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Thanks to @Nicolas45140 for posting about this very interesting looking Panorama documentary due to broadcast on 19 June 2023 @8pm BST ☺️

 

The Antidepressant Story

 

In the UK, around one in seven now take an antidepressant. Globally they have made the pharmaceutical industry billions. When the current generation of drugs was launched 35 years ago, they promised a safe and effective treatment, free from the side effects of older medicines. But have they lived up to those claims?

While many people say they have benefited from taking them, Panorama reveals evidence of some companies trying to conceal concerns about their drugs, following patients who have suffered serious side effects as they continue their fight to be heard.

am not a medical professional. I provide information and make suggestions based on my own experience and SA guidelines. I am unable to respond to private messages. 

Mirtazepine 15mg Nov 2018 -April 2019  April - Sept 2019 Mirtazepine down to around 6mg - skipping days to taper

October 2019 - Dec 2019 unwell from failed taper including jumping about in doses 

15 December 2019 to 13 June 2021 15mg Mirtazepine 

14 June 2021 started brass monkey Slide.  
2021: 23 August 12.3mg, 28 October 11.1mg, 6 Dec 10mg

2022: 12 Feb 8.5, 25 Oct 4.5mg

2023: 16 Jan 3.6mg, 28 Sept 1.8mg

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I've just heard this being talked about on Radio 4 and it sounds very interesting.  It was heartening to hear about coverage of the issues people like you and I are going through, perhaps I should send the link to my GP 😆

Citalopram 20mg from 2014. Spring 2016 10mg for 4 weeks then stopped May 2016. Sept 2016, 20mg; increased briefly to 30mg but felt worse and dropped back to 20mg. May 2018 15mg. July 2018 10mg. May 2019 dropped to 7.5mg (ish).  Returned to 10mg from mid-June 2019. 16th Nov 19 gradually changed to 100% dissolved tablet over 2 weeks. 

2019 28th Nov 9mg.

2020 13th Jan 8.1mg. 11th Feb 7.3mg. 29th April 2020 6.57mg. 30th May 5.90mg. 21st July 5.31mg. 17th Sept 4.8mg.

2021 7th Feb 4.3mg. 29th Mar 3.8mg. 10th May 3.42mg. 19th June 3.12mg. 29th Sept 2.83mg. 10th Nov 2.55mg.

2022 7th Jan 2.3mg. 15th Feb 2.07mg. 15th Mar 1.87mg. 7th May 1.68mg. 20th June 1.5mg. 24th Sept 1.43mg. 12th Oct 1.35mg. 12th Nov 2022 commenced Brass Monkey method (mg values are those of the fourth drop where I'll hold for a least 2 weeks): 3rd Dec 1.25mg.

2023 4th Feb 1.097mg. 27th Mar 0.988mg.  8th May 0.89mg. 19th June 0.8mg.  14th Sept 0.72mg. 

2024 (commenced lower dose drops) 1st Jan 0.71mg. 8th Jan 0.70mg. 15th Jan 0.69mg. 22nd Jan 0.68mg. 29th Jan 0.66mg. 5th Feb 0.64mg. 12th Feb 0.6mg.  19th Feb 0.56mg. 25th Mar 0.52mg. 1st Apr 0.49mg. 8th Apr 0.47mg. 15th Apr 0.44mg. 22nd Apr 0.42mg.

 

Supplements:  Omega 3 Algae Oil, Vitamin D, Magnesium Citrate 

Non-AD prescribed drugs: Levothyroxine 200mg (since 1988), Amlodipine 5mg and Ramapril 10mg (since ~2005)

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Hello @Mamgu, I agree this is highlighting the problems. However, I do worry that they are still going to minimise the impact of the withdrawal symptoms which was its initial plan.  I am a member of Baylissa's group and gave my consent for my story and a conversation with Baylissa to be recorded for this purpose. However, the day of filming with Baylissa has been omitted as the focused has changed somewhat. I am 30 months from my last drug and still suffering so I for one really want to raise this so others do not have to experience such horrific symptoms. Further, the lack of knowledge and gaslighting in the medical profession is shocking.  I hope withdrawal will be highlighted but my husband will watch it and will let me know as I do not wished to be triggered given that I am in survival mode most of the time from a prescribed medication with no support from those who caused it.  Wishing you and us all a speedy recovery.

 

 

Started venlafaxine December 2016. Started to wean off Effexor over 16 months period and I had no issues at all. Stopped June 2020.  Unfortunately, I was under chronic stress from 4 deaths (1 was my mother) in the family amongst other things  and sunk back down in October 2020.  Rather than accepting this was chronic stress and grief, I panicked and went to the GP.

 

October 2020 prescribed Vortioxetine 10mg for 1 month and then increased to 15 mg ups advice from GP on for 7 weeks in total.  Had suicidal thoughts and off the wall anxiety.  Changed to Lexapro in mid December 2020, slow titration from 2.5mg up to 10mg.  After 7 weeks again off the wall anxiety. I was advised to take 5mg for one week and stop as I want to go 'au natural'.  Last SSRI was 30 January 2021.  

 

I was also prescribed diazepam and Zopiclone through the 4 months of taking SSRis to 'manage' the side effects and also for the withdrawal.   I am probably withdrawing from all drugs.

 

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I just read about this on the BBC News website, fantastic to see they are dedicating a whole programme to it. The article doesn't seem to be pulling any punches about long-term withdrawal effects, or dishonesty of drug companies, so hopefully the documentary will take the same approach.

 

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-65825012

Oct 2018 - Jun 2020: 10 mg per day generic Escitalopram in pill form.

Jul 2020 - Aug 2020: Switched to 9 mg per day of Cipralex drops to aid tapering.

Sep 2020 - Oct 2020: Taper to 8 mg.

Nov 2020 - Dec 2020: Taper to 7 mg.

Jan 2021 - Feb 2021: Taper to 6 mg.

Mar 2021 - Apr 2021: Taper to 5 mg.

May 2021 - Jun 2021: Taper to 4 mg.

Jul 2021 - Sep 2021: Taper to 3 mg.

Sep 2021 - Jan 2022: Taper to 2 mg.

Jan 2022: Stopped taking altogether.

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I am considering contacting them about a follow up. I haven’t seen it yet but I think something looking at those of us who are tapering and what we have to do every week to get off these awful drugs would be very useful to add to the debate. 

am not a medical professional. I provide information and make suggestions based on my own experience and SA guidelines. I am unable to respond to private messages. 

Mirtazepine 15mg Nov 2018 -April 2019  April - Sept 2019 Mirtazepine down to around 6mg - skipping days to taper

October 2019 - Dec 2019 unwell from failed taper including jumping about in doses 

15 December 2019 to 13 June 2021 15mg Mirtazepine 

14 June 2021 started brass monkey Slide.  
2021: 23 August 12.3mg, 28 October 11.1mg, 6 Dec 10mg

2022: 12 Feb 8.5, 25 Oct 4.5mg

2023: 16 Jan 3.6mg, 28 Sept 1.8mg

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Good to see Horowitz, Healy and Moncrieff featuring on the programme. There will be a lot of people watching tonight wondering about what they’re taking and why. Nobody better than Panorama to get to the bottom of something like this.

 

Edit: Should’ve waited longer, great to see Adele appearing.

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MEDICATION:

1) Sertraline:

50mg - Oct 2020, 100mg - Dec 2020, 50mg - April 2021, 75mg - May 2021, 50mg - Sep 2021; Failed taper attempt (50 -> 49) - Jan 2024; Second attempt to start taper - 17 Feb 2024

Current dose: 48.9mg (Feb 2024)

2) Mirtazapine:

15mg  - Nov 2020

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Cod liver oil

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So good to see all these experts. Let's hope it will help spread awareness. 

 

September  2020 till December 2020

Wellbutrin and Ativan at the start

Fast taper.  

No drugs for 2 years.

December 2022- 3 days celexa 3 days prozac. Severe adverse reaction and withdrawal for 2 weeks. 

February 2023 till March 2023 zoloft. A total of 5 weeks. 12.5 mg and 25 mg

Had severe adverse reactions while taking Zoloft but wanted to push through with Klonopin.

When I developed severe SI I stopped and had intense withdrawal symptoms.

Drug free since March 15th

 

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I thought that was brilliant, and so great to see it on prime time BBC.

 

There was no equivocation, and all of the appropriate voices were heard fully.

 

I’ve no doubt the BBC will get it in the neck from some quarters tomorrow, but that’s to be expected.

 

Oh, and we’re famous! 😁

Oct 2018 - Jun 2020: 10 mg per day generic Escitalopram in pill form.

Jul 2020 - Aug 2020: Switched to 9 mg per day of Cipralex drops to aid tapering.

Sep 2020 - Oct 2020: Taper to 8 mg.

Nov 2020 - Dec 2020: Taper to 7 mg.

Jan 2021 - Feb 2021: Taper to 6 mg.

Mar 2021 - Apr 2021: Taper to 5 mg.

May 2021 - Jun 2021: Taper to 4 mg.

Jul 2021 - Sep 2021: Taper to 3 mg.

Sep 2021 - Jan 2022: Taper to 2 mg.

Jan 2022: Stopped taking altogether.

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I agree, my husband watched it as i was worried it would trigger me.  He said it was very well produced, didn't tell us anything we did not really know from years of research but good to spread awareness.  I am glad The Royal College of Psychiatrists apologised to all of us who have suffered. My husband would have liked more on the brutal side effects he has witnessed aside from the sexual side effects to give more credence to those who have and continue to suffer.  The awareness and acknowledgment, although too little to late for some of us, is most welcome as the medical profession should  not be able to gaslight or say "I have never heard of withdrawal lasting that long' now as we have the evidence. 

 

 

Started venlafaxine December 2016. Started to wean off Effexor over 16 months period and I had no issues at all. Stopped June 2020.  Unfortunately, I was under chronic stress from 4 deaths (1 was my mother) in the family amongst other things  and sunk back down in October 2020.  Rather than accepting this was chronic stress and grief, I panicked and went to the GP.

 

October 2020 prescribed Vortioxetine 10mg for 1 month and then increased to 15 mg ups advice from GP on for 7 weeks in total.  Had suicidal thoughts and off the wall anxiety.  Changed to Lexapro in mid December 2020, slow titration from 2.5mg up to 10mg.  After 7 weeks again off the wall anxiety. I was advised to take 5mg for one week and stop as I want to go 'au natural'.  Last SSRI was 30 January 2021.  

 

I was also prescribed diazepam and Zopiclone through the 4 months of taking SSRis to 'manage' the side effects and also for the withdrawal.   I am probably withdrawing from all drugs.

 

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3 minutes ago, BooBoo19 said:

I agree, my husband watched it as i was worried it would trigger me.  He said it was very well produced, didn't tell us anything we did not really know from years of research but good to spread awareness.  I am glad The Royal College of Psychiatrists apologised to all of us who have suffered. My husband would have liked more on the brutal side effects he has witnessed aside from the sexual side effects to give more credence to those who have and continue to suffer.  The awareness and acknowledgment, although too little to late for some of us, is most welcome as the medical profession should  not be able to gaslight or say "I have never heard of withdrawal lasting that long' now as we have the evidence. 

 

The apology was profound, it made me feel off-kilter (read: got teary). Another step in the right direction.

 

Wishing you peace, BooBoo x

Citalopram 20mg from 2014. Spring 2016 10mg for 4 weeks then stopped May 2016. Sept 2016, 20mg; increased briefly to 30mg but felt worse and dropped back to 20mg. May 2018 15mg. July 2018 10mg. May 2019 dropped to 7.5mg (ish).  Returned to 10mg from mid-June 2019. 16th Nov 19 gradually changed to 100% dissolved tablet over 2 weeks. 

2019 28th Nov 9mg.

2020 13th Jan 8.1mg. 11th Feb 7.3mg. 29th April 2020 6.57mg. 30th May 5.90mg. 21st July 5.31mg. 17th Sept 4.8mg.

2021 7th Feb 4.3mg. 29th Mar 3.8mg. 10th May 3.42mg. 19th June 3.12mg. 29th Sept 2.83mg. 10th Nov 2.55mg.

2022 7th Jan 2.3mg. 15th Feb 2.07mg. 15th Mar 1.87mg. 7th May 1.68mg. 20th June 1.5mg. 24th Sept 1.43mg. 12th Oct 1.35mg. 12th Nov 2022 commenced Brass Monkey method (mg values are those of the fourth drop where I'll hold for a least 2 weeks): 3rd Dec 1.25mg.

2023 4th Feb 1.097mg. 27th Mar 0.988mg.  8th May 0.89mg. 19th June 0.8mg.  14th Sept 0.72mg. 

2024 (commenced lower dose drops) 1st Jan 0.71mg. 8th Jan 0.70mg. 15th Jan 0.69mg. 22nd Jan 0.68mg. 29th Jan 0.66mg. 5th Feb 0.64mg. 12th Feb 0.6mg.  19th Feb 0.56mg. 25th Mar 0.52mg. 1st Apr 0.49mg. 8th Apr 0.47mg. 15th Apr 0.44mg. 22nd Apr 0.42mg.

 

Supplements:  Omega 3 Algae Oil, Vitamin D, Magnesium Citrate 

Non-AD prescribed drugs: Levothyroxine 200mg (since 1988), Amlodipine 5mg and Ramapril 10mg (since ~2005)

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Saw it tonight - it made my day. 

 

It was measured and well presented showing both sides of the story.

 

So great to see Adele Framer and Mark Horowitz calmly explaining their experience and other brave clinicians like Joanna Moncrieff and David Healy.  Fair dues to Wendy Burns as the former head of the Royal College of Psychiatrists - it takes real humility to apologise and to have finally recognised withdrawal - I think the UK is the first country in the world where a college of psychiatrists have done so.  

 

Since the programme aired I see from the activity that loads of new users have joined in the past few hours.

 

 

Currently tapering Mirtazapine; previously tapered Cymbalta 30mg from June 2018-Feb 2019 and Seroquel 150mg to zero from Oct-December 2020.

Supplements for Hashimoto's disease and histamine issues relating to Mirtazapine:   Vitamin D3 1,000mcg, bio-identical HRT, Selenium, Quercetin, Lutein, Zinc, Vitamin C, Omega 3.

Mirtazapine Taper: 2021 16th Aug -  transitioned to liquid from tablet by dissolving two 15mg tablets into a solution of 15 ml water and 15 ml maple syrup on a starting dose of what I thought was 7.5ml; 17 Sept  - 7.31; 24 Sept  - 7.13; 15 Oct  - 6.95; 6 Nov  - 6.78; 21 Nov  - 6.61; 5 Dec  - 6.51;

2022 - 1 Jan 6.41; 1 Feb  - 6.1; 9 Mar -  5.8; 13 Mar - 5.9; 7 Apr - 5.8; 21 Apr - 5.7; 7 May - 5.63; 23 May - 5.55; 8 June 5.50;  (got COVID on 12th June so held); 1 July 5.4; 15 July 5.32; 8 Aug 5.2; 15 Aug 5.1; 22 Aug 5; 19 Sept 4.9; 2 Oct 4.81; 13 Oct 4.71; (COVID Booster 17/10/22 so longer hold ); 1 Nov 4.65; 3 Nov 4.60; 10 Nov 4.55; 13 Nov 4.50; 17 Nov 4.45; 20 Nov 4.40;  2 Dec 4.30mg; 9 Dec 4.20mg; I discovered that the volumetric container measured 33ml rather than 30ml in Dec 2022. Following helpful advice from moderator OnMyWay (see her  reply of the 5th March) discovered taper with the dilution was 3.8mg (calculated by dividing 30/33 so that every 1ml of solution has  0.90ml of Mirtazapine.  7.50 - 0.90= 6.6ml which was the starting dose on 16th Aug 2021 not 7.5ml).  I decided to keep using the solution as I didn't want more change to deal with than I had to.

2023 17 Mar 4.1(3.7); 26 Mar 4.0(3.6); 14 Apr 3.9(3.51)28 Apr 3.8(3.42); 6 Jun 3.7(3.33); 19 Jun 3.6(3.24); 30 Jun 3.5(3.1); 19 Jul 3.4(3.06); 27 Jul 3.35 (3.01); 29 Jul 3.3 (2.97); 4 Aug 3.25 (2.92); 7 Aug 3.2 (2.88); 21 Aug 3.1 (2.79); 14.09 3 (2.7); 29th Sept 2.9(2.61); 15 Oct 2.8(2.52); 30 Oct 10 2.7(2.43); 13 Nov 2.65(2.38); 20 Nov 2.6(2.34); 26 Nov 2.55(2.29); 10 Dec 2.5(2.25); 

2024 - 14 Jan 2.45(2.20); 22 Jan 2.40(2.16); 29 Jan 2.35(2.11); 2 Feb 2.3 (2.07);15 Feb 2.25(2.02); 22 Feb 2.21 (1.98); 29 Feb 2.17(1.95); 7 Mar 2.13(1.91); 21 Mar 2.05 (1.84); 31 Mar 2.01 (1.80); 14 Apr 1.90 (1.71);

 

This is not 'medical advice' - my 'non medical advice' is don't get any more 'medical advice' or you may end up getting more 'medical treatment' i.e more drugs, DSM labels and/or ECT.   Please do not PM me thanks.

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This happened just now? Interesting.

Oct 2015: Started Zoloft, brought up to 50mg  Nov 2017: Zoloft Increased to 100mg 

Sept 2021: Taper up to 150mg Lamictal.

Oct 2022: Zoloft decreased to 50mg, akathisia 

Jan 2023: Zoloft decreased to 25mg

Feb 2023: Taper off of Lamictal 150mg to 100mg, get off mid Feb

mid Jan 2023: Got completely off Zoloft

Apr 2023: New onset of anxiety, depression and fatigue, worried it may be PAWS, akathisia

4/20/23: Reinstate Zoloft at 2mg for four days, parents found out and made me stop

4/24/23: up dose to 12.5mg

5/20/23: up dose to 25mg, taking 0.5mg Klonopin 3 times a day, getting interdose withdrawals in between 

 

 

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7 hours ago, Faure said:

 

I am considering contacting them about a follow up. I haven’t seen it yet but I think something looking at those of us who are tapering and what we have to do every week to get off these awful drugs would be very useful to add to the debate

 

This definitely needs a follow-up as there is also the protracted withdrawal  community.  Those of us with protracted DIND (psychiatric drug induced neurological dysfunction).  So many of us were fast tapered by GPs and left with long standing neurological dysfunction.

 

 

Can I ask is there anyone in the UK who can get this on YouTube or any other format for those of us outside the UK who cannot access the BBC? 

 

Lexapro Fast Track/ Cold Turkey

Last dose end Dec 2018 

Tapered 1/2 a daily dose a week (20mg) for  14 weeks, last dose was a 20 mg pill!!  

 3.5 times slower than Psychiatrist recommended, I felt proud of myself!! Little did I know!!!!Got too scared to reinstate because I’d left it too long.

On ADs for 20 years (Prozac approx 10 years/ Pristiq approx 3 years/ Citalipram approx 2 years/. Lexapro a approx  5 years/. Last two years 40mgs Lexapro day.

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7 hours ago, Katy398 said:

Can I ask is there anyone in the UK who can get this on YouTube or any other format for those of us outside the UK who cannot access the BBC? 


Not that I know of. I’m sorry you are suffering protracted WD. I thought when watching it yesterday that they should visit those really suffering so others can see. It was great to see @Altostrata being interviewed. 
 

I really liked how attention was drawn to doctors denying symptoms of WD. So much of the programme spoke directly to my own experience. 

am not a medical professional. I provide information and make suggestions based on my own experience and SA guidelines. I am unable to respond to private messages. 

Mirtazepine 15mg Nov 2018 -April 2019  April - Sept 2019 Mirtazepine down to around 6mg - skipping days to taper

October 2019 - Dec 2019 unwell from failed taper including jumping about in doses 

15 December 2019 to 13 June 2021 15mg Mirtazepine 

14 June 2021 started brass monkey Slide.  
2021: 23 August 12.3mg, 28 October 11.1mg, 6 Dec 10mg

2022: 12 Feb 8.5, 25 Oct 4.5mg

2023: 16 Jan 3.6mg, 28 Sept 1.8mg

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8 hours ago, Katy398 said:

This definitely needs a follow-up as there is also the protracted withdrawal  community.  Those of us with protracted DIND (psychiatric drug induced neurological dysfunction).  So many of us were fast tapered by GPs and left with long standing neurological dysfunction.

 

 

Can I ask is there anyone in the UK who can get this on YouTube or any other format for those of us outside the UK who cannot access the BBC? 

 

 

At this point, it's probably region locked to the UK (unless the BBC upload it to YouTube), but if you have a VPN you may be able to watch it on the BBC iPlayer website, which is their streaming service.

Oct 2018 - Jun 2020: 10 mg per day generic Escitalopram in pill form.

Jul 2020 - Aug 2020: Switched to 9 mg per day of Cipralex drops to aid tapering.

Sep 2020 - Oct 2020: Taper to 8 mg.

Nov 2020 - Dec 2020: Taper to 7 mg.

Jan 2021 - Feb 2021: Taper to 6 mg.

Mar 2021 - Apr 2021: Taper to 5 mg.

May 2021 - Jun 2021: Taper to 4 mg.

Jul 2021 - Sep 2021: Taper to 3 mg.

Sep 2021 - Jan 2022: Taper to 2 mg.

Jan 2022: Stopped taking altogether.

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I found myself watching much of it grinning ear to ear as all my own experiences were brought to light and validated through others on the programme. I can only hope those that sought to deny my (and others’) symptoms were watching as well, though I have doubt in that area. 
 

When Luke mentioned not being able to go outside for 3 years it struck a very deep chord with my personal experience the last 2.5 years.

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Active Monday-Friday UK time

 

MEDICATION:

1) Sertraline:

50mg - Oct 2020, 100mg - Dec 2020, 50mg - April 2021, 75mg - May 2021, 50mg - Sep 2021; Failed taper attempt (50 -> 49) - Jan 2024; Second attempt to start taper - 17 Feb 2024

Current dose: 48.9mg (Feb 2024)

2) Mirtazapine:

15mg  - Nov 2020

SUPPLEMENTS:

Cod liver oil

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1 minute ago, Erimus said:

I found myself watching much of it grinning ear to ear as all my own experiences were brought to light and validated through others on the programme. I can only hope those that sought to deny my (and others) symptoms were watching as well, though I have doubt in that area. 
 

When Luke mentioned not being able to go outside for 3 years it struck a very deep chord with my personal experience the last 2.5 years.

 

So true.

 

One thing I've noticed in these shows is that the doctors who try to defend antidepressants always use the most extreme cases as if they're the most common. One of them did it in this too, saying the drugs 'saved lives'.

 

In some cases, that's absolutely true, but the vast majority of people who have been given these drugs aren't anywhere near that level, or the people given them off-label for pain relief. If 1 in 7 people in the UK (1 in 4 women) is suicidal, then we have a serious problem!

 

He also completely ignored the number of people that feel suicidal because of the withdrawal, who never have before.

Oct 2018 - Jun 2020: 10 mg per day generic Escitalopram in pill form.

Jul 2020 - Aug 2020: Switched to 9 mg per day of Cipralex drops to aid tapering.

Sep 2020 - Oct 2020: Taper to 8 mg.

Nov 2020 - Dec 2020: Taper to 7 mg.

Jan 2021 - Feb 2021: Taper to 6 mg.

Mar 2021 - Apr 2021: Taper to 5 mg.

May 2021 - Jun 2021: Taper to 4 mg.

Jul 2021 - Sep 2021: Taper to 3 mg.

Sep 2021 - Jan 2022: Taper to 2 mg.

Jan 2022: Stopped taking altogether.

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Wow it got onto YouTube very quickly!!!!



 
 
 
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Lexapro Fast Track/ Cold Turkey

Last dose end Dec 2018 

Tapered 1/2 a daily dose a week (20mg) for  14 weeks, last dose was a 20 mg pill!!  

 3.5 times slower than Psychiatrist recommended, I felt proud of myself!! Little did I know!!!!Got too scared to reinstate because I’d left it too long.

On ADs for 20 years (Prozac approx 10 years/ Pristiq approx 3 years/ Citalipram approx 2 years/. Lexapro a approx  5 years/. Last two years 40mgs Lexapro day.

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Those out of the UK may want to watch it sooner rather than later as the BBC may take it down. 
 

 

Lexapro Fast Track/ Cold Turkey

Last dose end Dec 2018 

Tapered 1/2 a daily dose a week (20mg) for  14 weeks, last dose was a 20 mg pill!!  

 3.5 times slower than Psychiatrist recommended, I felt proud of myself!! Little did I know!!!!Got too scared to reinstate because I’d left it too long.

On ADs for 20 years (Prozac approx 10 years/ Pristiq approx 3 years/ Citalipram approx 2 years/. Lexapro a approx  5 years/. Last two years 40mgs Lexapro day.

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Just watched it.  Wow!  It's very validating to those who have suffered and continue to suffer.  Although not one of us truly wants to be here, it makes me proud to be a part of this online community. ❤️

Disclaimer:  This is not professional medical advice but is based on personal experience only.

1994 - 2017:  Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Paxil, Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Seroquel, Buspar, Lorazepam, Xanax, Ambien

2005-present:  Trazodone 50 mg 

2017:  Effexor XR 37.5 >> 75 mg 

2020 (March):  Began 10% monthly taper of Effexor XR (got down to 12 mg)

2021 (September):  Completely crashed.  Went back up to 37.5 mg but in doing so I kindled myself

2024:  1/1:  35.6 mg (-6 beads)  |  2/1:  33.8 mg (-11 beads)  |  3/1:  32.1 mg (-16 beads)  |   4/1:  (-18 beads)

Reasons for starting psych meds:  PMDD/Depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder

Other medications:  Levothyroxine 75 mcg

Supplements:  Dr. Berg's Electrolyte Powder on occasion   

 

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I was amazed to see this on prime time UK TV. I was thrilled. Brilliant to see alto on there although personally I think she should have been on it more lol. 

I agree there should be a follow up because it felt like they were just dipping their toes into the subject bit so good to see it starting to break through into the mainstream. 

Personally I didn't care for the apology by Wendy. Saying sorry but isn't really an apology. 

Well done @Altostrata for getting to speak up and flying thr flag for all of us. 

2015- Jan 2021 20mg Citalapram

Jan 2021- April 2021 Sertraline (CT)

June 2021 - Fluoxetine & Trazadone

Oct 2021- Trazadone to Quitiapin 

Oct 2021 to June 2022 switches Duloxetine then paroxatine then Venlafaxine.

June 2022- venlafaxine for 5 or 6 weeks at 37.5 twice daily. Upped for one week to 75mg twice daily but caused panic attacks. Dropped back down to 37.5 twice daily. Panic attacks stopped. 

1 week- 62.5mg 1 week- 50mg 1 week- 37.5mg 1 week - 25mg 

ANTIDEPRESSANT FREE SINCE JULY 22ND 2022!! 

18/05/23 - 01-06/23 doxycycline for a rat bite 

Taken propranalol since 2015. 80mg.

21/11/22 76mg. 28/11/22 72mg. 05/12/22 68mg. 19/12/22 64mg. 27/12/22 60mg. 02/01/23 56mg. 09/01/23 50mg. 16/01/23 47mg. 23/01/23 44mg. 29/01/23 40mg. 05/02/23 38mg. 12/02/23 35mg. 19/02/23 32mg. 25/02/23 27mg. 04/03/23 25mg. 11/03/23 22mg. 17/03/23 19mg. 24/03/23 20mg. 05/04/23 18mg. 11/04/23 16mg. 17/04/23 14mg. 27/04/23 20mg. 19/06/23 19mg. 25/06/23 20mg. 04/08/23 18mg. 11/08/23 17mg. 16/08/23 16mg. 25/08/23 15mg. 01/09/23 14mg. 08/09/23 13mg. 15/08/23 12mg. 22/09/23 11mg. 29/09/23 10mg. 19/11/23 9mg. 26/11/23 8mg. 03/12/23 7mg. 10/12/23 6mg. 17/12/23 5mg. 24/12/23 4mg. 31/01/23 3mg. 07/01/24 2mg. 13/01/24 1mg. 19/01/24 0mg. DONE! 

 

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5 hours ago, Katy398 said:

Those out of the UK may want to watch it sooner rather than later as the BBC may take it down. 
 

 

 

Thank you!! I was bumped out it was location-restricted on the BBC website and didn't have much luck with free VPNs yet. Paying 10 euros for a 1-month VPN subscription for just one video felt very expensive. I've downloaded it from Youtube, so at least it's safe on my hard drive.

2006 - Paroxetine, 20 mg

2008 / 2018 - Several mostly unsuccessful attempts at tapering, without knowledge of withdrawal

2019 - Decrease from 20 mg to 15 mg (June), from 15 mg to 10 mg (Dec)

2020 - Switch to 10 mg liquid citalopram (Feb), decrease to 8 mg (Apr), 6 mg (June), 4 mg (July) without clear symptoms. 3.2 mg (Sep 9), 3 mg (Sep 23), 2.8 mg (Oct 10), 2.6 mg (Oct 26), 2 mg (Nov 13).  Tapered to 1.68 mg in steps of 0.16 mg (Dec 3). Withdrawal kicked in hard. Increase to 1.8 mg (Dec 8), increase to 1.92 mg (Dec 18)

2021 - Increase to 2.2 mg (Jan 1), decrease to 2 mg (Feb 8 ), 1.92 mg (March 21), 1.8 mg (Apr 2), 1.68 mg (Apr 25), 1.56 mg (June 6), 1.52 mg (Sep 5), 1.48 mg (Sep 20), 1.44 mg (Oct 4), 1.4 mg (Oct 18), 1.36 (Nov 1)

2022 - 1.32 mg (Feb 4) - Covid (March 7) - 1.28 mg (Jul 21), 1.24 mg (Oct 3), 1.2 mg (Nov 26)

2023 - Holding at 1.2 mg

 

Other medication: sumatriptan 50 mg, when needed (migraine)

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It meant a lot to me to hear about what I've gone through being validated, hearing about it being spoken by others and discussed by experts. I just kept shouting 'yes!' at the screen every time someone described the same thing that I experienced, it's amazing what a difference it makes to see and hear someone say it out loud. Watching this programme makes me feel able to be more open and talk about what I've gone through with others, finally I can say that I experienced antidepressant withdrawal and have something to back it up.

 

I would have liked them to explain more clearly the range and severity of withdrawal symptoms, and the impact of protracted withdrawal. It definitely needs a follow up programme to go in a little deeper. This is something that I think GPs aren't currently aware of and able to recognise, at least from my own experience.

 

As a result of this programme I came across two interesting things on the BBC panorama twitter comments. A list of useful resources for withdrawal and a survey in response to the programme to improve services for antidepressant withdrawal. https://leap4pdd.org/resources-for-individuals/

Sep 2021: Amitriptyline 25mg daily for Shingles. 

Nov 2021: - 6 week taper to 1/4 of 10mg Amitriptyline.

Jan 2022: Stopped Amitriptyline.

Aug 2022-Now: 1/2 tablet 25mg Diphenhydramine v. occasionally.

Sep 2022-May 2023: magnesium, omega 3, calcium and multivitamin.

Nov 2022-20mg Citalopram for 5 days only.

April 2023-Now: Significant improvement, mild symptoms, 1 tablet certrezine, occasionally.

 

 

 

 

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Hello all, I agree with all that has been said, what is disappointing is they have known this for over 20 years and have done very little about it.  I gave up after 4 months with my GP and have just continued with support from this forum and others.  I have completed the survey and I hope many others do.  The one and only helpline in the UK that was fantastic has lost its funding, which is surprising given the size of the problem.  I get most upset that if I was on a street drug (which I have never taken) I would have received much more support from professionals and most probably have been healed much sooner with proper rehabilitation. It is hard to stay positive when experiencing such awful symptoms, but we must all stay strong and spread the word.

 

 

Started venlafaxine December 2016. Started to wean off Effexor over 16 months period and I had no issues at all. Stopped June 2020.  Unfortunately, I was under chronic stress from 4 deaths (1 was my mother) in the family amongst other things  and sunk back down in October 2020.  Rather than accepting this was chronic stress and grief, I panicked and went to the GP.

 

October 2020 prescribed Vortioxetine 10mg for 1 month and then increased to 15 mg ups advice from GP on for 7 weeks in total.  Had suicidal thoughts and off the wall anxiety.  Changed to Lexapro in mid December 2020, slow titration from 2.5mg up to 10mg.  After 7 weeks again off the wall anxiety. I was advised to take 5mg for one week and stop as I want to go 'au natural'.  Last SSRI was 30 January 2021.  

 

I was also prescribed diazepam and Zopiclone through the 4 months of taking SSRis to 'manage' the side effects and also for the withdrawal.   I am probably withdrawing from all drugs.

 

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I haven't seen it but will try to for the apology alone, one of the things that has hurt me the most was in the complete overwhelm of symptoms the GP and psychiatrist shrugged in my face and had I not found this amazing forum (and thank you to all of you who make it so) I don't think I would have survived antidepressants at all. 

2010: Adverse reaction to citalopram/suicidal.

2010-2014: Venlafaxine doses 75-150-300. Began to cause heart palpitations.

2014: Adverse side effects from Sertraline

2014: Adverse reaction to Mirtazipine/suicidal. CT withdrawal. 

2014: Accute adverse reaction to one prozac pill. Body & brain went on fire. Full WD

2015: Half dose of Lorazepam restarted all the WD symptoms. 

2017: Bad reaction to stopping propranolol beta blockers. Violent shaking WD again.
2023: Severe adrenaline surges triggered by low frequency sound/vibration next door. Heart rate going dangerously high so now 25mg atenolol.

 

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Current other medications: Metformin (type ii diabetic), Lymecycline (for rosacea), Atenolol 25mg. 

 

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On 6/20/2023 at 4:25 PM, Faure said:

I really liked how attention was drawn to doctors denying symptoms of WD. So much of the programme spoke directly to my own experience. 

Me too. 
I’m sorry you are here too. I saw it during the brief timeframe that it was on YouTube now trying to work out how to share to others outside UK. 
Take care K 🙏

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Last dose end Dec 2018 

Tapered 1/2 a daily dose a week (20mg) for  14 weeks, last dose was a 20 mg pill!!  

 3.5 times slower than Psychiatrist recommended, I felt proud of myself!! Little did I know!!!!Got too scared to reinstate because I’d left it too long.

On ADs for 20 years (Prozac approx 10 years/ Pristiq approx 3 years/ Citalipram approx 2 years/. Lexapro a approx  5 years/. Last two years 40mgs Lexapro day.

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13 hours ago, AprilShowers said:

one of the things that has hurt me the most was in the complete overwhelm of symptoms the GP and psychiatrist shrugged in my face and had I not found this amazing forum (and thank you to all of you who make it so) I don't think I would have survived antidepressants at all

Absolutely this is the one thing for me that made the journey so traumatic. 

Lexapro Fast Track/ Cold Turkey

Last dose end Dec 2018 

Tapered 1/2 a daily dose a week (20mg) for  14 weeks, last dose was a 20 mg pill!!  

 3.5 times slower than Psychiatrist recommended, I felt proud of myself!! Little did I know!!!!Got too scared to reinstate because I’d left it too long.

On ADs for 20 years (Prozac approx 10 years/ Pristiq approx 3 years/ Citalipram approx 2 years/. Lexapro a approx  5 years/. Last two years 40mgs Lexapro day.

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I'll be honest, I have mixed feelings about watching this, because I was in touch with the producers since January trying to work out how I could contribute, including video calls and even meeting in person, though it pretty much went nowhere, and we lost touch in April. I thought it a shame at the time, and I eventually let the disappointment go.


However, they then reached out through Altostrata in June to solicit a reading of one of my posts, which I went out of my way to supply. Didn't make the programme, no fee was offered, a whole bunch of my time was wasted, and considering I work in a similar business, I asked to do the LinkedIn connection thing to salvage something from this whole palaver, and got roundly ignored. I'm thoroughly tired of my own struggle basically being invisible, so it very much left a sour taste.

25+ years going to see doctors about mental health issues. From the age of 17 up til now. I have taken:

  • 2004-2005 - Fluoxetine 20mg / 2006-2007 - Amitriptyline 10m / 2007 - Fluoxetine 20mg / 2007-2008 - Sertraline 50mg / 2009-2011 - Fluoxetine 20mg / 2012-2013 - Sertraline 50mg / 2013-2014 - Sertraline 100mg / 2014 - Citalopram 20mg / 2015 - Venlafaxine 37.5mg daily stepped up in intervals to 3x75mg daily / 2016-2019 - Venlafaxine 3x75mg daily / 2019-2021 - Venlafaxine XR 225mg / 2021 - Venlafaxine taper to 0mg and back up to 37.5mg / 2021-NOW - Venlafaxine XR 37.5mg

Taper attempt 2021 break down suggested by doctor (first ever try): 

  • TAPER: Jan 4 - Jan 17: 150mg per day / Jan 18 - Jan 31: 75mg per day / Feb 1 - Feb 28: 37.5mg per day(two more weeks added by the doc after consultation) / Mar 1 -  Mar 14: 37.5mg every other day
  • OFF MEDS: Mar 15-Apr 11
  • REINSTATEMENT (after doc consultation): Apr 12 - NOW: 37.5mg

Other notes

Daily supplements are omega 3, vit D, and magnesium every day. Exercise-wise, I get about 30 minutes brisk walking in each day. The two things I've found that help a little are deep breathing and manual labour, so I try and fit those in. I have done twice weekly psychodynamic therapy for the last three and a half years, but I'm beginning to feel it keeps me trapped circling around the same issues, rather than helping me to move forward. May try ACT therapy.

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Dear all, I followed the link Altostrata added re making a complaint to the BBC of which I have now submitted one.  It was a positive complaint, thanking them for the documentary but also acknowledging that they have only skimmed the service.  My husband was disappointed that a focus of the documentary was very much on the sexual side effects (equally important) but as I said to him there are no words (in my opinion) in the English language that could portray the pure horror of the withdrawal.  I do not want this to happen to other innocent people and will therefore advocate in anyway I can.  I have respectfully requested they undertake a follow up that focuses on the thousands of us suffering, while highlighting this was caused by the medical professionals and then ignored us or even worse gaslighted us. I as  others have lost friends who did not believe me that a prescribed drug could do this, I suppose I would have been one of those people once, but this documentary has now validated us on prime time television in the UK, what better than an apology (given half hearted apology) from the President of the Royal College of Psychiatrists. May I also take this opportunity to recommend an interview with Peter Eliasberg on 'You Tube' on his withdrawal experience as it is so eloquently described and he is getting better.  With videos like Peter's, Baylissa's site and the success stories from this Forum is what has kept me going and at times alive.  Please can I ask you when you recover , and you will to write a success story to give those following hope, I surely will.  Speedy recovery to you all.

 

 

Started venlafaxine December 2016. Started to wean off Effexor over 16 months period and I had no issues at all. Stopped June 2020.  Unfortunately, I was under chronic stress from 4 deaths (1 was my mother) in the family amongst other things  and sunk back down in October 2020.  Rather than accepting this was chronic stress and grief, I panicked and went to the GP.

 

October 2020 prescribed Vortioxetine 10mg for 1 month and then increased to 15 mg ups advice from GP on for 7 weeks in total.  Had suicidal thoughts and off the wall anxiety.  Changed to Lexapro in mid December 2020, slow titration from 2.5mg up to 10mg.  After 7 weeks again off the wall anxiety. I was advised to take 5mg for one week and stop as I want to go 'au natural'.  Last SSRI was 30 January 2021.  

 

I was also prescribed diazepam and Zopiclone through the 4 months of taking SSRis to 'manage' the side effects and also for the withdrawal.   I am probably withdrawing from all drugs.

 

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I think it would be good to see a programme orientated on 4-5 people in withdrawal, following them over a period of 1-3 years, with updates every 3 months or so. 

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1) Sertraline:

50mg - Oct 2020, 100mg - Dec 2020, 50mg - April 2021, 75mg - May 2021, 50mg - Sep 2021; Failed taper attempt (50 -> 49) - Jan 2024; Second attempt to start taper - 17 Feb 2024

Current dose: 48.9mg (Feb 2024)

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@Combitone the producers had more than 90 hours of interviews and regret not having the time to include the recordings as well as other material.

 

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23 hours ago, Altostrata said:

@Combitone the producers had more than 90 hours of interviews and regret not having the time to include the recordings as well as other material.

 

 

Not the point I'm making. I attempted to contact them numerous times after the first round of conversations didn't lead anywhere, and after no response I let it go. My objection is that they shouldn't then reach out indirectly through a proxy unless they're serious about not wasting my time further. I'm perfectly within my rights to be irritated by it.

25+ years going to see doctors about mental health issues. From the age of 17 up til now. I have taken:

  • 2004-2005 - Fluoxetine 20mg / 2006-2007 - Amitriptyline 10m / 2007 - Fluoxetine 20mg / 2007-2008 - Sertraline 50mg / 2009-2011 - Fluoxetine 20mg / 2012-2013 - Sertraline 50mg / 2013-2014 - Sertraline 100mg / 2014 - Citalopram 20mg / 2015 - Venlafaxine 37.5mg daily stepped up in intervals to 3x75mg daily / 2016-2019 - Venlafaxine 3x75mg daily / 2019-2021 - Venlafaxine XR 225mg / 2021 - Venlafaxine taper to 0mg and back up to 37.5mg / 2021-NOW - Venlafaxine XR 37.5mg

Taper attempt 2021 break down suggested by doctor (first ever try): 

  • TAPER: Jan 4 - Jan 17: 150mg per day / Jan 18 - Jan 31: 75mg per day / Feb 1 - Feb 28: 37.5mg per day(two more weeks added by the doc after consultation) / Mar 1 -  Mar 14: 37.5mg every other day
  • OFF MEDS: Mar 15-Apr 11
  • REINSTATEMENT (after doc consultation): Apr 12 - NOW: 37.5mg

Other notes

Daily supplements are omega 3, vit D, and magnesium every day. Exercise-wise, I get about 30 minutes brisk walking in each day. The two things I've found that help a little are deep breathing and manual labour, so I try and fit those in. I have done twice weekly psychodynamic therapy for the last three and a half years, but I'm beginning to feel it keeps me trapped circling around the same issues, rather than helping me to move forward. May try ACT therapy.

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This is the link for the transcript of the program for those of us that can’t watch it….the transcript follows the article.

https://verenigingafbouwmedicatie.nl/wp-content/uploads/2023/06/Y670a_ADs_2_million_taking_them_for_5_yrs_or_more_BBC_19-06-2023.pdf

20 yr+ Paroxetine/ Dec2018-May 2022 20 mg/ May 2022 30mg/2022.07.28-2022.08.24 30mg to 0mg/ August 24-29 2022 10mg Prozac/2022.11.28-2022.12.04- 5mg Paroxetine/Dec 5&6/22 10mg Paroxetine/ Dec 8&9/22 10mg Prozac/ 2022.12.07 to 2023.07.01 5mg Paroxetine

TAPER 23.07.02-58mgpw/4.9mgai/ 23.07.21-4.8 mg/23.07.28-4.73 mg/23.08.04-4.65 mg/21.09.23-4.58 mg/27.10.23-4.56 mg/5.12.23-4.54 mg/2.1.24-4.52 mg/9.1.24-4.51 mg/17.1.24-4.49 mg/26.1.24-4.47 mg/6.2.24-4.46 mg/19.2.24-4.44mg /4.4.24-4.43mg

8am-probiotics/9am-paroxetine, 200mg mag bisglycinate/ 1000mg Vitamin D/noon-1000 mg algae oil (500mg DHA/10mg EPA/620mg Omega 3)/5pm-75 mg DGL/200mg calcium citrate/8pm-.25 mg melatonin

"... your strength will be in keeping calm..."-Isaiah 30:15

I am not a medical professional just your peer. The suggestions I give are based on personal experience and/or the well documented experience of others.

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This is another link I’ve found that can be viewed outside the UK. It can be downloaded through ClipGrab. Not sure how long it will remain active though. 
 

https://rumble.com/v2wlt7g-the-antidepressant-story-bbc-panorama-documentary.html

Lexapro Fast Track/ Cold Turkey

Last dose end Dec 2018 

Tapered 1/2 a daily dose a week (20mg) for  14 weeks, last dose was a 20 mg pill!!  

 3.5 times slower than Psychiatrist recommended, I felt proud of myself!! Little did I know!!!!Got too scared to reinstate because I’d left it too long.

On ADs for 20 years (Prozac approx 10 years/ Pristiq approx 3 years/ Citalipram approx 2 years/. Lexapro a approx  5 years/. Last two years 40mgs Lexapro day.

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On 6/20/2023 at 4:35 AM, jon1 said:

One thing I've noticed in these shows is that the doctors who try to defend antidepressants always use the most extreme cases as if they're the most common. One of them did it in this too, saying the drugs 'saved lives'.

 

I noticed this too and was very angry

 

they don't mention the Black Box warning on the drugs about the suicide risk, shame on them for leaving that out

 

I also felt my blood pressure go up when someone - I will have to re watch it- I forget who it was, mentioned the sexual side effects being rare, I think/HOPE they were talking about the PSSD!

but in any case it should not be surprising to anyone that these drugs cause sexual side effects since as early 1990s, they were being used to TREAT SEX OFFENDERS because up to 66% of patients taking them experienced loss of libido and other sexual side effects such as ED and inability to orgasm.

 

why no one was concerned that any of these side effects could cause long term or permanent damage all comes down to greed, unfortunately. 

 

but I know that Big Pharma has a lot of money and political power, so I suppose they have to be careful what they say or the push back may cause the message to be buried completely

 

as it has been again and again

I can remember when Prozac was first unleashed on the public, and all the books written about it

There were people raising alarm back then about the side effects and unwanted consequences of these drugs.

 

I found the fella who said that in the mental health field the same mistakes are made over and over again to be quite refreshing in his honesty- I just wish he'd said it a bit louder and with some degree of anger and/or profound regret for the real life misery these mistakes have caused tens of thousands of people

 

 

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  • pysch med history: 1974 @ age 18 to Oct 2017 (approx 43 yrs total) 
  •  Drug list: stelazine, haldol, elavil, lithium, zoloft, celexa, lexapro(doses as high as 40mgs), klonopin, ambien, seroquel(high doses), depakote, zyprexa, lamictal- plus brief trials of dozens of other psych meds over the years
  • started lexapro 2002, dose varied from 20mgs to 40mgs. First attempt to get off it was 2007- WD symptoms were mistaken for "relapse". 
  •  2013 too fast taper down to 5mg but WD forced me back to 20mgs
  •  June of 2105, tapered again too rapidly to 2.5mgs by Dec 2015. Found SA, held at 2.5 mgs til May 2016 when I foolishly "jumped off". felt ok until  Sept, then acute WD hit!!  reinstated at 0.3mgs in Oct. 2106
  • Tapered off to zero by  Oct. 2017 Doing very well. 
  • Nov. 2018 feel 95% healed, age 63 
  • Jan. 2020 feel 100% healed, peaceful and content
  • PRESENT DAYS:  Loving life! ❤️ with all it's ups and downs ;) 
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