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Im writing this to vent some of my frustration with psych drugs on two levels. First let me start out by saying that Im criminally insane, by a conviction of assault. There has also been other incidents 4-5 years ago.


Anyway..... Before all this started I was having EXTREME difficulties with psych meds. Initially I started with Zyprexa, which from one day to another gave me sexual anhedonia which persists now 6 years later(no feeling whatsoever). I also gained 20 kg, but I thought that maybe they would stop the meds if that happened, so I didnt restrain myself. Then I was switched to Abilify which made me irritable. Later I got very bad short term memory which led to near parkinson symptoms with loss of balance and memory span of 2 hours at most. I used to be a university student.


I also have heart disease, and all the themes people describe here, such as a sensitive nervous system and emotions.


In the midst of all this crippling ilness Im faced with my conviction and the things Ive done. I really wanted to cooperate by being med compliant. But I couldnt pull through when I needed it. I had something that felt like a heart attack and stopped. I wish my health had been a concern for the psychiatrist, so that I would have taken an active stance in finding another med, MAYBE that could have happened.


Now Im left as criminally insane person, whose struggles with medication and very poor health means nothing. These days its hard to just get by, and the worst thing is that I need meds.....  I think Im giving benzos a shot, but I have to wait untill after easter...


This was my rant.........

Was on Invega "Xeplion" injection for 3 years 100mg once a month, and Cipralex for 1-2 years 5 mg. Before that I took Abilify for two years at 10 mg. Has experienced trouble with POTS, memory, speech and other neurological problems. Healing seems to take place, as Im now able to go without heart meds. My brain is still not working very well. 

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Rant heard... 

I hope it helped to say it 

wishing you some peace we all deserve it and it is hard won... 

Welcome to SA 

There may be things you will learn here that can help you out... there is no going back but there is forward

one foot in front of the other and nobody here will be upset if you stall from time to time.. 

Many came here in a bad way that is how most find this site. So cuddle in and do some reading I am sure you will find this site of use... try the self care section it generally has something to offer each of us. 


Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 


There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)

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