Againstallodds Posted September 25, 2014 Author Share Posted September 25, 2014 Many thanks jose & mirp and all the other wonderful people who support Wishing us all to be strong in front of the imaginary demons Best to you all 1998 was hospitalized due to anorexica-gave me citaloparm-didnt have anxiety, depression, OCD 2002-Paroxetine,05-escitaloparm,06-fluoxetine,07-zoloft (3 times), 09-Prozac (2 times)-(Most SSRI made mania) general drugs I took:*ZIPREXA,Risperdal,Saphris,Seroquel,Clopixol*efexor/venlafaxine,Cymbalta*lamictal,Tegretol*sorbon,Lyrica up to 75 mg,wallbotrin*Prothiazine-once in a while*Clonex,Vaben,Lorivan,Xanax,Assival 2012-Favoksil up to 200 mg for 4 m, Cause hospitalized in a mental hospital 2012-venlafaxine-was on it for 5-6 m-Worse after-lamictal, saphris-no help 2013 zoloft 50 mg-Made me eczema's so bad I had to stop immediately and take steroids Prednisone-up to 60 mg for 1.5 month-made me very high-got off gradually and went back to hell 7/2013-3 m-start Anafranil up to 150 mg-Very very bad-Come down every week-125 mg,100 mg,75 mg,50 mg,25 mg,12.5 mg.Clean since 22.12.13 took omega 3, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B before the withdrawal,now it seems my body Allergic, taking vitamin D for months still low on blood tests 13.8.14-Due to a terrible withdrawal Start of Seroxat 5 M"g- too strong 15.8.14 Reduced to 2.5 mg Link to comment
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