Mjau: Starting to taper Wellbutrin and Sertraline

[Mjau]

Thanks Amy, hope you're doing well!

 

Yes, this site really makes a huge difference. It's so important to have other people to connect with in this situation we're in. I'm happy tntd that you are smiling!! I am smiling as well :-)

Time for that magnesium lotion. Hope you're continuing to experience improvement!

[tntd]

Hi Mjau,

 

Well, I seem to be in a window. I have been getting them about every two weeks. Seems a little odd that they are so regular but i will take them  

 

I hope you are still enjoying your window too. 

 

When do you plan on making your next cut?

 

Hug

[Mjau]

Finally I think I've been stable enough and I will make my next cut tomorrow! From 33 to 32,5 mg. The plan will be to hold two weeks from there and then cut to 32 mg. So very cautiously this time.

[tntd]

Hi Mjau,

 

Here is wishing you a good taper. I hope that if you have any withdrawals they will be minor and easily handled.

 

Is the Magnesium lotion still helping your akathisia?

 

I will be thinking of you as you start your taper.

 

Hugs and healing.

[Mjau]

Thank you for your well wishes! The akathisia has become better   It seems I had a surge of it during a few days prior to the cycle starting over again. Now that it's better I feel more confident of taking my next tapering steps. The magnesium lotion helped when I had it. It's good to have some things you can do to alleviate restlessness/akathisia!

I do hope this time will be smoother than last!!

Hugs!! 

[tntd]

I hope it will be too. Sending postive thoughts and energy your way. Glad you're through the dark side

[tntd]

Hi Mjau, 

 

I've been thinking about you today. Hope things are going well.

[Mjau]

I'm happy tntd for your warm thoughts! I've been thinking of you as well wondering how you are doing!

 

I've been busy doing a lot if things the last couple of days, and that's pretty good! Energy levels are quite good! :-) Today is day 2 on 32.5 mg. A few times I've felt irritation that's been a bit out of proportion today but that might be caffeine induced. I fell for the temptation and had a cup of coffee today... won't happen tomorrow!

[tntd]

I'm so glad that things are going well with the current taper and that you have been able to get things done. I hope it continues and I know what you mean about giving in to a cup of coffee. Sometimes you just want the taste.

 

When I give in I have a cup of decafe and I add a 200 mg l-theanine to it to counter the effects of the little bit of caffeine. Seems to work well and I only do it occasionally.

 

My wave has turned into a bad one but I have been keeping myself distracted as much as I can. I think I had to much chocolate yesterday and that made things worse. So, reducing chocolate for me!!! I like dark chocolate so I'm probably getting too much caffeine from it. Sigh, it tastes so good though, especially when I feel so yucky

 

Hope you continue to do well with this cut. Everyday we are closer to our goal  Hugs

[tntd]

Hi Mjau,

 

Just checking in. Hope you are doing well and your taper is continuing to progress in an acceptable way.

 

Hugs

[Mjau]

Hi!

 

Thank you tntd, it's so nice of you to drop by and say hi! I really appreciate it 

 

Somehow I haven't checked in here during the last month. I would like to keep in touch with people here, I would like to make connections. I might be active during a week or two and then suddenly I stop thinking about the forum. It's the same thing in other areas of my life. I get interested in something, I get involved and then suddenly I lose my focus. Something else gets my attention. And this is a problem. I would like to keep things consistent, to have routines, but I continuously fail. It's so hard for me to keep in touch with people. I long for connection but it is as if I don't know how to be in touch with people. It didn't used to be like this. It's so hard. I hope things will improve as I recover!

 

And things have become a little better lately. I did my last drop two weeks ago. Now 32 mg Sertraline. Had mild withdrawal symptoms during the first week, head ache mostly, which has now subsided. Yesterday was a good day at work! I managed to work more than I've been able to for a long time. 

[tntd]

I'm so glad to hear that things are going well for you. I think a lot of people when they are feeling better get to doing other things and forget about or don't have time to check in. I know I have found that to be true for myself as well. 

 

Hugs

[Mjau]

Sometimes catching a flu can be a good thing. You just have to stop and rest and listen to your body. 

Finally I have some time for contemplation. I just realize that I haven't given myself enough time to just be. Something is always driving me to do a lot of things. And a lot of things for me is not a lot of things for other people, I am far far from recovered from psychiatric drug damage and get easily fatigued. So I've been overexerting myself now again. I hope I'll learn to find the balance, but it's hard.

 

I've been tapering in small increments of 0,2 mg lately. In december my Sertraline dose was 29 mg, now 28,2 mg. I've been on a hold for about 3 weeks due to increasing withdrawal symptoms: head ache, fatigue, strange associations, vivid dreams, surreal feelings. When it was at it's worst 2 weeks ago I had really awful thoughts of hurting myself and others. Luckily that lasted only a few days but it was frightening. So now I'm holding. 

 

I'm trying to learn to live well through all of this. I try to accept what is happening. It's a process that just have to have it's own course. I'm trying to navigate. Obviously I am very sensitive to small drops right now. 

It feels good to catch up a little with the forum again. I am thankful for this forum and all the support in here.

[tntd]

Hi Mjau,

 

It's good to hear from you. I'm glad to see that you have been able to keep tapering even if it is slowly. I hope that this hold will help you feel better quickly. 

 

You are so right, this journey is hard and we all have to find our own way. I've had a number of the same w/d sxs but the vivid dreams are crazy and wake me up, sometimes in a state of anxiety. I hope you don't have that aspect of them. 

 

I'm thinking of you,

 

Hugs and Healing

[Mjau]

Thank you tntd, good to hear from you too!  Hope you're getting better!

[tntd]

Thanks, everyday is a day closer to being healed

[AmyK]

Frightening with those thoughts, Mjau. But remember it's only thoughts. It's not real.

I want to cheer you on, you are doing so well, turtling on.

Best of luck!

Hugs!

[Mjau]

Thank you Amy for cheering me on!   Yes I'm turtling, and somewhere I read that in the end the turtle wins.

Hugs to you!!

[tntd]

Turtles are awesome, well maybe not snapping turtles! They may not be the fastest but they still get where they're going. I hope your symptoms are starting to subside some as you hold.

 

Hugs

[Mjau]

Yes, the turtle is moving forward even if it is at a turtle's pace. And that's much much better than just standing still, then no change will happen. Let's say I'm dropping the dose by 0,2 mg each month. Then I'll be done in about 11 years.....! That feels like...   ! But on the other hand, if that will be the case I still will be med free one day and not stay on the meds for the rest of my life as at least three doctor's have told me. Note to self: I'm just gonna try and surf any waves that come in my way....

[AmyK]

Dont think to much about it, Mjau. Things can change. Just go with how it feels.

Stay strong!

[Mjau]

I guess I had to vent out some frustration. You are right Amy, the best thing is to just go with how it feels. Thank you :-)

[tntd]

I feel your pain Mjau and this is the perfect place to vent your frustration as we understand completely.

 

We'll get there one day and what a day that will be

 

The best is yet to come.

 

Hugs and healing

[Altostrata]

Hello, @Mjau how are you doing?