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My name is Lora. I am 23 years old. This is my story.

This all started when I was 20. My parents flew me home to undergo a treatment called "TMS" to cure major depressive disorder. 

I have no history of seizures and on my 10th day, the machine gave me a grand mal seizure. It was one of the most terrifying experiences of my life.

I began to fret days after in fear I was going to have another seizure. My parents live two hours from a good hospital so that fed my fears even more.

At the ER, a doctor handed me a bottle of Ativan telling me it was an anti-convulsant/anti-anxiety. GREAT! 

I have ZERO knowledge of drugs so I began to take 1 mg every night for a week as a safety tactic. 

I stopped and went into what I know now is severe withdrawal. 

Doctors could not figure out what was wrong with me so I had a neuro-psychiatrist put me on 2 whopping mg of Klonopin and told me he didn't care if I were on it for the rest of my life. 

For a 115 pound 20 year old girl, that is A LOT. 

Four months later I will still feeling sick, having scary symptoms, and majorly depressed.

I called my doctor and he proceeded to cut me cold turkey and gave me a bottle Xanax and told me I had one week to come off. 

I nearly lost my life that week. I cannot explain to you what I went through.

I was admitted to hospital where they stabilized me on 30 mg of Librium, 900 mg of Gabapentin, and 15 mg of Remeron.

I was then cut 10 mg when I left and was rapidly tapered so badly, it got dangerous.

I now have an AWESOME medical team.

My neurologist lets me micro taper with liquid Librium made by my compounding pharmacist.

Today I am on 12.52 mg of Librium, 500 mg of GABA, and 15 mg of Remeron. I AM FEELING MUCH BETTER MAY I ADD!

Next, I will micro taper Gabapentin and then micro taper Remeron. 

I will be done with benzos November of 2019 as I am taking this slow so I can live.


A few weeks after I left the hospital I cut 300 mg of GABA with no problem.

Then 6 months later I took a HORRID turn (benzos) and was forced to cut 100 mg of GABA and it was awful..


Any POSITIVE insight for someone who will be on Gabapentin for 4 years and micro tapering?

I am tired and I am terrified. 


Blessings to all of you!




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Hi lesharp and welcome to SA,


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A request: Would you summarize your history in a signature - ALL drugs, doses, dates, and discontinuations & reinstatements, in the last 12-24 months particularly?

  • Please leave out symptoms and diagnoses.
  • A list is easier to understand than one or multiple paragraphs. 
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This is your own Intro topic where you can ask questions and journal your progress.  We encourage members to visit other members' topics so you can support each other.


MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

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