dunerbug: My fluoxetine nightmare

[Altostrata]

Oh, I'm sorry, my mistake.

[dunerbug]

Oh, I'm sorry, my mistake.

 

No prob

 

I just get scared because I started to wean in nov. 2011 and was off by may 2012. Can withdrawal be this long?

[Altostrata]

Yes, unfortunately it can be this long.

[areyouthere]

 

She must have given my number to one of the counselors there because he called this a.m. saying he'd heard I was looking for counseling services. I find this strange. Is that standard practice? She just gave them my number without my permission.

 

 

I don't blame you for feeling paranoid. Yes , I find that strange. You have a right to voice your opinion to that doc. if you are in a place personally where you feel comfortable doing that. Sometimes things are worth the battle sometimes not. I'm not sure if that is common practice or not but I know I wouldn't like it.

 

I know the roller coaster of feeling good some weeks and bad others stinks but the fact that you ARE having good weeks is a good sign. Good job in getting the vit. D up.

 

Welcome!! You will get plenty of good support here!! I'm kinda new myself. Oh the battles we fight....together

 

RU

[alexjuice]

I just get scared because I started to wean in nov. 2011 and was off by may 2012. Can withdrawal be this long?

 

Yes, sadly, these medications are still so poorly understood that neurological impact can be indeterminate. Generally, things do get better with time.

 

It's not my place to give advice, but I frequently try to put myself in other people's shoes. If I were in your place, I'd stop all the supplements for the time being. (You clearly no longer are D deficient.) I'd take a few days off. Then I'd re-introduce one thing at a time, maybe starting with magnesium (as mag citrate or gycinate). I think oversupplementation is more of risk right now than underdoing it. I'd also keep a daily journal on sleep, eating, symptoms (anxiety, depression, weird sun reaction, blurry vision, memory and so on).

 

In a couple weeks, I'd re-evaluate.

 

Hang in. It's very, very likely that you will recover and be better than ever with all you've learned. For now, it's learning. I'm like a doctor to myself after this, so I started to take good notes because I realized I'd need them later and I have.

 

Also, it's very important to hang in through the difficult feelings. Don't give up and you'll survive this.

 

Alex

[dunerbug]

I talked with my Ndoc today and she was very supportive. She supports me stopping things and adding stuff in slowly. She also understands why I shouldn't take anything too stimulating.

She still doesn't understand why certain things I've taken would cause more anxiety. Her thought was maybe I was taking too much. I told her sensitivity to all kinds of things was a pretty major symptom.

 

I told her about this sight so I'm hoping that she will read up on this to better help me and possibly others in this situation. She seemed open to it, so that's good.

 

I would like to continue seeing her because of all the effort and time she's put into helping me.

 

We shall see..

[dalsaan]

Well that's sounds a bit positive. Hang in there and lets see if some of the strategies you are putting in place will pay off

 

Unfortunately patience is a virtue in this game

 

Dalsaan

[dunerbug]

 

 

I'm like a doctor to myself after this, so I started to take good notes because I realized I'd need them later and I have.

 

 

 

This here is so true. I'm realizing now, that I've got to be my own advocate.

It's sad in a way though.....

 

My husband went in for a physical recently. The Dr. gave him some samples of headache stuff and a prescription for something stronger just in case.

When I saw it, I got immediately angry. Kind of a weird reaction, I thought.

I had a sense of almost paranoia about it, like " What the hell are they trying to give him?"

 

We looked up the stuff on the internet (I'm thankful we have this resource) to see what it was all about. Kinda scary, the side effects.

 

I seem to have lost trust in the medical field a bit.

 

I'm sure that I will gain better perspective once I'm more stable.

[alexjuice]

I ended up in the ER once (due to swelling after a dozen wasp stings) and I posted on here via mobile b/c the ER staff wanted to give me all sorts of shots and stuff. I refused everything but the benadryl and waited it out until I could leave. I am really glad I was more cautious, even at the expense of my reputation at the er -- I've been 3 times and they know me now. I'm falsely believed to be a nutjob.

 

This forum in particular and the internet in general have been lifesafers in the face of risk of iatrogenesis (unintended harm caused by the healer).

[dunerbug]

I ended up in the ER once (due to swelling after a dozen wasp stings) and I posted on here via mobile b/c the ER staff wanted to give me all sorts of shots and stuff. I refused everything but the benadryl and waited it out until I could leave. I am really glad I was more cautious, even at the expense of my reputation at the er -- I've been 3 times and they know me now. I'm falsely believed to be a nutjob.

 

This forum in particular and the internet in general have been lifesafers in the face of risk of iatrogenesis (unintended harm caused by the healer).

 

How wonderful though, that we have a resource like this now!

 

Sorry to hear about the wasp stings. Ouch! There were a bunch a bunch of nests when we moved into our house. It had sat empty for two years, so there were a bunch. We had to run in and out of our house like we were dodging bullets til we got rid of them all. Our neighbors probably thought we were strange.

[dunerbug]

So the last couple days I've noticed something.

 

It seems like I go back and forth to certain symptoms whether that be neuro or physical.

 

A while back, I was having anxiety before bed. I would get extremely anxious and irritated right before getting into bed. It eventually got better for a while and now it's back.

 

I thought it was because I fall asleep pretty early in the night and my husbands stays up later. So, I usually just fall asleep watching tv without doing any routine (brushing teeth, pajammas, etc) then we he comes in, I get up and get ready for bed.

 

I've seen people talk about cortisol spikes in the mornings. I'm wondering if it's possible that's what's happening for me....but at night.

 

Last night I got into bed super anxious and just yelled out f#*k! Then I felt a little better. :0 ....Kinda funny when I think of it now.

 

I know that I needed a better night time routine. I seem to get extremely tired between 8 and 10pm. I've tried doing my routine before my husband comes to bed for the night but he still ends up waking me up. Sometime I'll startle awake.

 

I feel bad because it wouldn't be fair to ask him to go to be at 9pm.

[dunerbug]

I should add that I've cut out all supplements and then restarted with only magnesium and fish oil. This started on the 23rd. I then added d3 on the 25th. I will add things one at a time from this point on. Next I will add iron.

 

Any other recommendations? I was thinking a multi vit next then holding there for a while.

[dunerbug]

Oh!

 

I thought of something else..

 

I have been having trouble controlling my bladder off and on since withdrawal. I've had some issue in the past due to having had three kids. But it seems to have gotten worse after the med.

 

Am I just being paranoid now? Has anyone else experienced this.

TMI, I know but, I wet myself all the damn time!

[strawberry17]

Hi Dunerbug, just been reading through your thread, you mentioned that you don't hear of too many people having too much trouble with Prozac, it does seem that way, I know a couple of people who just stopped it dead and were fine, but I've been struggling to get off Prozac for years and am extremely sensitive to it, I now know one or two others who've had a terrible time with it, so you're not alone. I'm glad you've found these forums, they are a great source of support.

You mentioned about anxiety on going to bed, I get that sometimes, mainly when I've got into this spiral of anxiety about not sleeping, and then of course I end up not sleeping because I got anxious about not sleeping, the whole withdrawal experience can so mess with your head

 

Anyway, hang in there, time and support here will heal you,I've been through some horrible episodes and have always eventually come out the other side.

[dunerbug]

I keep crying today. My anxiety is through the roof.

I'm pms'ing really bad.

 

It's my birthday tomorrow and as another year goes by, I'm soo scared I'm never gonna be me again.

It's been a hellish 3-4 years.

 

I'm typing though my tears right now and could use some encouragement if anyone has some they can spare.

[tezza]

Hi dunerbug,

 

I'm so sorry you're feeling so low. I've been there so I understand what it's like. I got better and I was low for a very long time. I thought I'd never feel anywhere close to myself again.

 

I hope you feel encouraged by the fact that I do feel much better and I believe you will too. I was always posting about how hopeless I felt. It will get better for you.

 

PMS seems to make withdrawal even worse, I've heard a few people say that. Just know that you are not in this alone!

 

Loving hugs,

 

Tezza

[strawberry17]

Sorry you're feeling so bad, I've been where you are as well, and nothing lasts forever, it really doesn't (((hugs)))

[tezza]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! I hope it's a wonderful day for you!

 

Hugs

[strawberry17]

Happy Birthday Dunerbug, is it the 4th or 5th? I see you got a special mention here:

 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/2214-happy-birthday-to/

 

[dunerbug]

Sup everyone!

 

Had a bit of a breakdown last night. PMS this month was horrendous. (Terrible thoughts and anxiety) Finally started after being several days late, which is weird because I'm normally very regular. I have my tubes are tied so it wasn't uber stressful that way. I'm growing more and more paranoid of hormonal issues. I'm 33 so it can't be perimenopause, right?

 

Ok, so I know I'm dealing with withdrawal but my brain is always trying to come up with other reasons. I guess I'm having acceptance issues. It's difficult to accept that a decision *I* made has caused such upheaval in my life. (the decision to get on prozac)

 

My faith has taken a big hit lately as well.....but that's a whole other post.

[dunerbug]

Let me apologize.... My posts on this thread have been so negative. I hope you all are not growing tired of me.

 

I hope to contribute in a better way. I'm sorry.

[flower]

I keep crying today. My anxiety is through the roof.

I'm pms'ing really bad.

 

It's my birthday tomorrow and as another year goes by, I'm soo scared I'm never gonna be me again.

It's been a hellish 3-4 years.

 

I'm typing though my tears right now and could use some encouragement if anyone has some they can spare.

 

So many of us type and cry here..This will ease. I'm having a hard time too.You are not alone ladybug.Hang in there.

[dunerbug]

Thanks Flower!

[dunerbug]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! I hope it's a wonderful day for you!

 

Hugs

 

Thanks for the b-day wishes. You too Strawberry! Sorry I didn't say it sooner.

[Meimeiquest]

I hope everyone who has to cry or be discouraged posts. That's why this forum is here. And I worry about people who post they're having a hard time and then are silent! And I really hope you feel better soon!

[tezza]

Sup everyone!

 

Ok, so I know I'm dealing with withdrawal but my brain is always trying to come up with other reasons. I guess I'm having acceptance issues. It's difficult to accept that a decision *I* made has caused such upheaval in my life. (the decision to get on prozac)

 

My faith has taken a big hit lately as well.....but that's a whole other post.

 

Dunerbug,

 

We are not one bit tired of you, we're glad you are here. Don't be down on yourself, we are all here because "we all drank the koolaid".

 

I posted nothing but negativity when I was low. It's perfectly fine to express your feelings. We will be here for you!

 

{{{hugs}}}

 

Tezza

[tezza]

Let me apologize.... My posts on this thread have been so negative. I hope you all are not growing tired of me.

 

I hope to contribute in a better way. I'm sorry.

 

 

I posted the wrong quote, sorry...foggy today from almost no sleep!

[Fizz]

Hi dunerbug, just wondering how you have been doing! Was just thinking of how you described sitting outside in the sun with your pets, sounds cute! Sending love. Xxxxx

[dunerbug]

Hi dunerbug, just wondering how you have been doing! Was just thinking of how you described sitting outside in the sun with your pets, sounds cute! Sending love. Xxxxx

 

Hey Fizz!

 

I'm hanging in there.

I've been in the dumps since my last period. Plus I've been doing too much. (yard work, etc.) Too much exertion, I'm finding, make symptoms worse.

 

Hope you are well.

[SaltedGingkoNuts]

Any updates dunerbug?

[SaltedGingkoNuts]

Oh, nevermind. I see you responded to someone's inquiry earlier today.

Hang in there.

[Fizz]

Hi dunerbug, know what you mean about the cycle thing. My last one was such a horror it triggered a tsunami like wave, still trying to get over it aswell. Never had any problems each month before withdrawal, thinking there must be a connection? Take it easy, I'm sure like me you are desperate to be doing more though. Hope today is good for you. Xxxxx

[dunerbug]

It's weird. I don't really know what to say.

 

I know my husband is tiring of all the stuff I'm going through. It makes me feel guilty sometimes. Don't get me wrong....he's still supportive but I notice we are bickering more. TMI, but our sex life has dwindled to maybe a couple times a month. that affects him more than he is saying.

 

I told him that I wish I could go somewhere alone to heal and only care for myself during this time. I know it's selfish, but having a husband and family to care for right now is stressful.

 

Right before my cycle last month, I had a couple "better weeks" then bam! In the dirt again. Logically, I know it's part of the process but it's exhausting.

 

I wish I had more to add. There's been some positives but mind is afraid to focus on those.....I think because it's so disappointing when they go away.

 

Duner

[dunerbug]

Hi dunerbug, know what you mean about the cycle thing. My last one was such a horror it triggered a tsunami like wave, still trying to get over it aswell. Never had any problems each month before withdrawal, thinking there must be a connection? Take it easy, I'm sure like me you are desperate to be doing more though. Hope today is good for you. Xxxxx

 

There has got to be a connection. I've always had a little PMS....But now, post prozac, is MUCH more difficult. So sorry to hear you dealing with the same thing.

[dunerbug]

Oh, nevermind. I see you responded to someone's inquiry earlier today.

Hang in there.

 

How are you holding up?

[Fizz]

If only we knew how long, hey? But it will take as long as it takes.... Seem more exhausted lately than I was a few months ago! Just doing the essentials and trying to rest. One day we will all be well! Love xxxxx