mirage tapering from Wellbutrin 150XL

[mirage]

Hi @Lolita I'm sorry to see you have been through a lot. 

 

I am improving. It is very, very, VERY slow but I am going in the right direction. I completely weaned off of Remeron and weaned from Wellbutrin 300 to 150. I am holding at the 150 dose until I am, absolutely, definitely, back to normal. At that point, I will decide what to do. 

 

I am still pretty burdened with constant dizziness. Although, it is not stopping me from working part time and from getting out and socializing. I did travel for the first time in August and I am taking another trip next week. 

 

Although I am doing quite a bit, it is very hard and I am pushing myself through. I want to make sure I have some qualities to my day. And, while a lot of my symptoms have gone away or lessened, I am still quite far from my normal self. 

 

Hope you get some relief soon. 

 

Hugs and prayers

[mirage]

Hi @Rosetta. Thank you for contacting me back. This darn sleep, or there lack of, is really difficult. I know I am so exhausted but my body responds with heightened symptoms instead of feeling tired. The dizziness just really ramps up. Gosh, if that symptom would just go away, I would be sooooo much better! It was the first to come and I have a feeling it is going to be the last to go.

 

How are you doing? I am praying that things are improving for you.

 

Sending hugs 

[Lolita]

Hi @mirage

First of all a big congrats for you getting off remeron ! That is awesome!

And take your time with wellbutrin so that all goes well!

 

Dizziness is a pain...I had that a lot but now thats not so much my main complain !! I mean I mostly feel tired, anxious and digestion is bad since a few days....and a bit short of breath...I hate this feeling! Makes me think about all kind of health issues I may have!

Im hypocondriac so all those symptoms since a year are really challenging my mind!

 

I started exercising since 2 weeks and happy about that. I think that and modifiying the way I eat might be helpful.

Im starting to make myself a bullet calendar so I write what I wish, what I do and to help making me a better routine and focus on positive things....but not always easy when you feel drained alk the time!

 

Take care and hope you have a good day!

[mirage]

Hi @Rabe. Thank you for responding. It has been crazy here for the past couple of weeks. I did do the sale for 2 days with my friend and I have been pretty swamped with clients. I did go to opening of the new store and spoke with the person who offered me the job. I decided not to take it at this time. Just not feeling ready to add this to my plate. 

 

I have been at the hospital most of this week. A close friend passed from cancer and another was admitted with sepsis and had to be shocked back twice. She is doing so much better and has been removed from the icu yesterday and placed in a step down unit. Despite all of this, I worked 16 hours this week and am doing okay. The worse symptom I have is the dizziness.

 

I took a break from it all yesterday and went on a day trip with a couple of girlfriends. Drove to a small town about 3 hours away and went to some of the shops there. We packed a picnic dinner and had a fun, day and evening. I didn't get back home until around midnight last night. 

 

All things are catching up to me as the dizziness today is really relentless. If that would just go away, I would be so good. It is just with me nonstop. Ugh!

 

How are you doing friend? 

 

Hugs and prayers

[mirage]

Stay positive @Lolita and strong. 

[Lolita]

Yes @mirage ! I have to! We all have to!

Thats why I join this forum...for help, support and bound with people who live similar journey!

[Rabe]

Gosh mirage that is wonderful!  Once the dizziness goes you are on your way!!!  You have done so much and your system is still doing well...that is

wonderful to hear.  I keep remembering what your brother in law? said ..... as much as I would like to do what the doctor suggested and just get rid of these meds I know that holding for now is best.  Had good day Wed and today so far is ok so am grateful.  Day at time.  

SO happy to know you are doing so well!!!  💜

[Rosetta]

HI.  To answer you I'm in a very nice window right now.  Thanks for asking.  I hope your dizziness will go.  Glad you are functioning anyway.  Take care, R

[mirage]

@Rosetta So wonderful you are in a good window right now! Perhaps it will stay and no more waves will come! I pray for that for you. 

 

Hugs

[Rabe]

Hope you are doing ok mirage!💜

[mirage]

Hi @Rabe. Thank you for checking on me. 

 

I have been doing pretty okay. The dizziness and head tension/pressure has been letting up a bit and I have been able to do more. I have been able to get out a lot with friends and I am taking another trip with my husband. I have also been able to pick up the pace a smidge with my workouts. Still cant run but i'm working toward it. 

 

Sleep is still rough but, that too, is getting better. For sure changes are happening and I am still having waves and windows but my waves are not bad at all. I am praying that my body is getting closer to homeostasis and this journey will soon be behind me. 

 

How are you doing?

[Carmie]

Hi Mirage, 

 

Lovely to hear you have been able to get out and about with lots of friends. That’s wonderful.

 

Have a nice trip with your husband💚

[Rabe]

SO happy to hear things are better mirage!!  I thought I just posted on your thread but I didnt!  I am going to go back and see what I did and come back....my mind!!

[Rabe]

I must have written it and not sent it...oh well.  I was saying that you are healing and taking steps in the right direction...but I have always thought you were taking those steps...in faith, hope, and love.  Enjoy your trip and your healing !  Hoping to get there with you!!💜

[Rabe]

Hoping things continue to go well mirage...think of you each day!💜

[mirage]

Hi @Rabe. Good to hear from you. I am doing pretty  well. I still have symptoms but they are much milder. I am, currently on another trip. We arrived on Saturday and will be leaving tomorrow. It has been a really fun and busy time. We are here with 2 other couples. We took a trip in early August and the difference between my symptoms and that trip and my symptoms now, is really remarkable. 

 

I am getting better but I still have some healing to do. Sleep is still not there, dizziness and head and jaw tension, comes and goes.The fake anxiety, is completely gone. 

 

Much of my life is getting back to normal and I am thanking God for his guidance and for giving me strength through this journey. I am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. 

 

How are you doing friend? 

 

Sending hugs and prayers to you.

[Rabe]

Oh so happy to hear mirage!  That is truly wonderful!

Honestly, I dont have a day that i feel good.  Very tired, anxiety just gets worse as day goes on sometimes I feel like Im losing my mind which is not

fun.  I feel like food is not a friend in any way.  Later at night used to be ok but that even has turned.  Sometimes better after the night CLonazepam.

Iti si hard to wake up with what has been lying ahead of me.  

I hope you have a beautiful rest of your time away.  Take care!  💜

[mirage]

@Rabe I am so sorry to hear you are suffering. It is the hardest recovery. The most difficult thing I have ever been through in my life. 

 

I am still battling symptoms but they are fading and life is getting pretty normal and good again. 

 

Stay strong friend and have faith in the Lord to walk you through this. 

 

I continue to keep you in my prayers friend. 

 

Sending hugs. 

[Carmie]

Hi Mirage, 

 

Hope you enjoy your trip. I’m so glad you’re doing well.

 

Sending hugs🤗

[Rabe]

Normal is SUCH a nice word mirage!!!  Blessings to you and thank you for the prayers!!💜

[mirage]

Hi @Rabe and @Carmie. My trip was good. Back home and getting the household back in order. Missed all of my 4 legged fur balls. 😀

 

Symptoms are still with me but milder and I am able to do just about anything I did before this journey began. I still have healing to do, not quite out of the woods yet but seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Praying for God to continue to give me strength and guidance. Saying the same prayer for you. 

 

Hugs friends. 

[Carmie]

Hi Mirage, 

 

Glad to hear you had a good trip n that you’re able to do pretty much anything now. That is amazing news. I hope you have many more adventures.

 

Im so glad that your symptoms are mild. One of these days you won’t have any at all.

 

Enjoy your day💚

[Rabe]

Normal is SUCH a nice word mirage!!!  Blessings to you and thank you for the prayers!!💜

[Rabe]

Hi Mirage!  Miss you!  Hope not hearing means you are doing really really well!!!  Just thinking about you lots! 💜 

[mirage]

Hi @Rabe. Thank you for checking in on me. I am doing pretty well. My worse days now, were my best days a few months ago. I'm still getting bouts of dizziness but they are much milder and do not last very long. I still get the brain frog, here and there. Sleep is still not sound. I have trouble falling asleep and I still, have not had a night, that I have stayed asleep. Although, I am able to fall back asleep. I also have been able to up my pace and  to a jog during my work out. Not back to a full running yet, but heading in that direction. I took a trip early this month and just booked another one for December. I am attending all social events and I am taking on a few more clients each week. Progress and healing are happening. I am not back to 100% but my symptoms no longer stop me. 

 

How are you doing? 

[Rosetta]

I'm glad to see you are feeling so much better!! -R

[mirage]

Hi @Rosetta. Thank you. How are you doing?

[Rabe]

Hi mirage...you are making me want to hold for a very long time!!!! Hope it continues!!!💜

[Carmie]

Hi Mirage, 

 

So great to read you’re doing well.

 

Sending hugs🤗

[mirage]

Hi @Carmie. Thank you for contacting me. I am doing pretty well. Some things are still off and I am not 100% yet but so much is better. 

 

How are you doing?

 

Sending hugs and prayers

[Carmie]

Hi Mirage, 

 

That’s wonderful you’re doing so well. I’m very happy for you.💚

[mirage]

Thank you Carmie. Still having windows and waves but the waves are milder and I am learning to recognize them and to not let myself get so upset over the symptoms when they get worse during the waves. 

 

It is all a waiting and patience game. Time is the only thing that seems to help us. 

 

Prayers and hugs to you friend. 

[Rosetta]

HI, mirage.  It's been a hard time lately.  I'm hoping this wave is almost most over.  I hope you are well.- Rosetta

[mirage]

Hi Rosetta. I am sorry to hear you are in a bad wave and struggling. It will clear soon and more healing would have taken place. 

 

This is a hard journey and you have to stay strong. 

 

God be with you and sending hugs. 

[Carmie]

Hi Mirage, 

 

Long time no hear. How have you been doing? Are your waves still continuing to be mild? Hope you’re doing okay. 

 

Sending sunshine your way☀️☀️☀️

 

 

[mirage]

Hi @Carmie. Thank you for checking in on me. All is going pretty well. I had a 2 week wave a few weeks ago and it was pretty rough. But, since then, all has been good. I was able to take a 5 day trip with my husband and friends and I a hosting dinner on Christmas Eve. So, very, very busy getting all done. 

 

How are you doing? I think about everyone often and I include you all in my daily prayers. God is good and we will all get through this. 

 

Merry Christmas friend. 

 

Hugs and blessings!