Tilly - Escitalopram / Lexapro Tapering - advice please

[Songbird]

Cuddling cats is the best.

[freespirit]

So great you had a good night's sleep..it does indeed make a big difference. I agree with Songbird...cuddling cats is heavenly.

[direstraits]

you write so beautifully & with great insight

 

wishing you better days ahead-and I love cuddling my 2 cats too! (((hugs)))

[ikam]

GREAT! Good to hear this Tilly...

[Tilly]

It great your able to experience enjoyment

Thank you, LoveandLight 

 

I practice gratitude and keep a daily gratitude journal. I think it is important to be grateful for what we have right now. Especially in withdrawal. It's not always easy but it is a very worthwhile practice.

 

I hope that you are well.

 

Tilly x

[Tilly]

Hi Tilly,

 

Soooo happy for you!

The wpvery well deserved window! Hope it continues for a long while!

 

Enjoy your beautiful writing! Can't imagine how much more graceful it could be if you have your 'own' brain!

 

Lex

Thank you Lex! 

 

Your support has been so much help to me through a really difficult time. I really appreciate your support and value your friendship.

 

My brain is waking up, slowly but surely. I recognise small aspects of my personality that I had forgotten, returning this week. This has been really encouraging.

 

Huge hugs to you, Lex.

 

Tilly x

[Tilly]

Cuddling cats is the best.

I totally agree, Songbird!

 

I love their different purrs. Very therapeutic 

 

I hope that you are continuing to make progress.

 

Tilly x

[Tilly]

So great you had a good night's sleep..it does indeed make a big difference. I agree with Songbird...cuddling cats is heavenly.

Sleep really does make a big difference, freespirit. We have our own little feline appreciation society developing here. I'm all in favour!

 

Take good care and be kind to yourself.

 

Tilly x

[Tilly]

you write so beautifully & with great insight

 

wishing you better days ahead-and I love cuddling my 2 cats too! (((hugs)))

Firstly, welcome. Thank you so much for taking the time to pop by. I really appreciate it. Nice to 'meet you'.

 

Bless you and thank you so much, direstraits. I get so frustrated with my writing and speech as they have been hugely effected along with so many other things in withdrawal. 

 

I read your thread, direstraits. You have amazing strength and compassion and have been through significant loss. I admire and respect you so very much. I am hoping that a window happens for you soon to bring you some relief, hope and breathing space. You have much more strength than you realise and you will make it through this and out the other side.You have so much support here. Ask for what you need to see you through.

 

Be kind to yourself.

 

Huge hugs

 

Tilly x

 

PS I have 4 cats, 3 girls one boy. I am greedy where feline company is concerned   x

[Tilly]

GREAT! Good to hear this Tilly...

Ikam,

 

Your support has been instrumental in me getting back on track with my taper. I really appreciate your support and value your friendship so much. Thank you!

 

We will support each other through this and come out the other side! 

 

Huge hugs

 

Tilly x

[direstraits]

thanks so much for your lovely,supportive post;I really appreciate this;

 

I'm so grateful to all the wonderful people on this site who are there for me;its been a blessing

 

you've been through a lot too,Tilly-sorry for your suffering;you're very strong.

 

let's all get through this together xoxo

[Tilly]

Update

 

It was my first day on 3.5mg yesterday. It was such a beautiful day!

 

Tiredness hit me in the afternoon, but I felt quite stimulated later in the afternoon / evening. I could not lie down to sleep as my mind and body was active / restless, required movement and stimulation and or distraction.

 

I have experienced this excess energy / restlessness at intervals over many years during what I know believe to be tolerance withdrawal. I used to liken this mood to mania (not as in a diagnosed form, I have never been formally diagnosed with anything. This is a way of self explaining an excess of energy)

 

I read a few things today (not too much as it is not helpful and I can't sit still for long enough) to believe that this recurrent phase is akathisia. I learned something new today. I pottered my way through the night. I have been up for almost 37 hours and I'm still moderately restless yet very physically and mentally tired.

 

When mild I can partake in creative pursuits, but cannot stay focused on one task for any length of time and have several tasks ongoing which I flit back and forward from.

 

Today creative tasks were not a possibility, so I browsed on line and paced at regular intervals. Stretched, shook out my muscles and did silly things like sing a stupid song to my partner or do my 'chicken dance' (don't ask!) which results in us laughing and relieving the tension of my need for ongoing movement. I hesitate to post as this all sounds so bizarre, but it relieves the stress of the situation.

 

My itching is also back (I know, attractive) this symptom presents with every increase and decrease since I started escitalopram. Tonight I am scratching myself raw, although trying to avoid scratching.  I have always been vigilant to watch out for a rash, but none is ever present. Does anyone else experience this? Is it possibly histamine related? If so, I would happily adjust my diet if this would minimise this symptom.

 

Apart from the fact that I can't sit still and I am constantly scratching and have not slept, I feel fine in myself emotionally  I have had fearful  and anxious emotions (neuro-emotions?) arise at regular intervals throughout the day relating to many different things, but have been able to rationalise them as part of my withdrawal and lack of sleep. I have felt that it is very positive that I am able to do so.

 

I have also felt incredible love today for my partner, cats and the nature that surrounds me. I fed the ducklings today. They have depleted from 12 to 8 in the last four days. This made me so sad, but more vigilant about caring for those that remain as I cannot change the course of nature.  I cried today, but out of happiness arising from a supportive message. My emotions fluctuate throughout the day, but there is balance. So all is well.

 

This community is so important to the recovery of us all. The more that I read, the more that I find strength, courage and a community of people that I am so happy to be a part of.

 

Night night & rest well all.

 

Tilly x

[Tilly]

thanks so much for your lovely,supportive post;I really appreciate this;

 

I'm so grateful to all the wonderful people on this site who are there for me;its been a blessing

 

you've been through a lot too,Tilly-sorry for your suffering;you're very strong.

 

let's all get through this together xoxo

You deserve support, you have had to cope with so much for so long. Now is your time for your healing. This is the priority right now. The top of your list every day.

 

This site is a blessing to me too, more than I ever believed it could be when I joined.

 

Thank you for your empathy. I really appreciate it. Pain can bring many losses, but also powerful and positive transformation. I believe that and have experienced it throughout my life.

 

Patience, understanding and mutual support will see us through here. You will be supported through every step of your journey.

 

Hugs, love & healing to you.

 

Tilly xxx

[direstraits]

thank you...and I just have to say how sorry I was that youwere attacked like that for trying to be of some help-it really angered me-take care x

[Tilly]

thank you...and I just have to say how sorry I was that youwere attacked like that for trying to be of some help-it really angered me-take care x

Your compassion is wonderful. Thank you. You can only help people when they are ready to accept help. There is a saying that criticism says more about the critic than the criticised. I believe that there is truth in this. I am fine. But your concern is very much appreciated. Thank you so much.

 

Be kind to yourself . I look forward to following your progress.

 

Speak soon.

 

Night, night x

[dalsaan]

Hi Tilly,

 

I've got 3 cats and two dogs.  They each play a role in my wellbeing.  I'm besotted with the youngest of the dogs/cats because they love to cuddle and play.  They are both real characters!

 

May the sleep fairy bless you with a visit

 

Dalsaan xx

[freespirit]

My itching is also back (I know, attractive) this symptom presents with every increase and decrease since I started escitalopram. Tonight I am scratching myself raw, although trying to avoid scratching.  I have always been vigilant to watch out for a rash, but none is ever present. Does anyone else experience this? Is it possibly histamine related? If so, I would happily adjust my diet if this would minimise this symptom.

 

Hi Tilly,

 

That was one of the symptoms I had with histamine sensitivity. No rash, but terrible itching..also insomnia and a very high degree of restlessness. I read on 1 site that Lexapro is one of the drugs which can be related to histamine problems.

 

Perhaps it would be worth looking at the diet and maybe reducing some of the higher histamine foods and see if it makes a difference...it wasn't instantaneous for me..took some tweaking of what I could or couldn't eat, but many of the symptoms disappeared or got better from changing diet.

[Tilly]

Hi Tilly,

 

I've got 3 cats and two dogs.  They each play a role in my wellbeing.  I'm besotted with the youngest of the dogs/cats because they love to cuddle and play.  They are both real characters!

 

May the sleep fairy bless you with a visit

 

Dalsaan xx

Hi Dalsaan,

 

Lovely to hear from you as always!

 

All of my cats have very different personalities, but they are all very loving and tactile. They play a huge part in my well being as does nature. I've been considering fostering dogs from a local shelter while they are waiting for permanent homes once my health is more stable and I can get out to walk them. I think that I could provide good care for them and they would be therapeutic in terms of helping me to overcome my agoraphobia by taking them out for daily exercise and walks. The only danger being, I would end up with 4 dogs as well! 

 

I am glad that you have a lovely family of animals too 

 

I hope that you are faring well.

 

Tilly x

[Tilly]

 

My itching is also back (I know, attractive) this symptom presents with every increase and decrease since I started escitalopram. Tonight I am scratching myself raw, although trying to avoid scratching.  I have always been vigilant to watch out for a rash, but none is ever present. Does anyone else experience this? Is it possibly histamine related? If so, I would happily adjust my diet if this would minimise this symptom.

 

Hi Tilly,

 

That was one of the symptoms I had with histamine sensitivity. No rash, but terrible itching..also insomnia and a very high degree of restlessness. I read on 1 site that Lexapro is one of the drugs which can be related to histamine problems.

 

Perhaps it would be worth looking at the diet and maybe reducing some of the higher histamine foods and see if it makes a difference...it wasn't instantaneous for me..took some tweaking of what I could or couldn't eat, but many of the symptoms disappeared or got better from changing diet.

 

Hi freespirit,

 

Thank you for your helpful input. I will look into histamine foods and eliminate them from my diet for a few months and see if this alleviates any symptoms. 

 

I hope that your day is kind to you.

 

Tilly x

[Tilly]

Update

 

I managed to sleep for around 11 hours. I have woken feeling tired and restless and my concentration is poor.

 

I will try to do some sewing today to improve my concentration and focus and see how I fare with it. I have a set of curtains to finish making and lining to make for them. When I'm able to, spending time concentrating on measuring fabric, pattern matching and sewing it can help to distract me from symptoms, improve my focus and makes me feel that I have achieved something with my day.

 

I hope that all who are reading have a peaceful day today.

 

Tilly x

[AliG]

Hey Tilley, Just touching base. Thank you so much for your support.   Every Time you talk about the "ducklings", you make me cry.    You are a very kind person. You can be forceful at times, but still, at the end of the day , a "Kitten".     Take Care.    Ali.  

[bubble]

 

Tiredness hit me in the afternoon, but I felt quite stimulated later in the afternoon / evening. I could not lie down to sleep as my mind and body was active / restless, required movement and stimulation and or distraction.

 

I have experienced this excess energy / restlessness at intervals over many years during what I know believe to be tolerance withdrawal. I used to liken this mood to mania (not as in a diagnosed form, I have never been formally diagnosed with anything. This is a way of self explaining an excess of energy)

 

I read a few things today (not too much as it is not helpful and I can't sit still for long enough) to believe that this recurrent phase is akathisia. I learned something new today. I pottered my way through the night. I have been up for almost 37 hours and I'm still moderately restless yet very physically and mentally tired.

 

When mild I can partake in creative pursuits, but cannot stay focused on one task for any length of time and have several tasks ongoing which I flit back and forward from.

 

 

Hello Tilly,

 

I was away for some time because I was so busy at work but I did ocassionaly check in and I saw how badly you were struggling recently. I was also thinking of sending you my Escitalopram because I can access it easily and my GP is full of understanding. But then I saw that other people were reacting in the same way and that you were well supported and it was so very nice to see that! If it happens that you get into similar situation ever again, let us know. 

 

I am also impressed with the way you asserted your rights even in the difficult situation you found yourself in. I'm very happy to see things have slowly started improving for you. I always find a lot of similarities with myself when you describe your symptoms. I also have itching sometimes but it never ocurred to me to connect it with Escitalopram. It's not drastic so I can cope with it but it's comforting to realise it's also part of the "package deal" with Escitalopram...

 

What I have quoted here is a great description of how I function. I struggle so badly at work all the time and most of the time don't know how I manage at all. But I do somehow. I constantly have multiple tabs open and move from one to the other. I somehow accepted it as the way things just have to be but now I started imaging a different reality when I'm off Escitalopram one day and maybe this disappears.. What a wonderful world that would be.... Still, I always tell myself I'm lucky I don't experience panic, I can sleep reasonably well, I can move around and frequently even enjoy thigs, etc. so this significant fatigue and restlessness that actually limit my functioning and change who I am (was/could be) to a great extent are seen only as minor inconveniences...

 

I liked your descriptions of spring as well

 

 Hugs,

Bubble

[mammaP]

Update

 

I managed to sleep for around 11 hours. I have woken feeling tired and restless and my concentration is poor.

 

I will try to do some sewing today to improve my concentration and focus and see how I fare with it. I have a set of curtains to finish making and lining to make for them. When I'm able to, spending time concentrating on measuring fabric, pattern matching and sewing it can help to distract me from symptoms, improve my focus and makes me feel that I have achieved something with my day.

 

I hope that all who are reading have a peaceful day today.

 

Tilly x

Hope the curtains are coming on ok Tilly, you will feel such a sense of accomplishment when they are hanging at the window. A few days ago I stitched a button onto a jacket and was ecstatic because I'd done it!  

[freespirit]

 

 

My itching is also back (I know, attractive) this symptom presents with every increase and decrease since I started escitalopram. Tonight I am scratching myself raw, although trying to avoid scratching.  I have always been vigilant to watch out for a rash, but none is ever present. Does anyone else experience this? Is it possibly histamine related? If so, I would happily adjust my diet if this would minimise this symptom.

 

Hi Tilly,

 

That was one of the symptoms I had with histamine sensitivity. No rash, but terrible itching..also insomnia and a very high degree of restlessness. I read on 1 site that Lexapro is one of the drugs which can be related to histamine problems.

 

Perhaps it would be worth looking at the diet and maybe reducing some of the higher histamine foods and see if it makes a difference...it wasn't instantaneous for me..took some tweaking of what I could or couldn't eat, but many of the symptoms disappeared or got better from changing diet.

 

Hi freespirit,

 

Thank you for your helpful input. I will look into histamine foods and eliminate them from my diet for a few months and see if this alleviates any symptoms. 

 

I hope that your day is kind to you.

 

Tilly x

 

 

Tilly,

 

You will of course, find your own way with this. Ultimately, we need to trust our own bodies and instincts above anything else in my opinion. I was suffering on every front from the histamine--physically and emotionally. I changed my diet drastically, which may or may not have been the best thing.

 

I found a lot of help through reading on here http://beyondmeds.com/?s=histamine+intolerancebecause she writes from the perspective of coming off psych meds, not just about histamine in general. The piece about dealing with a disregulated nervous system is likely different than for some people dealing with histamine.

 

You will also find as you read that people say opposing things about what does or doesn't increase histamine in the body. There's a lot of variation on what each person can eat. I had to stop taking fish oil, but some people can continue with it. It was the last main thing I did that eased the symptoms. But you'll have to see for yourself.

 

I got pretty stressed at first about what I could or couldn't eat..compounded by the fact I have diabetes, which imposes it's own difficulties. But stressing didn't help of course. I hope you can find ways to improve things and still be gentle with yourself.

[ikam]

 

GREAT! Good to hear this Tilly...

Ikam,

 

Your support has been instrumental in me getting back on track with my taper. I really appreciate your support and value your friendship so much. Thank you!

 

We will support each other through this and come out the other side! 

 

Huge hugs

 

Tilly x

 

I am really happy that I was able to support you.

Yes, we will support each other

[LexAnger]

Hi Tilly,

 

It made me smile thinking your singling and dancing! I almost asked if you did not warm me immedately

 

Hope the reaction to the recent dose increase calms down soon and provide stability for further tapering.

 

I am glad at least you got good number of sleep. Its funny this lexapro can make me sleep a lot either increase or decrease within my change range (2.5--4.5), if I can wake up naturally with 7-8 hour sleep, it mean i have the proper amount of the med and asign of somewhat stabalization.

 

 

You take care,

Lex

[Tilly]

 

 

Tiredness hit me in the afternoon, but I felt quite stimulated later in the afternoon / evening. I could not lie down to sleep as my mind and body was active / restless, required movement and stimulation and or distraction.

 

I have experienced this excess energy / restlessness at intervals over many years during what I know believe to be tolerance withdrawal. I used to liken this mood to mania (not as in a diagnosed form, I have never been formally diagnosed with anything. This is a way of self explaining an excess of energy)

 

I read a few things today (not too much as it is not helpful and I can't sit still for long enough) to believe that this recurrent phase is akathisia. I learned something new today. I pottered my way through the night. I have been up for almost 37 hours and I'm still moderately restless yet very physically and mentally tired.

 

When mild I can partake in creative pursuits, but cannot stay focused on one task for any length of time and have several tasks ongoing which I flit back and forward from.

 

 

Hello Tilly,

 

I was away for some time because I was so busy at work but I did ocassionaly check in and I saw how badly you were struggling recently. I was also thinking of sending you my Escitalopram because I can access it easily and my GP is full of understanding. But then I saw that other people were reacting in the same way and that you were well supported and it was so very nice to see that! If it happens that you get into similar situation ever again, let us know. 

 

I am also impressed with the way you asserted your rights even in the difficult situation you found yourself in. I'm very happy to see things have slowly started improving for you. I always find a lot of similarities with myself when you describe your symptoms. I also have itching sometimes but it never ocurred to me to connect it with Escitalopram. It's not drastic so I can cope with it but it's comforting to realise it's also part of the "package deal" with Escitalopram...

 

What I have quoted here is a great description of how I function. I struggle so badly at work all the time and most of the time don't know how I manage at all. But I do somehow. I constantly have multiple tabs open and move from one to the other. I somehow accepted it as the way things just have to be but now I started imaging a different reality when I'm off Escitalopram one day and maybe this disappears.. What a wonderful world that would be.... Still, I always tell myself I'm lucky I don't experience panic, I can sleep reasonably well, I can move around and frequently even enjoy thigs, etc. so this significant fatigue and restlessness that actually limit my functioning and change who I am (was/could be) to a great extent are seen only as minor inconveniences...

 

I liked your descriptions of spring as well

 

 Hugs,

Bubble

 

Hello Bubble,

 

So lovely to hear from you!  Thank you so much for your kindness and for taking the time to post. I really appreciate it.

 

I was quite amazed at the kind offers of help and the support that I have received in recent weeks. It has been both heart warming and instrumental on a practical level in getting my taper back on track. I am so grateful.

 

It was also of great comfort to me to read your post and hear from you that there are symptoms and behaviours that seem to arise as a consequence of escitalopram. Not that I would wish these on anyone, but it affirms that they are drug induced and gives hope that as such, they are temporary and will pass with time for all of us.

 

I have found that during my taper, the symptoms that I experience upon reduction (and up dosing) mirrors the symptoms that I experienced upon start up. Some new symptoms may also arise just to keep you on your toes! However for the most part, there is a pattern. When I was stabilising on 5mg after 5 months, these symptoms had started to dissipate.  Not just the physical symptoms, but the anxiety and agoraphobic symptoms too. I have always been an outdoor person and highly sociable and the urges and motivation to get out and interact were returning. I now believe that the agoraphobia that I have suffered for 4 years is also drug induced. Although my GP has jeopardised my recovery by  withdrawing medication from me too quickly, this is an interruption, not an end to my progress. I have seen a glimmer of what my life will look like beyond withdrawal and I liked it very much. I am holding on tightly to that and it is spurring me on.

 

I love spring and summer. But especially spring as this is when nature awakens and comes to life again. I love to watch it and be a part of it. I delights and energises me 

 

Thank you so much for writing. I found your post to be very affirming, not to mention full of kindness. Your progress will continue, Bubble. Maybe you will notice one day that you only have 2 tabs open instead of 22. Then it will 'click' that progress has been made 

 

I wish you the best of everything. 

 

Hugs,

 

Tilly x

[Tilly]

Hey Tilley, Just touching base. Thank you so much for your support.   Every Time you talk about the "ducklings", you make me cry.    You are a very kind person. You can be forceful at times, but still, at the end of the day , a "Kitten".     Take Care.    Ali.  

Hi Ali,

 

I posted on your thread at the same time you posted on mine. Great minds, eh? 

 

Ah, those ducklings are so adorable. They warm my heart. They continue to thrive as a group of 8 

 

Take care, Ali.

 

Tilly x

[LoveandLight]

It is very moving to read you have glimpsed what life will be like for you after WD

[Tilly]

 

 

 

My itching is also back (I know, attractive) this symptom presents with every increase and decrease since I started escitalopram. Tonight I am scratching myself raw, although trying to avoid scratching.  I have always been vigilant to watch out for a rash, but none is ever present. Does anyone else experience this? Is it possibly histamine related? If so, I would happily adjust my diet if this would minimise this symptom.

 

Hi Tilly,

 

That was one of the symptoms I had with histamine sensitivity. No rash, but terrible itching..also insomnia and a very high degree of restlessness. I read on 1 site that Lexapro is one of the drugs which can be related to histamine problems.

 

Perhaps it would be worth looking at the diet and maybe reducing some of the higher histamine foods and see if it makes a difference...it wasn't instantaneous for me..took some tweaking of what I could or couldn't eat, but many of the symptoms disappeared or got better from changing diet.

 

Hi freespirit,

 

Thank you for your helpful input. I will look into histamine foods and eliminate them from my diet for a few months and see if this alleviates any symptoms. 

 

I hope that your day is kind to you.

 

Tilly x

 

 

Tilly,

 

You will of course, find your own way with this. Ultimately, we need to trust our own bodies and instincts above anything else in my opinion. I was suffering on every front from the histamine--physically and emotionally. I changed my diet drastically, which may or may not have been the best thing.

 

I found a lot of help through reading on here http://beyondmeds.com/?s=histamine+intolerancebecause she writes from the perspective of coming off psych meds, not just about histamine in general. The piece about dealing with a disregulated nervous system is likely different than for some people dealing with histamine.

 

You will also find as you read that people say opposing things about what does or doesn't increase histamine in the body. There's a lot of variation on what each person can eat. I had to stop taking fish oil, but some people can continue with it. It was the last main thing I did that eased the symptoms. But you'll have to see for yourself.

 

I got pretty stressed at first about what I could or couldn't eat..compounded by the fact I have diabetes, which imposes it's own difficulties. But stressing didn't help of course. I hope you can find ways to improve things and still be gentle with yourself.

 

Hi freespirit,

 

Thank you for your feedback. I will sift through the information and consider it before making any changes. Thank you for the link. I think that I have read this article in the past, but your reminder will serve me well as a starting point.

 

My diet is very pared down currently due to gastric disturbance and symptomatic reactions to foods during withdrawal up to this point. I tend to eliminate one item at a time as a test, then proceed to the next as we are all so different in our reactions.

 

Take good care.

 

Tilly x

[Tilly]

 

 

GREAT! Good to hear this Tilly...

Ikam,

 

Your support has been instrumental in me getting back on track with my taper. I really appreciate your support and value your friendship so much. Thank you!

 

We will support each other through this and come out the other side! 

 

Huge hugs

 

Tilly x

 

I am really happy that I was able to support you.

Yes, we will support each other

 

You have been such a great support to me, Ikam. Thank you so very much.

 

We will see each other through this.

 

Tilly x

[Tilly]

Hi Tilly,

 

It made me smile thinking your singling and dancing! I almost asked if you did not warm me immedately

 

Hope the reaction to the recent dose increase calms down soon and provide stability for further tapering.

 

I am glad at least you got good number of sleep. Its funny this lexapro can make me sleep a lot either increase or decrease within my change range (2.5--4.5), if I can wake up naturally with 7-8 hour sleep, it mean i have the proper amount of the med and asign of somewhat stabalization.

 

 

You take care,

Lex

Hi Lex! 

 

I make up silly dances to stretch my muscles and shake out excess energy and one of them is my 'chicken dance' where I flap my arms and bend my legs at the same time. I love dancing, especially salsa, but the 'chicken dance' is not at all graceful! It relieves tension and makes me and my partner laugh. He used to get so concerned watching me become distressed by my agitation, so it is a way of relieving stress for us both 

 

You are so right about lexapro and sleep. I can sleep for hours or not at all. The length and quality of my sleep is a good indicator of stabilising. I need 8 hours to feel at my best. I slept for around 8 hours fitfully last night, so I am moving in the right direction.

 

I hope that your day is kind to you, Lex.

 

Hugs,

 

Tilly x

[Tilly]

 

Update

 

I managed to sleep for around 11 hours. I have woken feeling tired and restless and my concentration is poor.

 

I will try to do some sewing today to improve my concentration and focus and see how I fare with it. I have a set of curtains to finish making and lining to make for them. When I'm able to, spending time concentrating on measuring fabric, pattern matching and sewing it can help to distract me from symptoms, improve my focus and makes me feel that I have achieved something with my day.

 

I hope that all who are reading have a peaceful day today.

 

Tilly x

Hope the curtains are coming on ok Tilly, you will feel such a sense of accomplishment when they are hanging at the window. A few days ago I stitched a button onto a jacket and was ecstatic because I'd done it!  

 

Hi Mamma,

 

Lovely to have you here!

 

I made 6 curtains last month when I was more stable. I have 2 to go, then the lining. I did not do any sewing yesterday as I could not maintain enough concentration. However, you are so right! When I made my curtains last month I worked with a damask pattern. I have never made patterned curtains before, but I matched the pattern perfectly and felt such a sense of accomplishment.

 

Good for you and your button sewing! These tasks and the sense of achievement that they bring are so helpful to the withdrawal process.

 

Tilly x

[Tilly]

It is very moving to read you have glimpsed what life will be like for you after WD

Thank you, LoveandLight.

 

I believe that this is one of the biggest motivators that I have had. It is so hard when you are in the throes of withdrawal to imagine that life will be any different. These windows and glimpses of what can and will be can really change your beliefs and give you hope for what is to come.

 

I hope that you are well? Be kind to yourself.

 

Tilly x

[LexAnger]

Hi Tilly,

 

Glad you are feeling better overall! You are so right that even a tiny improvement can provide us with more strength, hope and encouragement to continue!

 

You have such wisdom in all aspects! My prayer to your continuous healing!

Hugs

Lex

[Tilly]

Hello Lex 

 

I can see good things are coming and already starting to happen. This really does help me to push through the worst of the symptoms right now. The only thing certain in life is change. I feel certain that positive changes will come. I am enjoying feeling this way as it will buffer me through the tougher days that are also bound to come as part of this process.

 

Your support and friendship is of such comfort to me, not to mention a joy and gives me strength. Thank you so much! 

 

I am also willing on your healing which I hope will start to become much smoother very soon.

 

Hugs right back to you, Lex.

 

Tilly x