MY story BRapsidy

[Petunia]

Hi BR,

You might also want to post your question on our B12 thread here:

 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1392-vitamin-b12-essential-for-mood-nervous-system/

[Altostrata]

BR, you may want to try some B12 foods http://www.whfoods.com/genpage.php?tname=nutrient&dbid=107

 

Eat as fresh as possible. Lamb is very good.

[BRapsidy]

Hello Everyone. I am about to hit four years since I stopped taking Zoloft. I wanted to come back since it has been almost 2 years since I have posted. I feel horrible that I have not continued to be part of a community that helped me soooo much during one of the hardest times in my life. I know I would not have gotten through some of those days and nights if it was not for this group. I think coming back to the forum was hard, because it reminded me of what I went through. I wanted to get as far away from my memories as I could. Now I really want to help people who are going through their hardest time. I want them to know that there is another side. I want you to know you can get your life back.

 

So My life is pretty close to 100% back to my pre zoloft self. Each year I feel better and better. Most days I am living life as if Zoloft never came into it. I am raising my kids, volunteering in their school. I have taken up my wheel throwing/pottery again. I've learned to knit. Life is good. Do I have moments of anxiety? Yes, but my anxiety is starting to look like my "old" anxiety, not the SW anxiety. I have found ways to cope with that and feel so much stronger now. I think the last time I have had a SW anxiety was  either thanksgiving or Christmas, but that was the first time I had seen that in almost 5-6 months.. Thankfully I had my husband right there seeing me through to the other side. This episode  only lasted for a short amount of time and I was able to fall asleep right after it was over.

I have more energy, but I'm still careful not to over extend myself. If I get too tired my anxiety increases still, but I had that problem pre zoloft. So when I feel my body start to get out of whack I pull back and take care of myself. 

 

I was and still am working through some PTSD from all that I went through. I never thought I would be able to let this all go, but now I think one day I will be able to move on from the anger and disappointment. I M STILL VERY CAUTIOUS when it comes to taking any medication. The reactions I had early on in withdrawal have stayed with me, making it difficult for me to trust medicine. I do get depressed, but it is mild and only stays a day or two. I try to make myself interact with friends during this time, as it helps me not go too far down the rabbit hole.

I have surrounded myself with some amazing friends who all know what I have been through and they have supported me and shared their love in ways I will never forget and will forever be thankful.

 

All I can say is that four years ago I did not think I would even come close to living a normal life again. If I could see myself living my life like I'm living it now when I was in the early stages of withdrawal I would not believe it was me. But here I am. I hope my story can help someone get through their early days of withdrawal. I remember reading over peoples updates and holding on to them as tightly as I could and I want to repay the group by doing the same for someone else. I wish you all healing, light and love!!

[ChessieCat]

Hi BRapsidy,

 

Thank you for coming back to post an update.  It's great to hear that you are doing so well.  May it continue that way for you.  CC