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So, I'm a Pp refugee. I'll try to be brief, for those that don't want to read me rabbiting on, I have a couple of questions you might be able to help with so I'll ask them first. 1) can I write a journal on this site? 2) how do I see if anyone has commented after my comment? Is there some kind of notification system?

Right, now for the intro. I'm 34 (next month) and need ivf to have children so decided to come off seroxat 30mg after 16 years and honestly didn't think it would be an issue I got down to 15mg and went to the doc for a pat on the back and 10mg. I got no such thing, was told to take 15mg every other day for 2 weeks then stop. which I done and went nuts. Doc said to stay on them while pregnant, refused to give me liquid version (too expensive) and said if I wanted help to pay for a councillor. Found pp and tapered 10% every two weeks, writing a journal. At 6.8mg everything that annoyed me sent me into melt down. I sacked long term customers (in a cleaner), had panic attacks (never had them before) and nearly left the husband and cats to live abroad. I could see no logic and was convinced I wasn't being irrational. Until a pep talk from step dad made me go up to 10mg again. Once stable (a few weeks) I couldn't believe the person of the last few months was me. I still can't relate to it. I swore never to taper again until now. Decided to take it VERY slow. Am on week 3 of a 10% drop and doing ok (apart from wanting to cry at EVERYTHING!). Am only going to do 5% cuts every 4 weeks if I feel up to it. It's a slow process as you all know, but here I am and hope this time round I will do it. Am having tests now for ivf and hopefully will start around March. Glad I've found this site, it's so good to talk to people in the same boat.

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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It is very good to talk to others in the same boat. Welcome. I went through and I am still going through the crazies. I wish I had known about the taper before I went off five months ago. My doctor had the same attitude as yours and I tapered off in two months. It has been five and a half months and I am still suffering. I tried to reinstate 1.2 mg to alleviate symptoms but after five months off it isn't doing much. I am glad you were able to reinstate and stabilize and begin a taper. I hope your journey is easier this time around.

2002-put on amitryptiline for fibromyalgia. 10mg.2004-stopped abruptly. Didn't think it helped.2006 approx.-put on Paxil for mild anxiety 20 mg.2007 upped to 40 mg. not sure why.2011- tapered from 40 to 10. went nuts and went back to 20mg2014- tapered from 20mg to 0 from April to The end of June.current meds- Metformin(type 2 diabetic) and low dose aspirin.Take multi vitamin and vit b12, vit. D and magnesium. 5 months off Paxil. Still suffering.recently added 1.2mg of Paxil to alleviate withdrawals.(Nov 30)Dropped to .9mg because having symptoms from reinstatement.(dec 23)<p>taper to .76mg-.8mg (Feb 3) approx. weight .010 to about .008-.009 on scale.
.6mg (march 19th.) .5mg(April 19th)
.4mg(April 27th)
.2 (June 27th)

0mg.  done taper at beginning of August.

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Hi Micromonster, welcome to SA. I'll try and answer your questions..... if I can remember!

 

1) Your introductions thread is your journal to as you please, it is great to be able to look back and see how 

much progress has been made. You can also post questions about your taper here. 

 

2)You can adjust the settings to get notifications on threads that you follow and can follow your own thread.

To change settings click the little arrow next to your name at the top of the page, you will find settings there.

You will also find the signature  option too, so you can fill out your tapering history.

There is a little box between the envelope (messages) and your name at the top of the page. Notifications

will appear there in red. 

 

I'm sorry that your doctor gave you bad advice about tapering, sadly most of them haven't a clue! I'm glad that you 

are feeling better and able to start tapering again, and think you are very wise to consider the 5% reduction after

everything you have been through. It is slow but you will get there n the end  :)

**I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge.

 

 

Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem)

1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat

2002  effexor. 

Tapered  March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads.

Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013

Restarted taper  Nov 2013  

OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015    :D 

Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014

 

Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg  

 July 2017 30mg.  May 15 2018 25mg

Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. 

 

My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33

 

Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible

 

 

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Hi micromonster-- I'm so glad you were able to find us.  From what I have been able to find out this is to be your journal.  Most communication will be done here.  There are other forums for specific topics and questions and the "Off Topic" thread is the Lounge.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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Thanks guys ????

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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I read through your journal on pp before it closed down.  I'm glad to see you here!

zoloft 2004-08 tapered too fast(2 weeks)
Luvox 5/08 100 mg 07/10 40mg via small reductions, 08/10 39mg, 09/10 38mg, 10/10 37mg, 11/10 36mg,2/11 35mg, 5/11 34mg, 8/11 33mg, 11/11 32mg, 01/12 31mg, 03/12 30mg, 4/12 29mg, 5/12 28 mg, 8/12 27 mg, 11/12 26 mg, 1/13 25 mg, 3/13 24 mg, 4/13 23 mg,6/13 22 mg, 7/13 21 mg, 8/13 20mg, 10/13 19 mg, 11/13 18 mg, 12/13 17 mg, 1/14 16 mg, 3/14 13 mg, 9/14 10.9 mg,  1/15 10 mg, 3/15  9 mg,  5/15 8 mg. 11/15 7.12 mg.  4/16  5 mg, 6/16   4.5 mg,  9/16 4.2 mg, 1/17 3.48 mg, 2/17  3.2 mg,  4/17 2.2 mg, 5/17 2.0 mg, 6/17  1.74 mg, 7/17 1.58 mg, 9/17 1.27 mg, 11/17 1.0 mg,  1/18 0.79 mg

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Cheers mustang, your post was one of the last ones I saw. Hope all is well and Christmas not getting too stressful. It's week 3 in the Wd. Now, this happened during the last Wd so pretty sure it's a Wd symptom. I'm getting the 'angries'. This is when I think of things that happened ages ago. Stupid things, like people who have upset me. Now these things have been resolved when they happened, I said my bit at the time and moved on. Or so I thought. It seems that now, I think of these angry things and really wind myself up. Like last year when my sister came round, dumped the kids on me and said she'd be back to help prepare the veg. She came back 2 hrs later. She grabbed the kids and said she was going home, and then moaned at me because I wanted her to stay for a while. It's completly unjustified! Why the hell do I even care? I'm hoping its a phase and pretty sure it is coz it happened in the last Wd. Then I just end up feeling really guilty for feeling so angry! I really took it out on the hubby last time, although he's probably not the greatest at emotional support! Will try very hard this time to not take things out on him. Now when I gave up smoking, it took around 5 attempts, and each time I learnt something new. I think wd will be the same. From the last time, I learnt not to taper when I'm having a good day. A good day tricks me into thinking I've stabilised. I'll Only taper when I've had a good week! Maybe even two, and defo only doing 5% this time. Still very tearful. Some woman was calling the rspca for help over an injured swan when I was on my way to work and I just wanted to cry and hug her and tell her how good she was! I even got emotional over the film terminal (about a man stuck in an airport). Have seen it loads of times, but this time round I cried!!!

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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I hate the angries.  I know exactly what you're talking about.  I love the movie terminal it has some very emotional parts.  How long are you holding in between drops?  I have read that it can take 4 weeks to feel drops.  It may help to hold at least that long. 

zoloft 2004-08 tapered too fast(2 weeks)
Luvox 5/08 100 mg 07/10 40mg via small reductions, 08/10 39mg, 09/10 38mg, 10/10 37mg, 11/10 36mg,2/11 35mg, 5/11 34mg, 8/11 33mg, 11/11 32mg, 01/12 31mg, 03/12 30mg, 4/12 29mg, 5/12 28 mg, 8/12 27 mg, 11/12 26 mg, 1/13 25 mg, 3/13 24 mg, 4/13 23 mg,6/13 22 mg, 7/13 21 mg, 8/13 20mg, 10/13 19 mg, 11/13 18 mg, 12/13 17 mg, 1/14 16 mg, 3/14 13 mg, 9/14 10.9 mg,  1/15 10 mg, 3/15  9 mg,  5/15 8 mg. 11/15 7.12 mg.  4/16  5 mg, 6/16   4.5 mg,  9/16 4.2 mg, 1/17 3.48 mg, 2/17  3.2 mg,  4/17 2.2 mg, 5/17 2.0 mg, 6/17  1.74 mg, 7/17 1.58 mg, 9/17 1.27 mg, 11/17 1.0 mg,  1/18 0.79 mg

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I get the "angries" like that.  Dragging up stuff from my past and rehashing it over and over again, and it's all stuff I dealt with long ago.  I found that if I tell the thoughts that I have already dealt with them and to go away they generally do,  I have to be firm with them and then change the channel.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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Dropping by to say hello, micromonster.

The only way out is through.

 

Aug 2013 - Augmentin leading to akathisia

Sept-Nov 2013 - Citalopram 20mg, severe reaction, off at 5mg. Valium 4mg, prn

Oct 2013 - 5 zopiclone tablets, 7.5mg

End Nov 2013-end Feb 2014, Seroquel, top dose 150mg, off at 25mg

End Nov 2013-early march 2014, Zoloft 100mg top dose, off at 25mg

End Dec-2013-early April 2014, lorazepam 1mg prn

April 3rd 2014 zoloft 5mg for a few days. 18/4/14 - zoloft, 1mg. Came off at 0.35 mg,14th June 2014

29 June 2014 - 1mg lorazepam, last ever

29 June 2014 - med free

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Thanks guys, as sadistic as this sounds, it makes me feel so much better knowing I'm not the only one! I was dropping every 2 weeks before, thought I could cheat but obviously not! I also went from 30mg to 10mg in a few months so probably still hadn't recovered from the big drops id done. Defiantly learnt my lesson, I was close to suicide on the last taper. Gonna put Christmas songs on very loud not to drown out my brain.

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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Happy new year folks. Christmas has been and gone and today I'm feeling super positive. I've managed half a day on my diet! Only another month to go! So, I promised to take this wd slow and so far I have. It's been atleast 4 weeks on 9mg (10% drop). I am so tempted to do another 10% drop but I also said I'd only go 5% and that's what I'm sticking with. I bought some super scales but the chemist keeps giving me different shaped tablets! I've put in a request for the round ones in future, these oblong ones are so small it's impossible to be 100% accurate. I very nearly made a school girl error and took the percentage of the whole tablet, not 10% from the reduced dose! So from tomorrow I'm on 8.5mg. It's so tempting to drop more but I have to keep reminding myself that if I rush then I risk failing and being back on 10. I must do my signature when I get the chance.

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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The best of luck on your drop. Thinking positive!

2002-put on amitryptiline for fibromyalgia. 10mg.2004-stopped abruptly. Didn't think it helped.2006 approx.-put on Paxil for mild anxiety 20 mg.2007 upped to 40 mg. not sure why.2011- tapered from 40 to 10. went nuts and went back to 20mg2014- tapered from 20mg to 0 from April to The end of June.current meds- Metformin(type 2 diabetic) and low dose aspirin.Take multi vitamin and vit b12, vit. D and magnesium. 5 months off Paxil. Still suffering.recently added 1.2mg of Paxil to alleviate withdrawals.(Nov 30)Dropped to .9mg because having symptoms from reinstatement.(dec 23)<p>taper to .76mg-.8mg (Feb 3) approx. weight .010 to about .008-.009 on scale.
.6mg (march 19th.) .5mg(April 19th)
.4mg(April 27th)
.2 (June 27th)

0mg.  done taper at beginning of August.

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Still very tearful. Some woman was calling the rspca for help over an injured swan when I was on my way to work and I just wanted to cry and hug her and tell her how good she was! I even got emotional over the film terminal (about a man stuck in an airport). Have seen it loads of times, but this time round I cried!!!

 

still remember this part of withdrawal. A big hug to you, it's difficult, but it will pass.

 

I used to get teary eyed just going out in public. To the grocery store, wherever. Watching movies... even sad music would do it!

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Happy New Year Micro!!!!  The lower 10mg range seem to be the toughest so please stick to your plan and go very slow.  Don't jump the gun on any of it.

 

(((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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OMfg I just had a real big rant and the whole thing deleted grrrrrrrrrr I now want lots of chocolate!

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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Mmmmmm chocolate. Too bad I am diabetic. That stuff always freaks my sugars out. Eat lots for me too! Oh ya sorry about your post haha.

2002-put on amitryptiline for fibromyalgia. 10mg.2004-stopped abruptly. Didn't think it helped.2006 approx.-put on Paxil for mild anxiety 20 mg.2007 upped to 40 mg. not sure why.2011- tapered from 40 to 10. went nuts and went back to 20mg2014- tapered from 20mg to 0 from April to The end of June.current meds- Metformin(type 2 diabetic) and low dose aspirin.Take multi vitamin and vit b12, vit. D and magnesium. 5 months off Paxil. Still suffering.recently added 1.2mg of Paxil to alleviate withdrawals.(Nov 30)Dropped to .9mg because having symptoms from reinstatement.(dec 23)<p>taper to .76mg-.8mg (Feb 3) approx. weight .010 to about .008-.009 on scale.
.6mg (march 19th.) .5mg(April 19th)
.4mg(April 27th)
.2 (June 27th)

0mg.  done taper at beginning of August.

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OMfg I just had a real big rant and the whole thing deleted grrrrrrrrrr I now want lots of chocolate!

It's SOOOO frustrating when that happens yes? lolol. I always feel like I've lost a part of myself. And I can NEVER be bothered to reconstruct it all again, cos the feelings that made me rant have sort of... well... dissipated lololol :)

Put on Prothiaden for severe depression in 1989.  Recovered.   Prescribed Paxil for another bout of depression around 2000.   Have been trying to taper ever since but always crash about 2 months after getting to zero.   Because of the crashes, for years I thought that there was something wrong with me.   Then found that the crashes were simply withdrawal.   Now following a maximum of a 10% reduction every month or so and ready to slow down any time I feel any symptoms whatsoever.  Feeling good:).

7th Jan 15 - 3.6mg

28th Jan 15 - 3.2mg

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ill be back to rant again real soon, my first line was thanks you guys, your the greatest xxx

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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right, I need some advice. well actually I know the advice, just need to let off some steam. now, 6months ago was when I went nuts on my last wd. I stabilised and started again last month taking it a lot slower. when something went wrong, it felt like the whole world had come crashing down around me. one example was when I went to this womans to clean (my job) and there was dog poo and wee everywhere. this wasn't anything out of the ordinary, even though ive told her before I don't like it. what really sent me over the edge was the fact one dog was on its period! now at the time, I was wding and got there and cried and cried and cried. I called a friend and told her I didn't want to be there, she told me to walk out but I couldn't. I felt like I was letting her down. shes a really nice woman and gives me loads of nice things which I ebay. I handed in my notice (for the 3rd time), put leaflets out for more cleaning work and got a great response. I charged the new ones more and have now got work coming out my ears. since then, I agreed to stay and the pee and poo has not been as bad. however, today I noticed the little sh*tty dog has got its period again! I go there Monday and Fridays and im dreading Friday. heres my options

1) call in sick for the week

2) tell her I don't want to clean up dog period (which im too scared to do)

3) stop being a diva and deal with it

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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Haha I think there is a degree to which you should be responsible for cleaning. Dog excrement is not on that list. That is way over what you should be responsible for. My mom had cleaners come once and she cleaned before they got there so she wouldn't look like a dirty person haha. I do believe that it is very inconsiderate and rude for someone to leave such a mess for another to clean. Disrespectful to you. I would not accept such a job.

2002-put on amitryptiline for fibromyalgia. 10mg.2004-stopped abruptly. Didn't think it helped.2006 approx.-put on Paxil for mild anxiety 20 mg.2007 upped to 40 mg. not sure why.2011- tapered from 40 to 10. went nuts and went back to 20mg2014- tapered from 20mg to 0 from April to The end of June.current meds- Metformin(type 2 diabetic) and low dose aspirin.Take multi vitamin and vit b12, vit. D and magnesium. 5 months off Paxil. Still suffering.recently added 1.2mg of Paxil to alleviate withdrawals.(Nov 30)Dropped to .9mg because having symptoms from reinstatement.(dec 23)<p>taper to .76mg-.8mg (Feb 3) approx. weight .010 to about .008-.009 on scale.
.6mg (march 19th.) .5mg(April 19th)
.4mg(April 27th)
.2 (June 27th)

0mg.  done taper at beginning of August.

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I thought they had doggie diapers for that stuff?

First panic attack 2/94. On Prozac for 6 months with no relief. Then switched to imipramine for 6 months. Started on 30mg Paxil in 12/97 for panic attacks and anxiety. Worked fine until 2/13. Dose increased to 40mg and anxiety and panic got worse. Started tapering from 40mg in 11/13. Currently at 10.9mg and feeling better. Intermittent Xanax use throughout.

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I remember that micromonster! I remember you telling us about this woman on pp. Ooooo yuck - it sounds like a really hard choice for you :(. Don't like to see you suffer like this, so of course I think you should quit that job. But her being a nice woman makes that hard I know....... But think most of us here would be putting YOU first, so.....

Put on Prothiaden for severe depression in 1989.  Recovered.   Prescribed Paxil for another bout of depression around 2000.   Have been trying to taper ever since but always crash about 2 months after getting to zero.   Because of the crashes, for years I thought that there was something wrong with me.   Then found that the crashes were simply withdrawal.   Now following a maximum of a 10% reduction every month or so and ready to slow down any time I feel any symptoms whatsoever.  Feeling good:).

7th Jan 15 - 3.6mg

28th Jan 15 - 3.2mg

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I saw a fb post today that really summed up the situation.

 

Stress: the confusion created when ones mind overrides the bodies basic desire the choke the living **** out of some a**ehole that desperately needs it.

 

This is why I have the dilemma. I have the inability to tell her I'm not happy. I'm just not that brave! Which would surprise people who know me, I come across as very confident. I am in most situations, but not this one. Just glad I'm not in the same place I was 6 months ago. It really sent me over the edge. I handed in my notice but then felt terrible guilty and really felt I was over reacting. Thanks again guys xxx

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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I thought they had doggie diapers for that stuff?

They do, but the woman concerned is not in the slightest bit bothered because the good old cleaner cleans it up! Her house is really nice too, you would never believe she lets her dogs do pee and poo all over her house if you met her, she's very glam!

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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today I think I found out about a big part of who I am, and how I ended up on ads in the first place. I do apologise if this is turning into a story of me constantly moaning but need to get it out as I know I'm not going to sleep well tonight.. Today I was at work when the next door neighbour, the daughter, (who doesn't get on with the people I work for) came out and examined my parking. Now, to explain this I need to go back a bit. A few weeks ago, the dad purposely reversed into my car. He got out 3 times to check he was close enough before finally hitting it. At first I was shocked, then really angry. I summoned the courage to knock on his door and said polietly you have hit my car, can u please move forward so I can see if there's any damage. He made out my car had moved forward, but the whole thing was on CCTV. He refused to move and I told the owners of the house I was working in. Now, I could have got the police involved, my number plate was cracked (which he didn't do but I could have said he did) but didn't want to start turf wars so the owners went round that evening and he just got verbally abusive, saying I always park too close to his daughters car that's why he done it. They agreed to keep out of each others way. So why the hell does the snotty daughter come out today and check my parking in front of me. My problem now is I'm so angry. I keep going over and over in my head what I should have said or done. The fact I didn't say or do anything is making me angrier which will eventually make me depressed. it makes me want to go round there and smash her car up, or leave that job so I don't have to get wound up over the situation again. Is this a normal reaction? Do I have serious issues? How do I stop getting so wound up over stupid things? I feel the answer to that is to do something about it but like I said, I don't want to start wars, just wish it didn't bother me. .......I actually feel better already after that rant!

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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Btw, I would NEVER smash her car up, just FEELS like doing it!

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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That would make me pretty angry but I am in withdrawals too lol. If it is abnormal than I guess I am abnormal as well.

2002-put on amitryptiline for fibromyalgia. 10mg.2004-stopped abruptly. Didn't think it helped.2006 approx.-put on Paxil for mild anxiety 20 mg.2007 upped to 40 mg. not sure why.2011- tapered from 40 to 10. went nuts and went back to 20mg2014- tapered from 20mg to 0 from April to The end of June.current meds- Metformin(type 2 diabetic) and low dose aspirin.Take multi vitamin and vit b12, vit. D and magnesium. 5 months off Paxil. Still suffering.recently added 1.2mg of Paxil to alleviate withdrawals.(Nov 30)Dropped to .9mg because having symptoms from reinstatement.(dec 23)<p>taper to .76mg-.8mg (Feb 3) approx. weight .010 to about .008-.009 on scale.
.6mg (march 19th.) .5mg(April 19th)
.4mg(April 27th)
.2 (June 27th)

0mg.  done taper at beginning of August.

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It would make most people angry, it sure would me.  Most of the people I know would probably smash up her car, file a police report and sue for damages, doesn't speak to highly of the people I know does it.  That is if they didn't just shoot him outright, sorry to say it is a real possibility around here.  It probably would be best just to chalk it up to one of lifes unpleasant experiences, realize that some people are just plain d***s and there is nothing you can do about them.  Sometimes it is hard to be the better person, but it really does pay off in the end.

 

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20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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I just smashed up her car for you micro!  In my head.   And slashed her tyres.   And smacked her in the head.  Oh dear, I think I have issues too lololol.  

 

Those people sound like THEY have the REAL issues micro....

Put on Prothiaden for severe depression in 1989.  Recovered.   Prescribed Paxil for another bout of depression around 2000.   Have been trying to taper ever since but always crash about 2 months after getting to zero.   Because of the crashes, for years I thought that there was something wrong with me.   Then found that the crashes were simply withdrawal.   Now following a maximum of a 10% reduction every month or so and ready to slow down any time I feel any symptoms whatsoever.  Feeling good:).

7th Jan 15 - 3.6mg

28th Jan 15 - 3.2mg

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thanks guys. I'm still wound up over it today and planning my revenge! What makes it worse is that they are stinking rich in a million pound house with porches and range rovers. They must see me as 'just the cleaner'. Looks like my wish for not working tomorrow came true, I've been throwing up since two this morning. I'm not at work today and probably not tomorrow.

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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I'm defiantly in the midst of wd but hopefully not too severe. I'm crying over jeremy Kyle! For those unaware, it's an English jerry springer. More laughable than watchable and you certainly don't admit to people you watch it in secret. Without the people of these groups I'd be a lot worse. Without them, I'd think I was going nuts, now I'm aware it's wd and it won't last. I know i could be worse as I don't want rid of the cats and husband like I did in the last wd. Last night I spent googling anger. I was so wound up over the parking incident. My body was full of rage. It was horrible. I found a few tips on Google I'm going to try, like put an elastic band round your wrist, and every time I get an angry thought, I ping it. Apparently, pain is a good motivator. I've stopped throwing up and offered to go back to work today but no one wants me! Hence the reason I'm watching jeremy Kyle!!!

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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Omg micro - watching Jeremy Kyle!   I find it really scary to think that the people on there really exist!   In large numbers!   lololol - it makes the rest of us seem really normal rational beings yes?   lolol.

 

You have to tell me if the elastic band works - I'll try it myself if it does.  

 

Back to Jeremy Kyle then .....  :)

Put on Prothiaden for severe depression in 1989.  Recovered.   Prescribed Paxil for another bout of depression around 2000.   Have been trying to taper ever since but always crash about 2 months after getting to zero.   Because of the crashes, for years I thought that there was something wrong with me.   Then found that the crashes were simply withdrawal.   Now following a maximum of a 10% reduction every month or so and ready to slow down any time I feel any symptoms whatsoever.  Feeling good:).

7th Jan 15 - 3.6mg

28th Jan 15 - 3.2mg

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It certainly does ever! Just a quick up date on what has dispelled my anger....no, the elastic band didn't help. The anger wasn't at the forefront of my mind, just there in the background constantly. John (hubs) had been asking if something was bothering me for a few days now and I said no. When he asked today, I told him how angry I was and how much I wanted revenge. I got quite worked up telling him. I assumed he would get angry with me and tell me what I SHOULD have said/done which would have wound me up even more. He got angry, but also said I was being silly and over reacting. I should park elsewhere or leave the job. This made me feel so much better, I felt it was expected of me to stand up to the idiots, and I really didn't want to. I just want to get over it and stop being angry and I'm aware the more energy I spend thinking about it, the angrier I'll get. I'm still angry but feel so much better now I don't feel the need to do something about the situation, just ignore it as best I can.

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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Wow MM, I just read your parking nightmare! What awful people they are! They are the ones who should be on Jeremy Kyle, he would make mincemeat out of them  ;) .  I would be tempted to take the cctv footage and post it on youtube.... but wouldn't. I think I would have reported him to the police though, it was deliberate and intended to damage your car by the sound of it. Looks like they are enemies and you got caught in the crossfire . 

I think I would leave, (after reporting them) if you can afford to. You can do without the hassle when going through withdrawal. Then watch more of Jeremy with the curtains closed  ;)

**I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge.

 

 

Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem)

1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat

2002  effexor. 

Tapered  March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads.

Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013

Restarted taper  Nov 2013  

OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015    :D 

Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014

 

Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg  

 July 2017 30mg.  May 15 2018 25mg

Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. 

 

My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33

 

Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible

 

 

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Lol! So, today I have woke up in a foul mood. Could be wd, could be time of the month, could be coz I've been negative lately. Started off by getting tea and toast in bed and I did nothing but find fault with it. (Tried to keep that to myself, although John did notice me throwing the toast away coz it wasn't done enough). I've eaten chocolate for breakfast (ruining my diet). Still wound up over the parking thing and can't understand why? It's not the end of the world for gods sake get over it! I'm also worried that come Wednesday, I'll have calmed down, and it will be started off all over again by the stupid b**** examining my parking. I could txt the owner asking Her to make sure there's room for me to park in her drive but feel like I'm over reacting. I really like the woman so don't want to leave a job I enjoy doing, but I could afford to so if it gets too bad, I might leave. As for dog woman, well, seems like an easy job compared to parking people. Am also quite manic today. So far I want to, go to London for the day, ebay, make intricate cakes, do nothing and paint the house. My mantra for the day, 'all feelings are temporary'.

paroxatine.30mg-98-14 (16years)/15mg March 14/15mg may 2014 every two days on docs advice, went nuts so went up to 10mg. Took 2months to stabilise.10mg July 2014-sept 2014 (6.9mg)tried WD at 10% every two weeks. went nuts, nearly left husband, cats and country.10mg sept-December 14/9mg Dec-Jan 15/8.5mg Jan-Feb 15/8mg Feb-March 15/7.5mg march 15/7mg march-present. By October, off meds and on ivf. 3 failed ivf and end of 11yr relationship.10mg/July 16- July 17/5mg Jan 18- july 18

0mg july- present. Really struggling 

 

 

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