Anybody who had been severely depressed prior ADs?

[Zans]

Hey,

 

not sure if it's correct subforum to post, apologies if it's not.

 

A lot of people here seem to aquired ticket to hell for a reasons other than mental illness. Like insomnia, some medical issue or situational anxiety.

 

I wonder about those who been hopelessly depressed prior getting on meds and what happened after tapper? Did your condition changed? I rotated many pills over course of half a year and none did help. Curently the one I am on helps SLIGTHLY but as we all now it's a dead end. 

 

So, please share what changed for you after you taper was over ☺

 

Thank you all

[SouthernFreeze]

I was 17 or 18 when I went on meds, I'm 36 now. I was definitely depressed in the 3 or 4 years leading up to that. I had such high anxiety I couldn't talk to anyone when I went into my classes at school. I could only properly talk to the teacher in private. This obviously ruined any chance of a decent education. I cried a lot and felt suicidal. 

But then, a lot of teenagers are very emotional, also I was bullied, I smoked A LOT of pot and drank whenever I had the chance. So it's hard to say if I was genuinely depressed. 

I know pot had a lot to do with screwing with my brain development, especially with socialising, but then... was i so depressed I was just looking for any kind of escape? I knew when the doctor offered those pills to me i thought it could be the perfect escape. 

I remember sleeping just about all day for about a week after, just glad to be able to sleep. 

When I tappered off and was clean for about a year not so long ago, I got the things I usually get on the meds anyway (anxiety, depression, panic) but it was amplified tenfold. That to me could be my original self before meds, and obviously I never slept much before the meds either.. Maybe. But other symptoms like massive irritability, chronic apathy, deep feeling that everybody's against me, to name a few, I knew were withdrawals. Then again it's been about 17 years so who knows. 

I think that's the hardest thing when you've been on them so long is you can't just stop them and test if your meditation and therapy or whatever have improved your mental health issues, because you won't actually know until years after healing. 

 

[ShiningLight]

On 9/16/2019 at 2:46 AM, SouthernFreeze said:

I was 17 or 18 when I went on meds, I'm 36 now. I was definitely depressed in the 3 or 4 years leading up to that.

 

Similar story, SF. Except I'm about a decade older.

I was severely depressed before I tried the drugs. I feel like I'm a different person now. I have a hard time imagining myself being that depressed without them, but it will be a loooonnng time before I know.

[Cathy4]

I wonder about those who been hopelessly depressed prior getting on meds and what happened after tapper? Did your condition changed? I rotated many pills over course of half a year and none did help. Curently the one I am on helps SLIGTHLY but as we all now it's a dead end. 

 

 

Zans, I don’t know if I did the copy/paste thing correctly, but I wanted to respond to your post.  My answer is YES, YES, YES.  I’ve been on some form of AD for 20 years and what is crazy is that I’ve experienced debilitating depression during these years.  Not once, not twice, but many many times.  I’ve been reading and researching about the efficacy of antidepressants and come to the conclusion that there just isn’t science that supports their effectiveness.  Kelly Brogan, in her book, “A Mind of Your Own,” goes so far as to say that when one feels better while on antidepressants, it could very well be one’s brain overcoming the effects of the antidepressant.  (Hence the AD could be causing or worsening depression).  I believe Peter Breggin has similar views.  
 

I don’t believe my zoloft has ever “worked” for me.  But every time I tried to lower the dosage, my anxiety increased, leading me to believe I needed the medication.  I didn’t know anything about withdrawal or that it even existed during those times.  
Cathy