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On 11/22/2019 at 2:02 PM, icequeen said:

Yes! I wouldn’t hurt a fly either but I could strangle the doc who prescribed me ADs that I took for a year and have spent fifteen years in hell trying to recover from. So yes, I have fantasies about strangling her.

15 years in withdrawal? Wow..how are you now?!?

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42 minutes ago, Ryguy said:

15 years in withdrawal? Wow..how are you now?!?





MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

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I quit Paxil in August and creeping, very slowly, was this anger and homicidal ideation.  Everything seemed meaningless to me, and I started seeing it as a solution to everything. Now last year was not only extremely stressful for me because of the Xanax and Paxil withdrawal, but also because of a family emergency I am responsible for taking care of and a financial problem given to us by our government that may force us to leave our home.  And on top of it I have extreme harm OCD.


Anyway, today was one of the worst days I've ever had.  All day I've been enraged and my answer in my mind to everything is to kill.  Paired with my harm OCD I am in a living hell.  How much longer will this last? 


Is this even withdrawal?  I am assuming I'm still suffering because my feet still are tingly, I have ahnedonia, I have physical sensitivity to air, intolerance to the slightest change in heat or cold, major major depression, an even lower intolerance to frustration, and then the homicidal ideation which is completely different than the murderous harm OCD thoughts.


I feel like this will never end, I'l lose control, or that i have to end my life.  I always thought I was a good person, but now I just don't care about anything anymore.


SSRIs are chemical lobotomies.  Benzos are even worse.  I have no idea what to do.

Paxil, 60mg August 2006- August 2022 .  Quit cold turkey.  

Xanax, 2mg, 2022 for five weeks, May-June.  Quit cold turkey.


My withdrawals symptoms are body temp changes, insomnia, existential depression, extreme anger.  My harm OCD is back too.


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