Carolina Posted March 6, 2021 Author Share Posted March 6, 2021 Hi @Altostrata, thank you for your advice. It makes sense to use remeron as a sleep ´aid’ while withdrawing from Lexapro. However, the side effects from remeron are too great at the moment so I’m going to try to come off the remeron first. But, as we all know, our plans are constantly being changed by life events (especially in this arduous/ challenging situation) . So I am open to all possibilities. hi @JesusSavemefromWD. How are you? I hope you are better. Please, ask away. Don’t mind at all. I crashed around 1 1/2-2 months after I stopped the Lexapro. Before fully crashing, I started experiencing broken sleep and obsessive thoughts. These were manageable and I thought I was going through a stressful period However, my situation further deteriorated to the point where I suffered from complete insomnia, constant ocd ruminating thoughts, complete inability to eat, severe suicidal ideation, and ended up hospitalized. I reinstated at the end of 2 months post zero. Istarted with 10 mg and quickly went up to 20 mg (prior to finding SA). Upon reinstatement, my legs trembled terribly and I suffered jerks for about two weeks. I also felt overall malaise. That completely went away. Remeron was added at the hospital because my sleep did not return upon reinstatement and insomnia was exacerbating all my other symptoms. I continued to suffer from broken 4-5 hour sleep until about a month and a half ago. I now sleep 8-9 continuous hrs. My sleep is not broken anymore. However, I do not wake up feeling rested and am groggy/ fatigued throughout the day. I started feeling better around 6-8 weeks after reinstatement. However, I am not back to where I was by any means and don’t think I ever will be. I think these experiences scar a person’s psyche as well as the cns. I will never be able to return to the ‘blissful ignorance’ or belief these medications are ‘innocuous’ . The entire experience has been, and continues to be, traumatizing and that changes a person. I still suffer from suicidal ideation, depression and from severe obsessive thoughts but am determined to learn to cope with them as opposed to relying or adding medications. They are considerably milder after reinstatement but they are present. I am able to fully function and ‘enjoy’ moments with my family. However, I am constantly tortured by my ocd thoughts. As we all know, everyone’s experience is different and reinstatement is risky. I hope this helps you make your decision and more than that, I hope whatever you choose brings you a smoother journey. best, Carolina Current ( 3/7/2021): Medications: 20 mg Lexapro. 7.5 mg remeron ( started at 15 mg) Supplements: fish oil Tapering: Remeron (50% complete). Med History: Lexapro ( 20mg) 2013-current Remeron (15 mg) 12/2020- tapering @10% a month followed by 2 week hold Link to comment
Crochet Posted March 6, 2021 Share Posted March 6, 2021 Hi Carolina, We seem to have a very similar history with Lexapro. I agree with you regarding the trauma of this experience, I never could have imagined such a state existed. I jumped off of 5mg of Lexapro on November 1, 2020 thinking it was a low dose and that I would just need to push through the withdrawals. And I did, until I crashed in early January during a meditation retreat of all things. I understand that you are not 100%, but I hope to be where you are soon. At 45, I'm a little older than you, so maybe my brain takes longer to adjust. Anyway, take care and I'm sorry that we are meeting in this way. You sound like a pretty great person. Take care, Crochet 2012-present - Escitalopram currently 2.55 mg Supplements: Daytime- Green Lipped Mussel 1200mg, Omega-3s 1710mg, Wheat Germ Oil 770mg, Sodium Butyrate 1.2g, Phosphatidylcholine 2600mg, Multi-Min 2 tablets, Liposomal Glutathione 4 pumps, Probiotic 1 capsule, Beyond Balance herbal tinctures for lyme and gut healing (including one only taken during menstruation); Nighttime - L-theanine 200mg, melatonin 1mg, magnesium glycinate 400mg. History: 2012-2017- Escitalopram 10mg 2017-2020 - Escitalopram 5mg 07/2019-11/2019 - Valium 10mg, every 2-3 days, then stopped 11/2020 - Stopped Escitalopram 5mg abruptly (crashed January 2021) 1/2021-12/2021 - Escitalopram Reinstated 2.5mg to 5 to 10 to 7.5 and then started slow taper 1/2021-2/2021 - Ativan .5mg - Took 13.5 pills over the course of 22 days and stopped 2/2021-9/2021 Hydroxyzine - 50-100mg tapering down to .8mg, then cross-tapered to Claritin and stopped 9/2021-9/2022 - Claritin 5 mg (tapered off) Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted March 6, 2021 Administrator Share Posted March 6, 2021 What are your adverse effects from Remeron? You may have less adverse effects with a lower dosage. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Carolina Posted March 7, 2021 Author Share Posted March 7, 2021 Woke up at 5 am and was unable to get back to sleep. No cortisol wake up however. This is how it started last time before it deteriorated into full blown chaos. I am going to stay on 10 mg remeron for longer. Hope this was just a glitch. Current ( 3/7/2021): Medications: 20 mg Lexapro. 7.5 mg remeron ( started at 15 mg) Supplements: fish oil Tapering: Remeron (50% complete). Med History: Lexapro ( 20mg) 2013-current Remeron (15 mg) 12/2020- tapering @10% a month followed by 2 week hold Link to comment
Mentor Yesyes123 Posted March 8, 2021 Mentor Share Posted March 8, 2021 Wish you peace and healing! We will all make it I'm sure. Can you imagine being drug-free and withdrawal free? It's not that far. A few years go by fast. - Escitalopram 10mg from ages 15 - 21 - Severe crash after 4 month taper to 0 - Reinstated, stabilized, slowly tapering. "Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it." - Hellen Keller I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Carolina Posted March 9, 2021 Author Share Posted March 9, 2021 Sleep has settled again. Slight uptick in irritability and aggression. I’ve noticed Distraction, exercise, nutrition (low histamine diet), and CBT are very helpful. Will hold at 10 mg until March 26 and then drop 10%. Current ( 3/7/2021): Medications: 20 mg Lexapro. 7.5 mg remeron ( started at 15 mg) Supplements: fish oil Tapering: Remeron (50% complete). Med History: Lexapro ( 20mg) 2013-current Remeron (15 mg) 12/2020- tapering @10% a month followed by 2 week hold Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted May 7, 2021 Administrator Share Posted May 7, 2021 Hello, @Carolina, how are you doing? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Carolina Posted May 7, 2021 Author Share Posted May 7, 2021 All goes relatively well with the remeron taper. I am at half the original dose. The taper has not been painless. It has been a roller coaster ride. I wonder if the deceases of remeron are what destabilize my system or if I never fully recovered from my crash in December. Starting a taper post crash is not ideal. I have kept data and it seems that after 12 days or so I reach WD normal and am able to taper after about 20-25 days. I have been following the ‘listening to my body’ method instead of keeping a strict schedule. I hope this taper continues to go well. If this has already proven so very trying and horrible, I wonder how I am going to take on what comes next: my Mount Everest: Lexapro. I just keep taking things one day at a time for now. Current ( 3/7/2021): Medications: 20 mg Lexapro. 7.5 mg remeron ( started at 15 mg) Supplements: fish oil Tapering: Remeron (50% complete). Med History: Lexapro ( 20mg) 2013-current Remeron (15 mg) 12/2020- tapering @10% a month followed by 2 week hold Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted May 7, 2021 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 7, 2021 (edited) 30 minutes ago, Carolina said: I wonder how I am going to take on what comes next: my Mount Everest: Lexapro. You will do fine. I was on 20mg Lexapro starting in 2004, tapered for four years using the same taper rate you're tapering Remeron, jumped to zero at a very low dose 7 months ago and am doing fine. It's very do-able. Edited May 7, 2021 by Gridley Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotics, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Carolina Posted November 3, 2021 Author Share Posted November 3, 2021 I am down to 2.5 mg of remeron. I’ve hit the worst wave yet in my withdrawal journey. I am so very tired of waking up every day and fighting this. I truly need a break to regain some strength because, right now, I have very little fight left in me. And yet I can’t get a break. I may stop tapering for a while. I refuse to live on these medications and yet don’t see how I’m going to be able to get off them. Even small drops of a medication I have ‘only’ been on only nine months , most of these months tapering said medication, impact me terribly. How will I possibly endure the withdrawal that will surely come when I begin to drop the medication I have been on almost a decade? I want peace. The worst part is the not knowing. If someone told me ‘ you will suffer horribly for 5 years but then it will be over’, I could endure the pain. But we don’t know when or if we will recover. Some symptoms may be permanent. Some people recover, some don’t. It’s the unknowns that really get me. Anyways, I am off to get some rest. At least I am sleeping six hours and I get a break when i sleep. Hoping I don’t wake up. Hoping this is all a terrible nightmare. Current ( 3/7/2021): Medications: 20 mg Lexapro. 7.5 mg remeron ( started at 15 mg) Supplements: fish oil Tapering: Remeron (50% complete). Med History: Lexapro ( 20mg) 2013-current Remeron (15 mg) 12/2020- tapering @10% a month followed by 2 week hold Link to comment
Carolina Posted November 27, 2021 Author Share Posted November 27, 2021 I decided to give myself a three month break from tapering and the following occurred: I continued to have the exact window wave pattern as when I was tapering the remeron. This lead me to the following questions 1) Does this mean that my window wave experience is a remnant of my Lexapro CT November 2020 and not the remeron taper? 2) In turn, does this mean the taper of the remeron isn’t affecting me to the level I though it was? I have a decision to make also. I either stop the remeron taper and use the 2.5 mg of remeron I am currently still taking to aid with sleep while I taper the Lexapro to 10 or 5 mg. Or I continue the remeron taper. It is a tough decision as I don’t want to lengthen my body’s exposure and dependence to the remeron longer than necessary. And make it harder for me to taper it in the future. I have now been on the remeron 12 months. This isn’t an issue with the Lexapro as I have been on it for eight years so one more year isn’t really going to make that much of a difference in terms of diminishing the time of exposure to it. On the other hand, One of the main symptoms of withdrawal that reared it’s ugly head last time I tried to come off the Lexapro was insomnia. I could not even sleep one hour a night and truly decayed mentally. Any thoughts are greatly appreciated moderators. I know there are no clear cut decisions and answers but I value your thoughts and experience. thank you. Current ( 3/7/2021): Medications: 20 mg Lexapro. 7.5 mg remeron ( started at 15 mg) Supplements: fish oil Tapering: Remeron (50% complete). Med History: Lexapro ( 20mg) 2013-current Remeron (15 mg) 12/2020- tapering @10% a month followed by 2 week hold Link to comment
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