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Ally69: What to do about all these emotions


Ally69

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Hello

 

I'm new to this site.

 

I was on Prozac since I was about 28 recently over about six months tapered off with the help of my doc. When I was on them I was like a machine and became quite professionally successful, was this sparky but 2D version of myself. But then I think something clicked about five years ago and I was like the medicated and depressed but also really angry and irritable in the mornings. Sometimes I think I had a couple of bipolar episodes of doing things like cheating on my husband etc without really being aware what I was doing or the consequences and (I'm not blaming the meds but...) I look back and think how did I not think through some of the things I was doing? I wonder if I couldn't feel negative emotions as red flags that signalled 'CONSEQUENCES AHEAD..'

 

Now, I am terrified of all the emotions  am feeling as I haven't felt any real emotions in so long. The only things that help for me are running for 30 minutes in the morning followed by ten mins mindfulness meditation and a little yoga. Even then, whenever I get under some work pressure or feel a little down, I instantly think 'OMG I need to get on those pills as I will get depressed again.' But it does pass. What I love is not being tired all the time, not being apathetic about anything other than work and not having those awful night sweats

 

I also take 5-HTP which I really think works. I have more happy days than not and my husband said I seem so much better off them, more fun, less tired and less angry all the time (so strange, all my anger has gone since stopping the ADs). Also, sex drive and ability to orgasm was very low (from being very high in my 20s), now all that is back I REALLY don't want to go back on those medications and lose it again.

 

I just find these negative emotions so overwhelming and find dealing with them so very difficult. Though I never, ever feel suicidal (like I did in my 20s) and am always so surprised that eventually they all pass if I just distract myself. The worst is work when I have a deadline or when I feel lonely. I'm just scare one day it will all build up and I'll get depressed again and wonder if being on a pill to stop that might be better. Almost like a preventative.

 

Any thoughts more than welcome or if there is another similar post I could read that would be great.

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Hi Ally,

 

Welcome to SA.  There is lots of information here.  To search the site use Google or other search engine and type in survivingantidepressants.org + topic

 

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Once we have some additional information we will be better able to offer suggestions.  Here are some links to good links to non-drug ways to cope:

  1. Non-drug techniques to cope with emotional symptoms
  2. Acceptance
  3. Acceptance and Mindfulness
  4. Claire Weekes' Method of Recovering from a Sensitized Nervous System
  5. "Change the channel" -- dealing with cognitive symptoms
  6. Change cognitive framing - Redirect - Another Way
  7. Cognitive Behavior Therapy (CBT) for anxiety, depression
  8. Cognitive Behavior Therapy lessons

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Ally -- Welcome to Surviving Antidepressants (SA)

 

I've added tags to this topic -- your introduction. Now at the bottom of the page, you'll see other topics that have the same tags so you can easily find others who are taking or have taken prozac.  You can also click on the tag (it's at the top of the page under the topic title) to see a full list.

This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.
1997-1999 Effexor; 2002-2005 Effexor XR 37.5 mg linear taper, dropping same #beads/week with bad results

Cymbalta 60 mg 2012 - 2015; 2016: 20 mg to 7 mg exact doses and dates in this post; 2017: 6.3 mg to  0.0 mg  Aug. 12; details here


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Thanks so much, I will add all other stuff but don't have many details to hand. About my dosage. It was basically 20mg for about 20 years daily and the taper started as every other day for three months and then went to twice a week for one month and once a week for two months before going off it. 

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Hi Ally69...welcome....I too am in withdrawal from prozac and other antidepressants over the past 21 years.  I am glad some things have improved since you have been off of prozac but sorry you are dealing with some emotional issues.  I think it is to be expected that we don't know how to quite deal with the emotions we are feeling because like you said while on them we don't really have to deal with them while on the antidepressants because the antidepressants give us a false sense of security.  

 

How long were you on prozac?

 

I saw that you are taking 5-htp....how much do you take and what time of the day do you take it?

1995 - 2015 antidepressants and antianxiety medicine
Multiple failed attempts to quit/taper anti d/anti anxiety meds since 2008

June 17, 2016 began prozac bridge to get off of effexor xr, stopped effexor xr on June 24, 2016, could not tolerate prozac due to severe side effects so I had to stop it  Currently...300 mg ER of lithium, 1 mg of estradiol, 60 mg propranolol ER, Fish oil 2 x a day, Magnesium Glycinate,  zinc, vitamin c, vitamin d, NAC

 

 

 

 

 

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HI there DowntonGirl

 

I was on Prozac for about 18 years. Am currently taking 200mg 2 x a day of 5HTP which I worked up to

 

Thanks!

 

Ally

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Do you feel the 5-http is helping?

1995 - 2015 antidepressants and antianxiety medicine
Multiple failed attempts to quit/taper anti d/anti anxiety meds since 2008

June 17, 2016 began prozac bridge to get off of effexor xr, stopped effexor xr on June 24, 2016, could not tolerate prozac due to severe side effects so I had to stop it  Currently...300 mg ER of lithium, 1 mg of estradiol, 60 mg propranolol ER, Fish oil 2 x a day, Magnesium Glycinate,  zinc, vitamin c, vitamin d, NAC

 

 

 

 

 

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