Moderator brassmonkey Posted October 17, 2018 Moderator Share Posted October 17, 2018 That is so good to hear CTM. It's been such a long rough trip, I'm so glad that things are settling out and you're able to start enjoying life again. (((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))) Brassmonkey 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
wantrelief Posted October 17, 2018 Share Posted October 17, 2018 Wonderful news, CTM! I am so happy for you! 😀 -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg Link to comment
direstraits Posted October 17, 2018 Share Posted October 17, 2018 so happy for you,Ctm I'm right behind you and this gives me hope,you're an inspiration! xxx went on Prozac 1994-99,60mg.poopout ct back on 2001-2002,prozac weekly 2002,not working,Effexor 75 mg.?2003-mar.2004 gaining weight 8wk. taper,wellbutrin 150 mg.mar. -may 2004 ctmedfree til july 2005 back to Prozac gaining weight again,back on wellbutrin jan.2006150-300 mg.bad constipation.also was taking aygestin(hormone)perimenopausal irregular bleeding.back on Prozac around sept,?2006,hysterectomy jan30.2007(adenomyosis)off&on Prozac til 2009,citalopram about 1 mo, April 2010 no effect,Effexor again may -mar, 2011.ct,Prozac aug,-dec, 2011 &sept-nov 2012,paroxetine oct,23 2013-may 4 2014 20 mgs.tapered 6 wks.-failed RI in Oct.2014-in protracted WD.started 10 mgs. Fluoxetine May 25 2021 .Stopped fluoxetine May 2022 at 5 mgs. Link to comment
coldturkmama Posted October 18, 2018 Author Share Posted October 18, 2018 Unfortunately I still deal with anxiety, but definitely not like before. I can see so much improvement tho- I have lots of hope for the future. Paxil 20mg from 1998-2011 Paxil 40mg from 2011-2012 while experiencing poopout October 2013 quit cold turkey Oct-mid Nov 2013 great window Late November WD nightmare Windows and waves pattern Now: 28 months cold turkey...doing decent learning to deal with the windows/waves pattern fighting it every step of the way. Link to comment
waves12 Posted November 4, 2018 Share Posted November 4, 2018 Hello Coldturkmama I wanted to ask you about the anxiety your have suffered and still appear to suffer. I have chronic anxiety now the last 6 to 8 months and it feels more like a mental breakdown as its so severe. I listen to and read Claire Weekes to help it but dont seem to be able to fully master what she says to do to stop the fight/flight constant trigger. Its very hard going and feel concerned that this will go on for years. Would you share your experience of anxiety with me please? Hope you feeling well today. Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
thecowisback Posted November 4, 2018 Share Posted November 4, 2018 i'm so glad you're doing much better coldturkmama. reading about withdrawals lasting 5 years or more really upsets me though. i'm not even at the 2 year mark yet and have made very little progress. i really don't know if i can keep going like this for years and years. i hate myself for taking the stupid meds in the first place and now i'm going to be paying for that mistake for years to come 😣😣😣 Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years. January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began. Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan: 26 Feb 2019, 4mg. Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019 Reinstated prozac: 14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg, 10 Jul 8mg, 1 Dec 20mg, 1 Apr 2020 40mg Link to comment
thecowisback Posted November 4, 2018 Share Posted November 4, 2018 sorry for hijacking your thread 😦 Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years. January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began. Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan: 26 Feb 2019, 4mg. Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019 Reinstated prozac: 14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg, 10 Jul 8mg, 1 Dec 20mg, 1 Apr 2020 40mg Link to comment
coldturkmama Posted November 4, 2018 Author Share Posted November 4, 2018 1 hour ago, waves12 said: Hello Coldturkmama I wanted to ask you about the anxiety your have suffered and still appear to suffer. I have chronic anxiety now the last 6 to 8 months and it feels more like a mental breakdown as its so severe. I listen to and read Claire Weekes to help it but dont seem to be able to fully master what she says to do to stop the fight/flight constant trigger. Its very hard going and feel concerned that this will go on for years. Would you share your experience of anxiety with me please? Hope you feeling well today. I’m not sure what exactly to share, or what you would like to know? ask anything really. all I know is that Paxil took my anxiety and made it a whole new beast. I do not believe you are having a mental breakdown at all, anxiety is not a mental disorder, it is simply nervous suffering. Your nerves are revved up badly due to sensitization. Personally mine comes in windows and waves, so at times is is SOOO much worse. It truly sucks!! Paxil 20mg from 1998-2011 Paxil 40mg from 2011-2012 while experiencing poopout October 2013 quit cold turkey Oct-mid Nov 2013 great window Late November WD nightmare Windows and waves pattern Now: 28 months cold turkey...doing decent learning to deal with the windows/waves pattern fighting it every step of the way. Link to comment
coldturkmama Posted November 4, 2018 Author Share Posted November 4, 2018 1 hour ago, thecowisback said: i'm so glad you're doing much better coldturkmama. reading about withdrawals lasting 5 years or more really upsets me though. i'm not even at the 2 year mark yet and have made very little progress. i really don't know if i can keep going like this for years and years. i hate myself for taking the stupid meds in the first place and now i'm going to be paying for that mistake for years to come 😣😣😣 Same! I wish I’d never taken it. Paxil 20mg from 1998-2011 Paxil 40mg from 2011-2012 while experiencing poopout October 2013 quit cold turkey Oct-mid Nov 2013 great window Late November WD nightmare Windows and waves pattern Now: 28 months cold turkey...doing decent learning to deal with the windows/waves pattern fighting it every step of the way. Link to comment
waves12 Posted November 4, 2018 Share Posted November 4, 2018 Thank you for the reply. It is just reassurance that I am not losing the plot, it just feels like it. It helps to know that you do get it in windows and waves which is how I was experiencing it then it just ramped up to unbearable for the last month or so but I have been under alot of unavoidable stress which I hadnt really connected it to but now believe it is. I find it very hard to deal with and its a constant annoyance having to work out where I can go and where I cant, but also know its a good idea to try as normally as possible. Does it prevent you from living on a daily basis? How do you manage the symptoms? Thank you for any help. Various antipressants from 1991 to 2016, Sertraline and many switches over the years. Last AD's taken: Citalopram for two weeks only May 2016 to June 2016, last AD taken and CT'd. 2012 to May 2016 Duloxitine 60mg. Doctor switched to Citalopram 20mg May 2016. Link to comment
coldturkmama Posted November 5, 2018 Author Share Posted November 5, 2018 4 hours ago, waves12 said: Thank you for the reply. It is just reassurance that I am not losing the plot, it just feels like it. It helps to know that you do get it in windows and waves which is how I was experiencing it then it just ramped up to unbearable for the last month or so but I have been under alot of unavoidable stress which I hadnt really connected it to but now believe it is. I find it very hard to deal with and its a constant annoyance having to work out where I can go and where I cant, but also know its a good idea to try as normally as possible. Does it prevent you from living on a daily basis? How do you manage the symptoms? Thank you for any help. Its horrible stuff. Honestly, I have good days and bad, good weeks and bad. It is very up and down. It does prevent me from living the life I want to live. i have boundaries of where I’ll go, that sort of thing. It sucks but at times it is much better and I am more free, if you know what I mean? Paxil 20mg from 1998-2011 Paxil 40mg from 2011-2012 while experiencing poopout October 2013 quit cold turkey Oct-mid Nov 2013 great window Late November WD nightmare Windows and waves pattern Now: 28 months cold turkey...doing decent learning to deal with the windows/waves pattern fighting it every step of the way. Link to comment
thecowisback Posted November 5, 2018 Share Posted November 5, 2018 i also have that fear that i am 'losing it'. my mind is rarely quiet, and if it is then it will scrabble and search until it finds a scary thought that it can lock on to. that thought will then consume me for days or weeks until i can find an answer to it, which often i can't. if i do find an answer i feel HUGE relief and tell myself that will be the LAST time i will get panicked about something that other people find unimportant, but then hours later my mind finds another thought to torture me with. is this how everyone elses anxiety manifests itself? Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years. January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began. Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan: 26 Feb 2019, 4mg. Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019 Reinstated prozac: 14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg, 10 Jul 8mg, 1 Dec 20mg, 1 Apr 2020 40mg Link to comment
coldturkmama Posted March 19, 2019 Author Share Posted March 19, 2019 I haven’t been here in a while, so I thought I’d pop in to update. I think the last time I updated was a year ago? id like to say I’m better, but I’m not complaining there yet. i have had some weird sensations at times in my head (almost felt like my brain was itchy!) it was so weird and really freaked me out. I started really practicing acceptance and the Claire Weekes method and I have felt a lot better. I’ve had some really good windows. its 5.5 years off & im hoping for more healing as time goes on. Hope everyone is doing well!! Paxil 20mg from 1998-2011 Paxil 40mg from 2011-2012 while experiencing poopout October 2013 quit cold turkey Oct-mid Nov 2013 great window Late November WD nightmare Windows and waves pattern Now: 28 months cold turkey...doing decent learning to deal with the windows/waves pattern fighting it every step of the way. Link to comment
thecowisback Posted March 19, 2019 Share Posted March 19, 2019 good to see you back! 😊 great to hear you are having some good windows!! Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years. January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began. Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan: 26 Feb 2019, 4mg. Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019 Reinstated prozac: 14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg, 10 Jul 8mg, 1 Dec 20mg, 1 Apr 2020 40mg Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted March 19, 2019 Share Posted March 19, 2019 How long were you on paxil May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
coldturkmama Posted March 19, 2019 Author Share Posted March 19, 2019 34 minutes ago, Leo1983 said: How long were you on paxil 14 to 15 years and I did a cold turkey from 40mgs, unfortunately. Paxil 20mg from 1998-2011 Paxil 40mg from 2011-2012 while experiencing poopout October 2013 quit cold turkey Oct-mid Nov 2013 great window Late November WD nightmare Windows and waves pattern Now: 28 months cold turkey...doing decent learning to deal with the windows/waves pattern fighting it every step of the way. Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted March 19, 2019 Share Posted March 19, 2019 My days. Very well done for keeping going. Good luck. May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
coldturkmama Posted March 19, 2019 Author Share Posted March 19, 2019 Thank you Paxil 20mg from 1998-2011 Paxil 40mg from 2011-2012 while experiencing poopout October 2013 quit cold turkey Oct-mid Nov 2013 great window Late November WD nightmare Windows and waves pattern Now: 28 months cold turkey...doing decent learning to deal with the windows/waves pattern fighting it every step of the way. Link to comment
Tom37 Posted March 19, 2019 Share Posted March 19, 2019 Good to hear your still improving and I admire your courage for enduring this for so long. Hopefully your getting some nice symptom free windows now. Thanks for coming back to update. 20mg Lexapro 2007 10mg Lexapro 2012 Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3. Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction. Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October. Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 2018 Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov. Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November 2018 Link to comment
Rosetta Posted May 18, 2019 Share Posted May 18, 2019 On November 5, 2018 at 12:27 AM, thecowisback said: i also have that fear that i am 'losing it'. my mind is rarely quiet, and if it is then it will scrabble and search until it finds a scary thought that it can lock on to. that thought will then consume me for days or weeks until i can find an answer to it, which often i can't. if i do find an answer i feel HUGE relief and tell myself that will be the LAST time i will get panicked about something that other people find unimportant, but then hours later my mind finds another thought to torture me with. is this how everyone elses anxiety manifests itself? The @thecowisback -- exactly what has happened to me -- exactly. It fades just like all the other symptoms, comes back with a vengeance in a bad wave and so on. Yet another way that "getting help" by going on medication has done nothing but make my "mental health" far, far worse and proof that not " treating" my depression with drug would have been infinitely less harmful to my health and my life. @coldturkmama. I hope you are doing well. October 2019 will be 6 years for you. It seems you are living life again even though it is limited and with some bizarre hiccups here and there. I know you will be 100% healed one day. Thanks for sharing your journey here. I've been reading your thread since I arrived. It's very nice to see your progress. - Rosetta https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
thecowisback Posted May 18, 2019 Share Posted May 18, 2019 reading that is weird. here i am 6 months after writing that and nothing has changed. i still have those incessant thoughts. Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years. January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began. Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan: 26 Feb 2019, 4mg. Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019 Reinstated prozac: 14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg, 10 Jul 8mg, 1 Dec 20mg, 1 Apr 2020 40mg Link to comment
coldturkmama Posted May 18, 2019 Author Share Posted May 18, 2019 2 hours ago, Rosetta said: The @thecowisback -- exactly what has happened to me -- exactly. It fades just like all the other symptoms, comes back with a vengeance in a bad wave and so on. Yet another way that "getting help" by going on medication has done nothing but make my "mental health" far, far worse and proof that not " treating" my depression with drug would have been infinitely less harmful to my health and my life. @coldturkmama. I hope you are doing well. October 2019 will be 6 years for you. It seems you are living life again even though it is limited and with some bizarre hiccups here and there. I know you will be 100% healed one day. Thanks for sharing your journey here. I've been reading your thread since I arrived. It's very nice to see your progress. - Rosetta Thank you for the encouragement! i had a very obvious wonderful window a while back and then slammed with a wave. Things are always two steps forward and three back with this stuff. I am hoping everything continues to improve. Paxil 20mg from 1998-2011 Paxil 40mg from 2011-2012 while experiencing poopout October 2013 quit cold turkey Oct-mid Nov 2013 great window Late November WD nightmare Windows and waves pattern Now: 28 months cold turkey...doing decent learning to deal with the windows/waves pattern fighting it every step of the way. Link to comment
coldturkmama Posted May 18, 2019 Author Share Posted May 18, 2019 30 minutes ago, thecowisback said: reading that is weird. here i am 6 months after writing that and nothing has changed. i still have those incessant thoughts. Have you tried acceptance or reading anything by Claire Weekes? It’s not a quick fix, unfortunately and I am still struggling to accept everything myself but things improve when I do. Paxil 20mg from 1998-2011 Paxil 40mg from 2011-2012 while experiencing poopout October 2013 quit cold turkey Oct-mid Nov 2013 great window Late November WD nightmare Windows and waves pattern Now: 28 months cold turkey...doing decent learning to deal with the windows/waves pattern fighting it every step of the way. Link to comment
thecowisback Posted May 18, 2019 Share Posted May 18, 2019 i've got her books and loads of others on ocd and intrusive thoughts but when they pop in my head i truly believe them and can't see them as a product of an exhausted mind and nervous system 😕 Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years. January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began. Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan: 26 Feb 2019, 4mg. Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019 Reinstated prozac: 14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg, 10 Jul 8mg, 1 Dec 20mg, 1 Apr 2020 40mg Link to comment
coldturkmama Posted May 18, 2019 Author Share Posted May 18, 2019 51 minutes ago, thecowisback said: i've got her books and loads of others on ocd and intrusive thoughts but when they pop in my head i truly believe them and can't see them as a product of an exhausted mind and nervous system 😕 It is hard when they go round and round. It definitely gets easier if you can practice acceptance. Even by saying “I can’t accept right now” you’ll feel better Paxil 20mg from 1998-2011 Paxil 40mg from 2011-2012 while experiencing poopout October 2013 quit cold turkey Oct-mid Nov 2013 great window Late November WD nightmare Windows and waves pattern Now: 28 months cold turkey...doing decent learning to deal with the windows/waves pattern fighting it every step of the way. Link to comment
thecowisback Posted May 18, 2019 Share Posted May 18, 2019 👍 Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years. January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began. Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan: 26 Feb 2019, 4mg. Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019 Reinstated prozac: 14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg, 10 Jul 8mg, 1 Dec 20mg, 1 Apr 2020 40mg Link to comment
coldturkmama Posted October 16, 2019 Author Share Posted October 16, 2019 Hey guys! I thought that since it is SIX years TODAY since my cold turkey, I’d come back and give you an update on me. I’m doing really quite well, and I think I’ll have more healing as the days and years pass by. I’ll be 40 this month and it seems quite amazing that I got through one of the hardest times in my life. Cold turkey withdrawal is something i wouldnt wish on my worst enemy. I don’t have such terrible symptoms that linger now, the worst one is probably the “fake” UTI symptoms that will pop up after months of everything seeming so normal. my sleep has returned to normal!! I can go to bed at 11:00 p.m. and sleep quite well until morning! I have even slept IN lol i still deal with anxiety issues but Dr. Claire Weekes book “hope and help for your nerves” as well as “The Anxious Truth” podcast (he used to be THAT Anxiety guy) on YouTube have shown me so many ways to desensitize myself (over stimulated nervous system) and how to deal with and react to the symptoms of anxiety, so I’m feeling pretty good. I am hoping that as tome passes, the few lingering issues will go away and that I’ll feel even better. I hope all of you are doing well too! 😘 3 Paxil 20mg from 1998-2011 Paxil 40mg from 2011-2012 while experiencing poopout October 2013 quit cold turkey Oct-mid Nov 2013 great window Late November WD nightmare Windows and waves pattern Now: 28 months cold turkey...doing decent learning to deal with the windows/waves pattern fighting it every step of the way. Link to comment
rola Posted October 16, 2019 Share Posted October 16, 2019 @Coldturkmama Hi happy to read you and know that you are healed I am in the midst of weaning from deroxat and I'm glad I came across this forum I wish you lots of good things see you soon Deroxat (paxil) 20 mg pour 10 ml 12/14 18 mg réduction de 5% tous les mois 13/01/15 14.4mg 15/08 9,6 mg 16.01 reduction3% 8 mg par mois 16/02 7,8 mg 18.02 3 mg 18.03 2,92 à 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 18/06 2,66 mg 26/06/18 2,58 mg en 26 jours 19/03 1,78 mg 15 jours 19/04 1, 64 mg 21 jours 19/05 1,58 mg 24/07/19 1,44 mg 14/08/19 1,4 mg 27/09/19 1,48 mg 10/09/19 retour à 1,58 mg 27/12/19 retour à 1,65mg direct transition to fluoxetine the 11/01/2020 1,65mg Link to comment
Alice1 Posted October 16, 2019 Share Posted October 16, 2019 That’s such wonderful news Gina. I’m 38 months out and in the worst wave ever. Sometimes I think I’m going backwards , especially the last 2 months. Your story is one of my favorites. Do you think the Claire Weekes stuff helped ? Do you think you’d be worse off without it ? December 2014 - Lexapro 20 mg August 2016 Med free (6 week taper) December 22 2021 added Abilify 5mg / Ativan .5mg / Depakote ER 1000mg Discontinued Abilify 5mg on 12-30-21---accidental dose on 1-13-22 (looks like Ativan) Ativan PRN/Discontinued 1-14-22 Only drug is Depakote ER 1000mg ( looking to taper slow and safe for once ) 3/24/22 Depakote 625mg Propranolol 20-40mg PRN Link to comment
coldturkmama Posted October 16, 2019 Author Share Posted October 16, 2019 Yes! I think the Claire Weekes acceptance and learning how to float/surrender to the sensations and feelings helped me so much! I thank God I found it! im not 100% perfect but so much better than I was and I know it can only get better! Paxil 20mg from 1998-2011 Paxil 40mg from 2011-2012 while experiencing poopout October 2013 quit cold turkey Oct-mid Nov 2013 great window Late November WD nightmare Windows and waves pattern Now: 28 months cold turkey...doing decent learning to deal with the windows/waves pattern fighting it every step of the way. Link to comment
India Posted October 16, 2019 Share Posted October 16, 2019 On 10/17/2018 at 1:20 AM, coldturkmama said: five years since my cold turkey from Paxil. I’m so glad to be free, even if I’m not 💯 just yet. I went from crying, shaking, curled in my bed, rocking back and forth, not sleeping, panic and heart racing, horror, full body aches and pains, to someone who can sleep pretty good (finally!!), can relaxxxx, enjoys long walks and recently began jogging. I’m not where I want to be yet, but I’m on my way. @Gemma92 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
Gem92 Posted October 16, 2019 Share Posted October 16, 2019 16 minutes ago, India said: @Gemma92 Thanks for showing me this. It always helps reading success stories! Gemma92's signature(now Gem92) (added in by mod mmt 4/23/22) 90s and 2008:Prozac for a year 2016:ADHD drug for a few months CT 2017:Right thyroid removed. May-June 2018: Lexapro 10-20mg. July 4th 2018 Lex CT and took Penicillin, Z-pack. August 2018: 3rd antibiotic and Effexor for 5 days CT. September 2018: Lexapro 5mg (CT after month) Ativan 1-.5mg(CT after 2 weeks) and Hydroxyine 50mg (2 weeks) SEVERE REACTIONS AND SEVERE WITHDRAWAL October 2018: Ashwahganda 2 weeks, Probiotics 2 weeks. Mirt 15mg 6 days CT Oct- Nov 2018: gaba gummies, cbd oil, magnesium. December 2018: Mirt 7.5mg, 15mg, 30mg, Zyprexa 2.5mg, 5mg for 1 week back to 2.5mg. 4th antibiotic used. Hydroxyine. Jan 2019: Mirtazapine 26.5mg. Different brands used when hospitalized. Hydroxyine. Feb 2019: Mirtazapine 22.5mg, 15mg. Zyprexa 2.5mg CT. Prozac 1 pill, Trazadone 4 pills, Hydroxyine few pills, INJECTED with steroids, antibiotics and pain killers for 2 days. Took high doses of benadryl a few times, few more pain killers June 2019: Mirt 14.5mg-13.5mg Sept 2019: 13mg, 12mg, sep 25th 11 mg. 4/22/22- 6.3mg (Tapering between 2 and 3% every 2 weeks). 11/27/2022- 5.4mg 1/8/23- 5.25mg 1/30/23-5.2mg 2/22/23-5.15mg 3/10/23-5.1mg 4/4/23-5.05mg 4/16/23-5mg Link to comment
direstraits Posted October 17, 2019 Share Posted October 17, 2019 so happy for you, @coldturkmama ! we're getting there slowly but surely! Hope you have a fantastic 40th !🎈🎉 went on Prozac 1994-99,60mg.poopout ct back on 2001-2002,prozac weekly 2002,not working,Effexor 75 mg.?2003-mar.2004 gaining weight 8wk. taper,wellbutrin 150 mg.mar. -may 2004 ctmedfree til july 2005 back to Prozac gaining weight again,back on wellbutrin jan.2006150-300 mg.bad constipation.also was taking aygestin(hormone)perimenopausal irregular bleeding.back on Prozac around sept,?2006,hysterectomy jan30.2007(adenomyosis)off&on Prozac til 2009,citalopram about 1 mo, April 2010 no effect,Effexor again may -mar, 2011.ct,Prozac aug,-dec, 2011 &sept-nov 2012,paroxetine oct,23 2013-may 4 2014 20 mgs.tapered 6 wks.-failed RI in Oct.2014-in protracted WD.started 10 mgs. Fluoxetine May 25 2021 .Stopped fluoxetine May 2022 at 5 mgs. Link to comment
coldturkmama Posted October 18, 2019 Author Share Posted October 18, 2019 20 hours ago, direstraits said: so happy for you, @coldturkmama ! we're getting there slowly but surely! Hope you have a fantastic 40th !🎈🎉 Thank you!! 😁😁😁 Paxil 20mg from 1998-2011 Paxil 40mg from 2011-2012 while experiencing poopout October 2013 quit cold turkey Oct-mid Nov 2013 great window Late November WD nightmare Windows and waves pattern Now: 28 months cold turkey...doing decent learning to deal with the windows/waves pattern fighting it every step of the way. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted December 19, 2019 Administrator Share Posted December 19, 2019 Because you're feeling better, I added our cheerful "here comes the sun" symbol ☼ to the title of your Intro topic, to show you're recovering. Please continue to let us know how you're doing. I hope you will add your story to our Recovery Success Stories eventually! This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted December 19, 2019 Administrator Share Posted December 19, 2019 coldturkmama's success story is here As is our tradition, I am closing this topic. Please post your congratulations and questions in coldturkmama's new topic. 1 This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
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