☼ manymoretodays: off many years of many medications

[manymoretodays]

Hugs acknowledged.....thank you,  and ((((((((Carmie hugs enclosed in butterfly wings))))))))).

Doing a tad better.  !!!!!!!!!

Marching right into March and beyond..........

Sunshine today and now........11:00 am, it's 44 degrees Fahrenheit!!!  Complete with sunshine today- and it feels so nice outside.

The birds sound happy.

And I have seen some of my dear deer mascots lately..........around about town.  Not so many in my yard/garden area as most of it was pretty severely cut back last fall.  I'm sure hoping to have a fairly vigorous planting season and outside renovation of sorts.  I can't believe I cut back some of what........well, I wish I hadn't.  It does make room for a new garden design though.  So okay.

Maybe a ski day........nothing like a lovely Spring ski ing adventure.  And it would be a shame to miss out out this years heavy snowfall........partaking in it, rather than just observing it.

 

Ever so hopeful.

I've got to get moving........physically, that is, more outside time too.......as well as some more social.

 

Love, peace, healing, and growth,

manymoretodays..........good enough ones

 

 

[manymoretodays]

Sunny day........gone to overcast and so I've gone to the youtube land.  And isn't it funny how we just find what we need if we believe it will come.

 

And so......... ha........just another spiritual awakening!!!

If you have 26 minutes or so, take a look, listen.  I never subscribe to this stuff but love my Woo woo.........sometimes Wow, side.

Thank you Christina! 

 

 

[manymoretodays]

And you know what?

I think I'll begin writing a bit........as far as my success story goes..........as I see that I have hit page 30 now of my introduction/journal.

And I am now 2 years plus the chump change past ALL psychotropics(medications/drugs) and feeling so much more like my thankfully atypical self(fairly successful with the un-diagnosing necessary for me, as well).

 

Success story self imposed, deadline by Easter....says I.

Why not?

 

Love, peace, healing, and growth baby growth!

manymoretodays

 

 

[manymoretodays]

Well, that was all a bit premature above.

I'll just call this, these entries......."writing from the off all drugs(psycho meds) for over 2 years now", or something to that effect.

 

Good, if not great to have had a couple of better days though.

Today, well most of this was written yesterday.......just hanging in again.  It's really tough.

So...... wiped....... out.

I sure hope it's a 2 year wave thing.

 

Today.  I do feel a little stronger all around.

 

Not able to help out much still. 

It is what it is.

 

I got my dishes almost done.  I'm sleeping okay.  Phone connections. 

 

Movies, reading.  Eating.

Too weak to exercise and have to prioritize just getting out to get supplies a couple times a week.

And oh......when I get out it's heaven........for that little bit of time I can manage to do it.  Just to be out of home........really helps right now.

 

Maybe.....some paid help next week.  That I can handle it.......that I can delegate.  That she will perhaps get it.......what I have a hard time accepting........this aftermath of things being how they are and have been now for some 3 months.

 

I miss AA and social.

I miss going to visit Sun/son.

Heck, I miss a ton of stuff that I WILL GET BACK TO.  I hope to get back to something.

For now......it gives me great sadness.......that this is all I have to give........a measly update, once in awhile.

Fortunate, I suppose in that I can afford to wait it out.......with the governments help, of course........the disability payments.........somewhere between that being a blessing, as well as a curse......is where I have to choose to live now.  I still can't go with getting too worked up and angry, as that becomes so very stressful and is hard on my ANSD(autonomic nervous system dysfunction).

 

I spend a lot of time just reading and wishing all well. 

As well as looking for something that resonates or might help online.

The music came back yesterday........I mean I listened to some, which was great..........as I've had to go with mostly silence due to the easily overwhelmed-ness.

 

Taking care of Betsey Ross cat and so glad to have her right now!!

 

My therapist is doing phone visits weekly with me now and am very thankful for that.  It's just that I can't reliably predict in advance how a day will go for me now.  Doing my darndest bestest with self care and love of this soul of mine. 

 

I guess I'll just update around the first of next month again, unless I feel poetic or something before then.

Pretty flat- lined.

I'm still in here though........figuring out how to get well/more functional again.  It'll happen!  Like a little bird, just learning how to fly, am I.  And realizing that I may have to be content with just keeping a nest, and climbing around the branches........

 

Sometimes I wish I was still tapering.  Then I'd have that to talk about.

Best advice to all from me right now...........work, work, work, practice, practice, practice all the non-drug coping you can.  Self love and self care- we deserve the best from ourselves now.  In all honesty.......I'm still learning just what to work on and practice regularly and how to take the utmost, best care of myself.  I missed that course somehow in my previous life. 

 

Best to all.  Love, peace, healing, and growth.......

manymoretodays

[manymoretodays]

PSA(public service announcement)

for survivingantidepressants.org community

 

For U.S. citizens

It's time to Spring Forward with the clocks. (with the exception of Arizona and Hawaii)

Setting mine an hour ahead now.

(and oh yay......let there be more daylight! so needed for moi)

 

 

[Carmie]

Hi mmt, 

 

Hope you continue to find new ways of practicing your self care, sending hugs🤗

[manymoretodays]

Oh Carmie.......hug a bugs.

I'm not sure I've gotten even close to a good practice of self care........yet.  Never mind home and hearth, or car, clothing, or anything much care.  I'm trying to get there though.  My perceptions are sometimes all really positive and balanced.  And sometimes they are all off kilter too.  I'm going to find a way to get back to more of an outside life and balanced life and all that.  I had some periods of much improved "energy" this week though.  By energy I mean that which I carry type energy.........it was more positive and hopeful and trusting in this whole process.  So.......I'm going to try and keep that better energy flowing as best I can.  Because then, I think..........I will be able to find what I need going forward.  The right things will just flow somehow.  Woo-woo talk, yet maybe not.  I've got a lot of options of things outside of medicine and psych care I can try.........almost too many.........I just have to balance and have right energy to pursue them.  Oh, and focus too!    I'm often all over the place, all over the map........not too well focused.

 

I'm trying a helper tomorrow and of course, we are(Betsey Ross cat, the big bluebird out in the tree, and I), really very nervous about it all........

 

So.......Universe, including good people here........I ask for your positive regard in this matter.  Give it just a minute or so.  That it goes well.  That I stay perceptually open to all that is good and kind.  That I can communicate okay.  That she gets it.......even without totally getting it. 

 

You guys know this drill by now I think.

 

And let me know what you might need for me to put on out there too.  Okay?

I'll hear you even if I'm not here or signed in.  I'm going to try and stay out, or off site, for a little bit.......until I'm a little better equipped.

 

Many thanks.

Love, peace, healing, and growth,

manymoretodays

 

Edited March 15, 2019 by manymoretodays

[manymoretodays]

Reporting in on my helpers.  I paid them and that felt good too.

C and C, around Sun's age came today for 4 hours.

 

Kitchen area in the not so great room area(it's too small to be really considered a great room, it's an open living, dining, kitchen area) almost done.  Moved alot of piles from one place to another.  Oh, those darn piles!  Some trashed though.  Some needing filing and organization.   I've got the cards to refer to from Christmas and shall pen some notes soon.......

Christmas card replies/notes sent by Easter, me hopes.  I've got some nice Christmas cards for next year, as I did not send any from me.......once again.  I love snail mail notes and letters.  I'm a bit old fashioned that way.  I like to write in cursive too.

 

I we/all had a really nice time of it too......with music, getting to know each a bit better, etc.

A couple youngers from the Jung group(how do you like that pun), or greater community of AA.

 

And such a nice day today.  Off to a meeting now and going to see Sun/son on Sunday, tomorrow!!!!

 

Oh yah........there's an ecstatic dance group held at one of the Krishna temples regularly.  That I might/may/ will try soon.  And then my Chakra class next Saturday too. It'll be my first for that and the other too........if and when I go.

What did I tell you........so many things to choose from, as to what to do going forward and healing?  They just appear.  Still, my energy is pretty electrifying/?electro or something a bit wild.  And I've been out of my Passion tea blend for quite some time.  It's not passion flower at all in it.......just a blend and yummy........steeped with some ginseng lemon tea.  I'll be on the lookout for more.  Tazo brand.  Love my Tazo's.

 

So.......all is well.  Really feeling all teary with gratitude and happiness.  

Shot a few hoops with James and kids outside too! 

 

Slow and steady.  Back to the land of the living. 

 

Love, peace, healing, and growth baby growth,

mmt

Thanks for those Universal nudges/thoughts everyone!

[manymoretodays]

Wowser.  And drumroll please........only kidding.......however, I do like to type some days and I'm past due as far as a timely update.  It's been 2 months.

 

Very happy to report whole strings of good and some great days and much less of a struggle at all.

I'm not going to focus or report on what might be some protracted WD stuff or autonomic nervous system dysfunction(including sensitivities) because.......just because what I focus on is the healing now.

 

I'm a bit in awe too.  As tomorrow will be my third AA birthday.  Just uber aware of how much grace I've had in my journey to date.  I'm having a bit of an internal debate as to if I have found SA(surviving here) or AA to be more lifesaving, life enhancing.  I say both!!! 

 

I've got a loverly bunch of dandelions in bloom now outside. 

And found a tea shop right next door to Sun's(my son) place in the bigger city.  They have master herbalists and plant based medicine specialists there.......so maybe, some more study for me in the future there.  They offer classes and books and discussions!  Yay!

 

The monarch butterflies are flitting about.  Went for my first hike of the season on Sunday too.   I also love Anne Lamott's latest book:  Almost Everything: Notes on Hope

She's been with me for awhile now, on this journey of healing of mine........her books have always spoken to me and I just love her writing style, and that she brings in AA principles to her narratives.  I'm not sure, if writing, beyond journaling, and telling my story on paper, is where I might head.  I've been working on the chronology of my medication use and subsequent getting free of them.  And hopefully, snippet of that soon.......for our success stories section. 

 

Working on getting records from my last hospitalization now.....just to see.  And then maybe educate or send a e-mail or something to the doctor there.

 

I just know that for me......I've got to write about it before I really process or talk about it much.  And today I'm enjoying my typing.  Sometimes typing is fun. 🤓

 

I think I really needed the reflective and down time of this past winter.  In order to identify just what to work on, as far as my own individual situation.  And work it is.  Work doesn't always pay.  But......and this is great........my IRA account is being well managed, and has made up the difference, as to the money I've had to withdraw to keep making ends meet. 

 

And I've come more back to who I am and some of my difficulties with stress and coping and adjustment to life in general...........just as they were some 30 years ago.  Just getting to know myself really well again......in other words.  And no longer at war with myself, either. 

I'm really pretty timid, but smart, and not at all MI.  Sometimes I'm witty, even funny.  And  I do like to entertain from time to time.......it's a good expressive outlet for me.  💃

 

Working on confidence, self esteem, and commitment.  Oh, and discipline in some more areas.  Like my exercise and meeting attendance.  Also trying to find a place in the peer community locally that feels good.

 

Things I don't recommend, that I did, that may have sunk me further into the hole of darkness:

 

Do not skim through the DSM- 5 !  And if you do, don't do it during the winter(in the US) month of December.

 

Nor was December a particularly good time to skim on through some old records of mine.  Back when I went on in the the horsespittal(hospital), long ago, and was chemically incarcerated for as long as insurance would pay(their part anyway).  Notes from staff saying that "I seemed to understand compliance now!!".  Even though I was sick as ? a dog complying with my treatment(drugs, more drugs, more and more drugs).  And nobody ever thought to think of drug, prescribed drug adversity, or how my life had changed.  Nor how my entire diagnonsense has resulted from drugs given while in acute, severe WD from that darn MAOI!  Which, yes.......I had the dreaded drug/food reaction too and could have, might have stroked on out at the tender age of 34.  Come on, come on you prescribers........get educated!!  Put down your prescription pads and listen to us.  I mean really listen.

 

And then.  The frosting on the cake of don'ts.  I did some self study, continuing education for my own professional licensure.  The topic:  Psychiatric Nursing.  Oh my gosh and golly too.......it upset me!  I got angry.  And went inward for awhile.

 

The saving grace of all that was the CEU's I did on Alternative Approachs to illness.  That was a good course.

 

And so......do not turn away from the natural supports......human or otherwise that are always present if we are open to them.......I guess I got upset at the Universe for a bit.  All forgiven now or at least I'm aware of who and what still needs forgiving, and even most grateful for where I have been and where I am now.  A bit excited about what the future might have in store for me too.  I forgive for my benefit really.  I do.  It doesn't make everything right in the world, or mean that bad stuff ceases.  But it sure helps me to be and stay in the state of serenity or peace that I need to have for clarity.

 

I think that's my update.  Done!

 

Love, peace, healing, and growth,

Courage too.......to be........

 

manymoretodays

Edited June 4, 2019 by manymoretodays
additional added, in green, should be red!

[manymoretodays]

Well, it's now June!

And Monday.

And so I think a Monday, monday post might be in order.

 

Things are going well for me now.  Busy week here in Paradise, this week though.

Commitments and all.

Doing some.....and I don't know if it will be a vacation........travel planning.  I hope it will be a nice vacation, later on this summer.

And then meetings, and a conference, and oh, the dentist again!  Joy??

Well, sort of as I'm keeping up, making headway, and for the most part coping with it all.

 

I think the sunnier days are now upon us, in my area.  And I just want to dig and garden and hang out with nature!

And so.....although I won't get to total garden redesign this season.......I shall have fun with it.

Home is nice now too.  It's my refuge sometimes.  And more comfortable.  I'm getting clearer with the clutter and organization of stuff.  It's cleaner and I am now more down to just general upkeep instead such a backlog of chores to do.

Relaxing about it all too.  That's what is really good.....relaxing about it ALL.  Maybe that's acceptance.

 

Getting the walks in.  Hoping for some jogs soon or off on my bike.  Longing for swims/saunas.   Soon.   And of course more yoga practice and doing so in the community classes.

I still might pursue some certification in Yoga.  Practice first though and then maybe get started in the education/training to be certified

Getting up the canyon once in awhile.  And oh my.......the streams are really flowing now.  Lot's of water everywhere, including from the sky!  Seems like a very rainy Spring.

 

And oh boy......can hardly wait to.....go......to.......Inipi/sweat lodge this month too!

Back to more AA mtgs and fellowship in that way, and that has been good.

 

Started and maintaining at 2 gtts(drops) of Iodine now since February.  And scheduled a doctor appointment in July to perhaps check some of my labs around this.

 

Sun(son)  sunshine is doing okay in the Big City......for the most part.  I may get to Alanon this week or next.  As I have concerns, worries really, and yet.........I figure the best I can do now is just Love my favorite human.  And visit with him on occasion.  When he lets me.

 

Facing so many things now that I just couldn't for a long time there.  While medicated and then in acute WD.  Or feeling the impact maybe......of this whole "back to reality".  Kind of like going through stuff that happened years and years ago sometimes, a little PTS.  Having to go through it one last time I hope......... or letting go of as much as I can, around some issues.  Maybe that's what I'm doing.  So that going forward, some of the old emo pain.......just won't be as painful anymore?

 

It's good though.  I've got a better network going for just general support.  And I don't have to do it all.........alone anymore. 

 

I do hope I'm growing.  And still learning.....so very much.

 

So that's my Monday, monday musing.  Let's all make it a really good week this week.  Going to make my list now and hopefully check off some things, at least, before the week ends.  Then I shall pat myself on the back for what I can do, do have, and all the many things that make this Life so worth living now.

 

Love, peace, healing, and growth,

mmt

Edited June 3, 2019 by manymoretodays
grammar

[withhopeinmyheart]

Just sending hugs and thanks! 

[manymoretodays]

Hugs back at you.  Thank you as well, for being here, withhopeinmyheart!  You matter.  We all do!

And you have the best, longer than mine, user name. 

[Rabe]

So nice to hear MMT  !!!!  💜

[manymoretodays]

Thanks Rabe.

[manymoretodays]

2 hours ago, manymoretodays said:

Those unmatched rewards, both psychological and physiological, is what beloved neurologist and author Oliver Sacks (July 9, 1933–August 30, 2015) explores in a lovely short essay titled “Why We Need Gardens,” found in Everything in Its Place: First Loves and Last Tales (public library) — the wondrous posthumous collection that gave us Sacks on the life-altering power of libraries. He writes:

As a writer, I find gardens essential to the creative process; as a physician, I take my patients to gardens whenever possible. All of us have had the experience of wandering through a lush garden or a timeless desert, walking by a river or an ocean, or climbing a mountain and finding ourselves simultaneously calmed and reinvigorated, engaged in mind, refreshed in body and spirit. The importance of these physiological states on individual and community health is fundamental and wide-ranging. In forty years of medical practice, I have found only two types of non-pharmaceutical “therapy” to be vitally important for patients with chronic neurological diseases: music and gardens.

 

Oliver Sacks!  This came through my e-mail from "Brain Pickings" , a site devoted to literature! 

And most definitely feeling the healing power of nature lately.  My friend, who passed yesterday........it was a beautiful thing.  I wasn't in attendance or anything......but just the same.  For perhaps, the first time.......I find myself moving towards acceptance of death, as just a continuation of the spirit/soul part of humans I have known.  And closer to them.  Finding comfort in their presence, even after death.

 

 

[direstraits]

so sorry for your loss,mmt but what a beautiful observation.

Thank you.

ds ❤️

 

[manymoretodays]

Hi dire!!!  Well.  Last night I cleaned my junk drawer!  And found my stapler too.  This is huge.  Been waiting and wanting to do this for a long time.  Over a year.  Confuscious say:  when the the time is right,  one will know (made that up).  And ahhhh.  Little things sometimes are grand.  Lots and lots of little things in that drawer too.

[Carmie]

Hi MMT, 

 

Glad to hear about your decluttering. It’s amazing what one finds.😁 I’m a big declutterer, I can’t see the point in keeping things you don’t use or love. 

 

Happy decluttering💚

[manymoretodays]

Hi Carmie!  Ah. 

I'm of the eclectic rustic design.  And love history.  Many keepsakes from many years gone by.  Collections not clutter.

 

However, the big "garage sale" may be in sight for next fall.  "Garage sales" are when folks price and tag their stuff and then hold usually an outside, one day affair, to sell some of their stuff, that they can part with.  Do you guys do that kind of thing down under?  And then some stuff can be donated, or just given away to others too.

 

That drawer of mine is awesome though.  Do you need anything stapled?  Or perhaps one of those little itty bitty screwdrivers?  How about some tape?  3 kinds to choose from.

 

Everything in it's place again IS nice.  For that drawer anyway. 

Most of my true treasures are found in people these days.  And books.

 

Oh, so hope you are doing well enough today.

 

L, P, H, and G,

mmt

[Carmie]

Hi MMT, 

 

Have fun with your garage sale. Yes, we have garage sales down under, though I’ve never had one. I just pass on things on to my friends. 

 

So happy to hear that your drawer is organised. I did quite a bit of organising this year too, bought cute little containers to put my craft stuff in and organise drawers too. Having little compartments is cool as things are easier to find. 

 

It’s good to do organising etc when in windows because it gives you peace of mind when you hit the waves. When my waves are bad I can barely think. It’s not just the waves though, I’ve had brain fog for about 24 or so years due to CFS. That, plus the waves puts my brain into outer space! 🌔🤪 Where am I? Who am I? Who are you?🤣🤣

 

Take care, sending hugs🤗

[DMV64]

On 6/15/2019 at 10:08 AM, manymoretodays said:

garage sale

Hi MMT!

Oh garage sales! We used to have the ALL the time when I was growing up! Once I made $300! I think I was 15 years old.

Hope you have fun!

-DMV 

[manymoretodays]

July alert!  Here we go.

 

Yah, the garage sale.  Oh my, I'm dreaming big on the $$$.  It may be an ongoing thing, should I do something about my Consuelo(my 2nd VW bug after my first got rear-ended).  I'm just a bit undecided on her as yet.  My main car brain guy says just rid myself of the bug......just parts and scrap metal.   Others say oh....."fix er and sell her for big bucks".  She just sits for now, gathering dust.

I could use a roomier garage though.  Craving finishing off some projects and such,and it is really the perfect place to set up shop again for those purposes.  I'm still planting now!

 

So perhaps early fall will bring further decisions on Consuelo.

And yes, the big other stuff garage sale, clearance, etc.

 

Went to see Mum and help post her mild stroke early in June.  And so glad I did so.  She's okay.  Still so independent and all.  I so wish I was closer now.  And I so hope she'll be up to travel when we all go to the homeland later this summer.  Sibs and I.  Minnesota.  Catch my accent?

 

Inipi/sweat finally but just on time.  It was great!  It had been awhile, over a year and this one was a women's sweat in a new community and was just so perfect.  By happenstance have been finding out more and more about my ancestry and even have a bit of Ojibwe in me.  I knew there was something there from previous generations.  It's got to be 3-4 generations back, so just a little, yet it makes me proud and glad and happy.

 

Post meds/drugs rocks!  Truly.  Of course I am gathering nuts for the winter and all, even as I plant and play, and find my work and all in the sunshine.

Yet so happy to report that All is Well and organized enough in my world for months now.

 

Oooh, today I was first responder, when the truck ahead of me on the off ramp bounced off the concrete barrier and then off the road.  Second responder and I managed together quite well until EMS arrived.  The driver regained consciousness and off he went to the nearby hospital.  It felt good though to be so competent, and confident, and just know what to do.

 

Plenty of nature in my own back yard and surroundings.  Plenty of music and practicing as well.  Plenty of movement and swimming, dancing, yoga, and walk/runs.  Oh, and friends, neighbors, and just connected again all around.  Loads of possibilities to hone on in on too.

 

Back around in the morning again.  I meant to get back today/tonight and then got called on out for a bit.  And now am just tired.  A very good day today.

 

Love, peace, healing, and growth,

manymoretodays

 

[manymoretodays]

Have to share, and will just put it here, on my introduction page.

Thank you Brain Pickings.  And Love, love Mary Oliver's work, as always. 

https://www.brainpickings.org/2016/10/12/mary-oliver-upstream-creativity-power-time/?fbclid=IwAR3EBzVKDo0EyrR226Wl_rT1Fs

 

One of my challenges, of late, seems to definitely be finding more balance between.......the creative in me and the sometimes, so very rational, and for me, almost fixed views that I am really examining now........in hopes of being more open, ears, eyes, and heart.  And then where is the line, is there one?  Is one completely obligated to the creative or the more rational, perhaps scientific mind or truths?  Just wondering, wandering for myself I think.

 

My old records from, ugh, my last horsespittal stay, have almost arrived.  Comforting that they take great measures of confidentiality to get them to me via post.  I wasn't home to sign for them,  and do hope they make it on here today.  I filled out the form the mail carrier left and now wait.......

 

Holiday, here in the States manana.  And so.......Happy 4th of July everyone!  I shall not be doing crowds or fireworks this year.....no thank you!  Definitely missing family this year.....in closer proximity and all.  I am.  Sun(son) is good, I believe.  Will visit today I think.  And......I think I'll just eat a lot.  I've been so hungry lately!  💃

 

Love, peace, healing, and growth,

mmt

Edited July 3, 2019 by manymoretodays
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[manymoretodays]

Did it!  Went to see my GP today.  I did not expect the degree of resistance, that I experienced from myself to do so. 

Odd, but I get it. 

I had wanted to f/u some of my labwork, as I've made some changes in supplements.  Which we did.  We'll talk again in another week or so.  The office had some changes/renovations too.  And that even threw me a bit. 

And this is the GP I've seen now for possibly 20 years or so.........  He listens.  He cares.

I think I was so afraid that I'd be deemed sick with something or other again.  I don't really know.

 

And got some old records too, from about 5 years ago from the horspittal.  Yay!  Just a slight twinge reading them.  Might be nice for me to write a letter or send an e-mail, that might help to educate.  I'm certain WD, was involved in that voluntary visit.  I just did not know that at the time.  And could barely express myself at that time anyway.

 

And woah, glad that is behind me.

 

.......still planting, digging, etc.    Among other things.....   Oh, I get to get all fancied up for a wedding at the end of this week.  Kind of excited about that, the celebration and wedding and all.  Will dance!  I shall restrain myself though until all the appropriate wedding dances are done.......  OH.....SUN(son) is going with me too.  Friend of his getting married, after all.  Childhood friend.  Family friends.  Always nice to reunite at these things.

 

So, all is well enough.

Love, peace, healing, and growth,

mmt

Edited July 9, 2019 by manymoretodays

[manymoretodays]

I've got a live feed going here now from the "Alternatives 2019 Conference" in Washington D.C.

Titled:

How the Human Stress Response Explains Away “Bipolar Disorder”

Hmmm, can't get it, it's on a FB feed now, on Sarah Knutson's page.  You don't have to be friended to listen.

Got it!

 

https://www.facebook.com/skknut/videos/10211711070052608/?__tn__=%2Cd-]-h-R&eid=ARCPJqsLHvNLHjkbrC3kl8533xc-wOMNAwM0D

okay, ^ the link

It's about one half hour in now, this presentation.

 

Enjoy.  Good Stuff.

 

So, about an hour long presentation.  It has been saved for viewing.

Edited July 10, 2019 by manymoretodays

[manymoretodays]

Sunday, Sunday and a pleasant one here.  Just reporting in, post going to the wedding.  I caught the bouquet!    I had a good time!  Not so sure that SUN(son) did, but happy, happy that he went with me.  Beautiful setting and the bride and groom exuded happiness, Love, and joy!

 

Feeling very much, like a pretty okay me, without a whole lot of focus anymore on my own WD.  Or seeing it as WD anymore.   I just do better putting the memories to work, hopefully helping others now.  And then getting rid of some decades old stuff, even childhood happenings.......the emotional baggage..........and then some more recent.  I guess it all adds up.  And even letting go, most of the time, most of it........well, it's great.  Not real big on teasing it all out and all around, over and over.  I just have to do some of the work, so that I don't keep PTSing when something reminds me, of something else completely.  I'm just sick of that response.

Ooooommmm.

Will go over lab work with my GP next week and maybe consider some changes in supplements.  As I still will get a bit overwhelmed from time to time, and/or tired, despite adequate sleep.  In any case, not going for perfection, just a pleasant and peaceful existence.  Eating well, so don't really want to add anything in the form of supplements, would rather take some away, if possible.  It's just sad, that we can't always get what we need from what we eat, as far as nutrients and vitamins, and sometimes get the opposite of what we need from food.  All the additives.  And even the water!  Okay, rant over. 

 

Life continues good! 

Love, peace, healing, and growth,

manymoretodays

[manymoretodays]

Monday, monday and waah.

Crossed communications with my GP last week......or missed communications.

So......I finally just scheduled another appointment to go over my recent labwork.

A couple more weeks.

I just want to further streamline my own supplements, if possible.  Also have been just a bit off, as far as tiredness goes.  Even with good sleep, diet, and regular exercise.

 

I guess he's a busy, busy doctor.  And so......can wait.

 

Mum is doing fair.  SUN(son) doesn't really seem to like hanging out with me too much. 

So.....I am doing my best to keep on getting out there, cultivating friendships, and making each day some kind of adventure.  Even if that is just further organization of something or other.

Still beautiful, here, in Paradise.  The weather and all.   Some snow lingers, way up high, in the North and even West facing mountain peaks.

My garden.......well, it's getting there, mostly a lot of cutting back.......boy do things grow!  Some new babies, plants to tend. 

The deer are coming lower down again!

 

I need a new "jungle pool"........just a little one, with great jungle animals and flora on the sides.  My duct tape repairs of this old one are just not holding up!

Fired up my somewhat rustic barbecue.

 

So, all is well.

I may be scarcer, for a bit real soon, and have been scarcer.........travel, ground things, etc.

Always waving my magic wand, for a better world however, and healing, and peace.  And for all of you!

💃❤️

 

Love, peace, healing, and growth,

mmt

 

 

[manymoretodays]

Peep.  Peep.

Holiday here.    I almost forgot.  It's a State thing.  With fireworks.  And I will say, unfortunately.....this time.  I don't always not like fireworks.  Me and Betsey Ross cat may have to retreat tonight though.  Somewhere.  Maybe we'll do wash or something.

 

And pretty sure, I've got the recurrance of the Erythema Multiforme- minor.  Thank you Doogie Howser doctor, I say about 2 years ago.  For alerting me to the fact that this would probably be a recurring thing.

So, I'm a little sick.

 

On the upside though.  One of my recent band loves is coming to town.  Tomorrow.  Got tickets, el-cheapo type concert and oh boy!!!  I will go.  Even if just to stand on the outskirts and listen while using binoculars?? 

 

Lot's to do today too!  Including some peace and calm time.

 

Many thanks.

Love, peace, healing, and growth,

mmt

 

[manymoretodays]

Ahhhh.  Update.

Doing well.  Nice vacation and family reune and visits.

Slowly getting back up to speed with my definitely smarter than me.......replacement phone.  It was lost/or stolen on my recent travel.

 

As well as getting up to speed, with what comes next, here on the ground and all.  And doing that usual after vacation catch up.

Hmmm.....I thought I had more to say. 

Back later though, I imagine.

Oh, I know what it was now.......that I had wanted to put here.  So much in the past few months......just coming to me.......I mean I did not ask......in the way of family history and even stories now from other relations.  Epigenetics comes alive!  It's been great. 

And another Inipi to boot, last week end, or sweat lodge.

 

It's looking like blue skies and a great day today.  I think the temperatures are dropping a bit now........which is nice, days are shortening(daylight),  and every once in awhile I'm feeling Fall on it's way.  I love Fall, however.

Oh, and I need to take a little time for myself and some decisions.  Just a little more time I mean.  I'm not planning on going anywhere or anything.

I did get in and go over labwork and things, with my more functional(hopefully integrative too) doctor.

 

Oh.....and that yard sale......yikes!!!!

Feeling really motivated to get things more shipshape around here at home.  As well as get on out traveling more.  In the future.  It's great that I can do this now, travel comfortably.

 

Going good.  Thanks.

Love, peace, healing, and growth,

mmt

Edited August 23, 2019 by manymoretodays

[Carmie]

Hi mmt, 

 

How are you doing?💚

[manymoretodays]

Hi Carmie!!,

I'm a going along pretty well these days.  Inipi last night.  Consuelo bug will be history tomorrow, donated her to my favorite radio station.  And just about ready for the bounty of the Fall season, and beyond.

And oh Carmie, sounds like you have been in it lately.  A near tidal wave of a wave.  It should be settling real soon for you again, I so hope.

More soon.  I've got an appointment with some tools.......actual tools.......oh, okay, I suppose, even actual tools could be considered to be non-drug coping tools.  Just a small job to take care of before the Sun sets on this Sunday.  Not to be confused with my son/Sun.  Well he is my Sun too!

Okay......I'm a bit distracted at the moment.  You probably interpreted it all just fine though........😻💃❤️🔆

 

Love, peace, healing, and growth,

mmt

[manymoretodays]

Just a note of first snow down here in the Valley!!!   I am thrilled!

[Erell]

Oooooooh ! Snow !!! Already !!!! 😮😮😮

Do you live in a mountain région?

 

Thank you for your post, it reminds me the time when I lived in mountains 🤗

 

Here in Brittany, it is pretty rare

[Sunnyday]

Hi MMT. Thank you for your message in my thread, it was a long time ago now but I appreciated it a lot. I have been inactive.

 

I've tried to catch up a bit by reading the last few pages in your thread and you come off as very strong mentally to me after reading that, I feel like I might have told you that before (or just thought it?). I don't want to bring up the past unnecessarily, I just want to say that I appreciate what you have written because of how I could relate to it with things happening in my life recently, and really be motivated by your strength to get through it.

 

There has been some snow where I live too, it's pretty great especially during clear nights when it's all glittery. 

I hope that you're doing okay now. Take care.

[Frogie]

Hi MMT:

 

I haven’t seen you on much and just wanted to drop by and say hi.

 

 I miss talking to you. You always had great advice for me 😊

 

Hope you are doing well and 2020 finds you well🎉

 

Take care,

 Frogie xx

[manymoretodays]

Thanks Frogie.

I'm just trying to do housekeeping, a bit around here, and at home for a bit.  Hoping to ski soon.

Difficulty with interactions, at present.  And so want to be a good example of healing and all.

 

Working on my success story......LOL.   Seriously though, I am.  Just a late wave.

A bit of a mess lately.

 

Thanks again, for the note.

 

Yes, in the year 2020 now!  Exciting and feels like a good one already.  Best to you and yours.

 

L, P, H, and G,

manymoretodays