Hosanna Posted March 14, 2017 Posted March 14, 2017 just signed up. information and advice is overwhelming!!!! I can only take in some information at t time. I can't believe this isn't more common knowledge. it is a horrible existence. but God is good and He heals. *1991-2003: 12 years on increasing amounts of Prozac, then *2003-2013: 10 years on increasing amounts of Effexor alchohol abuse issues throughout along with nicotine addiction *2013: pscychMD guided 5 month taper from 300MG to zero Effexor while quitting alcohol and nicotine at about the same time ( awful process , so painful and scary)Dr had me adding prozac to reduce the "discontinuation side effects" *then November 2013, not on anything... ------Bad bad bad ( probably and unknowingly, tapered way way way too fast and unknowingly into some Med PAWS and paws from alcohol ( 8 months without etoh at this time, 4 years now ) * Ran to psychMD and he put me on Latuda then Brintellix ( now called trintellix) *4 months later those about killed me and landed me 3 days in the hospital and then in intensive treatment for depression/anxiety for 5 months. During that time they tried different things too fast and furious with a lot of bad reactions to stuff. Chemical Assaults!!!! this included seroquel, Depakote Summer 2014 finishing up intensive treatment ("pills and skills" what a crock...): I ended up on a cocktail of xoloft, Wellbutrin and elavil. I didn't need more drugs. I was suffering from protracted w/d and chemical assault shock/ptsd. the medical community has no idea. they say "your mental illness is chronic and progressive so you have to manage it continually with drug additions/changes". you can't make this stuff up for a horror movie. *At this time (summer of 2014) I was diagnosed with MS (significant brain lesions and positive other tests for MS) and told I had to go off Humira. I had been on Humira or Enbrel for 13 years, as well as anti inflammatories for arthritis. I stopped these. One year later I started a 4 month taper of these psych drugs. This was way too fast and probably caused more damage/ptsd March 2017: Now I am 14 months total medicine free and dealing with recovery from the damage caused by the actions above. I don't know what is what in terms of cause and effect. I only know that it has been and continues to be awful. a hellish relentless anguish of a myriad of symptoms, an awful existence...after having lost my marriage, family, career possibilities, life...other than faith...I still have my faith in Jesus Christ and God's promises of who HE is, what He's like, and who I am. God Loves me and has taken and continues to take care of me in miraculous ways... He just hasn't healed me fully yet. Is it MS? Immune dysfunction? ANS dysfunction? Damage while taking medicines and self medicating with alcohol ? PAWS from alcohol? PAWS from psych drugs? Chicken, egg or road? It amazes me how after not being on meds for a while, we can suddenly get drastically worse with new or worsening symptoms. 25 years of pschych drug chemical assault and 2 way too abrupt tapers have left me in this state. not to mention MS. Such a mess. Hell on earth. Anguish. So many symptoms. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/user/9209-hosanna/ my story 12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load. ***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am. His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***
Madeleine Posted March 14, 2017 Posted March 14, 2017 Welcome to the forum. You really have been through a lot! You are right, God Loves you (and all of us. ) 200 Zoloft; 10 mg Zyprexa; 4 mg valium as of May 2021; Valium taper: July 16: 3.5 valium; July 30: 3 mg (paused valium taper); Aug. 23: 2.5 mg Zyprexa: July 26: 8.75 mg; Aug. 9: 7.5 mg; Aug. 30: 7.1 mg ------- Dec 1, 2016. 10 mg zyprexa for 1.5 month. Started taper mid-Jan. 2017. Cut 1.25 mg every 2 weeks; smaller cuts 2.5 mg down. Stopped at .6 mg. May 7, 2017: zyprexa free. Zoloft: Dec1, 2016, 200 mg. Started taper: Jun12, 2017: 197.5 mg; Jun19,:195 mg; July 2:185mg; July 9,:180 mg; July16,: 175; July 23: 170; July 30: 165; Aug6: 160; Aug13: 155; Aug. 20: 150; Aug.27: 146 mg; Sept3: 145 mg; Sept10:143 mg; Sept17:140 mg....Nov5: 122 mg...Dec3:112.5 mg; Jan14, 2018: 95 mg...Jan28: 90 mg; Feb21:80 mg; Mar11: 75 mg; May2:70 mg; May15: 68 mg; May28: 65 mg; Jun9: 62 mg;Jun25: 60 mg:July22: 55 mg; Aug25: 45 mg. Aug28: 50 mg...Oct 28: 38 mg; Dec.4: 30 mg; Jan8,2019: 25mg; Feb6: 23.5 mg; Apr1:17.5mg; May1:1 mg; May 5: 18; May 18:15mg; June 16:12.5mg; Sept 10:11 mg; Sept.16:10 mg; Oct. 1: 9mg; Nov. 27: 8mg; Dec.5: 7mg; Jan.1,2020, 6 mg; Feb1: 5 mg; May 1: 2.5 mg; Jn 1: 2 mg; Jy 1: 1.5 mg
Hosanna Posted March 14, 2017 Author Posted March 14, 2017 thanks Madeleine Welcome to the forum. You really have been through a lot! You are right, God Loves you (and all of us. ) http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/user/9209-hosanna/ my story 12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load. ***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am. His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***
LexAnger Posted March 14, 2017 Posted March 14, 2017 Omg, sound horrible what you went through by the insane amount of evil drugs and stupid and ignorant medical doctors! How are you feeling now? Do you see any improvement? Thanks God you find this forum. The best online and of all for information, support from mods and peers. Drug free Sep. 23 2017 2009 Mar.: lexapro 10mg for headache for 2 weeks. 2009-2012: on and off 1/4 to 1/3 of 10mg 2012 June--2013 Jan,: 1/4-1/3 of 10mg generic, bad jaw pain 2013 Jan-Mar: 10 mg generic. severe jaw and head pain; 2013 Mar--Aug. started tapering (liquid ever since) from 10 to 5 (one step) then gradually down to 2.25 mg by July. first ever panic attack, severe head/jaw pain 2013 Aug.: back to 2.75 mg; Nov: back to Brand Lex. 2.75mg -- 3mg, 2014 June: stopped PPI, head pressure/numbness. up-dosed 4.5mg, severe reaction mental symptoms added on 2014 Aug--2015 Aug: Micro taper down to 3.2mg, .025mg (<1%) cut holding 2-3 weeks. 2015 Aug 15th, Accidental one dose of 4.2mg. worsening brain non-functional, swollen head, body, coma like, DR 2016 Feb., started dosing 10am through 11 pm everyday 2/13--3.2mg, 3/15-- 2.9mg, 4/19-- 2.6mg, 6/26--2.2mg, 7/22 --1.9mg, 8/16--1.8mg,8/31--1.7m g, 9/13--1.6mg, 9/27--1.5mg, 10/8--1.4mg, 10/14--1.3mg, 11/1--1.2mg, 11/29--1.1mg, 12/12--1mg, 12/22--0.9mg 2017: 1/7--0.8mg, 1/15--0.7mg, 1/17--0.6mg, 1/20--0.52, 1/21--0.4mg, 1/22--0.26, 1/23--0.2, 2/13--0.13mg, 2/20--0.06mg, 3/18--0.13mg, 6/1--0.12mg, 7/6--0.1mg, 7/14--0.08mg, 8/17--0.04mg, 8/20--0.03mg, 8/28--0.02mg, 9/6--0.0205mg, 9/8--0.02mg, 9/17--0.015mg, 9/20--0.01mg, 9/21--0.0048mg, 9/22--0.0001mg,
Hosanna Posted March 15, 2017 Author Posted March 15, 2017 Omg, sound horrible what you went through by the insane amount of evil drugs and stupid and ignorant medical doctors! How are you feeling now? Do you see any improvement? Thanks God you find this forum. The best online and of all for information, support from mods and peers. thanks LexAnger. 14 or so months after totally off of psych meds i was still having waves that were really bad, but i didn't know what they were. i just figured I was relapsing, getting worse, the MS was progressing, or I was just nuts. constantly thinking i should get back on something...because I had felt some relief in the early taper process and shortly after zero meds and now I was awful. God led me to this site and some others so that I could understand better what was going on in my brain and body. at least I know there is some hope...although the timeline of a couple more years of this before improvement is depressing and anxiety provoking... my kids are growing up and I'm missing it... http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/user/9209-hosanna/ my story 12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load. ***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am. His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***
Administrator Altostrata Posted March 15, 2017 Administrator Posted March 15, 2017 Welcome, siep. I'm very sorry to hear of all you've gone through. Since your condition is so complex and your system probably so sensitive, I would focus on strengthening your body as much as possible so it will have fuel for healing. Have you seen this: http://terrywahls.com/about/about-terry-wahls/Terry Wahls MD | Defeating Progressive Multiple Sclerosis.... It seems eating lots of fresh leafy green vegetables is good for many things. They are the best source of folate, an important neurological vitamin. Were you on a stomach acid blocker for a long time? If so, you should have vitamin B12, methylmalonic acid (MMA), and homocysteine blood tests to rule out mild B12 deficiency, which can cause neurological weakness. You may also wish to test vitamin D3, that's an important systemic vitamin, too. We find many people do better with these supplements King of supplements: Omega-3 fatty acids (fish oil)Magnesium, nature's calcium channel blocker Try a little bit of one at a time to see how it affects you. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted.
RachelE Posted March 15, 2017 Posted March 15, 2017 Wow, Siep! No wonder you're suffering! You could have killed yourself--really, going off these very addictive drugs when you've built up a strong physical dependence has been known to throw people's systems into shock and actually resulted in death. I'm glad you're still alive and well enough to post here. Of course you had no way of knowing. Makes me sad and angry to think about. I came off my lamictal and abilify with only a few headaches. Of course I only took the lamictal for 13 days. I cold-turkeyed off that when I thought it was causing a rash. A GP diagnosed the rash as being caused by a viral infection. I said I went back on it and didn't. That's sometimes necessary when you're trapped in the MI industry. 2 weeks later I started dry cutting my abilify. In 10 weeks I was off it after 7 years. This Effexor is a bear to come off though. I don't know why, but I feel sick all the time. Like the flu--the runny nose, sore throat kind. And I feel dry and itchy all over--inside and out. I know this sounds weird, but this is my experience. Going shopping at the grocery store wears me out more than running a full-length marathon would a healthy person. I have been tapering since early July. I'm now at less than half the original dose of 150 mgs. Sometimes I get so impatient. I have no idea why it's so much harder to get off than the other drugs. A friend of mine seemed to make light of my problems when I described them to her. She's a psychiatric survivor too. Came off Effexor with little trouble. Only on it for 2-3 months though. Good for her! It doesn't help me though. Anyhow, Siep, I believe your suffering is real. If a long, slow taper causes this kind of suffering for so many of us, it's no wonder you feel like you're in Hell on Earth. I have been on so many medications since I was 20 and diagnosed as "mentally ill" that I have lost count. Right now, however I have been taking: Lamictal 25 mg: I went on it in March for only 13 days, then cold turkeyed off when I thought I was developing a rash because of it. Pretended to go back on it, but didn't. Not the best idea, but I had no way to reduce the dose. Anyhow I had no adverse withdrawal reactions, probably because I was on it for less than 2 weeks. Abilify 20 mg: I have been on this for several years. Actually at least half the time I have spent as a meds "consumer" I have been on this nasty pill. I finished tapering off it at the beginning of 2016. Was reinstated during the 4 days I spent in a psych ward in March. Tapered off it again in 10 weeks, from say March 15-June 30. Needless to say this is not exact, but I remember I was off it before July 4 (patriotic holiday in America!) I am doing fine, although I know I may have to wait till Christmas or later to know I am out of the danger zone for withdrawal psychosis. The main thing I notice about being off is that I no longer crave sweets all the time and am losing weight without trying. Good thing since I used to weigh 350 lbs.! Effexor 150 mg: This is the real trouble-maker. Since I have no other way of tapering I do the best I can by bead counting. I unscrew the gel capsule and count out the tiny micro-capsules or beads inside. This works fairly well with the generic time release version. Only 120 beads to count of almost identical size. Lately I have been "holding" at 20 bead removal due to some major stress in my life. Moving hundreds of miles from my old home and a bout of strep throat that wouldn't respond to antibiotics. I guess that means I'm on 120 mg of Effexor right now. On October 16 I am going to recommence my taper since I am safely moved and no longer have strep! I admit now that I did something stupid. I had trouble opening the extra strength gel capsules containing the beads so I reinstated at the original dose for a week. I know it's not good to play ping pong with my brain, but I could never open the capsules without spilling those microscopic balls all over so I was never sure what dosage I was taking! Thank the LORD that I finally have the old kind again and can safely count out the amount. I am now back on 135 mg and feel somewhat better. October 30, 2016. I am down to 120 mg effexor. November 27, 2016. Down to 105 mg effexor. December 25, 2016. 90 mg effexor. January 15, 2017. 75 mg effexor. January 21. 82.5 mg effexor. January 23, 90 mg again. Feb. 14, 81.25 mg. Mar. 15, 72.5 mg. Mar. 27, 65 mg. Apr. 9, 58.75 mg. Apr. 24, 52.5 mg.
Hosanna Posted March 17, 2017 Author Posted March 17, 2017 Welcome, siep. I'm very sorry to hear of all you've gone through. Since your condition is so complex and your system probably so sensitive, I would focus on strengthening your body as much as possible so it will have fuel for healing. Have you seen this: http://terrywahls.com/about/about-terry-wahls/ Terry Wahls MD | Defeating Progressive Multiple Sclerosis.... It seems eating lots of fresh leafy green vegetables is good for many things. They are the best source of folate, an important neurological vitamin. Were you on a stomach acid blocker for a long time? If so, you should have vitamin B12, methylmalonic acid (MMA), and homocysteine blood tests to rule out mild B12 deficiency, which can cause neurological weakness. You may also wish to test vitamin D3, that's an important systemic vitamin, too. We find many people do better with these supplements King of supplements: Omega-3 fatty acids (fish oil) Magnesium, nature's calcium channel blocker Try a little bit of one at a time to see how it affects you. Alto, thanks so much...I have so much respect for you and your knowledge and all you do to help people. I really appreciate your feedback and the links/information. I thank God and praise Him for leading me to your site. the information here has helped me understand so much better my symptoms and cycles. Great feedback! it's a long story for another time but it was my brother sending me a link to Dr. Wahls's TED talk "minding your mitochondria" , that eventually led me to my last taper, being med free, and your site. I am on a modified, individualized "Wahl protocol" of sorts in terms of diet and nutrition..."Designed Clinical Nutrition"... under the supervision of a naturopath which I believe has helped me a great deal over the last 2 years. thanks for your comments on good fats (omegas) and Magnesium and B viatamins/folates. I think you are very right on those. It is so hard!!! the psychiatric, cognitive, emotional,hormonal, physical exhaustion symptoms sometimes make it so hard to just exist in my own body and mind. and when waves hit...boy is it hard. just getting/existing through "moments", minutes, hours, or a few hours seems impossibly hard and painful, and forget when I have to do a task or responsibility. wow. But I've learned so much in the last month. Thank You! http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/user/9209-hosanna/ my story 12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load. ***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am. His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***
Hosanna Posted March 17, 2017 Author Posted March 17, 2017 Wow, Siep! No wonder you're suffering! You could have killed yourself--really, going off these very addictive drugs when you've built up a strong physical dependence has been known to throw people's systems into shock and actually resulted in death. I'm glad you're still alive and well enough to post here. Of course you had no way of knowing. Makes me sad and angry to think about. I came off my lamictal and abilify with only a few headaches. Of course I only took the lamictal for 13 days. I cold-turkeyed off that when I thought it was causing a rash. A GP diagnosed the rash as being caused by a viral infection. I said I went back on it and didn't. That's sometimes necessary when you're trapped in the MI industry. 2 weeks later I started dry cutting my abilify. In 10 weeks I was off it after 7 years. This Effexor is a bear to come off though. I don't know why, but I feel sick all the time. Like the flu--the runny nose, sore throat kind. And I feel dry and itchy all over--inside and out. I know this sounds weird, but this is my experience. Going shopping at the grocery store wears me out more than running a full-length marathon would a healthy person. I have been tapering since early July. I'm now at less than half the original dose of 150 mgs. Sometimes I get so impatient. I have no idea why it's so much harder to get off than the other drugs. A friend of mine seemed to make light of my problems when I described them to her. She's a psychiatric survivor too. Came off Effexor with little trouble. Only on it for 2-3 months though. Good for her! It doesn't help me though. Anyhow, Siep, I believe your suffering is real. If a long, slow taper causes this kind of suffering for so many of us, it's no wonder you feel like you're in Hell on Earth. Thanks so much RachelE!!! wow you've been through it too. yes praise God we are both still here and have a chance for healing. Many prayers for you. I agree that effexor is evil. When I was on it and was just a few hours late with a dose I got brain zaps and cognitive issues and all sorts of stuff. Being on it mad me crave relief from Alcohol and nicotine...or anything that could put the "fire out" that was in my brain while I was on it. Knowing what I do now and what I have and continue to go through...if could go back and do it again with Effexor (Evil), I would go sooooooooo slow. like one bead a month or even one bead every couple of months. I wouldn't care how long it took. when I tapered in 2013, even though I was adding prozac as I went down in effexor, I suffered a great deal. but I thought "if I could just get through this and get this stuff out of my body I would be better, so the quicker the better, so tough it out"...well that was sooo wrong. I had no idea the damage I was doing by removing it from my system so quickly (I didn't think it was quickly). If I could do it again (and had the patience and focus) I would start at a point where I was relatively comfortable, then remove one bead every so often and hold it for a while. I would take as long as I needed to to taper as long as I didn't have symptoms or they were limited. I believe my taper from zoloft, elavil, wellbutrin and trazedone was too fast also and if I could do it again I would go just as slow. maybe 5 years instead of 5 months. but I had the same mentality of "I need to get the poison out of me as soon as possible". I didn't know the longlasting negative effects of removing it too quickly from my system. I mean to have new, brutal anguishing symptoms show up more than a year later...that is crazy... Recovery from this is not like any other recoveries. I think of the visual imagery it talks about in that video. It talks about our brain being the plant/vine and the drug being the trellis. our brain grows and functions by being supported by the trellis and when we remove the trellis the plant withers, is sick and sometimes dies (brain cell damage). I think of effexor et al, in my case, as a Trellis with thorns and spikes and contours and intricate loops etc. ...and the plant , my brain was intricately grown and developed on it, complexly woven around and through and on it. When I removed the Trellis too fast it ripped the pant to shreds. the thorns and spikes and loops that had a hold of it just ripped it to pieces. If I could do it again I would just take sandpaper to that trellis and remove it ever so carefully, and if something started to shred( a symptom) stop and go about it whatever way possible to reduce the harm to the plant while removing the trellis. This last taper I had some support which I believe has save me. I was feeding the plant the proper nutrients and removing hurtful things(spikes, thorns, loops) using a clinical nutrition and detox program while I was tapering. But in my experience (in which tapering was too fast), even though I suffered a great deal through the taper process, that suffering was nothing like the symptoms once I hit zero and the protracted symptoms later on. the protracted symptoms resulting from too fast of a taper have been much worse than the symptoms during the taper. so much so I almost bought into the notion that "my disease" is chronic and progressive and I therefore must need meds . if that wasn;t the case I would feel better now that I am off them. IT is so confusing, especially when I add in the MS and arthritis symptoms. what a mess. I can relate to your symptoms and fatigue stuff...it is brutal. God Bless You and keep you. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/user/9209-hosanna/ my story 12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load. ***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am. His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***
RachelE Posted April 12, 2017 Posted April 12, 2017 For Siep, and those of you reading this, I am feeling better in many ways. This happened out of the blue after I dropped below 50% of my original effexor dose. Just a little tired and sluggish now. If it weren't for these constant throat infections I keep getting I would feel great! I am rediscovering stuff about who I am that I forgot or never knew since I've spent my whole adulthood on drugs till now. I used to mindlessly wolf down anything set before me. Suddenly people wonder why I'm so picky about food and why I eat so slowly. I have been on so many medications since I was 20 and diagnosed as "mentally ill" that I have lost count. Right now, however I have been taking: Lamictal 25 mg: I went on it in March for only 13 days, then cold turkeyed off when I thought I was developing a rash because of it. Pretended to go back on it, but didn't. Not the best idea, but I had no way to reduce the dose. Anyhow I had no adverse withdrawal reactions, probably because I was on it for less than 2 weeks. Abilify 20 mg: I have been on this for several years. Actually at least half the time I have spent as a meds "consumer" I have been on this nasty pill. I finished tapering off it at the beginning of 2016. Was reinstated during the 4 days I spent in a psych ward in March. Tapered off it again in 10 weeks, from say March 15-June 30. Needless to say this is not exact, but I remember I was off it before July 4 (patriotic holiday in America!) I am doing fine, although I know I may have to wait till Christmas or later to know I am out of the danger zone for withdrawal psychosis. The main thing I notice about being off is that I no longer crave sweets all the time and am losing weight without trying. Good thing since I used to weigh 350 lbs.! Effexor 150 mg: This is the real trouble-maker. Since I have no other way of tapering I do the best I can by bead counting. I unscrew the gel capsule and count out the tiny micro-capsules or beads inside. This works fairly well with the generic time release version. Only 120 beads to count of almost identical size. Lately I have been "holding" at 20 bead removal due to some major stress in my life. Moving hundreds of miles from my old home and a bout of strep throat that wouldn't respond to antibiotics. I guess that means I'm on 120 mg of Effexor right now. On October 16 I am going to recommence my taper since I am safely moved and no longer have strep! I admit now that I did something stupid. I had trouble opening the extra strength gel capsules containing the beads so I reinstated at the original dose for a week. I know it's not good to play ping pong with my brain, but I could never open the capsules without spilling those microscopic balls all over so I was never sure what dosage I was taking! Thank the LORD that I finally have the old kind again and can safely count out the amount. I am now back on 135 mg and feel somewhat better. October 30, 2016. I am down to 120 mg effexor. November 27, 2016. Down to 105 mg effexor. December 25, 2016. 90 mg effexor. January 15, 2017. 75 mg effexor. January 21. 82.5 mg effexor. January 23, 90 mg again. Feb. 14, 81.25 mg. Mar. 15, 72.5 mg. Mar. 27, 65 mg. Apr. 9, 58.75 mg. Apr. 24, 52.5 mg.
Hosanna Posted May 8, 2017 Author Posted May 8, 2017 So it seems like year 2 off of these psych drugs is worse than year one. I realize that my brain/CNS/ANS and all my systems are really messed up because of 1)long term AD use (especially Effexor), 2) coming off them way, way, way, way too fast a couple of times 3) taking Humira for psoriatic arthritis caused MS 4) a 9 month chemical assault of many meds/ on and off (by psych Drs). I unfortunately thought being chemical-free was the most important thing and getting them out of my body fast was best and that once they were out I would be better...but have since learned that a long slow change /taper is the best way. I had no idea. I can't undo what is done... the abrupt discontinuation (s) in reading through here, it seems like re-instating at this point would probably be too late and ineffective and potentially very dangerous (these drugs scare me so much now), I mean, it could be devastating. I have not taken antidepressant (or any other chemical medicine) for 17 months now. but life, currently, is an incredible challenge. how can it be worse in year 2? Honestly, I could use some encouragement from those those with experience and knowledge of this process. It doesn;t seem like I am any better. where are the windows? or maybe its the MS progressing? see how confusing this is? http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/user/9209-hosanna/ my story 12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load. ***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am. His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***
Hosanna Posted October 26, 2017 Author Posted October 26, 2017 I am assuming all of these symptoms discussed can show up and/or get worse, all of the sudden, in a protracted way? years after stopping and years after the (almost) cold turkeys ? can someone confirm? or are these symptoms just for while you are tapering and shortly after. It's so hard for me to tell cause and effect of things, being that I have been diagnosed with MS, Psoriatic Arthrtis, Psoriasis etc, (and of course MDD, GAD , BP2, etc.). there is a ton of overlap of symptoms. looking at MS symptoms and reading the MS support site experiences of others there is a lot of similarity between the MS experience and protracted withdraw. right now I am not taking any drugs. none for MS, none for arthritis, psoriasis, psych, etc... none. I am so afraid of bad reactions to drugs for anything (even tylenol etc.). my system seems to react poorly to everything. I live as healthy as I can, building a healthy body, staying away from anything that can be harmful in food, environment, etc.. I am, and have been hurting in so many ways ( a lot on the list) for so long and people think I'm crazy not taking medicine for some relief of these things. I don't get on here much because frankly I just cant. I'm coming up on 2 years without taking any antidepressants and having trouble finding any hope. I find it hard be ok with that just surviving another day, waiting for many more years, and being as naturally healthy as possible. I don't even think I've had any significant windows yet. just bad and worse and really really bad waves. any encouragement from you guys would be appreciated??? http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/user/9209-hosanna/ my story 12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load. ***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am. His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***
Hosanna Posted October 26, 2017 Author Posted October 26, 2017 any encouragement would be appreciated. this is awful. hard to keep hope. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/user/9209-hosanna/ my story 12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load. ***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am. His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***
Madeleine Posted October 26, 2017 Posted October 26, 2017 Hi Hosanna: What are you going through exactly now? What are your symptoms? 200 Zoloft; 10 mg Zyprexa; 4 mg valium as of May 2021; Valium taper: July 16: 3.5 valium; July 30: 3 mg (paused valium taper); Aug. 23: 2.5 mg Zyprexa: July 26: 8.75 mg; Aug. 9: 7.5 mg; Aug. 30: 7.1 mg ------- Dec 1, 2016. 10 mg zyprexa for 1.5 month. Started taper mid-Jan. 2017. Cut 1.25 mg every 2 weeks; smaller cuts 2.5 mg down. Stopped at .6 mg. May 7, 2017: zyprexa free. Zoloft: Dec1, 2016, 200 mg. Started taper: Jun12, 2017: 197.5 mg; Jun19,:195 mg; July 2:185mg; July 9,:180 mg; July16,: 175; July 23: 170; July 30: 165; Aug6: 160; Aug13: 155; Aug. 20: 150; Aug.27: 146 mg; Sept3: 145 mg; Sept10:143 mg; Sept17:140 mg....Nov5: 122 mg...Dec3:112.5 mg; Jan14, 2018: 95 mg...Jan28: 90 mg; Feb21:80 mg; Mar11: 75 mg; May2:70 mg; May15: 68 mg; May28: 65 mg; Jun9: 62 mg;Jun25: 60 mg:July22: 55 mg; Aug25: 45 mg. Aug28: 50 mg...Oct 28: 38 mg; Dec.4: 30 mg; Jan8,2019: 25mg; Feb6: 23.5 mg; Apr1:17.5mg; May1:1 mg; May 5: 18; May 18:15mg; June 16:12.5mg; Sept 10:11 mg; Sept.16:10 mg; Oct. 1: 9mg; Nov. 27: 8mg; Dec.5: 7mg; Jan.1,2020, 6 mg; Feb1: 5 mg; May 1: 2.5 mg; Jn 1: 2 mg; Jy 1: 1.5 mg
bhasski Posted October 26, 2017 Posted October 26, 2017 Hi, You will feel better, thats for sure. How much and when? thats for no one to say. I myself a victim of CT to get myself off of these poisons. Never knew how slow a taper could be before coming to this site. It got some better for me after almost 2 yrs off them... still trying different ways to get my life back, myself back. From my exp, it will get better.. try to have help of supplements or many other ways. Best wishes. 08/13 - 01/14Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem) 02/14 - 05/14Flunil 20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.2510/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)11/14 - 08/15Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T) 03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam. After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted October 28, 2017 Moderator Emeritus Posted October 28, 2017 I am quoting this post so that it appears as a new post in this topic because after moving it from the Dr Joseph Glenmullen Withdrawal Symptoms Checklist topic it ended up preceding a couple of more recent posts : On 27/10/2017 at 3:55 AM, Hosanna said: I am assuming all of these symptoms discussed can show up and/or get worse, all of the sudden, in a protracted way? years after stopping and years after the (almost) cold turkeys ? can someone confirm? or are these symptoms just for while you are tapering and shortly after. It's so hard for me to tell cause and effect of things, being that I have been diagnosed with MS, Psoriatic Arthrtis, Psoriasis etc, (and of course MDD, GAD , BP2, etc.). there is a ton of overlap of symptoms. looking at MS symptoms and reading the MS support site experiences of others there is a lot of similarity between the MS experience and protracted withdraw. right now I am not taking any drugs. none for MS, none for arthritis, psoriasis, psych, etc... none. I am so afraid of bad reactions to drugs for anything (even tylenol etc.). my system seems to react poorly to everything. I live as healthy as I can, building a healthy body, staying away from anything that can be harmful in food, environment, etc.. I am, and have been hurting in so many ways ( a lot on the list) for so long and people think I'm crazy not taking medicine for some relief of these things. I don't get on here much because frankly I just cant. I'm coming up on 2 years without taking any antidepressants and having trouble finding any hope. I find it hard be ok with that just surviving another day, waiting for many more years, and being as naturally healthy as possible. I don't even think I've had any significant windows yet. just bad and worse and really really bad waves. any encouragement from you guys would be appreciated??? * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management
Hosanna Posted November 9, 2017 Author Posted November 9, 2017 On 10/26/2017 at 1:17 PM, Madeleine said: Hi Hosanna: What are you going through exactly now? What are your symptoms? Madeleine thanks. I’d say 65% of “all of the above “ http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/user/9209-hosanna/ my story 12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load. ***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am. His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***
Hosanna Posted November 9, 2017 Author Posted November 9, 2017 On 10/26/2017 at 1:19 PM, bhasski said: Hi, You will feel better, thats for sure. How much and when? thats for no one to say. I myself a victim of CT to get myself off of these poisons. Never knew how slow a taper could be before coming to this site. It got some better for me after almost 2 yrs off them... still trying different ways to get my life back, myself back. From my exp, it will get better.. try to have help of supplements or many other ways. Best wishes. Thanks bhasski, needed that. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/user/9209-hosanna/ my story 12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load. ***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am. His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***
Hosanna Posted November 9, 2017 Author Posted November 9, 2017 Thanks Chessie Cat. I had posted that on that thread after reading the list of symptoms and those are what i was referring to in my question. Hell on earth. Doesn’t seem possible, yet here I am and it’s really my reality. Hard to keep the hope sometimes. Hurts so much and I️ feel so useless. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/user/9209-hosanna/ my story 12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load. ***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am. His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***
DMV64 Posted November 9, 2017 Posted November 9, 2017 Hello <3 I have been leaning heavily into my faith. It is helping. I believe it will get better. For all of us. Blessings, D 2001- Klonopin 0.125 mg. 2011- increase to 1 mg. 2018- increase to 1.5 mg. Taper 2023-2024. Taper complete! 2010- Trials of SSRI's, several. 2011- Saphris 5 mg. CT. 6/2017- retry Saphris 5 mg sublingual, begin taper August 2020 10% taper with scale, and final taper liquid sublingual, August 2019- taper complete! 2011- Geodon 20 mg. Begin taper Sept 2019. 10% liquid taper. 2020: December-5 mg. 2021: Jan-4.5mg. (held Feb.for vacation). March-4mg. Apr-3.6mg. May-3.2mg. June-2.8mg. (Held July for vacation). Aug-2.4mg. Sept.- 2.2mg. Oct. 2mg. Dec 2022 - Taper complete! 2011- Gabapentin 300 mg to present- 2020. Increase 2023 to 400mg. 2014- Vyvanse 20 mg, 2020- Vyvanse 5 mg. Increase August 2022 20mg. CT (unavailable) 4/2023 2016- Lithium 300 mg, June 2016 - FT. 2017- Cogentin 0.5 mg. June-August 2019- off Cogentin. 2018- Lamictal 300mg. Holding 2021 - Hydroxyzine 30mg. Holding. 2014 Omeprazole 20 mg and holding, Omega 3's/fish oil, Magnesium
Ali4 Posted November 9, 2017 Posted November 9, 2017 Welcome to SA Wow you have been through a lot! I’m sorry to hear this and how hard it is, especially 2 years out. It will get better, you have fought this hard already, keep fighting, you got this, one day at a time. Ali 10 years citalopram 30mg- tapered down in December 15/2015- Jan 15/2016 to 20mg for two weeks, ten for one week and five for another week, then stopped, less then two weeks later, sheer hell broke lose with debilitating withdrawal symptoms. Update-- reinstated 5mg of celexa on feb 5-- within hours noticed immediate difference in WD symptoms-- Holding holding and more holding. Updose- March 23/16 too 10mg- relieved the harsher head symptoms- current symptoms headaches, dizzy, numbness and tingling in my head. Benzos- 2015-Ativan on and off for 6 months 2mg- switched to clonazepam nov 2015- 2mg till Jan 2016 Zopiclone 7.5mg nov-dec 2015- was tapered off over 4weeks- Currently in protracted withdrawal. ???????????????????????????????? Update- ended up in the hospital April 18/16 major suicidal ( never had that before) was admitted/ been there ever since, put me back to full dose celexa 30mg no drugs added, IAM FINALLY STABLE AFTER 3 months of tortuous hell. Got a great physiatrist that new all about WD, he will help me taper properly in a couple of months at 5% deductions holding 8 weeks. I never want to relive that hell again. Udate- stable and holding, doing things slowly is key.
Hosanna Posted November 10, 2017 Author Posted November 10, 2017 22 hours ago, DMV64 said: Hello <3 I have been leaning heavily into my faith. It is helping. I believe it will get better. For all of us. Blessings, D Thanks DMV i appreciate that. It’s really hard ( the faith) especially times of mental/emotional/cognitive symptoms, having a body and brain that’s an endless torture chamber with innumerous torturers / tormentors. I pray but don’t always have hope. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/user/9209-hosanna/ my story 12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load. ***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am. His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***
Hosanna Posted November 10, 2017 Author Posted November 10, 2017 18 hours ago, Ali4 said: Welcome to SA Wow you have been through a lot! I’m sorry to hear this and how hard it is, especially 2 years out. It will get better, you have fought this hard already, keep fighting, you got this, one day at a time. Ali Thanks Ali, needed that. God Bless you. http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/user/9209-hosanna/ my story 12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load. ***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am. His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***
LexAnger Posted June 7, 2018 Posted June 7, 2018 Hi Hosanna, thank I you so much for your kindest work in Pug thread! I just thought to check on you here see how you are doing. I so hope you are seeing some improvement being off for 2 yrs! I often try to seek meaning and purpose of all these suffering in Gods plan. So far I only found what I can save for others by spreading the danger of these meds and and entire crashing medical communities. You ou are in my prayer, lex Drug free Sep. 23 2017 2009 Mar.: lexapro 10mg for headache for 2 weeks. 2009-2012: on and off 1/4 to 1/3 of 10mg 2012 June--2013 Jan,: 1/4-1/3 of 10mg generic, bad jaw pain 2013 Jan-Mar: 10 mg generic. severe jaw and head pain; 2013 Mar--Aug. started tapering (liquid ever since) from 10 to 5 (one step) then gradually down to 2.25 mg by July. first ever panic attack, severe head/jaw pain 2013 Aug.: back to 2.75 mg; Nov: back to Brand Lex. 2.75mg -- 3mg, 2014 June: stopped PPI, head pressure/numbness. up-dosed 4.5mg, severe reaction mental symptoms added on 2014 Aug--2015 Aug: Micro taper down to 3.2mg, .025mg (<1%) cut holding 2-3 weeks. 2015 Aug 15th, Accidental one dose of 4.2mg. worsening brain non-functional, swollen head, body, coma like, DR 2016 Feb., started dosing 10am through 11 pm everyday 2/13--3.2mg, 3/15-- 2.9mg, 4/19-- 2.6mg, 6/26--2.2mg, 7/22 --1.9mg, 8/16--1.8mg,8/31--1.7m g, 9/13--1.6mg, 9/27--1.5mg, 10/8--1.4mg, 10/14--1.3mg, 11/1--1.2mg, 11/29--1.1mg, 12/12--1mg, 12/22--0.9mg 2017: 1/7--0.8mg, 1/15--0.7mg, 1/17--0.6mg, 1/20--0.52, 1/21--0.4mg, 1/22--0.26, 1/23--0.2, 2/13--0.13mg, 2/20--0.06mg, 3/18--0.13mg, 6/1--0.12mg, 7/6--0.1mg, 7/14--0.08mg, 8/17--0.04mg, 8/20--0.03mg, 8/28--0.02mg, 9/6--0.0205mg, 9/8--0.02mg, 9/17--0.015mg, 9/20--0.01mg, 9/21--0.0048mg, 9/22--0.0001mg,
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