shawny Posted August 2, 2019 Share Posted August 2, 2019 @Leo1983 : bein a parent is always bein a 3 rd or 7th doesn’t matter !!! how long u had tinnitus ? And what u mean by low ! Sept 28 : nov 10 amitriptyline 10 mg no history of drugs in past symptoms mild grainy vision , visual snow tinnitus dizziness floters difficult in focusin muscle pain Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted August 2, 2019 Author Share Posted August 2, 2019 (edited) My 3rd and last Son. No more! lol. I have had T for about 4 years. When i first got it it caused me massive fear, anxiety, calls to drs etc etc. I cud not cope it was hell. I dont know it just dsnt botha me now..Its there in the background but thats it. Bit like a ticking clock its stops making you ill. Just a time thing. Edited August 2, 2019 by ChessieCat removed blasphemy May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Tweet Posted August 5, 2019 Share Posted August 5, 2019 Hey, Leo. So glad you are doing so well! I am about 14 months off of Prozac which I was on for over 20 years. I am in a cycle of high anxiety for several days and then an emotional breakdown(exhaustion) and then a couple of days where I feel totally normal. Does this sound familiar to you? I am interested in knowing just how the anxiety left you. Same intensity, but fewer days in a row? Or same number of days, but a lowering of the intensity. Or how? I feel so close to the finish line here, but the only obstacle is this anxiety. Thanks for any help you can give me. It has been a long run kicking the poison, and I am ready to cross that finish line just like you did. (Awesome, Leo 🏆🥇) This is the best of my recollection. 20 mg Prozac 3-4 days per week from 1994 until May 2018. Beginning May 15 I began to drop doses. I dropped 1 dose per week for the next 4 weeks. It was not systematic at all. I don't have which days I took what. so the week of May 13 I took 4 doses, which was pretty normal for me. Then the week of May 20 I took 3 doses 20 mg. The week of May 27 I took 3 doses 20 mg. The 1st week in June l took 2 doses 20 mg. The week of June 10, 2018 was my last dose 20 mg. I had been on Prozac only for over 20 years. No other medications. Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted August 5, 2019 Author Share Posted August 5, 2019 Tweet i will get back to you soon May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted August 5, 2019 Author Share Posted August 5, 2019 @Tweet Hi. Wow 20 years is along time. Your doing well to stay the course and hang in. Just keep going! The anxiety in wd is on another level to normal anxiety. My CT lead me to anxiety that i can not explain. I was left housebound, scared of my own family visiting, god i was even scared of myself. I could not walk in my street or visit shops nothing. Well i could but it was panic panic panic. I feel i followed the constant misery for 7-8 month pattern, were i never felt much changed. Then i guess from there i have had the windows and waves pattern. The anxiety has never returned to baseline! Not yet! However, it has reduced 50%. I go out places, i shop, i go for meals, i see family, i go to events. HOWEVER i still feel that anxiety! Its just more manageable. I still wake with anxiety however, i dont wake feeling like i have been plugged into a socket. The answer is i have bad days, goodish days and some very good days were i feel myself. The waves hit but dont cripple me now. I spend alot of time in WD normal. Sort of still feel rubbish but i manage. There will be some chemical anxiety, some normal anxiety and possibly some trauma based anxiety i would think in recovery from the horrific ordeal. some things that help me. 1. I accept the way i feel daily. 2. i challenge myself daily. 3. i trust the success stories and information i have gathered. 4. I try to focus away from wd as much as possible. 5. I try not to look for reassurance, as it is a temporary relief however, shortly after the anxiety returns stronger. I refer to this as pouring water through a net. I think its also important not to blame EVERYTHING on wd. Keep surfing those waves! Lee May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Tweet Posted August 6, 2019 Share Posted August 6, 2019 Thanks, Leo. That was a quick reply, and I appreciate it. I am basically a CT too, so I guess this super-anxiety is just part of the deal. My big goal is not to blame anyone or anything for it. I am so used to having anxiety BECAUSE of something. This is high anxiety looking for a cause! I will surely try your 5 tips.. Thanks again This is the best of my recollection. 20 mg Prozac 3-4 days per week from 1994 until May 2018. Beginning May 15 I began to drop doses. I dropped 1 dose per week for the next 4 weeks. It was not systematic at all. I don't have which days I took what. so the week of May 13 I took 4 doses, which was pretty normal for me. Then the week of May 20 I took 3 doses 20 mg. The week of May 27 I took 3 doses 20 mg. The 1st week in June l took 2 doses 20 mg. The week of June 10, 2018 was my last dose 20 mg. I had been on Prozac only for over 20 years. No other medications. Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted August 6, 2019 Author Share Posted August 6, 2019 Your welcome. Also write down all the symptoms you have. Then put a tick next to the ones you have always had and then put a cross next to the ones you got when you CT the drug. Make a list of all the symptoms you got from withdrawal and then you can tell yourself these are wd symptoms and because everyone recovers ' I WILL TOO EVENTUALLY"and all these symptoms will leave when there ready. 💪👍 May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted August 7, 2019 Author Share Posted August 7, 2019 Just wanted to ask some opinions. Alcohol in withdrawal?????? It appears to make me IF i drink feel alot like my old self. Then for a few days afterwards i feel more normal.... However after 2-3 days i feel like crap again....... Any views? Also views of alcohol in general? Thanks Lee. May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus eymen23 Posted August 7, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 7, 2019 How often are you drinking Leo? How much at a time? It’s well established here that it can trigger waves, especially when consumed in excess or frequently. I have the very occasional evening of 2-3 drinks and I find a similar pattern to you. Overall, I find it somewhat harmful in regards to withdrawal symptoms, but at events like my best friend’s wedding or my sister’s graduation, I will drink 2-3 beers and bear the minor set back. As with most things, your mileage may vary and it would be best to avoid alcohol if it triggers waves. PLEASE NOTE: I am not a medical professional. I can only provide information and make suggestions. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted August 7, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 7, 2019 On 4/25/2016 at 3:29 AM, Shep said: alcohol also acts on GABA receptors just like benzos. * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted August 7, 2019 Author Share Posted August 7, 2019 I have drank for 12 years sometimes lightly, sometimes moderate, sometimes heavy! However until tablets i never had anything near this level of discomfort..However i did question at times is drink making me bad before tablets. I know hell started when i stopped meds however the pattern i have just explained sometimes i question "why is the drink making me feel better for a few days"? Then back to hell? "Is it all AD withdrawal? May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted August 7, 2019 Author Share Posted August 7, 2019 I also have friends and family who have drank for years and dont feel the way i do. so is it withdrawal and im looking for answers. May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus eymen23 Posted August 7, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 7, 2019 (edited) 23 minutes ago, Leo1983 said: I also have friends and family who have drank for years and dont feel the way i do. so is it withdrawal and im looking for answers. Leo, Given your cold turkey from Escitalopram and subsequent struggles with withdrawal syndrome, I think it’s very reasonable to presume the issues you now find with alcohol are due to nervous system sensitivity. I would seriously consider cutting back the alcohol until things ease up. Edited August 7, 2019 by eymen23 PLEASE NOTE: I am not a medical professional. I can only provide information and make suggestions. Link to comment
Moderator hayduke Posted August 8, 2019 Moderator Share Posted August 8, 2019 Aye, I was raised to drink and have done a lot of work to moderate that. While working through my trauma issues has substantially eased my drive to drink to excess I still knock back a fair bit. More to do there. I have definitely noticed that the sensitised nervous system from withdrawals will sometimes amplify the after-effects of the grog quite a lot. The other night I had just one scotch after yoga and felt nausea from it the next morning. It would usually take several. I'll still have a few beers here and there, unfortunately it's difficult to socialise in Australia without having alcohol in the picture. Best to try and minimise it, alternate drinks with glasses of water, know when to stop. I'm a big believer in getting at the root causes, makes changing habits a lot easier. All the best. I am not a health professional - your actions are your own. Please do not seek tapering support via private message - "Any reason to hold is a good one" My taper visualised as a graph | My intro thread Backdrop: 2003 10mg olanzapine | 2004 2-3mg risperidone | end 2014 3wks aripiprazole 2015: olanzapine 10 -> 7½ -> 6⅔ -> 5mg by crude pill cutter 2018: Mar 5.00mg -> water titrated taper -> Aug2.5mg tablet and hold Jan 2019 2.50mg water titration -> Jan 2020 1.214 -> Jan 2021 0.44 -> 2 Oct 0.205 ->3 Oct ZERO🥂 Jun 2023 💉150mg paliperidone "loading" depot shot, 100mg 1wk after Jul 100mg Aug-Dec 75mg/4wks Jul 2023 2.50mg aripiprazole/day attempt to lower prolactin^ Jan-Feb 2024 cross taper off shots to 1mg risperidone Ask not what you can do for your country, but what your country did to you" -- KMFDM Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted August 9, 2019 Author Share Posted August 9, 2019 This is the 1 i wanted oops May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Sadboy Posted August 11, 2019 Share Posted August 11, 2019 On 8/7/2019 at 10:12 PM, Leo1983 said: Just wanted to ask some opinions. Alcohol in withdrawal?????? It appears to make me IF i drink feel alot like my old self. Then for a few days afterwards i feel more normal.... However after 2-3 days i feel like crap again....... Any views? Also views of alcohol in general? Thanks Lee. Bro this has to do with neurosteroids. Alcohol activates hormones in the brain etc. Lots of people on the PSSD forum encounter this too. Alcohol causing windows etc. There can be a lot of reasons why. Raising glutamate, raising allopregnalone etc etc. Alcohol even inhibits the methylation cycle, which means it decreases silencing of genes for a short period (which is know to happen during withdrawal) Used zoloft for 5 months. Started with 25mg, upped to 50 and finished with 75mg. Tapered in one month time. Finished taper at 15/04/2018 Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted September 1, 2019 Author Share Posted September 1, 2019 Much respect to everyone going through this. Im seeing big changes..... Im still not well..... BUT im on holiday like i used to be chatting away and been ME. I remember lying in a bedroom heart pounding, head damaged, scared stiff for nothing, burning arms omg i have just filled up!! Keep going! at 9 month out i got worse???? worse? we get better?? Nope! its strange recovery. Im guna help change this mess in the world! May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted September 1, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 1, 2019 9 minutes ago, Leo1983 said: BUT im on holiday like i used to be chatting away and been ME. That is great news, Leo1983. 10 minutes ago, Leo1983 said: at 9 month out i got worse???? This is very common 9 to 10 months out. Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotics, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted September 5, 2019 Author Share Posted September 5, 2019 Hi Does anyone know about withdrawal and sun? Does sun make you feel worse? Thanks Lee May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted September 5, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 5, 2019 Anything is possible in withdrawal because of how sensitive we might be. And it might not be just the sun but the brightness, temperature and the sun in any combination. Also if you being active that would be another thing to throw into the mix. And loud noises if any. * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Kronos18 Posted September 6, 2019 Share Posted September 6, 2019 On 9/1/2019 at 8:29 PM, Leo1983 said: Much respect to everyone going through this. Im seeing big changes..... Im still not well..... BUT im on holiday like i used to be chatting away and been ME. I remember lying in a bedroom heart pounding, head damaged, scared stiff for nothing, burning arms omg i have just filled up!! Keep going! at 9 month out i got worse???? worse? we get better?? Nope! its strange recovery. Im guna help change this mess in the world! Friend, you made my day with this post.Even when it feels like it will never end, I believe it will someday, somehow.I’m glad that you’re seeing a big lot of changes, the best is yet to come.Overcoming this will be the hardest thing ever done in my opinion, but it will come to an end. Enjoy your good days brother, you deserve them. Adrian. Lorazepam -2 weeks-1 week 3 mg.4 days 2mg, 3 days 1mg. 13-27 November 2018 Lexapro -2 months-6 weeks of 10mg, 2 weeks of 5mg 27 November 2018-27 January 2019 Link to comment
Giulietta Posted September 16, 2019 Share Posted September 16, 2019 On 9/15/2019 at 4:06 PM, Leo1983 said: I had all that..... BUT i just cant write a success story. I have gone from Si housebound to doing all sorts BUT i still dont feel me. Therefore i refuse to write success. Hello Leo1983 Saw your note and wanted to say I understand. So many of the WD symptoms are debilitating for many of us and I am one. I wish I had never put one of these damned pills in my mouth. I see you stopped in June 2018. I stopped about then (duloxetine 20 mg) - per MD advise - then started with symptoms I never had. Back on the drug in September - and started what I thought was a taper (on a damned liquid!) - but seems likely CT. I have had miserable WD since then - essentially since June 2018.... Guilietta Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted September 17, 2019 Author Share Posted September 17, 2019 2 hours ago, Guilietta said: Hello Leo1983 Saw your note and wanted to say I understand. So many of the WD symptoms are debilitating for many of us and I am one. I wish I had never put one of these damned pills in my mouth. I see you stopped in June 2018. I stopped about then (duloxetine 20 mg) - per MD advise - then started with symptoms I never had. Back on the drug in September - and started what I thought was a taper (on a damned liquid!) - but seems likely CT. I have had miserable WD since then - essentially since June 2018.... Guilietta Hi. Yes - I was soo unwell back then. Now i am alot better. However still not the old me. I still feel Anhedonia, anxiety at times and some head pressure. I have little acute symptoms now. I go about my day, i travel, visit people and even socialise with people again ( Im still careful were i go ). So im improving! Just not were i would call success. You may call it May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted September 17, 2019 Author Share Posted September 17, 2019 a partial success story. May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Giulietta Posted September 17, 2019 Share Posted September 17, 2019 11 hours ago, Leo1983 said: a partial success story. Hi Leo This is an excellent way to look at your situation - the progress you have made and the healing that has taken place. We can all support each other - and remembering to love ourselves and what we are accomplishing is amazing. I am also apprehensive where I travel (and I do not travel many places because of this). Vacations are out of the question for now. Rosetta - a fellow recoverer - has traveled to Spain. She is quite brave. Guilietta Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted November 9, 2019 Author Share Posted November 9, 2019 Hi @Altostrata i was just wondering, did you have head pressure, high anxiety, Anhedonia, social issues, insomnia etc etc you understand the symptoms that everyone talks about.... My question is everyones question.... Did this all go away and are you now living a full life again. What better than a success from the site founder. Hope your well. May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted November 9, 2019 Administrator Share Posted November 9, 2019 I had every withdrawal symptom in the book, and then some, except nausea. It took me 11 years to recover. I am recovered, but 11 years older. 1 This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted November 9, 2019 Author Share Posted November 9, 2019 Thankyou for your reply. could i ask did your mental symptoms take 11 year ? or was it physical? or both. May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted November 9, 2019 Administrator Share Posted November 9, 2019 All symptoms. They changed and mutated, as usual. 1 This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted November 9, 2019 Author Share Posted November 9, 2019 Thats a long time! BUT you got there. Well done. I think those posts will help people. Take Care. 1 May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted November 11, 2019 Author Share Posted November 11, 2019 Hey Well i think im in a wave. I have been doing fairly well however this past week or so i have dipped. Im familiar with the symptoms. Is this possible to be smacked with a wave 17 month out.. I know the drill but im actually quite sick of this whole thing tbh. If i didnt know what it was i would be saying " Im Bi Polar ". biggest symptom is anxiety mainly mornings.. i am also back to thinking i will loose my job, will i get better etc etc. May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
clarknova Posted November 11, 2019 Share Posted November 11, 2019 10 minutes ago, Leo1983 said: Hey Well i think im in a wave. I have been doing fairly well however this past week or so i have dipped. Im familiar with the symptoms. Is this possible to be smacked with a wave 17 month out.. I know the drill but im actually quite sick of this whole thing tbh. If i didnt know what it was i would be saying " Im Bi Polar ". biggest symptom is anxiety mainly mornings.. i am also back to thinking i will loose my job, will i get better etc etc. Leo, you are describing my exact thoughts these past few weeks. I am 14 months out. My wave started about three months ago, triggered by stress at work. It's had all these smaller waves within it. Wild mood swings, morning anxiety, and all the thoughts you are describing; I will lose my job, I will have to go back on meds for the rest of my life, I am probably bi-polar... It's horrible I know, but there have been good days in between, days of relief, days when I actually feel more like myself and more alive than I did while medicated, and it reminds me why I'm doing this. I want to feel like myself, good or bad. I had two good days last week and I reminded myself to enjoy them and be thankful. I know some fresh hell is in the mail, so I don't take them for granted. So I'm right there with you Leo. Medication free since september 2018 2004 - 2007 - 10 mg Cipralex 2010 - 2014 - 10 mg Cipralex 2015 - April 2018 - 10 mg Cipralex. FT. June 2018 - September 2018 - 10 mg Cipralex. FT. Occasional Oxazepam when anxiety gets too bad. Supp: Omega 3 fish oil, 350mg Magnesium Link to comment
Bonesy44 Posted November 23, 2019 Share Posted November 23, 2019 Hey Leo I know how you feel. I am almost 17 months since my CT as well and I just slammed with a level of anxiety and panic that I havent seen since the very beginning days. Its very discouraging to say the least. It surely feels like this is never going to end and this is basically how I will be for the rest of my days. I was doing very well just last week. All because I got sick I have sunk to the beginning. I hope your feeling better since you last posted! Cipralex (escitalopram) for 4.5 years 5mg/day Decided to just stop cold turkey one day Last dose July 10th, 2018 Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted November 29, 2019 Author Share Posted November 29, 2019 Well i want to share. I have been unwell with Iatrogenic illness for 16 months now following a CT from my GP and local MH Trust....... I work as a Psychiatric nurse and have needed restricted duties at work in order for me to go to work and function. I know you all are thinking how the hell do you function. They have supported me for 12 month of the 16 in some respect. However they have never really understood my situation and the agony of this syndrome. They are now taking me through the sickness ranks and having formal HR meetings etc. They remain supportive however they still have a pull yourself together attitude. Thats a mental health employer and the UK government. What chance do we have? hmmmmm 1 May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted December 25, 2019 Author Share Posted December 25, 2019 Merry Xmas Everyone. Good luck for healing in 2020. May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
sunnysideup69 Posted December 25, 2019 Share Posted December 25, 2019 1 hour ago, Leo1983 said: Merry Xmas Everyone. Good luck for healing in 2020. Merry Christmas Leo, the same to you. We will get there 😊 January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 100mg Magnesium Glycinate. Tried Vagifem 10mcg from mid May 2021 to mid June 2021; caused depression, so stopped. Link to comment
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