xlmplmplmp: PSSD and Derealization

[xlmplmplmp]

I wish everyone well in their healing. I finished my taper! I am completely off Prozac as of one week ago. I know Prozac has a long half-life, so there may be some symptoms I will experience down the road, but I think I did pretty well in terms of tapering. It took me eight months and I am now working two jobs and saving up money for more school. I am cautiously optimistic about my future, though I believe I have the skills to deal with whatever comes my way.

 

I am curious, however, if there are any further things I should do to take care of myself. In a few months or so I may experience the delayed effects of the withdrawal, even though I tapered over a long period. I don't think I'll reinstate Prozac again, even if withdrawal becomes quite awful. I gave it my best shot, and I'll live with whatever happens.

[Offeverything27]

I myself have pssd. I find myself constantly frantically searching g for answers, Cali going onto anything to keep my hope. I began to pray. A few days ago I lost it for the first time in my life, meaning I literally gave up. Ended up in a psych ward, I'll leave out the details, but I'm 27. And I feel like lately all I can do I cut myself off emotionally from this world to elleviate my pain, and prepare for the next part of my spiritual life. Understanding that I'll never forgive myself or accept myself in this state. Having had to watch my fiancé leave me, not too long ago, and go through the process, watching her give up on me, realizing I made her insecure a feeling I narrative because my sex drive is gone. anything would have been better than this. No one will understand the pain. Or the torture. Nothing seems real anymore. I find myself gaining some hope, then being disappointed, leading me further down this road where j fear I'll never return from . I lost it when my psych admitted that he believes it's all in my head. That I'm putting too much pressure on myself. I'm no longer associated with this world. I'm almost completely disconnected from it. I have yet to find anyone who's recovered from this. I sometimes feel old and search and search fr someone to tell me hey, it will get better. I can't even find that. If there is a god, which I believe there is, he would have mercy on us, and help. I pray and I feel nothing. Maybe he doesn't want us to be better but to rise above this. One man can only take so much, and I've been through some stuff most people would never have the Life to get rough, but this is too much. I haven't had a sex drive since coming off Effexor in 2008. Completely erased

[Offeverything27]

I started taking pain pills to forget everything, then came xAnax. Sorry for all the weird misspelling my phone sucks.

 

Then I go through withdrawal from suboxone and Xanax, realizing o yeah, this is why I went on drugs. I've become asexual from Effexor. Only I'm not asexual, I'm tortured, every day, every song on the radio is about love and sex. Every tv show. Every movie. And I understand why, but it's just a process I'm going through j guess. Every day is the same. I wake up, realizing I'm like this, and sometimes I have the strength but lately, most days are getting darker.

[xlmplmplmp]

Ah **** man, I'm so sorry to hear about your troubles. If it's any relief, I'm in exaclty the same boat (as are many others.) Unfortunately, time well tell whether or not we get any better. Science failed us, but maybe someday they'll be a way to beat this thing.

[xlmplmplmp]

Well, it's been a long, windy road full of fire and brimstone but here I am. I've been off Prozac for three months and little by little my cognition and emotional stability are improving. PSSD hasn't abated at all, but I have plans to address that as I go further. For now, it seems (and I hope) the worst of the battle is over. I wish everyone else sees improvements in the days and years to come.

[xlmplmplmp]

It's been a year since I've been completely off Prozac. Things have not been easy, but I am still kicking around. I am able to work and socialize and take some joy from life, even if it is a mere glimmer of light every while and again. I still have the symptoms that inspired me to post here in the first place, but I have seen improvements and I am able to accept who I am. I hope that one day we will all be healed, wholly or in part. Whatever you're going through, push through it, no matter how long it takes, and you'll find some stable ground to stand on.

[potions]

How are you now xlmplmplmp? I hope you’re wel!

[xlmplmplmp]

It's been a long while since I've posted, and a hell of a lot (not even being melodramatic here) has happened in my life but I am proud to report I no longer have any acute withdrawal symptoms whatsoever. What remains, however, is emotional anhedonia and the damnable PSSD. I won't even apologize for the brutality of this next statement: I hope the absolute sniveling worms who marketed this wretched stuff suffer immensely, whether in this life or the next (whatever it is I hope it's on fire.) I don't know what the ordeal has been like for everyone else, but I am functional and employed and social yet still in constant pain. Welcome to the modern world. The slow taper works, at least in terms of escaping the utter terror of acute withdrawal, but as far as the long term damage is concerned, in my case at least, I'll have to deal with the humiliating aftermath for the foreseeable future. I am alive, though, and I have friends worth fighting for and enemies worth opposing. Stay strong and keep connected to those you love and who love you. Never forget the trials you've overcome and never, ever, forgive the dark machinery of corporate greed that brought us all here.