injuredman Posted December 4, 2015 Share Posted December 4, 2015 Like so many of you, I've been through the mill. My exposure to anti-psychotics started long ago, but it wasn't until the beginning of this year, after I attempted cold turkey withdrawal from a dose of 3.75 mgs of Abilify (15 mgs split twice) how awful this drug was. 4 days after doing so, I almost allowed myself to be brought to an emergency psych unit. The reputation of that place proceeds itself, let me say (think horror story plus). I thought going off this "small dose" wasn't going to have much effect. It did, and for those of you who have had to become students of psychology and the other "science" (psychiatry, should be a four letter word) because of their med situation, this has been a road I wish I never went down. I no longer believe in "labels" or my past label or present label, or flavor of the day labels. I've seen much working in the system and outside the system, generally at the end of the day, it's self preservation for each individual involved, but the poor and miserable "clients" are the ones who suffer the most, the "clinicians" go home to their families, kiss their children before bed, feed and walk their nice doggies, cute little kitties, and have their lovely "nice" careers to look forward to the next day. Folks like us just continue to try and survive as best as we can. Lesson, never give up control to anyone. As far as my disappointment with both the "med" community and "non-med" communities, it has been rather remarkable. The lack of integrity as far as my experience, and I do have experience with some of those who include the top of the pile so to speak, is quite outstanding. Another words, I've been gravely lied to and deceived . And yet, here I am, still alive, I think. I'm going to continue my "history" in the next post soon to follow. Abilify (now at 1.0-1.5 mg) Abilify and Trazadone (3.75 mg, 50-200 mg, respectively for 10 years prior) Celexa, Prozac, Paxil, Ambien, and other anti-depressants interspersed though out this) Zyprexa (5-10 mg, for 10 years prior to that) Navane (5 mg, for 5 years) Halidol (4 months) Stelizine, Thorizine (3 days) Total about 27 years Abilify and Trazadone (Dropped from 15 mg to 3.75 mg, 50-200 mg, respectively for 10 years prior), Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata, etc (sleep meds, et. al.) Celexa, Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil,( and other anti-depressants interspersed though out this) Zyprexa (5-10 mg, for 10 years prior to that) Navane (5-10 mg, for 6 years) Halidol, Cogentin, Ativan (5 then 10 mgs) (9 months total at least) Stelizine, Thorizine (3 days) Total about 29 years (Many more I'm sure I don't recall, of course, all doped up, now hopefully 'reovering') Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Fresh Posted December 6, 2015 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 6, 2015 Hi injuredman , welcome to the site. Congratulations for making it this far . You'll find lots of kindred spirits on this site for sure. No love for Big Pharma here. Check out the "In The Media" section. Could you have a go at filling in your signature - it comes up with each post to give anyone reading an overview of your history. Best wishes , Fresh 1987-1997 pertofran , prothiaden , Prozac 1997-2002 Zoloft 2002-2004 effexor 2004-2010 Lexapro 40mg 2010-2012Cymbalta 120mg Sept. 2012 -decreased 90mg in 6months. Care taken over by Dr Lucire in March 2013 , decreased last 30mg at 2mg per week over 3 months. July 21 , 2013- last dose of Cymbalta Protracted withdrawal syndrome kicked in badly Jan.2014 Unrelenting akathisia until May 2014. Voluntary hosp. admission. Cocktail of Seroquel, Ativan and mirtazapine and I was well enough to go home after 14 days. Stopped all hosp. meds in next few months. July 2014 felt v.depressed - couldn't stop crying. Started pristiq 50mg. Felt improvement within days and continued to improve, so stayed on 50mg for 8 months. Began taper 28 Feb. 2015. Pristiq 50mg down to 45mg. Had one month of w/d symptoms. Started CES therapy in March. No w/d symptoms down to 30mg. October 2015 , taking 25mg Pristiq. Capsules compounded with slow-release additive. March 2016 , 21mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Petunia Posted December 6, 2015 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 6, 2015 Welcome injuredman, Are you currently just taking Abilify? How are you feeling at the moment...any symptoms? If you could post a bit more information about what's going on at the moment, we may be able to offer some suggestions about how to taper off the last part. Many people find that as the dose gets lower, tapering needs to slow down in order to avoid symptoms emerging. It looks like you have discovered that for yourself. Tips for tapering off aripiprazole (Abilify) As Fresh said, well done for getting this far. Petunia. I'm not a doctor. My comments are not medical advise. These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I've learned. Please discuss your situation with a medical practitioner who has knowledge of tapering and withdrawal...if you are lucky enough to find one. My Introduction Thread Full Drug and Withdrawal History Brief Summary Several SSRIs for 13 years starting 1997 (for mild to moderate partly situational anxiety) Xanax PRN ~ Various other drugs over the years for side effects 2 month 'taper' off Lexapro 2010 Short acute withdrawal, followed by 2 -3 months of improvement then delayed protracted withdrawal DX ADHD followed by several years of stimulants and other drugs trying to manage increasing symptoms Failed reinstatement of Lexapro and trial of Prozac (became suicidal) May 2013 Found SA, learned about withdrawal, stopped taking drugs...healing begins. Protracted withdrawal, with a very sensitized nervous system, slowly recovering as time passes Supplements which have helped: Vitamin C, Magnesium, Taurine Bad reactions: Many supplements but mostly fish oil and Vitamin D June 2016 - Started daily juicing, mostly vegetables and lots of greens. Aug 2016 - Oct 2016 Best window ever, felt almost completely recovered Oct 2016 -Symptoms returned - bad days and less bad days. April 2018 - No windows, but significant improvement, it feels like permanent full recovery is close. VIDEO: Where did the chemical imbalance theory come from? VIDEO: How are psychiatric diagnoses made? VIDEO: Why do psychiatric drugs have withdrawal syndromes? VIDEO: Can psychiatric drugs cause long-lasting negative effects? VIDEO: Dr. Claire Weekes Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus KarenB Posted December 7, 2015 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 7, 2015 Hello Injuredman, Nice to meet someone who doesn't believe in labels. You sound like you have a lot of strength for getting through all this, and for making good decisions about what is best for you. You have certainly come through a lot already. Have you done much reading round the site? If not you may like to start with http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/603-what-is-withdrawal-syndrome/ because understanding w/d really helps you to 'survive' it. This thread here will be your own journal to record your progress and ask any further questions that come up for you. Best wishes, KarenB 2010 Fluoxetine 20mg. 2011 Escitalopram 20mg. 2013 Tapered badly and destabilised CNS. Effexor 150mg. 2015 Begin using info at SurvivingAntidepressants. Cut 10% - bad w/d 2 months, held 1 month. Micro-tapering: four weekly 0.4% cuts, hold 4 weeks (struggling with symptoms). 8 month hold. 2017 Micro-tapering: four weekly 1% cuts, hold 4 weeks (symptoms almost non-existent). 2020 Still micro-tapering. Just over 2/3 of the way off effexor. Minimal symptoms, - and sleeping well. Supplements: Fish oil, vitamin C, iron, oat-straw tea, nettle tea. 2023 December - Now on 5 micro-beads Effexor. Minimal symptoms but much more time needed between drops. Symptoms begin to increase. 2024 April - Updosed to 6 microbeads - immediate increase in symptoms for 4 days. Decreased to 5 microbeads. 'The possibility of renewal exists so long as life exists.' Dr Gabor Mate. Link to comment
injuredman Posted February 25, 2016 Author Share Posted February 25, 2016 Hello again, It's late, and I won't put much up here tonight. I posted a few months ago, and didn't really didn't read many of those that followed mine. I have gotten off the 1.0-1.5 mgs of Abilify, but not the way I probably should have. I followed up with a man in Canada who's probably a charlatan to get off all drugs, but after 3 days, had to get back on my thyroid drug. I didn't get back on the 1.0 mg of Abilify however again. That was about 6 weeks ago. I've had an Neuroquant MRI brain and brain stem scan in Rochester, NY. My current internist, who's inexperienced with this stuff, but willing to work with me and is a non-pill doc, read the report given to him, that the only less than average part of the scan was my hippocampus (spelling), which is smaller than average for someone my age he said. We've been trying to find a neurologist who will better detail the scan, but no takers so far (legal reasons he finally confessed to me). Does anyone know where I can a proper functional MRI done and a good neurologist in NY State, for example? My withdrawal was horrendous, but I needed to get off that ****. I basically had very little reliable support and couldn't find a doc who'd follow me through it... I went all over the country trying to find a clinic or honest doc (good luck), even the ATM Center in Sedona, AZ (omg, that's for a private discussion).. I've been doing Neurofeedback, expensive, but at least it's a regarded technique for brain problems. I'm so fragile, does everyone feel the same way? Stress sends me into crisis mode. Past relationships, especially with my old gf can be devastating, even if we've resolved to be friends. We need time to heal before we can tackle the world/life again. No one can tell you how long that will take. I've read stories of others off/on Antipsychotics and their concern for their brains like mine. What happened to me was unspeakable, my current therapist confesses to me lately in our sessions together, he was a high level person in the field years ago. I'm his priest so to speak while he confesses that what they did in the hospital was deliberate, they intentionally disabled me as they did to people back then (1986) who told them that they may hurt themselves or others (I mentioned I tried to hang myself, BAD move). Robert Whitaker (editor of MadinAmerica.com) in the Washington Star did an investigative report about that (2005). Ironically, my sister (I will not mention her name) wrote a scathing review of Whitaker in a national newspaper (I won't mention which) as a opportunist dissing psychiatry and wrote me that when I wanted her research help with my withdrawal! Then when I showed her more evidence about these neurotoxins, she wrote me back, "not my field." Ok, I could go on with more, but I need to sign off. Abilify and Trazadone (Dropped from 15 mg to 3.75 mg, 50-200 mg, respectively for 10 years prior), Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata, etc (sleep meds, et. al.) Celexa, Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil,( and other anti-depressants interspersed though out this) Zyprexa (5-10 mg, for 10 years prior to that) Navane (5-10 mg, for 6 years) Halidol, Cogentin, Ativan (5 then 10 mgs) (9 months total at least) Stelizine, Thorizine (3 days) Total about 29 years (Many more I'm sure I don't recall, of course, all doped up, now hopefully 'reovering') Link to comment
injuredman Posted August 27, 2016 Author Share Posted August 27, 2016 (edited) I found basically no help withdrawing from Abilify at a 3.75-4.0 dose for about 10 years; didn't establish a Paleo Diet first, and tried the Roadback supplement regime. I was given a "diagnosis" of P. Schizophrenia when I saw a psychiatrist in college when I was 18; that diagnosis, like others, are based on "symptoms" and then categorized as such (a label is usually provided by the "counselor"); in the DSM manuals, you have two "positive" and two "negative" symptoms of this "illness," bingo, you're it... all I recall back then was I didn't "fit in" with the other more 'sophisticated' young men from the NYC area, had a hard time coping in general, felt like a coward and tried to act "tough" and "smart," when it really wasn't the case, and I wouldn't admit it, I was depressed as heck. Was I hearing voices then or now or ever? No. Was I "psychotic" then now or ever (seeing things for example that weren't there) no. Was I a scared and depressed young guy who lacked self esteem and whose father had committed suicide the year before, lacked a proper "peer" circle of friends, and yet was with high powered achievers at SUNY Binghamton, the flagship NYS State University, but didn't belong there at the time, yes. Was I always trying to fake an identity, yes... did I feel like a stupid little **** (my father, mother, and siblings were high achievers)? Yes. Over the years, thereafter, I finished college, got an MS in a science field, and stayed on "meds," but the progression for my career and relationships, got worse and worse, that until 2015 when I tried to save a little cash by c/ting off the last neuroleptic (antipsychotic for Pharma purposes), then started taking the "side effects" seriously.... **** hit the fan 4 days later, and I attempted the Will Hall Harm Reduction method, been all over the country trying to feel better (in my noggin). I've posted my story here before. I've got medical "trauma" up the ying yang... worstly after I voluntarily signed into a State Psych Hospital where I live and mentioned the "S" word (not ****, suic....). As Thomas Szasz describes (he was actually a colleague of my grandfather, though my family knew very little then about "mental illness," other than what was told to them by the establishment), it's as if a black jack is weld against the patient, a condemnation for life. I wasn't told the "diagnosis" then, nor was my mother, but it was given to me again, from another "expert," who also relied on the DSM manual, and who was paid to do so. My question to Atla Alstrata is: I was on 1 mg of Abilify, couldn't get my docs compounding pharmacist to titrate me off that, though I thought they would... I stopped that 1 mg completely 8 months ago, after taking the advice of an "energy practitioner." You've indicated that could cause "permanent" problems...I'm not sure how well I'm doing now.... Do you think over time, a lot perhaps, I'll still get better? There are few success stories about people who've been on neuroleptics for long periods of time, though most of that time, the doses weren't "excessive," (probably because I wouldn't stand for it). Edited August 29, 2016 by scallywag moved from Withdrawal dialogues topic, inserted paragraph breaks Abilify and Trazadone (Dropped from 15 mg to 3.75 mg, 50-200 mg, respectively for 10 years prior), Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata, etc (sleep meds, et. al.) Celexa, Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil,( and other anti-depressants interspersed though out this) Zyprexa (5-10 mg, for 10 years prior to that) Navane (5-10 mg, for 6 years) Halidol, Cogentin, Ativan (5 then 10 mgs) (9 months total at least) Stelizine, Thorizine (3 days) Total about 29 years (Many more I'm sure I don't recall, of course, all doped up, now hopefully 'reovering') Link to comment
injuredman Posted August 29, 2016 Author Share Posted August 29, 2016 (edited) I vehemently tried to get my internists compounding pharmacist to compound reduce my last 1 mg-1.5 mg of Abilify, they kept screwing around with me, saying one thing, doing another... I really thought she (the pharmacist) would help me... I'd been trying to find and do so much research when I c/t'd off 3,75-4.0 mg, and went up again and tried the Will Hall Harm Reduction... yikes, I wasn't "stable" on the 3.75 mg anyway, so to speak... ground up the pills and put them in suspension... 10% (or so) very 2-3 weeks (or so) ok, I didn't really have a clue, tried the RoadBack protocol... didn't establish Paleo Diet, first... went to a shrink in Gaithersburg, MD, P. Breggin... (story on here)... ok, Dr. B, I'm not your patient anymore, you weren't much help.... I went off the last 1 mg of Abilify, after taking the advice of a "energy guy," that was about 8 and 1/2 months ago... yes, that wasn't the "right" thing to do on retrospect, I couldn't find anyone to help, even ATMC in Sedona, omg... I was very insomnia tic at the time... had to leave, they tried high doses of Depakote, but I couldn't run, barely walk, and the darn treadmill didn't work when I got there (get the sweat moving for detox), (Lyle Murphy) ended up fixing it himself (thought he had a whole staff, yikes)... bad experience, got out in one piece... So, I've got a really long road... really long road... may sell my house, advice? Edited August 29, 2016 by scallywag moved from Abilify topic Abilify and Trazadone (Dropped from 15 mg to 3.75 mg, 50-200 mg, respectively for 10 years prior), Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata, etc (sleep meds, et. al.) Celexa, Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil,( and other anti-depressants interspersed though out this) Zyprexa (5-10 mg, for 10 years prior to that) Navane (5-10 mg, for 6 years) Halidol, Cogentin, Ativan (5 then 10 mgs) (9 months total at least) Stelizine, Thorizine (3 days) Total about 29 years (Many more I'm sure I don't recall, of course, all doped up, now hopefully 'reovering') Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus scallywag Posted August 29, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 29, 2016 injuredman: I've moved your posts to your introduction topic so that more people will see your question and update. People recover, even after taking neuroleptic (aka antipsychotic) medications. Have you read Robert Whitaker's Mad in America. He discusses a study that people who have discontinued one of these meds do worse during year 1 and 2 after discontinuing than those who've continued but that after 2 years their lives and health continually improve. It takes time for the CNS (central nervous system) to undo all the changes it made while you were on the medications. How your brain responds to psychiatric drugs - aka "Brain remodeling"You may also want to look at topics in the Success stories forum. There are people who have posted having improved after treatment similar to yours. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.1997-1999 Effexor; 2002-2005 Effexor XR 37.5 mg linear taper, dropping same #beads/week with bad results Cymbalta 60 mg 2012 - 2015; 2016: 20 mg to 7 mg exact doses and dates in this post; 2017: 6.3 mg to 0.0 mg Aug. 12; details here scallywag's IntroductionOnline spreadsheet for dose taper calculations and nz11's THE WORKS spreadsheet Link to comment
injuredman Posted March 20, 2017 Author Share Posted March 20, 2017 It's now over 14 months off my last 1 mg of Abilify. I was also taking Trazadone for sleep. Nothing posted about going off 1 mg so suddenly; I'm still suffering dp/dr and struggling with life issues. I read somewhere that people who've been on them so long, may need to resort to larger drops (I think that's what I read). Tiny sporadic "recovery," would be improved with more social support, in short supply. Abilify and Trazadone (Dropped from 15 mg to 3.75 mg, 50-200 mg, respectively for 10 years prior), Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata, etc (sleep meds, et. al.) Celexa, Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil,( and other anti-depressants interspersed though out this) Zyprexa (5-10 mg, for 10 years prior to that) Navane (5-10 mg, for 6 years) Halidol, Cogentin, Ativan (5 then 10 mgs) (9 months total at least) Stelizine, Thorizine (3 days) Total about 29 years (Many more I'm sure I don't recall, of course, all doped up, now hopefully 'reovering') Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus scallywag Posted March 20, 2017 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 20, 2017 Recovery can be awfully slow -- much slower than any of us would like. What non-drug techniques are you using to cope? For some ideas, check this topic: Non-drug techniques to cope with emotional symptoms. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.1997-1999 Effexor; 2002-2005 Effexor XR 37.5 mg linear taper, dropping same #beads/week with bad results Cymbalta 60 mg 2012 - 2015; 2016: 20 mg to 7 mg exact doses and dates in this post; 2017: 6.3 mg to 0.0 mg Aug. 12; details here scallywag's IntroductionOnline spreadsheet for dose taper calculations and nz11's THE WORKS spreadsheet Link to comment
injuredman Posted March 21, 2017 Author Share Posted March 21, 2017 I'm using Infra Red light therapy, Heartmath breathing, neurofeedback, supplements recommended by practitioners, Paleo Diet, I'm now at a friend's apartment. Last night, was again tortuous. I likely have chronic anxiety disorder... I have a "small thyroid" and take levothroxine. I developed Hashimotos, and still have a high antibody level, from blood drawn from the Cleveland Clinic Functional Medicine, also EMDR for life history... No one gave me a good answer about that last 1 mg I jumped off of 14 months ago; because Administrators can't respond to such a question? My insomnia is holding up my healing process. I go for walks; I can still run, but that probably isn't wise, too much Sympathetic activity. Like older survivors, I need to balance my ANS, do moderate exercise, get sun, eat clean, I've done a lot of research and tried so much over the past 2 years. Abilify and Trazadone (Dropped from 15 mg to 3.75 mg, 50-200 mg, respectively for 10 years prior), Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata, etc (sleep meds, et. al.) Celexa, Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil,( and other anti-depressants interspersed though out this) Zyprexa (5-10 mg, for 10 years prior to that) Navane (5-10 mg, for 6 years) Halidol, Cogentin, Ativan (5 then 10 mgs) (9 months total at least) Stelizine, Thorizine (3 days) Total about 29 years (Many more I'm sure I don't recall, of course, all doped up, now hopefully 'reovering') Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus scallywag Posted March 21, 2017 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 21, 2017 I haven't answered because I didn't interpret what you'd written as a question about the medication. Sometimes we miss things. Clearly your CNS (central nervous system) didn't deal well with discontinuing abilify at 1 mg. There is no universal "safe-jumping" dose for any medication. It's always a best guess situation. Had you been posting here at the time we likely would have suggested that you continue slow, gradual tapering to a dose much lower than 1 mg, possibly as low as 0.1 mg. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.1997-1999 Effexor; 2002-2005 Effexor XR 37.5 mg linear taper, dropping same #beads/week with bad results Cymbalta 60 mg 2012 - 2015; 2016: 20 mg to 7 mg exact doses and dates in this post; 2017: 6.3 mg to 0.0 mg Aug. 12; details here scallywag's IntroductionOnline spreadsheet for dose taper calculations and nz11's THE WORKS spreadsheet Link to comment
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