Waltjie Posted January 3, 2018 Author Share Posted January 3, 2018 11 minutes ago, powerback said: Hi waltjie im no mod but there's nothing strange with affects with tapering,I feel your pain im in the same boat with tapering ,im no were near 0 and my symptoms are chronic ,dont panic ,try all the calming techniques .I just thought ide reply and give some suport ,the mods can be busy with a lot . Peace to you . PB Thanks so much for the feedback x (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
powerback Posted January 3, 2018 Share Posted January 3, 2018 3 minutes ago, Waltjie said: Thanks so much for the feedback x Your very welcome ,Im having a heavy day of symptoms and trying to ride the wave ,I will force myself for a walk soon . Peace to you . PB Alcohol free since February 2015 1MG diazepam 4.5MG PROZAC. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted January 4, 2018 Administrator Share Posted January 4, 2018 Stabilization can take months. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Waltjie Posted January 4, 2018 Author Share Posted January 4, 2018 Thanks Alto. One day at a time. (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Waltjie Posted January 7, 2018 Author Share Posted January 7, 2018 I guess I would be stating the obvious to say this, but I wish I could have just ONE day where I feel ¨normal¨ so I can have proof for myself that this shall pass one day. I wish I was back to where I was 2 months ago, so I can start tapering again.... urgh. Wishing everyone a great day! (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Waltjie Posted January 19, 2018 Author Share Posted January 19, 2018 Hey Everyone! Just a short update... I'm EXTREMELY HAPPY to report that I am feeling so much better than I did a few days ago and I am optimistic about the future yet again! Much love and gratitude to all! (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted January 19, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 19, 2018 That's really great news. I don't want to be a wet blanket, but just want you to be aware, that you may experience windows and waves - Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization But if that happens, it's good to come back here to remind yourself that you are improving. * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Waltjie Posted January 19, 2018 Author Share Posted January 19, 2018 15 minutes ago, ChessieCat said: That's really great news. I don't want to be a wet blanket, but just want you to be aware, that you may experience windows and waves - Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization But if that happens, it's good to come back here to remind yourself that you are improving. Thanks Chessie, I'm very well aware of this, yes. I'm just grateful for an improvement after the long wave. (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
kesh Posted January 19, 2018 Share Posted January 19, 2018 9 hours ago, Waltjie said: Hey Everyone! Just a short update... I'm EXTREMELY HAPPY to report that I am feeling so much better than I did a few days ago and I am optimistic about the future yet again! Much love and gratitude to all! This is a powerful thing to remember if you ever hit a bad wave again. They get better and you are the living proof. Current daily meds. Citalopram 2.5mg morning. Diazapam 1.5mg evening, Propanalol 40mg split 4x10mg throughout day. Recent meds. Fluoxetine 20mg began 24th Nov 2017, CT on 4th December on medical advice due to bad Akathisia. Citalopram 10mg began on 13th Dec 2017, tapered to 2.5mg by 20th Dec 2017 on medical advice. Diazapam 2mg began on 6th Dec 2017 cut to 1.5 mg on 26th Dec. Propanalol 40mg began on 13th Dec. Zopiclone 3.75 mg began 13th December, used maybe 5 times then quit. Previous history. Tricyclics, Fluoxetine or Citalopram for periods of 6mo to 2yrs over last 25 years. Probably 5 yrs in total. No significant ill effects. Link to comment
Waltjie Posted January 19, 2018 Author Share Posted January 19, 2018 Yes indeed Kesh! Next time I will refer back to this! It's wonderful to be reminded that the bad days don't last forever... (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
megb Posted January 19, 2018 Share Posted January 19, 2018 Hi Waltjie, I just read through your thread. Looks like you're doing well! I also have delayed waves while tapering. I've been on 10mg for almost 5 months (purposely) and am shocked I'm not having more issues than I am. Sometimes your body will surprise you It can feel like the waves last FOREVER and the windows are a flash - BUT as Chessie mentioned, this pattern is expected and means we are healing. It's important to keep listening to your body and never being ashamed to keep holding at whatever dose you're WDing in. I have to daily remind myself this is not a race. By going as slow as my brain/body tell me to, I'm doing myself a big service and able to continue functioning - which is HUGE. Especially after knowing what it's like not to function well. You can do this! We are all for you. Meg Sep '18 - became pregnant in late August, then on 9/5 insomnia/anxiety went THROUGH the roof. I tried a lot of things but here is what is current: Paroxetine: 6.2mg (began 9/5/18, and there was a new manufacturer of which I just found out 2 days ago) during the day Olanzapine : 7.5mg at night Ambien: 5-10mg at night Xanex: 5-10mg at night Fish Oil: for prenatal things Aug '18: Paroxetine 6.6mg, (30mg thyroid hormone, fish oil, vit D3, SBI protect, probiotic. Following AIP diet) Mar '16: began taper from 20mg. Decreasing .75mg or less each month or more. Sporadically used Ambien &/or Trazodone for insomnia. Sep'15: tried to come off slower. Used fish oil, vit D3, and regular exercise/healthy diet to assist. (Taper sched= 18mg for 60days, 15mg for 60d, 10mg for 30d, 8mg for 30d) At my 3rd week of 8mg in Nov '15, insomnia and panic attacks began. Back up to 20mg after a month of horrible withdrawal. Oct'12-Sep'15: 20mg Paxil Sep'12: 1st attempt to get off, naively tried cold turkey per Dr. suggestion. Couldn't work for 2 months. Another Doc upped dose to 20mg. Jun '09-Aug '12: 10mg Paxil for severe insomnia due to anxiety. Also took Ambien/Trazodone for sleep. Other meds taken sporadically: Ativan, Abilify, Xyrem My hope is built on nothing less, than Jesus' blood and righteousness. Link to comment
Waltjie Posted January 20, 2018 Author Share Posted January 20, 2018 5 hours ago, megb said: Hi Waltjie, I just read through your thread. Looks like you're doing well! I also have delayed waves while tapering. I've been on 10mg for almost 5 months (purposely) and am shocked I'm not having more issues than I am. Sometimes your body will surprise you It can feel like the waves last FOREVER and the windows are a flash - BUT as Chessie mentioned, this pattern is expected and means we are healing. It's important to keep listening to your body and never being ashamed to keep holding at whatever dose you're WDing in. I have to daily remind myself this is not a race. By going as slow as my brain/body tell me to, I'm doing myself a big service and able to continue functioning - which is HUGE. Especially after knowing what it's like not to function well. You can do this! We are all for you. Meg Thank you SO MUCH for this wonderful reply. I very much appreciate it! Love and Light to You (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Waltjie Posted March 16, 2018 Author Share Posted March 16, 2018 Hi Everyone. So the last couple of weeks I've been struggling with some morning anxiety again. Not too the degree that I can't function or anything, but very annoying and discouraging nonetheless. I've been holding at 10mg (down from 15mg) now for almost 5 months now. Too scared to drop again and for what might happen. On Monday I decided to drop 10%. I did this for 3 days, but I started freaking out and panicking and went back to my "safe" 10mg. Today I feel rather spaced out and can't stop worrying about my symptoms. Like I'm trapped in my head... Sometimes I really wonder if I am THAT person who's brain has been damaged beyond repair.......... (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted March 16, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 16, 2018 There are other ways of reducing instead of 10% of previous dose + 4 week hold. You could reduce by a smaller percentage, eg 5%. The BrassMonkey Slide. You reduce by 2.5% of previous dose each week for 4 weeks and after the 4th reduction you hold for 3 weeks instead of 1. Brass Monkey Slide Micro-taper instead of 10% or 5% decreasesRhi's "Start Small, Listen to Your Body" Taper Plan * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Waltjie Posted March 18, 2018 Author Share Posted March 18, 2018 I'm so scared by all the horror stories I've read about some people like us trying to get off the medication, and then eventually, out of desperation, go back on but then it doesn't work anymore... (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Waltjie Posted March 19, 2018 Author Share Posted March 19, 2018 It is so crazy how the smallest little change can throw everything out! A week ago I was feeling OK, and now I'm a mess...... Just because of trying to drop my dosage I honestly don't know how some people do it. (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Waltjie Posted March 22, 2018 Author Share Posted March 22, 2018 This whole week so far I've felt what I guess people call 'derealisation'... Like I'm not really tuned into reality or something. It's not that I am confused, but more like being somewhat 'out of tune'... This morning I forced myself to get up an hour earlier and got on my bike to cycle for half an hour. I actually felt pretty good afterwards and for the better part of the morning. It's late afternoon now, and now I'm not so well. I can't understand how, after nearly two months of feeling stable, I now feel so horrible again. Just because of the small drop I attempted last week? Was that a mistake? I am confused about what I should do now... Do I just ride this out and hope to get better, or do I try to change my dosage again? (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Waltjie Posted March 23, 2018 Author Share Posted March 23, 2018 Any feedback, from anyone...? Please. (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Songbird Posted March 23, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 23, 2018 Sometimes during a taper you may find you need to hold for a while, rather than continue tapering at the same rate. Also, the percentage drop can be reduced so that dose reductions are less of a shock to the system. Once you restabilise, you could consider doing smaller dose drops in future. Escitalopram is a strong drug - 10mg doesn't sound like much but it's similar to taking 20mg of citalopram or paroxetine - so getting from 15mg down to 10mg is actually quite a big reduction. Your system has done a lot of work to get that far, so at least pat yourself on the back for the progress you've already made. Reading your posts above, it sounds like a lot of your anxiety may have been due to you freaking yourself out with worrying, rather than as a direct result of the drop. It might be worth investing some time into some good self-help techniques around fear, worry, and anxiety, and also relaxation techniques. Having a good set of coping skills is tremendously helpful for getting through this process. 2001–2002 paroxetine 2003 citalopram 2004-2008 paroxetine (various failed tapers) 2008 paroxetine slow taper down to 2016 Aug off paroxetine2016 citalopram May 20mg Oct 15mg … slow taper down2018 citalopram 13 Feb 4.6mg 15 Mar 4.4mg 29 Apr 4.2mg 6 Jul 4.1mg 17 Aug 4.0mg 18 Nov 3.8mg 2019 15 Mar 3.6mg 21 May 3.4mg 26 Dec 3.2mg 2020 19 Feb 3.0mg 19 Jul 2.9mg 16 Sep 2.8mg 25 Oct 2.7mg 23 Oct 2.6mg 24 Dec 2.5mg 2021 29 Aug 2.4mg 15 Nov 2.3mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted March 23, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 23, 2018 17 hours ago, Waltjie said: Just because of the small drop I attempted last week? That was a 10% reduction, going from 10mg to 9mg. Many members find that the lower their dose gets the slower they need to go. There do seem to be some doses along the way that are harder to get through. You might find that reducing by 5% instead of 10% is better. Once I get under 10mg I'm going to be reducing by 0.5mg every 3 weeks until I get to about 6mg (depending on how things go). I did a similar thing once I got under 20mg. I went down by 1mg every 3 weeks until I got to 12mg and then I started going down by 1mg and holding for 4 weeks. Why taper paper: dose-occupancy curves * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Waltjie Posted March 23, 2018 Author Share Posted March 23, 2018 18 minutes ago, Songbird said: Sometimes during a taper you may find you need to hold for a while, rather than continue tapering at the same rate. Also, the percentage drop can be reduced so that dose reductions are less of a shock to the system. Once you restabilise, you could consider doing smaller dose drops in future. Escitalopram is a strong drug - 10mg doesn't sound like much but it's similar to taking 20mg of citalopram or paroxetine - so getting from 15mg down to 10mg is actually quite a big reduction. Your system has done a lot of work to get that far, so at least pat yourself on the back for the progress you've already made. Reading your posts above, it sounds like a lot of your anxiety may have been due to you freaking yourself out with worrying, rather than as a direct result of the drop. It might be worth investing some time into some good self-help techniques around fear, worry, and anxiety, and also relaxation techniques. Having a good set of coping skills is tremendously helpful for getting through this process. Songbird, Thank you for your reply! I really appreciate it! Feels like I am going insane and not going to get stable ever again. I think what you say is right. I obviously was not ready for a cut, and now I have somehow "flicked a switch" and my anxiety is in overdrive! I will need to CALM DOWN and get myself back to a manageable place. So I'm not changing ANYTHING. (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Waltjie Posted March 23, 2018 Author Share Posted March 23, 2018 19 minutes ago, ChessieCat said: That was a 10% reduction, going from 10mg to 9mg. Many members find that the lower their dose gets the slower they need to go. There do seem to be some doses along the way that are harder to get through. You might find that reducing by 5% instead of 10% is better. Once I get under 10mg I'm going to be reducing by 0.5mg every 3 weeks until I get to about 6mg (depending on how things go). I did a similar thing once I got under 20mg. I went down by 1mg every 3 weeks until I got to 12mg and then I started going down by 1mg and holding for 4 weeks. Why taper paper: dose-occupancy curves ChessieCat, Thank you for your response! I guess that I have no choice really right now, but to just HOLD and hope this horrible anxiety passes... Wish I didn't try to drop. (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted March 23, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 23, 2018 You had been holding for quite a few months so it was understandable that you thought it would be okay. Don't beat yourself up over it. Just accept it as a lesson that you need to go a bit slower from now on. * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Waltjie Posted March 23, 2018 Author Share Posted March 23, 2018 31 minutes ago, Songbird said: Escitalopram is a strong drug - 10mg doesn't sound like much but it's similar to taking 20mg of citalopram or paroxetine - so getting from 15mg down to 10mg is actually quite a big reduction. Your system has done a lot of work to get that far, so at least pat yourself on the back for the progress you've already made. It seems like Escitalopram is the most difficult to get off out of ALL the drugs! (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Songbird Posted March 24, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 24, 2018 19 hours ago, Waltjie said: It seems like Escitalopram is the most difficult to get off out of ALL the drugs! I think the SNRIs like Effexor can be even worse than SSRIs to get off, but most ADs can be difficult (hence this forum). Whichever one you are on, withdrawal can be very challenging, and you need to give yourself some credit for the reduction you've managed to do already. As I said, from 15mg to 10mg is a pretty good reduction, that's one third of your original dose. If you are experiencing anxiety symptoms, it can help to incorporate some relaxation exercises into your day. They can be any style, whatever you like or that you find works best for you. For example: meditation, gentle yoga, progressive muscle relaxation, breathing exercises, tai chi, guided visualisations, and so on. I especially like recordings that have someone speaking relaxing words with gentle background music. You just lie there and listen! Relaxation exercises work by evoking the relaxation response which helps to counteract the "fight-or-flight" response of anxiety. 2001–2002 paroxetine 2003 citalopram 2004-2008 paroxetine (various failed tapers) 2008 paroxetine slow taper down to 2016 Aug off paroxetine2016 citalopram May 20mg Oct 15mg … slow taper down2018 citalopram 13 Feb 4.6mg 15 Mar 4.4mg 29 Apr 4.2mg 6 Jul 4.1mg 17 Aug 4.0mg 18 Nov 3.8mg 2019 15 Mar 3.6mg 21 May 3.4mg 26 Dec 3.2mg 2020 19 Feb 3.0mg 19 Jul 2.9mg 16 Sep 2.8mg 25 Oct 2.7mg 23 Oct 2.6mg 24 Dec 2.5mg 2021 29 Aug 2.4mg 15 Nov 2.3mg Link to comment
Waltjie Posted March 25, 2018 Author Share Posted March 25, 2018 Thank you Songbird! I am going to stay where I am now indefinitely. (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Songbird Posted March 25, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 25, 2018 I've found that if I listen to my body, I know when I feel ready to taper. If I'm not sure, then I wait. Once you feel ready, you can try again with a smaller drop next time. In the meantime, be kind and gentle with yourself. 2001–2002 paroxetine 2003 citalopram 2004-2008 paroxetine (various failed tapers) 2008 paroxetine slow taper down to 2016 Aug off paroxetine2016 citalopram May 20mg Oct 15mg … slow taper down2018 citalopram 13 Feb 4.6mg 15 Mar 4.4mg 29 Apr 4.2mg 6 Jul 4.1mg 17 Aug 4.0mg 18 Nov 3.8mg 2019 15 Mar 3.6mg 21 May 3.4mg 26 Dec 3.2mg 2020 19 Feb 3.0mg 19 Jul 2.9mg 16 Sep 2.8mg 25 Oct 2.7mg 23 Oct 2.6mg 24 Dec 2.5mg 2021 29 Aug 2.4mg 15 Nov 2.3mg Link to comment
Waltjie Posted April 4, 2018 Author Share Posted April 4, 2018 Still extremely anxious. I have DP/DR as well. Battle to fall asleep at night. This is so horrible!!! (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Songbird Posted April 4, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted April 4, 2018 See if you can find some relaxation exercises on YouTube. Try progressive muscle relaxation. There are lots of relaxation music tracks on there too. Don't battle to fall asleep - battles are stressful. Just allow yourself to rest whether you feel sleepy or not. Listen to some gentle relaxing music. You might fall asleep if you're not trying so hard to do it. If you've been lying awake for a while, do something else for a while, but nothing stimulating. Read a book (but nothing too stimulating, no thrillers) or draw or knit or do a few gentle yoga poses. Yes, it is horrible but it will settle down eventually, and you can help it along by encouraging the relaxation response. 2001–2002 paroxetine 2003 citalopram 2004-2008 paroxetine (various failed tapers) 2008 paroxetine slow taper down to 2016 Aug off paroxetine2016 citalopram May 20mg Oct 15mg … slow taper down2018 citalopram 13 Feb 4.6mg 15 Mar 4.4mg 29 Apr 4.2mg 6 Jul 4.1mg 17 Aug 4.0mg 18 Nov 3.8mg 2019 15 Mar 3.6mg 21 May 3.4mg 26 Dec 3.2mg 2020 19 Feb 3.0mg 19 Jul 2.9mg 16 Sep 2.8mg 25 Oct 2.7mg 23 Oct 2.6mg 24 Dec 2.5mg 2021 29 Aug 2.4mg 15 Nov 2.3mg Link to comment
Waltjie Posted April 4, 2018 Author Share Posted April 4, 2018 4 minutes ago, Songbird said: See if you can find some relaxation exercises on YouTube. Try progressive muscle relaxation. There are lots of relaxation music tracks on there too. Don't battle to fall asleep - battles are stressful. Just allow yourself to rest whether you feel sleepy or not. Listen to some gentle relaxing music. You might fall asleep if you're not trying so hard to do it. If you've been lying awake for a while, do something else for a while, but nothing stimulating. Read a book (but nothing too stimulating, no thrillers) or draw or knit or do a few gentle yoga poses. Yes, it is horrible but it will settle down eventually, and you can help it along by encouraging the relaxation response. At this point in time it really feels like I am going insane and not going to get better. I will try to relax as much as possible. Thanks! (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
powerback Posted April 4, 2018 Share Posted April 4, 2018 1 hour ago, Waltjie said: At this point in time it really feels like I am going insane and not going to get better. I will try to relax as much as possible. Thanks! Hi W I empathise with you greatly ,I'm tortured myself ,to quote a British singer recently he said about he's own battle with "mental illness " ,my own brain is trying to destroy me he said .this is a very apt way to put it .I cant believe how fragile I am. I now regret it deeply not tapering properly last year ,I kept stopping and not doing it to be able to get through life ,I know now this to be a huge mistake ,at least I could of been off the drug and suffering like this . Be safe . Alcohol free since February 2015 1MG diazepam 4.5MG PROZAC. Link to comment
Waltjie Posted April 5, 2018 Author Share Posted April 5, 2018 I am seriously considering that I might have to go to a hospital. I haven't slept properly for 3 nights now... I don't know how much longer I can do this. (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
wantrelief Posted April 5, 2018 Share Posted April 5, 2018 Hi Waltjie - I am so sorry you are feeling so poorly. Try to hang on as this should pass. I know you've been really patient and it sounds like things have not improved for you but they should in time. Do you have support where you are? Does anyone know what you are going through? -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg; 4/20/24: 1.09 mg Link to comment
Waltjie Posted April 6, 2018 Author Share Posted April 6, 2018 7 hours ago, wantrelief said: Hi Waltjie - I am so sorry you are feeling so poorly. Try to hang on as this should pass. I know you've been really patient and it sounds like things have not improved for you but they should in time. Do you have support where you are? Does anyone know what you are going through? It really feels like I am never going to get better. I can't sleep, and the only way I manage to get a few hours is by taking Zolpidem. No amount of relaxation or anything else is working. My family know about my situation, but I am sure it must be incredibly difficult for them to not be able to do anything...... (2002 - 2007) Arapax, Cipramil, Effexor, Prozac (2008 - June 2017) Escitalopram, 15mg daily (Started tapering July 1st 2017, 10% pm) July 13.5mg August 12mg September 11mg October - 12March 10mg 12-14 March 9mg 15 March - present 10mg Link to comment
wantrelief Posted April 6, 2018 Share Posted April 6, 2018 I am so glad your family knows about your situation and what is going on, it is good you have support. I know how difficult this is. Insomnia is just awful. I know how hard it is to hold on and how it feels like it is not going to end but it will. If you can, try not to take the Zolpidem. I ended up on a benzo (Klonopin) and now have to get off of that too. You are not alone, Waltjie. -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg; 4/20/24: 1.09 mg Link to comment
wantrelief Posted April 6, 2018 Share Posted April 6, 2018 This video helped me feel some hope yesterday. I hope it helps you a bit. -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg; 4/20/24: 1.09 mg Link to comment
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