Ginger23: Need advice

[Ginger23]

@Altostrataok thank you.

[Ginger23]

@Altostrata please give me sources to gv to my husband he is being rediculous about not believing it’s psych meds. He won’t comfort me at all or help me in any way have compassion. We argue a lot and he wants me to figure out what is wrong with me not even listening to me anymore. I’m in hell. He wants me to listen to the drs about meds not forums. I’m so pissed I’m crying. I hv no idea if I’ll stabilize I have no idea what to do. My brain is shot and I’m trying to get him to understand. I sent these sites but he won’t look at them. I need a page talking about this wd stabilizing process and what he can do to mk it easier for me. He’s not being an advocate at all for me it’s scary. 

[Altostrata]

@Ginger23 see 

 

 

It sounds to me like you have relationship problems, not strictly evidence problems. Why are you asking your husband what you should do? If you don't find him supportive, why are you looking in the trash can for your supper?

 

You may want to discuss this in the Relationships forum. Please don't tag me about this, I have no answers for how to fix your relationship with your husband.

[Ginger23]

@Altostrata  yes seems so right. Well it’s been since Oct so yes this puts a strain on everything u should know. I’m sorry I asked 

[Ginger23]

3/19. 
3 hours of sleep 6:30am-9am. Can’t go back to sleep  
11am. Quercitin, black current seed oil, zinc, alpha lipoic acid. 
1pm Zoloft 50mg. 

3pm. L lysine. Lauricidin. Benadryl to try nap. Not help like took water. Mks my muscles spasms and feel tight and rib spasms  Helped my itchy rib tho. Crying deep depression 

4:39pm digestive enzyme w food. Right Rib stings. Muscles spasming more. 
6pm. Peppermint and hawthorn tea

7:31pm. I feel bad. Ribs hurts, weak, exhausted, chills, depressed not motivated still to do anything.

8pm Melatonin 1/4. Like it helps it didn’t last night at all tkn it early. Frustrating. 
10pm Valium 5mg 

11pm Zyrtec 10mg 

 

I really feel in a runt. Anxiety gone but this deep depression and anger is aweful. Crying easily. And of course sleep isn’t improving or my muscles. Weak exhausted no motivation Not one positive feeling 

I hope this goes away. Not hungry much but when I eat heavy food my rib hurts. I hv no gallbladder so not it 
 

 

@Altostrata@Frogie

[Altostrata]

4 minutes ago, Ginger23 said:

Anxiety gone but this deep depression and anger is aweful.

 

When did this improvement start?

[Ginger23]

@Altostrata so looking back on my notes feb 9 I stopped mentioning panic.  But really think it’s been maybe 2 weeks of no anxiety I hvnt left the house yet. That’s a big hurdle to test this leaving the house. I hv dr apt soon so we will see 

 

is sleep the last to improve in those w insomnia?  Sleep means a lot to me and barely getting any is mentally challenging still all these months 

[Altostrata]

How much exercise are you getting?

[Ginger23]

None. I feel so bad. I know you said to walk. I know I got to or die. I’m always the athletic type and now I’m losing my body and mind from oct 23. I was hiking before that

 

@Altostrata  

[Ginger23]

@Frogie  I know one thing tkn Valium Mks me wake up. I don’t get this. Here it’s 10pm.   
 

@Altostrata

[Altostrata]

You may be taking too much diazepam. @Frogie will help.

 

It's also possible you're taking too much Zoloft, and it's keeping you awake.

[Ginger23]

@Altostrata  I hv no idea. You all say to stay put. I’m still on the same mg Valium 5mg. Zoloft 50. What are you suggesting?  @Frogie

[Altostrata]

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reinstated 25mg Zoloft Oct 25 3 weeks then upped to 50mg

 

How did you feel while you were taking 25mg Zoloft for 3 weeks?

 

In March, why did you decide to take 50mg Zoloft rather than a smaller amount?

[Ginger23]

@Altostrata  I reinstated 25 in October for 3 weeks then went up to 50 because dr said. I don’t know how I felt because was on ambien too.  Dr misinformed me of the reinstatement process. No I’ve been on 50 since Nov. took 2 months ambien 1 month dayvigo and I got depressed I wanted to sleep on my own I stopped sleeping meds. Dr and psych was trying to get me on remeron too. I tried 3 days and it was aweful. Thy was knowing nothing as I see on this sites now. What am I going to do now. @Frogie

[Altostrata]

20 hours ago, Ginger23 said:

@Frogie  I know one thing tkn Valium Mks me wake up. I don’t get this. Here it’s 10pm.   
 

@Altostrata

 

What are the signs Valium wakes you up? Do you get drowsy in the evening, before you take Valium?

 

[Ginger23]

@Altostrata  I do feel tired before tkn it. I been noticing this. I will see tonight too. My sleep is aweful still. I lay forever til morning every night. Had 3 hours yesterday but last night or this morning had tad more but woke a lot 

[Altostrata]

When do you get drowsy in the evening, before taking Valium?

[Ginger23]

@Altostrata I’ll start writing it down because I just started noticing. I think 8-9. Before Valium 10

[Frogie]

@Ginger23

 

You could try tapering 10% of the Valium and see how you feel.

[Ginger23]

@Frogie  even tho not stabilize on Zoloft?  I thought of this but I don’t know anything at this point @Altostrata

[Frogie]

@Ginger23

 

You could try a small taper of the Valium even though you aren’t fully stable. It might help a little.

[Ginger23]

3/20

slept more felt. Early morning idk woke 6:23, 9, 11:30, 12:30. In wet sweat unbelievable 

12:39pm Zoloft 50mg. Don’t feel as tired my muscles get tighter I notice. I will pay more attention because I woke feeling relaxed then took Zoloft and wasn’t relaxed. 

3pm alpha lipoic acid, zinc, black current seed oil, lauricidin, l lysine with food. 
5pm feel dizzy and eyes hurt head. spacey all day, ears whining, weak 

8pm 1/4 melatonin 

9:30pm. Feel tired 

10pm 10% reduced Valium 0.158g. I hope don’t screw me (hv taper plan from David)

10:30pm not that tired interesting 

11:30pm Zyrtec 10 ml children 

 

 

No didn’t feel like exercise. Walked in house dizzy and weak, eyes hurt, head and body aches appetite still not good  @Altostrata. @Frogie

[Ginger23]

@Frogieuh oh went to 10% already at 10 pm

[Frogie]

@Ginger23

 

And how did you feel?

[Ginger23]

@Frogie I didn’t sleep at all. Idk what happened. Was that bad idea?  
 

something keeping me from getting tired especially last night I laid til morning. Nothing. Either it’s Zoloft or Valium. Idk!

[Frogie]

@Ginger23

 

What time do you take the Zoloft?

[Ginger23]

Zoloft 50mg 1pm @Frogie

 

[Ginger23]

3/21

no sleep at all wide awake 

really Mad at this. Why tkn months to get sleep back and still not right 

1pm Zoloft 50mg

4pm alpha lipoic acid, omega 3, zinc, Quercitin 

6pm cried I’m so frustrated at my depression and not sleeping or napping. I want to jump off these meds. Thy hv ruined me. 
7:30pm 1/4 melatonin cherry juice lysine lauricidin   
10 Valium 0.157g

11. Zyrtec 10ml

 

 

 

@Altostratawhy is this depression getting worse and my sleep not improving. I am feeling like im losing myself more. It’s it Zoloft or Valium?  I need to figure out something because since October it’s only gotten worse with depression and sleep of course is really bad.  If I’d suffered wds I would be sleeping by now ?  Im so lost and want to die I can’t function or want to do anything. My mind is at a blank. Only thing gone is adrenaline and anxiety. @Frogie

[Frogie]

3 hours ago, Ginger23 said:

Zoloft 50mg 1pm @Frogie

 

Does it make you sleepy at all?

[Altostrata]

Daily notes will be very helpful, @Ginger23 Since you started Zoloft again last October, how has your sleep pattern changed?

[Ginger23]

@Frogieno I don’t feel sleepy after taking. 

[Ginger23]

@Altostrata no it’s not. What happened was my dr got me on ambien 2 months and 1 month dayvigo right at reinstatement. I hv no earthly clue. I hate him for letting me believe id heal tkn these to recover on Zoloft. I’m at a loss. I got so tired of not sleeping on my own I dropped them and started listening to these sites. I’m so messed up. I hv early morning sleep and it’s is multiple waking. I feel Unwell. Not myself this whole time. My depression getting worse. I had zero sleep last night I don’t know why. 

[Ginger23]

@Altostrata  I do daily notes. 

[Altostrata]

We need more daily notes. When was the last time you were sleeping fairly regularly?

[Frogie]

@Ginger23

 

We need to see notes like this please

 

Keep Notes on Paper

[Ginger23]

@Altostrata  last time I slept regularly was right before Oct 23 2021 My sleep vanished I was hit hard by I thought wds. In my profile I hv my story. I stopped started Zoloft 2 months Jan-Feb 2021. Started again full dose. Felt unwell. My sleep was off some. Took bunch otc stuff cbd oil gv me seratonin syndrome Aug 8 2021. I dropped Zoloft again 2.5 months it hit me Oct 23. Went to many drs. 2 psychs. Wanted me on remeron. I said no. Then reinstated Zoloft slapped with tons meds to help sleep (in my signature). I found this site and trying to stick to this schedule nothing is getting better except anxiety. I am in deep depression and anger now. My sleep isn’t normal at all. I get 3 hour one morning then 5-6 waking alot next then 0 next. I can’t tk this. No night sleep ever!!