Horns85 Posted September 18, 2015 Author Share Posted September 18, 2015 I know how you are feeling in all different areas! I always feel guilty about my son even he is grown up. This whole thing is simply so heart broken. I believe you will make the best decision to be eventually well enough to provide the best support to your family and kid. Sending prayer to you, Thanks Lex, As I am somewhat functional, if the reinstatement didn't work, o boy. Prob better to just ride it all out. Thanks for your support! Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
LexAnger Posted September 18, 2015 Share Posted September 18, 2015 You know the best. My principle is to endure as long as I can possibly endure whatsoever without introduce another change which can lead to a complete unknown. Hope you get a break soon! Drug free Sep. 23 2017 2009 Mar.: lexapro 10mg for headache for 2 weeks. 2009-2012: on and off 1/4 to 1/3 of 10mg 2012 June--2013 Jan,: 1/4-1/3 of 10mg generic, bad jaw pain 2013 Jan-Mar: 10 mg generic. severe jaw and head pain; 2013 Mar--Aug. started tapering (liquid ever since) from 10 to 5 (one step) then gradually down to 2.25 mg by July. first ever panic attack, severe head/jaw pain 2013 Aug.: back to 2.75 mg; Nov: back to Brand Lex. 2.75mg -- 3mg, 2014 June: stopped PPI, head pressure/numbness. up-dosed 4.5mg, severe reaction mental symptoms added on 2014 Aug--2015 Aug: Micro taper down to 3.2mg, .025mg (<1%) cut holding 2-3 weeks. 2015 Aug 15th, Accidental one dose of 4.2mg. worsening brain non-functional, swollen head, body, coma like, DR 2016 Feb., started dosing 10am through 11 pm everyday 2/13--3.2mg, 3/15-- 2.9mg, 4/19-- 2.6mg, 6/26--2.2mg, 7/22 --1.9mg, 8/16--1.8mg，8/31--1.7m g, 9/13--1.6mg, 9/27--1.5mg, 10/8--1.4mg, 10/14--1.3mg， 11/1--1.2mg, 11/29--1.1mg, 12/12--1mg, 12/22--0.9mg 2017: 1/7--0.8mg, 1/15--0.7mg, 1/17--0.6mg, 1/20--0.52, 1/21--0.4mg, 1/22--0.26, 1/23--0.2, 2/13--0.13mg, 2/20--0.06mg, 3/18--0.13mg, 6/1--0.12mg, 7/6--0.1mg, 7/14--0.08mg, 8/17--0.04mg, 8/20--0.03mg, 8/28--0.02mg, 9/6--0.0205mg, 9/8--0.02mg, 9/17--0.015mg, 9/20--0.01mg, 9/21--0.0048mg, 9/22--0.0001mg, Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 21, 2015 Author Share Posted September 21, 2015 The past few weeks have been tough! I had a new baby girl and during those 3 or 4 days in the hospital, things were very good. Now that we are back home, my sleep is so broken and only amounting to maybe 4-5 hours a night, I am severely depressed an anxious. It's amazing how sensitive we are to stress, lack of sleep, food while in WD. Stress and lack of sleep just make the symptoms 10x worse! Here's to hoping it will improve soon! Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 21, 2015 Author Share Posted September 21, 2015 I question everyday if this WD or relapse, since the real difficult symptoms didn't start till almost month 9! So many symptoms are the same but certainly amplified. What a mess! Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted September 21, 2015 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 21, 2015 Congratulations on the new baby Horns. Hang on tight, this is an awful wave that will pass. We don't recommend reinstating after a year off as it can make things worse and rarely helps so far out. Do you take any supplements? I swear by fish oil and magnesium, if I don't take them I soon start to feel off again. I'm sure you've read the windows and waves topic but here it is if you want to read it again... http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/82-the-windows-and-waves-pattern-of-stabilization/ And one on 'is it withdrawal or relapse?' http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6888-is-it-withdrawal-or-relapse-or-something-else/ **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment
LexAnger Posted September 21, 2015 Share Posted September 21, 2015 My case is a solid proof it's WD. I never had before AD any of the wide range of symptoms that I'm having during the entire taper. I started it for headache and slight anxious feeling. This is also the case for many of us here. I believe you had many more/different symptoms since AD than what you had before AD. For the first time ever in my lifetime, I experienced the special anxiety yesterday. It is completely different from the anxious feeling you would have without meds. My mind was completely calm, it was my body feeling so anxious, very disabling, uncontrolable and uncomfort. I hope the distraction from the newborn helps. LexA Drug free Sep. 23 2017 2009 Mar.: lexapro 10mg for headache for 2 weeks. 2009-2012: on and off 1/4 to 1/3 of 10mg 2012 June--2013 Jan,: 1/4-1/3 of 10mg generic, bad jaw pain 2013 Jan-Mar: 10 mg generic. severe jaw and head pain; 2013 Mar--Aug. started tapering (liquid ever since) from 10 to 5 (one step) then gradually down to 2.25 mg by July. first ever panic attack, severe head/jaw pain 2013 Aug.: back to 2.75 mg; Nov: back to Brand Lex. 2.75mg -- 3mg, 2014 June: stopped PPI, head pressure/numbness. up-dosed 4.5mg, severe reaction mental symptoms added on 2014 Aug--2015 Aug: Micro taper down to 3.2mg, .025mg (<1%) cut holding 2-3 weeks. 2015 Aug 15th, Accidental one dose of 4.2mg. worsening brain non-functional, swollen head, body, coma like, DR 2016 Feb., started dosing 10am through 11 pm everyday 2/13--3.2mg, 3/15-- 2.9mg, 4/19-- 2.6mg, 6/26--2.2mg, 7/22 --1.9mg, 8/16--1.8mg，8/31--1.7m g, 9/13--1.6mg, 9/27--1.5mg, 10/8--1.4mg, 10/14--1.3mg， 11/1--1.2mg, 11/29--1.1mg, 12/12--1mg, 12/22--0.9mg 2017: 1/7--0.8mg, 1/15--0.7mg, 1/17--0.6mg, 1/20--0.52, 1/21--0.4mg, 1/22--0.26, 1/23--0.2, 2/13--0.13mg, 2/20--0.06mg, 3/18--0.13mg, 6/1--0.12mg, 7/6--0.1mg, 7/14--0.08mg, 8/17--0.04mg, 8/20--0.03mg, 8/28--0.02mg, 9/6--0.0205mg, 9/8--0.02mg, 9/17--0.015mg, 9/20--0.01mg, 9/21--0.0048mg, 9/22--0.0001mg, Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 21, 2015 Author Share Posted September 21, 2015 Congratulations on the new baby Horns. Hang on tight, this is an awful wave that will pass. We don't recommend reinstating after a year off as it can make things worse and rarely helps so far out. Do you take any supplements? I swear by fish oil and magnesium, if I don't take them I soon start to feel off again. I'm sure you've read the windows and waves topic but here it is if you want to read it again... http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/82-the-windows-and-waves-pattern-of-stabilization/ And one on 'is it withdrawal or relapse?' http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6888-is-it-withdrawal-or-relapse-or-something-else/ Thanks, MammaP! I have started magnesium as I couldn't really tolerate it until recently. I have been on it steadily for about 2 weeks and have certainly noticed a difference. I am going to try fish oil next. Is fish oil good for mood/depression? That seems to be more prevalent now that my anxiety is lowered a bit! I've never really been depressed before, always been anxiety and this is awful. Thanks for the tips!! Going to try and get some sleep tonight! Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 21, 2015 Author Share Posted September 21, 2015 My case is a solid proof it's WD. I never had before AD any of the wide range of symptoms that I'm having during the entire taper. I started it for headache and slight anxious feeling. This is also the case for many of us here. I believe you had many more/different symptoms since AD than what you had before AD. For the first time ever in my lifetime, I experienced the special anxiety yesterday. It is completely different from the anxious feeling you would have without meds. My mind was completely calm, it was my body feeling so anxious, very disabling, uncontrolable and uncomfort. I hope the distraction from the newborn helps. LexA Thanks, Lex. Yours is for sure WD. I experience that awful anxiety too. It's so different than normal anxiety. Mind is calm, but feels like you want to crawl out of your skin? So uncomfortable. I think it's partially akathisia but it's awful and I feel for you! Hang in there! Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 23, 2015 Author Share Posted September 23, 2015 Guys, I may have to give reinstatement a shot. I can't live my life like this while trying to raise a family and keep a career. I have spoken to my doc and he is open to giving me liquid lex. If i was going to do this, what would you recommend starting at? 1mg or 2mg? If so, would you reinstate with the same drug or a new SSRI? Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
LexAnger Posted September 23, 2015 Share Posted September 23, 2015 I am very sorry you have to consider this, butI understand why you think this way. My goal is to maintan the minimal functionality for very simple life and the least requirement to keep the job. a few things I would consider: 1. the efficacy of various ssirs http://www.mediafire.com/view/0yp2c8pbjrziaab/04_meryer_occupancy_fig1.png# (Lex is not there, but citalopram is, which is 1/2 of the potency of lex) 2. differences of ssirs http://fettermaneven...files/Ssris.ppt 3. potential reaction to reinstate (drug and/or/dose change) 4. post-reinstate goal/plan (half life for future taper) I truly wish you good luck. LexA Drug free Sep. 23 2017 2009 Mar.: lexapro 10mg for headache for 2 weeks. 2009-2012: on and off 1/4 to 1/3 of 10mg 2012 June--2013 Jan,: 1/4-1/3 of 10mg generic, bad jaw pain 2013 Jan-Mar: 10 mg generic. severe jaw and head pain; 2013 Mar--Aug. started tapering (liquid ever since) from 10 to 5 (one step) then gradually down to 2.25 mg by July. first ever panic attack, severe head/jaw pain 2013 Aug.: back to 2.75 mg; Nov: back to Brand Lex. 2.75mg -- 3mg, 2014 June: stopped PPI, head pressure/numbness. up-dosed 4.5mg, severe reaction mental symptoms added on 2014 Aug--2015 Aug: Micro taper down to 3.2mg, .025mg (<1%) cut holding 2-3 weeks. 2015 Aug 15th, Accidental one dose of 4.2mg. worsening brain non-functional, swollen head, body, coma like, DR 2016 Feb., started dosing 10am through 11 pm everyday 2/13--3.2mg, 3/15-- 2.9mg, 4/19-- 2.6mg, 6/26--2.2mg, 7/22 --1.9mg, 8/16--1.8mg，8/31--1.7m g, 9/13--1.6mg, 9/27--1.5mg, 10/8--1.4mg, 10/14--1.3mg， 11/1--1.2mg, 11/29--1.1mg, 12/12--1mg, 12/22--0.9mg 2017: 1/7--0.8mg, 1/15--0.7mg, 1/17--0.6mg, 1/20--0.52, 1/21--0.4mg, 1/22--0.26, 1/23--0.2, 2/13--0.13mg, 2/20--0.06mg, 3/18--0.13mg, 6/1--0.12mg, 7/6--0.1mg, 7/14--0.08mg, 8/17--0.04mg, 8/20--0.03mg, 8/28--0.02mg, 9/6--0.0205mg, 9/8--0.02mg, 9/17--0.015mg, 9/20--0.01mg, 9/21--0.0048mg, 9/22--0.0001mg, Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 24, 2015 Author Share Posted September 24, 2015 I am very sorry you have to consider this, butI understand why you think this way. My goal is to maintan the minimal functionality for very simple life and the least requirement to keep the job. a few things I would consider: 1. the efficacy of various ssirs http://www.mediafire.com/view/0yp2c8pbjrziaab/04_meryer_occupancy_fig1.png# (Lex is not there, but citalopram is, which is 1/2 of the potency of lex) 2. differences of ssirs http://fettermaneven...files/Ssris.ppt 3. potential reaction to reinstate (drug and/or/dose change) 4. post-reinstate goal/plan (half life for future taper) I truly wish you good luck. LexA Thanks, Lex. If I try to reinstate Lexapro, should I just do 1-2 mg? Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
LexAnger Posted September 24, 2015 Share Posted September 24, 2015 For me, after my system is super sensitized by dose increase, both direction changes in dosage triggers same amount of problems although different. So I have to make only tiny changes either direction. It makes sense to me the brain would be able to handle smaller changes in general. If you narrowed down to lex, and 1 or 2 mg in terms of dose, I would guess starting with lower one will prevent bad reaction to reinstate, also faster taper in future if it works. If it's not enough, you can increase further. 1 mg can be huge, it took me more than 1 yr coming down 1mg since the increase and it has been toughest time so far in my taper. Again, it's a pure try and error, no one can really be sure for individual case. Some ppl have no problem reinstate at all and felt quick relieve. I could be one of those very unlucky. Drug free Sep. 23 2017 2009 Mar.: lexapro 10mg for headache for 2 weeks. 2009-2012: on and off 1/4 to 1/3 of 10mg 2012 June--2013 Jan,: 1/4-1/3 of 10mg generic, bad jaw pain 2013 Jan-Mar: 10 mg generic. severe jaw and head pain; 2013 Mar--Aug. started tapering (liquid ever since) from 10 to 5 (one step) then gradually down to 2.25 mg by July. first ever panic attack, severe head/jaw pain 2013 Aug.: back to 2.75 mg; Nov: back to Brand Lex. 2.75mg -- 3mg, 2014 June: stopped PPI, head pressure/numbness. up-dosed 4.5mg, severe reaction mental symptoms added on 2014 Aug--2015 Aug: Micro taper down to 3.2mg, .025mg (<1%) cut holding 2-3 weeks. 2015 Aug 15th, Accidental one dose of 4.2mg. worsening brain non-functional, swollen head, body, coma like, DR 2016 Feb., started dosing 10am through 11 pm everyday 2/13--3.2mg, 3/15-- 2.9mg, 4/19-- 2.6mg, 6/26--2.2mg, 7/22 --1.9mg, 8/16--1.8mg，8/31--1.7m g, 9/13--1.6mg, 9/27--1.5mg, 10/8--1.4mg, 10/14--1.3mg， 11/1--1.2mg, 11/29--1.1mg, 12/12--1mg, 12/22--0.9mg 2017: 1/7--0.8mg, 1/15--0.7mg, 1/17--0.6mg, 1/20--0.52, 1/21--0.4mg, 1/22--0.26, 1/23--0.2, 2/13--0.13mg, 2/20--0.06mg, 3/18--0.13mg, 6/1--0.12mg, 7/6--0.1mg, 7/14--0.08mg, 8/17--0.04mg, 8/20--0.03mg, 8/28--0.02mg, 9/6--0.0205mg, 9/8--0.02mg, 9/17--0.015mg, 9/20--0.01mg, 9/21--0.0048mg, 9/22--0.0001mg, Link to comment
tgirl Posted September 25, 2015 Share Posted September 25, 2015 Hello Horns, How are you doing? Hope you are well, Tgirl April 2014 remeron 45mg. June 2014 abilify 2.5 remeron wasn't working so abilify was then added September 2014 woke up with anxiety x 100!!!! Pdoc then took me from 45 to 7.5 within a month and took abilify from 2.5 to 0 Currently Remeron 7.5 Vitamin d 5,000 iu taking for about 3 years October 2014 added fish oil/omega 3 1000 mg per day Levothyroxitine 100 10 years or so Dec 2014 started tapering 10% every 10 days-no problems. August 2015 down to 0.1 mg Woke up with severe anxiety-sleep issues-racing thoughts-depression. 9/9/15 up dose 1 mg. Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 25, 2015 Author Share Posted September 25, 2015 Did some soul searching tonight, had a long conversation with my loving wife and decided to not reinstate. So much of my desire to reinstate was to hopefully feel better for My family. With my wife's support and her voice of reason(that reinstating this far out) would most likely cause more trouble, I opted against going back on Lexapro. She has no idea about AD's but is smart enough to know that it most likely wouldn't have worked. It may have, but what if it made me worse? I at least can function right now, albeit not very well. Feel good about the decision. I will be 1 year off on the 1st of October. Here's to year 2 and hopefully so much needed improvement. Thanks, LexAnger for the support! Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
LexAnger Posted September 25, 2015 Share Posted September 25, 2015 Glad you made a decision with family support! Re-posting a great video posted by another member for your journey of healing Drug free Sep. 23 2017 2009 Mar.: lexapro 10mg for headache for 2 weeks. 2009-2012: on and off 1/4 to 1/3 of 10mg 2012 June--2013 Jan,: 1/4-1/3 of 10mg generic, bad jaw pain 2013 Jan-Mar: 10 mg generic. severe jaw and head pain; 2013 Mar--Aug. started tapering (liquid ever since) from 10 to 5 (one step) then gradually down to 2.25 mg by July. first ever panic attack, severe head/jaw pain 2013 Aug.: back to 2.75 mg; Nov: back to Brand Lex. 2.75mg -- 3mg, 2014 June: stopped PPI, head pressure/numbness. up-dosed 4.5mg, severe reaction mental symptoms added on 2014 Aug--2015 Aug: Micro taper down to 3.2mg, .025mg (<1%) cut holding 2-3 weeks. 2015 Aug 15th, Accidental one dose of 4.2mg. worsening brain non-functional, swollen head, body, coma like, DR 2016 Feb., started dosing 10am through 11 pm everyday 2/13--3.2mg, 3/15-- 2.9mg, 4/19-- 2.6mg, 6/26--2.2mg, 7/22 --1.9mg, 8/16--1.8mg，8/31--1.7m g, 9/13--1.6mg, 9/27--1.5mg, 10/8--1.4mg, 10/14--1.3mg， 11/1--1.2mg, 11/29--1.1mg, 12/12--1mg, 12/22--0.9mg 2017: 1/7--0.8mg, 1/15--0.7mg, 1/17--0.6mg, 1/20--0.52, 1/21--0.4mg, 1/22--0.26, 1/23--0.2, 2/13--0.13mg, 2/20--0.06mg, 3/18--0.13mg, 6/1--0.12mg, 7/6--0.1mg, 7/14--0.08mg, 8/17--0.04mg, 8/20--0.03mg, 8/28--0.02mg, 9/6--0.0205mg, 9/8--0.02mg, 9/17--0.015mg, 9/20--0.01mg, 9/21--0.0048mg, 9/22--0.0001mg, Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 26, 2015 Author Share Posted September 26, 2015 Waking up everyday and the inability to have inner peace and relax really starts to weigh on you. I'm not sure if it's akathisia or just anxiety/agitation but it's debilitating most of the time. I just want to be able to sit in bed with my family on Saturday morning and feel relaxed. Hopefully year 2 will lead to this! Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
clearday Posted September 26, 2015 Share Posted September 26, 2015 Waking up everyday and the inability to have inner peace and relax really starts to weigh on you. I'm not sure if it's akathisia or just anxiety/agitation but it's debilitating most of the time. I just want to be able to sit in bed with my family on Saturday morning and feel relaxed. Hopefully year 2 will lead to this! I have the same - for me, it is certainly part of withdrawal. During my best windows, when my brain settles down, that inner restlessness goes away. So I know it is part of the withdrawal. It certainly weighs on me too. It takes its toll over time. But those who have healed from exactly this same thing, tell us we need to just hang on. And that it usually takes a long time. It seems impossible to hang on sometimes, and the journey often seems too long. But I am very interested in seeing what progress I will make over the next year; I have made much progress over this past year. I laid down for bed last week, and for the first time in ten months, my brain was silent upon laying down. It was pure heaven. The restlessness disappeared. The silence lasted for a few days. It shows that when the inner fires of Lexapro withdrawal die down, we are there, intact, under the symptoms. But now, back in a weeklong wave, very challenging. We just need to wait it out until those fires die down for good. I've got both fingers crossed, and real reason to hope. Hope your next window comes soon - Hell hath no fury as an SSRI scorned..... Prozac: 20 mg 1996 – May 2003 CT to 0 mg; by Aug 03 CRASH then protracted WD 3 yrs Zoloft: 2004 few weeks;, CT to 0 mg Effexor: 2005 few months CT to 0 mg; bad withdrawal. Lexapro: 10 mg from 2009 – 2011; cut dose in half to: Lexapro: 5 mg from 2011 – Feb. 2014; CT to 0 mg; 2 months of fatigue, followed by:Aug - Oct 2014 Lexapro WD Insomnia Wave; sleeping very good from Nov 2014 - Nov 2015; broken sleep pattern Dec 2015 - Jan 2016 Dec 2014 - present: Brutal Lexapro WD ear ringing/head ringing/head pressure lasting for 14 months now. 24 months SSRI-free Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 26, 2015 Author Share Posted September 26, 2015 Waking up everyday and the inability to have inner peace and relax really starts to weigh on you. I'm not sure if it's akathisia or just anxiety/agitation but it's debilitating most of the time. I just want to be able to sit in bed with my family on Saturday morning and feel relaxed. Hopefully year 2 will lead to this! I have the same - for me, it is certainly part of withdrawal. During my best windows, when my brain settles down, that inner restlessness goes away. So I know it is part of the withdrawal. It certainly weighs on me too. It takes its toll over time. But those who have healed from exactly this same thing, tell us we need to just hang on. And that it usually takes a long time. It seems impossible to hang on sometimes, and the journey often seems too long. But I am very interested in seeing what progress I will make over the next year; I have made much progress over this past year. I laid down for bed last week, and for the first time in ten months, my brain was silent upon laying down. It was pure heaven. The restlessness disappeared. The silence lasted for a few days. It shows that when the inner fires of Lexapro withdrawal die down, we are there, intact, under the symptoms. But now, back in a weeklong wave, very challenging. We just need to wait it out until those fires die down for good. I've got both fingers crossed, and real reason to hope. Hope your next window comes soon - Thanks, Clearday! You always give me hope. My 1 year off is next week. Do you take magnesium and fish oil? I have recently started mag and it does seem to help. If you take them, do you feel they help? Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
clearday Posted September 26, 2015 Share Posted September 26, 2015 Do you take magnesium and fish oil? I have recently started mag and it does seem to help. If you take them, do you feel they help? I have taken them, and they have never helped reduce withdrawal symptoms for me. But the fish oil seems good for my GI tract. And the fatty acids in the fish oil are good for brain health, so I figure it is good to take it. Congratulations on your upcoming one year off. Many on here wish they could say that. Hell hath no fury as an SSRI scorned..... Prozac: 20 mg 1996 – May 2003 CT to 0 mg; by Aug 03 CRASH then protracted WD 3 yrs Zoloft: 2004 few weeks;, CT to 0 mg Effexor: 2005 few months CT to 0 mg; bad withdrawal. Lexapro: 10 mg from 2009 – 2011; cut dose in half to: Lexapro: 5 mg from 2011 – Feb. 2014; CT to 0 mg; 2 months of fatigue, followed by:Aug - Oct 2014 Lexapro WD Insomnia Wave; sleeping very good from Nov 2014 - Nov 2015; broken sleep pattern Dec 2015 - Jan 2016 Dec 2014 - present: Brutal Lexapro WD ear ringing/head ringing/head pressure lasting for 14 months now. 24 months SSRI-free Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 26, 2015 Author Share Posted September 26, 2015 Do you take magnesium and fish oil? I have recently started mag and it does seem to help. If you take them, do you feel they help? I have taken them, and they have never helped reduce withdrawal symptoms for me. But the fish oil seems good for my GI tract. And the fatty acids in the fish oil are good for brain health, so I figure it is good to take it. Congratulations on your upcoming one year off. Many on here wish they could say that. Thanks, Clear. Actually took one fish oil capsule today and did seem to pick up my mood. May be a total placebo effect but it's nice! Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
Coopergirl1 Posted September 27, 2015 Share Posted September 27, 2015 Hi you guys- are feelings of regret during withdrawal normal? Started Prozac 20 MG March 2014-Sept 2014 New doctor switched me to Lexapro 10 MG and it helped from Sept 2014-Feb 2015 and then I felt the Lexapro wasn't helping as much so he changed the dose to 20 MG and I took that from Feb 2015-July 2015 when I decided to get off pills completely.I had to reinstate as I was feeling so bad and very pressured to go back on pills. My Dr put me on 50 MG zoloft and I took it for about a week..made me feel brain dead. Went down to 25 before I really learned the trouble of fast tapering..finally got a jewelry scale to properly weigh out my pills. Looking to just feel OK. Unsure where to go next. Link to comment
wilderness92 Posted September 27, 2015 Share Posted September 27, 2015 I have completely gone through your story Horns85, I am 5 months beyond lexapro and since July I am continuously having head symptoms which haven't got better everyday after waking up, I have these buzzing sounds in my head, my left eye vision is also distorted. On Thursday last week i became completely exhausted and called my doctor, who straight away gave a prescription for .25 ALP and 5mg lexapro. I took 2 doses of lexapro then last night i did not take that.since i was reading your story. I hope things get better for all of us. Was started on cipralex 10mg in February 2012 Moved up to 20mg within a month 1st attempt to quit in december 2012 in April 2013 was put back on 10mg cipralex because of debilitating withdrawals. tappered with extreme caution from 10mg to .15mg from April 2013 till April 2015 started having terrible withdrawals in July 2015 took 2 doses of 5mg on September 24 and September 25 2015 because of blurred vision anxiety and ear and head noise. Link to comment
wilderness92 Posted September 27, 2015 Share Posted September 27, 2015 Its really heart breaking and tough. Was started on cipralex 10mg in February 2012 Moved up to 20mg within a month 1st attempt to quit in december 2012 in April 2013 was put back on 10mg cipralex because of debilitating withdrawals. tappered with extreme caution from 10mg to .15mg from April 2013 till April 2015 started having terrible withdrawals in July 2015 took 2 doses of 5mg on September 24 and September 25 2015 because of blurred vision anxiety and ear and head noise. Link to comment
wilderness92 Posted September 28, 2015 Share Posted September 28, 2015 How are you today Horn85? Was started on cipralex 10mg in February 2012 Moved up to 20mg within a month 1st attempt to quit in december 2012 in April 2013 was put back on 10mg cipralex because of debilitating withdrawals. tappered with extreme caution from 10mg to .15mg from April 2013 till April 2015 started having terrible withdrawals in July 2015 took 2 doses of 5mg on September 24 and September 25 2015 because of blurred vision anxiety and ear and head noise. Link to comment
tgirl Posted September 29, 2015 Share Posted September 29, 2015 Hello Horns, How are you and that new baby doing? Tgirl April 2014 remeron 45mg. June 2014 abilify 2.5 remeron wasn't working so abilify was then added September 2014 woke up with anxiety x 100!!!! Pdoc then took me from 45 to 7.5 within a month and took abilify from 2.5 to 0 Currently Remeron 7.5 Vitamin d 5,000 iu taking for about 3 years October 2014 added fish oil/omega 3 1000 mg per day Levothyroxitine 100 10 years or so Dec 2014 started tapering 10% every 10 days-no problems. August 2015 down to 0.1 mg Woke up with severe anxiety-sleep issues-racing thoughts-depression. 9/9/15 up dose 1 mg. Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 29, 2015 Author Share Posted September 29, 2015 Hello Horns, How are you and that new baby doing? Tgirl Hi Tgirl, The lack of sleep has really put me in a bad wave. That combined with the stress has been difficult! Baby girl is great, though! Just wish I wasn't anxious 24/7 with akathisia. It's kind of miserable! Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 29, 2015 Author Share Posted September 29, 2015 I'm struggling so much right now. I will be a year off this week. All I can think about is reinstating but I just don't know. I know it's a crapshoot at this point. My anxiety/akathisia is crazy through the roof. Really tough decision! I have liquid Lexapro so I can reinstate a really small dose. Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
tgirl Posted September 29, 2015 Share Posted September 29, 2015 Hey Horns, Is the lack of sleep from withdrawl or is the baby keeping you up? Do you take magnesium? Tgirl April 2014 remeron 45mg. June 2014 abilify 2.5 remeron wasn't working so abilify was then added September 2014 woke up with anxiety x 100!!!! Pdoc then took me from 45 to 7.5 within a month and took abilify from 2.5 to 0 Currently Remeron 7.5 Vitamin d 5,000 iu taking for about 3 years October 2014 added fish oil/omega 3 1000 mg per day Levothyroxitine 100 10 years or so Dec 2014 started tapering 10% every 10 days-no problems. August 2015 down to 0.1 mg Woke up with severe anxiety-sleep issues-racing thoughts-depression. 9/9/15 up dose 1 mg. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted September 29, 2015 Administrator Share Posted September 29, 2015 Hi, Horns. I moved your post here so it wouldn't get lost. Well, it's up to you if you want to try a little Lexapro. Please let us know how you're doing. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 30, 2015 Author Share Posted September 30, 2015 Hey Horns, Is the lack of sleep from withdrawl or is the baby keeping you up? Do you take magnesium? Tgirl Well sleep was 'OK' prior to the new baby. I at least got 5-6 hours of solid sleep. As anyone who has had a newborn knows, I'm lucky if I get 2 hours of straight sleep and 4 hours total. Anyway, it's not a coincidence that my WD has escalated in the last month since my baby was born. Thanks for caring TGirl, it means a lot. As much as I try to be in the moment in this special time, WD makes it very hard. Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 30, 2015 Author Share Posted September 30, 2015 I'm back experiencing this weird dizzy/spacey feeling after eating. Makes my derealization worse too. It happens with all different foods and doesn't feel like an allergy. Very strange. It comes and goes but is debilitating when it happens. I just want and had full bloodwork done and tested for h pylori. Just waiting on the results. Anyone else experience this? Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted September 30, 2015 Administrator Share Posted September 30, 2015 You might want to go on an exclusion diet for a bit -- basically, chicken, rice, and some bland cooked vegetables. See if that helps. It could be your blood sugar has gotten dysregulated, can you talk to your ob-gyn about this? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 30, 2015 Author Share Posted September 30, 2015 You might want to go on an exclusion diet for a bit -- basically, chicken, rice, and some bland cooked vegetables. See if that helps. It could be your blood sugar has gotten dysregulated, can you talk to your ob-gyn about this? Probably not a bad idea on the diet. It almost feels the same as it does after I workout to hard. Alto, I'm male some don't have a ob-gyn. :-) Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
SelmaLady Posted September 30, 2015 Share Posted September 30, 2015 I've had this off and on since I got slammed in 2013. I find that when my system is very revved up, I can't put much of anything in my stomach w/o my symptoms getting worse. When I am like that, I eat just very small amounts of chicken and rice and maybe some applesauce and soft veggie like peas. And I can't have anything too hot or too cold. I know that there are theories on why this happens to some of us: Vagus nerve stimulation, serotonin receptors in gut, etc. I just try to let it be and gradually add foods back in to see if I can stay stable after eating. So sorry this is happening. So many strange things happen when our brain chemistry is turned upside down... 1971-81 Valium 5mg c/t PAWS 1992- through now Zoloft 25mg 2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off 2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS 2013 O/D Val 230mg 2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zoloft 25mg 3/15/16 Doxepin 49mg Micro Tapering Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper 3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 - Decreasing incrementally. DISCONTINUED 10/9/16 Doxepin 48.9 Zoloft 24.3 Clonidine 01.10 Continuing micro taper on Doxepin. 11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg Zoloft 24.3mg Clonidine 1.30mg 5/4/17 Doxepin 45mg Zoloft 24mg Clonidine 1.20mg Micro taper of Doxepin , Clonidine 01/13/19 Doxepin 45mg Zoloft 21mg Will start Micro taper of Doxepin 2/19 12/21/21 Doxepin 20 mg ? Reducing using water micro taper--Pulling 24ml from 75ml 12/2121 Zoloft .060 grams by weight--HOLDING (info from post added by CC: On 12/21/21 my dosage was .060grams by weight or 20mg. ) 26 Apr 2022 - Zoloft at -0- Link to comment
Horns85 Posted September 30, 2015 Author Share Posted September 30, 2015 I've had this off and on since I got slammed in 2013. I find that when my system is very revved up, I can't put much of anything in my stomach w/o my symptoms getting worse. When I am like that, I eat just very small amounts of chicken and rice and maybe some applesauce and soft veggie like peas. And I can't have anything too hot or too cold. I know that there are theories on why this happens to some of us: Vagus nerve stimulation, serotonin receptors in gut, etc. I just try to let it be and gradually add foods back in to see if I can stay stable after eating. So sorry this is happening. So many strange things happen when our brain chemistry is turned upside down... Makes sense! I get heart palps too and now acid reflux, even when I'm not eating. Never really had reflux before meds. Lexapro from October 2012-October 2014 10mg from Oct 2012-Feb 2013, 20mg from Feb 2013-June 2013, 10mg from July 2013-April 2014Began taper via liquid Lexapro from April 2014-September 2014(Roughly 6 month taper)---0.00 on Oct 1 2014--WD began in December 2014 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Reinstated to 10mg - 10mg Tablet October 15, 2015 - Stable by Mid-January, 2016 2016 - 9mg 3/26/16....8mg 5/11/16....7mg 7/05/16....6mg 8/26/16....5mg 10/31/16 2017 - 4mg 3/06/17....3mg 6/24/17....2mg 9/07/17...1.25mg 10/21/17....1mg 11/04/2017 2018 - 0.75mg 1/21/18....0.5mg 2/18/18....0.25mg 3/13/18....0.125mg 3/27/18....0.000 4/9/18 Supplements - 15B probiotic on and off. Usually helps w/ mood but sometimes is too activating. Link to comment
clearday Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 Congratulations on your one-year off Lexapro anniversary today! Perhaps wait until your next window and decide then if you want to reinstate. Reinstating during a difficult wave is usually done out of desperation, and not thinking clearly. Think it through, and decide if you want to spend the next couple years tapering, and wondering what might have been if you didn't reinstate. Yes, it might help your symptoms to reinstate, or it might not. The last three late reinstatements I have read on here ended in suffering, confusion, and regret. It is impossible to say whether reinstating would be a good move for the long-term or not. It could be, or not. But at least think it through first. Reinstating may help for a couple weeks, then might get worse; then what? IF your goal is to be off these meds for life, then how does reinstating fit into that goal? As you said, it is a very difficult decision. Either way, do what you feel you must, in order to survive. I hope things get better for you soon - Hell hath no fury as an SSRI scorned..... Prozac: 20 mg 1996 – May 2003 CT to 0 mg; by Aug 03 CRASH then protracted WD 3 yrs Zoloft: 2004 few weeks;, CT to 0 mg Effexor: 2005 few months CT to 0 mg; bad withdrawal. Lexapro: 10 mg from 2009 – 2011; cut dose in half to: Lexapro: 5 mg from 2011 – Feb. 2014; CT to 0 mg; 2 months of fatigue, followed by:Aug - Oct 2014 Lexapro WD Insomnia Wave; sleeping very good from Nov 2014 - Nov 2015; broken sleep pattern Dec 2015 - Jan 2016 Dec 2014 - present: Brutal Lexapro WD ear ringing/head ringing/head pressure lasting for 14 months now. 24 months SSRI-free Link to comment
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