Dabhob33 Posted May 25, 2018 Author Share Posted May 25, 2018 11 minutes ago, mammaP said: Keep calling, it is important to talk to someone, face to face if possible. This will pass, I've been there and come out the other side. Get through today, don't worry about tomorrow, face it when it arrives. You will get through this. Thank you mammaP. Benzo taper/wd really is rough. (Trying not to carastrophize). Did you taper benzos? Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted May 25, 2018 Administrator Share Posted May 25, 2018 It's not just Valium -- any benzo, including LIBRIUM can caused a paradoxical reaction, also depression and suicidality. Did you reduce the evening Valium to 5mg as we discussed? Please keep reminding yourself you are feeling the effects of the drugs. This will change. Hang in there. Let's discuss your benzo dosing here This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted May 25, 2018 Author Share Posted May 25, 2018 16 minutes ago, Altostrata said: It's not just Valium -- any benzo, including LIBRIUM can caused a paradoxical reaction, also depression and suicidality. Did you reduce the evening Valium to 5mg as we discussed? Please keep reminding yourself you are feeling the effects of the drugs. This will change. Hang in there. Let's discuss your benzo dosing here Thank you. I did drop the .5 valium last night. I will refuse to switch to librium. I want to reduce the valium. Just unsure of the pace. I know we have a conversation going with Shep on the Benzo side. I’d like to put a plan in place. Just not sure how to go about doing it. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted May 25, 2018 Administrator Share Posted May 25, 2018 Let's talk with Shep. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted May 25, 2018 Author Share Posted May 25, 2018 5/24/18 12 - woke up - panic - burning pain over body - 325mg Tylenol 3 - woke panic 430 - woke panic 6 - woke - anxious 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega / probiotic 9 - 450mg Lithium 9 - feeling very suicidal today. I don’t want to die, but can’t cope with the pain. Worried about wd and the pain. Verrrry anxious / Heavy head / agitation / short temper / feeling overall awful today. Burning feet. Contemplating going to the hospital 12 - lunch 2 - pick up Syd and go to doctor Feeling hopeless...just want a glimmer of hope. Can’t stop ruminating. 6 - feeling awful. Nervous about sleep tonight 730 - 162mg Tylenol In pain . 9 - lithium 225mg 10 - 5mg valium 10 - sleep 5/25/18 1215 - woke 230 - woke 162mg Tylenol pain 445 - woke - extremely anxious in chest and feet Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted May 25, 2018 Author Share Posted May 25, 2018 I’m so sick of all the negativity surrounding the benzo taper/wd I’m going through. I have the horror stories stuck in my head about how devastating it is. I feel as if I have ptsd, I’m worried so much. There are people who are working through their taper, taking care of their family. I have this belief that everyone is on the verge of killing themselves bc of their symptoms. I have myself so worked up. Unbelievable. I hope others going through this are finding peace. I’m just done with the negativity. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted May 25, 2018 Administrator Share Posted May 25, 2018 Benzo withdrawal is no picnic, but we have many people here who have done it. You can find just about anything on the Web. There are many people out there who were not very systematic in their tapers and had a bad result. Slow and gradual will work. You are having a bumpy time right now, hang in there. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted May 26, 2018 Author Share Posted May 26, 2018 5/25/18 1215 - woke 230 - woke 162mg Tylenol pain 445 - woke - extremely anxious in chest and feet 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega / probiotic Doze and wake in panic 9 - 450mg Lithium 9 - heavy anxiety in chest and heavy head 12 - lunch 1 - worst I’ve felt in a looong time. Feeling extremely suicidal still. Fatigued. Feel trapped by benzo wd and depression and physical pain from last 2 yrs. 6 - pizza - ugh 730 - 9 - lithium 225mg 10 - 5mg valium 10 - sleep 5/26/17 3 - woke 6 - woke - some anxiety in chest Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted May 27, 2018 Author Share Posted May 27, 2018 5/25/18 1215 - woke 230 - woke 162mg Tylenol pain 445 - woke - extremely anxious in chest and feet 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega / probiotic Doze and wake in panic 9 - 450mg Lithium 9 - heavy anxiety in chest and heavy head 12 - lunch 1 - worst I’ve felt in a looong time. Feeling extremely suicidal still. Fatigued. Feel trapped by benzo wd and depression and physical pain from last 2 yrs. 6 - pizza - ugh 730 - 9 - lithium 225mg 10 - 5mg valium 10 - sleep 5/26/17 3 - woke 6 - woke - some anxiety in chest Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted May 27, 2018 Author Share Posted May 27, 2018 5/25/18 1215 - woke 230 - woke 162mg Tylenol pain 445 - woke - extremely anxious in chest and feet 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega / probiotic Doze and wake in panic 9 - 450mg Lithium 9 - heavy anxiety in chest and heavy head 12 - lunch 1 - worst I’ve felt in a looong time. Feeling extremely suicidal still. Fatigued. Feel trapped by benzo wd and depression and physical pain from last 2 yrs. 6 - pizza - ugh 730 - 9 - lithium 225mg 10 - 5mg valium 10 - sleep 5/26/17 3 - woke 6 - woke - some anxiety in chest Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted May 27, 2018 Author Share Posted May 27, 2018 5/26/17 3 - woke 6 - woke - some anxiety in chest 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega / probiotic 9 - 450mg Lithium Fatigued / heavy head Charlie had friends over to play basketball 12 - lunch 730 - 9 - lithium 225mg 10 - 5mg valium 11 - sleep 5/27/18 12 - woke - anxiety 3 - woke - anxiety 5 - woke - anxiety in chest Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted May 28, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 28, 2018 On 5/25/2018 at 9:59 PM, Dabhob33 said: I’m so sick of all the negativity surrounding the benzo taper/wd I’m going through. I have the horror stories stuck in my head about how devastating it is. I feel as if I have ptsd, I’m worried so much. There are people who are working through their taper, taking care of their family. I have this belief that everyone is on the verge of killing themselves bc of their symptoms. I have myself so worked up. Unbelievable. I hope others going through this are finding peace. I’m just done with the negativity. Hey Dabhob, So sorry you have a lot of anxiety at the moment. Yes, reading all the horror stories can take its toll. There are some good articles and threads on this site though that can help us to keep coping. Some things people write are so relatable as everyone is going through this same process. I read the article entitled Victim Mentality by Apathetic today. It’s under Symptoms n Self Care. It was really good if you want to check it out. Hang in there my fellow survivor☀️☀️☀️ Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted May 28, 2018 Author Share Posted May 28, 2018 2 minutes ago, Carmie said: Hey Dabhob, So sorry you have a lot of anxiety at the moment. Yes, reading all the horror stories can take its toll. There are some good articles and threads on this site though that can help us to keep coping. Some things people write are so relatable as everyone is going through this same process. I read the article entitled Victim Mentality by Apathetic today. It’s under Symptoms n Self Care. It was really good if you want to check it out. Hang in there my fellow survivor☀️☀️☀️ Thank you so much Carrmie! I will look up the article right now. All the best to you! I’m head to listen... 5/25/18 1215 - woke 230 - woke 162mg Tylenol pain 445 - woke - extremely anxious in chest and feet 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega / probiotic Doze and wake in panic 9 - 450mg Lithium 9 - heavy anxiety in chest and heavy head 12 - lunch 1 - worst I’ve felt in a looong time. Feeling extremely suicidal still. Fatigued. Feel trapped by benzo wd and depression and physical pain from last 2 yrs. 6 - pizza - ugh 730 - 9 - lithium 225mg 10 - 5mg valium 10 - sleep 5/26/17 3 - woke 6 - woke - some anxiety in chest Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted May 28, 2018 Author Share Posted May 28, 2018 5/27/18 12 - woke - anxiety 3 - woke - anxiety 5 - woke - anxiety in chest 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega / probiotic 9 - 450mg Lithium Agitated / depressed / fatigued / head pressure 12 - lunch 1 - 162mg Tylenol headache 130 - magnesium spray on feet (they ache/burn) 3 - movie with family - SOLO 6 - Chinese restaurant 830 - cavs game 9 - lithium 225mg 10 - 5mg valium 11 - sleep 5/28/18 3 - woke 6 - woke - anxiety in chest / stomach Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted May 29, 2018 Author Share Posted May 29, 2018 5/28/18 3 - woke 6 - woke - anxiety in chest / stomach 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega / probiotic 9 - 450mg Lithium Sick and tired of laying on the couch - but extremely agitated - I have to start pushing - thinking of suicides / what will keep me from doing the same? Will it get that much harder as i drop? Listened to Geraldine Burns podcast. Frightened me a bit. Is suicide a rarity or something that happens a lot in Benzo/ssri wd? 12 - lunch 1 - on couch - feel agitated 2 - Memorial Day picnic 3 - feeling depressed even with all the people / Feet burning 6 - I was more social as the day went on / Feet were burning 9 - lithium 225mg 10 - 5mg valium 11 - sleep 5/29/18 430 - woke 630 - woke - anxious Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Shep Posted May 29, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 29, 2018 19 minutes ago, Dabhob33 said: Sick and tired of laying on the couch - but extremely agitated - I have to start pushing - thinking of suicides / what will keep me from doing the same? Will it get that much harder as i drop? Listened to Geraldine Burns podcast. Frightened me a bit. Is suicide a rarity or something that happens a lot in Benzo/ssri wd? I don't think suicide is common during withdrawal. The majority of people, even those of us who went through hell, come out the other side alive and maybe not perfect, but much, much better. Again, I would caution against seeking out these types of stories and really work to program your brain and body in ways that will make neuroplasticity work in your favor. Please see this short 2 minute clip about "the dark side of neuroplasticity": Norman Doidge - The Dark Side of Neuroplasticity video (2 minutes) I know it can be comforting to seek out people who feel as bad as you do to validate your experience, but that can also backfire and dig deep pathways in your brain leading to that "dark side of neuroplasticity". It's important to let your brain and your nervous system know that you are fine and that you will recover and go onto have a wonderful life with your family. 30 minutes ago, Dabhob33 said: Will it get that much harder as i drop? Hopefully it will get better, since it's possible you're dealing with a paradoxical reaction. Valium has a half-life of up to 200 hours (8 days), so it's too soon to tell if your most recent reduction is helping with any paradoxical symptoms, so please do as much self care as you can and avoid any stories that may trigger. Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted May 30, 2018 Author Share Posted May 30, 2018 5/29/18 430 - woke 630 - woke - anxious 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega / probiotic 9 - 450mg Lithium 12 - lunch 3 - charlie guitar lessons Woke up from brief nap screaming. Been so agitated, anxious when doing anything. 7 - charlie baseball practice 9 - lithium 225mg 10 - 5mg valium 11 - sleep 5/30/18 5 - woke - slight agitation / burn Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted May 31, 2018 Author Share Posted May 31, 2018 5/30/18 5 - woke - slight agitation 630 - woke Kids fighting - made me very anxious 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega / probiotic 9 - 450mg Lithium 12 - lunch 12 - psychotherapist - good session 1 - Ran errands triggered agitation and burning (office max and music store). When I feel this way I get hopeless/suicidal. Spoke with my sister Kathleen 5 - Charlie’s baseball game - heavy head / hurt a lot throughout body. Had a heart to heart with Sydney about friendship and the great core of friends she has. 9 - lithium 225mg 10 - 5mg valium 11 - sleep 5/31/18 1 - woke 3 - woke 430 - woke 530 - woke Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 1, 2018 Author Share Posted June 1, 2018 5/31/18 1 - woke 3 - woke 430 - woke 530 - woke 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega / probiotic 9 - 450mg Lithium 11 - Dr Cheryl Hammes - Naturopath - getting a sleep study done - referee to sleep specialist. Getting macronutrient bloodwork done. Not meant to “cure” anything but ensure I’m eating well. Discussed diet. No additional supplements. 12 - lunch 1 - agitated / going to the store gives me angst 7 - Bill came over to watch game 9 - lithium 225mg 10 - 5mg valium 6/1/18 12 - sleep - wearing apnea mouthpiece 1 - woke 4 - woke 5 - woke Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 2, 2018 Author Share Posted June 2, 2018 6/1/18 12 - sleep - wearing apnea mouthpiece 1 - woke 4 - woke 5 - woke My and Ali’s 13 yr anniversary 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega 9 - 450mg Lithium 11 - doze off - woke in panic a few seconds later 12 - lunch 4 - doze off again. Same results 5 - my parents came over for dinner 6 - dinner - pizza 9 - lithium 225mg 10 - 5mg valium 11 - sleep - wear apnea mouthpiece 6/2/18 230 - woke - nervous about taper / agitated 430 - woke 530 - woke - anxiety in stomach and chest Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus SkyBlue Posted June 3, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 3, 2018 Congrats on 13 years together. That's great. A sleep study is a really good idea. We really don't know what's going on in our bodies when we're sleeping, so it can give really good information that we might not otherwise get. 2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever. 2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds. 2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better. Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.) "You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 3, 2018 Author Share Posted June 3, 2018 Thank you SkyBlue! Imhabe a mouthpiece for the apnea. It helps keep me from snoring. I’m nervous to do the study. I’m somewhat agoraphobic to even go to a Dr appt, let alone stay overnight hooked up to wires. Not to mention my poor sleep. Wish me luck. Hope all is well with you. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 3, 2018 Author Share Posted June 3, 2018 On 5/29/2018 at 9:06 AM, Shep said: I don't think suicide is common during withdrawal. The majority of people, even those of us who went through hell, come out the other side alive and maybe not perfect, but much, much better. Again, I would caution against seeking out these types of stories and really work to program your brain and body in ways that will make neuroplasticity work in your favor. Please see this short 2 minute clip about "the dark side of neuroplasticity": Norman Doidge - The Dark Side of Neuroplasticity video (2 minutes) I know it can be comforting to seek out people who feel as bad as you do to validate your experience, but that can also backfire and dig deep pathways in your brain leading to that "dark side of neuroplasticity". It's important to let your brain and your nervous system know that you are fine and that you will recover and go onto have a wonderful life with your family. Hopefully it will get better, since it's possible you're dealing with a paradoxical reaction. Valium has a half-life of up to 200 hours (8 days), so it's too soon to tell if your most recent reduction is helping with any paradoxical symptoms, so please do as much self care as you can and avoid any stories that may trigger. I’ve been feeling awful of late with main symptoms: - toxic sleep - doze off for a few seconds and wake in panic. The awful feeling sticks with me for hours. - extreme depression - constant pain - all over body - like someone has a lighter on my skin - agitation - no patience for anything - not even for what should be pleasurable I want to frame this in a positive manner so badly. I watch videos of people who are successfully tapering and despite the pain they see the end game. I don’t see it. I want to see it. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Shep Posted June 3, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 3, 2018 20 minutes ago, Dabhob33 said: I want to frame this in a positive manner so badly. I watch videos of people who are successfully tapering and despite the pain they see the end game. I don’t see it. I want to see it. This is good, Dabhob. This is very good and it's sending the right message to your mind/body. "Wanting to see it" means you're sending the message to your mind/body that you are "expecting to see it" and that's a very powerful message. Thank you for clarifying where your mind is at. I look at that the same way as a child who is "wanting to learn" long division and is struggling, but wants to get there. That's much different than a child who "gives up". You're in struggling mode, but your intention is clear. I think once you catch a break, just catch your breath with a partial window, just let a little light in, you'll start to see the end game. Let us know how it goes with the sleep study. Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 4, 2018 Author Share Posted June 4, 2018 6/3/18 4 - woke - anxious 5 - woke 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega 9 - 450mg Lithium 10 - charlie soccer game. Won Extremely depressed and agitated. Worried about sleep and taper. Heavy head and eyes. Not social through this whole experience. Exhausted. 12 - lunch 1 - head squeeze / anxious stomach / achey body 325mg Tylenol / exhausted - feel fatigued most days but afraid to close my eyes due to “toxic naps”. 2 - thoughts slowed down - a bit better 4 - charlie soccer game - feel awful / feel need to go to hospital. Body hurts badly. Incredible agitation 6 - dinner 730 - drifted off / panic 9 - lithium 225mg / 5mg Valium 10 - wear apnea mouthpiece - 500mg extra strength Tylenol - big headache 11 - sleep 6/4/18 2 - woke - anxiety Ruminated about benzo withdrawal . Can’t get mind to stop. Woke in panic when drifting off. Didn’t go back to sleep. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 5, 2018 Author Share Posted June 5, 2018 6/4/18 2 - woke - anxiety Ruminated about benzo withdrawal . Can’t get mind to stop. Woke in panic when drifting off. Didn’t go back to sleep. 8 - breakfast -valium 5mg/ eye drops /omega 3 9 - 450mg Lithium 10 - psychiatrist - I need to work on acceptance of my situation per doctor. No sleep last night - tried napping before appt - panic as I drifted off. Extremely agitated and depressed. Rumination about sleep, taper. Thoughts of death. Pain over body. Exhausted. 12 - lunch 2 - talked with David powers for 3 hrs 6 - dinner 730 - Tylenol 500mg headache and leg /Feet muscle ache 8 - fell asleep 12 - woke - lithium 225mg / 5mg Valium / wear apnea mouthpiece 6/5/18 245 woke 430 woke - anxious 6 - woke - extremely low anxious. Drift off wake in panic. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 6, 2018 Author Share Posted June 6, 2018 6/5/18 245 woke 430 woke - anxious 6 - woke - extremely low anxious. Drift off wake in panic. 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega 9 - 450mg Lithium Not as depressed, but more agitated and anxious in stomach/chest. Worried about sleep and taper. Heavy head and eyes. Exhausted. 12 - lunch 1 - Appt with Dr. Arranging new home sleep study for Aug to see if mouth piece is working. Also suggested CBT therapy with sleep specialist/psychologist. Will it help? Very agitated and toxic feeling over body for a few hours. 6 - dinner 9 - fell asleep 12 - lithium 225mg / 5mg Valium / wear apnea mouthpiece 6/6/18 315 - woke 530 - woke Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 7, 2018 Author Share Posted June 7, 2018 6/6/18 315 - woke 530 - woke - anxious panic when trying to fall back to sleep 8 - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops / omega 9 - 450mg Lithium Laid on couch. Anxious in chest. Depressed. Agitated 12 - lunch 2 - Dentist - teeth cleaning - heavy head and extremely agitated. Very Depressed feel like crying. 6 - dinner 7 - Paul baseball game / Slanina’s came over for game - felt good talking to joe. Came over to watch cavs game. 9 - lithium 225mg / 5mg Valium 12 - sleep - wear apnea mouthpiece 6/7/18 345 - woke - a little panic Up rest of night - drift off and panic - brutal Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 8, 2018 Author Share Posted June 8, 2018 6/7/18 345 - woke - a little panic Up rest of night - drift off and panicked 8 - breakfast -valium 5mg /eye drops / omega 3 This insomnia is too much. Extremely agitated. 9 - 450mg Lithium 12 - lunch - went to my parents with charlie to help them with some things around the house. Feel like crying. Worried about lack sleep and Benzo wd. Agitated. Head hurts / tight 2 - 500mg Tylenol 5 - anxiety in chest and stomach / agitation 6 - dinner 9 - lithium 225mg / 5mg Valium 10 - sleep - wear apnea mouthpiece 6/8/18 1 - woke In and out of sleep every 15 mins (panic) 7 - up Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 9, 2018 Author Share Posted June 9, 2018 6/8/18 1 - woke In and out of sleep every 15 mins (panic) 7 - up 8 - breakfast -valium 5mg /eye drops / omega 3 This insomnia is too much. Extremely agitated. 9 - 450mg Lithium 11 - 1 mile hike with family in Richfield. Very agitated and depressed. Screamed at kids for fighting. Very short patience. 12 - lunch 2 - on couch - watching YouTube vids on sleeping. 6 - dinner 7 - charlie baseball game 830 - Bill over to visit 9 - lithium 225mg / 5mg Valium 10 - sleep - wear apnea mouthpiece 6/9/18 12 - woke 3 - woke - feel agitated 4 - woke 530 - woke - anxiety - surge - very uncomfortable. Have had this for months, almost a year. Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 10, 2018 Author Share Posted June 10, 2018 6/9/18 12 - woke 3 - woke - feel agitated 4 - woke 530 - woke - anxiety 8 - breakfast -valium 5mg /eye drops / omega 3 9 - 450mg Lithium 12 - lunch 11 - Kids screaming 2 - feeling down, but anxious. 6 - dinner at o Charley’s with 4 of us 9 - lithium 225mg / 5mg Valium 10 - sleep - wear apnea mouthpiece 1145 - woke 6/10/18 330 - woke - raspy throat / nose running 430 - woke 730 - woke Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 11, 2018 Author Share Posted June 11, 2018 6/10/18 330 - woke - raspy throat / nose running 430 - woke 730 - woke 8 - breakfast -valium 5mg /eye drops / omega 3 9 - 450mg Lithium 12 - lunch 1 - agitation / depressed 11 - worried about work; worried about rest of taper; fatigued ; body aches / right thigh twitching 3 - Raymonds over for chris and del’s anniversary / very depressed. Heavy headed. 9 - lithium 225mg / 5mg Valium 10 - wear apnea mouthpiece 12 - sleep 6/11/18 445 - woke 6 - woke - anxious about taper - can I do it. Will I ever feel better again? Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 12, 2018 Author Share Posted June 12, 2018 6/11/18 445 - woke 6 - woke - anxious about taper - can I do it. Will I ever feel better again? 8 - breakfast -valium 5mg /eye drops / omega 3 9 - 450mg Lithium 12 - lunch NEW - feeling consistent twitches in right top of thigh 1 - Kids dentist - extremely agitated 2 - syd sewing lesson - got lost - afotat d 3 - charlie guitar lesson - felt a bit calmer 7 - dropped off Syd for running - felt agitated. Feel I should be running. Guilt. 9 - lithium 225mg / 5mg Valium 10 - sleep - didn’t wear apnea mouthpiece - fell asleep 6/12/18 4 - woke 630 - woke Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 13, 2018 Author Share Posted June 13, 2018 6/12/18 4 - woke (took remaining 2.5mg valium bc fell asleep) 630 - woke 8 - breakfast -valium 5mg /eye drops / omega 3 9 - 450mg Lithium - went to cvs to get meds. Body burning. What is going on? 12 - lunch - feeling consistent twitches in right top of thigh - spoke with Benzo friend Robin 1 - psychotherapist 3 - dozed off for a while. Felt crummy when woke up. At least slept a little 7 - putt putt w family - felt anxious agitated 9 - lithium 225mg / 5mg Valium 10 - sleep - apnea mouthpiece 6/13/18 4 - woke Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 13, 2018 Author Share Posted June 13, 2018 Is anyone working with (and can recommend) a psychiatrist or other doctor in relation to their taper (Benzo and/or AD) in the Cleveland, Ohio area? Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
Dabhob33 Posted June 14, 2018 Author Share Posted June 14, 2018 6/13/18 4 - woke - realized I didn’t take 2.5mg valium yesterday 8 - breakfast -valium 5mg /eye drops / omega 3 9 - 450mg Lithium 10 - took Kids and bikes to Raymond’s Very depressed, yet anxious 12 - lunch 1 - bloodwork for macronutrients - feeling horrible. Worried about taper. So depressed. Can I make it through taper and withdrawal? So many people committing suicide. Body constantly feels irritated. Not sure what vitamins to take. Will they exacerbate the benzo wd? 5 - charlie baseball game - talked with chip 9 - lithium 225mg / 5mg Valium 10 - sleep - apnea mouthpiece 6/14/18 315 - woke 530 - woke Dabhob33 - Pristiq 25mg July 20, 2017 / 100mg November 29, 2017. Last dose 25mg December 20, 2017 - 28 yrs on antidepressants. Only other drug currently on is Lithium - 675mg. - 1st stint on benzos (100mg Librium) November 1, 2015 to January 1, 2017 (rapid taper) - 2nd stint on benzos (20mg Valium) started May 1 2017. Reinstated due to Librium rapid taper. Tapered 100mg pristiq in 4 weeks (Jan 2018). Currently tapered down to 10.5mg Valium where I began holding on February 12, 2018 due to rough patch. Using Ashton Method pill taper. Updose valium to 12mg on Feb 28, 2018 / Prozac .5mg March 3 - March 5, 2018 / March 13, 2018 - valium drop of .5 to 11.5mg Valium now 10mg as of May 23, 2018 Lithium 150mg August 8, 2017; 900mg August 23, 2017 Tested on July 13, 2018 .60 mmol/L result. Normal range is .60-1.00 mmol/L Took doxylamine sporadically (between 12mg and 25mg). Last taken on July 5, 2018. Don’t plan on continuing to take. I was given a 500mg dose of Levaquin for a UTI (ended up not having a UTI). Only one dose, but wreaked havoc on me. Is it still affecting me? Link to comment
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