DebM Posted December 3, 2021 Share Posted December 3, 2021 1). The literature on antidepressants is daunting. I can only read or watch information in manageable segments. It is almost always on my mind. My worst fear thoughts in low moments, after several decades “can I get off?” What positive experiences or feedback, tips, does anyone have to grow BIG hope and stay inspired. I'm scared reading so much and I am seeking hope. Moments of hope. Windows of hope. I found some in the recovery stories... What do any of you do to build hope. Can we as a community share, or ??? I talk to myself and pray for a miracle, (I am strong, I am resilient, I am healthy, I am healed) take baths, I try to laugh, I try to walk, I take cold showers to build endorphins. Today I am sad. I tell myself it is variable. The feeling will come and go. 2). I am so angry at the evidence that has been present for 30 years. Is there any group that is pursuing a class action suit against pharmaceutical companies? I know there was a suit over oxycodone I believe? I know it is unhealthy to hang onto anger, but I am at times angry. I want to blow the lies wide open . . . I already tell everyone I can as it is. 3). I am very grateful for feedback not to updose to my 5mg!!! Thank you Kiasofia and CheesieCat!! I feel sedated on only going up to 4mg. Lexapro is crazy! All I think of is the next time I can titrate down as my brain and body do not feel normal. In August I felt good and I was so close to being off. I just want my brain back, the tinnitus to stop. Sedated feeling to go. I have to FIGHT to do most things. I talk to myself and pray for a miracle, I take baths, I try to laugh, I try to walk, I take cold showers to build endorphins. What would you define as stable? I always feel unwell currently from significant side-effects this time. Pain is somewhat variable and subjective. Tuesday I was worried about withdrawal. Now I am feeling zonked. I am grateful to feel better but so confused with the instability of feeling stable physically? I feel like I’m a science experiment. I am struggling today and I’m just trying to put together hope and a map. May we all heal. May we all be well. May we all be at peace. I guess I will add may we all believe we will heal. Deb DebM 20 years Pamelor 20mg 2017 began titration / 2019 off Pamelor 2017 due to discontinuation syndrome (DS) prior to taper -Lexapro 5mg added 2019 Began titration Lexapro 2021 Lexapro .7mg DS 2021 Lexapro 10/5/21 5mg 2021 Remeron 15mg 10/11/21 added due to severe DS 2021 Lexapro 11/15/21 taper started-4mg Lexapro; 15 mg Remeron 2021 Lexapro 11/15/21 taper error and 3.6mg; 15mg Remeron 2021 Lexapro 11/29/21 4mg Lexapro; 15mg Remeron Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted December 3, 2021 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 3, 2021 best-of-sa-favourite-advice-and-insights * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DebM Posted December 3, 2021 Author Share Posted December 3, 2021 Thank you ChessieCat! I have to take it one day at a time. A bit less anxious. DebM 20 years Pamelor 20mg 2017 began titration / 2019 off Pamelor 2017 due to discontinuation syndrome (DS) prior to taper -Lexapro 5mg added 2019 Began titration Lexapro 2021 Lexapro .7mg DS 2021 Lexapro 10/5/21 5mg 2021 Remeron 15mg 10/11/21 added due to severe DS 2021 Lexapro 11/15/21 taper started-4mg Lexapro; 15 mg Remeron 2021 Lexapro 11/15/21 taper error and 3.6mg; 15mg Remeron 2021 Lexapro 11/29/21 4mg Lexapro; 15mg Remeron Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted December 3, 2021 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 3, 2021 There are some real gems in that topic. 1 * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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