Moderator Emeritus Rhiannon Posted September 27, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 27, 2019 Erell, I am so glad to hear you are already experiencing some improvement. This happening so early in the process is a very good sign. Also the sleep, another good sign. Don't be alarmed if the terror flashes come back, "waves and windows" is completely normal and you are still healing and moving forward. The same with any other symptoms that have been troubling you. Don't be alarmed if symptoms come and go, that is very normal. I am NOT saying that they will come back, I hope you never see them again! I am only saying that if you DO have a bad day like that please do not despair, it is normal to have things come and go during the healing process. There are ups and downs but the overall direction is progress. In two or three months I think you will find things settling down. I am encouraged by your progress and I know you are going to be fine. As you know from the benzo withdrawal, it is just going to take some time, but you can get there. As far as the traumatic abuse, I also experienced such things in childhood. It is so much more common than anyone wants to admit. I have done a lot of work in therapy, and the skills and strength I have learned there have enriched my life in many ways. (In fact, those skills have definitely helped make it possible for me to escape from the psych drug prison I was in.) Take care of yourself, you will know when the time is right to take on this new journey. So, three cheers from me for you! Good job! Keep moving forward! I will be away from the board for a few days, but I can see you are going to be fine. You are a formidable young woman and you are going to have a very interesting and rich life! Started on Prozac and Xanax in 1992 for PTSD after an assault. One drug led to more, the usual story. Got sicker and sicker, but believed I needed the drugs for my "underlying disease". Long story...lost everything. Life savings, home, physical and mental health, relationships, friendships, ability to work, everything. Amitryptiline, Prozac, bupropion, buspirone, flurazepam, diazepam, alprazolam, Paxil, citalopram, lamotrigine, gabapentin...probably more I've forgotten. Started multidrug taper in Feb 2010. Doing a very slow microtaper, down to low doses now and feeling SO much better, getting my old personality and my brain back! Able to work full time, have a full social life, and cope with stress better than ever. Not perfect, but much better. After 23 lost years. Big Pharma has a lot to answer for. And "medicine for profit" is just not a great idea. Feb 15 2010: 300 mg Neurontin 200 Lamictal 10 Celexa 0.65 Xanax and 5 mg Ambien Feb 10 2014: 62 Lamictal 1.1 Celexa 0.135 Xanax 1.8 Valium Feb 10 2015: 50 Lamictal 0.875 Celexa 0.11 Xanax 1.5 Valium Feb 15 2016: 47.5 Lamictal 0.75 Celexa 0.0875 Xanax 1.42 Valium 2/12/20 12 0.045 0.007 1 May 2021 7 0.01 0.0037 1 Feb 2022 6 0!!! 0.00167 0.98 2.5 mg Ambien Oct 2022 4.5 mg Lamictal (off Celexa, off Xanax) 0.95 Valium Ambien, 1/4 to 1/2 of a 5 mg tablet I'm not a doctor. Any advice I give is just my civilian opinion. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Rhiannon Posted September 27, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 27, 2019 11 minutes ago, Erell said: Haha, I Feel like I'm trying any possible strategy To cope : For anxiety, I watch makeup tutorials on YouTube.. I don't even wear makeup, and not interested in, but the only big issue in these video is " which mascara Will I chose Today?". Strangely it soothes me 😄 Not sure I Will suggest this tool in the topic about nondrugs techniques 😉😅 HA! No you have not lost your sense of humor. I think you absolutely should suggest that tool. 🙂 To be serious, maybe not everyone will find that makeup tutorials are the best for them, but to watch something that is interesting but only mildly interesting to you and not full of drama or excitement, could be distracting and soothing without being overly stimulating, I think that's an excellent idea. Started on Prozac and Xanax in 1992 for PTSD after an assault. One drug led to more, the usual story. Got sicker and sicker, but believed I needed the drugs for my "underlying disease". Long story...lost everything. Life savings, home, physical and mental health, relationships, friendships, ability to work, everything. Amitryptiline, Prozac, bupropion, buspirone, flurazepam, diazepam, alprazolam, Paxil, citalopram, lamotrigine, gabapentin...probably more I've forgotten. Started multidrug taper in Feb 2010. Doing a very slow microtaper, down to low doses now and feeling SO much better, getting my old personality and my brain back! Able to work full time, have a full social life, and cope with stress better than ever. Not perfect, but much better. After 23 lost years. Big Pharma has a lot to answer for. And "medicine for profit" is just not a great idea. Feb 15 2010: 300 mg Neurontin 200 Lamictal 10 Celexa 0.65 Xanax and 5 mg Ambien Feb 10 2014: 62 Lamictal 1.1 Celexa 0.135 Xanax 1.8 Valium Feb 10 2015: 50 Lamictal 0.875 Celexa 0.11 Xanax 1.5 Valium Feb 15 2016: 47.5 Lamictal 0.75 Celexa 0.0875 Xanax 1.42 Valium 2/12/20 12 0.045 0.007 1 May 2021 7 0.01 0.0037 1 Feb 2022 6 0!!! 0.00167 0.98 2.5 mg Ambien Oct 2022 4.5 mg Lamictal (off Celexa, off Xanax) 0.95 Valium Ambien, 1/4 to 1/2 of a 5 mg tablet I'm not a doctor. Any advice I give is just my civilian opinion. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 27, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 27, 2019 (edited) Thank you for all your sweet words, so comforting! Good idea To be away from here for a few days : life goes on and you deserve To live it up! Have a Nice weekend, say hello To ocean for me 😉 Edited December 20, 2020 by Erell 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Giulietta Posted September 27, 2019 Share Posted September 27, 2019 (edited) Hello Erell, How are you doing today. I have been thinking of you and been away from my computer so could not drop in earlier. We're having nice weather here so this lifts my spirits to no end! I will write a bit more later - you really did so wonderfully to get off the benzos and heal from them. You will from this too. As Rhiannon said - different symptoms present themselves at different times. For instance, eary this year I had roaring tinnitus as one of the symptoms. I had not had brain zaps. However - in June I had my first brain zaps and then a few weeks ago. Tinnitus comes and goes since June - but nothing like earlier in the year. Isn't this interesting and a pain in the neck? Make up tutorials can be fun. I like to watch them too sometimes - and I also don't wear any/much make up nearly all the time. There is a few good ones to make up like Marilyn Monroe. Didy ou know that she wore not just 1 or 2 colors of lipstick - but 6? Giuilietta Edited December 20, 2020 by Erell Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 28, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 Friday 27th September: 7.30 am : woke up anxious. Eat a banana. 8 am : 10mg Paroxetine 11am : managed To go on drugstore To get Paroxetine for next month. 1.30 pm : eat some Rice with pesto All afternoon : anxiety, restlessness in legs, depression. 6pm : hungry, eat some Rice and pesto All evening: Feel really depressed, no hope for the future. 9.30 pm : go To bed with a book 10.40 pm : really hungry, eat some raviolis midnight : fell asleep. 2 am woke up anxious because of a mosquito playing with me. Fell asleep. 7.30am woke up anxious ( 6) (Wonderful) 0 <---> 10 (Hell on earth) ---》 no terror on Friday ---》 Has I Said, it was a rough day because of depression symptoms. I spent the day between my bed and m'y couch, not knowing what To do, interested in nothing. However, this is a bit better than terror! 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 28, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 Good morning Erell Is it just anxiety rather than Terror this morning? Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 28, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 Hi Sass Yes it is High anxiety, no terror. With a lot of despair. 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 28, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 @Guilietta Hi you! Yes, so much possibility with symptoms 😮😮😮 I'm so sorry I'm not in a good mood : illi'll try To write you more later. 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Giulietta Posted September 28, 2019 Share Posted September 28, 2019 Hello there, This too shall pass..... 😉 I am thinking of you. Giuilietta Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 28, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 Hi Guilietta! Thank you for your understanding, you're so kind! I really Will write you more soon, but for now surviving antidépressants is a really tough thing. I hope you're doing ok! 😙 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 28, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 Hi Erell Sounds as though you have had a bad day. Has the anxiety eased yet? Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 28, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 Hi Sass! My day is really weird..anxiety has decreased, I have appetite, i've been able To take 2 walks outside..and I still Feel bad with despair . This is really silly : there are improvments, for sure. No terror, High anxiety this morning but lower then...and it's like if I was unable To appreciate the change! Weird no? I'm wondering if unconsciously I was not expecting a miracle on day 4...silly hein? I don't like myself when I'm complaining like this. But I want To complain. Think I'm going through depressed feelings. I hope you won't think I'm an idiot person... 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 28, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 Actually, I think I suffer from impatience. I know I have To be patient. I keep telling myself : " you're so Lucky To Feel better this evening than this morning, you're so Lucky for Being able To quit your flat twice Today, you're so Lucky..."...But I still Feel despair. Its been a month in hell, and I think I'm tired. BUT, I don't have suicidal ideas, and I do know I'm Lucky for it! 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 28, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 11 minutes ago, Erell said: But I want To complain. Complain away, I can always ignore you👿 7 minutes ago, Erell said: Actually, I think I suffer from impatience. I am fairly sure that is true, but you will learn patience once the anxiety and anger leave you, and they will leave when they are ready. 17 minutes ago, Erell said: I hope you won't think I'm an idiot person. You are certainly no idiot and everything you are experiencing is normal in W/D. You know that, but we all need to be reassured during the early stages of these changes. How well did you sleep last night? What symptoms do you have right now? Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 28, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 Oh you're so considerate! Yes you're right, I need To be reassured right now. Even if I know that it Will take time To stabilize. Last night I slept Well! I'm Lucky for this. Right now I Feel: sad, hopeless, lonely. I think this also is because I had some text Today from friends and family Today. I know I should Feel Lucky for not being alone, but everytime I receive a message saying "it's really weird that you're not going Well for son long" , it reminds me how I messed up my life. 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 28, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 3 minutes ago, Erell said: it reminds me how I messed up my life You really need to stop saying this, you did not mess up. The doctors messed up, the drug companies messed up, and life circumstances also contributed. You are fighting back, try and relax, legs up the wall, you are doing ok 3/4 days in. Some people wait weeks for a sign of improvement. Don't forget you said you would post to Guiletta. Tomorrow is another day, who knows what it will bring, one step closer to recovery. Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 28, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 Thank you Sass, I don't know how I would do without you and this forum. I don't forgot Guilietta, I just would like To tell her pretty things. Have a great night, take care of you! 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 28, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 Good night Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
carefulprayerful Posted September 29, 2019 Share Posted September 29, 2019 (edited) Erell, It is good to read some of your symptoms are going down already! I hope that you are getting some good sleep right now! CarefulP Edited December 20, 2020 by Erell My psychiatric drug history goes back, on and off, to 1999. This is my taper chronology: Jan. 2018: 900 mg Lithium 1 mg Risperidone 250 mg Lamotrigine Jan. 2018: 0 mg Lithium* 1 mg Risperidone 250 mg Lamotrigine Jan. 2019: 0 mg Lithium 0.625 mg Risperidone 175 mg Lamotrigine Jan. 2020: 0 mg Lithium 0.260 mg Risperidone 175 mg Lamotrigine Feb. 2021: 0 mg Lithium 0 mg Risperidone 175 mg Lamotrigine August 2021 0 mg Lithium 0 mg Risperidone 0 mg Lamotrigine *I had to cold turkey lithium because of life-threatening side effects. Measuring doses: The Withdrawal Project at the Inner Compass Initiative website, which explains how to do the microtaper to make it as smooth as possible Nutrition: The Clean Gut Diet by Alejandro Junger, MD, and Viva Naturals Omega 3 Fish Oil Supplements. Psychological: "Dr. Bruce H. Lipton Explains How To Reprogram The Subconscious Mind" (on YouTube) and PSYCH-K (an alternative healing modality). Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 29, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 (Wonderful) 0 《---》 10 (hell) Saturday 28 Sept : 7.30 am : woke up anxious (anxiety : 6 / despair : 5 ) 8 am : 10mg Paroxetine 10 am To 11 am : fell asleep, 1 hour nap 11 am : woke up anxious ( anxiety : 7 / despair : 7) 3 pm eat raviolis 12.30 To 6 pm : anxiety : 5 / despair : 5 6pm : after a quick walk outside, i feel really hungry, eat 2 tuna-egg sandwiches 7pm To 8 pm : huge wave of despair ( despair : 8) : can't stop crying, hopeless, intrusive thoughts, i'll never be able To go through this.... 9.30 pm : go To bed with a book. 1 am : fell asleep. From 8pm To 1 am : anxiety and despair decrease. I finish the day with anxiety and despair at 3. --》 I read on the forum that some others experience this kind of ' toxic nap'. So no more nap ;) --》 I sleep Well, and for that I Feel so grateful. --》 I had a lot of trouble To concentrate on books. I'm a huge Reader, and it often is my way To escape. I'm really grateful : yesterday night I was able To concentrate on my book! I think this is why I fell unusually asleep after midnight : too happy To read again ! --》 I also Feel grateful for Being able To cry yesterday, even if it was a huge moment of despair. I really needed it. --》 @Sassenach : when I wrote To you yesterday, I was in the huge wave of despair. I wanna apologize To you. 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 29, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 Hi How are you feeling this morning? Is the anxiety as bad as yesterday? Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 29, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 Hi Sass! I woke up anxious at 8am..with the alarm! Anxiety is at 5, I can tolerate it. It is better than yesterday! Plus, despair is very low, I would say at 3. It is a stormy weather here, and I love it! Watching from my bed 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 29, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 Good enjoy the day, will catch up this evening. Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 29, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 Thank you Sass, hope you Will have a sweet day. 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 29, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 (edited) @carefulprayerful :Thank you so much for coming here, support is so important!!! 😙 Edited December 20, 2020 by Erell 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 29, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 Hi Erell Gaebbi could do with a friend if you are feeling well enough. Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 29, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 (edited) Hi Erell Has the magnesium arrived yet? How are you feeling today? What symptoms have you had? Sass Edited December 20, 2020 by Erell Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 29, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 (edited) Hey Sass! 1. The magnesium citrate arrived 2 days ago : I'm scared of taking it. I Feel improvments, and I'm too afraid of messing it if I take something new..I read some people here who can't stand magnesium... 2. Today has been a good day : still in my flat, but lower anxiety. Some waves of despair, but lower than yesterday. And, more important To me : no more terror that makes me crazy! 3. Now : anxiety is at 5 / despair at 5 too. I also have some strange nostalgic feelings, but tolerable. There are my biggest symptoms. I sometimes have restlessness in legs and shakings teeth, but very lower than a week ago and tolerable. I still have a lot of fears : Will I be able To go back To work in 1 week? Will I be able one day To share pleasant time with friends? Will I Feel that I'm a part of this world? Will I be able To Feel joy again? But I know this is due To negative intrusive thoughts and that I have To be patient. I would like To force myself To go more outside of my flat, but I also have To be patient on this. Good news : I took a loooooong warm shower this afternoon! Not proud, but I did'nt clean my body or face in a week..sounds silly but I just couldn't. Oups Sass, here I am again with my long messages! Edited December 20, 2020 by Erell 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 29, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 54 minutes ago, Erell said: I'm too afraid of messing Was going to suggest you do not start taking it. Better to wait and see if you need it. 56 minutes ago, Erell said: have restlessness in legs and shakings teeth Normal symptoms in W/D. 57 minutes ago, Erell said: Will I be able To go back To work in 1 week? Cannot answer that, one day at a time, for now you are doing great. 58 minutes ago, Erell said: Will I be able one day To share pleasant time with friends? Will I Feel that I'm a part of this world? Will I be able To Feel joy again? Can answer this yes, yes and yes, think positive, you have made a great start. 59 minutes ago, Erell said: would like To force myself To go more outside of my flat, but I also have To be patient on this. Don' force yourself, you could create unnecessary anxiety. Listen to your body, the moment will come when you want to go outside, that is the right time. 1 hour ago, Erell said: Good news : I took a loooooong warm shower this afternoon! Not proud, but I did'nt clean my body or face in a week..sounds silly but I just couldn't. Don't know what to say to this, the only joke I know would not translate well 1 hour ago, Erell said: Oups Sass, here I am again with m'y long messages! Better than the short messages when you were were feeling awful. Sleep well, tomorrow is another day. Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 29, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 Hey Sass! 1. Ok, I won't take magnésium for now! 2. I know you can't answer, just expressing my worries. 3. Yes I have to think positive! You're so right, I'm starting a 'gratitude journal' : every night, find 3 positive things in my day. 4. I don't understand when you say "you have made a great start" : actually I take 10 mg of Paroxetine since August 22nd, so it's been on month. I messed up by adding a lot of suppléments, but I changed dose of Paroxetine To 15mg only 2 days. So, it really is all these suppléments who made me so bad? I'm not complaining just trying To understand what is the "start" you're talking about, To make sure I really understand the process. And trying To understand how these supplements could make me Feel so bad! 5. Haha, I prefer not To imagine what can your joke be ! 6. I see that you don't tell much about your feelings, and I respect that. Just know that I wish you're doing ok, and think of you! Thank you Sass! I tell you all the time, I don't know how To express how much your support is an important thing in my life right now! 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
carefulprayerful Posted September 29, 2019 Share Posted September 29, 2019 (edited) Is it possible to introduce food containing magnesium, like seeds? Edited December 20, 2020 by Erell My psychiatric drug history goes back, on and off, to 1999. This is my taper chronology: Jan. 2018: 900 mg Lithium 1 mg Risperidone 250 mg Lamotrigine Jan. 2018: 0 mg Lithium* 1 mg Risperidone 250 mg Lamotrigine Jan. 2019: 0 mg Lithium 0.625 mg Risperidone 175 mg Lamotrigine Jan. 2020: 0 mg Lithium 0.260 mg Risperidone 175 mg Lamotrigine Feb. 2021: 0 mg Lithium 0 mg Risperidone 175 mg Lamotrigine August 2021 0 mg Lithium 0 mg Risperidone 0 mg Lamotrigine *I had to cold turkey lithium because of life-threatening side effects. Measuring doses: The Withdrawal Project at the Inner Compass Initiative website, which explains how to do the microtaper to make it as smooth as possible Nutrition: The Clean Gut Diet by Alejandro Junger, MD, and Viva Naturals Omega 3 Fish Oil Supplements. Psychological: "Dr. Bruce H. Lipton Explains How To Reprogram The Subconscious Mind" (on YouTube) and PSYCH-K (an alternative healing modality). Link to comment
carefulprayerful Posted September 29, 2019 Share Posted September 29, 2019 Je pensais a toi et je me suis dit, peut-être qu'il y a plus d'un Cyprien...voilà celui dont j'ai parle avant: http://www.cyprien.fr/. Je ne savais pas ce que tu as dit de Gad Elmaleh! Je ne suis pas au courant apparemment. Continue a te focaliser sur le bien et fais les choses qui donnent du réconfort et dis moi si tu trouves, un jour, une vidéo qui explique comment faire glittery eye shadow parce que ça a l'air vraiment trop compliqué! My psychiatric drug history goes back, on and off, to 1999. This is my taper chronology: Jan. 2018: 900 mg Lithium 1 mg Risperidone 250 mg Lamotrigine Jan. 2018: 0 mg Lithium* 1 mg Risperidone 250 mg Lamotrigine Jan. 2019: 0 mg Lithium 0.625 mg Risperidone 175 mg Lamotrigine Jan. 2020: 0 mg Lithium 0.260 mg Risperidone 175 mg Lamotrigine Feb. 2021: 0 mg Lithium 0 mg Risperidone 175 mg Lamotrigine August 2021 0 mg Lithium 0 mg Risperidone 0 mg Lamotrigine *I had to cold turkey lithium because of life-threatening side effects. Measuring doses: The Withdrawal Project at the Inner Compass Initiative website, which explains how to do the microtaper to make it as smooth as possible Nutrition: The Clean Gut Diet by Alejandro Junger, MD, and Viva Naturals Omega 3 Fish Oil Supplements. Psychological: "Dr. Bruce H. Lipton Explains How To Reprogram The Subconscious Mind" (on YouTube) and PSYCH-K (an alternative healing modality). Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 30, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 30, 2019 Hello! Well what a misérable night... I fell asleep at 1am, and woke up at 2am with violent anxiety and despair, feeling like i was going crazy. Finally fell asleep again and then woke up every hour with this terrible anxiety, terror. Made awful dreams, horror movies. I woke up again at 7.30 am, anxious and despair. Could this be a waves and Windows pattern? I don't understand what is happening. So afraid. At least I used To sleep Well. 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 30, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 30, 2019 (edited) Hi Erell How many days is it since we dropped the dose to 10 mg? Are The Terror and anxiety symptoms the same as a couple of days ago? What were you dreaming about? Sass Edited September 30, 2019 by Sassenach Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 30, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 30, 2019 Hi Sass I dropped To 10mg on wednesday 25th Sept, so Today is day 6. Yes I think terror and anxiety were the same this night than last week. I'm not sure what I dream about : it looked like horror movies, people were killed... Oh Sass I'm so scared! I thought that because the past few days were easier i would be more able To manage anxiety...But I was wrong. Am i in trouble? Thank you so much for your time! 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted September 30, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 30, 2019 2 hours ago, Sassenach said: How many days is it since we dropped the dose to 10 mg? Are you asking me because my situation is weird ? Or because you want To remind me that it is too early To Feel better? Am I in a weird situation or is it usual To have this kind of wave ? Sorry for spamming, I'm trying To stop torturing myself but it is hard. I know I ask you a lot. 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
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