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Zoloft withdrawal success - my story

 

 

When I first decided to wean myself off of Zoloft, I searched the internet for stories about people who had successfully gotten off antidepressants and had trouble finding them so I promised myself that if I made it I would post my story.

 

Tomorrow, will mark my "no Zoloft for one year" anniversary. In that time, I haven't used alcohol or any other mood altering substance either, and I'm doing fine. It hasn't been easy, and it took a while, but I made it and I was able to function, to work and to take care of myself throughout.

 

Diagnosed with social anxiety and depression when I was in my mid 40s, I was put on Zoloft and stayed at 200mg per day for around 5 years. The Zoloft helped me. It took the edge off of my anxiety, and since my depression was the result of my anxiety, it helped with that as well. Another pleasant side effect was that I lost a few pounds. So why would I want to stop taking it? The Nurse Practitioner who prescribed the meds was puzzled. It works, why stop taking it? I can't fully answer that question, but I think it has something to do with the fact that I've struggled with addiction my entire life. Drugs, alcohol, food... maybe I felt like by taking the Zoloft I was avoiding dealing with one of the major themes of my life.

 

Whatever the reason, I wanted to stop taking it. I'd tried twice using the NP's tapering recommendation, which was to decrease by 50mg every week for a month. I never made it past the first week because I'd have flashes of disorientation and dizziness (which I didn't mind) and then become anxious and depressed (which I did mind). She told me  Zoloft didn't cause withdrawal symptoms, it was my natural state of anxiety and depression returning, so I needed to stay on the Zoloft. I knew I was having withdrawal symptoms, but they were so intense I couldn't function, so went back on the Zoloft.

 

Then my mother told me that she had weaned herself off of Premerin by doing a very slow taper over the course of a year, so I decided to try that. My plan was to decrease the Zoloft by 25mg every month over a period of 8 months. The first month was fine. I'd have rough patches, but they were manageable. After 8 months I was off the Zoloft but a few weeks later, I started having withdrawal symptoms including what people refer to as "brain zaps." I called them "head rushes" because it felt like my brain was being flooded by chemicals.

 

Then I became anxious and depressed again, so I decided to go back up to the lowest dosage where I felt good, which was 50mg. Then instead of tapering at 25mg per month, I reduced it to 10mg a month, and that is how I eventually got off the Zoloft. Whenever the withdrawal symptoms became uncomfortable, I'd go back up to a "comfortable" dosage then begin tapering in smaller increments, a "progressive taper," similar to what is recommended in the book "The Anti-Depressant Solution," and on this website.

 

Eventually I had to buy a milligram scale (available on amazon), because the increments became so small. I was amazed how sensitive my body had become to the tiniest adjustments in dosage. The last month I was down to 5mg, and I stopped taking Zoloft completely February 1, 2014. One year ago tomorrow.

 

I was on 200mg of Zoloft for 5 years and it took 2 ½ years to taper off completely. It took a long time, but I wanted to taper safely, physically and emotionally. And I did. During that time I was able to work and to meet all my social commitments. At the suggestion of the NP, I joined a social anxiety group which used Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. She warned that I shouldn't go off the meds without addressing the underlying cause, which made sense to me.

 

However, I also believe that much of my anxiety and depression was situational, even though she maintained it was my natural state. When I first came to her, I was going through an extremely stressful period of my life. I was having problems finding work and didn't know how I was going to pay my rent or survive from month to month. I went on one job interview after another and I think social anxiety and depression were my way of trying to protect myself from more rejection and failure.

 

So how do I feel now, one year later? I'm doing okay. I occasionally get a head rush, but it's very mild. I wouldn't today describe myself as either socially anxious or depressed, but I know that this is how I react to stress, and Cognitive Behavioral Therapy has helped me develop strategies for dealing with those tendencies. 12 step programs, self help books, spiritual practices like yoga and meditation, healing modalities like Reiki, and individual therapy have all been part of my healing process as well.

 

On this journey, life has given me both challenges and assistance in dealing with social anxiety and depression. For example, as I was tapering I started dating someone for the first time in years, and we had a fun relationship which helped heal a lot of issues relating to social anxiety. Then, after two years we broke up, so that offered its challenges, but I didn't sink into depression, which was kind of amazing. At the time, I also had bed bugs which deprived me of sleep and sent my anxiety through the roof, but I survived that too. (The bed bugs did not.)

 

My ex-boyfriend introduced me to hiking, which I loved, so I started going to hiking meet-ups and found a circle of friends who also love to hike which helped heal a different aspect of my social anxiety. Also, becoming more physically active probably helped with the depression...

 

In other words, life went on. There were challenges and there were opportunities and often the challenges were the opportunities. The Zoloft helped me get through a very difficult period of my life, and I'm grateful for that, but I had no idea what I was getting myself into. But here I am, 8 ½ years later, and I haven't used Zoloft or any mood altering drugs, alcohol or coffee (all of which affect my anxiety and depression) for a year. 

 

Today, I feel optimistic and hopeful. I know life will have it's challenges but also that I have resources and strategies to assist me, and I am grateful to all who have helped me on this journey; therapists, teachers, friends, strangers, nature, and also to life itself, which Eckhart Tolle calls "the greatest guru of all."

 

Do I have moments of fear and anxiety? Yes! Do I have moments of happiness and joy? Yes! Do I have moments of depression and sadness? Yes! Do I have moments of laughter and silliness? Yes! All of it, yes. What I was dreading is that it would be unending anxiety and depression, and that hasn't been my experience. Life is okay, with its highs and lows and all of it. Like Snoop Dogg says, "it's all good."

Edited by cymbaltawithdrawal5600
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cymbaltawithdrawal5600

What a delightful story, Powerpuff. I hope your life continues on this very nice upward trend. If you ever need any support please don't hesitate to ask. You might have tapered more quickly than we recommend but it does work for some people to do it that way. Your story is quite an inspiration for all of us!

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Powerpuff

Thank you cymbalawithdrawal5600.

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greentrain

Congratulations! There are silver linings in this hellish journey. Sounds like a solid spiritual practice has grown out of withdrawal for you, and that is something that will benefit the rest of your life.

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302zoloft

Thank you for posting your success story and congratulations. I hope i will be able to post a success story too one day.

Stories like this are so helpful and give hope.

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Powerpuff

I hope i will be able to post a success story too one day.

I hope you will too! Remember to be kind to yourself.

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Kittygirl

This is one of my "go to" posts.  One of the posts that help to get me through each day.  It's been almost a year since my last decrease.  I've been holding at 25 milligrams since April 10th, 2014.  Currently in a horrible wave.  Terrible flu like symptoms but it's not the flu.  I guess it'll pass in time.

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Hudgens

A solid success story. That's just great! I want to write one in about 5 months. I'm at just under 7 months right now.

In the mean time, thanks for writing this-success stories are absolute gold here.

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Iamfine

Finally! A true success story in the Success Story sub forum. I am new here and have read many, many posts in this sub forum and this is the first I've read that I would call a real success. Thanks for posting, I was starting to think there was no hop for any of us!

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JillE

What a neat success story.  Thank you for sharing all the ups and the downs.  Also, thank you for sharing with us the tools you added to help you get through it all.  That's what I'm trying to do... gather tools.  One of those being this forum.  

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joey122

Hello, I  was wondering if anyone had memory problems while on zoloft and concentration did it get better?

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Clunezgirl

So encouraging to read intelligent and positive success stories. There is so much negative and hellish stuff on many consumer forums, which I suspect may exacerbate some people's anxieties during withdrawal. From what I understand from reputable medical journals and commentators, about 60% of people taking Zoloft will experience moderate to severe 'discontinuation' ( aka withdrawal) symptoms. Others seem to experience withdrawal as, if not symptom-free, at least manageable. I wonder if the hypersensitivity and... dare I say it...hypochondriic tendencies (mea culpa!) of many who suffer anxiety and/or depression may also exacerbate or place undue emphasis on the negative aspects of withdrawal. Speaking personally, I remind myself that if over the course of my 59 years I have survived significant episodes of suicide ideation, crippling anxiety and social phobia...both with and without meds...(and significantly, the death of one of my children) I will be able to manage the effects of withdrawal from nearly 20 years on SSRIs...most recently Zoloft. Perspective and insight is everything, even if it sometimes goes awry! Cognitive behavioural therapy and mindfulness are great tools to think differently...Try not to expect or accept the worst. Wishing everyone success!

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marie123

I really like this success story and reading about your successful "progressive taper". This makes a lot of sense. If you taper too fast and go off, just reinstate a small amount and start the taper again. Just keep doing this until your finally off. I just had to reinstate and this will also be my "go to" post as I continue tapering Trazodone and then Remeron. Thanks for posting this. Marie.

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rupa

Dear Powerpuff how are you? A little update will be appreciated.Thank you.

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Touchtheclouds87

Thank you for this

 

I'm beginning to taper my meds & there are not enough success stories online. It motivates me to read this

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RusTW

Nice story-🙂
I'm tapering zoloft now.

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