Dalalea Posted February 7, 2018 Share Posted February 7, 2018 What silver linings have you noticed during this horrible spot we find ourselves in? I'm practicing finding blessings in this mess to keep a positive attitude. I'll start! I felt so terrible when I had the actual flu in January. All of my withdrawal symptoms were competing with my flu symptoms! I feel like the flu recovery was finally happening for me and because of the horrible state I was in a few weeks ago, everything feels like a window! I'll take windows any way I can get them! Dalalea's Introduction Off All SSRI Medications: Effexor 2010 one monthSertraline 50 mg. but only took 25 mg. daily because of dizziness. 2010 to July 2017 Tapered over 2 months beginning the 1st of June 2017 -- Off Sertraline by July 30, 2017 Current Medication: Losartan (blood pressure), Albuterol (for asthma- only as needed)Current Symptoms: tinnitus, hearing loss in one ear, allergies My Plan: Prayer, Scripture, Walk, Yoga, Encourage Others, Healthy EatingGeneric SSRI Withdrawal Symptom and Plan Checklists and Graph.xlsx Current Supplements: Magnesium Threonate, Fish Oil, probiotic, B-12, C, D-3 Current Essential Oils: Frankincense, Bergamot, Orange, Lemon, Lavender, Peppermint, CloveCurrent Essential Oil Blends: Brain Power, Clarity, Stress Away Link to comment
NobodySpecial Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 Hey, I found that the utter heartbreak and despair has put me in touch with a tremendous wellspring of compassion and understanding for others. I've also become MUCH better at accepting discomfort and challenge. My whole fiasco started because I was obsessed with not sleeping and hated being tired, now I have a tremendous capacity to hold that discomfort caringly and not act it out. What other silver linings have you had @Dalalea? Taper commencing 14/06/18: Going down by 2.5mg per month from 35mg - once 2.5mg is bigger than the recommended 10%, I'll switch to a water solution. Planning to taper until October and then hold until 2019 - balancing study, work, life and holiday season. Medication / withdrawal history: Tapered July 2016 to October 2016, unsuccessful and reinstated to 30mg (didn't track specifics) Tapered March 2017 to August 2017, was unsuccessful and reinstated to 35mg (didn't track specifics). Current taper - started 1st January 2018 @ 32.5mg and 2.5mg per month until I reach a dose where 2.5 is > 10% of dose. Morning supplements: B complex, Niagen, COQ10, Black seed oil, Vitamin C, Zinc, Fish Oil, EGCG, Bosweilla Extract, Curcumin (Longvida), Vitamin D, R-ALA, NAC, Ashwagandha (occasionally), Epimedium / Icariin, Resveratol. Evening supplements: NatureCalm Magnesium, Glycine, Ashwagandha, Reishi, Schisandra, Melatonin. I also take Phenibut (maximum 3 times weekly at a dose that doesn't build tolerance) and Oleamide when required. Link to comment
Dalalea Posted February 13, 2018 Author Share Posted February 13, 2018 49 minutes ago, NobodySpecial said: What other silver linings have you had @Dalalea? I've learned to be thankful for small improvements. The windows I have aren't totally free of symptoms so I'm practicing seeing the small steps as something to be thankful for without being so impatient. I'm also learning so much as I go that I might be able to use to help someone else. I'm learning to trust my body and adjust accordingly. When I don't feel like moving much, I can still encourage others here! Dalalea's Introduction Off All SSRI Medications: Effexor 2010 one monthSertraline 50 mg. but only took 25 mg. daily because of dizziness. 2010 to July 2017 Tapered over 2 months beginning the 1st of June 2017 -- Off Sertraline by July 30, 2017 Current Medication: Losartan (blood pressure), Albuterol (for asthma- only as needed)Current Symptoms: tinnitus, hearing loss in one ear, allergies My Plan: Prayer, Scripture, Walk, Yoga, Encourage Others, Healthy EatingGeneric SSRI Withdrawal Symptom and Plan Checklists and Graph.xlsx Current Supplements: Magnesium Threonate, Fish Oil, probiotic, B-12, C, D-3 Current Essential Oils: Frankincense, Bergamot, Orange, Lemon, Lavender, Peppermint, CloveCurrent Essential Oil Blends: Brain Power, Clarity, Stress Away Link to comment
NobodySpecial Posted February 13, 2018 Share Posted February 13, 2018 That is so awesome @Dalalea! I like what you said about being able to help others. There's a figure in Buddhism called the Bodhisattva and she has a load of hands all holding different things. Each thing is a way in which she (us) has been wounded, broken and ultimately transformed. Sometimes reflecting on that is really reassuring. We help others through our own deep hurts Taper commencing 14/06/18: Going down by 2.5mg per month from 35mg - once 2.5mg is bigger than the recommended 10%, I'll switch to a water solution. Planning to taper until October and then hold until 2019 - balancing study, work, life and holiday season. Medication / withdrawal history: Tapered July 2016 to October 2016, unsuccessful and reinstated to 30mg (didn't track specifics) Tapered March 2017 to August 2017, was unsuccessful and reinstated to 35mg (didn't track specifics). Current taper - started 1st January 2018 @ 32.5mg and 2.5mg per month until I reach a dose where 2.5 is > 10% of dose. Morning supplements: B complex, Niagen, COQ10, Black seed oil, Vitamin C, Zinc, Fish Oil, EGCG, Bosweilla Extract, Curcumin (Longvida), Vitamin D, R-ALA, NAC, Ashwagandha (occasionally), Epimedium / Icariin, Resveratol. Evening supplements: NatureCalm Magnesium, Glycine, Ashwagandha, Reishi, Schisandra, Melatonin. I also take Phenibut (maximum 3 times weekly at a dose that doesn't build tolerance) and Oleamide when required. Link to comment
xyz Posted April 18, 2018 Share Posted April 18, 2018 i got hit with severe Tinnitus a couple of years ago and boy i have learned so much dealing with this condition and now going through med withdrawal. i am grateful for every day when i feel good. i have a lot more compassion for people who are suffering of any condition, pain, fear, depression. i have learned to live and enjoy my life one day at a time. i don't project myself in a year. i used to be a planner and hence an anxious person. i know now that i can endure physical discomfort and that my mental state tint greatly my experience. when i was at the bottom and wanted to end it all, i had an epiphany that we don;t live for ourselves. i have 2 small kids and i realize that just our existence affect people. this made me a much better mom. i don't waste my time on things that are not helping anymore. i live my life everyday by doing things that i always wanted to do. i don't postpone anything anymore. i lead a more purposeful life than i have never had. i want to build a legacy of goodness. and i have learned that NOTHING IS PERMANENT even if they feel this way. june 2014 to feb 2015- on xanax 0.25 to 1mg/day- then CT - jan 2016 - panic attack, went on 3.75mg remeron to sleep march 2016- CT remeron (because it caused me tinnitus)- deep depression, couldn't sleep because of intrusive Tinnitus april to june 2016- valium 4mg, xanax as needed, lunesta 3mg june 2016 - valium 4mg, lexapro 10mg oct 2016- valium 2mg, lexapro 10mg- hold march 2017- started daily micro liquid taper of valium and lex- -taper speed 0.0033mg valium daily and 0.033mg lex daily may 2018- valium 1mg, lexapro 2.4mg - i had to slow down the rate of my daily micro taper considerably LAST dose of Lexapro: 0.05mg on 05/17/19 LAST dose of valium: 0.04mg on 08/18/19 April 26th 2020- intense panic attack that lasted 4 days, akatisia, 0 sleep- suicidal, almost hospitalized- took rescue doses over 2 days- total: 1.5mg xanax, 18mg valium, 2x5mg lexapro Link to comment
RealMe Posted April 21, 2018 Share Posted April 21, 2018 On 4/18/2018 at 3:32 AM, xyz said: i got hit with severe Tinnitus a couple of years ago and boy i have learned so much dealing with this condition and now going through med withdrawal. i am grateful for every day when i feel good. i have a lot more compassion for people who are suffering of any condition, pain, fear, depression. i have learned to live and enjoy my life one day at a time. i don't project myself in a year. i used to be a planner and hence an anxious person. i know now that i can endure physical discomfort and that my mental state tint greatly my experience. when i was at the bottom and wanted to end it all, i had an epiphany that we don;t live for ourselves. i have 2 small kids and i realize that just our existence affect people. this made me a much better mom. i don't waste my time on things that are not helping anymore. i live my life everyday by doing things that i always wanted to do. i don't postpone anything anymore. i lead a more purposeful life than i have never had. i want to build a legacy of goodness. and i have learned that NOTHING IS PERMANENT even if they feel this way. Very inspiring, dear xyz! I also have tinnitus, and I look for encouraging posts from others who have it. Thank you for posting about your successful attitude. I am sure you are already building your legacy of goodness. xo RM Alcohol periodic excessive 1963-1976, Valium sporadic 1964-1973, Imipramine off & on 1982-1985, Fluoxetine 10mg-80 mg. Oct., 1995-Jan., 2014; Cymbalta, other ADs 1/2014-3/2014; Abilify 5 mg. 3/2014 - 8/8/17; Trintellix 20 mg. 3/2014 - 9/2017; Propranolol 60-80 mg. sporadically Sept-Oct, 2017; Seroquel few days Sept 2017 (c/t); Wellbutrin 150 mg. Sept, 2017 updosed to 300 mg. few days till c/t Oct 8, 2017, fish oil, vitD, vitE Oct 16, 2017-pres. Lipoflavonoid 4/2017-pres. Fluoxetine 10 mg. Sept-Oct 8, 2017, 20 mg. 10/9- 10/15; 10 mg. 10/16 - 12/29; 9 mg. 12/30 - 2/9; 2 mL liquid (8.1mg) 2/10 - 3/7; 1.8 mL (7.29 mg) 3/8 -3/20; 1.6 mL (6.561mg) 3/20-4/2; 1.4 mL (5.9 mg) 4/3-4/14; 1mL (4 mg.) 4/15-4/22; .9mL (3.6mg) 4/23-5/1; .81mL (3.24 mg) 5/2-5/24; .73mL (2.916mg.) 5/25-6/8; .65mL 6/9-6/23; .6mL 6/24-7/17; .58mL 7/18-7/28; .525mL 7/29-8/13; .5 mL 8/14-21; .45mL 8/22-31; .4mL 9/2-21; .35mL 9/22-10/4; .3mL 10/5-28; .25mL 10/28-11/10; .2mL 11/11-11/24; .18mL 11/25-12/3; .1mL 12/4-12/18. Zero-12/19/18-present. Link to comment
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