Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted September 23, 2013 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 23, 2013 I'm not quite a full success story yet but I feel so much brighter and more alive since starting my taper. It's been a bit rocky the last few months but there's been a lot of stress which has affected me badly and worsened withdrawal. The last few weeks though have been much better and I just want to share what happened today. I went out for lunch with my daughter and grandaughter. When they dropped me off there was an old friend stood nearby. I waved to her and beckoned her over but she just stood there staring at me like I was demented or something. When she did come over she was amazed and said she didn't recognise me! Said I look brighter and much younger, more like my old self and when we were having a cuppa she said she couldn't believe the change in me, I could hold a conversation and wasn't struggling to find words. We knew each other when we were young, then my family and I moved here 20 years ago . She moved here too after we'd been here 10 years. Before she arrived I started on effexor and just wasn't the person she knew before. It was brilliant to hear her say that, I haven't seen her for around 6 months and withdrawing last time I saw her. She isn't the first person to say that but others have seen a gradual improvement, for her it was quite a shock! I feel great right now, it's made it all worth it. Now I am sure that one day soon mine will be a complete success story. **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nikki Posted September 23, 2013 Share Posted September 23, 2013 That was soooo good to hear. Both from you relating the story and for you to hear that from your friend. MP there is a difference in how we look. During tapers I don't look my best and when on some of these meds my face was puffy. You said that in the last few months there were stressors. Stress affects everything, particularly during a taper (neuro-emotions). You sound like you have come out the other side. Very happy for you Intro: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1902-nikki-hi-my-rundown-with-ads/ Paxil 1997-2004 Crossed over to Lexapro Paxil not available at Pharmacies GSK halted deliveries Lexapro 40mgs Lexapro taper (2years) Imipramine Imipramine and Celexa Now Nefazadone/Imipramine 50mgs. each 45mgs. Serzone 50mgs. Imipramine Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus Jemima Posted September 23, 2013 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 23, 2013 Great news! Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's RazorIntroduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/ Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zoe Posted September 23, 2013 Share Posted September 23, 2013 Wonderful!!! Jan. 1994 Pamelor 2000 switched to Zoloft 2011 Zoloft pooped out- Dr. switched me directly to Lexapro15mg -had a horrible 6mths 2013 upped Lexapro to 20 mgs-pooped out June 2013 Dr. added 150 Wellbutrin to Lexapro. July 2013 Switched back to Zoloft 100mgs.Was still taking Wellbutrin. Lots of anxiety from the Wellbutrin July 2013 Started to wean Wellbutrin- off by Sept. Oct. 2013 added 400 mgs of Neurotin to the Zoloft Jan 2014 Tapered off of the Zoloft and onto Prozac 30 mgs. Also still taking 400 mgs Neurotin Feb 2014 Reduced Prozac to 13 mgs. Still taking 400 mgs Neurotin Aug. 2014 Prozac 13 mgs. Finished with Neurotin. .7 Risperadol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tulalip Posted September 26, 2013 Share Posted September 26, 2013 Fantastic! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lexicon Posted September 26, 2013 Share Posted September 26, 2013 Praying for you to get to the finish line, dear mammap .. Congratulations for your wonderful success .. Love, Lexi Hello, I am tapering Lorazepam, and my daily dose is 1.125 mgs. I followed a long hold for 5 months, ( Nov-March 2019) hoping to find some stability, but it did not work. So I resumed my taper and hold pattern. For the last 3 years, I have been using a daily microtaper, cutting .001mgs per day, with holds as needed. Symptoms are head pressure, labored breathing, palpitations, abrupt surges of dizziness, this being my worst symptom for now, internal tremors, my latest nemesis, unsteadiness, anxiety, plus many other symptoms that cycle in, and cycle out consistently. Not a day passes, without grief I take no other meds. January 2013 - 15 day quick taper off 10 mgs of Lexapro, and 25 mgs of Sertraline, at a detox clinic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted September 27, 2013 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 27, 2013 Thank you everyone, I'm still feeling good! I was invited to lunch with some very dear friends who have been through every step of my med madness with me. They have always been there for me, been to hospital with me, helped out at home and looked after my daughter when I couldn't. Today they also told me that the change in me is remarkable and I am the person they first met 22 years ago. Except for being 22 years older and physically falling apart of course! It's lovely to get those responses. And to see the expressions on some peoples faces when they ask what has made the difference and I tell them it's coming off all psych meds, they are astounded that they made me so sick. I ALWAYS emphasise that it is with my doctors approval and that he has supported me. The last thing I want is for my story to get about and people to stop theirs! Everyone was worried and family were cross when I told them I was tapering, they expected me to relapse in no time and of course I would have if I hadn't tapered slowly. I did it before, many times with many meds, stopped cold turkey, some by the hospital and doctors, some on my own and of course 'relapsed' and went on more. I can't wait to stop that last tiny bead, 1/400th of a capsule, and lift that fugurative 'trophy' above my head! **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
amn Posted October 4, 2013 Share Posted October 4, 2013 Thanks for sharing this I just joined tonight & am feeling pretty hopeless -- even tho I'm trying so hard to remind myself I know this Effexor just needs to get out of my body. I'm happy to be part of this group now. Comforting to know other people know what I'm feeling Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EagleWolf Posted October 5, 2013 Share Posted October 5, 2013 Congratulations MammaP, an uplifting post for those of us tapering. Be well and continue to enjoy your journey to absolute freedom! ~Fear No Man - Protect all Beasts~ Benzo Free! Jumped from 0.25mgs of Valium, having followed the Ashton Protocol all the way down. 2nd May, 2014. So Far, So Good. Avanza Free! Jumped from 2.0mgs on 20th August, 2014. So Far, So Good. Dec 2014, 100% Healed. Feeling wonderful and back to my old self. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus areyouthere Posted October 6, 2013 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 6, 2013 YAY!!!! Must have felt GREAT to actually hear from someone that you look so good!!! A real affirmation I'm sure! We'll have to have a virtual party when that final bead gets tossed!! Congratulations and thanks for sharing...it gives the rest of us true hope! RU Fall 1995 xanax, zoloft. switched to Serzone 1996- spring 2003serzone/ xanax/ lightbox. b]Fall 2003- Fall 2004? Lexapro 10 mg. Light box /4 mg. xanax.[/b] 2004 - Fall of 2009 10 mg Lex, 150 mg Wellbutrin XL % 4 mg xanax November 2009- Sept. 2011 10 mg lex., 300 Well. XL, 4 mg Xanax [/b Sept.2012- July 2012 20 mg Lex 300 Well. XL, 4 mg Xanax My mantra " go slow & with the flow " 3/2/13.. Began equal dosing 5 Xs /day xanax, while simultaneously incorporating a 2.5 % drop ( from 3.5 mg/day to 3.4 mg/day) 4/6/13 dropped from 300 mg. Wellbutrin XL to 150 mg. Difficult but DONE! Down to 3.3 mg xanax/ day / 6/10/13 3 mg xanax/day; 7/15/2013 2.88mg xanax/day. 10/ 1/2013...... 2.5 mg xanax… ( switched to tablets again) WOO HOO!!!!!! Holding here… cont. with Lexapro. 1/ 2/2014.. tapered to 18mg ( by weight) of a 26 mg ( by weight) pill of 20 mg tab. lexapro. goal is 13mg (by weight OR 10 mg by ingredient content) and STOPPED. Feeling very down with unbalanced, unpredictable WD symptoms. 1/2/2014- ??? Taking a brain-healing break from tapering anything after actively tapering something for 1.5 years. So… daily doses as of 2/2/2014: 18 mg by weight Lex, 150 mg Well. XL, 2.5 mg xanax, down from 26 mg by weight Lex., 300 mg well. XL, 4 mg xanax in August, 2012. I'll take it. 5/8/14 started equivalent dose liquid./ tabs. 5/13/14 1.5 % cut. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus mammaP Posted October 7, 2013 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 7, 2013 Glad my success can give hope to others going through this. It has been very scary at times and several times have almost given up and updosed again! I'm so glad I persevered though and yes RU, it was fantastic to hear others tell me they could see the difference. It's been 20 years of hell jumping from one drug to another, lots of times then years of nothingness. I can never find a word that accurately describes that state of existence! It will be about another 3 months before that final bead, I'm not rushing it because it just isn't worth risking a relapse. Then we will PARTY and everyone will be invited, lol. **I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge. Different drugs occasionally (mostly benzos) 1976 - 1981 (no problem) 1993 - 2002 in and out of hospital. every type of drug + ECT. Staring with seroxat 2002 effexor. Tapered March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads. Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013 Restarted taper Nov 2013 OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015 Tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014 Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg July 2017 30mg. May 15 2018 25mg Taking fish oil, magnesium, B12, folic acid, bilberry eyebright for eye pressure. My story http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/4199-hello-mammap-checking-in/page-33 Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MaryKA Posted October 18, 2013 Share Posted October 18, 2013 Super news mammaP! How lovely to be reaffirmed like this! Started citalopram May 12, from 10 to 40 mg/d over 2 months Wanted to come off in May 13 and did it too quickly: decrease from 40 to 0 mg/d over 2 weeks; WD from then onwards, increasing in intensity to be unbearable at 4 weeks later; reinstated 10 mg/d for 2 days (WD severity halved); reinstated 20 mg/d (initial WD symptoms decreased but not gone entirely until after 8 weeks) Started 5--7% taper: Aug 13: 19 mg/d, mild WD on day 3; thereafter none notable; Nov 13: 18 mg/d, no WD; Dec 13: 17 mg/day, no WD for 3 weeks, then (at Christmas) tearfulness; Jan 14: 16.7 mg/d, Apr 14: 15.7 mg/d, Jun 14: 14.5 mg/d; Jul 14: 13.5 mg/d (6.9% reduction), Aug 14: 12.5 mg/d (7.4% reduction) Sharing experience makes a difference Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted January 6, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 6, 2019 Hi there, The staff at SA are wondering how you are. We'd love to hear how you are doing now. Would you mind dropping by and giving an update? Thanks. CC * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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