Felisbela Posted March 4, 2020 Author Share Posted March 4, 2020 1 minute ago, SolarPlexus said: That's a normal WD symptom. Intrusive thoughts, violent thoughts, suicidal thoughts, dark thoughts. All can happen in withdrawal. Your brain is playing tricks on you because your nervous system is not functioning properly now. It needs to heal. Your body is being flooded with stress hormones that trigger depression, anxiety, etc. Keep reminding yourself that this is temporary and keep praying. Meditation helps too. Be patient and don't believe those thoughts. You will heal eventually. Give yourself time. Thank you so much, I keep praying that I will get better, I smoke also I'm going to give that up, because I want to get better xxx 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
SolarPlexus Posted March 4, 2020 Share Posted March 4, 2020 Yes give it up and eat healthy. Drink lots of water. Keep the hope. You will heal. Summer 2016 - summer 2018: put on Lexapro, going from 5 mg up to 20 mg over the span of the 2 years (had visited shrink for help with obsessive thinking, was not diagnosed with anything in particular, just prescribed Lexapro 15 mins into first session) Summer 2018: tapered down by 2.5 mg every few weeks Protracted withdrawal ever since. 0-14 months began with a massive panic attack that landed me in ER, followed by prolonged anxiety, mental fog and a skin rash on my back. Was regularly consuming alcohol as did not know I was in WD. From then onwards, hit with worse myriad symptoms. Currently at 22 months and have electromagnetic sensitivity, brain zaps, brain fog, memory problems (especially name recall), twitch in right eyebrow, daily waking up at 3 or 4 a.m. with fast heartbeats and "sticky" negative memories, suicidal thoughts, rage episodes, temperature dysregulation, physical numbness & weakness, libido loss. Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 4, 2020 Author Share Posted March 4, 2020 1 minute ago, SolarPlexus said: Yes give it up and eat healthy. Drink lots of water. Keep the hope. You will heal. Thank you, I don't need to smoke if I want to get better, I'm going to eat healthy and drink lots of water, I think to me you are an angel so is manymoredays you two been very helpful 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
SolarPlexus Posted March 4, 2020 Share Posted March 4, 2020 You are so sweet. No need to thank me. I'm happy to help. This forum is a wonderful support and many lovely people have helped me on it too in my worst waves. I pray that we all heal swiftly and come out of the experience stronger. Summer 2016 - summer 2018: put on Lexapro, going from 5 mg up to 20 mg over the span of the 2 years (had visited shrink for help with obsessive thinking, was not diagnosed with anything in particular, just prescribed Lexapro 15 mins into first session) Summer 2018: tapered down by 2.5 mg every few weeks Protracted withdrawal ever since. 0-14 months began with a massive panic attack that landed me in ER, followed by prolonged anxiety, mental fog and a skin rash on my back. Was regularly consuming alcohol as did not know I was in WD. From then onwards, hit with worse myriad symptoms. Currently at 22 months and have electromagnetic sensitivity, brain zaps, brain fog, memory problems (especially name recall), twitch in right eyebrow, daily waking up at 3 or 4 a.m. with fast heartbeats and "sticky" negative memories, suicidal thoughts, rage episodes, temperature dysregulation, physical numbness & weakness, libido loss. Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 4, 2020 Author Share Posted March 4, 2020 4 minutes ago, SolarPlexus said: You are so sweet. No need to thank me. I'm happy to help. This forum is a wonderful support and many lovely people have helped me on it too in my worst waves. I pray that we all heal swiftly and come out of the experience stronger. I hope I can come out of this horrible experience and be stronger Just now, Felisbela said: I hope I can come out of this horrible experience and be stronger The worst things is the intrusive thoughts, they are horrible I hate them 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 4, 2020 Author Share Posted March 4, 2020 5 minutes ago, Felisbela said: I hope I can come out of this horrible experience and be stronger The worst things is the intrusive thoughts, they are horrible I hate them After this experience is over I hope we can still keep contact 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
jeremy1069 Posted March 4, 2020 Share Posted March 4, 2020 I completely understand the intrusive thoughts. They are part of why I was on the pills in the first place. much of it was related to OCD however. Makes it hard to function. Prozac (2007-2008), Zoloft (2009-2017) Paxil (2017-2018), Celexa (2018), Luvox (2018-Current) Average 50-200. Nothing as of January 2019 Lorazepam 2007-Current 2MG 3 times a day Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 4, 2020 Author Share Posted March 4, 2020 5 minutes ago, jeremy1069 said: I completely understand the intrusive thoughts. They are part of why I was on the pills in the first place. much of it was related to OCD however. Makes it hard to function. I wish they would just go way they are horrible and scary Just now, Felisbela said: I wish they would just go way they are horrible and scary This intrusive thoughts they feel so real 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 4, 2020 Author Share Posted March 4, 2020 1 hour ago, Ismo said: I believe you. I have seen what these medicines can do. Here in Finland many doctors also don't believe withdrawal symptoms. I have heard many cases. Good doctors that understand this are very rare. I know it can be very annoying when somebody don't believe you but don't care. Don't care what doctors or other people thinks. Thank you this offers me assurance 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 4, 2020 Author Share Posted March 4, 2020 19 minutes ago, Felisbela said: I wish they would just go way they are horrible and scary This intrusive thoughts they feel so real But I only been on citalopram for 17 days from 13th of August till the 30th of August 2019, it's now March 4th 2020, still having withdrawals symptoms it's horrible, as long I remember this experience I'll never touch another antidepressant 19 minutes ago, Felisbela said: I wish they would just go way they are horrible and scary This intrusive thoughts they feel so real But I only been on citalopram for 17 days from 13th of August till the 30th of August 2019, it's now March 4th 2020, still having withdrawals symptoms it's horrible, as long I remember this experience I'll never touch another antidepressant 19 minutes ago, Felisbela said: I wish they would just go way they are horrible and scary This intrusive thoughts they feel so real But I only been on citalopram for 17 days from 13th of August till the 30th of August 2019, it's now March 4th 2020, still having withdrawals symptoms it's horrible, as long I remember this experience I'll never touch another antidepressant 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 4, 2020 Author Share Posted March 4, 2020 2 hours ago, Felisbela said: But I only been on citalopram for 17 days from 13th of August till the 30th of August 2019, it's now March 4th 2020, still having withdrawals symptoms it's horrible, as long I remember this experience I'll never touch another antidepressant But I only been on citalopram for 17 days from 13th of August till the 30th of August 2019, it's now March 4th 2020, still having withdrawals symptoms it's horrible, as long I remember this experience I'll never touch another antidepressant But I only been on citalopram for 17 days from 13th of August till the 30th of August 2019, it's now March 4th 2020, still having withdrawals symptoms it's horrible, as long I remember this experience I'll never touch another antidepressant Solar plexus are you there 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
SolarPlexus Posted March 4, 2020 Share Posted March 4, 2020 29 minutes ago, Felisbela said: Solar plexus are you there Hi yes am here Summer 2016 - summer 2018: put on Lexapro, going from 5 mg up to 20 mg over the span of the 2 years (had visited shrink for help with obsessive thinking, was not diagnosed with anything in particular, just prescribed Lexapro 15 mins into first session) Summer 2018: tapered down by 2.5 mg every few weeks Protracted withdrawal ever since. 0-14 months began with a massive panic attack that landed me in ER, followed by prolonged anxiety, mental fog and a skin rash on my back. Was regularly consuming alcohol as did not know I was in WD. From then onwards, hit with worse myriad symptoms. Currently at 22 months and have electromagnetic sensitivity, brain zaps, brain fog, memory problems (especially name recall), twitch in right eyebrow, daily waking up at 3 or 4 a.m. with fast heartbeats and "sticky" negative memories, suicidal thoughts, rage episodes, temperature dysregulation, physical numbness & weakness, libido loss. Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 4, 2020 Author Share Posted March 4, 2020 56 minutes ago, SolarPlexus said: Hi yes am here Thats good I need support, because I hate the way I am now, I just want to be myself again Just now, Felisbela said: Thats good I need support, because I hate the way I am now, I just want to be myself again I hope you will get better darling 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
SolarPlexus Posted March 4, 2020 Share Posted March 4, 2020 You just have to be patient and take it day by day. Nothing will make the symptoms go away until your nervous system heals. So try to be as accepting as possible of the process. It's just a matter of time. I'll get you the link to a meditation that can help. Summer 2016 - summer 2018: put on Lexapro, going from 5 mg up to 20 mg over the span of the 2 years (had visited shrink for help with obsessive thinking, was not diagnosed with anything in particular, just prescribed Lexapro 15 mins into first session) Summer 2018: tapered down by 2.5 mg every few weeks Protracted withdrawal ever since. 0-14 months began with a massive panic attack that landed me in ER, followed by prolonged anxiety, mental fog and a skin rash on my back. Was regularly consuming alcohol as did not know I was in WD. From then onwards, hit with worse myriad symptoms. Currently at 22 months and have electromagnetic sensitivity, brain zaps, brain fog, memory problems (especially name recall), twitch in right eyebrow, daily waking up at 3 or 4 a.m. with fast heartbeats and "sticky" negative memories, suicidal thoughts, rage episodes, temperature dysregulation, physical numbness & weakness, libido loss. Link to comment
SolarPlexus Posted March 4, 2020 Share Posted March 4, 2020 Couldn't find the link but you can refer to this one when you're feeling edgy or frustrated with the healing process: https://baylissa.com/acceptance-and-normalizing/ Summer 2016 - summer 2018: put on Lexapro, going from 5 mg up to 20 mg over the span of the 2 years (had visited shrink for help with obsessive thinking, was not diagnosed with anything in particular, just prescribed Lexapro 15 mins into first session) Summer 2018: tapered down by 2.5 mg every few weeks Protracted withdrawal ever since. 0-14 months began with a massive panic attack that landed me in ER, followed by prolonged anxiety, mental fog and a skin rash on my back. Was regularly consuming alcohol as did not know I was in WD. From then onwards, hit with worse myriad symptoms. Currently at 22 months and have electromagnetic sensitivity, brain zaps, brain fog, memory problems (especially name recall), twitch in right eyebrow, daily waking up at 3 or 4 a.m. with fast heartbeats and "sticky" negative memories, suicidal thoughts, rage episodes, temperature dysregulation, physical numbness & weakness, libido loss. Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 4, 2020 Author Share Posted March 4, 2020 8 minutes ago, SolarPlexus said: Couldn't find the link but you can refer to this one when you're feeling edgy or frustrated with the healing process: https://baylissa.com/acceptance-and-normalizing/ Thank you darling 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 4, 2020 Author Share Posted March 4, 2020 1 minute ago, Felisbela said: Thank you darling You are so understanding xx 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 4, 2020 Author Share Posted March 4, 2020 1 hour ago, Felisbela said: You are so understanding xx 😇😇😇😇 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 7, 2020 Author Share Posted March 7, 2020 On 3/4/2020 at 10:40 PM, Felisbela said: 😇😇😇😇 I pray that we both heal🙏🙏🙏 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted March 12, 2020 Administrator Share Posted March 12, 2020 Felisbela, I moved your recent posts here. Please put your updates in your Introductions topic. They got lost in the Symptoms and Self-Care topic. When did you reinstate citalopram? At what dosage? What effect did it have on you? How do you feel now? To help us out, follow these instructions Please put your drug and withdrawal history in your signature You may need to use a computer to do this. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 12, 2020 Author Share Posted March 12, 2020 12 minutes ago, Altostrata said: Felisbela, I moved your recent posts here. Please put your updates in your Introductions topic. They got lost in the Symptoms and Self-Care topic. When did you reinstate citalopram? At what dosage? What effect did it have on you? How do you feel now? To help us out, follow these instructions Please put your drug and withdrawal history in your signature You may need to use a computer to do this. Thank you, Altostrata 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted March 12, 2020 Administrator Share Posted March 12, 2020 16 minutes ago, Altostrata said: When did you reinstate citalopram? At what dosage? What effect did it have on you? How do you feel now? Please read my questions carefully and answer them completely. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 12, 2020 Author Share Posted March 12, 2020 5 minutes ago, Altostrata said: Please read my questions carefully and answer them completely. Not to bad still have repetitive thoughts 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted March 12, 2020 Administrator Share Posted March 12, 2020 When did you reinstate citalopram, at what dosage? How much citalopram are you taking now? This belongs in your signature. What time of day do you take it? How do you feel before and after taking it? Have you seen improvement since you started to take it again? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 12, 2020 Author Share Posted March 12, 2020 1 minute ago, Felisbela said: Not too bad still have repetitive intrusive thoughts, I stopped the citalopram cold turkey, didn't take them for too long, I was only on them for seventeen days 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 12, 2020 Author Share Posted March 12, 2020 2 minutes ago, Felisbela said: I'm not taking any at all, at the moment 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 18, 2020 Author Share Posted March 18, 2020 On 3/12/2020 at 5:22 PM, Felisbela said: I taken them at 7am in the morning 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
Felisbela Posted March 18, 2020 Author Share Posted March 18, 2020 On 3/4/2020 at 4:38 PM, SolarPlexus said: That's a normal WD symptom. Intrusive thoughts, violent thoughts, suicidal thoughts, dark thoughts. All can happen in withdrawal. Your brain is playing tricks on you because your nervous system is not functioning properly now. It needs to heal. Your body is being flooded with stress hormones that trigger depression, anxiety, etc. Keep reminding yourself that this is temporary and keep praying. Meditation helps too. Be patient and don't believe those thoughts. You will heal eventually. Give yourself time. hello solarplexus, how are you, hope you are well 13th of August 2019 started to take 20 mg citalopram 😀24th of August 2019 down to 10mg stopped citalopram altogether on the 30th of August 2019 Quote Short term citalopram Link to comment
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