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Hi,

 

I was hospitalized in October 2013. My diagnosis was brief reactive psychosis. Although I am pretty sure that it was induced by weed, but by the time I was hospitalized the weed was already out of my system. (Stopped smoking Sept 8 2013, and was hospitalized on 27th Oct 2013). I havent smoked weed since Sept 8 2013. The doctor forced me to take an injection of Invegga Sustenna, and additionaly I was taking Zyprexa and Diapine every night. My dosage of the medicine was gradually reduced. I stopped taking Zyprexa and Diapine on March 4th 2014. And my last injection of Invegga Sustenna was on May 24th 2014. I listened to my doctor when it came to taking the medication. through. There were times when I would just stare at the ceiling wishing that I could redo my life from an earlier point in time, and this is what I would normally be thinking about most of the time. I enjoyed sleeping and lucid dreaming instead of being awake. I still do now, I sleep for a good 12-14 hours everyday still. Now I can feel pleasure though. Things are not as depressing as they were. I enjoy eating, and also watching tv shows.. Although I have gained 28kgs (61 pounds) in the time since I started the medication last year. For 2 months from June 16th 2014 to the end of August I was exercising everyday and I hated it and exercising did not feel as good as it used to, since the end of August until now I have not been exercising.

 

During my psychosis, I would go through delusions, often about religions and spirituality. There was no controlling it and at that point in time everything seemed to be making sense no matter how delusional the thoughts were. When I watched the tv I would be relating things on the screen to real life and watching tv became hectifc. Since I have stopped taking the medications I was hoping that the weight gain would stop, but it seems that while I was taking the medication my eating habits got amplified and I still eat as much as if I were on the medicine. Overall life seems better then when I first came out of the hospital although gaining weight is depressing and I don't like being overweight. Other then that I am not working or studying, spending most of my days sleeping and watching tv. I am hoping to change this though.

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mammaP

Hi JCtunes, welcome to SA.  I am glad that you are getting better, and that you haven't had too many

withdrawal symptoms.  There is life after meds and you are well on the way to getting yours back. 

There are many helpful topics in the self care forums that will help you to get motivated and off the sofa.

It is hard when you have been so sick, and it seems overwhelming to get up and take control again but

you seem ready and eager to do that which is brilliant.  :)

 

Try gentle exercise to begin with, go for a walk every day, rain or shine and you will be surprised at how

much better you will feel. You can increase the distance gradually so that your body gets used to it. Healthy

food and light exercise and The  weight will start to fall away.  

 

Thank you for sharing your story, keep in touch and let us know how it's going won't you?

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jctunes

Hi mammaP,

 

Thank you for your reply. Yes I will try going for walks and building a routine, as for the healthy food, that is difficult but I will try also. I will update if I feel any significant changes. Thanks

 

 

jctunes

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jctunes

Hi.

I haven't posted in a while so I thought I'll update. So far I've been active and resumed in university in January. Im doing it online though. Since my last post I've lost over 10kg. Ive been active in social sports, playing soccer, basketball, and badminton almost everyday. I also lift weights at the gym. Basically exercising alot and it feels good to be active. Im hoping to lose alot more weight and get in better shape still. I now feel that its possible. Overall im much happier. I still sleep 12 hours and sometimes more though and I enjoy that. Sometimes I get thoughts about smoking weed again but I have not done it. I know its bad for me and that I would feel like **** afterwards if I did it, and possibly risk psychosis again. Most people I hang out with smoke though so it makes things more difficult and temptation will be there. Anyways I guess in a way I'm glad that I had taken my medication and listened to my doctor. I think it helped me recover and become stable even though I gained alot of weight.

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Hudgens

To save your sanity you must get new pot-free friends. You were very lucky to get off with a warning concerning the pot. But if you start again you may find out that the psychosis doesn't go away next time. I know this happens with alcohol, Cocaine and methamphetamine. Did you enjoy being crazy? Stay away from that drug and anyone else who uses it.

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Altostrata

jctunes, are you still off the drugs?

 

It sounds like other than being tempted by marijuana, you are well?

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jctunes

Yes still off the medication, stopped it May last year. I still visit the doc for regular check ups every month or two though. Next follow-up is tomorrow. Yes doing much better than I was many months ago

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Altostrata

Very happy to hear you're doing better. I added our cheerful "here comes the sun" symbol

 

 

to the title of your Intro topic, to show you're recovering.

 

Please continue to let us know how you're doing. I hope you will add your story to our Recovery Success Stories eventually!

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jctunes

Just Updating: 

I've finished my spring and summer terms for university and am about to start in my final year of study for my undergraduate study. Things have been going good. I went out socializing and partying a few times, drank alcohol in April, July, and earlier this week. I have not touched marijuana, and don't plan to. No cravings either. Active in social sports, at least 4-5 times a week; have not been going to the gym as often though, but hoping to start soon again. Lost almost 20kgs since my heaviest weight and many people have been complimenting me on this and it feels good. I've been taking health supplements (such as apple cider vinegar, vitamins, spirulina, pomengranate extract, and some others) in the morning, and sleep has been extremely good, except this week is not as great but still good, most likely because of partying too much earlier this past week. Although I have been losing weight, I feel my diet is not as optimal as it should be. Usually breakfasts is good as I have a fruit smoothie almost every morning, however lunch and dinner consists of unbalanced and junk food sometimes and I feel I should learn how to cook and make healthier meals which will also help my body and mind. I'm looking forward to getting in better shape, graduating from university next year, and hopefully getting a good job. My visits to the doctor have also been good, he wrote that my condition is recovered/good now. Next visit in September. 

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Altostrata

Very good to hear, jc. Do you have any withdrawal symptoms now?

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jctunes

No withdrawal. The meds stopped last year and it was uncomfortable and difficult at first but all good now

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Altostrata

How was it uncomfortable and difficult?

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jctunes

Used to feel down, depressed, and not feel like doing anything besides eating and sleeping, thats why I had gained a lot of weight. Most of the time I used to think what if I could redo things, or what if this hadnt happended or that happened instead, just regretting things mostly and pondering with unproductive thoughts. Eventually that stopped and I got back on track. Sleeping after the meds had stopped initially became a little difficult as well because I was taking them at 8pm sharp everyday and the meds would help knock me out. After a while got used to it though

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Altostrata

How long did it take for those unproductive thoughts to stop? How long did it take for your sleep to recover?

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jctunes

Thoughts starting getting better when I was active and exercising, started slowly at the end of October 2014 and got much better when I started going to the gym consistently in December 2014. As for the marijuana cravings and thoughts, I think I had it because I was playing basketball and then after, friends smoked marijuana, I got a second hand smell from a distance, and then I had dinner with them after and they just seemed so relaxed and happy. However I knew I didn't want to do it or risk psychosis again. When I used to sit at home and not be engaged in anything productive, that's when the thoughts would go wild. 

 

As for the sleeping. For a month or so even after stopping the meds I would start to fall sleepy at around 8pm everyday, that was the time I stopped taking the zyprexa and diapine every night after the doctor said it was ok to stop. I wouldn't knock out right away though, maybe 30mins to an hour. On the meds I fell asleep everyday at 8pm sharp, right after taking them. However a couple months later after the meds had stopped my routine became really bad and I would be awake till morning and then sleep till evening on a reverse schedule for a while. Only when I started excising regularly I slowly started getting up earlier in the afternoon. Nowadays I will mostly wake up in the morning and not sleep as much as 12-14 hours but rather between 8-10 hours.

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Altostrata

Good for you, sounds like you're listening to your body and it's worked well.

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jctunes

Its been a couple years since I logged in here and I am aware of the progress that I have made yet sometimes being surrounded by relatives and friends who  some say maybe well-intention yet highly critical and discouraging I feel like I need to reflect and share my progress. 

My environment also does not help that the environment is filled with highly superstitious individuals. I would like to update this forum and provide a ray of hope to those reading if you face something similar in your recovery process. I learnt that it does not pay to blame outside circumstances, so I will work with what I have got and share the updates below, just know that an amazing life is possible after hard times and I hope my post helps.

 

My focus is now launching my own venture and I am grateful for all the wonderful progress I have made through better habits and persistence, yet even now as I continue to grow, the criticisms and gossips of my relatives and friends is a little hurtful and I hope that if anyone reading this understands one thing is that life after medication can get better and sometimes our surrounding social circle may not be helpful, yet my advice is set goals and do not pay attention or let that affect you.

 

Along 2015-2017 -  I have exercised almost every, read over 30 non-fiction books on (self-development, habits, social interaction, goal-settings), watched lectures and videos on Youtube on self-development and even the days where I got a fever or did not feel like doing something, I made the effort to get up and go out and move in the park, sports facilities or gym. Additionally, listened to a lot of Oldies and Classical music through this period and now as well. 

 

Presently:

Exercise everyday first thing in the morning regardless of whether I will play sports later on during the day. Creating and building my own company, something I have dreamed of since I was young and I am working on this to add value to society.

 

Few notes on the things which I believe had a massive impact on my recovery after medication:

  • First thing in the morning for 2 years : Had a Mixed Berry and Banana smoothie
  • I exercised frequently along with sports and socialized (Did all this even all the times I did not feel like it)
  • Kept a journal and vented all my thoughts and feelings. I threw away the journal recently and before I did,  re-read all my notes and laughed at some of the things I wrote/vented.
  • Music. Positive Oldies music made all the difference for me and kept me in a good mood frequently. 

 

In 2013-2014: Life was not so good -  Small steps to adjust habits proved great. (The sum is: Post-Medication, Repetitive negative thoughts, Lazyness, Massive weight gain (About 70+ Pounds at my highest weight point)

December 2014: Reapplied for admission to university (online) and resumed in January 2015 (Started with 5 online classes)

Summer 2015 - Continued university in addition to certificate courses and singing and acting classes. Social interaction frequently. 

December 2015- Lost over 70 Pounds. Fit and positive period. Went for many networking events for startups while working on university degree (Took extra classes every semester to finish quicker)

Spring 2016- University continued, learnt web design. Networking frequently, and tech events. 

Summer 2016: Finished Undergraduate School (Along with additional technology certificate courses)

Spring 2017: Finished Graduate School on Campus - Completed (Along with learning programming and part-time Mandarin courses)

Worked in startups, learnt to code. Currently I play sports 4-5 times a week.

 

 

jctunes

 

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jctunes

I had a couple relapses. Back on Invegga, Aca, Rivotril, and Olanzapine :(

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ChessieCat

Sorry to hear that. 

 

Q:  What is Aca?

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jctunes

Not sure about its chemical name, the doc said its to reduce the side effects from the other medicines

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Altostrata

Why all 4 drugs? That seems excessive. Suggest you put ALL your drugs in the Drug Interactions Checker https://www.drugs.com/drug_interactions.php

and consider the cocktail.

 

Please let us know when you want to taper.

 

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jctunes
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On 7/27/2020 at 4:30 AM, Altostrata said:

Why all 4 drugs? That seems excessive. Suggest you put ALL your drugs in the Drug Interactions Checker https://www.drugs.com/drug_interactions.php

and consider the cocktail.

 

Please let us know when you want to taper.

 

 

I feel the side effects clearly as mentioned on the drug-interaction website. The dosage has been reduced for some of them, however, I am meeting the doc again on the 8th and will see what he says. My weight gain is also back. I am the heaviest I have been since this recent relapse. I gained a lot of weight very fast as a result of over eating which probably comes as a coping mechanism from the crisis along with amplified eating from the medicines. I am optimistic that the dosage will be gradually reduced but at the moment the side effects of feeling is really annoying and I am trying to eat less but it feels like I have no control over that. I'll keep posting as things progresses. If it were up to me, I would reduce all the drugs, but I have to wait and see what the doctor says in the next appointment.

 

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Altostrata

You need to discuss the interactions report with the doctor.

 

You are taking duplicated drugs. This is not good medical practice.

 

To help us out, follow these instructions Please put your drug and withdrawal history in your signature You may need to use a computer to do this.

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