Werewolves1986: attempting to wean off of Celexa

[Tweed9674]

46 minutes ago, Werewolves1986 said:

Just to check as well, last week I had multiple breakdowns where I was sobbing and rocking on the floor uncontrollably followed by rage nueroemotions. Is. this normal in WD? 

 

I had a similar experience during acute withdrawal. The rage was unbearable. It did get better with time. Now i'm irritable and I cry for almost nothing but it's nowhere as bad as it was a few months ago.

[FireflyFyte]

6 hours ago, Werewolves1986 said:

The emotional pain is unexplainable.  Just to check as well, last week I had multiple breakdowns where I was sobbing and rocking on the floor uncontrollably followed by rage nueroemotions. Is. this normal in WD? 

 

Yes, extreme emotions can be a part of withdrawal. 

 

Since you are already in therapy, it might be helpful to talk to your therapist about strategies geared towards addressing your emotions. Some members have found DBT to be helpful.

[Boges11]

The rocking and crying is akathisia. It’s awful and I am so so sorry. 
hang in there , take warm showers if helpful , walk or pace if that helps, it’s truly the worst snd I’m struggling with it at almost my full dose. So I know how you feel and I am so so sorry.

talk it out yell into a pillow, scream in the car, hit your pillow on the bed, anything to get it all out safely. It is truly the worst of the experience and people not having it don’t understand how awful it is.

hugs and hoping it goes soon for you. 

[Werewolves1986]

10 month update...windows are getting longer yet waves are still there...still experiencing severe SI, self-harm, rage, weird head sensations particularly in the left side of my head, and some other symptoms. Concerned about my SI as I have almost started to follow through with some plans. Not sure if this is WD or true depression. Not sure how long I wait to see if depression dissipates before resigning myself to taking medication. 

[Boges11]

Please reach out to Angie peacock, Dan Landeur, Michael Priebe, Emma Saunders…. One of these coaches as they’ve heard and seen it all and can give you feedback and if you need more support to get thru this acute hell.

 

promise it’s likely med withdrawal stuff and a huge huge deal your windows are getting longer. That’s a good sign and shows what full time feeling well on the other side of this will be. 
keep reaching out!!! Don’t follow thru, this is med crap that does end. You deserve to see the other side of this and your brain and body are working hard to get there, the windows are showin that.

 

I’ve been there and self harmed and it’s not what we want….we just want the suffering to end and it will, everyone that came before us has said it does.

so pleas keep just taking the day and focusing on that day only and what you can do to get thru it and befor you know it you’ll be a year off which is a huge milestone and have more healing under your belt.

hugs 

[Werewolves1986]

16 hours ago, Boges11 said:

Please reach out to Angie peacock, Dan Landeur, Michael Priebe, Emma Saunders…. One of these coaches as they’ve heard and seen it all and can give you feedback and if you need more support to get thru this acute hell.

 

promise it’s likely med withdrawal stuff and a huge huge deal your windows are getting longer. That’s a good sign and shows what full time feeling well on the other side of this will be. 
keep reaching out!!! Don’t follow thru, this is med crap that does end. You deserve to see the other side of this and your brain and body are working hard to get there, the windows are showin that.

 

I’ve been there and self harmed and it’s not what we want….we just want the suffering to end and it will, everyone that came before us has said it does.

so pleas keep just taking the day and focusing on that day only and what you can do to get thru it and befor you know it you’ll be a year off which is a huge milestone and have more healing under your belt.

hugs 

Thank you for replying, that means a lot. I just hope I can keep going. I do attend Angie's online groups once a week/every other week. I did reinstate 1mg last March due to severe fatigue and derealization. I am attempting to hold until I feel ready to try to taper down slowly. Feeling slightly better today after a day of sleep.

[FireflyFyte]

On 6/8/2024 at 7:08 PM, Werewolves1986 said:

Not sure how long I wait to see if depression dissipates before resigning myself to taking medication. 

 

Can you track and post a log of your symptoms and when you take your medication? 

[Werewolves1986]

On 6/10/2024 at 9:36 AM, FireflyFyte said:

 

Can you track and post a log of your symptoms and when you take your medication? 

I can try do that. I am not very organized but can do that. 11 month update...continuing to experience SI but not as prevalent and severe as last month, lessening of crying spells yet still there, continue to have tardive dyskenesia (facial tics) and weird head sensations, continue to have nightmares, still low stress tolerance, attempted to go on a trip and had to cancel due to feeling overwhelmed by being in a city. Continuing to hold 1mg, will continue hold until next year or later this fall before I attempt to taper. I would say I am 65 - 70% me. Will continue to update for myself and others who are struggling. 

Edited July 8 by Werewolves1986
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[Werewolves1986]

Also, not sure where else or to who else to ask this as I have no one in my life who understands or is going through this but I am supposed to go to Brooklyn NY second half of August to pet sit and given my recent experience, am having serious doubts about me traveling especially to that stressful of a city. Any thoughts, input, advice? 

[Werewolves1986]

Update...I am really struggling with self-harm, is this normal in WD? Lately I have been punching myself in the head, tying a belt around my neck, and "stabbing" myself with a knife lightly, but still doing it. I am very ashamed and embarrassed of this behavior but I don't have anyone to talk to about this besides this board. I am really struggling to discern if this is wd or if I am seriously mentally ill.  Thanks to anyone who replies.