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Thank you,  @sunnysideup69

 

It is nice to have another citalopram friend :) 

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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@sunnysideup69   Sorry for taking so long to get back to you! I hope your stabilization is continuing well. It took me 5 mos to feel good enough to start my taper, so don't worry. It'll cont

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Ok, @Carmie has challenged us to write down our current positives, so I am gonna do that! I hate full-time negativity. 

 

1. I can work, full time. This is both a positive and negative... some days I feel like I am going to work on acid, but some days are fairly normal and I am appreciative of having something to do to distract me.

 

2. My parents. They are fully supportive of me, don't doubt me, and give me as much love and comfort as they can. I am blessed. 

 

3. I have friends who follow suit. Positive, supportive, caring, loving. One of my best friends is a massage therapist and another best friend is a hairdresser and does my hair... I am spoiled. 

 

4. I have made some amazing friends from these online psych med communities. Friends who will help me live my life for the better. People I will never, ever be able to forget. 

 

5. After several months avoiding concerts and movie theaters (hyper-sensitivity, am I right?) I went to a concert a few weeks ago and I had an amazing time. No anxiety, nothing. I could handle it and had a fun time.

 

6. I went to a wedding a couple weeks ago and same thing... Surrounded by friends, no anxiety, just pure happiness and feelings of content. 

 

Thanks for the suggestion, Carm! 

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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ChessieCat

Thanks for posting in my topic.  Thought it would be helpful to have this here in your own:

 

7 hours ago, puthappinessfirst said:

Went to a friend's wedding which was so fun but hectic, was up late each night I was away, got the flu or something else very nasty right after it, had to get a steroid injection for my asthma/lungs, ran out of magnesium the week before and didn't get more, started my period, switched over to full liquid dose. WOW, writing that out I just realized how much that all is. But as you, I know the anxiety and agitation from it all should settle down soon.

 

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puthappinessfirst

Thanks, @ChessieCat

 

3mg is great progress! Can't wait to see you hit 0!

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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Hi Happiness, 

 

So glad you’re writing down the positives in your life💚

Been on antipsychotics, benzos, antidepressants and painkillers for chronic pain. 

Been cold turkeyed and put on and off all sorts of things. Was suicidal n ended up in a psych ward because I had akathisia from withdrawals. Can’t remember what I was put on but when I was released was in the same predicament with severe akathisia n was suicidal again.

Back to the ward and was given different meds. Tapered off one and have been trying to taper off Seroquel since. It’s been many, many years of tapering so far.

I’ve  tapered from 300mg of Seroquel to 7.5mg./ March 10 2019=7.25mg / 17th of April=7 mg / June 5th=6.75mg/ July 14th=6.50mg/ August 28=6.25mg/ 10th of Oct= 6.20mg/ October 21=6mg/ December 16=5.80mg/.   January 21 2020=5.60mg/April 2=5.40g/ May 29=5.20mg/ August 14= 5mg/ September 29=4.80mg/ Jan 31, 2021=4.60 mg/

 

I AM NOT A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL. These are my own views based on what I’ve experienced myself.

 

 

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puthappinessfirst
5 hours ago, Carmie said:

Hi Happiness, 

 

So glad you’re writing down the positives in your life💚

 

Thank you! You're the queen of positivity!

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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withhopeinmyheart

Wow, impressive! 

 

I wish I had access to that kind of positivity! 

You're doing great, dear! 

You went to a wedding and had fun! So good! 

Escitalopram August 2015 - 20mg

Some time in winter 2017 down to 10mg with no problems

May 21 2018 5mg, June 4 2018 2.5mg, June 18 2018 0mg 

October 1 2018 something's wrong 

October 2 2018 arriving in hell

Reinstated 0.25mg

October 27 2018 0.35mg, November 23 2018 0.5mg, November 24 2018 0.6mg

November 28 2018 0.5mg and holding since 

Taking fish oil and magnesium 

L-Thyroxin 50 for Hashimoto's

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puthappinessfirst
33 minutes ago, withhopeinmyheart said:

Wow, impressive! 

 

I wish I had access to that kind of positivity! 

You're doing great, dear! 

You went to a wedding and had fun! So good! 

 

Thank you, Hope! I read your thread often and am praying for you. I know you will heal! Thank you for stopping by ❤

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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8 hours ago, puthappinessfirst said:

 

Thank you! You're the queen of positivity!

 

You’re so sweet Happiness, 

 

I was glad to see you have an amazing support system too, and I was so happy you got to go to a concert and a wedding, and really enjoyed them. Yay! 🎤🎼💃

 

Keep those gratitude lists coming.💚

Been on antipsychotics, benzos, antidepressants and painkillers for chronic pain. 

Been cold turkeyed and put on and off all sorts of things. Was suicidal n ended up in a psych ward because I had akathisia from withdrawals. Can’t remember what I was put on but when I was released was in the same predicament with severe akathisia n was suicidal again.

Back to the ward and was given different meds. Tapered off one and have been trying to taper off Seroquel since. It’s been many, many years of tapering so far.

I’ve  tapered from 300mg of Seroquel to 7.5mg./ March 10 2019=7.25mg / 17th of April=7 mg / June 5th=6.75mg/ July 14th=6.50mg/ August 28=6.25mg/ 10th of Oct= 6.20mg/ October 21=6mg/ December 16=5.80mg/.   January 21 2020=5.60mg/April 2=5.40g/ May 29=5.20mg/ August 14= 5mg/ September 29=4.80mg/ Jan 31, 2021=4.60 mg/

 

I AM NOT A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL. These are my own views based on what I’ve experienced myself.

 

 

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puthappinessfirst

Neuro emotion tiiiime! 

 

Feeling pretty down and hopeless today. 

I woke up this morning and it was obvious. 

 

The only "reasons" for these emotions I could possibly see would be either my body still trying to get used to liquid meds or it is hormonal. 

I woke up a couple days ago to an irritated forehead with a breakout. 

But it probably doesn't do much good to pour over reasons "why." 

 

I am at work and luckily it's giving me something else to focus on. 

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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sunnysideup69
6 minutes ago, puthappinessfirst said:

 

But it probably doesn't do much good to pour over reasons "why."

 

I agree, but it's so tempting to do that....wishing those pesky neuro emotions go away soon, causing the least possible disruption :)

January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 200mg Magnesium Glycinate

 

 

 

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puthappinessfirst

Thank you, @sunnysideup69for your words! So kind.

 

How are you doing? I will stop by your thread :) 

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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intothewoods
4 hours ago, puthappinessfirst said:

Neuro emotion tiiiime

 

I love your sense of humor. I mean, you're a gifted writer and that's part of it but you put a great, big, funny spin on the bad stuff. 

 

I am sorry it's a blithering bad day. There often seems no rhyme or reason to symptoms because (this is one theory of mine) so much goes into what makes us feel the way we do, internal and external factors. So although as journalists we love, love to search out answers to things (😅) , I'm finding that with this withdrawal rodeo, by the time I've begun to suspect a cause, the symptom passes. 😂

 

You are doing wonderful -- you crossed over to the liquid Celexa 100 percent!! You're putting these meds to shame. They want us to think we can't escape but every step away is escaping. I admire the research you've done, the drastic life changes you've made to make this happen, and the discipline to stick with it.

 

Thanks for the inspiration (and the laughs). 💙 

 

 

* Prozac: 40 mg 1999-2012; 60 mg 2012-March 2018; 50 mg April 2018 to present.

* Provigil: 25-100 mg PRN 2005 to mid-2015; 200-300 mg mid-2015 to early 2016; tapered from 300 mg in early 2016 to 100 mg early 2017; tapered from 100 mg early 2017 to 31 mg June 15, 2019; 29 mg at present.

* Amitriptyline: 10-15 mg 2002-2013; 25 mg 2014 to December 5, 2018; December 15, 2018 converted to water suspension and tapered to 22 1/2 mg at present.

* Valium: 5 mg at night 2002-present

 Supplements: Magnesium; Iron for anemia

 

Back Story: From 2012 thru early 2017, relocated and cycled through over 20 primary and psych docs (supposedly for severe Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) who prescribed two dozen different psych meds in search of the "perfect therapeutic combo." Took most for only a few days, some for a week. Included Wellbutrin, Cymbalta, Lexapro, Seroquel, Lamictal, Klonopin, Lyrica, Gabapentin, Belsomra, Tramadol, Librium, Halcyon, Remeron and -- the last straw, Trintellix. Began in early 2016 when it was still called Brintellix (Pharma's attempt to combine the words "brilliance" and "intelligence" in a pill name), became unable to eat or sleep, lost 25 lbs and the ability to speak. Slowly tapered myself back to Prozac by 2017 but was unable to stop akathisia, cortisol mornings and kindling which continue, actively, through present.

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puthappinessfirst

I just love you, friend ❤️ 

@intothewoods

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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puthappinessfirst

To continue recognizing the positive...

 

I went to see my equine therapist yesterday after work and I adore her. And the horses too, of course!

We sat with a couple ponies while they were eating and just had a long talk. 

 

I was telling her how difficult it is to bring in and build coping skills and strategies that you've never learned (because you were only given meds), WHILE you are trying to remove meds. 

I said it's like a double whammy and she was very empathetic. 

But what really made me happy was that she said something like, "You got this. I got your back. We'll get you there."

 

I already liked her as a therapist, but this REALLY made me connect to her. It was so reassuring! 

I love good people.

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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withhopeinmyheart

This sounds absolutely wonderful! 

 

And you're so right about the coping skills. I had learned them but now can't access them. 

 

Wishing you that it continues so nicely for you. 

Escitalopram August 2015 - 20mg

Some time in winter 2017 down to 10mg with no problems

May 21 2018 5mg, June 4 2018 2.5mg, June 18 2018 0mg 

October 1 2018 something's wrong 

October 2 2018 arriving in hell

Reinstated 0.25mg

October 27 2018 0.35mg, November 23 2018 0.5mg, November 24 2018 0.6mg

November 28 2018 0.5mg and holding since 

Taking fish oil and magnesium 

L-Thyroxin 50 for Hashimoto's

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puthappinessfirst
35 minutes ago, withhopeinmyheart said:

Wishing you that it continues so nicely for you. 

 

Thank you, Hope ❤️❤️ 

 

I wish the same for you.

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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puthappinessfirst

Positivity post, again, thanks to miss Carmie.

 

1. It's Friday, which means I have a weekend of rest to look forward to. 

 

2. I'm having a movie night with a friend tonight. One of my favorite things to do with friends; relax and laugh.

 

3. My mom and I are planning a night away together for my birthday coming up in a couple months. I can't get into anything wild this year, so she's treating me. 

 

4. I'm wearing a new dress today that I haven't had the chance to wear yet. Nice and comfy. 

 

5. I'm finally over the majority of my symptoms I got from getting sick a few weeks ago. I still have a slight cough, but everything else is better. Took a while! 

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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sunnysideup69

How you doing, happiness?

January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 200mg Magnesium Glycinate

 

 

 

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puthappinessfirst

Hi @sunnyside69

 

Thanks for checking in! I actually woke up feeling pretty decent yesterday but then got a call from my mom that my grandma had been in a serious car accident. We had to pack ASAP and get in the car to drive to Vegas where she lives. I'm halfway through the roadtrip right now and I don't know how long I'll be there. So I'm trying my best to stay calm and be there for my mom. 

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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withhopeinmyheart

Oh no! I hope everything will end up fine! Sending prayers and healing thoughts and hugs. Take care 

Escitalopram August 2015 - 20mg

Some time in winter 2017 down to 10mg with no problems

May 21 2018 5mg, June 4 2018 2.5mg, June 18 2018 0mg 

October 1 2018 something's wrong 

October 2 2018 arriving in hell

Reinstated 0.25mg

October 27 2018 0.35mg, November 23 2018 0.5mg, November 24 2018 0.6mg

November 28 2018 0.5mg and holding since 

Taking fish oil and magnesium 

L-Thyroxin 50 for Hashimoto's

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sunnysideup69

Sorry to read this, happiness. With lots of love to you and your family. How are you bearing up? - no pressure to answer, just wanted to send good wishes x

January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 200mg Magnesium Glycinate

 

 

 

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puthappinessfirst

Thank you @withhopeinmyheart and @sunnyside69 for your thoughts, it is much appreciated. 

 

I am back home from my very quick and stressful trip to see my grandma. 

I am trying to get grounded back at home, as I had been running on little sleep and high stress all weekend. 

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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puthappinessfirst

Things I am grateful for...

 

1. Getting my hair colored tomorrow. It's been almost a year, so I'm excited! 

 

2. Just ordered some pretty bridesmaids dresses for my best friend's wedding that I'll be in in October. 

(Cross your fingers for me that one of them works out!)

 

3. My grandma is still in the hospital but she is stable, we have a good prognosis for her. 

 

4. My close friends and family, always ❤️ 

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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Hi Happiness, 

 

I’m glad you’re keeping that gratitude list going. I’m sure you’ll look gorgeous with your new hair colour. I’ve got to dye mine again too, the greys are creeping through. 

 

Glad to hear your grandma is doing okay.

 

Take care, sending hugs 🤗

Been on antipsychotics, benzos, antidepressants and painkillers for chronic pain. 

Been cold turkeyed and put on and off all sorts of things. Was suicidal n ended up in a psych ward because I had akathisia from withdrawals. Can’t remember what I was put on but when I was released was in the same predicament with severe akathisia n was suicidal again.

Back to the ward and was given different meds. Tapered off one and have been trying to taper off Seroquel since. It’s been many, many years of tapering so far.

I’ve  tapered from 300mg of Seroquel to 7.5mg./ March 10 2019=7.25mg / 17th of April=7 mg / June 5th=6.75mg/ July 14th=6.50mg/ August 28=6.25mg/ 10th of Oct= 6.20mg/ October 21=6mg/ December 16=5.80mg/.   January 21 2020=5.60mg/April 2=5.40g/ May 29=5.20mg/ August 14= 5mg/ September 29=4.80mg/ Jan 31, 2021=4.60 mg/

 

I AM NOT A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL. These are my own views based on what I’ve experienced myself.

 

 

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puthappinessfirst

Thank you,  @Carmie! Sending all the hugs back to you!

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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puthappinessfirst

On the evening of the 24th I dropped my liquid dose from 10mg (5mL) to 9mg (4.5mL).

I have been holding for several months and felt it was time.

 

I hadn't been to the movies in several months because it was way too stimulation and anxiety inducing for me, 

but lately I have been to 2 movies in theaters and it felt like a good sign that I was ok to drop. 

 

Here's hoping!

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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intothewoods

👏💥💫🤸‍♀️💖

* Prozac: 40 mg 1999-2012; 60 mg 2012-March 2018; 50 mg April 2018 to present.

* Provigil: 25-100 mg PRN 2005 to mid-2015; 200-300 mg mid-2015 to early 2016; tapered from 300 mg in early 2016 to 100 mg early 2017; tapered from 100 mg early 2017 to 31 mg June 15, 2019; 29 mg at present.

* Amitriptyline: 10-15 mg 2002-2013; 25 mg 2014 to December 5, 2018; December 15, 2018 converted to water suspension and tapered to 22 1/2 mg at present.

* Valium: 5 mg at night 2002-present

 Supplements: Magnesium; Iron for anemia

 

Back Story: From 2012 thru early 2017, relocated and cycled through over 20 primary and psych docs (supposedly for severe Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) who prescribed two dozen different psych meds in search of the "perfect therapeutic combo." Took most for only a few days, some for a week. Included Wellbutrin, Cymbalta, Lexapro, Seroquel, Lamictal, Klonopin, Lyrica, Gabapentin, Belsomra, Tramadol, Librium, Halcyon, Remeron and -- the last straw, Trintellix. Began in early 2016 when it was still called Brintellix (Pharma's attempt to combine the words "brilliance" and "intelligence" in a pill name), became unable to eat or sleep, lost 25 lbs and the ability to speak. Slowly tapered myself back to Prozac by 2017 but was unable to stop akathisia, cortisol mornings and kindling which continue, actively, through present.

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Hi Happiness, 

 

So glad to hear you’re seeing some improvements.💚

Been on antipsychotics, benzos, antidepressants and painkillers for chronic pain. 

Been cold turkeyed and put on and off all sorts of things. Was suicidal n ended up in a psych ward because I had akathisia from withdrawals. Can’t remember what I was put on but when I was released was in the same predicament with severe akathisia n was suicidal again.

Back to the ward and was given different meds. Tapered off one and have been trying to taper off Seroquel since. It’s been many, many years of tapering so far.

I’ve  tapered from 300mg of Seroquel to 7.5mg./ March 10 2019=7.25mg / 17th of April=7 mg / June 5th=6.75mg/ July 14th=6.50mg/ August 28=6.25mg/ 10th of Oct= 6.20mg/ October 21=6mg/ December 16=5.80mg/.   January 21 2020=5.60mg/April 2=5.40g/ May 29=5.20mg/ August 14= 5mg/ September 29=4.80mg/ Jan 31, 2021=4.60 mg/

 

I AM NOT A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL. These are my own views based on what I’ve experienced myself.

 

 

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puthappinessfirst

Thank you so much, @Carmie! Your kindness, hopefulness, and enthusiasm really helps me and so many others ❤️ 

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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puthappinessfirst

Wow, it's already been a week since I dropped? Time does fly, sometimes... haha.

 

The first 2 days immediately following my drop I had eye twitching in my right eye. 

4 days after my drop I experienced heightened anxiety and it still remains, but isn't horrible. 

 

Today, 7th day, I am experiencing a numb/pins and needles feeling in my right palm and also weird and aggressive twitching/flinching in my right pointer finger. 

This could be related to WD but I also work on a computer all day, so might just be a carpel tunnel-esque flare.

 

Hope everyone has a good week!

❤️ 

 

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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puthappinessfirst

Noting this because it's good to do so and I also don't know if this is withdrawal, hormonal, both or a fluke. 

 

Woke up 3 times last night with anxiety and burning skin from my back to my neck. When I did fall back asleep I felt like I was still half awake. I usually don't have many, if any, sleep issues so this was disorienting. I woke up feeling really frazzled and uncomfortable. Managed to go back to sleep for a solid few hours without any issues. I took the day off work to rest more, get out in the sun and walk, and meet up with a friend. 

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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puthappinessfirst

So ever since Tuesday night I have gotten really restless in the evenings when trying to sleep, very akathisia like, and my sleep has been crap. 

The only thing I have changed in my routine is that I have recently added vitamin C into my nighttime supplements. (I take my magnesium and probiotic at night).

I might be in a regular ol' wave or it may be the vitamin C, which would be weird, but WD is weird, so who knows. 

I am going to cut it out for the weekend and see if my sleep goes back to normal. 

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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sunnysideup69

Hey Happiness,

Thanks for dropping by onto my thread. I see you've had some restless nights...it's exhausting, I know.

I often get weird sleep issues, and for me it's hormonal...it's hard to know which is hormones and which is antidep side effects, sometimes. I think you've made a good call with taking a day off work, looking after self.

 

Best wishes,

Ruth x

January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 200mg Magnesium Glycinate

 

 

 

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Hi @puthappinessfirst...checking in to see if you noticed any difference after dropping the vitamin c over the weekend? I have often thought of giving it to Glo but she eats so much fruit, I just can't imagine she needs a supplement. But curious to see if you feel better.....which I hope you do!  best wishes, glosmom

2016 - Oct -Daughter started Risperdal (for steroid induced psychosis that never went away after stopping prednisone)

Nov - dose increases stopped at 1.5mg in Dec

2017 - Jan- weaned from 1.5 to 1.0 in 2 weeks then 1.0 to .5 in two weeks and then off. Feb. 3 weeks of increased psychosis, pacing, insomnia, other awful symptoms so late Feb  - Back on 1.5 mg Risperdal. May  - decrease to 1.25mg, two weeks later 1.0mg - symptoms started again. June - held steady at 1.25mg for 6 weeks and switched to liquid (3 ml syringe). July - started 10% taper every 3 weeks, October -  .8 mg, December - .7 mg .

2018 -Jan- 0.65 mg,  Feb- 0.59,  Mar-0.50, late April - .40mg, July- .36 mg, Aug - switched from 3 mL syringe to 1 mL syringe for more accuracy (her dad and i were not sure we were giving her the same dose when in between the 'dashes' on the 3 mL syringe.) Aug -.30 mg (3mL syr)/.44 mg (1 mL syr) difference due to med in the tip of both syringes). Sept- .28 mg (3mL syr)/.42 mg (1 mL syr). Oct - .16 mg (3 mL syr)/.30 mg (1 mL syr). Nov.- .06mg (3mL syr)/.20 mg (1mLsyr). Dec. - tip only/unmeasurable (3mL syr)/.10 mg (1mLsyr)

2019- Jan -.06 mg (1 mL syr), Feb- .025 mg (1 mL syr), Feb 27, 2019 - jumped to zero!!

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puthappinessfirst

Hi @Glosmom

 

For some reason, nixing the vit C supplement has seemed to be a good move for me. 

Not sure why exactly, but I guess right now less is more for me. 

I was taking a full supplement, so I could always try cutting it in half or thirds for more testing, but right now I am holding off on it. 

 

If you do try to give it to Glo, maybe try that. Small dose and titrate up as needed. 

I started taking it to help my adrenals, but right now I will just stick with magnesium and lots of coconut/aloe water. 

Celexa 10mg: 2007 to June 2018, stopped CT

No meds: June 2018 to December 2018

PROTRACTED WD-- major depressive episode for 2+ weeks

Lexapro 10mg: December 12, 2018 to January 19, 2019, severe adverse reaction

Celexa 10mg: January 20, 2019

June 24, 2019: 9mg

July 22, 2019: 8.5mg

Jan 8, 2020: 8mg

Aug 25, 2020: 7.2mg

 

Supplements: Magnesium, Fish Oil

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