AliG Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 Hi Amy, So pleased and happy for you. I echo Tilly's thoughts. You are an inspiration, for how to do this thing right !! Kudos, to you. Hugs, Ali. Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
AmyK Posted November 4, 2015 Author Share Posted November 4, 2015 Dear Ali, "right" way, I dont know. I think I had an adverse reaction when I started, and the right thing to do would have been to stop there and then. :-) Then the drops in doses scared me to death, so all I could to do was to keep tapering in tiny doses. But thankyou for your kind words! I saw that you had a nice trip, I am so happy for you! Changing environment is so good sometimes. And you seem to have handled it great, good for you! Many hugs! Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
AliG Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 Hugs right back at you , Amy . You underestimate yourself. You are a " beacon" , and an example for the " slow taper" , as is " Brassmonkey " and others doing the same. Anyone here, doing 10 % , or less, is showing others the way . Ali. Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus KarenB Posted November 5, 2015 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted November 5, 2015 Yay, glad you're feeling some happiness. When it's the right time, the right things will come along for you and you'll be away laughing... Thinking of you too, Hugs, Karen 2010 Fluoxetine 20mg. 2011 Escitalopram 20mg. 2013 Tapered badly and destabilised CNS. Effexor 150mg. 2015 Begin using info at SurvivingAntidepressants. Cut 10% - bad w/d 2 months, held 1 month. Micro-tapering: four weekly 0.4% cuts, hold 4 weeks (struggling with symptoms). 8 month hold. 2017 Micro-tapering: four weekly 1% cuts, hold 4 weeks (symptoms almost non-existent). 2020 Still micro-tapering. Just over 2/3 of the way off effexor. Minimal symptoms, - and sleeping well. Supplements: Fish oil, vitamin C, iron, oat-straw tea, nettle tea. 2023 December - Now on 5 micro-beads Effexor. Minimal symptoms but much more time needed between drops. Symptoms begin to increase. 2024 April - Updosed to 6 microbeads - immediate increase in symptoms for 4 days. Decreased to 5 microbeads. 'The possibility of renewal exists so long as life exists.' Dr Gabor Mate. Link to comment
AliG Posted November 7, 2015 Share Posted November 7, 2015 Hi Amy , You can't leave that message for me without a " thank you". Hugs , Ali. Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
AliG Posted November 10, 2015 Share Posted November 10, 2015 Amy , That was ambiguous. What I meant to say was , thank you for leaving that positive message , on my thread. I appreciate your care and concern . I hope for your continued healing. Hugs, Ali. X Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
AmyK Posted November 10, 2015 Author Share Posted November 10, 2015 Oh ok, no problem, Ali. Hugs! Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
AmyK Posted November 12, 2015 Author Share Posted November 12, 2015 I think I had a gallstone attack yesterday after I ate. I just called the doctor. But this combined with heightened anxiety since my last drop two days ago...I fear I have to do a surgery. I hope not. But typical me I am catastrophizing about this now... I just wish this tiny amount of zoloft would be easier to come off. I feel everyday that I am fed up. I have so many things I want to do in life. Thinking of you all. Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
AmyK Posted November 12, 2015 Author Share Posted November 12, 2015 Can ssri affect the bile? Anyone who knows? Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
Tilly Posted November 12, 2015 Share Posted November 12, 2015 Hi Amy, I'm so sorry to hear that you are struggling. Your recent drop in medication is likely responsible for how you are feeling and recent worries. Withdrawal can be very draining at times both emotionally and physically, can't it? You have shown such patience in your taper, you are bound to feel frustrated. It's only natural. Remind yourself of just how far you have come. The largest part of your withdrawal process is behind you. You have done amazing!!! You have plenty of living to do and soon will be in a better position to live your life more fully. Start making plans & lists now, if you are able, of things that you want to do to give yourself hope and things to look forward while you are completing the final stages of your taper. I am not sure about how SSRIs effect bile. I did a search and found this: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4443-how-is-your-gallbladder/ I hope it helps. Take care and be kind to yourself, Amy. You are in my thoughts. Tilly x 1999 - 2004 Paroxetine 20mg -> 2004 - 2007 Citalopram 20mg -> 2007 - short term Trazedone use (insomnia) -> 2007 - 2009 Fluoxetine 20mg -> 2009 - Jan 2012 Citalopram 20mg (Spring / Summer 2012 protracted withdrawal & related agoraphobia) -> 2012 - September Restarted Citalopram - unbearable start up effects. Discontinued in under 1 week -> Oct 12 - October 2014 Escitalopram - 10mg prescribed. Started on 5mg and worked up to 10mg in 2.5mg increments -> Oct 2014 - 5mg; 30/03/15 2.5mg; 15/04/15 3.5mg; 20/05/15 2.9mg; 19/09/15 2.8mg; 30/10/15 2.7mg; 13/11/15 2.6mg. Holding until March. Diet: mostly pescatarianl & lots of veg. Weekly offal for b vitamins. Turmeric, nigella seeds, avocados, apple cider vinegar, coconut products daily. Lots of fluids: water, lemon juice, coconut water, herbal & green tea (decaffeinated). Supplements: vitamin C 4000mg, Omega 3 fish oil - high DPA & EHA, vitamin E 400iu, vitamin D3 5000mg (Winter only - from sun in Spring / Summer), probiotics. Current Symptoms: chronic fatigue, erratic sleep, extreme photophobia, eye floaters, noise sensitivity, tinnitus, cognitive & speech difficulties, dizziness, irregular gait, poor co ordination, severe facial and upper body muscle tension, head and neck pressure. Coping Strategies: good nutrition, cooking, gardening & growing my own food, cycling, dancing, yoga, photography, sewing & creative pursuits, self massage, pampering, meditation, journalling, nature, cuddling cats & humans, laughter & humour, gratitude, self care, aromatherapy, audio books, word games & believing in myself, my potential and my future. "Everything I need is within me" - Shakti Gawain Link to comment
AmyK Posted November 12, 2015 Author Share Posted November 12, 2015 Thank you, dear Tilly. Yes, it's so draining and exhausting. I get depressed by the whole situation, as many of us. I get lost, and I feel lonely. How kind of you to look for gall bladder information on the board. It seems like a few more connect problems to their drugs. But it is of course difficult to know if there's a connection. Anyway I am scheduled for an ultra sound in a couple of weeks. Making lists of my future life, excellent idea. Do you do that? Sweet Tilly, take care and have a nice day. You are in my thougths too. Xoxo Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
Tilly Posted November 12, 2015 Share Posted November 12, 2015 You're so welcome, Amy Know that you are not alone in your feelings and that they will pass. This can make them more bearable at times. I hope that your ultrasound puts your mind at ease. Try not to worry too much in the meantime. Yes, I do make these lists. I research places that I want to visit and things that I want to do or learn and make a list of them. I love these lists. They engage my mind in who I really am and what I enjoy doing and give me hope and much to look forward to. I think that it is really important to do this to keep us focused on who we are and actively shape the life we want to have beyond withdrawal. Wild Swimming in local lakes and streams is one of the things on my list for next spring and summer - I can't wait! You have a lovely day, too, Amy. Start writing a list Take good care of yourself & speak soon Tilly x 1999 - 2004 Paroxetine 20mg -> 2004 - 2007 Citalopram 20mg -> 2007 - short term Trazedone use (insomnia) -> 2007 - 2009 Fluoxetine 20mg -> 2009 - Jan 2012 Citalopram 20mg (Spring / Summer 2012 protracted withdrawal & related agoraphobia) -> 2012 - September Restarted Citalopram - unbearable start up effects. Discontinued in under 1 week -> Oct 12 - October 2014 Escitalopram - 10mg prescribed. Started on 5mg and worked up to 10mg in 2.5mg increments -> Oct 2014 - 5mg; 30/03/15 2.5mg; 15/04/15 3.5mg; 20/05/15 2.9mg; 19/09/15 2.8mg; 30/10/15 2.7mg; 13/11/15 2.6mg. Holding until March. Diet: mostly pescatarianl & lots of veg. Weekly offal for b vitamins. Turmeric, nigella seeds, avocados, apple cider vinegar, coconut products daily. Lots of fluids: water, lemon juice, coconut water, herbal & green tea (decaffeinated). Supplements: vitamin C 4000mg, Omega 3 fish oil - high DPA & EHA, vitamin E 400iu, vitamin D3 5000mg (Winter only - from sun in Spring / Summer), probiotics. Current Symptoms: chronic fatigue, erratic sleep, extreme photophobia, eye floaters, noise sensitivity, tinnitus, cognitive & speech difficulties, dizziness, irregular gait, poor co ordination, severe facial and upper body muscle tension, head and neck pressure. Coping Strategies: good nutrition, cooking, gardening & growing my own food, cycling, dancing, yoga, photography, sewing & creative pursuits, self massage, pampering, meditation, journalling, nature, cuddling cats & humans, laughter & humour, gratitude, self care, aromatherapy, audio books, word games & believing in myself, my potential and my future. "Everything I need is within me" - Shakti Gawain Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted November 12, 2015 Moderator Share Posted November 12, 2015 Hi Amy-- I hope you're feeling better today. Gaul Bladder attacks are the pits, some of the worst pain I've ever experienced, I'm sorry you had to go through it. Please, please, please follow up on this. Gaul stones don't go away on their own and only get worse with time, so it is better to get it done sooner than to wait. Modern gaul bladder surgery has advance to the point it's done "out patent' so you get to go home the same day with three band aids on your stomach. It's nothing like the slice and dice I went through 25 years ago, a lot of which had a lot to do with my putting it off until I couldn't take it any longer. Any surgery is a scary prospect but this one is one of the easiest. And you'll be amazed at how much better you feel when it's all over. ((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))) PS. watch out for fatty foods until you get it checked out, pizza and burgers are two big no nos. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
melanie Posted November 12, 2015 Share Posted November 12, 2015 I think I had a gallstone attack yesterday after I ate. I just called the doctor. But this combined with heightened anxiety since my last drop two days ago...I fear I have to do a surgery. I hope not. But typical me I am catastrophizing about this now... I just wish this tiny amount of zoloft would be easier to come off. I feel everyday that I am fed up. I have so many things I want to do in life. Thinking of you all. Hi again AmyK, We're almost on the same tiny dose of the happy pill - SSRI. You're on 1,08 mg Zoloft and I'm on 1,25 mg Lexapro (holding since 3 months). So I'm gonna cheer you on, especially that we're in the same time zone and in the North of Europe. I have some other pill issues to tackle, but tapering SSRI is essential right now, as it may cause my other pill issues to a great extent. Have you gotten yourself an antidepressant lamp? They are great, I'm just sitting by mine as I write this... Are you equally "blessed" with this gloomy weather? No sun, just rain and clouds... How very uplifting! We've had this thing going on for more than a week. Very cold as well, 10 degrees Celsius, 52 Fahrenheit. I would blame your recent gallblader attack on the Zoloft reduction. But making an ultrasound is a wise decision, you will be sure everything is OK. When is your ultrasound scheduled? Zoloft causes lots of guts problems, I know this drug only too well... When I was put on Wellbutrin I immediately thought I have a deep vein thrombosis in one of my legs. Got to the local hospital and had an ultrasound done... Everything turned out to be fine, I just went hysterical from the side effects of the drug. So calmly await your ultrasound and let us now how it went... You're in my thoughts, you sunny Northern soul. Be kind and compassionate to yourself, Mel x 1990-1992 Anafranil. OCD under control, extreme social phobia. Hospitalized for the 1st and 2nd time (out of 3). 1999-2002: Prozac 20 mg. Stopped due to severe anxiety. Increased benzo consumption. 2003-2005: AD free (therapy). Feeling good, started working. Persisted 9 yrs in full-time job. 2005-2007: Ixel (milnacipran). SNRI. 2007-2011: Lexapro 10-15 mg. Fatigue and anxiety. Mania. Insomnia. Acne. Shopoholism. Polydrugging with different meds. 2011-2013: Effexor 37,5-150 mg (mostly 75 mg). SNRI. Fatigue and depression, terrible acne with scars, now gone. April 2013: Wellbutrin 150 mg. Hot flashes, extreme appetite, aggression. May 2013 - May 2014: Prozac - from 10 mg to 0 mg, very harsh taper. Functioning great but EXTREME ANXIETY. From May 2014: tried different ADs to replace Prozac, nothing worked, terrible side effects (Seroxat, Zoloft, Luvox, Brintellix, Doxepin, Trazodone). May 2014 back to benzos (Valium) in hope of improvement, aggravated depression and anxiety. Sept. 2014: Lexapro 2,5 mg, highest dose 5 mg for 1,5 months (Spring 2015). Steady decline, anxiety, fatigue. Diagnosed with OCD, dysthymia, social phobia, anxiety disorder, insomnia, eating disorder (first bulimia, then anorexia). Current meds: Seroquel 6,25 mg for sleep - 5 mg since Nov. 5, 2015. Lexapro 1,25 mg since Aug. 4th 2015. Valium, Ambien prn, tapering. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/9984-melanie-should-i-reinstate-lexapro/ Link to comment
AmyK Posted November 13, 2015 Author Share Posted November 13, 2015 Thankyou, Brass, I will. I will do an ultrasound in a couple of weeks. I feel good today, just a bit pain, but nothing that bothers me so much. And I am super careful about what I eat now. "Slice and dice" sounds awful. Mel, thankyou for your supportive words. I hope it wasnt the gall bladder, but it was such an intense cramp right after the meal. But zoloft have made so many strange symptoms, so... I am quite calm about it today. And the weather, yes, grey november. Rainy, but not so cold yet. It could have been around 0 Celsius now. The winter will surprise us as always. But last year the winter was very mild, in spite of being a nordic country. (God, my English... :-) Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
AliG Posted November 13, 2015 Share Posted November 13, 2015 Hi Amy, Just came to cheer you on. Good luck with the G.B . I don't know much about that, quite honestly, but I feel for you. It's amazing what you pick up, though. I like the idea of Tilly's list and I must quiz Mel on her " anti - depressant lamp". ( I didn't know there was such a thing ! ) Amy, I think you do an amazing job, with your English. I would never have known English was not your native language. Hang in there. You are doing so well. Ali. Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
AmyK Posted November 13, 2015 Author Share Posted November 13, 2015 -- About self soothing that are mentioned in other threads. I think this is something one really can work with in therapy. Lack of the ability to self soothe is often what drives people to take psyciatric drugs. This ability is not just something we are born with. Trauma, dysfunctional parents or parents that not are able to see your needs as a child and take care of them, parents who are absent - that is parents that cant comfort you and help you "self regulate" contribues to this lack of ability as an adult, I strongly believe. But this is something one can work with in therapy. It can heal. You need face to face therapy, interacting with an other human being to adress this, to help "self regulate" overwhelming, high tensioned feelings (such as anxiety, panic attacks). I have been in lots of therapy that helped me enormously. Still, I came yo a point, when panic took over, and I turned to drugs. After resisting them for years... Big mistake, but I am learning, and I try to use those self soothing tools as much as I can. What I mean is, a forum (even as superb as it is) is not always enough. Dont get me wrong, I appreciate the work here tremendously, and the solidarity and understanding among members in, often, an extremely difficult situation is remarkable. I am so so thankful for that. But to adress underlying problems I believe therapy (with the right therapist) can be so helpful. Sometimes you need to go "beyond words" to understand the stress you feel that leads to somatic and psychological pain. For me something called somatic experiencing helped me adress the head aches, tension and pressure to always achieve the absolutely best (that eventually led to burn out) and never understod. This kind of therapy works with the whole body, including the central nervous system. http://www.traumahealing.org/about-se.php But there are lots of therapies out there. Take care, all. Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
AmyK Posted November 13, 2015 Author Share Posted November 13, 2015 Thank you for your kind words, Ali. Yes, anti depressant lamp - it must be one of those "awakening lamp", or? Mel? Hugs! Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
AmyK Posted November 13, 2015 Author Share Posted November 13, 2015 Wild swimming, Tilly! I love that! Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
Rachelina Posted November 13, 2015 Share Posted November 13, 2015 I loved that post about self-soothing, Amy. It gave me a lot to think about. What are your favorite self-soothing techniques? I could really use some right now. I also love Tilly's idea of making a list of things you want to do in the future. Thank you Tilly! I hope you can figure out what was going on with that cramp. Weird pains are so scary, even though a lot of the time they turn out to be nothing. It's the last thing you need when you are already struggling with withdrawal. Sending you warm hugs! Trying to get off Paxil since 2007. Was tapering by 0.1 mg every 4-5 weeks. Had awful crash in November 2015 at .5 mg; updosed gradually to 2 mg. Doing better and tapering again, much slower this time. 2016: Dropped from 2 mg to 1.62 mg. 2017: 1.62 mg to 1.2 mg. 2018: 1.2 mg to .76 mg. 2019: .76 mg to .56 mg. 2020: .56 mg to .33 mg. 2021: .33 mg to .13 mg. 2022: .13 mg to .03 mg. 6/12/23 .002 mg. OFF PAXIL 9/4/23 Started Klonopin in November 2015 to deal with crash. 1/10/16 started milk titration taper from .5 mg. Finished taper 12/6/17. Still take Klonopin for agoraphobia 2 - 3 times a week. Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted November 13, 2015 Moderator Share Posted November 13, 2015 Hi Amy-- I'm so glad you're feeling better, hopefully it was just a cramp. For reference a Gaul Bladder attack starts as an intense pain about three inches below the ribs on the right side, it spreads out to cover the entire lower right side and then moves around into the back. Mine usually took about six hours to resolve and all I could do was try to "walk it off". I won't go into the details of the "slice and dice" but will say I have the scars, both physical and mental to show for it. One of which is 23 years of taking paxil. Self soothing is such am important life skill it should be taught in school from first grade on. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus KarenB Posted November 14, 2015 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted November 14, 2015 Since I've had kids I strongly believe we are born with the ability to self-soothe but that it gets knocked out of us by well-meaning but mis-guided parents. We learn to soothe by breastfeeding and attaching strongly to the adults in our life - and so we experience what good, soothing feelings are. As we grow older and become more independent we start testing how to achieve this without our mother. We move back and fowards for a while between mother and independance, until we are confident we will be okay on our own. But many of us were pushed too fast to be independant (babies left to 'cry it out' at night, left at kindergarten before feeling ready etc) and the main feelings we have learned are anxiety, lonliness and hopelessness. So as adults we are now scrambling round trying to re-learn the basics of soothing. It can be done, but like Amy said it takes focus. I parented my two girls almost entirely oppositely to how my parents did, in order to give them a chance at knowing these basic things. And now they are 10 and 13, I think it's been a really good thing for them. Thanks for sharing your thoughts Amy, KarenB 2010 Fluoxetine 20mg. 2011 Escitalopram 20mg. 2013 Tapered badly and destabilised CNS. Effexor 150mg. 2015 Begin using info at SurvivingAntidepressants. Cut 10% - bad w/d 2 months, held 1 month. Micro-tapering: four weekly 0.4% cuts, hold 4 weeks (struggling with symptoms). 8 month hold. 2017 Micro-tapering: four weekly 1% cuts, hold 4 weeks (symptoms almost non-existent). 2020 Still micro-tapering. Just over 2/3 of the way off effexor. Minimal symptoms, - and sleeping well. Supplements: Fish oil, vitamin C, iron, oat-straw tea, nettle tea. 2023 December - Now on 5 micro-beads Effexor. Minimal symptoms but much more time needed between drops. Symptoms begin to increase. 2024 April - Updosed to 6 microbeads - immediate increase in symptoms for 4 days. Decreased to 5 microbeads. 'The possibility of renewal exists so long as life exists.' Dr Gabor Mate. Link to comment
AmyK Posted November 14, 2015 Author Share Posted November 14, 2015 Maybe I put the words wrong (English is not my native language) but that was also what I meant, Karen. We are helpless as newborn babies, but with a good interaction with our parents (or other caregivers) we learn to attach. When we cry and express our basic needs and are comforted, we learn how to regulate our feelings by our selves. We absolutely have the ability, maybe I used the wrong word (I had to look it up). As you said this is an ongoing development/interaction during childhood, When I was a child I was learned to "cheer up" and "get my self together" and be "strong". "Weakness" wasnt really accepted. This eventually led to anxiety and loss of self esteem. I also tried to raise my kids in an other way. That all feelings are allowed, that it's ok to be sad etc. To be more close physically. I dont know if I have managed, but I do believe that they talk to me more about problems, feelings, than I did with my parents. My kids are 11 and 13, almost the same age as yours. Many hugs! -------- #prayforParis today ❤️ Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus KarenB Posted November 14, 2015 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted November 14, 2015 Well I'd say it's more that I maybe didn't read your post carefully enough, plus it's a topic dear to my heart so I love when a discussion about it starts. I liked what you had to say about it, and I guess I just jumped in and poured out my own heart too. I think you and I may be similar in lots of ways. Much love to you, Karen 2010 Fluoxetine 20mg. 2011 Escitalopram 20mg. 2013 Tapered badly and destabilised CNS. Effexor 150mg. 2015 Begin using info at SurvivingAntidepressants. Cut 10% - bad w/d 2 months, held 1 month. Micro-tapering: four weekly 0.4% cuts, hold 4 weeks (struggling with symptoms). 8 month hold. 2017 Micro-tapering: four weekly 1% cuts, hold 4 weeks (symptoms almost non-existent). 2020 Still micro-tapering. Just over 2/3 of the way off effexor. Minimal symptoms, - and sleeping well. Supplements: Fish oil, vitamin C, iron, oat-straw tea, nettle tea. 2023 December - Now on 5 micro-beads Effexor. Minimal symptoms but much more time needed between drops. Symptoms begin to increase. 2024 April - Updosed to 6 microbeads - immediate increase in symptoms for 4 days. Decreased to 5 microbeads. 'The possibility of renewal exists so long as life exists.' Dr Gabor Mate. Link to comment
AmyK Posted November 17, 2015 Author Share Posted November 17, 2015 I had a really good day. I dont how, but I didnt feel so brainfoggy and somehow I changed perspective today. Felt like my self. Felt like life can be good. Went to yoga and felt happy and calm afterwards. Just wanted to note this for my self. Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted November 17, 2015 Moderator Share Posted November 17, 2015 I love those moments, I'm so glad you've had a positive shift in things. (((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))) 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
AmyK Posted November 18, 2015 Author Share Posted November 18, 2015 Thank you, Brass. Yes, such a bliss. Hug you back! Rachelina, I never responded to you. Thank you for your message and hugs. Yoga is one of my best tools. It's so calming and relaxing. Get me focused and grounded. I do Kundalini yoga, a form with much meditation. Other self soothing techniques are walking no matter how I feel. Sometimes just a small walk and connect with nature. Writing. I write a diary of how I feel and how it changes. Often just small notes, sometimes just a few words, sometimes longer. Try to put words on my feelings and fears. When I look back back I can see the change, that life is up and down. And how it get better. Baking :-) is another activity that get me calm. The process, the good smell, the opportunity to offer my kids a nice homemade bread or cake. Some minutes together where we get together and enjoy it. Simple, yes. I think it connects me to my mother as well, she often made home made bread when I was a child. And I loved the smell. As I dont work right now I try to re-think that all this time I can invest in my kids. That it's good that I am home so much. Even if I just feel rotten sometimes... ( I almost never speak about it with my kids though.) "This will pass" is my best mantra. I hope any of it helped, Rachelina. Hugs! ----- #prayforParis ❤️ Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
AmyK Posted December 1, 2015 Author Share Posted December 1, 2015 I have dropped 0.3 mg again and I am now down to 1.03 mg zoloft. Unbelievably hard to drop now. I felt the change only a few hours after the dose change. A bit of brain fog, jittery, nausea. But as I recognize this, it's ok. In the last days I have made a move towards some kind of work, and I feel so happy about it. Its something that wont pressure me to much, but instead give me some stability and make me feel more "normal". Anyway I hope so. Take care all. Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
AliG Posted December 1, 2015 Share Posted December 1, 2015 Hi Amy , It's amazing how you slow taperers, feel these very slight drops ,as you get lower. It really makes me wonder what happens if you C/T ? Not good ,obviously. I'm so pleased that you're doing so well. Ali Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
Rachelina Posted December 1, 2015 Share Posted December 1, 2015 Hi Amy! It really is amazing how senstive some of us are to the tiniest drops. I think one advantage you have is that you can feel the drop right away, whereas I don't feel it for many weeks or even a few months. So I don't realize I'm tapering too fast until it's too late and I crash. Thankfully you are able to listen to your body and slow down whenever you need to. Big congratulations to you on starting work! That's such a great step forward and I wish you the best with it. Sending you hugs! Trying to get off Paxil since 2007. Was tapering by 0.1 mg every 4-5 weeks. Had awful crash in November 2015 at .5 mg; updosed gradually to 2 mg. Doing better and tapering again, much slower this time. 2016: Dropped from 2 mg to 1.62 mg. 2017: 1.62 mg to 1.2 mg. 2018: 1.2 mg to .76 mg. 2019: .76 mg to .56 mg. 2020: .56 mg to .33 mg. 2021: .33 mg to .13 mg. 2022: .13 mg to .03 mg. 6/12/23 .002 mg. OFF PAXIL 9/4/23 Started Klonopin in November 2015 to deal with crash. 1/10/16 started milk titration taper from .5 mg. Finished taper 12/6/17. Still take Klonopin for agoraphobia 2 - 3 times a week. Link to comment
AmyK Posted December 1, 2015 Author Share Posted December 1, 2015 Thankyou both! That's true, Rachelina. I often feel the drop the same day. I am thinking of you and I hope and wish you feel more stable soon. This is such a long journey. Hugs to both of you! Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
AmyK Posted December 25, 2015 Author Share Posted December 25, 2015 Today I dropped to 0,98 mg zoloft. Under 1 mg, finally! I have felt quite good. I had a rough cold just before christmas which added some stress. But christmas eve, as is the most celebrated day here, went ok. Thanks to helpful relatives. Had a pleasant day together with family. Grateful. Still coughing a bit though. ❄️❄️❄️I want to wish everyone - especially those who are suffering and struggling, but also everybody else- a relaxing and calm Christmas!❄️❄️❄️ Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted December 25, 2015 Moderator Share Posted December 25, 2015 Hi Amy-- what a wonderful Christmas present for yourself breaking under 1mg. Sorry to hear about the cold, those are never fun. It's nice you were able to have a good day with friends and family to celebrate. We're having a quiet day in, just the two of us. Having a cold snap right now, 37F/3C (in Los Angeles that's cold) so won't be going out except to fetch some firewood. Sending Christmas ((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))) to you and yours. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
AmyK Posted December 25, 2015 Author Share Posted December 25, 2015 Thankyou, dear Tom. 3C, do you think that's cold!? (But I can imagine it's cold for LA! )We have sometimes -15C during winters. Not now though, it's very warm for the season, around 6C. And then of course no snow, unfortunately. I love cold white winter days. Have a continuing nice holiday the two of you. Many hugs! Current dose: 0! Free! Quit June 2017. 2017: Last dose zoloft: 17 June 0,00065 mg 18 May 0, 001 mg 14 May 0,002 mg 9 May 0,003 mg 28 April 0,006 mg 19 April 0,009 mg 8 April 0,013 mg 25 March 0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January 2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg; 2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg; 2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg; 2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg; 2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg; 2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the previous dose. Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted December 26, 2015 Moderator Share Posted December 26, 2015 I've lost my cold tolerance Amy. Many years ago I lived in Montana for several years and didn't bat an eye at -34C. Now a days I can't even imagine it. And snow is nice to look at but not live with. Have you been getting the Northern Lights lately or aren't you far enough north? 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus KarenB Posted December 26, 2015 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 26, 2015 Wow Amy, so happy for you . 2010 Fluoxetine 20mg. 2011 Escitalopram 20mg. 2013 Tapered badly and destabilised CNS. Effexor 150mg. 2015 Begin using info at SurvivingAntidepressants. Cut 10% - bad w/d 2 months, held 1 month. Micro-tapering: four weekly 0.4% cuts, hold 4 weeks (struggling with symptoms). 8 month hold. 2017 Micro-tapering: four weekly 1% cuts, hold 4 weeks (symptoms almost non-existent). 2020 Still micro-tapering. Just over 2/3 of the way off effexor. Minimal symptoms, - and sleeping well. Supplements: Fish oil, vitamin C, iron, oat-straw tea, nettle tea. 2023 December - Now on 5 micro-beads Effexor. Minimal symptoms but much more time needed between drops. Symptoms begin to increase. 2024 April - Updosed to 6 microbeads - immediate increase in symptoms for 4 days. Decreased to 5 microbeads. 'The possibility of renewal exists so long as life exists.' Dr Gabor Mate. Link to comment
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