BelaLugosi Posted March 7, 2023 Author Share Posted March 7, 2023 Ok so, I tried to delete the november post because I was so desperate to be understood that I guess I actually sounded like a psychotic person. (But it seems like the forum settings don't allow deleting) Long story short, I did get better of anhedonia and most medication symptoms the first months of 2022, when left all meds, But I'm on meds again, against my own will, and believe my current diagnosis is adulterated and manipulated by my family's conversations with the doctors and they even hospitalized me forcibly. It's hard to explain but they do things covert so I start to have persecutory behaviour and thats what they want the psychiatrist to see. I'm suffering with the same medication symptoms and it pains me even more than having psychos as parents and family. I know it sounds crazy but they are really covert abusive and it's really looking like britney spears conservatorship thing with threats and all that. Talking survivingdepressants main subjects, my libido it's not gone like the first time but my social cognition is really bad and different than when I was younger. Same complaints of the first post My psychologist agrees I'm having PTSD, what could obviously allow the misdiagnosis to keep going. I'm having nightmares, I feel death and destruction weird sensations like before. I'm visualizing I can only feel good again in like 2 years, when I will be financially independent and also out of meds again. I really really really hate losing my passion, joy, personality and emotions. SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted March 7, 2023 Author Share Posted March 7, 2023 I'm coming up with a explanation and realization that the meds mess up with a mechanism that everyone have that is something like a "cognitive reflection" where you irradiate your energy in the world and is always receiving a direct and indirect feedback and reading the ambient but mostly learning your own energy. What do you think SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted March 8, 2023 Author Share Posted March 8, 2023 Hii helloo can someone give this updates a little attention SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
jeffelmexicano Posted March 9, 2023 Share Posted March 9, 2023 16 hours ago, BelaLugosi said: Hii helloo can someone give this updates a little attention Hello bela 2021 - Seroquel 250mg and lorazepam 4,75 mg i was tapering 12,5 mg every 3 weeks and I was fine start tapering 2022 November or December I can remember now im on 187,5 mg Seroquel on hold on January on 187,5mg of Seroquel I skipped a dose of lorazepam of my 3 intakes and enter into wd. im on hold of both meds my dose of lorazepam is still on 4,75mg 03.7.23 Holding both doses May 25, 2023 - lorazepam reduced from 1,34 MG to 1,20 MG at night (total lorazepam: 1.25 morning, 1.25 afternoon, 1.20 mg evening = 3.7 mg), Seroquel still at 187.5 mg June 23 2023 down seroquel to 151 ,8 MG July 7 136 mg seroquel -july28 123 MG seroquel Hold on all meds Down from 1,25 MG to 1,20 MG lorazepam 8 am dose _8.22.23 _ Hold both meds very unstable currently 1,20 MG am 1,25 MG 2 PM 1,20 MG 8 PM 123 MG seroquel 10 pm_ total lorazepam 3,65 MG Link to comment
jeffelmexicano Posted March 9, 2023 Share Posted March 9, 2023 On 3/7/2023 at 5:27 PM, BelaLugosi said: Ok so, I tried to delete the november post because I was so desperate to be understood that I guess I actually sounded like a psychotic person. (But it seems like the forum settings don't allow deleting) Long story short, I did get better of anhedonia and most medication symptoms the first months of 2022, when left all meds, But I'm on meds again, against my own will, and believe my current diagnosis is adulterated and manipulated by my family's conversations with the doctors and they even hospitalized me forcibly. It's hard to explain but they do things covert so I start to have persecutory behaviour and thats what they want the psychiatrist to see. I'm suffering with the same medication symptoms and it pains me even more than having psychos as parents and family. I know it sounds crazy but they are really covert abusive and it's really looking like britney spears conservatorship thing with threats and all that. Talking survivingdepressants main subjects, my libido it's not gone like the first time but my social cognition is really bad and different than when I was younger. Same complaints of the first post My psychologist agrees I'm having PTSD, what could obviously allow the misdiagnosis to keep going. I'm having nightmares, I feel death and destruction weird sensations like before. I'm visualizing I can only feel good again in like 2 years, when I will be financially independent and also out of meds again. I really really really hate losing my passion, joy, personality and emotions. Im sorry you are in this hell i totally understand . Just stop taking Meds ofc tapering off . I think this is more a forum for tapering meds and wd and not so much if you have psychosis and stuff cos ( I guess no one ) gonna tell you to take antipsychotics wirte me in private if you need I can give you my phone or what ever I think you have more chances than I do . I really do still I need to read further your case . I don’t think label in pstd and stuff is good write me if you need also you can write annnn too she’s nice let me know anything 2021 - Seroquel 250mg and lorazepam 4,75 mg i was tapering 12,5 mg every 3 weeks and I was fine start tapering 2022 November or December I can remember now im on 187,5 mg Seroquel on hold on January on 187,5mg of Seroquel I skipped a dose of lorazepam of my 3 intakes and enter into wd. im on hold of both meds my dose of lorazepam is still on 4,75mg 03.7.23 Holding both doses May 25, 2023 - lorazepam reduced from 1,34 MG to 1,20 MG at night (total lorazepam: 1.25 morning, 1.25 afternoon, 1.20 mg evening = 3.7 mg), Seroquel still at 187.5 mg June 23 2023 down seroquel to 151 ,8 MG July 7 136 mg seroquel -july28 123 MG seroquel Hold on all meds Down from 1,25 MG to 1,20 MG lorazepam 8 am dose _8.22.23 _ Hold both meds very unstable currently 1,20 MG am 1,25 MG 2 PM 1,20 MG 8 PM 123 MG seroquel 10 pm_ total lorazepam 3,65 MG Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted March 9, 2023 Moderator Share Posted March 9, 2023 @BelaLugosi Can you please let me know what you need help with? When you post you have a time limit to edit/delete posts. Which post did you want deleted? PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted March 10, 2023 Author Share Posted March 10, 2023 @Frogie i don't know, there's nothing you feel like is necessary or important to be telling me? It's ok I don't wanna delete it anymore.. it can stay for someone who wants to understand it better SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted March 11, 2023 Moderator Share Posted March 11, 2023 @BelaLugosi I’m sorry, I haven’t had time to read your whole page so I was asking what I could help you with? PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted March 11, 2023 Administrator Share Posted March 11, 2023 @BelaLugosi since you're not a minor, you have the right to refuse drugs, unless you are under a court order. Are you under a court order? Do you have control over the drugs you're taking? We provide peer support for going off psychiatric drugs, we're trying to figure out how to help you. If you are being forced to take drugs by a court, you have to work through your assigned doctor and the court system to get your drug regimen changed. 1 This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted March 11, 2023 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 11, 2023 (edited) Hi BelaLugosi, You're getting read. Plans to do more with your Seroquel now or soonish? I'll just copy your signature so I can see it, while responding. SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg Is that a one time dose of quetiapine(Seroquel), or better said when do you take it? Regular actng form or extended? Way back when I was on quetiapine I don't think there was a extended release form. And the highest I went was 400 mg at bedtime. Which........made me feel crappy most of the time. Gave me a weird sleep, after the food cravings hit.........I almost reached for cardboard to chew on, no kidding.......and when I awoke......not at all like myself, took me awhile to come to life. Anyway, if your signature is up to date......that's a lot of Seroquel. That was a year ago though from the way it reads to me. I do see you got it down to 650 mg from 700 mg recently. And again, when you can, if you have the freedom to, it's going to be a 10% taper, or less off each previous dosage. And here's that tapering topic too, for when it is applicable: Tips for tapering off Seroquel(quetiapine) Let us know if you are noticing anything with your recent taper. On 3/7/2023 at 4:28 PM, BelaLugosi said: I'm coming up with a explanation and realization that the meds mess up with a mechanism that everyone have that is something like a "cognitive reflection" where you irradiate your energy in the world and is always receiving a direct and indirect feedback and reading the ambient but mostly learning your own energy. What do you think I think okay to learn ones own energy. If irradiate your energy means your own shine might be muffled. Oh yes......agreed. It's still in there Bela. I just did a notification, so once you sign in, click on it, and it'll take you there. Good tune for all generations for sure. On 3/7/2023 at 1:27 PM, BelaLugosi said: I'm visualizing I can only feel good again in like 2 years, when I will be financially independent and also out of meds again. I really really really hate losing my passion, joy, personality and emotions. I know. There, there. I feel a song coming on and here I'll go put it in off topic and come back and link you to it. Come on, you got this. L, P, H, and G, mmt Edited March 11, 2023 by manymoretodays 1 Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted March 13, 2023 Author Share Posted March 13, 2023 On 3/11/2023 at 7:55 PM, manymoretodays said: Hi BelaLugosi, You're getting read. Plans to do more with your Seroquel now or soonish? I'll just copy your signature so I can see it, while responding. SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg Is that a one time dose of quetiapine(Seroquel), or better said when do you take it? Regular actng form or extended? Way back when I was on quetiapine I don't think there was a extended release form. And the highest I went was 400 mg at bedtime. Which........made me feel crappy most of the time. Gave me a weird sleep, after the food cravings hit.........I almost reached for cardboard to chew on, no kidding.......and when I awoke......not at all like myself, took me awhile to come to life. Anyway, if your signature is up to date......that's a lot of Seroquel. That was a year ago though from the way it reads to me. I do see you got it down to 650 mg from 700 mg recently. And again, when you can, if you have the freedom to, it's going to be a 10% taper, or less off each previous dosage. And here's that tapering topic too, for when it is applicable: Tips for tapering off Seroquel(quetiapine) Let us know if you are noticing anything with your recent taper. I think okay to learn ones own energy. If irradiate your energy means your own shine might be muffled. Oh yes......agreed. It's still in there Bela. I just did a notification, so once you sign in, click on it, and it'll take you there. Good tune for all generations for sure. I know. There, there. I feel a song coming on and here I'll go put it in off topic and come back and link you to it. Come on, you got this. L, P, H, and G, mmt Your words really made me feel better for a while.. this was special thank you Yes I take 200mg extended release by the morning then 450mg bedtime regular release... yes this is third day new dose (less 50mg) because i cried to my psychiatrist, that's less than 10% so hopefully we will keep going and lowering it every appointment till i don't take it anymore SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted March 28, 2023 Author Share Posted March 28, 2023 Man I'm having nightmares EVERY NIGHT. SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted March 29, 2023 Administrator Share Posted March 29, 2023 You may be experiencing a few bumps from reducing your daily quetiapine dose. These should go away in a few days. See Tips for tapering off quetiapine (Seroquel) This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted March 29, 2023 Author Share Posted March 29, 2023 Ok thank you SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted April 5, 2023 Author Share Posted April 5, 2023 Had a significative window last week, felt more present, real and smart. It's gone tho, and the fact of having it then losing it makes me angry. but I guess I have to celebrate omg. I was literally thinking about s****** few weeks ago so SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted April 5, 2023 Author Share Posted April 5, 2023 And just to reiterate, no, I'm not psychotic. YES, it does feel like a horror movie or a britney spears conservatorship story. I'm backed up by my new avaliations tho, I will get out of this horror movie. But it may take a while SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted April 10, 2023 Author Share Posted April 10, 2023 My self esteem is TRASH lately SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
Mentor littlebird Posted April 10, 2023 Mentor Share Posted April 10, 2023 38 minutes ago, BelaLugosi said: My self esteem is TRASH lately Mine too! It's so hard. I've been trying to speak to myself in kinder ways, but it's easier said than done. Have you found anything that helps? Pronouns: they/them/theirs Started on Prozac in early 2000s to treat cPTSD, been on various cocktails ever since. 2002-2004, 2017-2022: Buspar, tapered down to 0 2016-present: 100mg Seroquel for sleep -> May 2023: 90mg -> June 2023: 81mg -> September 2023: 72mg -> switched to brand name, much too strong, down to 60mg -> October 2023: 54mg -> November 2023: 50mg -> January 2024: 45mg -> April 2024: 40.5mg 2016-Present: 100mg Wellbutrin SR -> January 2023: 75mg IR (37.5mg 2x a day) -> February 2023 (33.75mg 2x a day) -> July 2023 (30.37mg 2x a day) -> August 2023: 27.33mg 2x a day 2018-present: 25mg Pristiq 2015-present: 600mg Gabapentin (200mg 3x a day) -> December 2022: 300mg Gabapentin (100mg 3x a day) per GP's recommendation after side effects -> March 2023: 90mg 3x a day (switched to liquid suspension) -> April 2023: 81mg 3x a day -> September 2023: bad generic, switched back to homemade liquid; too strong after bad generic, down to 70mg 3x a day, still bad. Adjusted slowly till at 60mg 3x a day, much better. Long hold till -> December 2023: 54mg, still feels too high after November Seroquel switch from brand name to generic, doc recommended 50mg which feels better -> January 2024: When Wellbutrin went down, Gabapentin started putting me to sleep, went down to 45mg, then 41mg to stay awake, so far so good -> February 2024: 36mg, still too high, 34mg -> March 2024: 31mg, STILL too high, 30mg Supplements: Multivitamin w/magnesium, probiotics, digestive enzymes, anti-viral nitric oxide nose spray as needed Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted April 11, 2023 Administrator Share Posted April 11, 2023 Withdrawal hits our psyches at the weak spots. Work on this, and you'll come out of the ordeal a lot stronger. 1 This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted April 12, 2023 Author Share Posted April 12, 2023 thank you @Altostrata. @littlebird I'm so ******* codependent of my bf right now I don't even know. I guess that's the best I can do right now SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted April 21, 2023 Author Share Posted April 21, 2023 Update: I'm having a numbness in the skin of my right leg, since last sunday (5 days now). Really weird. My psychologist is worried. The psychiatrist is not so worried. I guess I'll have to go to a neurologist? Also lowered my dose from 650 to 600 yesterday. Also my thoughts are really weird, I feel like I'm finally going crazy after my psychopatic family saying I'm crazy so many times. Sometimes I am worried that all the anedhonia is actually trauma and ptsd and not medicine but I don't think like that most of the time. I'm usually confident that I need to stop this meds SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted May 12, 2023 Author Share Posted May 12, 2023 Almost a whole month with this weeeeird numbness! I felt pain the first time in both legs yesterday. I wasn't feeling any pain before. It's a kind of pain i've never felt before, it's not muscular. So it's probably a vascular problem. But i'm skinny and young, no motive for it, thats ***** up.. Reduced my dose again, 600 to 550 saying to the psychiatrisc I NEEEED to stop the meds but he wouldn't accept to make the 10% every 2 weeks plan of action with me. I need him to agree with me and can't do it without his support.. mostly because of my family Had some little bit of windows tho the last days in my new internship.. now I have a good motive to stay away narcisisistic parents until I make my own money.. also night terrors got better.. thank God. I pray a lot too SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted May 21, 2023 Author Share Posted May 21, 2023 Update.. my leg numbness got better. But emotionally tho... I'm a wreck I can't stand it anymore. It's nor the first, neither the second, or third time my mother says something to me that reveals that shes been listening to my private conversations, I don't know how, dont know if she hacked my phone or has cameras in the apartment. I can't tell anyone because it sound like a psychotic paranoid thought and I also feel violated and terrible twice, it's a perfect combo to make you wish you were dead. Whenever she talk to me or call I appear calm but then I turn off the phone and cry and scream really loud and feel like dying. It's vile. Malevolant. That's evil for the sake of evil. Or, this is kind of a plan that I incriminate myself before I get better and leave this place. My life is in pieces. Me and my boyfriend fight a lot too. Don't know if I'll be able to make it. Looking forward to lower my dose more 50mg in this friday appointment but not even this is certain I'm so strong for still being here man SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted May 26, 2023 Author Share Posted May 26, 2023 I promise to get my first tattoo if it really really get better after I go off all meds SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted May 26, 2023 Author Share Posted May 26, 2023 I promise to get my first tattoo if it really really get better after I go off all SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
Lorenzo Posted June 21, 2023 Share Posted June 21, 2023 Hello, Wrote on the search engine 'lost sense of reality' and you came up ( just finding comfort in other peoples suffering, another way of saying happy im not the only one, or am I?). Read your introduction and it was tempting. Don't know how many times I've written this message but thats my day to day. Everything I do feels like I've done it before. Makes life seem fake, untrue, artificial, Alice in wonderland. For me the upside to that story is that she knew she was in a different place, I dont. Feel caged in a closed time loop and hoping for a way out. I hope back to my Creator. It's been a long journey for me and I'm tired. I'm still here and pushed forward by God and He only knows why. I'll be around until God calls me. Thank you for your introduction and may you recover God willingly. Either way it is not without purpose. Take care and God bless you. P.S. Suggest you read the poem called 'The Book of Thel' by William Blake if you want to. 1 Drug History 2010-2021: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/26066-lorenzo-taper-off-all-psychiatric-drugs/?do=findComment&comment=565117 Since August 2021: Escitalopram: Morning (01 August 2021 / 15mg) (03 April 2022 / 13.333mg) (03 May 2022 / 11.667mg) (01 June 2022 / 10mg) (01 July 2023 / 9mg) ( 14 July 2023 / 8mg) ( 30 July 2023 / 7mg) (13 August 2023 / 6mg) (27 August 2023 / 5mg) Valium: (August 2021/ 10mg) ( July 2022 / 15mg) ( 18 June 2023 / Gradual increase to 30mg) Zyprexa: Night (Begining of September 2021 / 4.375mg) (Begining of October 2021 / 3.75mg) (Begining of November 2021 / 3.437mg) (Begining of December 2021 / 3.125mg) (27 December 2021 / 2.812mg) (04 February 2022 / 2.5mg) (03 July 2022 / 2.25mg) ( 03 August 2022 / 2mg) (03 September 2022 / 1.8mg) ( 01 October 2022 / 1.6mg) ( 31 Octubre 2022 / 1.45mg) ( 29 November 2022 / 1.3mg) (29 December 2022 / 1.15mg) ( 29 January 2023 / 1.035mg) ( 21 February 2023 / 0.931mg) (16 March 2023 / 0.838mg) ( 10 April 2023 / 0.754mg) ( 03 May 2023 / 0.679mg) ( 25 May 2023 / 0.617mg) ( 18 Jun 2023 / 0.6mg) ( 07 September 2023 / 5mg) (30 September 2023 / 0.45mg) (22 October 2023 / 0.375mg) (11 November 2023 / 0.3mg)( 02 December 2023 / 0.24mg) (22 December 2023 / 0.19mg) (11 January 2024 / 0.15mg) ( 03 February 2024 / 0.12mg) ( 27 March 2024 / 0 mg) Supplements: Valeriana/Melatonine 2-4mg (night) (01 February 2023 / 0mg supplements) ( 01 June 2023 / Belladonna 15CH, Cannabis Indica 15CH, Opium 15CH / Homeopathic Treatment) Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted July 17, 2023 Author Share Posted July 17, 2023 Hi, I have news and some questions! I moved out from my parents apartment this weekend (woohooo) to a coliving And said to them I'm now responsible for my finances This means nobody can even try to force me to take meds. My boyfriend is helping my financially till I get a little better and get a full time job So I am really hoping to get better as I take off my medicine Here are my questions I've always had 200mg gradual release pills in the morning and the rest of the dose before sleep, so it's always more mg at night since it has been always more than 400mg total. How would that be when I start to take less than 400mg total? Should I lower the 200mg morning dose or divide it equally or what? SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted July 17, 2023 Author Share Posted July 17, 2023 @Frogie @Altostrata SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted July 19, 2023 Author Share Posted July 19, 2023 Guys can somebody put some light in this question? Because I want to go 15 to 15 days and go off the meds as soon as possible and for that I have to buy the right amount of all doses Also the gradual release pills are more expensive, so.. SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 22, 2023 Administrator Share Posted July 22, 2023 @BelaLugosi What times o'clock do you take your drugs, with their dosages? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted July 23, 2023 Author Share Posted July 23, 2023 8 AM 200mg > gradual release 10:30 PM 250mg > imediate release SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 24, 2023 Administrator Share Posted July 24, 2023 Might you disclose to what drugs this schedule refers? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted July 24, 2023 Author Share Posted July 24, 2023 15 minutes ago, Altostrata said: Might you disclose to what drugs this schedule refers? Ofc, I'm only taking seroquel (quetiapine) SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 24, 2023 Administrator Share Posted July 24, 2023 On 7/19/2023 at 4:31 PM, BelaLugosi said: Because I want to go 15 to 15 days and go off the meds as soon as possible and for that I have to buy the right amount of all doses Please explain what you mean. You might consider gradually replacing quetiapine XR with immediate-release quetiapine by 50mg at a time, combining tablet sizes. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted July 24, 2023 Author Share Posted July 24, 2023 On 7/17/2023 at 12:29 PM, BelaLugosi said: Here are my questions I've always had 200mg gradual release pills in the morning and the rest of the dose before sleep, so it's always more mg at night since it has been almost always more than 400mg total (I don't remember how It was divided the first month). How would that be when I start to take less than 400mg total? Should I lower the 200mg morning dose or divide it equally or what? SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
BelaLugosi Posted July 25, 2023 Author Share Posted July 25, 2023 @Altostrata I quoted it above because maybe you haven't seen the post before the one I'm calling you SECOND TIME USING MEDICATION > quetiapine (seroquel) 09/08/22 300 mg 10/24/22 400mg 11/02/22 500mg 01/02/23 700mg 03/09 650mg 04/20 600mg 05/12 550mg 06/11 500mg 07/15 450mg 07/29 400mg FIRST TIME USING MEDICATION (sorry did not use mm/dd/year but dd/mm/year) > OLANZAPINE (ZYPREXA) 07/21 10mg 08/21 20mg 09/21 15 mg 10/21 10mg then 5mg 11/01/21 off Olanzapine > SERTRALINE (ZOLOFT) 08/21 100mg 09/21 supposedly 150mg as prescribed, 200mg as a mistake for a while 10/21 100mg 11/21 50mg 12/11/22 off Sertraline > LITHIUM07/21 300mg (1 pill) 08/21 600mg 09/21 900mg (stabilized in blood tests) 10/21, 11/21, 12/21, 01/22 tapered off in the course of 2 weeks 02/22 off Lithium Link to comment
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